In this episode I am joined by Garrety. Garrety is the Program Coordinator and Alumni Relations Coordinator for all men's intimacy disorder programs through Begin Again Institute, Boulder Recovery, and ILC Ridgeview. Garrety shares his personal story of rising through the ashes. Recovery is all about actions and solutions, we all gather around the community campfire to share our experience and learn from others. What works for someone may not work for everyone and there are always lessons to be ...
Nov 29, 2022•1 hr 42 min
In this episode I am joined by my sister in recovery, Sherry. Sherry and I met through local SCA (Sexual Compulsive Anonymous) meetings. Sherry shares her powerful journey through early life, what lead her to recovery, and gives us the perspective of sexual addiction through a woman's eyes. Being in recovery is like going back to a war zone, digging through the rubble to try and piece things together. This is something that people normally don't do, but being in recovery for SA it's something we...
Nov 16, 2022•2 hr 1 min
In this episode I'm flying solo and checking in with how things have been going for me and my recovery. I cover what's been working and what I've been struggling with. When the urge to act out hits it usually means there is a need that is not being met and It is my job to determine what the need is and finding the right tool for that need, however the solution isn't always clear. When the solution isn't always clear that's when I have to lean on my support network and my Higher Power, by making ...
Nov 08, 2022•1 hr 8 min
In this episode I am joined by Manny. Manny and I met through a zoom meeting last year. Over the course of our friendship we have shared our struggles and victories, Manny has been there for me through some of my lowest moments. Speaking about low moments, this conversation has reminded me that there have been multiple rock bottoms that I have hit over the course of my recovery, and because of those very low moments there has been clarity and lessons learned. By no means do I want to continue hi...
Oct 26, 2022•1 hr 9 min
In this episode I am joined by Jon. Jon and I met when I attended the 5 day trauma intensive at Begin Again Institute, where we spent 5 days in the trenches digging up our pasts and trying to make sense of the trauma that we experienced growing up and how it has affected us today. There is a certain bond that is formed when you are doing this kind of work in a group. You go from complete strangers to knowing the most intimate details of someone's past in a matter of minutes! Jon and I reflect on...
Oct 18, 2022•1 hr 42 min
In this episode I am joined by an important person in my life, my sponsor Jeff. Jeff has been in recovery for a number of years and in this episode he details his childhood, what led him into recovery, what keeps him coming back, and the nuts and bolts of recovery. Jeff is filled with wisdom and not afraid to share his journey to anybody that will listen. Jeff's story is a long one and it is filled with a lot of powerful thoughts and motivators from being in and out of the program over the years...
Oct 10, 2022•1 hr 51 min
In this episode I am joined by BAI therapist Nate Geyer. I got to work one on one with Nate while I was at BAI in 2021 and again in August of 2022, and like Matt Wenger, Nate is exceptional at what he does. Nate shares his story from growing up with the struggle of two stories, the first story being what's on the surface and the story that is inside which is a story that is created by our own mind and tells us we are alone. Nate talks about what led him to BAI and what he discovered about himsel...
Sep 19, 2022•1 hr 9 min
In this episode I go over the details of my most recent trip back to Begin Again Institute in Boulder, Colorado where I attended a 5 day trauma intensive, that built on what I had learned when I was there a year and a half ago. I was really excited to be going back and I'm really happy that I did. In order for me to progress in my recovery and heal I must commit to the process even through all of the anxiety and fears because on the other side of fear is great reward I just have to take those le...
Sep 12, 2022•56 min
On this episode I am honored to be joined by Matt Wenger. Matt is the the clinical Director and lead therapist at Begin Again Institute and Boulder Recovery in Boulder, CO, and has worked with hundreds of sex addicts. Begin Again Institute is where my recovery journey started back in February 2021. Matt and I discuss how important it is for sex addicts to get down to the root trauma when it comes to this addiction, how he is able to keep everyone's story organized in his own head, and a new pers...
Aug 21, 2022•58 min
Welcome back to another episode, this time its a solo check in, which I felt like I haven't done in a while. The beast that I have been dealing with lately is fear. For me fear has run my life. From the fear of rejection, the fear of failure, the fear that I wont be able to provide for myself, fear of what other people think, fear that I'm not good enough, all the way down to a fear of dogs. Too many times in my life this fear has held me back, where does it come from and what can I do to better...
Aug 15, 2022•52 min•Season 2Ep. 6
In this episode I am joined by a brother from the program Wes. Wes is a part of one of my regular weekly meetings that I have been attending over the last year and a half, and this is the first time that we have really connected outside of the meeting. We both discovered that we have a lot in common from how we were raised to the way our brain functions and how rigorous honesty has set us free. In this conversation it really shows the importance and the beauty of the program and how we get to cr...
Aug 08, 2022•1 hr 22 min
In this episode I am honored to be joined again by Big Ticket. We discuss his recent breakup and how his recovery has changed now that he is single, and how being single while in recovery from sexual addiction is a tough thing to navigate, the consequences to our actions are different and there is less of a backstop for us when we get into our addictive cycle. Being single in recovery for sexual addiction is something I know all too well and I'm very grateful to have others like Big Ticket to sh...
Aug 01, 2022•1 hr 31 min
In this episode I talk about a recent situation that really touched me when I saw baby pictures of myself for the first time. In each and every one of us there is our inner child who is still alive and at time screaming for attention and for their needs to be met. Inner child work is an important part of my recovery, he holds a lot of answers for me, and its an aspect that is often overlooked. As an adult its my job to listen to my inner child, nurture him, make him proud, and protect him. I hav...
Jul 25, 2022•13 min
In this episode I sit down with the Rev, a pastor and a porn addict. We talk about the things that keep up humble, what it means to truly rest on God's shoulders, hurt people hurt people, and two truths. This was an awesome conversation and I'm very grateful for the willingness the Rev had to come on and share his story, it took a lot of courage especially for a man in his position. I hope you you enjoy this conversation as much as I enjoyed being a part of it. Thanks for listening! For more res...
Jul 18, 2022•1 hr 12 min
As I progress in my recovery there are going always going to be new realizations. After a few tough weeks and some hard conversations I finally asked myself what is it that I really want. When I got out of treatment I had a solid foundation to build upon, and I was building the wrong house for the wrong reason and for the wrong people. What does the house look like that I want to live in, and how do I build that? These questions were very freeing for me, and really put things in perspective. Whe...
Jul 11, 2022•35 min•Season 2Ep. 1
While on this journey its very easy for me to get bogged down. Life in general doesn't always look the way we want it to, so how do we change that? Where do we look when we need that spark. On top of not feeling discouraged I've really been wrestling with my spirituality and it has left me feeling spiritually drained, which I didn't know was a real thing until someone else said those words and then it hit me. As a person who considers themselves an entertainer I'm always looking for that "Goldst...
May 26, 2022•46 min•Season 1Ep. 23
Part two of my awesome conversation with Hagrid. I really appreciate him coming on sharing his story and talking recovery with me. As an addict I find a lot of peace in these conversations, they are a reminder that I am not alone.
May 04, 2022•1 hr 25 min•Season 1Ep. 2
In this episode I am joined by a special guest and friend in and of the program Hagrid, a husband, father, handyman and an addict. Hagrid shares his story on how he found the program as well as some childhood traumas. Hagrid and I met a year ago thru a zoom SAA meeting and I am honored to have him on to pick his brain. We had such a good conversation that there will be a part 2 and more conversations to come in the future!
Apr 06, 2022•1 hr 13 min•Season 1Ep. 21
Addiction is like a hot stove, I know I’m not suppose to touch it, and no matter how many times I get burnt there is still an urge to touch the hot stove. I talk about some recent victories in my recovery and how those victories don’t always feel great. If there is anything you would like to hear me discuss on the podcast please feel free to email me at nolionshere@gmail.com.
Mar 29, 2022•53 min•Season 1Ep. 20
No matter how rocky the path gets, no matter how seemingly impassable the road seems I will be OK. I’ve never really be a fan of the saying “I will be ok”, that statement brings on a lot of huge question marks for me in my recovery. I’m finally starting to accept that and also realize that I’ve gone through a lot and am still moving forward, I’m OK. Please free to reach our if there is anything you want me to discuss on the podcast nolionshere@gmail.com
Mar 22, 2022•38 min•Season 1Ep. 19
Pat and I talk more about our time in treatment together, working the twelve steps, and we get current. A real conversation about recovery and how we can get so trapped in our way of thinking. Please feel free to reach out if there is anything that you want me to discuss on the podcast email me at Nolionshere@gmail.com.
Feb 28, 2022•58 min•Season 1Ep. 18
In this snippet I share the readings that are read before every one of my home group SAA meetings. Depending on the meeting these readings can vary. These are very powerful readings and great reminders that help keep me on the path. If anyone would like more information on meeting formats or even where to find a meeting please reach out nolionshere@gmail.com
Feb 18, 2022•12 min•Season 1Ep. 17
Pat and I met in treatment out in Colorado where we spent two weeks together. Pat is almost 3 years sober from drugs and alcohol and he shares his story of what led him to treatment for sexual addiction. This was an awesome conversation and I really appreciate Pat coming on and sharing his story. Please feel free to reach out and let me know if there are any topics that I should discuss on the podcast nolionshere@gmail.com
Feb 15, 2022•49 min•Season 1Ep. 16
In this episode I discuss how I’m trying to control my situation and the turmoil that happens when I try and play god. Addiction is all about control, and in recovery I am taught to let go of control and to be God centered. When I am “I” centered it causes a lot of issues for me, issues that I am quick to forget. As always if you have any comments or want to hear me discuss anything specifically please email me at nolionshere@gmail.com
Feb 04, 2022•46 min•Season 1Ep. 15
In this episode I take you thru the holidays and the struggles that came with that and the near misses. The process is the process and it’s something that I must trust. I’ve been struggling lately so it’s taken me longer to get some new things posted. If there are any topics that anyone would like me to discuss or send feedback please email nolionshere@gmail.com
Jan 21, 2022•1 hr 12 min•Season 1Ep. 14
Big Ticket asks the question...if we had to go back and choose between being a sex addict or not which would we choose. We talk about how important it is to reach out when we are in low places and how reaching out might just help someone else out who is struggling. Please feel free to reach out with any comments or any ideas on topics that you would like for me to discuss nolionshere@gmail.com. Keep coming back!
Jan 04, 2022•58 min•Season 1Ep. 13
Big Ticket is back for another conversation, last time we talked he was ready to give up Porn. We discuss how that’s been and our most recent slips. We touch on how important it is to fold our recovery laundry. Please feel free to reach out at nolionshere@gmail.com with any suggestions for topics on the pod.
Dec 26, 2021•48 min•Season 1Ep. 12
In this episode I discuss my travels over the holidays and how important it is for me to have a recovery plan while I travel. Even tho I’m taking a vacation it doesn’t mean that my addict takes a vacation. For any comments, questions, or ideas for things I should discuss please email Nolionshere@gmail.com
Dec 14, 2021•48 min•Season 1Ep. 11
Even when things are going well I need to remember that I am an addict and that the addict inside of me is always ready and willing to show his ugly face. If anyone would like to reach out please feel free to email me at Nolionshere.com.
Dec 07, 2021•1 hr 8 min•Season 1Ep. 10
Patricia and I catch up. I learn a lesson: life happens while we are busy making grandiose plans for it.
Nov 30, 2021•1 hr 3 min•Season 1Ep. 9
