Ep. 82- Q&A Grief In this episode of the Rise Up History podcast, co-hosts Becky, Tiffany, and Autumn come together to answer listener questions about grief in the context of addiction and betrayal. They candidly share how grief has shown up in their lives during the darkest seasons—describing sacred moments of crying on bathroom floors, numbness, despair, and the isolation that often accompanies deep loss. The hosts reflect on how grief isn’t linear and emphasize that complex grief—the kind...
Jul 31, 2025•57 min•Season 6Ep. 82
In this deeply honest episode, Becky and Autumn are joined by Rachel as shares her story of betrayal trauma, spiritual wrestling, and healing through boundaries, surrender, and divine grace. From discovering repeated deception in her marriage to reclaiming her identity and anchoring herself in Christ, Rachel’s journey reveals the power of letting go and rising strong. Don’t miss her original song at the end—a moving reflection on finding strength through God when all else falls apart. Show notes...
Jun 28, 2025•1 hr•Season 6Ep. 81
Ep. 80 Ocean Shore and Loving Christ Meditation Rise Up Restored host Becky talks about visualizations. She discusses vision boards and guided meditations and the benefits that can come from using these tools. She then shares the “Ocean Shore and Loving Christ Meditation” with the listeners. Show notes: For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/ And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook. Have questions? Send them to becky@riseuprestored.com...
Jun 04, 2025•20 min•Season 6Ep. 80
In this episode, co-hosts Becky and Tiffany welcome Rachelle, who shares her powerful journey of healing, faith, and self-discovery. Her childhood was deeply rooted in faith, which shaped her values and relationships—but her marriage soon brought emotional challenges and the pain of betrayal tied to her husband’s addiction. After reaching a breaking point, including thoughts of ending her life, Rachelle found hope and community through 12-step meetings and a healing retreat that marked a turning...
Apr 30, 2025•55 min•Season 6Ep. 79
Ep. 78- Anchoring meditation Rise Up Restored host Becky shares information about the practice of anchoring in life and in meditation. She covers the benefits of anchoring in this busy world and shares the “Anchoring Meditation” with listeners. Show notes: For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/ And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook. Have questions? Send them to becky@riseuprestored.com...
Mar 28, 2025•25 min•Season 6Ep. 78
In this Part 2 episode of our Perspectives on Hope, team members Richard, Becky, and Autumn share their experiences with Hope in their healing journeys. Each one shares how they have found hope in the journey, how they have cultivated hope, and they share some of their favorite quotes about hope. They even include some resources to support hope in the journey, including Becky reminding listeners of the Heart of a Woman retreat- www.theheartofawoman.net , coming up on May 8-10, 2025 in Wanship, U...
Feb 28, 2025•42 min•Season 6Ep. 77
As we begin our 6th year of podcasting, reflecting back, the topic of Hope is something that has come up often throughout the years. Hope has played a big part in our individual healing journeys, so we have decided to devote 2 episodes to share our experiences, what we have learned, and discoveries about hope. This episode features team members Deb, Tiffany, and Erin answering questions like “What is hope?’, “How have you held onto hope?”, and we even share our favorite quotes about hope. We hop...
Jan 31, 2025•37 min•Season 6Ep. 76
Rise Up Restored host Becky shares information on meditation and trauma, reminders that meditation types are not one-size-fits-all and should be used with others tools, and gives 3 Tips for Trauma Informed Meditation. She also shares the Village of Women meditation. Show notes: For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/ And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook. Have questions? Send them to becky@riseuprestored.com...
Dec 23, 2024•19 min•Season 5Ep. 75
Becky sits down with Ali and Tiffany, both mothers who remarried after experiencing betrayal trauma in their previous marriages. Ali, a mother of two, and Tiffany, a mother of five, share their journeys of navigating remarriage while blending families, with children ranging from ages 13 to 23. They discuss the challenges and joys of remarriage, emphasizing the importance of personal healing and knowing the time they needed before entering a new relationship. Both women reflect on how betrayal tr...
Nov 27, 2024•1 hr 4 min•Season 5Ep. 74
Episode 73- Loving Kindness Meditation Rise Up Restored host Becky reminds listeners about the benefits of self-compassion in healing from trauma that are discussed in episode 63 with Sheylley Dunford-Hardy. She talks about the benefits of loving kindness and shares the “Loving Kindness Meditation” with listeners. Show notes: Rise Up Restored Episode 63- Self-Compassion with Sheylley Dunford-Hardy, LMFT For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/ And join us online ...
Oct 31, 2024•14 min•Season 5Ep. 73
In this heartfelt episode, Becky and Autumn sit down with Deb as she opens up about her deeply personal journey through marriage, faith, and the challenges of dealing with her husband's sexual addiction. Together, they explore themes of personal growth, spiritual awakening, and the complexities of trust in relationships. Deb shares her experience of denial, gaslighting, and ultimately, rediscovering her voice and faith as she navigates the emotional rollercoaster of a loved one's addiction. Her ...
Sep 29, 2024•53 min•Season 5Ep. 72
Rise Up Restored host Becky talks about the benefits of body scan meditations and shares the Nurturing Your Heart Meditation with listeners. Show notes: For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/ And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook. Have questions? Send them to becky@riseuprestored.com
Aug 31, 2024•15 min•Season 5Ep. 71
Becky sits down with Erin, one of the podcast copy editors, and each of their husband’s, Richard and Justin, to talk about what they have learned about how the Betrayer can best support the Betrayed. After multiple anonymous questions about this topic, we wanted to make sure we talked about it! They group discusses when they realized support was needed for the betrayed, what things they tried that helped, and even a few things that didn’t help. They also share some resources and additional thoug...
Aug 01, 2024•1 hr 20 min•Season 5Ep. 70
Rise Up Restored host Becky sits down and shares some thoughts about and benefits of meditation, 5 basic tips to get started meditating, and shares the Tree Meditation with listeners. Show notes: For more episodes and resources, please visit https://riseuprestored.com/ And join us online at Rise Up Restored on Instagram and Facebook. Have questions? Send them to becky@riseuprestored.com
Jul 01, 2024•20 min•Season 5Ep. 69
Becky and Autumn sit down with Patty to share her story of healing from betrayal trauma caused by her ex-husband’s pornography addiction. For many years, Patty experienced disconnection from God and others, having overwhelming feelings of insecurity and isolation. When she began attending group meetings and found connections with other women, she finally found healing tools. Through boundaries, personal scripture study, and other women in recovery, she has experienced hope. As it eventually beca...
May 31, 2024•1 hr 3 min•Season 5Ep. 68
***Just a reminder to listeners that the topic of sexual health is an important step in the recovery journey, and if you are not yet in the place in your recovery to work on that piece, that is perfectly normal and okay. Listeners are invited to skip this episode if needed and rejoin on the next one!*** Becky, Autumn and Tiffany are joined by Sex Therapist Jessica Holfeltz to discuss listener questions about sex therapy. Jessica shares what sex therapy is and what it is not. She reassures listen...
Apr 30, 2024•59 min•Season 5Ep. 67
Becky and Tiffany sit down with Hejdi to share her story of betrayal trauma and healing. Hejdi shares how even though her husband disclosed his porn use while they were dating, neither of them understood the “monster” it was. Early in their marriage, her husband’s porn addiction caused a “numb cloud” in her life, making it difficult to access the emotions needed to connect with others. During a particularly dark time, she found support in women’s groups and church leaders, managing to feel God’s...
Mar 29, 2024•55 min•Season 5Ep. 66
Episode 65- Get to Know the Team- Part 2 In the Part 2 of Get to Know the Team, we invite listeners to get to know us a little better and get some updates on our journeys. In this episode, the three of our team members sharing with listeners are Autumn, Richard, and Tiff. We invite you to curl up and learn a little more about the technical side of the podcast, what everyone on the team does to help with the podcast, challenges and strengths that have developed over time, recovery practices that ...
Feb 27, 2024•1 hr 15 min•Season 5Ep. 65
Episode 64- Get to Know the Team- Part 1 As we begin our 5th year of the podcast (yay!), we thought it would be fun for our listeners to get to know us a little better and give some updates on our journeys. This episode has three of our team members opening up to listeners: Becky, Deb and Erin. We invite you to curl up and learn a little more about how the podcast came to be, what everyone on the team does on the podcast, challenges and strengths that have developed over time, recovery practices...
Jan 31, 2024•1 hr 2 min•Season 5Ep. 64
The Rise Up Restored Podcast Christmas Gift this year is an episode on self-compassion! Tiffany and Becky are joined by licensed and experienced therapist Shelley Dunford-Hardy. Shelley’s Master’s degrees in Clinical Psychology and Spiritual Psychology have brought greater focus on self-compassion as an important tool in her work as a therapist. Shelley shares how research has shown that the most important relationship any of us can have is with ourselves, which is why self-compassion is so vita...
Dec 22, 2023•57 min•Season 4Ep. 63
Becky and Tiffany sit down with Keara to share her story of betrayal trauma and healing. Keara shares how her husband disclosed his porn use seven years into their marriage. Every disclosure had her forgiving him instantly and spending all her energy trying to make their home environment tidy and calm. After one particularly painful disclosure, she found she didn’t have it in her to forgive. “I was angry with him,” she recalls, “and I was angry with God.” Over time, as she waded through the hurt...
Nov 27, 2023•1 hr 8 min•Season 4Ep. 62
After many requests from listeners, hosts Becky, Autumn, and Tiffany come together to check-in on how they are really doing in their personal healing journeys. They share what they have learned, how they have changed, and how they are still struggling. This episode is a beautiful reminder of the power of self-awareness, physical self-care, and being gentle with ourselves, with some important reminders including: “Be curious, not judgmental” and the reassurance that “It gets better”. Learning and...
Oct 31, 2023•47 min•Season 4Ep. 61
Becky and Tiffany are joined by Tara, the daughter of a sex addict and a betrayed spouse. She is the Executive Director of S.A. Lifeline, which provides resources for addicts and those experiencing betrayal trauma. Tara shares that she was a long-time believer in God at her core, but that her black and white thinking led her to feel God’s love was conditional. Tara shares the difficulty that came from not knowing the full truth of her father’s addiction, and the pain and relief at learning the f...
Aug 16, 2023•59 min•Season 4Ep. 60
Becky and Tiffany sit down with Andi to share her story of betrayal trauma and healing. Andi shares how her husband’s porn use didn’t stop after marriage like she thought it would. She spent the next several years battling the feeling of not being enough, and in an attempt to mitigate the chaos her husband’s up and down emotions brought in the home, Andi fought hard to stay even keeled in her own emotions. “I wasn’t allowed to have a bad day,” she recalls. She turned to God and the scriptures be...
Jun 30, 2023•55 min•Season 4Ep. 59
Josh Walpole, Associate Clinical Mental Health Counselor, joins our hosts to discuss 12-Step Groups and how they can support healing and work synergistically with therapy. He shares the basics of the 12 Steps, attending meetings, self-care in meetings, sponsors, surrender, and the “spiritual therapy” that is 12-Step. Josh shares that just like the origins of 12-Step, you can address every angle of healing, but if you don’t address the spiritual side, you will not move forward. Many of us have sp...
Jun 01, 2023•59 min•Season 4Ep. 58
Becky and Autumn sit down with Candy to share her story of betrayal trauma and healing. After about six years of marriage, Candy’s husband told her he had a pornography problem. Candy explains that it was difficult at first to see the link between the porn and their lack of connection. Over time, she realized that, because of the betrayal trauma, she didn’t trust herself or her decisions. To Candy, the pain of the betrayal felt like getting hit with a stun gun. Eventually, Candy found support an...
May 01, 2023•54 min•Season 4Ep. 57
Todd Olsen LCSW, co-founder of LifeStar and clinical director of Circles of Grace (formerly LifeStar Salt Lake), joins our hosts to discuss Polyvagal Theory and how it applies to Betrayal Trauma. Learning about the nervous system is helpful to increase compassion for oneself, and to increase respect for others working through trauma. Todd walks the hosts through a set of exercises to help identify how they show up in the various stages of stress. He shares strategies for regaining a state of equ...
Mar 31, 2023•1 hr 7 min•Season 4Ep. 56
“Music gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination and life to everything.” -Plato Welcome to Part 2 of sharing the Music of Our Hearts! We are excited to share from members of the Rise Up Restored team (including voices you have never heard!) some of their favorite songs and how they have helped them on their healing journeys!! Tiffany’s song- Known by Tauren Wells Becky’s song- Cages by We the Kingdom Erin’s song- Wanted by Danny Gokey Autumn’s song- Who You Say I ...
Feb 18, 2023•36 min•Season 4Ep. 55
“Music acts like a magic key, to which the most tightly closed heart opens.” – Maria von Trapp Part 1 of sharing the Music of Our Hearts! Members of the Rise Up Restored team (including voices you have never heard!) share some of their favorite songs and how they have helped them on their healing journeys! Autumn song- Climb by Adona Tiffany song- Just Like Fire by P!nk Deborah song- I Believe in You by JJ Heller Becky song- Firework by Katy Perry Tiffany song- Prize Worth Fighting For by Jamie ...
Feb 01, 2023•30 min•Season 4Ep. 54
Becky and Tiffany talk with Heather, whose close connection with God started as a young child and continued throughout her younger years. After marrying her life-long friend, Heather was shocked when he lost his job because of an undisclosed pornography addiction. Over the next 15 years, Heather felt increasingly isolated and broken as she was cut off from family and friends. Shame, depression, and anxiety were constant companions. After feeling suicidal, Heather reached out for help. Her husban...
Oct 30, 2022•1 hr 5 min•Season 3Ep. 53
