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Great contribution to society. Thank you. I think I should make active teaching. I don't think we're done teaching. Padsquad, do you know her? Because I talk about her non-stop on this pod. And her name is Alexandra Hedison. I'm about to do her professional bio. And then we're going to get that over with and dig into our friendship and who you are as a person. Truly you are one of the most important people in my life, Alexandra Hedison.
And I'm so grateful that you're here today. Same, Zuz. I am so grateful. First of all, you've never called me Alexandra. So it's shocking to hear my full name. It's as if my mother is in the room. She is. I hope. She is. She is for sure. I'm just, I'm so excited to be here. I can't believe I'm here because I feel like I'm watching the podcast. And yet I'm talking to you as I'm watching the podcast. So it's very confusing. It's disorienting.
But I'm enjoying it because I feel like I'm talking to you the whole time. And you're not listening. Right. You don't respond to me when I comment. Amanda says nothing. I'm like Amanda, you're right on point. You say nothing. You don't acknowledge me as I'm walking my dog and talking to you. So today it's all happening the way I imagined it. Oh, I feel like we just took a break from each other to sleep. We were together last night
at dinner at your house with the Ziggy and Jody and Abby and me. And we talked about this day. We'll hold on a second. Just in case you don't know who Alexandra had a sin is. And oh, my God, please call me Alex. Please. Okay. But can I just call you Alexandra and like the professional manor and then I'll switch to Alex after this bio? Alexandra had a sin is an internationally acclaimed photographer, artist, director and actor.
Had a sin has exhibited in galleries in the US and abroad. Her most recent solo exhibitions include the opening of Freeze Soul 2023, Von Lentel Gallery, Los Angeles, H. Gallery Paris, Photo London and Paris Photo. Her acting career spans numerous television roles, including a pivotal character in the cultural phenomenon, the L word, which all the OG lesbians know and the newbies. Sometimes embarrassingly admit that we didn't know, but it's a big deal.
Or a big deal in the L word world. Okay. A critical voice in both the artistic and LGBTQ plus community. Had a sin directed the short documentary film, A Loke. A thought provoking short film that explores compassion as a catalyst for social transformation and inspires viewers to embrace personal freedom beyond the binaries that divide us, produced by Natalie Sherinian, Elizabeth Bodewyn, Megan Lennon and the executive produced by Jody Foster. A Loke was selected
to premiere at the 2024 Sundance Film Festival. And as we now know, just took the festival by storm. Alexandra, how does your so fancy? She's now Alex. We can go on to the Alex part of her. Go to the Alex. Okay. I've even changed to Alex professionally. I've stepped away from the full Alexandra. I like the non-binary aspect of Alex. It feels all encompassing
to me where Alexandra reminds me of a way I was supposed to be. My whole life, the way that I was informed that I should behave, I should feel, I should act, I should present and Alex. There's a freedom in Alex. And so I have used that in my last two shows and in the film. It says directed by Alex Edison. So you didn't know this, did you? I didn't know that. I think it's so wonderful. What you just said was also one of the best ways
to describe you all encompassing. I love that. I love it when people just claim a name because you know, like in most spiritual traditions, when people find their truth, they get named something new. They have like a new name. And that's really cool that yours was just right there hidden in your long hood name. Yeah. And it's not something you're supposed to do. You know, I've been showing my work for, I don't know, 25 years. When you're established
as an artist, you don't just change your name. My name hasn't changed fully, but it's not the same one that I've presented in the past. And it's funny because my French galorist, I'm not so sure that she's down with it. They're very traditional there. It's like, you're Alexandra. I don't know. Yeah. So it's going to be a negotiation with her over time, I think. Do you think that if you had grown up 30 years later, that you would
claim non-binary fully when you were younger? Oh, 100%. Yeah. I'd claim a lot of things. Like what? I think as I have, I would say in the last few years, I've woken up. I've woken up. And I'm aware more than ever of the boxes I've placed myself into. The ones that were introduced to me, and then I consciously stepped into and closed the lid in order to stay safe and order to be liked in order to fit in in order to whatever. And that is true
even within the gay community, even the queer community in relationships. This is how I'm supposed to do relationships. This is how it's supposed to look. This is how gay relationship is supposed to look. And ultimately, it was all modeled on a heteronormative idea, which is modeled on a patriarchal idea. And it doesn't really suit me. The reason I don't go back and sort of claim names, claim new things, put myself in new boxes is because I'm really
curious about it all right now. And I also recognize that in many ways I have over time become used to doing things a certain way. And I don't know that I would be able to hold the complexity or the trouble that comes with redefining myself. You know, I think that there are so many people now who are in relationships where they're open to so many things from polyamory to they have a new language to talk about intimacy. And it's so interesting.
There's so much more possibility in it. And when you've lived a certain way for a long time to engage differently than, for example, being monogamous, I don't know that I'd be able to hold the complexity and the difficulty that comes with everything else because I haven't practiced it. You know, I really love what my life is. But I am definitely troubling a lot of things. And I have been for quite a few years now, really pushing the boundaries
that I've set in place for myself. I just love the phrase you've been troubling a lot of things. Is that when this kind of stirring you have in you pours over and affects the other people in your life? Because there's an internal thing where you can decide, oh, I'm being something new, I'm feeling something new. And then for me, it usually stops right at the edges of myself because the thing I'm not supposed to do is impact others or disturb the
waters outside of me. I can be all wavy and tsunami inside of me. But when it goes out, that's a bridge too far. So when you say you're troubling, are you allowing yourself to impact your ecosystems? Yes. Cool. And I think for me, it might be the opposite. I think that the most painful thing is going through the crisis that comes with awakening, the falling apart or demolition or slow crumbling of a system that you have held in place and tended
to for years. And that can look like depression. That can look like anxiety. That can look like self hate. It can look like a lot of things. Negative voices, kind of a negative way that I have spoken to myself. Like, why are you thinking that? Why are you saying that judgment, self-judgment? And allowing for it and creating space where I'm willing to listen to the parts of myself that feel tremendously inconvenient and threatening and be able
to hold space for those parts. And once I do that, once I'm willing to cross those thresholds, then I can settle into a new acceptance of who I am or what it is that I need. And then going to my partner or saying out loud to friends, you know what? I'm Alex now. It's Alex. And you know, or whatever it is, even something that's more difficult, it feels like at that
point, I'm coming from love and I'm not coming from judgment. At that point, I'm coming from a kind of harmony versus an inner turmoil, which I'm then projecting to the person in front of me saying, I need this. I need freedom. Because I've kind of found the place of freedom in me. And now I'm just sharing it and inviting the person across from me to be free also. Oh, I mean, shout out to all people our age. I try to talk about this to my younger
kids because they are being raised. This is always how generations work, right? They're growing up in a world where the language around gender is expansive, the language around relationships is expansive race, whiteness, all of it. It's like their roots are growing in a field. And we, as open-minded people and curious people, are listening to all of that language. And our roots are starting to grow too, but we're in fucking pots already.
There you go with the pots. But I'm just saying, Alex, you know, Alex uses metaphors. So we will talk about something for a year before she tells me what she's actually talking about. But we will talk for hours today and she'll say, I'm a plant in a pot. And a year later, I'll be like, okay, I just need to know what the fucking plant is. Yeah, yeah, I did, I think, for months and months and months, say, I feel like my pot is breaking. I mean, this pot and it's breaking.
And finally, you just look at me, you're like, you just got to tell me, what's the pot? Yeah, I can't anymore. What's the, I can't. What is the pot? And the reason I do speak in metaphors, but in something like that, that's exactly what I'm talking about, Amanda, that the hardest thing was for me to challenge my own system. Yeah. For me to really listen and go, I have outgrown this. This does not work for me. And to name it. And then find a way through.
Does this mean I have to toss away my whole life? Or does it mean that I am willing to, that I must find the ways to be more in harmony, find the ways that are easier, that feel more true to me. So yes, sorry. No, I just think you're like the best example of that. There's a lot of us in that slice. Like, yes, oh my god, the letters that I get from women who are married to men. And then when they're 40, realize that they're bisexual or they're like, what does one do with that?
It's different when you learn it young and the language around it in the community. And then you can build your life based on what you know about yourself. But then when the world awakens something in you that was always there, but not accessible because the language wasn't free enough. And you have already built a life based on pots. Just I don't have any answers, but to all of you who are in the even whiteness, like waking up for sure waking up. Oh my god. And then realizing, wait, how do I
unplant myself? Anyway, right? You have to unpack. See, this is where we get with the pots and plants. And then we're talking about roots and shit. And we don't remember what we're actually talking about. Well, that's also another reason. Like, why do we need to listen to the most marginalized voices? Because they are the ones who are calling out to all of us saying wake up. Yeah. This doesn't work. It's not just they over there. It's not working. The system doesn't work.
How are we all affected by it? And how are we all contributing to it? Yeah. That's what Alok does. Dr. Yavaly, all these people, they're saying, I'm not saying learn about race, learn about gender, because I'm stuck. I'm saying learn about it because you're planting yourself in small pots and you're going to wake up one day and you're going to feel suffocated. Right. And while you're doing it, you're suffocating me. Right. I'm thriving in spite of you. Yeah. Yeah.
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I think it was even before the podcast when you were doing little online things and you were talking and you kind of introduced it was like you and Abby, we were in your house in Florida and
like that. You were connecting with people out loud. It was Christmas and you'd say come into our house for Christmas and I was stunned by how open you were and vulnerable and the way you were talking about things and it felt incredibly aligned to me and most of the time I feel like there might be something someone saying that I'm connecting to but it doesn't feel to me like what they're saying and the way they're living or what they're doing that they're aligned. It felt like everything
was meeting with you and with Abby, the balance of your relationship and the humor. I just related to it so much and then you had a podcast where you said something like we've moved to LA and gosh we don't know we need to find a dentist for our kids and I thought well that's it. That's enough now because I kept at that point I was like we need to be friends. My phone has a dentist. Yes exactly. Me and by the way everyone else who was listening to your podcast going like we need
to be friends but I said this to a friend of mine who is a doer. Yes my friend Jamie Lee Curtis. We were on a long walk in Idaho and I was talking to her about many things I said I really feel like I want to meet Abby and Glannon and then later I said to her I know Jamie and I called her and I said by the way you do not need to call anymore or do something or call an agent or because I know Jamie Jamie will Jamie head already. Yeah. I've already texted someone or you and like she sends me
back a text where she's texted you. I don't know how she got your number. She did it all within like two hours and she introduced us and then I remember we finally connected we decided a time to get together and from the beginning I felt like you were inviting me to be as authentic as I crave as I want to be all the time just from the way the two of you presented yourselves. So I'm not really a night person and you guys really aren't night people so we decided to meet
at seven in the morning. Oh, this is my turn. At seven in the morning. And I had to tell Jody. Oh God. That because I talked about you guys already going like I feel like we need to be friends and I said okay here's a thing I talked to Jamie about Abby and Glannon and she's like wait you did what? And wait hang on let me finish and she's already connected as she did. She was so baffled by the whole thing because we're not really friends with people who are in the public
eye so much. Right. Right. Especially Jody. Jody was just like no. She's like I don't understand. Like who are you? You've reached out to someone who you know from a podcast like what is happening? I said I'm telling you I have an instinct here and I said so we're going to meet them. I think I said tomorrow. She's like what? And I said let me finish. They live and I told her where you lived which was a good distance from our house. I said let me finish at seven a.m. So it was she could not
even understand what was happening. And I said I'm telling you right now that this is what we're doing. It is happening and you have to trust me. Yep. And we went to your house and then I'll let you take it from here. Well, I want to fill two things in from my perspective. I received what I felt like was what people do when they really want to adopt a dog. Like they send a long letter about themselves with pictures and how much how loving they are. I received
a dog application from Jamie Lee Curtis about you. Okay. And inside this letter there were the most beautiful descriptions of who you are as a person. Paragraphs and paragraphs about who you are, how you treat your friends, you and Jody's marriage. She wanted to show me images to back up this. So she sent me pictures of you graduating from college because you graduated from Antioch like a couple years ago. You went back to college. Yes. I went back to college during the pandemic. And
I was a full-time student and graduated in 2021. The same year as one of our sons by the way. Which is the most beautiful thing. You wanted to reclaim that part of your life and of yourself. And you wanted to learn about social justice in a deeper way. I went to a school that is rooted. Every single course is rooted in social justice. I needed to relearn and I needed to go from the
ground up. And so when you were graduating, it was COVID. And so Jody created a surprise graduation ceremony for you in the backyard with a marching band, a socially distanced marching band, and robes and staffs. I mean, the picture was of Jody with a, she looked like a wizard. I don't even know. She was wearing her, what did they call the things that you wear in your graduation? Stole? A stole? Your, whatever the Harry Potter looking.
The robes are, this is I'm going to wake up tomorrow morning. Go, I can't believe I couldn't remember what it was called. Yeah. So and we're all marching around the neighborhood, all of us. Because she said to everyone, anything that you graduated from in college, where? Yes. And so that was it. Like I was like, this is a good application. It was a very good application.
Jamie is good at an application. And so then the next thing I want to say is in my whole life, I will never forget what Jody looked like standing on our front porch, carrying that orchid at 7 a.m. looking at me like, lady, I don't want to be here either. All right. And then we sat down. We were laughing about this last night dinner because I think one of the first things she said to me was, I don't do famous friends. I don't like famous people or something like that in general. I was like,
well, you're Jody Foster. I don't feel like we're famous. We're not famous. So. And then she goes, I mean, if Alex would have invited me to like the house of a kindergarten teacher in a death doula, I would have been there, but you should, you know. And I was like, that's very specific kindergarten teacher in a death doula. So we sat down. And what I remember about that first meeting together is that we sat
there for five hours, the four of us, five hours. And none of us wanted to pee. We kept holding it. And then we kept going, just don't say anything. Well, I just had to pee. Don't say anything while I'm gone. I actually think about this every time I go in that bathroom because at the time we had just moved into the house and we didn't have any blinds on the windows. And it was like, you're going to pee.
And I felt so bad. And Jody came out. She's like, you know, you don't have any blinds on the windows. And I was like, yeah, yeah. And I'm like, I'm really sorry. I probably should put a temporary one in there. But every single time I go in there, I think, oh, glad there's a blind in there now. So we took care of it.
Yeah. Yeah. So then we just were like, okay, we're doing this. And I was scared because I pod squad, you might remember this time as I just didn't really understand how to do friendship. Mm-hmm. We were connecting. And I felt like, oh, I think I'm supposed to text her back. I think I'm supposed to call her back. Like it became a very intentional. Yeah, there was an intentionality about it. I think that what you're trying to say though is we had just moved from
Florida. And we have some lovely friends from Florida. And we love you all so very much. It was just harder to create and maintain friendships there because there were so much political undertones inside of so many of those relationships. Yeah. And because we felt like we were seeing so clearly eye to eye, it was like one of the first times that we felt like we were very aligned with friends that it felt like you had this wanting to reach out. Well, where are the red flags that
let me get the fuck out of here? Yeah, it wasn't like in your head. There was no red flags. You were like, what is this feeling that I want to know what's happening with them right now? And I'm curious about them. And I want to stay in touch with them. I think that that was a confusing time for you because it's always been kind of what should I be doing to maintain a friendship rather than a want? Performing a behavior. Yeah. Yeah. One of the reasons that I think probably Alex was so attractive
to you, Glennon is because you never needed friends just to have friends. You want friends who are additive to your life. And I've heard people describe you, Alex, as you are not like a witness friend. You are a challenger friend. You're not just passively, I'm here and I'm sitting by you, but I am like seeing you and I am noting where you are not actually doing the thing that represents who you are. And I'm so I bet you just could tell that from the beginning.
This person is going to edify me and see me and not put up with any bullshit. Yeah. And has so much wisdom. Right. Every time we leave, I sometimes just feel like when I leave social situations, I feel drained. I feel like I don't know. Every time I left Alex's presence, I felt like I learned something new. I knew something new. I had moments of like, oh, lighting up, I felt like, oh, I understand why people want to be with other people.
Because they feel fuller and better and challenged and I don't know. Seen. Yeah. Seen. And then you invited us to go away for a weekend. That was pretty fast. That was really fast. That was really fast. I do want to say that when we got in the car after that five hour breakfast, Jody was floored. Oh, I mean, she was like, okay, I get it. That was amazing. And I really enjoy being right. I'm going to be honest. Yes.
Don't we all. And I did say to her, I did used to be a kindergarten teacher. If that counts. Yes. That's right. You did say I used to be a kindergarten teacher. That's right. And Abby's obsessed. Same same. That's right. Yeah. Yeah. But then we went on a ski trip. That's right. Well, you and Mewdie went ski trip. Alex and I went on a sit trip. Right. Yes. So we Jody and I go to Idaho. We love to ski and we invited you to come with us.
And again, Jamie, who has a house there, she's like, well, you guys have to stay in our house. So Jamie don't shit. No, you have to. You have to stay in our house. So, okay. And it was this little cabin in the woods and it was still during COVID. So it's not like we went to Idaho, went to restaurants and we didn't go. We didn't leave the cabin. And this is early days. Yeah. Early days. And I was really nervous.
Same first date nerves. I mean, and by the way, first date, like first date and we're like going on vacation together, like it was a lot. And there was an incident. There was an incident where I'm in the kitchen, the four of us are there and I'm making tea. And they have an electric tea pot that looks like a nice old tea pot that you put on the stove. I'm very visual. I like a visual cue. It's an old tea pot you put on the stove. And I put it on
the stove and I turn the flame on and I'm chatting and I'm chatting. And was it Abby who came in and said, is that supposed to be on fire? Yeah, because I was watching it. I was watching you. You were watching me. I was watching the tea pot. I just get so confused in the kitchen and it was a fancy kitchen. And I thought, maybe this one's supposed to be on fire. I did not even say anything to you. And then Abby comes in like,
something's wrong. And I look at it and the tea pot is on fire. Oh, God, it was on fire. And I took it off and I quickly, I lifted up with a pot holder and I put it in the sink, which then it proceeds to not just, I've not just burned the stove, I've now burned the sink. Right. It's a beautiful kitchen in this house of my beloved friend who's been so generous. And I am stunned. Yeah. I'm just stunned. And I think that all of you were, you were very gentle
with me and I believe there was laughter, but I did not laugh. I did not laugh for a while. But it was just like, it epitomized how I was so excited by our friendship. I was so excited for us all to be together. It was so much fun. And I kind of didn't know what to do with myself. Yeah. And so I attempted to burn down their kitchen. But, um, and we all have sobriety in common. So that should be mentioned because it felt like right away. That's why everything felt to me so aligned. And
why it was so easy to say yes to go away for a week. There's just so many things that are already sorted when you're all sober people. Yeah. We're going to go to bed early. Yeah. We're going to wake up early. We're going to drink coffee and talk a lot. We're not going to have tea because that should be failed. No, that should be. No. Hello, Pod Squad. I am really excited to talk to you about how
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today. There's a commitment to consciousness. And there's a commitment to truth. And that's for me why I love this podcast so much. And I love your marriage so much. And I love your sister. And I love your whole team because there's this commitment to love and truth and being aligned. And everything you do lines up. So it was such a surprise for me to actually be with you in person, both of you. And to know like, oh my god, they're exactly the same way in their house as they are
on the podcast. There's no presentation. And that was really big for me because I think in many ways in my fear, I become curated. Even that we're doing this podcast and we're in my studio. And there I was going to be a clip that were in my studio. Like I've never shown the inside of my studio. Ever. Not a corner of it. And it's not like what am I hiding? I mean, I've shown it where I at five studio visits with people one on one, but I'm just saying like online. I don't have, I don't
reveal myself. I don't want to say exposed, but I don't reveal myself. You all are very, there's an openness. So our friendship started from a commitment to truthfulness and love and honesty and transparency. So even like when we're you were talking about texting, like, do I have to text back? I think that first breakfast, I said, here's the thing. You don't ever have to text back. Let's talk about like the rules. And I think we did it on Valley too with the post mortem.
So that is one thing that you have taught me. And we have worked on is like over communicating, like communicating what do we need from each other? What do we expect from each other? What are ways we can help our friendship? Like things we can put in place, like for example, we've talked about this on the pod before, but can you explain to us, you suggested we have a post mortem? I think in the beginning it was after we went to brunch.
And we got in the car. And Alex and Jody were in the back seat. Or no, Alex was driving. I was in the front seat. And Alex, you said, I really think that we should talk about, because what was coming up for you is all the things that you were a little bit worried about that maybe you said that maybe didn't sit right or you just wanted to clear the air sort of thing. And it was such a good idea. Yeah, you said, let's just do that. You know how we're going to go home and overthink everything we
said wrong or did wrong or wish we said, why don't we just do that now? We should talk about everything. And then we sat down at breakfast. Is that something you had done before? Or you just, okay. No, I just was, I was just aware that it was a big leap that we took. And I wanted there to be space to express the things that we were doubting or that I knew that I would go home and go, why don't I burn the teapot? Or, oh, maybe I should have done this or I hope they didn't think.
And I wanted there to be room for all of that to be able to say it out loud. Like, is there anything that I wish I hadn't done or that I wish I'd been more considerate of or that I'm wondering if you think, why not be curious about it and bring it into the room? And that was a really great moment, I think, for all of us. It was. That was the strengthening moment. And at first, I was like, I don't think there's anything. And then I'm like, just starting saying stuff.
And it was like the most vulnerable that we'd gotten. And then we ended up sitting there for like two hours and just, it was a very beautiful exercise. Yeah. Yeah. It's like shining a light, the thing that you're like, well, let's just stay with the tour and hope nobody noticed that. There's no need to go back and review the hat, but it stays with you. And instead of shining a light and being like, there's this really awkward thing. And I think that you're going to think that
maybe I think that way. And I don't. So let's bring it out. That's beautiful. Yeah. You know, like when you're at the end of the night, you've gone to a dinner party and you're walking around the bedroom, you're taking off your jewelry, your brush and your teeth, and you're downloading and processing what happened that night with your partner. We just wanted to do that with each other.
Right. How in the open. Well, also, I think I grew up presenting myself in friendships and then later in private or with my partner saying, I can't believe they did this. Yes. I mean, how weird when they said that, when you think they meant by it, I don't know, when we go back and forth and then you make assumptions and then you build protections or then you start to divest from the relationship. Yes. And with my close
friendships, I bring it all into the room. And it doesn't necessarily mean there are heavy conversations. It's just curiosity like, oh, when you did that, what was that? Or I think the other day with you guys, I was talking about something. I was talking about the death of my parents. And I was talking about it in a way that was not very connected. I was talking about it very quickly and without emotion. And it didn't sit well with me. I just didn't like it. And I brought
it up to you later. And for you, it was fine. But I was really curious, did that sit wrong? For me, it sat wrong. It was fine for you. But for me, I just needed to acknowledge like, I was really disconnected when I was saying that. And this is important stuff. And I want to be able to slow down and be truthful about how I feel about it. And it's such a beautiful opportunity because it feels like what you said, even from the beginning of this conversation is that it's really important
for you to be in your alignment or in your knowing or in your being. And every time, and this is something that I've learned so much from you, Alex, is like every time you feel like you are out of alignment or out of your knowing or out of integrity, even one step, not even very far, you bring it to our attention. And what I have learned is it's not all about
maintaining a beautiful relationship between the four of us. It's about you maintaining the relationship with your self so that you can keep coming to this relationship and this friendship in alignment. Yeah. That's exactly right. Because whether we're close friends for one more year or 40 years, that's neither here nor there. It's exactly right, Abby. It's being in alignment. If I can come from a place where I feel that how I'm feeling and what I'm saying match,
then the way I approach my friendships is from a place of love. It's from a place of connection. There's so much possibility and whatever will be will be. How did you hone that? That is a skill that is incredibly hard to identify. I think sometimes you feel like nervous or jittery or we leave and we just say I feel it, but it's very hard to identify. I am not aligned attuned in this moment or I can see the trigger that caused me to say that sarcastic thing when really
I wanted to say a sincere thing about the way I felt. How did you hone that skill? I think that's a very specific skill to know when you are one degree off or right on. And you have taught me as a follow up to that question because you have taught me more about that. That's embodiment too. Yes. Like when you're the one who keeps teaching me, I say, well, this happened and then I blah, blah, blah. And you say, well, did you say anything in the moment? You've taught me to say,
like, I feel weird. In the moment, staying aligned, how did you learn that skill? That's such a good question. There are a few ways. sobriety for me was the first step to becoming aware of how I was actually feeling. How long have you been sober for 18 years? Okay. I think for me and for a lot of people, alcohol was actually not the problem. It was again a metaphor, but I felt like I was in this
broken down house that I was trying to keep erect. And there were cracks in the walls and I kept going through the house and caulking up the cracks and then painting over and the alcohol and drugs were just the caulk. It was just the paint. It was just trying to make it look as if everything was okay.
Yeah. And the house needed to be rebuilt from the ground up. So sobriety has given me the ability to connect with how I'm feeling and what all the other issues are that are keeping me from being embodied, being aligned, being conscious, being vulnerable, being able to connect with others, being aware, being kind, being empathetic. sobriety has allowed me to feel and to love myself and others. And so many times that's painful because life is tremendously painful and
glorious and surprising and shocking and upsetting and wonderful. So sobriety was the first part of it. And then from there, I started on a journey, on a conscious journey, where I would seek out the teachers who would help me with whatever the issue was that was keeping me from connection. So I had an incredible therapist named Beverly Bird who passed away just a few years ago. She was amazing. And she was so, she was, she thought really outside the box. She was not like anyone I
had ever met. And when I talked to her about something like, well, you know, it was uncomfortable with this person or this friend because they do this or she would say to me, I don't understand. So how long were you listening to them talk before you said something? I don't know. It's probably like a half an hour. I didn't say anything. So you're okay with just sitting and being
uncomfortable for that long. So you're going to privilege them over yourself. You're going to privilege this idea of how you're supposed to be over actually acknowledging your own feelings. So yes, Beverly, we are. Yeah, absolutely. Yeah, because I don't want to ruffle any feathers. I thought that was called life. Yeah. What do you mean? What do you mean? Like, what are you talking about? How am I and I had to find the language? Because when I first became willing to speak out
loud, it would go like this. I don't understand what you're saying. I'm bored. You know, I would start like shout it. It should be like, okay, maybe that's not the way to do it. Maybe you could be curious. Perhaps you could, you know, say, I just want to ask you, are you aware that I'm not speaking at all? So she started, you know, and I use the word trouble. Like, how to trouble. How to, because she taught me how to stress relationships. We must stress relationships. Same
more. Stressing a relationship is me saying to Abby, hey, Abby, are you okay if I come later to that thing? And Abby going, yeah, it's no problem. Don't worry about it. And me is still not believing. Like, I don't know if she's just saying that to be nice. I'm not sure. And me stressing it by saying, Abby, I just want to ask you, what would it look like if you weren't okay with it? Oh, gosh. I'd say it hurts my feelings or I'd say actually I really need you to be here on time.
Oh, okay. Thank you. Now I know how, so I'm pushing it. Or Amanda, when you ask me questions like that, it's scaring me. I feel like I'm stupid or something. Are you questioning whether or not I know what I'm talking about? I don't know because I don't know the answer. I can assume that you're being judgmental. I can assume that you think I'm dumb. Or I can ask you by saying, I'm feeling really uncomfortable right now. And I don't know why you're asking me in that way. Can you tell me? That's
stressing the relationship. And being willing to hear the answer. And then Amanda says, can say, I don't know what you're talking about. And I don't want to have this conversation. And I can take that information, go, okay, I have information. And then you start to make choices about your relationship. And how much time you want to spend with that person. Hmm. Okay, everybody, we're going to stop there with Alex. But don't worry because we're going to
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