Since I made this podcast, I've explored different aspects of depression and how it has affected me. It hasn't always been a peaceful ride, and it certainly hasn't always been fun, but it's helped me to better understand my mind. While I've made all of these revelations, something has stayed constant that I will never be able to escape entirely; I'm still depressed. Recently, I've thought a lot about what it actually means to be happy, and wondered if I'll ever be able to feel what others define...
Feb 03, 2020•35 min
I graduated from college in 2017. Since then, I've been laid off once, changed apartments three times, changed out of another job, and now I've moved to an all new city. On top of that, I start a brand new job tomorrow that is in the field that I studied in college where I'll meet all new people, responsibilities and challenges. In this episode, I reflect on everything that's happened to me over the past two years, and how I'm equal parts depressed and excited to see what happens next. --- I am ...
Jan 27, 2020•33 min
This episode is one that I feel is about an obvious topic, but what it means is often less than ideal. What I mean by this is that - even though we grow as people - some of what we have done in the past will come back to bite us. Not everyone that you talk to while struggling with mental health will understand where you're coming from, and they might not even accept an apology if what you've done or said has really affected them. It's an unfortunate truth, but one that I think is important to co...
Jan 20, 2020•34 min
When you graduate college, there only seems to be two choices, career or relationships. After I graduated, I chose relationships and stayed in the town that I went to college in with friends and family that I love. That caused a lot of headache that came in the form of longterm unemployment, followed by a layoff, followed by another bout of longterm unemployment, but I was mostly happy because I was with people that I cared about. That has all changed recently since I moved with Alex to the plac...
Jan 13, 2020•36 min
When the world moves at one million miles per hour, it's easy to let it take you on a ride and go with the motions. During this holiday break, I did just that and did my best to enjoy my time as it was happening. I went to see a bunch of family, got plans figured out before the big move that Alex and I are going on (which will have already happened by the time this episode goes live) and packed. While all of this was happening, I didn't have much time to sit back and reflect on how I was feeling...
Jan 06, 2020•34 min
It's that time of the year when everyone has something to be grateful for and most people are spending time with their family. In this episode, I'd like to talk about what makes spending that time with loved ones feel so fulfilling, and how even if you don't have a traditional family, you can still feel happiness in the world around you. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Faceb...
Dec 30, 2019•34 min
In this episode, I kinda ramble about being bad at stuff and how it's actually awesome. When you find something that you like enough to actually do it, being bad is fun because you can see where others are that have been doing it much longer than you, and you can find communities of people that want to see you do better. When friends and family aren't interested in the same stuff as you, there's always an online community that will welcome you with open arms. --- I am not a doctor, so do not tre...
Dec 23, 2019•32 min
When I was younger, I was a happy-go-lucky kid. Eventually, once puberty hit like a brick to the face, I defended against the impending doom of awkwardness and depression with being overly arrogant, looking back, generally unlikable. In this episode, I talk about why I acted like I was better than everyone else, how that was wrong, how I ended up swinging in the other direction of abysmal self-esteem and how I got to where I am today. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or med...
Dec 16, 2019•35 min
I believe that for many people, money is the ultimate stressor. Having far too much and far too little lead to their own struggles, and in this episode, I dive into the only one that I can talk about, which is the latter. Bills, loans and employment lead to so many difficult truths and issues that it's only right to talk about them and the experiences with it. I hope this episode can bring some inner peace to someone who's going through a rough patch. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this ...
Dec 09, 2019•35 min
Living with mental illness makes everything harder and one of the primary aspects of life that it affects is your ability to take on new, unfamiliar challenges. This week, I talk about how I had a hard time branching out and tackling new experiences, and how, with time and lots of introspection, I was able to look at the upcoming changes with hope and excitement instead of the dread that I had come to know. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this ...
Dec 02, 2019•34 min
As I reflect on monumental changes in my life, such as going to and then graduating college and changing jobs more times than I'd like to admit, it's easy to lose track of who matters to you. The people that you see everyday change, and maintaining contact is easy to forget, so how can you connect with those that you no longer see? That's what I talk about this week (and will continue trying to figure out for the rest of my life.) --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical...
Nov 25, 2019•32 min
Saying no is hard, especially when the consequence of you saying that short word can negatively impact others, but it's an important lesson to learn. Not only are there people in the world that will capitalize on your kindness, but there are some things in the world that are meant to take advantage of those that are willing to give 110%. In this episode, I talk about how saying no can take the stress off of your shoulders, and how it doesn't need to be internalized. --- I am not a doctor, so do ...
Nov 18, 2019•32 min
Technology is great... until it's not. It's been such a helpful and amazing tool, opening the world to communication that's never been seen before. The only downside is that, along with all of the good, it also does an impeccable job at making people feel worse about themselves. Let's talk about how it does that and how I try to fight it's negative influences. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some peo...
Nov 11, 2019•32 min
Finding a reason to keep pushing forward in life isn't always easy. Things are hard, people can be hard to deal with, and the weight of all of that on your shoulders can feel like too much. That's why this week, I talk about finding a reason to exist in everyday life, even when twists and turns of all shapes and sizes will happen to you until the end of time. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some peop...
Nov 04, 2019•33 min
This is the worst episode title of all time. Whatever. What's done is done. Don't hate me. When I was younger, I dismissed basically everyone with differing views from me. I didn't give people the time of day, and when one of the people that I did grow close to said or did something that I didn't agree with, I cut ties with them and moved on. Since I've been able to start making more meaningful relationships and see the world from many different perspectives, my connections with people are close...
Oct 28, 2019•35 min
Oh boy, one episode away from 50. That doesn't really mean much to me, but I guess it's something. In this almost impressive milestone of an episode, I talk through a few examples of me not being able to help people struggle through their issues because I was too busy with my own, and how I struggle to not blame myself for it everyday. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Faceboo...
Oct 21, 2019•29 min
In this episode, I talk about how finding something to look forward to after a long day can be all you need to turn dread into something hopeful. Who knows, maybe if you can find some excitement in the day, you might even be happy for a little while. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Facebook, Instagram and YouTube for more content.
Oct 14, 2019•34 min
This week, I had the pleasure of talking to Eric Zimmer, host of the podcast "The One You Feed." We talked about his experience with addiction, addiction in general and then the conversation evolved into a nice talk about life, why we do what we do and how we can help people. Eric is a really cool guy, and if you want to hear more from him, please listen to his podcast. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can hel...
Oct 07, 2019•40 min
Do you want the bad news or the good news first? Well, the bad news is that I really don't see an end to depression. The good news is that I don't think that's necessarily bad news. Discovering purpose and figuring out what makes you feel the way that you do could help you combat it, and ultimately fend off all of those pesky suicidal thoughts that you've been dealing with. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can...
Sep 30, 2019•36 min
Sleep is one of the few constants that can help you out when you're struggling with suicidal thoughts. It will give you energy to handle the world, make you less irritable, and even help you from getting sick. In this episode, I talk about how I've been struggling to get sleep and the ways that I've been trying to make up for it. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Facebook, Ins...
Sep 23, 2019•31 min
After years of me putting up emotional barriers, subconsciously sabotaging our friendship and generally being terrible, I can officially say that my girlfriend Alex and I have just celebrated out two year anniversary! In this episode, I talk about how Alex and I have gotten to where we are, and how unsexy a story the beginning really was. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Face...
Sep 16, 2019•33 min
The title says it all. What more do you want from me? Oh... you want a proper description. Fine. This week I talk about a feeling of existential dread and numbness that's been overtaking my life. It's not all depressing as there is whale penis talk, but it isn't the most upbeat episode. I just talk about pushing through the hard times and remaining optimistic for whatever's coming next. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hope...
Sep 09, 2019•33 min
In this episode, I ask existential questions about why I do what I do, how this podcast can help people and how I can reach more people outside of the podcast. People deal with too many mental health struggles alone and I want to help, but deciding if I'm the type of person to help or not is hard. I just want people to be happy and I want to make the world a better place. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can h...
Sep 02, 2019•32 min
A lot of people use humor to cope with different situations, and because of that, some people have developed a range of darkness in their jokes. In this episode, I dive into why people might feel the way that they do when it comes to jokes, and reference prominent stand-up comedians and how they can find comedy in even the darkest of times. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Fa...
Aug 26, 2019•30 min
Staying up to date on what's happening in the world is important, but so is your own mental health. This week, I talk about how sometimes being up to date can be put on the back burner for a little bit if you need to focus on yourself. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Facebook, Instagram and YouTube for more content.
Aug 19, 2019•29 min
Welcome to another episode of Acceptable Madness. Thanks for tuning in as I talk about random shit and how it makes me less suicidal. This week, I talk about how I've been finding happiness in everyday things. I know you could tell that from the title, but that's fine. I told you here too and that works. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Facebook, Instagram and YouTube for mor...
Aug 12, 2019•31 min
This week, I talk about my long history of mistakes, mostly with people, and how I have learned from them to work on future relationships. The short and sweet lesson is, learn from your mistakes, even if that's as cliché as cliché 's come. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Facebook, Instagram and YouTube for more content.
Aug 05, 2019•33 min
Sorry for this episode being a few days late. I just moved into a new place and didn't have internet until today. For this episode, I talk about how I discovered my emotional outlets, along with how important they have become in helping me truly discover who I am. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Facebook, Instagram and YouTube for more content.
Jul 30, 2019•35 min
Life is a real jerk. It'll kick you, then spit on you, then kick you again, then steal yo girl and skip away while laughing like a toddler who just saw a cartoon cat get outsmarted by a mouse. It's easy to let life get you down so that you lose ambition and become complacent with yourself, and this is how I try to avoid succumbing to it. --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this as therapy or medical advice. I just do this podcast with the hopes that it can help some people. Follow me on Faceb...
Jul 22, 2019•36 min
Figuring out how to exist as a barely functioning adult in society is as hard as anything you'll ever deal with in your life. Trying to figure out how to do it effectively is even harder. And trying to figure out how to do it, and have a good work/play/family/friend/hobby/exercise balance is like defusing a bomb with a sock puppet. It's almost impossible, and I'm pretty sure no one actually knows how to do it. - Scott McWorkHardPlayHardWorkHardPlayHard --- I am not a doctor, so do not treat this...
Jul 15, 2019•31 min
