Hello, listeners! Goodbye, Redeeming Disorder . I’m ready to fully focus my creative energy in one direction, which means it’s time for my first major creative project to end. Worlds of thanks to Tamar — legend in my life, lead producer of Light & Shadows , and the woman for the job of turning the page. We talk herbalism, Kambo medicine, medicine at large, creative flow and beginner’s mind. We also talk about our personal growth through this past year of knowing each other. This past year… t...
Nov 23, 2024•1 hr 15 min
Venus and Her Lover : buy the book here, visit the site here. Rebecca Tzigany returns to Light & Shadows as she says goodbye to Vilcabamba and as we begin releasing our content regularly, every Friday. We hope you continue to get to know us every Friday, leading up to the release of our Pilot Epic (episode) on 20 December, 2024. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit reiman.substack.com...
Oct 04, 2024•1 hr 57 min
Nykia Herron Ash is a U.S. expat living in England who decidedly answers the call to help people, whether through reiki work or in the nail salon. We discuss the unlearning necessary for relearning authentic ways, Nykia’s empowering perspective on anxiety and our perspectives on fear and faith. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit reiman.substack.com...
Jan 13, 2024•1 hr 47 min
Links: * Wayra Vibra Instagram * Catherine’s Instagram * Please Pass the Bliss * People of the Sun This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit reiman.substack.com...
May 28, 2023•1 hr 21 min
Links: * Zeus the Husky channel and video: * Hofstede Cultural Analysis: the three countries discussed , the general tool . * The Authentic Observer youtube channel . * Cultural Map of the United States . * The book that the map is based on . * Documentary called Quantum Communication / Mind Science Kept Hidden : * Autobiographical stuff.co.nz article series by New Zealand author Catherine Dolan about the toxicity and brutality of NZ society. * Global Innovation Index 2022 global map visualizati...
May 23, 2023•2 hr 39 min
Please enjoy this (possibly final) episode of Redeeming Disorder , featuring my first friend in my new home (Vilcabamba, Ecuador), Maya Choi. Maya has lived quite an adventurous life, growing up in Korea, spending over a decade in New York City and living now in Ecuador, where she’s also been for over a decade. Her experiences shifting between cultures have taught her how to relate to the identity of the self, as has extensive meditation, through which she’s always maintained a “beginner’s mind....
Dec 07, 2021•1 hr 20 min
On this World Mental Health Day, I'm joined by my partner Kailey to reflect on anxieties, bad habits and True Love. ~ Links from the Episode: Video of Our Conversation on YouTube Video of Our Conversation on BitChute Rapper Played in Background for a Minute ~ If you have a story or perspective you’d like to share on the podcast, feel free to tell me a bit about it using this form! Support Redeeming Disorder by contributing to their Tip Jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/redeeming-disorder This i...
Oct 10, 2021•32 min
Phil Larstone has always felt a deep calling to steward the earth, and it's here in southern Ecuador that he ultimately actualized that calling, renewing a hectare of land into fertile, biodiverse and beautiful permaculture. In this interview he takes us through his journey of mental health and connection to nature — from suicidal college student, to Hawaiian permaculture student to creator of "eternaculture" (and AirBnB host extraordinaire!). Not only that, but in the video content linked below...
Aug 09, 2021•2 hr 8 min
In this special Summer Solstice + Father’s Day solo-cast, I ramble (on and on) about permaculture, my Ecuadorian digs, my life purpose and my spiritual path. Feel free to tune out of this chronicle of unwieldy personal musings, or to stop listening at any time! For those who are interested, I delve into some of the particular challenges, vulnerabilities and neuroses of my individual psyche — especially the content that arose in my January 2021 work with Ayahuasca in Ecuador. ~ Links from the Epi...
Jun 21, 2021•1 hr 11 min
Ṣadé Kammen has struggled with neurodivergence all her life, but what she now identifies as depression, anxiety and autism spectrum disorder weren't taken seriously by her family. Though she struggled to feel understood growing up, she went on to become a strong mental health advocate at Yale, and today fights for those dealing with mental disorder as well as those dealing with social injustice. The latter has unfortunately been predominant in Ṣadé’s experience as a black queer woman facing raci...
Jun 12, 2021
Frank Ferrare’s mental health struggles began in adolescence, but a combination of stigma and confusion extended them well into adulthood. The death of a close grandparent led to depression, which began a chain reaction of one ramification leading to another — depression medication, shame around medication, misuse of medication, shame around mental disorder, shame around self, and ultimately the construction of dense emotional walls. Frank wound up socially isolated and misunderstood, but in the...
May 17, 2021•2 hr 10 min
Nikki Moon has survived a full gamut of severe challenges, including issues with sleep, physical health, mental health and trauma. Specifically, she suffered one of the most devastating traumas a person can face — an incident of sexual assault and rape. Whatever the obstacle, however, Nikki turns pain into power: From her narcolepsy and cataplexy she’s learned to use medication pragmatically, and from her assault she’s learned to accept the compassion surrounding her. In this interview, she take...
May 06, 2021•1 hr 24 min
Welcome back to Redeeming Disorder. Happy full "supermoon." May we make it to May. 😊 Jonas Otsuji competed on Survivor: One World a decade ago. The deep depression he recalls, however, became a challenge for him long before reality TV, and continued to challenge him after the show. Jonas speaks to the factors that made the challenge even harder – junk food, consumerism, social media’s distortion of reality – as well as the factors that were healing, like practicing gratitude. Through practicing...
Apr 26, 2021•1 hr 55 min
Nicole Moore survived a devastating 2013 tornado in Moore, Oklahoma (yes, she is Nicole Moore from Moore). Sadly, her childhood home didn't, and a whirlwind of family struggles prolonged the intense stress she was under. The tornado and its aftermath ultimately amounted to a battle with PTSD, the awareness of which Nicole advocates during our interview. Nicole also discusses her relationship to the labeling aspect of 'PTSD' and her views of mental health and mental disorder more broadly. Please ...
Apr 16, 2021•2 hr 11 min
Despite the past month's MIA-ness, rest assured that more Redeeming Disorder is to come. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit reiman.substack.com
Apr 08, 2021•25 min
Michael McRay came to know shame in early childhood, and it nearly killed him. In this episode of Redeeming Disorder, he bravely shares the story of his close encounter with death, and of the immense outpouring of love he found after attempting suicide. Michael's vulnerability gives me the courage to finally share that I was suicidal for a period of time in the summer of 2011, and if you find yourself in a dark place, I hope it gives you courage as well. May the story instill faith, in all those...
Mar 05, 2021•1 hr 36 min
Devon VillaCampa returns to the podcast to update us on his artistic and mental health journeys. Not only does he reflect on what he's been through, but he reflects on how reflections themselves change with age — how his perspective evolved in the 1.5 years between appearances on the podcast. Devon finds newfound freedom as he gets older, and newfound peace as he grows into himself. Support Redeeming Disorder by contributing to their Tip Jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/redeeming-disorder This...
Feb 25, 2021•40 min
Today we catch up with another previous Redeeming Disorder guest, AJ Mass, who unfortunately lost both his mother and his mother-in-law in the year before this interview. The discussion of that challenge quickly turns into an abstract and philosophical discussion of life, aging, belief and truth. Connect with Reiman: Redeeming Disorder listeners who want to get in touch can now do so without so much as a tweet! To share feedback and ask questions, just fill out this short form . Support Redeemin...
Feb 20, 2021•1 hr 51 min
Researcher and clinical psychology PhD Amanda Rabinowitz returns to Redeeming Disorder to talk psychiatry, dive deeper into therapeutic techniques (especially CBT and its behavioral activation offshoots) and contemplate a number of murky dichotomies within her field: Nature vs. Nurture Categorical vs. Dimensional Thinking Suppression of vs. Identification with Mental "Illnesses" Collectivist vs. Individualist Perspectives Cultural Context vs. Universality As a whole, Amanda's interview underscor...
Feb 08, 2021•2 hr 24 min
Eric Maisel is a psychotherapist, a PhD in counseling psychology, a creativity coach, and the author of over fifty published books. While I first discovered him through his “Rethinking Mental Health” blog for Psychology Today , his education and work in the field span back far before that — far before I was diagnosed with depression at ten years old, and far before I was born. Eric questions what he terms the “mental disorder paradigm,” and broaches controversial questions most would rather avoi...
Jan 07, 2021•1 hr 28 min
We're back to interviews on Redeeming Disorder! Guided meditations 1-12 will remain up on the podcast for your use whenever you like, and in the meantime, it feels good to get back to real stories of mental disorder. Today's story is a special one whose subject matter hits home for me: Todd Herzog's struggle as an alcoholic. Todd shares the unsung side of his story in this interview; while downward spirals get a lot of attention, upward spirals are stories worth telling. I'm grateful to Todd for...
Jan 01, 2021•1 hr 49 min
You did it! Congrats on graduating from this 12-day meditation challenge. Review what you learned anytime through this final meditation tying it all together. I’m wishing you love and well-being in both practice and life. Support Redeeming Disorder by contributing to their Tip Jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/redeeming-disorder This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit reiman.substack.com...
Dec 28, 2020•41 min
This meditation’s opening quote is from the Pirkei Avot of the Rabbinic Jewish tradition. It is also the last opening quote of the meditation series, as tomorrow's final episode will be 'practice-only.' Turning the page to 2021, I'm wishing you the best in practice, and the best in life! Support Redeeming Disorder by contributing to their Tip Jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/redeeming-disorder This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to b...
Dec 27, 2020•25 min
Today we deepen our practice into one of open, "choiceless" awareness. As you’ve learned in 10 days, attention is a wildly unstable force, and we don’t always get to choose where it goes. In life and in practice, the light of our attention will shine unpredictably on object after object. Can we "choicelessly" accept whatever emerges from the dark? This meditation’s opening quote is from the Buddha. Support Redeeming Disorder by contributing to their Tip Jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/redeemi...
Dec 26, 2020•40 min
Begin coming into your own practice and making your own choices! You will choose 1) your primary object of attention; 2) your use of mental noting techniques; and 3) the degree of openness in your practice. Today I guide you into guiding yourself; tomorrow we take your self-directed practice to a new frontier: Open Awareness. This meditation’s opening quote is often attributed, without much evidence, to the existentialist writer Albert Camus. While I wish I were quoting Camus, who wrote one of m...
Dec 25, 2020•41 min
Where, in your body, do you feel like the ‘you’ is? Your head? Heart? Gut? We continue deeper into embodied practice today, working with exercises of touch points, precise attention and body scans. This meditation’s opening quote is from Luke 17:21 of the Holy Bible. Support Redeeming Disorder by contributing to their Tip Jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/redeeming-disorder This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit ...
Dec 24, 2020•34 min
When you're with a physical sensation, you're with the present moment. Today we start working with a new and simple (but powerful) technique: Body Scanning. This meditation’s opening quote is from the Bhagavad Gita. Support Redeeming Disorder by contributing to their Tip Jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/redeeming-disorder This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit reiman.substack.com...
Dec 23, 2020•34 min
This challenging meditation marks the halfway point in our 12-day meditation challenge. For the first time, we use primary objects of attention (a.k.a. "anchors" of attention) other than the breath! The opening quote is from the 17th century French mathematician, philosopher and Catholic theologian, Blaise Pascal. Support Redeeming Disorder by contributing to their Tip Jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/redeeming-disorder This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other sub...
Dec 22, 2020•29 min
Mental Notes: ~ Feeling, Hearing, Seeing, Smelling, Tasting. ~ Thinking (including "analyzing," "remembering," "imagining," etc.). ~ In (or "rising," or alternative). ~ Out (or "falling," or alternative). ~ This meditation’s opening (and closing) haiku is from the 17th century Zen monk and poet, Matsuo Basho . Support Redeeming Disorder by contributing to their Tip Jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/redeeming-disorder This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscri...
Dec 21, 2020•27 min
In the practice of Metta, or Loving-Kindness, we wish goodwill toward ourselves, toward others, and ultimately toward all beings. This meditation’s opening quote is from Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, a Hindu guru of nondualism. May all beings be happy. ❤️ Support Redeeming Disorder by contributing to their Tip Jar: https://tips.pinecast.com/jar/redeeming-disorder This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit reiman.substack....
Dec 20, 2020•28 min
