No Time To Feel Afraid (w/ Marjan Pungartnik)

And I do this with inspirational insights and conversations with celebrities and everyday people like you and me, because if you want to be better and you want to do better, then you're going to have to be able to see better. So join me on this journey of living our best lives and understanding and realizing how you are your greatest assad I want to encourage you to dream big like you got to dream big. I woke up one day, I hit my j and I was on a computer and I don't know if I ever told you, but

angel numbers stand out to me. And I was paying off paying something on the credit card bill and the amount that I old was exactly too too too. Immediately I broke into tears, not because I was sad or anything, not because I'm looking at my account. It was more so because I know this God talking to me. I know that that's the universe, the realm, speaking to me. And then the thoughts of exceedingly and beyond, and I'm

just looking around. I say, God, you wouldn't have given me this vision, this passion on my heart if that's not gonna come to pass. God doesn't tease to take away. God isn't slow to keep his promise. It's just that us as a people, we have to understand our patience and understand the importance of timing, but also understand the importance of dreaming big. Now, I'm not sure if you believe in God or whatever it is that you believe in, but as far as me believing in God, and God

promised exceedingly and beyond. So if I'm dreaming big, give us something right that sounds insane, like like I tell everybody, I'm in the big an Oprah watch too many. It sounds insane, right, it sounds mind blowing, right if I can fathom, do we imagine that my God said exceedingly and beyond for more then what you could ever imagine, what are you dreaming for with your life? We don't have time to play small. We are all special offers

here for a limited time. So if I can dream this big, right, and I think that it could be this amazing, God says exceedingly and beyond that, we're as uncomprehensible. It also reminded me at that time to say, let's not only get out the way, dawn. You know it's frustration. You know how we get irritated because we're like, oh, it's not happening now, when it's gonna happen, When is

it my turn? What is it somebody gonna give me something? Well, you asked for a godly thing, right, you asked for exceedingly and beyond right, Who do you think that you are to figure out how God is going to fulfill the promise in your life? When the promise was just simply to dream big, The promise was simply to trust, The promise was simply to state peace. Be still, are you robbing yourself of your peace? Are you short changing

yourself of your joy? I want you to dream big because God said at exceedingly and be on far more than what you could ever imagine it's yours for the asking. Catch it, get your right in, Mandy, right with me and get excited about Tell miss something good on, Tell me that you like it? Here? You take it all. It's just me and you and you take Huh? Are your life or something? We're live? You here on? You thought it was about to be just a girl. No,

we're on. Do you see how much we've upgraded? Do you remember the first time you can take off the take off the full mask, put on the headphones. Put on the headphones so you can or are you what do you? Why are you whispering? You just talk about your t That's the way life is. You can't wait to show up for life. You just show up. Listen, do you remember the first studio we were come to?

The microphones? You are testing it to my dreams? Do you understand that when I post this up and when I put the picture, people are gonna see me at accelerated radio plus seven plus years later. I don't even know how long? Mind you the same time that get this? So you remember how long that goal was? That Jeremiah, who's running the boarder, just let you upstairs. He was an intern there and working the board there and then fast forward we were online station and I'm sitting here

with Premiere Networks under Art Media. What don't tell me it's not possible? Right? What you say, Monty, y'all? What can we not do? What can we not have? I mean, take you, for example, you came all the way from Slovenia and came to America. I'm just saying for somebody that doesn't know it's possible. Just if somebody said, I don't know how I'm going to get there? Do you understand that your story in itself, Like I talk all

this smack, I shouldn't say smack. I'll tell somebody I'm from Detroit, I went to Howard, So I went to d C, lived in New York and then came to California. That's all in one continent, or is it not? Because North America is Mexico to okay, one country. You came from another continent. What Marion? Come on, can you help save somebody today? Can you sign up? But listen, do you understand just you searing your story, what that can

do for somebody? Wait a minute, I don't know if you want to go mean like it unexpectedly happened that transition from Europe to hear Oh you don't done everything that well not really wait was kind of life? Wait, wait somewhere? How did you end up? You thought you wanted to come to the States. Uh, well, know that the opportunity presented to go, like to work for a year and travel. So I was like meant to be like that, but then I made you know, now fifteen

years later, it's a whole different story. Did you know anybody? Different life? No, wait a minute. You came to the US not knowing anybody. Did you speak English? No, I knew the family. I'm going to go work for it to take care of their kids as an OL pair. Oh so you came to the States as an old pair. And if somebody doesn't know that that was here because

at that time wasn't like computer. We saw we had like a little video chat recorded like but just once before I got here, you risked everything on a video chat. Well it was through agency and you know they were probably checked out and everything, you know what it was the process the last a couple of months. So I mean that's not just like that, but yeah, pretty much

you want to a whole other country. And did you what did you learn English while you were out here basically here mostly I had like a little basic knowledge before from school and stuff. But it wasn't much were you scared, um No, like more that's scared. Just excited to see like something new, to to have a new experience. I was just going for experience. And I always felt like, if it's going to be bad, I can always pack my stuff and go back home and then you know,

go back to the same what. I know, Hey, you know, oh, I felt it on that because that's why I'm like, you had to step into a new thing, and that's why you gotta take a chance, because you already knew what was back there. It was only to create something new. And you know now that I think that, just right now at this moment, I'm thinking, I think I wasn't, you know, because it wasn't planning, It wasn't like organized, and it just happened fast and spontaneously. I didn't have

time to feel the fear, you know. Just now, I'm like thinking about that. I was just going for this new adventure, you know. And I think that's called a kind of how it works, because I when you planning things too much, like you know, like in some occasions, then you start like I personally, it happens like then you start like getting scared or you know, thinking, we're thinking, seeing like the hurdles you're gonna have to go through, and oh my gosh, you really want to do that.

And so I think it's kind of good to just go head on and just go for it and let's just see what happens. Usually good stuff comes out of it, or at least some growth, if nothing else. To listen, growth and a new experience, and growth lets you know that you're alive. And when you say it experience, it reminds me of my former barber friend confidant, the homie Lewis t Power. He says, the journey is the experience,

and the experience is the journey. And like you said, when we get down to the point where we're trying to plan something, we're trying to plan an in destination and when you think about life is the journey, that's the experience. Right. So you say, I don't even have to I don't to be scared. You just said I just did it. Do you regret it? No? Was it

the best decision of your life? I'm pretty sure what do you mean by that like the wildest because I would never have opportunity to to have all these experiences that are an adventures and stuff that I've had, and all the things that I've learned and people that I've met. I would never have that chance staying there. And yeah, and I wouldn't you probably not have met you, but who knows. You know, work like kind of life is crazy.

The world is like really small when they think about it, and especially someone like you, You've pretty much traveled the whole day on world. You know, you talked to me about it, but you have talked about recently how you put a video and you talked about in your home country about what happened to you, and you said so many people have reached out to you to say thank you for sharing your story. Can you tell me what happened?

The thing was, I grew up in like a small conservative village, you know, very religious, um Catholics, now ma am you gonna be? So I grew up gay and then moved to America, and I was being pretty openly gay since like I'm twenty one. So I felt like just going back home and you know, revisiting my childhood and my my hometown and my country. I've noticed, you know, there's not much talk about it that things hasn't changed. People are still struggling, People are still hiding. Um, people

are still putting in all LGBTQ community to shame. And you know, are people fair further lives? Well, there's like rises in suicide because people of the shame, and you know, people don't want to come out and they're scared what's gonna happen. They're gonna have no you know, family or friends to support them anymore. So it's I think it's pretty serious matter. What did your family and your friends support you? Um? Not? At first? My family didn't, My

friends were I guess completely fens differ. What happened with your friend was a lot, but I I didn't. That's what I'm saying. I know we talked about vulnerability, and I know your story was very impactful to you, and I didn't know whether or not because I would love you to share, but if you don't feel comfortable with sharing, no, Because I felt like, God, what's your father, what's your family?

Which is whatever? I felt like I have some I can bring some knowledge to it, some experience and hopefully maybe somebody will find something for themselves to learn from it, or maybe free somebody of the notion that you know, you have to live for others and you have to please your family or others and hide yourself in your life and not be free and truly yourself for sake of you know, what may have, what may happen, um And I just seem like, you know, I mean meeting

guys and girls in Slovenia, they were like a GBT and you know, they were struggling, and I felt like so sad for them. Oh and just seeing that, like how much they would like to be, you know, as free with themselves as I was. And I felt like it's important to talk about it, to bring that conversation to the table and say it like it is without shame, but also explaining the background of what happens when you

free yourself and what comes out of it. And so before you were able to free yourself, what was it like growing up gay in Slovenia? It was tough. It was tough because I was, like I was, I had like a split personality basically, and you know, when you when you live with a split personality kind of think when you have like two different masks on one for the public and family and one you're hiding for yourself. It's a deep secret. Um. I think it creates you

a little bit like almost like bipolar. Like you know, you live with stupid personalities on a daily basis day and they out after many years. It can live a mark on you. You know, it's stressful, it's hard, it's painful. And so for me, I think that mass pretending mass just got to have be like I couldn't fake it anymore. So what was it like growing up in your house? So growing up was like well, for the most of our nover the new secrets, but I grew up with

the abusive that, Um, it was not easy. And then when that came into play, you know my gain, that's my my sexuality, that not my gayness, just my sexuality. Um, that became really light. Why did you why did you between gayness and sexuality? Because I don't think there's such things like gayness. You know, like you're gay, but it's like you're it's your it's sexuality. You're just attracted to the same sex or you know you love when your love. Uh So I don't even want to like label it anyway. Um.

And the word game in British English actually means happy. UM. So it's just you know, with terms of your sexuality and because you were gay, you know what thought for thirty I had time thirty eight years too to try to figure out why my father was so abusive, why he was physically ABUSI if he was drunk. I realized, first of all, he was a hurt man. He didn't

know different. And second I think he might have had wanted to beat out he thought it he'd be able to beat out the the excitement for life that I had, Like I was always I was always doing, doing my thing. I was always like what I want, I'm going to go and get it, but not by crossing others, like by being nice and everybody to under still, but just I really want this for myself, and I would go. And I think he he almost couldn't, like he couldn't

see me like shine. And you know, I do feel that I think my shine was like maybe too much for him, or was like reminding him of some failures or some things that he did on have and I almost wanted. That's what I feel like, um, And for somebody that is hurt that's very like kind of typical. That's what hurt people do. They try to hurt other people to feel uh, you know, comfortable with them because there's now their level, their environment where they feel more comfortable.

And but yeah, it was just so so when you say that. And and just because you told me that you put up this video and you shared your experience, you said it got so much that you couldn't even get on Facebook because all of the requests are going in. I want to know what did you say? Everybody is sitting here and saying what did you say? For his entire country to reach out to him on Facebook? You simply said, hey, I'm gay, my dad was abusive, and

now I'm free. What did you say? I've well, what I basically told this kind of in a nutshell, what happened and what happened? What happened on like a last day when I was living, for example, my country, I was going to America and was partially because of my situation at home, my relationship with my dad. Just life just became kind of unbearable there and I didn't see myself doing things and experience things that I did that my heart desired. And I was like I just too

calip of faith. And when I answered this advertisement for like going to America, so on a day that I went, Um, so when I came out, they'd kicked me out. You know, my father and I never like were able to a mend our like differences. So when I left my you know, I started the story, and I knew if I started story with this, it's gonna at least brings people, like bring people in and like bring some attention to the

whole thing. Because what I was like one of kind of like the worst moments that transpired, but it was also another reflection of my relationship at that time with my family. So I'm saying goodbye to my family, and my mom was crying, you know, letting her son go, and uh, you know it was like worries south and hard for her for me to go to America, to something like strange country in the strange you know, in the far away land whatever. It was probably a huge

and overwhelming for her. So my dad, my dad said he didn't want to hug me or anything. He just said, um, I hope you get aids or and die, or like somebody goes and shoot you in the head. Wait, what because you wanted to leave as a good like I was leaving. I was like on the way to the airport, and I wasn't kind of his last like last words to me at that time. Um, So that kind of broke my heart for a minute. And I was like, well,

I'm not surprised. You know, You've been kind of like talking to me in this kind of tone all throughout my life, So I guess sadly I was used to it. Um it's not something you know, anybody should get used to it, but it just was the reality of my life. And then my brother was like equalist cold, and I was like, you know, we're happy that this faghetti is out of our house, and so it was. It was

definitely like not the wormest goodbye, you know. And then you know, coming here living my life for fifteen years, having all the experience that I've had and coming to terms to love myself and accept myself, I was like, you know what guys like, if you do that, if you learn, if you if you find a way to break away from certain situations or patterns and you learn to build yourself up with your own you know, kind of values and morals and take something from your parents

that they gave you because they weren't just bad. Nobody's just ever just bad. You know, my dad was so awesome and amazing man in so many ways. For the fact that he was, like he had so many shortcomings and so little opportunities given in his life at all. That's amazing that you can because what I'm trying to understand is that you know, like sometimes you can be dealing with somebody, but it's like for you to be at the young age and saying, when I say young age,

I was fifteen years ago. Now for you to even have the grace to even understand, like, how do you even wrap your head around to say, I forgive my father? Now, I'm not sure you haven't shared exactly what your father has said otherwise than wishing you know, well, that's huge, absolutely,

I don't know. Yeah, that is um, yeah, that is when you really think of the ground there's somebody like that, it's like, okay, it's like because that just leads the umbrella of what all could fall underneath when you get to that point and then you can say, hey, do you forgive your dad? I did? I did? I did? Even when I went back, I mean I went with therapy. I went through I meditated on it, that did yoga.

I did things I found, um not opportunities. I found, you know, um outlets to release my pain to, you know, to to build my character strong. What was, you know, the reason I was even ready to put that video out. I found myself in a place where except myself, I love myself. I'm free to talk about it and not point fingers and not paint a picture of my dad

is being that horrible batman. But just you know, it's the harshest and trick in trickasis of families are like so complicated, and the levels of traumas and pain and hurt generations from generations and you know, things that are embedded in our DNA is. It's so complicated and just to go and judge a person on its surface, like oh, yeah, you beat him up and you were drunkie. But but then you're like, but why he did that and what

was his reasoning? And you know, and then later on I came back from stage maybe like seven eight years for the first time I saw my dad from a from a different perspective and from a different point of view, and I saw him very sad and hurt. And at that point we already lost my mom to cancer, and he was so lost and broken and sad, and I found compassion for him, and for the first time, probably I must have been around dirty and I said, you know,

I love you. I wish you to have good rest of your life, Like you don't have to stress and worry about how I'm doing or how I'm feeling because I'm okay and I can I can take care of myself. And yeah, can I ask you a question I may be unnerving, Yeah, did you ever have thoughts of wanting to kill your father? Yeah, for most of my life, like for not to kill him, but to wish him that, to just wish him disappear, or like just not be because it was too hot, like it was too painful

for a kid. I think, like, oh, I think it's a grown up, as you know, and maybe now it's a he'll grown up. It's like easier to kind of

talk about these things. But remembering just as a kid, you don't have those tools, you don't have to knowledge, you don't have you don't know what to do, Like it's so painful with the person that it's closest to is hurting you and um, and you don't understand why and like and you think it's your fault and then you're called stupid on top of it, like all the time and wordless and it's just like it breaks your

like spirit down a lot. So if you grew up in this household, and I'm sure because your mother and the culture as far as cultures, the buyer husband wanted to stand by you as your son, who had your back, how did you feel safe? How did you even escape? How did you find your joy? God? I would say, like God and those like my little spirits. I always believe in angels. I always believe in I believe that

it was something bigger and something greater out there. I didn't know what, um, I just felt something else is out there that you know, it kind of looks over everything and all of us and everything is just part of this journey, something about that whole you know, and like you know, I was bullied and my mom was like shaus. My mom was like such a wise woman, you know, she was wasn't educated woman where she was like just wise for I don't know where that came from.

It was just I guess her gift and she loved. She taught me that bullies and you know, haters and people that tried to hurt you in life or people that hurt themselves. So from very early on, even I was I was really bullied kid in my village as because my dad was like a really drunk and you know, I didn't come from a well off family, so you know, with kids and with teenagers, constant you know, bullying and how you dress and how you look and what family

are from. And so I've learned really early to kind of protect, to protect my goodness, to be good to others despite everything that others do to you. And she was so adamant about it, like you have to be kind, you have to be nice, and you don't return bad

for bad, you know. And and actually, you know, in growing up, when I was going through like you know, we always go through growth changes and we always try to im better ourselves and stuff, and I was like going through like situation of you know, my life was changing, things were unraveling, so you know, and I was like, I've realized I developed as that kid like robin Hood syndrome. What do you mean by that? Robin Hood syndrome is like you want to like constantly help others. Oh, can't

I save everybody? Yeah, but oftentimes to your default, Like you're saving others to your detriment. Yeah, but they say, don't set yourself on fire trying to keep other people more. Yeah. And I realized, you know, always like priding myself and like you know, into goodness and being good person and you know, doing the right thing, that sometimes um trying to help others, and like, especially when you're not healed and wholesome person or you're not in the place to help.

I realized I'm giving out unsolicited advice that is not the person probably might not be ready to receive, and that can hurt so much, and that can put a strain on a relationship. And I had to learn, how do you know, be that guy to you know, spreading advice and spreading like, you know, saying people what to do in certain situations if they didn't ask for it. And my mom would tell me, you know, don't help and give people advice if they don't ask me. You

don't have to. She was like she knew, you know, I'm like a little dramatic and a little nosy and like a little gossip. It was like, don't mind other people's business unless they invite you to a There's still something I'm learning, you know, to this day, like, um,

you know, still that village boy in me. You know, like the gossip was the only exciting thing that was happening on daily basis in that world that nothing ever changes it like decades, but her words stick with me or all and so yeah, just just you know, I'm the kind of guy I like, I tried to take the good from people that I've learned from situations, take it and really learn from it and things that are not working for me that and you know that the part is the tricky thing is and I think every

human being, at least with some consciousness, we know what we're doing the good things or when we're doing the bad things. We feel it if your body tells you you're like you get nervous or stress out or like something when you feel it in a negative way. And I think we all have the the um, not only the power, but it's our job to try to think the you know, the good choices first in them for others.

I love what you said because you said the importance of protecting your peace and realize I think we had a conversation about that about you know, how are we going to allow things to affect us? And you know, sometimes that's just not surrounding yourselves in certain situations around certain people, are perhaps even just removing yourself from that. Also, you have to be what you choose to receive. You

can't seek love if you are not love. And it's interesting I think sometimes we try to put an output um expecting to receive something different, and we see it even in the food that we eat. You reap what you sow. You plant a apple seed, you will get an apple tree. I promise you it will not be a blueberry bush. And reference to that I saw. I saw the Yogi a video today actually I was talking about said about the apple tree and the apples. He said, when you take the seat, you you imagine what you're

gonna do. You imagine you're gonna get apples. But the seed and the tree, and the dirt and the water and the sun and the work to go into it, it's nothing. But it's nothing like apples. Apples comes as a consequence to all of that you put in, he said. But you have a seat, and you know that seat bears apples, you gotta know and put in the work. Hey, hey,

and you know I've never been one. I just I keep prefacing this because I want to make it clear when it's starting to reach me, and to reach me now when you talk about the word in the scripture and how it just affirms to a firm and I'm not crying because I'm sad. It's just overwhelmed me. And it's like, if we could just catch it, because all you have when you look at the apple seed and when you look at an apple tree, you can just

see the difference of the size. And just like how you were saying you were that young village boy and you said you just held on too faith. You had a little law, and in the scripture is saying, hey, just half faith, the size of a mustard seed. Just a low law. But guess what, faith without works is dead. So why do we feel like it's going to be something different and then we get upset when it doesn't

work out the way we imagined it. And it's right there and it says it you can have whatever you want, Ask and you shall receive, Seek and you shall find, Knock and the door will be open to you. So the question is what do you want? What is the seed that you're you're putting in? We hear about it in karma. What goes around comes around. We see it in fashion, but what out of style was back in style? We see it with life. Life begets life. Why don't you choose to seek it? Why don't you choose to

speak it? Why don't you choose to believe it? Like you said, why don't you choose to feel it? And you know what, we know the truth by the way that it feels. So what do you mean? Hey, what's up?

And be healthy day? Okay? You know I was probably I think I was disappointed at people for so long and for so many years, you know, with like starting at home and then some teachers weren't supportive and bullies around that I reached out to spiritual world because I felt no man, no woman can judge me or tell me who to be, what to do with my path, with my journey. Um, so that I rich elsewhere where it wasn't reachable, like you know when then nobody, none

of the people could take it away from me. So I always like it felt like you know what, I have a secret. I like, I have a secret I have like a secret body, I have a secret protection. You know, I don't care, will be against me, stop playing with me, go ahead, because the worst thing I felt like the worst thing of all that can happen, I just you know, die and stop living and go to whatever next time, like the next level of conscious

like you know, consciousness. That's so I never felt like of like I felt like I had this secret shelter, secret protection, you know. And it's it's that hope and that even if you can hold it and you're not you're not always sure it's there and you're not always believing it, you know, not every day was like, you know, like that. But just that alone, just that act alone, that act of hope and all you know that there's love outside of all of that. They will keep you

safe on your journey. That alone was enough to propel your further. And look at you continue waking up every day, continue being soldier every day, continued soldiery on going through hurdles of life, and you know, just be open to whatever comes your way. Open vulnerability. It's amazing. It's just being open house. Just things flow that way, right, But everybody don't want to be open. Hey, even when you talk about some of the most vicious quote unquote wounds,

you've got to be open to heal. But like you said, what that do process when that air hits is uncomfortable. Heck, it even starts the aartake because it starts to itch, because it's a process happening. The skin has grown way, and just like that, it is uncomfortable. Like you said, even with failure, when things to work out as we imagine them, too, there's still the growth and either you know in some way to do something or not to

do something, but you don't get something. Yeah, And a lot of successful people would say, you know, all my failures were part of my growth. So and they didn't allow of failures to discourage them to continue doing what they're doing. And because only then you fail when you stop hey, and you will stop doing what you love when you stop living your best life. You know, um yeah, So what does that mean to live your best life?

To live my best life? You know, it's to go to sleep at night and feel good about myself and about my humanity and about the fact that hopefully I didn't hurt anybody along the way on my day, hopefully that I did some good things for I don't know environment people, and that I wasn't an asshole, and that that little you know, goals and everything that is else that comes you know, you just built on top of that, but really trying to be a good person and face yourself.

And then because I gotta face myself in the other way, I can fake a lie to you. I can fake a lie on my social media that I'm cuter than I really am in real life. Put a good filter, you know, like just all this bunch of things that are like just noise and you've got in quietness and in peace when with yourself, You've got to face that and I wanna I want to feel good about it and say, you know what you did good and I'm proud of you today. And today is another opportunity two.

You know, do the same or even be better because the growth never stopped. You know, there's no limits to how good or how great you can be. No that means. And when you're saying that, I'm just seeing yourself. You know you've been saying with me a couple of days now as you're visiting from New York and I'm getting up and I'm meditating and I'm on my third eye chakra and a lot of that which just came to

me today. Um. You know, I say that I invite sex sacred transformation and it's safe for me to see the truth. You know, I didn't know what I thought about the truth at first. I was thinking, like, the truth for me to see is like making sure that I'm aware of what God is trying to show me your you know, the energies of the universe. I didn't think it just didn't dawn on me that that meant to even see the truth in myself, to see who I am. And you and I had had a conversation,

all good conversation. I'm just saying, hey, Dawn, sometimes you'd be like, no, Nick, picky, you're ridicule in the bin, and I'm just like whoa. And it was so uncomfortable for you to tell me that, because of course, I want to make sure that I'm inspiring and I'm motivating you to be all this that in a bag of chips. And then you don't feel attack like that, you don't feel like your characters being attack right. But here's the thing.

But when we talk about growth, and if I say I gotta show up because I've asked God for exceedingly and abundantly, like I am showing up for everything that God promised me. And I have to make sure that I operate in my best self and a truthful self, A truthful self to me also says when I I said this before in a previous episode, I say, when it's sent from God is a confirmation. When it's not

sent from God's frustration, hesitation, and confusion. And when you're not able to seek yourself, there's frustration, there's hesitation, there's confusion. So I need to see who I am because I need God to use me as an instrument to do what I need to do. Because if I know that what the aspirations that I have for my life or what I want to do, and God is like, yo, let me use you because whatever you got, I'm gonna

put some dopness on that. So whatever you do want, you app here talking about your yards, your private chance to be on the covers of all these magazines, you know, the syndicated television show, radio show, digitalor whatever. And it's like, yo, let me show up what God is gonna do. And then the thing that's so just a tricky problem. Just had this on there, God, Jesus, the story yourself, gangster. I want to be clear, this is what I'm stepping into.

Like for I needed to be a confirmation of people that are stepping into my life, circumstances that are presenting themselves. I need the communications to be clear. Whether you want to see my friend and we're gonna keep it passionic, whether we're gonna be intimate, whether we're gonna have a business relationship, You're going to have to be able to communicate. Could you imagine? And I'm just saying because I'm gonna promise in a prayer with what I'm doing with my

dreams in my life and how I've taken chances. So this is my my staff that I lean on. And I'm just imagining. If my my communication had been disrupted, your communication had been disrupted about what you thought was possible, what you thought that this protection was over you, you

wouldn't be right here? So why would I expect if I can see how the most important relationship has held me anchored, to my sanity, to my peace, to get up when I fell down, to turn a new page, to make a breakthrough, or to to to break over to get through is that it's clear. So why would I accept anything less, whether it be a friendship or anybody intimate. If you can't communicate with me, then what

we don't have anything to talk about. And guess what you talked about this earlier today or was it yesterday and you were talking about it. It's not just about what you say, it's about your actions. And I can hear what you said without before you even open your mouth. And if it's not clear, if I can't catch it, then but I can't hold you. But what also, what I was saying is just talking about how you're able to hold on that grips of faith and and to

know things. Is that when we talk about an awesome storyteller, Oh got it catching me baggas story teller, is that I'm not gonna say verbatim as far as biblically speaking the Bible, but it is one of the greatest stories ever told. We know the whole idea of telephone, how it changes over now we can get to the specifics about who said, well, who did what? But when you think about it, God Jesus, the energy is gangster. He told lads get up from the dead. He said, mo

just split the red scene. He was like, David Buck, get Goliath. And it's like, how could you question anything else when it's history upon history, when it's affirmed after it's affirmed. And I think it's so important that you know, like how you said, just get something to hold onto, eat the meat, spit out the bones, stop getting caught up in the text, and understand the message. You know.

I think even with myself, it's you know, it's interesting that we can sing songs in different languages and not know the words but still feeling for sure, sure because music gives out vibrations and we feel lost vibrations. And what's a vibration that's energy, right, yeah, exactly, And it's all energy, and you think about it just like like the ups and downs, and love is one of the most powerful energies. Love conquers all right, even people that

want to fear. And it's a high vibrating, it's a high if there's a scale of energies of um vibrations that we assumans are radiating, right, so the skills grow everywhere from you know, zero too. I believe it's like a little over thousand of those millibars of the energy that we release when we speak or when we do something right. So anger and hate and stress and anxiety, it's all lower on the scales. It's a lower vibration.

Love is the type of entire scale. So the more you know you're loving and you're accepting of love and you're giving a sharing and exchanging it, the more positive, like the higher robarations you're giving out and the high vibrations are kind of like universes bouncing back at you. And I think that's like important, just notion and guidance to heaving life. It's like love, be guide by love because everything, every decision and everything you're gonna make face

from that. It's gonna it's going to be good. It's gonna be true. Yeah, it's going to be clear. It's going to be peaceful. Yeah, it's not gonna bind you. It's like a hole just not gonna stretch it out because it's free, it's open catch it. You gotta be love if you seek love, right, well, I appreciate you. IM prompt to sit down, so before we can understank you, I just gotta say I I don't know how much this you're gonna cut out and stuff you're gonna you're

gonna probably edit stuff, I hope. So my entrance was like disastrous. I just excited, nervous, and we're Dawn Day podcast. We speak life. Now. Let me just say I was thrown in and they didn't know what's going on. Am I being recorded from cameras. There's cameras in my face, there's lighting my face, there's microphones here, there's everything you see like full on, beautiful, huge studios with everything you can imagine, all the electronics. So I was put on

a chair like to say high and hang out. It's just started question. It's always like I was prosed. I just froze. I got so nervous, but you kind of win me in by just like ignoring the fact that I'm frozen. It was like you're gonna get it. You're gonna get it. I'm gonna ask you, you know, and you started interviewing me, and I kind of just opened up towards did you say yes. I'm like fully opened. You ain't saying now you say yes? And he was like, I'm just gonna do the thing on thing. You showed up.

Imagine how many people can just show up just keeping thank you because you were here at the beginning, Marian, you when Vitamin D. Yeah, you were there. You were at the student when I came to California. One of the main things that what really got me to be like, oh, let's come out here. It's because accelerated Radio. It was the first online station that I saw the emulating an actual radio station. And living in New York, I was a small fish in an ocean. I didn't even a

small fish in the pond. I was an ocean and I had to go with the opportunity was and that's when I had my online station. You came to visit, you showed up there and look at us now. And I'm not surprised because as your friend, I always believed in you. I always saw talent in you. I felt it, I see it, I experienced it. So it's like, if anybody's going to do something on radio or TV or in media, that's gonna be Dawn. At least it is my sphere of universe of all the people and you know,

situations around me. I was like, Dawn is the one, uh, and I still do. I mean, you got a talent, and your talent is gonna take you as far as your allowing it to and I hope it goes far as far as you want to we go because we gotta be home yet Yep, we're gonna travel the world. Yo. Dreams don't work unless you do. You know. Actually, you know this morning I was in a bed and I got a lot was I was so emotional because I

was thinking, I was excited about you coming. And just like how you were talking about the story of the Yogi, you know, the idea of the tree in this apple seat. In this process, it can drain you because it's like it's constantly keep going. You don't know if it's hitting. You're putting stuff out there. You're constantly putting yourself out there the people that you automatically think that you may get support from, and you're you're not or whatever that

looks like. But like you said, that sun, that rain, everything's happened under the ground. And I guess I got overwhelmed with the emotions because I remember when you came to others, to you, I said, my god, I've been shuts right now. It actually motivated me to get up because I was like, I was not on the phone, but I was like, uh, I want to end up to meditate, and I was like, oh am, I gonna

go go on my walk or whatever. But it was that moment to be like, doh, you're doing all rightists, And I think sometimes we gotta tell ourselves, like doing all races, you have to you have to encourage and pet yourself on the back and surround yourself with people that speak life like that is so important to me. I'm not relying on you, and I gotta just to make sure, just like the sun shine, that you're not not avoiding the shine on me. What do I mean

by that? Just speaking whatever that light and that life is because I don't bounce it back, and if we get together, we're just gonna shine again, exactly. So I want to thank you. Thank you for your patience, thank you for your peace, thank you for speaking life for me with me, thank you for making we're doing it for each other. I feel like you know that I love you. I'm crazy. I'm crazy, yes, hal, but I love you and I love it too. Okay, so listen,

what's you about to say? No? I forgot like it was like me, okay, so this is the vital chest, this is my little baby. I got some words and stuff in here. And you know, that's what I wanted

to say. I think because you you've got over my overwhelmed, the emotional, overwhelmed, whatever, h and you know, life and surroundings, it's overwhelming, and it's okay to allow ourselves to feel to feel the hardship of it and feels hardship with like soldiering on, waking up, motivating yourself because everything that's going in the world is you know, subconsciously, it's affecting us.

You know, things, we see, things, we read, things, we hear, things that are happening around that we see with our own eyes. And so it's okay to allow ourselves to have a bad day, to have a bad moment to you know, yeah, and just be with it and then but then find the courage and the strength to you know, to push through because you know, after the rain comes to sunshine and it's really what it is to the end of the day, it's just as simple, why complicated.

You know, Um, I'm seeing my eyes are black and stuff. I'm listening you know, always as I always there's this quote I've been saying recently. I asked God to grow when it started raining, m just like you said he uses it all. I didn't say, oh, Jeremie to have it ready. But there's a quote with even a agor he's a recording artist. Jeremiah just said he got a ready to take a listen, phones, take a listen to

what this brother said. You know, that's this quote. It says, I asked God to grow and it started raining because he uses it all. Nothing is wasted when we're dealing with destiny, when we're dealing with purpose, God divinely uses it all, the sunshine and the rain, the storm and the bliss, all of it. It's for our good and it always ends good. It always ends Hey, count it all joy? Hey? Catch it so true? For sure, we're growing. We're growing. We're growing. We don't have other choice but

to go on and go up. Hey, you know you think about anything that grows from the ground. I don't think ever looks up, looks around and say, oh I don't know where to grow. It just goes up towards the light. Catch it? Hey, all right, so let's go back. So this is divided chest and divided chest. There are some words in here. I don't even It may reply to you, it may not, It can be like run. Yeah, and you you can say something like, you know, when I think of running, I think about how I gotta

run after my dreams. Or I don't believe in running for a situation. I don't know, just something inspired, some association on that right, just to make somebody feel good. First thing to come the mouth. Yeah, okay, okay, okay, here we go, here we go, open up. I love that A little music songs in the back. Okay, got it? You got a word. Oh it's a good one. Dreams don't work unless you do mm hmm. And just looking at in my reflecting with my own life, it's true.

You know, the dreams that I dream about and if I do work for them, they're just dreams, just stay there in the eater somewhere, still ready for grabs. But they're there until I'm ready to put in work and sacrifice and you know, whatever goes into it too, catch that dream. Um, And I think, yeah, working for your dream is should be your motivation every day and should be your reason to you know, wake up and be alive and you know, have that great human experience here.

Yeah without working on you know, get it is that simple, No matter what you know, circumstances you're born, no matter what class you come from. You know, even people that haven't given all materialistically have to work for their dreams, their true dreams and the true purpose. It's not you know. Um often like real dreams and things that will make us happy and their extension of our humanity and who we are is the ones that we work for. And then we input our we put some of ourselves and

our hearts and our you know, soul into it. Nothing just comes free and easy. M So you look around, it's your life and you say, well you can hustle my ass off, hustle my ass off. You look at your life and what do you say? That's what you want now? And I'm for that. I'm thankful for my parents to raise me as a hard working man. That not to be a shame of hard work, not to be ashamed of any work. If that propels you to where you want to go, where where you want to be,

do it. And that brought I'm here because of that, because you know, coming to America alone with no money, like it was no joke. So I've been in situations you know, yeah you did. That's a whole another video. Um, Well, thank you for sharing. UM, thank you for your words of encouragement and inspiration. UM, thank you for sean what's possible from the adversities of your your childhood. Just saying

I'm about to move to another country. Listen, I ain't say another state, I say another city, I ain't say another county, this weather moved from another country. Said I'm possible, And that's my story. And just remember we all have our story, right, we all have our hardships, we all have our pains, our obstacles, challenges that we go through life. So I don't you know, I'm very humbled by how you describe me and thank me, and I thank you for that. But I'm just heay, okay, I'm a regularly

I'm having a human experience. So I'm a little better awad anybody to say this. And I'm not trying to be rude, but this is that Arian dawn coming out.

I'm all about a component to speak in life, and I'm going to edify you and what I don't want you to do, and I don't like it's for me to shine light on you or rain down on you blessings and affirmation and you put up an umbrella So if right now I think you're the most amazing person is working, you allow me to say that because from my view and what I see, what I heard, and how you touched me and how you impacted me, you

could be that for me. And for you to take that away from me, that's not fair because all I am is giving you because you also did that for me, and I thank you for that as well. And I'm not gonna take away for I'm gonna say, yeah, I'm dope. I'm dope like that. That's how yo, that's how my reflection of my friends be. Anybody to deal with me, I'm gonna have you thinking that you can do, be and achieve anything you want out of life. I'm just gonna humble, accepted and inside of me And I'm like, yes,

she did that. Love it. But you know we don't even have to speak on listen. It's not about being arrogant. It's just about walking in your authority. Jesus guy, ain't even like, oh no, I'm not this. You think the kings and queens out there be like that. You think jay Z I talk, Oh, don't worry about me. I'm not jay Z. No. You put in that work. And it doesn't mean just a career aspect. I'm talking about

what you invested spiritually, mentally and physically. You overcome some things that people couldn't even see out of you are what they say when even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death? What what kind of shadow? What kind of darkness? Were you in? And you still were able to see the light? Stop playing with me. I don't care what it was. Your truth is your truth. And because it may seem not seeing the severity if somebody else doesn't make it less important, you know it. Amen,

and I receive you. Thank you now. I'm sure somebody was like, y'all, who is this brother on Dawn Day's podcast? How do I follow him? Where is it? Where can we follow you on social media? Well? Right now, you can follow me on um Instagram as Marian Lower dash Punni m A r j N lower their underscore po n G A r T N I K. I devote most of my social media to my travels and my experiences.

But if you take a closer look and if you really pay attention to it, uh, as far as it shows my life and my experiences, it actually talks about things that I learned along the way, people that I meet, foods that I eat, or places that I travel to.

Kind Of I want to expose the world, to show the world and to to bring it closer, to bring it close, to bring it to homes of people that don't have that opportunity and that chance to go, and they can learn something like they can see people and humanity for what it is and how we're like all, no matter how we're different, how we're alike at the same time, how we're all sharing human experience and it's so beautiful and just inspired, like not lit. I mean,

I'll try to be inspiring. I'm not intentionally doing things to inspire others that just try to be me and have you know, actions of a decent man, but too to inspire you to believe in yourself, to leave your dream to go and do things that make you happy. That might not be traveling or seeing, you know, learning about cultures and people, but it might be something else but the mess. You know, I leave a page usually with something meaningful or at least I try, and I

hope that it is. You know, he did it and probably I can do it too, you know. That's how we got to be vulnerable and that's how we got to be able to share a story. And that's why I need you to tell about about Vitamin podcast Listen. You can catch it wherever you get your favorite podcasts. So if you felt something from this, tell a friend to tell a friend to tell a friend to check out Vitamin D with Dawn Day for daily doves of inspiration.

That's right, yes, because we live in life on purpose and forward and we all live a little pick up in the morning, you know, when the email like links and becomes a message and you're like, you're struggling, struggling with waking up and getting starting your day and you see the dundee message like hey, and so often do you know what it happens? You say, I replied to you all the time because it speaks to me in that moment and it's so important. It's such a gift,

you know, to receive that. It's a reminder, it's a gently reminder to you know, set you up for to have a good day, you know, and to will be reminded of whatever you're talking about any given time. Thank you. He's talking about the quickdouses, Yes, the quickhouses. Today is those Vitamin D is dedicated to check out the podcast. You see the one minute, two minutes, three minutes. Those

are the quick doses and listen. If you go ahead and send us an email Vitamin D at Dawn Day Speaks, Jeremiah will add you to the email blast and then you can get your doughs as the Vitamin D Wright and get email box. You wanna be like Marian, to be like think I feel, so if I can bless on you, go ahead and send me an email. And if you send an email to you might have an advice letter. Or you may want to be a guest on the show. Hit us up. We can make it happen.

You know, I'm sham. And then also I want to let you know that we launched our social media for the show y Vitamin D Dawn Day, all one word Vitamin D Dawn Day. That's where you're gonna catch you out some clips from the interviews. Heck, you might even catch our Marian on there him and I'm talking um. Also you're gonna get some words of inspiration, um, highlights from segments, just things from the show. All Things Vitamin D Dawn Day. So that's Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, and YouTube. Okay,

so I appreciate you if you can support my dream. Yeah. And outside of that, make sure you follow me on my personal social media is at Dawn Day Speaks everywhere. Okay, so you get invited me to UM. I appreciate that. It means the world to me, and I want to thank you for for being on this journey of my dreams. I plan to be here a long time. I'm gonna make history. I've been telling people and I know it

sounds crazy, and that's what I know. And they say, you gotta be out of your mind for your dreams. Do you know why I sit here and I tell people I'm gonna be big in Oprah. I recently got my business to get established here because it was this registered in Michigan. I was like, okay, we need to do with California so I get this money this way. And he was like, you know, talking about the business, and I said, I said, yes, I have high expectations.

I looked at him myself, I'm gonna be bigger than Opera. I met this gentleman. I was at the Brass Market, you know, you know, Shelley had left out of town and this girl was like, oh, my gosh, you like a celebrity and this other girls like, yeah, you're a celebrity. Where have you seen you? And I said, I'm on my way. I said I would be big in Oprah and I said, get there is you wanna tell them that you met me at the Brass Monkey. You gotta

speak over your life. You gotta speak exceedingly in a bundanly things far more than what you can imagine about, because just like mar Yan said, it can be possible, you can attract. And if you don't believe me, just watch because I'm coming. And you know, like I sank, I'm in the business of making dreams come true and

I damn sure ain't gonna forget about mine. So until next time, I want you to always remember that you like your greatest ass act, get your right and many right here with me, and get excited about your lives.