🎙️ Get ready to embark on an extraordinary journey as Big Panda and Kyle spill the tea on friendship, recovery, and the thrilling rollercoaster of podcasting! 🚀 From epic ping pong battles to immersive gaming adventures, join this dynamic duo as they explore the highs and lows of their personal growth journey, sharing laughs, nostalgia, and heartwarming moments that resonate with every twist and turn of life. 🌟 Brace yourself for the Big Panda revelation as he peels back the layers of his Beg...
Feb 26, 2024•1 hr 14 min
🎙️ Exciting News Alert! 🌟 Big Panda drops a bombshell in this episode as he unveils a thrilling sponsorship announcement for our podcast! 🚀 Join the celebration as he expresses his gratitude and sheer excitement for this incredible opportunity. 🙌 Brace yourself for an inspiring journey as Big Panda delves into his personal recovery story, reflecting on the profound validation he feels from this sponsorship. Discover the unexpected twists and turns in his early interactions with the sponsor, ...
Feb 23, 2024•12 min
🌟 Unlock the Power Within: Join Big Panda on a transformative journey of self-love and compassion in this inspiring podcast episode! 🌈 Dive deep into the heart of recovery as Big Panda reflects on his incredible accomplishments, expressing gratitude for the opportunities that shaped his path. 🚀 Discover the keys to success as he discusses the importance of setting healthy goals and staying committed, revealing the positive changes they can bring to your life. Big Panda opens up about his deci...
Feb 12, 2024•1 hr 15 min
🧠 Dive deep into the world of neuroscience with Dr. Michael Barta as he unveils the groundbreaking IDP model for treating trauma and addiction! 🌟 In this eye-opening podcast, Dr. Barta sheds light on the core of addictive behaviors, emphasizing the critical role the autonomic nervous system plays in addiction and regulation. 🌈 Discover the transformative power of healing the social engagement system and unravel the profound impact of trauma on our self-beliefs. Dr. Barta delves into the poten...
Jan 29, 2024•1 hr 2 min
Embark on a transformative journey with Erin Watt, a coach and healer, as she shares her inspiring story of overcoming addiction and finding her purpose in coaching and healing. In this eye-opening podcast episode, Erin takes you behind the scenes of her coaching company, Inner Rae, unveiling a world of self-discovery and empowerment. Dive deep into the intricacies of relationships as Erin emphasizes the pivotal role of understanding capacity and setting boundaries. Uncover the secrets of the in...
Jan 15, 2024•1 hr 6 min
🎥 Uncover the depths of recovery and emotional healing in our latest video podcast episode! Join Big Panda as he interviews Ed Tilton, a distinguished leader in the behavioral healthcare industry and the president of Begin Again Institute. 🌟 Get ready for a conversation that delves into trauma-focused care, the power of community, and the transformative journey to emotional well-being. 🌈 Ed shares his personal journey in the recovery industry, emphasizing the importance of trauma-focused care...
Jan 01, 2024•1 hr 17 min
🎙️ Embark on a profound journey of recovery and self-discovery with Dr. Eddie Capparucci in our latest podcast episode! 🌟 Dive into the complexities of sex addiction recovery, where surrender and spirituality play pivotal roles in healing. 🙏 Dr. Capparucci unveils the transformative power of the inner child model, shedding light on how childhood experiences impact addiction. 🌈 Join us as he emphasizes the importance of slowing down, facing emotional discomfort, and embracing mindfulness in t...
Dec 18, 2023•1 hr 4 min
Join us in this thought-provoking episode as I reconnect with the incredible Melissa Killeen, an esteemed Recovery Coach and the author of 'Recovery Coaching - A Guide to Coaching People in Recovery from Addictions.' Armed with a master's degree in Executive Coaching and drawing from her extensive personal recovery journey, Melissa sheds light on the transformative power of coaching for those striving to find balance amidst the demands of work, relationships, family, and recovery. In a candid an...
Dec 04, 2023•1 hr 20 min
🎙️ Join me in this eye-opening episode as I chat with the incredible Sako Barbarian, a Master's degree holder in Social Work and a licensed therapist specializing in addiction, including sexual addiction. 🌟 Sako, currently the Program Coordinator for BAI, shares invaluable insights as we explore the intersection of ADHD and addiction. 🧠 Curious about ADHD? So was I! Sako breaks down what ADHD is, its symptoms, and practical remedies. No magic pills here, just the real work that's totally wort...
Nov 21, 2023•1 hr
🎙️ Exciting News & Q&A Opportunity! 🎉 Hey there, amazing Spotify fam! 🌟 We've got a special update for you today, and even though this episode is a bit shorter than our usual content, trust us, it's packed with some juicy details. 🔥 We're gearing up for some epic guests that are about to drop some serious knowledge bombs, including two therapists, a recovery coach, and a relationship coach! 🧘♀️💑 But here's the best part: we want YOU to be part of the action! Have burning questions...
Nov 06, 2023•38 min
Welcome to a solo episode where I dive into the ongoing journey of recovery and self-discovery. In this candid conversation, I'll share what's been surfacing in my life recently and how I've come to embrace the idea that maintaining my well-being is an ongoing process. While it may sometimes feel like I'm stuck on a 'broken record,' I've learned that repeating certain themes in my life can be an opportunity for growth. Discover how discussing the same topics repeatedly can lead to self-awareness...
Oct 23, 2023•59 min
In this captivating episode, I'm going solo, and you won't believe the rollercoaster ride I've been on lately. Strap in as I spill the beans on my recent journey to reconnect with my Dad's side of the family after a whopping 10 years apart! 🌟 Join me as I dive deep into the intriguing world of family dynamics, tracing our family tree, and unraveling the complex threads of mental health and addiction that run through our history. 🌳 I'm shining a spotlight on the often-overlooked issue of genera...
Oct 09, 2023•1 hr 5 min
🎙️ Join us in this captivating episode as I sit down with the incredible Matt Gardiner, a Recovery Coach and Story Work expert. Together, we unravel the secrets to breaking free from 'stuck stories' and conquering addiction, while seamlessly integrating sobriety into life's beautiful tapestry. 💨 Discover the transformative power of breathwork awareness, the art of choosing your inner dialogue, and the magic of reframing the narratives that have shaped your existence. Matt's insights are nothin...
Sep 25, 2023•1 hr 33 min
Join us for an inspiring and transformative episode as I sit down with my amazing sponsor and dear friend, Jeff. Our bond goes beyond friendship – he's been a guiding light and mentor in my life. 🌟 Friendships are like the chapters in our life story, and in this episode, we dive deep into how we navigate the inevitable disagreements and hurt feelings that can arise. 🤝 In the past, I used to shy away from addressing any emotional wounds, letting grudges fester and disrupt the harmony. But thank...
Sep 18, 2023•1 hr 26 min
Get ready to dive deep into the rollercoaster of emotions and self-discovery in this riveting podcast episode! Join me as I courageously unpack the fears and intense emotions that have been surfacing in my life recently. It's a journey of self-reflection like no other. We'll explore the powerful triggers that ignite these feelings, especially when I find myself caught up in the perilous game of comparison. Trust me, it's a trap that can take on countless forms. When I start comparing, those old ...
Sep 11, 2023•51 min
🎙️ Join us for a riveting episode featuring Matt Wenger, the clinical director of Begin Again Institute, as we dive deep into the world of recovery and personal growth. 🚀 In a twist of fate, we didn't hit the record button until 26 minutes into our conversation - but what unfolded next was a lesson in resilience and grace. Discover how we turned a hiccup into a powerful moment of reflection. 🌟 Life rarely follows our script, and in the world of recovery, it's all about adapting to the unexpec...
Sep 04, 2023•1 hr 15 min
🌟 EMBRACING OPPORTUNITY & OVERCOMING FEAR | Navigating Recovery Journey 🌟 🎉 Join me on this exhilarating ride! 🎉 🔥 Dive into my FIRST FULL LENGTH VIDEO, where I'm spilling the beans on some mind-blowing news and incredible opportunities that have come my way! 🙌🌈✨ 🙏 Discover the raw emotions as I talk about answered prayers and the powerful dynamics of gratitude vs. fear. 🤝 Feel the intensity of the tightrope walk between the excitement of newfound prospects and the daunting shadow o...
Aug 28, 2023•55 min
In this episode I discuss a new approach that I am trying to take with life and the uncomfortable feelings that pop up which is to approach them with love. My therapist recently suggested a book called Whatever Arises Love That by Matt Kahn. The book is not recovery based but rather a spiritual approach to the world based in love. The way its described is if we can give love to the things inside of us that we don't like it will open us up to loving not only ourselves but the world around it. It ...
Jul 26, 2023•1 hr
In this episode I'm back for a solo session and for the first time ever I'm totally on my own when it comes to recording and editing. This whole episode came with new challenges and opportunities from start to finish. As I embark on a new chapter of my journey I am faced with doing things that I've never done before, and for me that can be a very scary and daunting place. I have a lot of fear when it comes to trying new things, I can often count myself out before I even try it because the tape i...
Jul 20, 2023•1 hr 3 min
In this episode I am joined by Melissa Killeen. Melissa is an established Recovery Coach and author who published the book Recovery Coaching- A Guide to Coaching People in Recovery from Addictions. Utilizing her master's degree in Executive Coaching along with her many years of personal recovery she realized the the impact coaching would have for those that want recovery but cannot seem to achieve a balance of work, relationships, family, and recovery. She continues training recovery coaches for...
Jun 22, 2023•1 hr 57 min
In this episode I am joined by Chelsay, who shares her experience strength and hope. Chelsay and I met last year at a local S recovery retreat, which if there is ever one in your area I highly recommend attending. We touch on a lot of different topics from trusting the transformation down to music and how that ties into our recovery and our circles. During the episode the phrase terminally unique gets brought up. I remember the first time my sponsor told me that I am not terminally unique, which...
Jun 08, 2023•2 hr 23 min
In this episode I talk about my religious upbringing and how that has played into my relationship with my higher power today. When I got into recovery the idea of a relationship with a Higher Power made me cringe, I thought I'd have to go back to the same religion that I grew up in. I really struggled and wrestled with this idea. I don't know what changed or shifted, and I realized that my relationship with my Higher Power is just that, MY relationship. In the fellowship it is stressed that in o...
May 05, 2023•1 hr 1 min
In this episode I get current with what's been going on with me over the last month. Life is going to happen regardless whether we want it to or not, and for me part of that life cycle is finally running into Patricia, of all places the rink where I play hockey. Needless to say the title of the episode says it all, I was completely shook and taken back. I knew that there was a chance that this could happen and also a chance that it wouldn't happen. Other than very surprised there was a whole gau...
Apr 11, 2023•50 min
In this episode I am joined by Nate Geyer. This is Nate's second time on the show and if you have not heard out first conversation go and check it out, Episode 32 Out of the Flames. Nate and I dig into enmeshment, something that I have been looking into recently. It's important for us to dig into out past and connect the dots, seeing things for what they are helps us see how we have become our attachments whether that's in a relationship or a friendship. Getting into recovery means stepping out ...
Mar 28, 2023•1 hr 22 min
In this episode I am joined by Fish. Fish is an alumni of BAI and reached out and wanted to share his first step on the show, and share his views on recovery. Our first step, in any program, highlights the experience that we have had with our addictions and it is important to also share strength and hope. If we stop with our first step we will never find the solution and the problem with continue. Everyone's first step is different, when it came down to writing mine I got really hung up on it be...
Mar 21, 2023•1 hr 26 min
In this episode I am joined by Scott Camp who is a lead therapist at Begin Again Institute and CSAT-Candidate. Scott I met when I returned to BAI in August 2022 for a follow up 5 day trauma intensive. Scott shares his journey of his own recovery which includes taking time away from school to work on himself and find his own healing journey, which led him back to school and into the field of helping those with sexual addiction. It is important for anyone in recovery to take the time to dig in. Re...
Mar 11, 2023•1 hr 17 min
In this episode I give an update on how things have been going for me. Part of the work that I have been focusing on is exploring my enmeshment with my mother and how that has affected me and my life. Dr. Kenneth Adams wrote a book called "When he is Married to Mom" where he breaks down how mother-enmeshed men are affected, how it can lead to addiction, and ways to heal. In the book he cites that 40% of male sex addicts are mother-enmeshed men. Reading the book has made a lot of sense for me and...
Mar 02, 2023•57 min
In this episode I am joined by Andy. Andy is a sex and love addict who I met a couple months back at a local S retreat and he has quickly become a part of my inner circle and close friend. Andy shares where things began and what eventually lead him into recovery. Love addiction is something I've heard about in meetings but not something I've talked about because I don't believe its something that I struggle with. Andy shares how love addiction has impacted him and his life. Being two single guys...
Feb 01, 2023•2 hr 10 min
In this episode I am honored to be joined by Mark and Angela. Mark reached out to me and asked if I would be interested in having both him and Angela on to hear the perspective of a betrayed partner, which is a thought that I have had since starting the podcast. Mark and Angela have been married for over 30 years, during that time there were multiple discoveries until Angela had had enough and kicked Mark out. Mark was desperate to find help, and with the help of Angela, he found himself at the ...
Jan 25, 2023•2 hr 13 min
Happy New Year! After over a month off I get back in the studio and talk about what I've been up and how things have been going. Not recording left me feeling very empty and purposeless. I'm glad that I took the time off and allowed myself the space to see how important telling my story and spreading the message really is to me. If you are like me, the voices in my head can be deafening at times keeping me in doubt, which is not the life that I want to live. In recovery I have found ways to turn...
Jan 11, 2023•1 hr
