Didn’t want to show up.
Mar 22, 2024•15 min•Transcript available on Metacast Episode description
I’m human and I get tired, frustrated, exhausted, hopeless, etc. Just like everyone else but I’m held at a higher standard, clearly. SoOo, I tend to show up and don’t even want to. Sometimes, I want to be selfish just like EVERYONE else. But something inside won’t allow me to act as everyone else. How is your personal development going? Good I hope. This world desperately needs it. Sh*t, I could use the help. Fighting the battle for good is hard, it takes A LOT of self development and growth. It’s funny and cute that everyone thinks that when they die. BooM, you get sent to heaven, LoL. Don’t I wish. If that was the case, I wouldn’t be here working so hard on myself and Humanity. If JUST believing got you into so called “heaven”. Then ALL this work I’m doing wouldn’t need to be done because I believe. But believing is NOT enough, Creators want to see what YOU REALLY made of. Not what YOU THINK you are. They want to see you when YOU are at your lowest, how do you let that affect you and everyone around you? How do you treat people when you are at your lowest? Have you ever had to be where the person YOU look down on is? Can YOU still be you when everything you are and ever know is ripped away from you? I’m just asking because these are the things that I’ve endured and I had to make sure to let MY Humanity shine. Even when Humanity wasn’t being kind to me. Creators put me in situations, then watched. Watched how I let these situations break me down or build me up. They watched my compassion grow when others were giving me NO compassion. They watched me be kind when being kind was the last thing I wanted to do. They watched me control myself when I was uncontrollable. They watched me grow from a bum bitch to an insightful woman. Then they blessed us. Not in the ways that others see as “blessings” BUT in the way they see BLESSINGS. Make sure the life you live is the one you want to live. Make sure as we go through life you aren’t shitting on Creators or their belief systems. Just because YOU don’t get the assignment. It will bite you in the butt when you least expect it. I love you but you need to work on self development….
