I remember back when I was really actively pursing my goal to grow my Instagram following. How much anxiety, stress, jealousy, and overwhelm I felt on a DAILY basis. Often times I would wish I could let it all go. I honestly felt trapped in my own mind about it. For so many reasons I thought letting go was not an option. I thought… I’ve invested too much time and money into this, I can’t stop now. Sometimes I would meet people that weren’t on social media at all. Some part of me judged them for ...
Mar 01, 2022•22 min
The other day I found myself TRIGGERED by something and wanted to share my process in coaching myself through it. Triggers can show us where our attention is needed. What is unresolved within our subconscious. It's an opportunity for us to do an investigation and it can actually be a lot of fun. Like solving a mystery. You follow the breadcrumbs to find the source of your pain. When did this start? Describe in full detail the story you've been playing on repeat. It's a chance to discover the par...
Feb 22, 2022•24 min
Our theme this year is Discover YOU in 2022 and I believe the best way to self discovery is through our EMOTIONS. As we get to know our feelings and where they are coming from, we get to know ourselves. We are always saying things like… “I didn’t like the vibe I got from that person… or… what a great vibe this place has… or… we just weren’t vibing with one another. I never really knew there was some scientific validity to the whole VIBE term… Physicists explain that inside every atom is mostly e...
Feb 01, 2022•23 min
Little did I know that my initial breakdown/breakthrough would last almost 4 years before I began making sense of things and feeling put back together. The interesting thing though is that it really feels as if I’m putting pieces of myself together but not using any of the old pieces. Like putting a puzzle together that is completely blank. Every piece is just pure white, nothing on it, not even a spec of color. Putting the pieces together gives me a sense of wholeness and a feeling of pure pote...
Jan 18, 2022•12 min
Over the break I tried something new... I made a goal to go an entire week without reading books or consuming content via podcasts, audible, and YouTube. I know this seems like a silly goal, but one thing I realized is that I have an addiction to seeking answers outside of myself. I've identified where my addiction to information began and I believe it started when I was a child. Growing up we moved a lot, and I changed schools about every 6 months for a while. Because I always felt behind in sc...
Jan 10, 2022•19 min
I believe we are all vulnerable to unhealthy cult like structures. They come in many forms. Not all cults are necessarily bad, but in my opinion, many of them have unhealthy practices that can lead us down a path of even more separation rather than community. In this episode I explain how I've been influenced by cult like structures in ways that has caused me so much confusion about my path and purpose. One of my biggest takeaways from participating in "cults" is that I don't want to be an imita...
Nov 02, 2021•23 min
There's no doubt Sean has achieved tremendous success in which I'm so grateful for, proud of, and inspired by. But admittedly, there has been a part of me that resents his success when I compare myself to him. I've spent over a decade trying to build the same kind of success, but in my own unique way. In some ways I'm very proud of what I've created over the years, but when I compare myself to Sean I come up with all kinds of reasons why he's just better than me. My mind spirals into victim ment...
Oct 26, 2021•21 min
Explaining where I've been the past few weeks.
Oct 20, 2021•16 min
Our motto this year is really been about letting go and letting it flow. So this week on the podcast I wanted to elaborate more on that topic since I feel that has been such a big part of our experience lately. 2020 has really turned out to be a gift in many ways. Mostly because it has presented us with the opportunity to practice our “letting go” muscle. It’s been one of those huge letting go lessons that has yet again turned out to be the catalyst for receiving MORE. It’s one of the benefits o...
Sep 27, 2021•25 min
Today Sean and I wanted to share an update as far as where we are, mentally and emotionally as it pertains to our journey out of Mormonism. This past year has been quite the whirlwind. I turned 40 and for some reason, along with that came a whole host of internal issues that came up for me. I was struggling with finding a purpose and positive outlook in life. I was confused and overwhelmed by my own lack of beliefs, and unanswered questions. There were so many things swirling around inside of me...
Sep 21, 2021•41 min
I'm BACK at it my friends. I had a crazy busy summer and in this episode I'm just catching you up on what I've been up to the past few months.
Sep 14, 2021•22 min
The more people I get to know on a deeper level, the more I'm realizing that every one of us has some level of childhood trauma. Not to shame and blame the caregivers because heaven knows I'm no saint when it comes to parenting. We are all doing the best we can with what we know therefore we must offer that same understanding and compassion for the people who devoted so much of their time and energy in raising us. Healing the inner child is not about bringing up old wounds for the intent of reve...
Jun 29, 2021•1 hr 4 min
ER Shred Ambassador Jesse James Jamnik interviews me about my weight loss and personal growth journey thus far. "As Co-Founder of the ER Shred Protocol, along with her husband Sean, Crystal has a true passion for helping transform people's overall well-being. Especially seeing as though she herself struggled for years before finally cracking the code. Join us as Crystal and I break down the past and touch on subjects that you very well might be struggling with yourself. Sugar & Carb Cravings...
Jun 23, 2021•1 hr 19 min
First of all, how can we possibly know how people SHOULD love us? Letting go of all my shoulds has been the hardest thing for me to do. I want to believe that people should do things the way I think they should. But as Byron Katie always says, when you “turn it around rather than waiting for someone else to do it is the end of the road not traveled”. I love the turn around technique she teaches, it helps me really put things into perspective and switch my focus off the person I’m judging and all...
Jun 15, 2021•12 min
We all dream of the days when life ceases to be challenging. When we learn all the lessons there are to learn, we make our millions, solve our problems, achieve all our goals, and ride off into the sunset with our happily ever after. Unfortunately, or should I say FORTUNATELY, life never stops presenting us with a healthy dose of difficulty. Itt all comes down to our attitude and whether or not we’re able to embrace life’s challenges and see them as the perfect opportunity for growth and self di...
Jun 08, 2021•25 min
Stripping myself down of all the things that feed my ego has been extremely challenging. In this episode I go into more detail about some of the things I found myself addicted to, not realizing the driving force behind it all.
Jun 01, 2021•24 min
Thinking outside the box, new and different ways of doing things. Stepping into the unknown, reinventing, and redefining life. That's what 2021 is all about.
May 26, 2021•54 min
Grief is an emotion I'm learning to sit with these days. Grieving the loss of certain beliefs I've clung to my whole life, and grieving the loss of a pet. Sometimes when we feel an intense emotion like grief it almost feels like you're wearing a shocking device. It hurts so bad you become desperate to relieve the pain. But I've found that, relaxing, allowing, and breathing can be the best antidote to painful situations.
May 18, 2021•36 min
Human behavior is something I'm completely fascinated by these days. Learning how the mind works and why we cling so tightly to specific beliefs. I understand there is a level of comfort that comes from firm beliefs, but in my opinion it hinders our growth. Anytime we believe we KNOW things with certainty, it blocks us from ever expanding beyond what we currently understand. Often times we just become robots, programmed as a child in order to fit the societal mold.
Mar 30, 2021•44 min
Today I'm talking about my midlife crisis that started 3 years ago, but became overwhelmingly intense the last 3 months. Going into all the things that have contributed to my "falling apart" right before my 40th birthday.
Mar 05, 2021•29 min
Emotional Eating Coach, Andrea at ThingsAndreaSays.com is going to walk us through some of the reasons why we might be feeling stuck when it comes with finding the discipline and willpower to stick with our protocol.
Feb 01, 2021•28 min
Sharing my business journey story and all the different endeavors I pursued beginning at age 15.
Jan 26, 2021•42 min
Let's talk shit, bowel movements and gut health. Talking about Sean's struggles dealing with various gastrointestinal issues over many years. Also listing several things we both tried in order to improve our gut health. Coffee enemas, fiber overload, probiotics, kombucha, fermented vegetables, etc.
Jan 21, 2021•42 min
Shelly DeWitt Johnson was born and raised in a very strict and patriarchal religion. She got married young and had 7 children. At age 40 she left the religion and culture that had been the biggest part of her life. After starting to deal with that trauma, she realized that she was gay, which added a whole new set of issues. Not long after, she got divorced. As a single Mom with no college education she had to start her life again at age 43. Shelly met her girlfriend Mary and they started a podca...
Jan 12, 2021•1 hr 2 min
I've been a fan of John Gray, Author of Men Are From Mars Women are From Venus, since I was 19 years old. Can you believe that? I had the amazing opportunity to interview him on my podcast. He shared some incredible advice on marriage and relationships. John helps men and women better understand and respect their differences in both personal and professional relationships. He has appeared repeatedly on Oprah, as well as on The Dr. Oz Show, TODAY, CBS This Morning, Good Morning America, and other...
Jan 06, 2021•1 hr 6 min
I can confidently say that Sean and I are EXPERTS at arguing. We have a lot of experience when it comes to having disagreements in marriage. Allow us to teach you exactly what NOT to do.
Dec 08, 2020•34 min
This is a raw uncut episode. As we started recording the episode Sean got ultra vulnerable and shared some never before told stories. I left the room while he recorded but when I listened to it back I was pleasantly surprised with what he chose to share.
Dec 03, 2020•29 min
For many years I’ve been paralyzed with the fear that I don’t have anything unique to offer this world. It’s caused me to unintentionally block the flow of inspiration and creativity. I’ve been really diving deeper and trying to identify what makes me unique. And I wanted to share some of my insights as I’ve been making a conscious effort in this area. I think it all comes down to the belief I had that there is nothing left to invent or create. It was more of a subconscious belief that I uncover...
Nov 25, 2020•12 min
In this episode Sean shares his crisis during the crisis. "The humbling moment in life when everything you've endured for so long suddenly feels worth it. When you are finally able to make sense of all of the confusion and frustration. When everything you have experienced was obviously meant to forge your path moving forward." ~Sean Escobar
Nov 17, 2020•43 min
I used to believe that the AMOUNT of things I got done was equal to my value as a women/ mother. Procrastination, perfectionism, and productivity was all intermingled with my misinterpretation around the goal to "become like Christ". I didn't realize I was striving for an unattainable goal of perfection. I desperately wanted to BE what others told me I should be, constantly hustling for my worthiness.
Nov 10, 2020•26 min
