Being Broke vs Being Broken

And I do this with inspirational insights and conversations with celebrities and everyday people like you and me, Because if you want to be better and you want to do better, then you're going to have to be able to see better. So join me on this journey of living our best lives and understanding and realizing how you are your greatest assid I want peace for you. I want prosperity, I want courage, I want abundance. I want everything that is good to be for you. However, there's going to be

a requirement and it doesn't take any outside sources. It actually takes everything that's inside of you. I need you to show up. I need you to show up so that you can show out, show out so that somebody can look at you and say I'm possible. So somebody can look at you and say that I'm alone, So somebody can look at you and say that I'm worth it. We're all just looking, looking, living, learning, growing, and there's

a comfort knowing that you're not alone. And fear does that, depression does that put you on a state where you feel isolated. But it's something about showing up in all of your imperfect perfectness for everyone to see, for some body to me inspired, for somebody to be encouraged. Are you ready better yet? Are you willing? Because there's no

perfect moment, there's no right moment. And the thing that's so beautiful about you deciding to step up is that you're allowing to go ahead and for yourself, and being free is a beautiful thing. It's almost like you're soaring and you're gliding, gliding to your peace, gliding to your happiness, oblivious to what others may think, because you're sowing so much higher than that. I want that for you, because

I want that for me. I'm growing, I'm becoming, I'm seeing myself in different angles that I didn't even know that there was a view. And I stand in awe and admiration of all the different hues. I want that for you, and I want that for me too. Let us go out there and take the rainbow. Get your right, MND right with me. I get excited about you. You will not believe what happened. I had a fun field weekend,

um grateful for it. I met some new friends, hung out. Actually, a lot of things that I've put out there as far as manifesting, are coming to fruition. Ain't that amazing? Like I literally wrote a list of the things that I wanted to manifest. I started each sentence with the eye a firm and I took the paper. I folded it, folded it, folded it again. I burned a candle on it, through the wax in the trash, and I looked back and now here I am less than a week, and

I can tell you things are manifesting. Hey, catch it now. I don't know how much you believe in manifestation, but it's one thing for me. And perhaps we do it all the time because you know, we know about how important it is to speak life, We know how important it is to do affirmations. And I think just the combination of writing it down to make it plain. You know, I say it's important to write things down because we're

human beings having a spiritual experience. So this my spiritual being is saying, hey, Dawn, this is what we want. But now I got to communicate with my body with this physical realm and say, hey, this is what we're putting out there. So I want to encourage you that if there's anything that you want, whatever it is that

you desire, write it down. So and one of those things that I listed out as far as what I wanted to manifest is that I had a lot of friends that actually moves out of l A onto other states to do on two more things. And I said, I gotta give me a new group of friends. So I went out to a DJ event. Um a friend of mine had invited me out to met a whole other group of friends and we just had a great time. And when I sell you, Baybay not listen. Usually I'm

in bid by ten o'clock. I'm in bed by ten o'clocks, so I can get up on my own or alarm clock, like I said, on my own at about a five thirty six, I get in the tub, I do my meditation. I do my job and not do my workout. That is the mold. But you know, I do think there is a thing where you can have a little bit of flexibility. So any who I'm going out, I mean each day night is going into the other. But it's a great time because, um, you know, when you just

around great energy. But beyond all that, that's not I'm minute to slow down. As I had a minute to look down at my hand. Um, I was looking at my mom's ring. I guess it's just realized hit me now. My mom was really big on jewelry, Like, she really liked jewelry. And my daddy he made sure that he decked his baby out. Okay, he don Harold Hill was gonna make sure that Jannie Hill had her stuff together. But I say all that to say is that my mom.

The story is that, uh, the wedding ring my dad got her, she didn't like it so much, and so she redesigned the whole thing and put the stones in there herself. And as I looked down on the ring that my mother created, I noticed that a diamond was missing. I gasped. I said, Oh my gosh, what happened. I was so sick and I'm up here fighting my emotions. I was like, doing, you were too aggressive, You're throwing your hand around, you were wearded too much, you were

doing this blah blah blah blah blah. Then I was about to go into a whole emotional stay, like, oh my gosh, this is my mom's and this is what I did. And then I had to just breathe for a second. I had to remind myself. I said, doing, your mom is not in this ring. And I think oftentimes we put so much value into things, and while things can make us feel good, but the essence, the power of what it is, is not in a thing.

And that hit me a little, hit me differently, more personally, because, as I shared before, growing up, my mother was a hoarder. My mother kept everything and that's because of loss. She was loose. She lost her husband, she lost her mother um and since she had even lost her hair when she had breast cancer, then her brother, her grandfather, my grandfather, and so I feel like, when you lose a lot of things, you want to hold onto a lot of things. So all these emotions are going in my mind and

I'm like, well, wait a minute, how come much. Can I blame myself for treasuring what it is that I had. So I had to take a minutes to breathe, then had to remind myself what it is. The thing that was also interesting is that throughout this whole day now I can't exactly I don't recall the exact day that it fell out. I kept coming about of doing being more gentle. I'm I'm an aggressive individual. You know, my masculine energy comes out. I don't know why a loud romunctious,

it just is what it is. I've always been heavy handed. And it was so interesting that even that day, prior to me noticing, I was talking to a group of friends and I was just saying, I was just laughing joke. You know, you just tap somebody on the shoulder, I tap you on the should and you damn Ne're gonna fall out. Was aware, and I'm like, oh my gosh, I apologize. I'm so rough. I'm just noticing how I've

been throwing my hands around. I picked up my shoes, I had throw them in a car, and I kept saying, like I gotta be more gentle, Like why am I so rough with things? Then, as I'm recalling back because I'm playing throughout the day, I'm just thinking how I have been wearing the ring so much. And usually I try to wear like if there's an event or if I feel like, you know, for a special thing. But I was like I was just wearing it every day

to whether I was going here, going that. I was putting on the ring, and a part of it is because I like to keep my mom close to me. And then a part of me I was like, you know, I want to be flying because the ring is slide and on one and I'm when I was like, yo, it was my spirits trying to tell me all this time, like don chill, I don't wearing the ring, or don't just stop throwing your hands around. But I couldn't listen.

And I want to encourage you to take time to listen, take time to listen more to what's going around you. But then also I had to replay it back and to be easy in myself because I can't change it. We're I'm gonna drive myself crazy. And in that moment of just saying breath, I had to be gentle with my internal self because I didn't intentionally do it. I was using against purpose is to wear it. And I realized that I can't dwell in this moment. I gotta

grow from this moment. So what is growing from this moment? Looks like, well, it looks like being more cognizant and checking the ring in to get checked, making sure that the stones are tightened up and halps. That could be something that I want to share with you. What do you need to tighten up? What do you need to check in on? Because sometimes we get in the motor just moving, moving, going and and moving so fast and it's just like take your time, take your time, take

your time. So I'm still going through my ups and downs and bounce about this ring, but or the diamond I was lost out the ring, but there's nothing I could do. And I told Charlotte, my sister. She said, what now, Charlotte, she knew this type of stone everything. She's like, which one the bigat? And I was like, is that the one that smaller because there's one stone

in the middle than there's others around it? And I said yeah, And she said, you know you won't have the original stone, but use it as a lesson learned. And I think for a lot of us use it as a lesson learned. I could imagine before this probably would have taken me out. This would have rattled my brain left and right and all the way around. But I had to remind myself, going, your mama is not in that ring. And it just took me a minute to adjust myself of how much we put values in things?

How much value are you putting in things? Stuff? Because what happens if you misplace it. What happens is it get side of your hands. Then what you gotta remind yourself with the memories and what's important on the inside, and along with the fact of being careful and being mindful with the things that you have right now. So that was a jarring effect and it took me for

a loop, but I realized it's gonna be okay. And you know, in my conversation with my sister, I also was talking to her and we got on this explanation, or we got this conversation talking about the difference between being broke and broken. Now, this was a situation I could have went down a spiral and got all brokenness and all that kind of stuf of, But this conversation really spearheaded because I was telling he how like, you know, I'm so excited about all the things that I'm manifesting.

I can't wait to I finally get everything up with my house and getting it exactly the way I wanted to look like. And I'm like, man, it's so interesting that when I had money, mean, and I had a consistent job and it was coming in, I didn't even have to know how in the mindset to decorate my home like I wanted it to. And right now, while all the finances aren't in place for me to do it how I want to do it, I realized I got a different, renewed mindset. And I think changing your

mindset changes things. How you look at things changes things. Because I look back on when I felt like I had all the resources a k a. Money, I didn't know what to do with it. Because while sometimes we think that the money is the resource, but it's the source. Whatever is in that's the resource. That's the thing that replenished. Because I didn't have to know how to get my place together. And it's so interesting that, you know, from the outside looking in, one could think like, oh, well,

perhaps the finances are there. No, the mindset isn't there. And sometimes we gotta do a better job, but checking in on ourselves, checking in on ourselves to see how we're feeling, seeing how our viewpoint, just stepping back to see ourselves. That's why I'm so adamant about stepping into the light so you can see the good and the best, so that you can grow from it. It's something of the light that gives you a little bit of rejuvenation

or not a little bit, a lot. And I look back and I'm like, yo, Dawn couldn't see the light then. Dawn didn't know have to know how then. And in that conversation with my sister, she said, we're doing there was probably a bit of you that was broken. And I said, oh my gosh. I was talking to my good girlfriend Shelley and I was sharing that conversation with her. She said, yeah, I know you were going through something aims and I mean I was going through it for

a couple of years because I couldn't see. So I hope you open your eyes, and I mean your spiritual eyes to your life so that you can see and stop relying on just the finances or other external um resources or objects, so that you can feel fulfilled, so that you can feel complete because it all happens in the inside. Because I bet that there were a lot of people or other people can say that they had less than me, and their home was probably more together

than mine was. But that doesn't change the fact that I was broken from the inside and I'm still putting the pieces together. And let me tell you something that's a beauty of being broken. The reason why I say that is that you have all these pieces, and I don't know about you. When I was younger in our class, we have these things that we put mosaics together. And the mosaic picture is simply a bit, and the mosaic picture simply bits of pieces that I put together to

make something beautiful? What are you making with your pieces? Sometimes we fall down so that things can be put back together right. Sometimes you have to be down so that you can get up. Sometimes the only way to go up this just cause you're down. And I look at the new, renewed Dawn, the renewed mindset I have now with Dawn, and I say, wow, almost a while from where I've been, but more so while from who

I become. How I'm growing more, how I'm stepping in, how I'm allowing myself to see grace, to see that dawn that was broken, and that encouraged me, encourages me to to look at life with a different, renewed lens, because you know, sometimes you can look at people and judge them and ain't got their head together, hang out, they closes just right, but you ever asked to wonder

what they could be going through. I was driving with a friend down the street and it was woman and it had to be about fifty something degrees outside from the front. It was a complete dress and the back of her ass was out like literally you saw her throwing. Now, I bet a lot of people was like, oh, she probably nasty. I ain't that her friends to her nothing?

Why would she go around looking like that? And immediately it hurt my heart because I said, oh, my goodness, what could she be going through in the sense that you would walk around what you're behind out in fifty degree rather And I look back at dawn and I said, oh my goodness, what were you going through when you couldn't even open your eyes to decorate your place? Well, I got through it, still getting through it, but like I said, when it's a new dawn, it's a new day.

And I hope you take time to look at yourself. I hope you take time to be more gentle and show more grace with yourself. Then to happen seeds and planted so that you can grow. I'm growing, I'm getting better, I'm getting stronger. I'm growing in the sense that I didn't let it take me out that I a diamond

fell out on my mom's ring. What I'm growing from that is I'm gonna go ahead and make sure that I get everything tightened up and cleaned up, just so that it will never happen again, because yes, it's this ring, but it could be something else in the future. But

thank god, I'm gonna catch it now. Thank God, I can look back on that dooring that looking at home, and I didn't even have to know how to decorate it because whatever dark space that I'm in, but guess what, I can see the light now, so best believe I'm decorating my place now. So I want to encourage you to see the light. I want to encourage you to see yourself. I want to encourage you to have grace

with yourself. I want to encourage you not to necessarily place your value on things because things take up space, and we're making room for ourselves to grow. We're making room for abundance, We're making room for peace. We're making room for ourselves. H So, yeah, I may have lost a diamond out of my mom's ring, but I didn't lose my mama, not from where she resides on the inside. In fact, I think I found another piece of her. So yeah, be gentle with yourself, get your rightem and

right with me. I get excited about your lives.