In this episode I share HUGE NEWS: one of my artistic dreams of being a musical performer has come true! I share all the deets of how I landed the lead. I also share why I was hesitant to audition for the play, my reframe of the perceived obstacle, setting myself up for succes & the calming of the guilt & shame stories coming up after. I also share some insider-tips about manifestation at the end! enjoy! thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, I deeply appreciate you ...
Nov 25, 2021•12 min•Ep. 96
in this episode I dig into some reflections & revelations on 'when I have'-syndrome; the syndrome of thinking 'when I have/do/experience X, then I'll be happy/healed/successful etc'. I share how this has been showing up in my life, as I move through this frustrating phase of not being where I wanna be in my artistic career (psst... not a phase, but a mindset!). I share why the joy of the process & consistency are pivotal, what questions to ask yourself to get out of the mindset & tak...
Nov 18, 2021•14 min•Season 1Ep. 95
in this episode I share how the last editing of my EP went! I share why I already feel like a huge success, in what ways I notice my growth expressing itself & the lessons I've embodied about genuine joy & fulfillment. I also share some reflections on how we tend to forget our wins really quickly as soon as they are over & how to counter that. enjoy <3 thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, feel free to share it with loved ones & on social media (pls tag m...
Nov 11, 2021•12 min•Season 1Ep. 94
this is a friggin milestone, y'all! in this episode I share with you the feelings & reflections of my last week working on my EP... yes, the one I've been blabbering on about for the last year. I share the anxiety coming up, the ego stories, the joy & pride. I look back at this past year on what helped me overcome the anxiety touching on practices such as small goals, baby steps, self-compassion, exposure 'therapy' (my own style of this, hehe). I want you give you a special thanks for li...
Nov 02, 2021•15 min•Season 1Ep. 93
in this episode Anne-Sofie Søby & I confide in each other & you in this first ever rendition of MJ & Friends. we dive deep into the ways the pandemic has influenced & affected our creative lives, reflecting on which lessons we have learned as performing artist, experiencing burn-out right before covid: we talk about anxiety, mental health, daring to take up space, discovering our multidisciplinary callings and so much more. lastly, we send you off exploring the term 'power' as we...
Oct 24, 2021•41 min
in this episode I reflect on finding empowerment through expressing myself freely. prompted by a IG poll & feelings of anxiety around sharing my truth in the last episode, I talk about why I believe it is important to hear our most 'alienating' stories & artistic expression. I ponder how perfectionism plays in, how our authentic self is magnetic to 'our' people & lastly, how these thoughts are showing up as I prepare myself for sharing my own, untold story very soon. thank you for li...
Oct 19, 2021•17 min•Season 1Ep. 91
in this episode I dig into anxiety. prompted by an experience I had last week with my music, where anxiety reared its head, I share some reflections on why anxiety isn't something to fear. how it is an emotions like all others, albeit a violent one, meaning it is here to be heard, validated & understood. I want to normalize talking about this emotion, learning to recognize its at times subtle nature & to minimize the demonization of this part of us that needs our love & care. NB! thi...
Oct 14, 2021•17 min•Season 1Ep. 90
in this episode I share a channeling from my higher self as I encounter fear around creating new music. I share how my ego is telling me discouraging stories & how my higher self friggin - calls - me - OUT! as in so many cases, this kind of fear is really about coming back to ourselves & our art & to play & to our enoughness. thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, feel free to share it with loved ones & on social media (pls tag me, it makes me so ridiculo...
Oct 07, 2021•12 min•Season 1Ep. 89
in this episode I dive into that feeling of not living up to the title of 'artist'. having not been very productive for some months now, I share how internalized hustle culture is fucking with my mind & tampering with my reality; why do I think I have to create 4 hours every day to be a 'good artist'? this episode is our reminder to praise ourselves for the ways we DO show up & that we are absolutely enough. thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, feel free to share i...
Oct 04, 2021•11 min•Season 1Ep. 88
in this episode I dive into the topics of workaholism & co-creating. I share some insights I have on being addicted to hustle in my artist career & how it is opposite to the co-creative process of manifestation. I also share how this podcast is pivoting from focusing on 'creative recovery' to 'self recovery' as I am coming back to what it is I, my authentic self, genuinely want. thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, feel free to share it with loved ones & on soc...
Sep 21, 2021•18 min•Season 1Ep. 87
in this episode I dig into the topic of anger. having been pissed off ever since my last trauma therapy session, I talk about my relationship to anger, what the emotion means & how it connects to my creative practice. I share insights on my empowerment journey, digging into the shame & vulnerability around anger & why it is important to unleash ALL of thissss. thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, feel free to share it with loved ones & on social media (pls ...
Sep 13, 2021•17 min•Season 1Ep. 86
in this journal entry, I dig into insights about control & how to manifest new levels of my artistry. I share how an improv class last week got me to reflect on how much I try to control my art, my expression, as I noticed how I was 'trying to be funny'. (damn, why is it so hard to let loose?!) I also share big personal step, as I claim the title of Actor after learning about 'The Hierarchy of Change' & the importance of the Identity Level in the course I just started this week. thank yo...
Sep 08, 2021•16 min•Season 1Ep. 85
in this journal entry I dive into some hard resistance work around going big & standing fully in my power. I share insights on my fear of success, talking about guilt & fear of alienation & ultimately losing connection, belonging & community. I read quotes from my written journal & share the anti-dote to all the fear coming up; how to focus on what I am gaining instead of my 'perceived' losses. thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, feel free to share it ...
Sep 04, 2021•15 min•Season 1Ep. 84
a short & sweet one for, y'all. I give myself & us permission to be whatever we are in this one. Talking about Amie McNee's expression "Art first, Muggle shit later", I share some feelings around my process & how I'm not showing up at the moment. I cut us some serious slack & encourage self-compassion with a peptalk to quiet fears around not being enough, good enough, productive enough, brilliant or perfect enough. thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, feel ...
Sep 01, 2021•9 min•Season 1Ep. 83
yesss, in this episode I go there. it gets saucy, y'all. in the first half I dig into how perfectionism is showing up in the outskirts of my creative process. I share how fundraising, my nemesis, is triggering so many old mental paths, but how all I've learned about shitty art, allowing mess, not being the best judge of my art & my believing mirrors can alleviate. AND then I get into a the saucy & shameful topic of sexual power. I talk about how I'm discovering where I feel most empowere...
Aug 27, 2021•18 min•Season 1Ep. 82
trigger warning: mentions of abuse ! this is a powerful & important topic from my recovery process; how do I stand in my power? I reflect on the past weeks sudden dive into this topic as I talk about shame, worthiness, fear of my personal power, a life of being victimized & punished for expressing my power. I reflect on resistance towards my power, when I do feel powerful & why personal power is so vital as an artist, especially as we level the F up. I hope you leave this episode fee...
Aug 16, 2021•20 min•Season 1Ep. 81
in this episode I share the feelings I'm having as I listen to the first mix of one of my unreleased songs. I talk about the catharthis & healing powers of music, perfectionism & not caring as much (sounds weird, right?!). I also dig into feelings I've noticed around complete unworthiness in regards to my dreams & share how inner child work & picking myself are part of the antidote. I apologize for the sound quality & background noises in this one, y'all. discovered half-way ...
Aug 13, 2021•19 min•Season 1Ep. 80
in this episode I dig into the creative awakening & what it literally means to me. I reflect on my journey from nothingness to creative abundance & also share the shame all these new creative callings awake in me. & while on the topic on the shame, I also share some insights from the days journaling sesh on how fucking hard it can be to allow ourselves to level up & embody our fullest potential. it's a juicy one, ya'll. thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, ...
Aug 10, 2021•16 min•Season 1Ep. 79
man, why is rest so hard? & wtf is it even? I get into how I've been struggling to allow real rest on my current vacation & get curious about what this phenomenon says about my tendency for burn-out. I also get into my feelings & thoughts about starting up again with my music career; how can I support myself as I finish this friggin EP? how can I cultivate rest, ease & avoid burning out again? I share some tips & methods I'm hoping will give me some grounding along the way. t...
Jul 28, 2021•19 min•Season 1Ep. 78
in this episode I dig into the big leveling up I'm doing at the moment. I share the imposter syndrome I feel as I'm about to finish me EP, as well as the panic, the perfectionism, the narratives, the resistance. I go into the inner work I'm doing around it on the page & a new mindset I call 'expecting dissatisfaction". I also share a profound focus shift from result til process & how I'm recalibrating my once consistent practice to fit all these emotionally challenging big steps. thank y...
Jul 18, 2021•28 min•Season 1Ep. 77
in this episode I share reflections about joy in regards to my breakthrough & how I feel really afraid of feeling it. I talk about Brené Browns term 'foreboding joy' & how it's a really vulnerable emotion. I also share a beautiful example of perfectionism from my day, as I found myself spiralling before a coaching call. & to start the whole thing off I share a really BIG small step that's got me friggin proud & excited. mentioned: Brené Brown's podcast episode listen here thank y...
Jul 09, 2021•18 min•Season 1Ep. 76
in this episode I share the emotions that have surfaced after my breakthrough with my music last monday. I share how I fear people won't be as interested in this win as in my struggle. I share how old feelings of being an imposter are coming up again, how I'm afraid that I don't have what it takes to actually be a music artist -- & I share all the antidotes to all of these emotions too that I've luckily accumulated throughout this recovery process. thank you for listening, love. if you enjoy...
Jul 04, 2021•17 min•Season 1Ep. 75
warning: I share the real feels in this one! hear me reflect on my emotions after playing the biggest festival in the north. I talk about jealousy vs. numbness, being reminded what music can & finally feeling connected to this part of ME! this feels like a huge breakthrough, y'all. just being able to feel anything when it comes to music is pure magic, aahhhh thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, feel free to share it with loved ones & social media (pls tag me, it ma...
Jun 29, 2021•16 min•Season 1Ep. 74
in this episode I share my feelings the night of a big concert I'm playing with my friend GRETA . I share my thoughts before the show & also talk about how I've had to prioritize between projects due to a serial attack of migraines. I also share a secret project I'm working on for my community --- aaaand share how amazing it felt to be seen & mentioned by my dear friends Amie & James on their podcast Unpublished thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, feel free to...
Jun 26, 2021•15 min•Season 1Ep. 73
welcome to this special bonus episode "all about journaling". I recorded this episode as my first ever IG live sharing my journaling practice & answering my IG community's brilliant questions. this is part 1, so stay tuned for a part 2. in this episode I answer the following questions: - "Do you ever feel ‘uughhh’ about having to do it? Do you skip days when you feel that way?" (8:25) - "How do you stay motivated to journal? I keep avoiding it" (10:19) - "Any tips on how to get started/keepi...
Jun 25, 2021•32 min
in this episode I reflect on over-working, how my body & mental health suffer from it, my Big Bang theory about my sudden creative abundance & the vulnerable act of sharing my shitty art on IG. I share my thoughts on how hard it still is to know how much I can, cause of my health issues. I talk about the overwhelm of having 1000 creative projects, but also how it's a sign of long sought-after creative abundance. & I share the vulnerability hangover caused by my new reel as a part of ...
Jun 12, 2021•19 min•Season 1Ep. 72
in this episode I share my BIG dreams of stardom, impact & fame & the shame that's keeping me small. I share how I've just spent the evening self-coaching my way through questions like 'what do you want?' & 'how does that make you feel?'. I share my findings, which (no surprise really) is also a lot of shame for even wanting the BIGness. I'm left with the question; is ego keeping me from my dreams or leading me towards them? mentioned: listen to the 'change your latitude' podcast epi...
Jun 08, 2021•17 min•Season 1Ep. 71
in this episode I share my experiences with anxiety in my career as a professional musician & artist. I talk about what happened when I hit burn-out & the heartbreak of numbness towards my craft. I share a traumatic experience that has kept me from reconnecting with playing my music live & how it triggered the ptsd. listen in for whole lot of mental health & career life talk. thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed this episode, feel free to share it with loved ones & s...
Jun 04, 2021•16 min•Season 1Ep. 70
in this episode I talk about the feeling of plateuing. that feeling of being in a continual state of repetition & waiting. waiting for energy to accumulate before a new big step. frustrated, I ask the big questions; will this ever change? will I ever get closer to my big goals? why am I even doing any of this right now? I share how the steps I'm currently taking with my bookwriting, my unfinished EP & everything else seem so small, I feel like I'm moving backwards. thank you for listenin...
Jun 01, 2021•16 min•Season 1Ep. 69
in this episode I share with you jumping back into two BIG projects: my book & my EP. but first off, I share about procrastinating with even recording THIS episode, afraid to fail. I also talk about how finishing projects triggers my perfectionism, my fear of burning out again & just feels absolutely terrifying tbh. I also share how I'm working through this fear in my pages & acknowledging I am taking extremely courageous steps right now. thank you for listening, love. if you enjoyed...
May 27, 2021•18 min•Season 1Ep. 68
