GECKMAIL: “MY DAD CAN’T STOP MARRYING WOMEN FROM THE INTERNET”

is normally. But today my podcast is going to just be me ranting a lot while looking at things that other people have said. It's gonna be like a monologue podcast, but I will be reading viewer mail. It's almost like like like reading those Reddit stories, except instead of posting them to Reddit, people email them to me. That's what people used, That's what people used to do before they could post their stories on Reddit. They just said them. They didn't they emailed them to people, or they just

said them. I'm off one right now, I'm gonna go on a rant today. I'm not holding it. I've decided this this episode of gek Mail, I'm not holding anything back, all right. I'm gonna give my true opinions on things. Normally, I'm scared. Normally, I'm like, I don't want to give my opinions because not even because I'm afraid of people

getting mad at me. Serious, seriously, not even because I'm afraid of people getting mad at me, but more so because I think as time has gone on, I just developed this like deep agnosticism towards fucking everything, you know, towards everything. There's some things that that agnosticism hasn't touched, but it's touched a lot of stuff. The older I get, the more I learn through my own personal experience, the less I feel like I fucking know about it anything.

That's the main reason why I don't give a lot of strong opinions, or at least try out to give a lot of strong opinions. But I'm not gonna do that today. I'm gonna not be agnostic today. I think the world needs a little bit more agnosticism in a sense is but that's an opinion in and of itself. All right, Fuck this this is That was that was too long of an intro. Thanks for listening to this podcast. This is gonna be like an hour and a half of me rambling, and I think it's gonna be fun.

I think we're gonna have a good time. I drank a cup of coffee, and we have some good emails that we're gonna listen to. So let's do a gek mail. Okay, This first one is called this is from soup Corn and the subject line is I don't like my home country of Japan. Hello Therapy Gecko. I met you one time in Shibuya a show. It was a fun experience, so thank you for coming. Yes, I did a show a couple times in Shibuya, Tokyo. That was fucking fun. All right. Anyway, this is just a dump about what

I thought about today. I don't know what I should do with my life. I'm an architecture student from Japan and I am on study abroad. I don't like Japan in terms of the work culture, the people who are too shy to talk to each other, having to play the mind games, read the room, who's greater and better every single minute? Yeah, in I've talked about Japan. I feel like a bunch on the show. Japan has a crazy work culture and it also has ah fuck, there's

a name for this, dude. Hold on, there's a name for this I'm gonna google this Japanese term for outword verse in word expression. There's a word for this, Okay, here it is, I think. I think it's called tatame the public facade what you say and do outwardly to maintain social harmony and expectations. And then honey, which is

like your true inner feelings. And so I think, like, yeah, in Japanese, uh uh, like work culture from what I understand, I mean, I'm a fucking white American guy, but from what I understand is that there's a very strong culture of like, do not say what you feel and keep it inside to maintain social harmony. So there's a lot of I think what this emailer is talking about is, yeah, having to play those mind games and having to like and also like social hierarchy and order, like there's this

is more important over there. Like there's this thing when you go out to drinks with your boss, Like it's expected that you go out to drinks with like your coworkers and the people you work with, even after work hours. And there's a weird thing where like when you clink your glass you're superior. You have to make sure that if your boss's glass is like above yours like you have a lot of respect for hierarchy and whatnot. Okay, So I don't like the work culture. I don't like

having to play these mind games. But I love the designs, some music, fashion, and the architecture that the Japanese produce. They're so funny, diverse, elegant, chaotic yet orderly. I want to get out of Japan, but I like Japan. I want to live doing design, but I also want money, and being an architect isn't the best choice if you want to be rich. Is that true? I thought architects make a lot of money. Is that not true? Okay,

I'm gonna guess this person is it's true. Okay. I just want to live my life reading books, watching movies, going to museums, travel sometimes, learn new things, and design stuff. Maybe it's just the work life, the adult life that I'm scared of. Not Japan necessarily interesting. Interesting, that could be true. I guess that I tend to compare myself with other people, especially people from high school. I get anxious when I'm talking to the people who went full business.

I feel their ideology is fit for society. They have a clear goal, a motive, and already starting up the ladder. Interesting. Okay, so this person gets anxious when they talk to people who kind of went straight up, you know, they were like, all right, I'm gonna go to school, I'm gonna get the job, I'm gonna respect my elders. I'm gonna, you know, fit into the way that society is wants me to conform.

I'm still deciding on which ladder to take. I might be too scared or too greedy to decide what to do. The study abroad is hard, but so fun for me. I am having a great experience in the city I am studying at the moment. The people are usually helpful and easier to talk to than in Japan. But I'm different here as a guest. Wait, ah, this person. I don't think this person put where they are studying. I'm gonna get where. I'm gonna guess they're studying in America.

I mean, I don't know, maybe they could be studying in Europe or Australia or Canada or whatever. That's just me being fucking America bias. It's like, yeah, they're studying abroad. Of course, if you're what, you're gonna go to another country. You're gonna go some place it's not America. Okay. The people are usually helpful, easier to talk to than in Japan. But I'm here as a guest. My chances to get a job here after study abroad are very, very low.

I have not heard about it. I think being a guest and being I think being a guest versus being a resident gives you different lenses. Or maybe I am in that period where you can oversee someone's flaws because they are your crush or something. Okay, this seems more American now, yes, this seems now more American. That's that is, I guess a little bit of America as you kind of fall in love with it. I guess why did

I say that? You fall in love with it. You go over and you're like, oh, there's a lot of cool stuff here, but it is a honeymoon phase. And then you're like, oh, wait, there's actually a lot of flaws. But it's like that way everywhere. I mean, shit, for me, it was like that with Japan, you know. I mean you go to Japan and it's like, Wow, everything's cleaner, everything's nicer, everything's fucking sick, And then you're like, wait,

why is it like that? And then you start to start to learn about all this kind of like societal conditioning and whatnot. Okay, or maybe I am in that period where you can oversee someone's flaws because they're or crush or something. Nah, Japan is still kind of shit. Okay, that's the whole email from Soupcorn. I don't know. They bring up a lot of interesting things. There's a lot of information that's missing from this email that I'm that is would be important to ponder it, like where did

they go? But you know what I'll say this Soupcorn, is that the first of all, you're not alone. You're not alone at all, and everyone everyone knows you're not alone in the desire to do like you're not alone in the sense that you see this path ahead of you that all your like classmates are taking and friends are taking, and you see what's up right, especially in a culture like Japan, and you see this traditional route and you look at it and you're like, oh, man,

is this is this? It is this what I gotta do? And you're like, is there anything else? And you're and it's not only that, right, It's not only that. It's that you see other people, not not that you see other people who feel the same way as you but submit to it. You fucking see other people who don't question it and don't think about it and are fine with it. And that is I think what makes you anxious is you're like, fuck, you know, I'm I'm Why am I? Why am I cursed with wanting something more?

And my friends are totally down to just like you know, uh, suck up to a boss and and take to take the traditional route. And let me tell you something, it's a it's a blessing and a curse. And you know, I've I've never ever, ever, ever, ever, ever ever in my life, you know, from I mean from like fucking elementary school man like thought that I was gonna get go into science or or medicine or law or like

anything traditional. I'm a I'm This is a hard one to draw from my personal experience because I just feel like I got I feel like I got really uh lucky with a lot of ways that my life turned out in this kind of regard. But also if I hadn't gotten lucky, I would have I probably would have just kept trying different shit until I got lucky. But

it's tough. There's lots and lots and lots of times in my life and I'm not even and you know, I mean take career out of it, right, you know, I mean look at like life in general, there's a certain kind of brain that just is like, I want more out of this. Although this person, they said they just want to read books, watch movies, go to museums, travel sometimes, learn new things and design stuff. Can you not find just like some job. I I don't know

what is available in Japan. Maybe you would have to leave Japan. And also, this person's probably young. This person's probably like nineteen twenty twenty one. Try going somewhere. I don't know where you can go. I don't know where you can go, but you could go somewhere America. I know America is what sucks and it's hard to get into and is expensive. But like, I don't know what's up in Canada? Do they let people go to Canada?

I feel like I'm not being helpful to this person at all, but I have a lot of thoughts about it. If all you want to do is read books, watch movies, go to museums, travel sometimes, learn new things and design stuff. As you said, you can totally totally be like okay, Like it's like, sit down, do some googling, do some research, and just be like, what fucking job can I do that makes the most amount of money with the least

amount of work, Like how many? There's gotta be some bullshit jobs out there that you can just like do your bullshit thing for money and then live your life. That's a that's a big thing is that you don't have The thing you do for money doesn't have to be your fucking life and your how you define yourself. So you probably have a lot of friends who are like I, I it's really important to me to climb the corporate ladder and to succeed and to do a good job. And that doesn't have to be you. It

doesn't have to be you. You can just you can. You can work at some fucking coffee shop for as little hours as you need to to pay some humble amount, some humble lifestyle. You live with roommates, you know, live cheap, and just fucking live your life. Man, if that's what you want to do, If that's what you want to do, okay, I don't know, if any I don't know if that was helpful at all. Let's keep going. Oh, this is from the same person. Okay, this person sent me multiply.

All right, this is from the same person, but it's kind of interesting. Okay, this is also from soup Corn. I told my Muslim friend her favorite cake has alcohol. Hi, So my friend decided to buy some cake and said I can have some. I take some and went home. Later that day, I had a bite and realized it had an alcoholic flavor. So I thought this was her first time eating it. Maybe she doesn't know about this. So I call her, telling her that there is some

alcohol zero point nine percent wine. But the thing is, she already had a bite. In fact, it was her favorite cake to buy at the supermarket. She didn't know there was alcohol in it before, but now that she knows, she probably feels guilty religiously she can't eat her favorite cake anymore. I feel so bad. Should I have not told her about this? Or was this the right thing to do? What can I do to make it up? Is this? Okay? So this is the same guy who

from Japan who was talking about wanting to leave. I feel bad for this person because this guy's soupcorn is the name of this emailer. This guy's mind is so I feel bad. This is this guy's brain. If this

is a guy, I'm gonna just say it is. This guy's brain is so anxious that he thinks that it's that it's somehow his fault that this cake has alcohol in it's that this his friend bought like he it's almost like like he like he's acting as if he fucking like gave her the cake without knowing she bought him. He's acting like he gifted her cake and that had alcohol in it and he fucked her up. But he's just informing her as a friend that the cake has alcohol in it, and now he feels bad about informing

her of reality. That is helpful for her. Soup corn. If you're listening to this podcast, you got I think you need a strong internal mindset shift because you're if you're doing this with cake, you're probably doing this with the rest of your life of just believing that you're somehow guilty of all everything, which is you can't live life like that. It's gonna fuck you up. Yeah, you have. There's no reason all to feel bad about this. You're in You're helping your friend by informing her that this

cake has. I mean, it's a bummer for her, but it's not your It's a bummer for her, but it's not your fault. It's like it's like it's like if you told your friend that it was going to rain today and then you felt bad that it was going to rise, if you fucking made it rain. Can't be so hard on yourself, supercorn. All right. This one is from Gabby, subject line my dad can't stop marrying women he meets off the internet. Hi, gek, my name is Gabby. I am twenty one and uh my father is on

marriage number four since twenty twenty two. For some context, his first wife was an arranged marriage and he ended up leaving her and their daughter three years in for my mom. Him and my mom met through the internet in two thousand and three. Wow, that's pretty early for meeting on the internet. My dad was disowned from his family because of the divorce and moved from India to

the US to be with my mom. They were together for seventeen years, but he cheated on her a lot and they got divorced like three times throughout my childhood. My mom unfortunately passed away in twenty twenty and the dating started immediately with no concern for his grieving children. He is a pattern of finding women that do not live close to where he's living at all, talking to them for weeks to a month, and flying us all out to meet them for the first time. That's crazy.

I mean, I guess you get hopefully, hopefully these women live in cool places that you get to go to, bringing them expensive gifts, buying them cars, apartments, paying for their children's college, and then proposing to them, only to get heartbroken. Months after, the most notable wife he had lived in Chicago, he flew out to meet her for the first time by himself after two weeks of talking to her, and that weekend he was there, he got

her an apartment in downtown Chicago. Jesus Christ, And as soon as he got back he told us she was moving in with us the following week. Wait, he got her an apartment and then fucking but if you got her an apartment where First of all, what does your dad do for a living? Dude? Your dad is anyway, as soon he's got has he moving in with you? Guys?

If he got her an apartment in Chicago and I'm going to speed run the rest of the story, but basically, this woman and her daughter moved in did not speak to any of us, unless if it was to ask about our dad's dating history. Two weeks in, they both went to Chicago for the weekend and came back engaged without any of our knowledge, and then they eloped at

the courthouse the same week. Anyway, I really don't like her, and my dad was forcing us to be extra nice to her and her daughter and give them special treatment and just kind of would go do things without us to make them feel more welcome. And then the fighting started and they started a divorce. Like three months in, she moved back to Chicago to an apartment he was paying for with her car. Okay, I'm gonna just keep going.

I'm gonna skip a lot of this. He was tracking her in her car and got a second apartment in Chicago to be close to her, and it was awful. He was heartbroken and a mess for months. I can't be He would say things like, I can't be a good dad to you guys if I'm not happy. He would leave my siblings alone in the house for weeks and tell them to just door dash. I was living on my own at that point because I could not take it anymore and had no knowledge of him leaving

them anyway. His other marriages don't go so great either. But yeah, hope this helps, love you gek, hope this helps you? What helps? This helps? Well, I don't know what you mean by I hope this helps, but okay, Yeah that's a loaded thing. That's yeah, your dad, God, I hope that's I really hope this isn't me when I'm fifty. I really hope it's not me when I'm fifty. It might be It might be me when I'm fifty. This might just be me when I'm fifty years old.

Is like just you know, being like being being like now, I don't think I would abandon my kids, but if I had, like if I was like fifty, if I was like if I was like in my sixties and I had like grown kids that were on their own and I had a dead wife, I'd probably I would also probably just start meeting marrying women from the internet randomly at sixty when you get to lose it's sixty anyway, Yeah, that's crazy. Your dad sounds like, I mean, that's crazy, right,

because if your dad's bear like twenty one. Your dad's probably in his like fifties sixties. Can you fix your life that? Your dad's probably been that guy forever. That's the weird thing about getting older. That's a weird thing When you meet people who are like in their fifties and sixties, you know, they just like that. They're they They have been that way for most of their life and will probably continue to be that way forever. But I'm glad you're out of the house at least and

you're not like dealing with all this bullshit. I feel bad for your siblings. I don't I don't have advice on any of this, but it was interesting to read. Okay, this is from Doug. Subject line baloney and cake. Hey, Gek, I just ate an entire ice cream cake and now I'm feeling sick, but I kind of want to do it again. I also just smoked and fried. I also just made a smoked and fried baloney sandwich and it smells great. Also, I saw you in Dallas last year.

That's the whole email. It sounds awful, Actually, it sounds awesome. That's the thing, man, That's what sucks about food is fucking great in the moment. And then afterwards it's like this was a horrible decision. Man ah God eating it into I that's the thing. I could do it. I could eat an entire ice cream cake easy. I could do it easily if you put an entire ice cream cake. If you put an ice cream cake in front of me right now, could eat the thing easily. You know,

I could eat a whole pieces. I could just keep going until there would be no stop. That's the problem with food your bodies is. I think my body has evolved to a point where it's and it won't tell itself to stop. You have to manually stop. You have to use your higher human consciousness to stop. But I don't know. This guy seems like he's doing it pretty. He's he's taking it in the stride. Okay, let's see. This is from uh Subha Sebba. Subject line is so antsy. Hello,

dearest Lyle. I'm feeling so antsy all the time, and I don't know what to do about it. I've always been pretty introverted and enjoyed my time alone, but now I can't do it anymore. I've met such cool people this summer, and now all I want to do is meet people, because isn't that the point of life to make connections. I mean, I'm still autistic and thus socially inept,

but I do enjoy meeting people. But now when I'm alone in my room or alone in general, I get so lonely and feel the need to get a tattoo or piercing, or take a risky walk down a dark alleyway, or text someone I shouldn't text, just for some kind of feeling. It's so lonely being alone. And I don't know how I suddenly became uncomfortable being alone. I don't like it when I'm alone. I feel like I'm unlovable for some reason. I DeKay why, man, it's weird and irrational.

Any words of wisdom of words in general will be nice. Thanks man. By the way, I'm a colleged aged woman for context. Well, first of all, you know, I agree with you. I think meeting people and making connections is one of the biggest points of life. And yeah, I know what you mean, and I you know, I mean, everyone has their own thing when it comes to like

how they cope with loneliness. You know, I mean I've sat comfort and you know, food and pot and you know, porn and all these things, or yeah, we're texting someone I shouldn't text or something like that, And how do you deal with it? I mean, I think it's a question of It's just this is a question of putting yourself out there, right. I mean, you said you've met such cool people this summer. How did you do that? How did you meet these cool people? Do more things

that put you around in spaces with other people. There's a lot. That's the thing, right is I'm like, life rewards you for just doing things. Really, you don't even have to this. This is this is honest, honestly, this is one of This is one of the main lessons I've learned and I and I need to apply this in my life more often. This is key is that life doesn't reward you for making the right choices, because there's no such thing as the right choices. But life

for war ords you every time for doing stuff. It doesn't. It's you don't need you don't need to do the right stuff. You just have to do stuff. If you sit at home alone and and jerk off and do nothing, you will there will be no rewards to you. But if you do anything, you don't have to do the right thing. You don't have to meet the right people, but you don't have to make the right If you just fucking do anything you get, you'll just get rewarded.

So you have to just do something. I don't know where you live or where you are, but there's probably other people there, So just think of something you can do, Like I mean, you know, we've talked about this a bunch on here, Like go to a fucking event. I would avoid the dark alleyways. I don't know, you said, I'm gonna guess that you're like a alt kind of a lady. You know what about going to go to go to show, go to the fucking dark carnival or whatever, go to the d V and art to meet up,

whatever it is, go to something, go to something. There's plenty of, like AULTI autistic young people in wherever city that you are, that you can meet up with and hang out with. But you just got you gotta go to where they are, and you got to find that out, and you gotta do the the truly minimal amount of work that is required to figure out where those places are. The real work is in the hole, is in the you know, put them on clothes and getting outside and

going doing the thing. But the more you put yourself out there, the less time you spend in your room, and the more time you spend out in the fucking universe, you'll just get rewarded naturally. Naturally, you don't even have to worry about, like doing the right shit, So you don't have to worry about you don't have to worry about saying the right things. Even when talking to people, you don't have to worry about saying the right things. You have to worry about the fact that you're trying

to say anything at all to anyone. You know, That's how I feel about relationships and friendships and dates and whatnot. You have to you just have to keep throwing yourself out there and eventually you'll get rewarded. So I mean, that's my that's my advice, man, is just to leave your house. You know, don't it's good that you're uncomfortable

being alone. You should be, right, The point of life is you want to make connections, and you want to live a life that you're proud of and happy with, and you know, you don't want to look at the highlight reel of your life that you're sitting around not doing anything, So just leave the house. There's so many opportunities to leave the house. Get out of the get out of the house. Man. Okay, let's see here. This

is from Francesco. Subject line words dear Gecko. I am a listener whenever my podcast backlog gives me some time to listen to the other listeners ramblings. I really appreciate it, even if sometimes I wish the episodes were a little bit shorter, so that they could be around the ballpark of thirty to forty minutes per episode. I people, you make the episodes short, and people want them long. You make them long, people want them short. Folks, I'm telling you,

do whatever you want with your fucking life. People will, people will complain about whatever you do. There's no right an. That's why that's literally to add on to what I just said, just do something because people are always there's always there's no right thing to do. That's why you can never ask your That's why you can't ask your audience what kind of episodes they want to listen to or what kind of content they want, because this is

always gonna be do. You always have to just do whatever it is that you want to do anyway, that's I'm rambling. Okay, anyway whatever, I'm gonna skip this. My life is a mess. I guess I'll thok Okay, my life is a mess. I guess I lost my dream as I was going, and then I somehow got back on track. But it's not the same thing, and I can't seem to be able to let go of the past.

Every time I feel down, I tend to do these things, boil and remorse for previous bad life choices, work mindlessly to forget my problems, and then, at the peak of

stress and self loathing, I treat others poorly. The effect is that every day I sink deeper in mud and then regret how poorly I behaved to others, repeatedly, every day for months on end, blaming myself for everything and fearing the consequences of my actions, sometimes even after I said I'm sorry, and I truly am, Because broken things can never be fixed to their original state. Now, you might be saying, if you are aware of this, why don't you just stop? Apparently it's not something that I

can control entirely. If you have any advice for me, it will be welcome, and I thank you in advance for it. Have a great day and good luck for the future of your project. Keep up the good work. Thank you, Francesco. Okay, hold on, I'm gonna try to digest this real quick because this is very vague. My life is a mess. I lost my dream as I was going and got back on track. I can't seem to be able to let go of the past. Okay, so we got remorse for bad life choices, forgetting problems. Okay,

I mean there's a lot of stuff here, right. What are you doing when you mean you're poorly behave poorly to others? I'm curious what you're doing. And we've all had that happen, like you. You your emotional state drives your actions and you're like, oh fuck, I was just being a dick, you know, And then you and then you work harder on controlling your emotions and controlling your fucking you know, to the best of your ability, and you you try to you kind of try to wrangle

it all in, right, But yeah, you can't. You can't boil in remorse. You can't do that. You can't do that, Francisco. You you there's so much opportunity in the world. For again, I'm gonna make this the theme of the episode. Just do things. Life rewards you for just doing things. And there will always, forever, no matter what previous bad choices you made in your life, there will always be an infinite amount of things to do. There will always be an infinite amount of things to fucking dwell on from

the past. So Francesca, I mean, just you can't dwell on the past. You can't. You just can't dwell in the past. Also, nobody ever does Nobody ever does everything perfectly. Nobody ever does anything perfectly. Nobody, nobody ever fucking did everything perfectly. And by the way, a few people and here's the thing, actually that's not true. A few people did.

A few people have been perfect and amazing. There's a few ned flanders Is out there who just they were awesome the entire time, and they made all the right choices, and they're rich and amazing, and they've never done anything. They never said anything bad to anyone or done anything bad to anyone, and they made all their perfect life choices, and they sleep well at night, and they never all their thought The quality of their thoughts is amazing. Those

people totally exist, but that's they're good. Good for fucking them. It's not the majority, it's really not the majority. The majority of people probably live with some regret or remorse over actions in the past, over whether over how they hurt other people or how they hurt themselves, or like people are reminiscent about what life could have been, or they live life. Lives are quiet desperation. It's part of the human experience. You're not alone in this, right, So

what you're experiencing is life. This is do You're not You were never gonna do everything perfectly. That's not that's not within you. That's that's that's like, I mean, that's that's why people love Jesus is because he apparently was amazing and did it was awesome and he uh turned water into wine and shit and fucking was everyone everyone liked him. But that's not you. You're not Jesus. None of us are Jesus, and we were never going to be We were all gonna be fickle, weird, imperfect people

in a fickle, weird, imperfect, complicated world. And you have to accept that none of your choices were ever gonna be the perfect ones. You knew you did what you could with the knowledge you had at the time. So like.

I'm able to go on this rant to you. I feel really good in this moment, and in general, I'm I'm pretty good at I think like moving on and you know, for like just you know whatever, if I was like, ah, fuck, I should have done differently in that situation, or I should have done differently in that situation.

I've gotten over the years, I've gotten pretty good at not dwelling too hard on things, because as life goes on, I realize that you only have the information that you have, and you got to you gotta be quick to forgive yourself for bad life choices. I mean, don't be too quick that you don't learn your lesson. You want to learn your lesson and you want to not do you know, repeat ship that to keep harming yourself. I do that too, I've I have plenty of lessons that I refuse to learn.

I guess but every but every year of my life, I I I it's it's it's like a stock. It like goes up and down and up and down up, but it trends upwards as I get, as I get older and live and do more things that I noticed that I'm I'm better at what what? What is the term for this error correction? Life is error correction? And as I get older and as I do more things,

I get better at the error correction. So life is error correction, meaning you do things and then you see how the things that you do affect you and affect other people. And as you do things, you you err. To err is human and then you correct those errors. So you have to allow you have to understand that these errors that you made are not bugs. They're part of the process of being a human being. Is you?

You you you error and then you correct and you learn and sometimes you get If you're someone who you let your emotions really fucking take hold of you. You forget all of your error correction, and you admit to the desires of the emotion that is currently possessing your body like a demon. And that's something to wrangle if you're if you're someone that lets emotions possess your body like a fucking demon. But life, life is just error correction.

So when you look back at your life, Francesco, at the errors, just just flip the mindset because right now you're looking back at the errors and you go, oh, I committed all these errors. I fucked up. I made all these bad choices, and I fucked up, which means that I'm I'm I'm done, and I was never gonna be anything. And I because you know, because the best

version of me would have never made those errors. And so you do well, and you dwell, and you dwell and you dwell, and you the error because the errors were inevitable, because you're a human being doing things. The errors were inevitable. Okay, so understand that they were inevitable. But then now what's in your UH agency is to is to correct them and learn from them and also understand that they're gonna keep happening. They're gonna make bad

choices until you die. You're gonna make bad choices until you die. Probably you'll get better at making at you at having them be less bad and probably less frequent. But you'll never be perfect. You'll never be James Bond. You'll never have the right. You know what I hate? I saw this movie. I'm gonna go on such I'm on such a rant whatever, I don't care. I hope people are enjoying listening to this. I saw this movie,

the F one movie. I wasn't gonna see it, but there's some people go and I went, and I hated it so much. Has anyone has anyone seen the F one movie? I fucking hated that fucking movie so much. I promise is related. It's by that guy Jerry. I think Jerry Bruckheimer, right, Jerry Bruckheimer. He made Top Gun Maverick, Did he make the did he make the original Top Gun? Too? I never saw the original Top Gun, but I saw Top Gun Maverick, and I saw F one, and I and and but before I know that the point is

that the movies are supposed to not be realistic. But I fucking hate those movies because in those movies because I hate those movies because they're perfect. I know that's the point. I know that's the point. I'm gonna spoil the F one movie. If you were gonna watch the F one movie, then you can skip ahead. But I'm gonna spoil it because who care? Okay? In the F one movie, everyone just has the perfect thing to say. You know, every character enters the room at the perfect time.

Everyone has there's no awkward there's no like, you know, someone mumbles and they said what and then someone goes, oh, sorry, I didn't hear you. Do you think should we No, everything's perfect. Everything's written so that it was a perfect thing that is said, and you know what happens. Here's the thing I'm here's the spoiler. They win the race,

because of course they win the race. There's this part of the F one movie where the Brad Pitt's character is like talking to the love interest and he's like, man, I don't even care if I win this race anymore. You know.

Life is weird and gross and awkward and uncomfortable, especially if you're a person who thinks and feels in some deep sense, and that's a blessing and a curse. He embrace it. So embrace the u the uncomfortability of your errors. You don't want want to be Brad Pitt. That's soulless. You don't want your life to be the F one movie. That's a shitty movie. We all know people whose life is like the F one movie. And maybe this is not.

You know, the the F one movie. It looked good, it had good cinematography, and you know, Brad Pitt, that's cool. I guess that's a cool life. But you don't want your life to be the F one movie. You want you want, you want something deeper than that. You want something that people will that will be remembered. You know, I people will forget about the F one movie. So so in feel honored to live in imperfect human existence and embrace it and try your best. That's my rant, Francisco. Okay,

that was a lot? How long was it? How long was I ranted for? That? Was? I?

So many people that I feel I have put a lot of time and effort into a friendship or some sort of relationship with have been disintegrating lately as I'm twenty three and everyone seems to be moving on and creating new lives that I am no longer a part of. I still live with my parents, only have a part time job, even though I've graduated college six months ago. Now I have no motivation to do anything other than hang out with old friends like I did in the past.

But none of them have time, it seems. I don't know. I guess this is kind of a whole lot of nothing. No, it wasn't. It makes a lot of sense. Hopefully it makes you ponder. Okay, yeah, I feel like I recently talked about this on the show. But it's something I've been thinking about a lot. Is like, as you get older, your friends and your family all like start to have their own lives. I'm twenty seven. My my I used to live in a house when I was a boy with my mom, my mom, my dad, and my sister.

We all used to live in a house together for like fucking seven years something like that. Maybe the longer eight, I don't know. But for a long time we all lived in a house together and we all had we all meet meet. Those the four of us, my mom, my dad, and my sister. We all lived and we all had a life together. And you know, then my parents got divorced, they got remarried. I grew up, my

sister grew up. Now, me, my mom, my dad, and my sister all live in different states and we all have our own lives and we used to have you know this, we were all we were all in each other's lives and we check in on each other and I call them and we talk and I you know, I love them and they love me, and but you know, we're I don't see them every day. They're not in my They're not a part of my daily, daily, true

daily life. You know, my high school friends. I talk to them in a group chat every day, which is awesome, but you know, I don't. It's not like I was in high school where I saw them like all the time in class. And you show up to class and you have your friends and everyone's like a You're like, you have people in your life, right, Like That's kind of how this ship goes. Is as you get older, everyone starts to develop their own lives and you less.

You find yourself less and less. Uh you have people kind of like, you know, you have friends and you have family, but the less people like in your life. It's and a lot of people are lucky, you know, they have really nice they have really great relationships like spouses and families and people they work whether you know, some people are lucky enough that they have people in their life like in in their life. You know, I'm not talking about like having friends. I'm not talking about

having family. I'm not I'm talking about like you know, you know what I mean. Whoever wrote this email, you know what I mean. So you're twenty three, which is a pivotal age because you graduated college and you're seeing your friends move on and they are creating their lives that you're not a part of. But that's that's again, that's natural. It's to be accepted. But the good news for you, Keith, is that because you're only twenty three, you have a lot of time to create your own

life that can have people in it. How do you create a life that has people in it? Well, it's kind of the running theme of the episode a little bit. You just do things, you know, you do things that get you around other people. Develop yourself as a person so that you know someone will want to be in a relationship with you. That person can be in your life. Do pro social things, you have hobbies, leave your house, create shit that other people want to be a part of.

You know, there's there's there's ways in which you can if you feel a lack of people in your life, there's ways in which I think you can be creative and throw yourself into the universe two again, attract people into your life. So for you, specifically, I would say, uh, go ahead and more, you know, take your time to

mourn a little bit. This is this is a bit of a grief to getting older, but there's also a it's also there's a bit of there's a bit of a grief to getting older, but it's also I think it's a perspective thing, and I deal with a lot of this stuff myself. I think it's a perspective thing because if you there's inherent grief to it, but if you look at it as like like people I hate when people say getting older sucks. It's like things only

suck if you decide that they do. So, Uh, look at this as a challenge, as opportunity and take it and take it on with with some excitedness. Like you you're you're challenged now to create your own life. It's fucking insanely fucking hard. And we all know that we live in a crazy world. We all know we live in a crazy economy. We all know we live in weird, uncertain times. We've kind of always lived in uncertain times in a way, because you know, when the fuck was

anything ever certain but you. But these if you have to just embrace it, embrace this challenge that you have now two build your own life. Keith, you graduated college six months ago. What for? What? What do you do? Figure out a way to throw yourself into the universe and get other people around you. It's doable. There's a lot of opportunity. Man. I've been on a lot of emotion I've been on a lot of motivational rants today.

But I'm into it. I like it. I like thinking about life, and I think it's something that a lot of people are struggling with. It's the like loneliness and feel like they don't have other people like in their life. But uh, this is so much opportunity, you know, if if we truly live in a world where so many people are struggling with this, and there should be so much opportunity for you to figure out how to get those people together. Okay, this is from THEO subject line

cracking girlfriend. Hi. I love to crack my girlfriend's fingers all ten a couple times each. I also love to crack her back, and I often do it even after finishing or during sexual intercourse. She had never done this before, and she doesn't do it alone. I wants to ask her if she lets me do it because she likes it or just to please me. She answered the second one, and it made me very pleased, but also made me

doubt my sanity. Sometimes it can hurt, and I'm seriously sorry when it happens, but every time we laugh at it, and then she lets me continue. We have been together for almost three years, and I stop myself from asking too many questions, and I enjoy the luck I have in finding a person who lets me do such strange things to her body. Greetings from Italy. THEO, they are really doing some weird shit over there in Europe. They are really testing the limits of the human experience. Yeah,

I don't know. I cracked my own fingers a lot. I've had a time. I've had a time or two I was holding hands with someone and did a little bit of a crack, you know, because it does. It feels good. If it feels good to crack your it feels good, like because when you do it to yourself right like that feels good, like the cracking, but also like because you when you do it to yourself. You experience both sides. You do the cracking and you get

the cracked. But just doing the cracking satisfying too. What is your girlfriend? Let you gotta you gotta let your girlfriend do something weird to you, though I don't know what. Maybe she can Yeah, maybe that's what I would do if I was in the situation. I was like, all right, thanks for letting me crack your fingers because I'm weird. What can I What can I do for you? Do you wanna? Do you want ten dollars? Do you want? You can lick my I can't think of a single

thing that would be a good trade for this. Just be nice, Just be very very nice to this lady. Just be just be extremely nice to this lady forever and do whatever she tells you. Okay, this is from Brody. Subject line read mine please you got it? Hello, Lyle. Love the podcasts. I always listen to them while I'm at work. I do refrigeration and heating and air and while I'm doing a job, I have your podcast in

my ear. It's really entertaining. But that one guy that had an obsession with Reese's cups, he don't know real game. I know exactly. I remember exactly the caller that you're talking about. I know what you're talking about. He doesn't know the real game about eating them while they're still dressed. I'm talking peel that skirt back a little bit and take a few nibbles. Now that's real game. I don't do that. I just rip the whole thing off. Also,

what's your thoughts on mastering a craft? Okay, that's a subject change so far. I'm in I'm a year in my current job, which is refrigeration heating air, and I'm nineteen years of age. Male. This person writes interestingly, do you think it would be best for me to stick with it and try to make a company? Or stick with it for a few years and try to learn a new skill? Wait, so both options are to stick

with it. I'd love to make a lot of money and buy nice materialistic things and all that, but I wouldn't want to get myself tied down trying to operate a company and not be able to live my life again. Love the podcast. I hope to hear myself on here while at work. I well, okay, I'm trying to understand with this person is asking, so I think they're saying, do you think it would be best for me to stick with it and make a company or what? Brodie, I have no idea what the fuck you're saying in

this email. I have no fucking idea what you're saying in this email. Man, I don't know what you're saying in this email, but I, for some reason reading it, I just think you're going to be fine. Don't buy a bunch of crap that ties you down to your job. I'll say that. I'll say, you're nineteen, like, buy fucking stocks or some shit. Don't buy dumb bullshit. That's all I'll say to you, Brody, honestly, honest, honestly, Brodie, I don't think you're gonna listen to a single thing I

would say anyway. I'm sorry. I'm sorry because I know you're actually going to listen to this. Yeah, yeah, you know what. Yeah, stick with heating refrigeration air. I do feel like in the AI universe that's one of the most like real real shit, like real blue collar shit is what will make most money. So yeah, keep doing that, Keep doing that, and try not to get yourself killed. I feel like you're gonna like get into a like motorcycle accident or something. Don't do that. Just don't do

anything stupid. Brody, You're gonna be okay. Just don't don't do anything stupid. I don't know why I'm worried about this guy. Something about it, something about this email. There's nothing blatantly concerning about this email, but something about the way it's written concerns me. You'll be okay, Brody, You'll be okay. All right. This is from buzzsaw Kill. Subject line in all caps desperation. Hello, therapy, get go. I know you're a therapist. I'm not a therapist. Do people

really think I'm a therapist? Hey, therapy, get goo. I know you're a therapist, So I'm assuming that means you know how I can get hella bitches, which I am in desperate need for. Here is my situation. I love primus. I'm all caps fat, I'm a ginger. How am I supposed to pick up women like this? And then they put four question marks? How? And then they put six

question marks. First of all, if they get past the fatness, then they look up a little and see the orange disdain on my head, which is a turn off for some right, and even if they can look past all of that. I play them something like John the Fishermen, which is an entry level primus song, and I can see in their faces they're getting drier than a raisin in the Sahara. I mean, really, people tell me I just got to find the right woman, but it seems like nobody around me is the right woman. Like I'm

a clam in a sea of muscle. My favorite shark is the hammerhead shark. Now you might read this and think it's a personality problem. Okay, wait, you just put this is the most ADHD email of No, it's definitely not the most DDHD email. But it's just funny to me that you put. It's just funny to me that in the middle of this email, I'm like kind of glancing over the rest of it. I'll read the rest of it, but just in the middle of this email you just randomly put what your favorite shark is. Keep

being you buzzsaw kill. Okay, I'm glad you put that in there. It's good. I'm glad I know that about you. Now, now you might read this and think it's a personality problem, but it all caps totally isn't. I am friends with a lot of women, and they love me, but like as a friend obviously, you know. And I've been told that I'm a little weird, but like, I'm not weird to the point where I'm repulsing women, you know. I mean, maybe I say a weird thing here or there, but

it's not creepy weird. I'm not saying your tits look real squeezable, honey. I'm saying something like, do you ever think if eating come is vegan? Okay, you know what I mean. That's a bit of a bad example for things I say, but that's just off the dome. It's actually a perfect example of a thing that you say because you just said it. If you can, please give a word or two, or maybe even three, if you're feeling serendipitous for this Primus fan, I would appreciate it. Thanks, Okay,

I have a lot of thoughts. I gotta get him together. First of all, shout out Primus. They did the south Park theme song. There's an epic this is fucking sick concert video. I think the whole thing's on YouTube. It's Matt Stone and Trey Parker doing songs from South Park with Ween and Primus and it's at fuck in Red Rocks and then Ween and Primus also do some songs.

It's so fucking sick. You gotta check it out if you're a fan of South Park or Ween of Primus anyway, So I'm gonna call you a buzz because that that's your thing. Listen, buzz. Here's the thing I'm a. I'm The idea of be yourself is one that is tricky because you want to you want to be you don't wanna You don't want to dilute your essence such that you are palatable for others. Right, you know that's not

a good thing, but you can't. But some part, but but but maybe some parts of your essence could be formed a little bit, right, Like like like you take a big thing, a marble, and you carve it to make a statue. Right, you shaved away a lot of stuff and you refined it and you made something that's beautiful and was better than when the marble was just a brick. But it's still the marble, right, the essence is still there. So, uh, if I were you, I don't think you should dilute who you are to be

palatable to other people. But you should probably learn how to, like, you know, take it down a notch, you know, because here's the other thing that's also Here's like the subject line of the email is desperation in all caps. And let me tell you, if you are going into this with desperation, it doesn't and I'm not I'm telling this from experience. If if you go into the dating universe with desperation, I don't care how slick you think you're being,

they know, they know, they know. It doesn't matter how slick you think you're being. If you're desperate, it comes off. You can't you cannot prevent your subconscious feelings from coming out in your behavior. So if subconsciously you're desperate, it'll come out in your behavior, no matter how fucking slick you think you're being. So you have to kind of rid yourself of the desperation, which is hard. It's hard to it's you know, it's hard to not want things

that you want. But just know that it comes how you feel about yourself, how you feel about the world, how you feel about your situations. They all come out in your words and actions, whether you want them to or not. They just do. They just bleed out naturally. Also, you seem to be upset about being fat. I get upset about being fat myself. You can always lose weight that's within your control. You know, start going to the gym,

Start you know, doing do a little bit. I'm not gonna go Hubermen on this because I'm the last guy to give any of this kind of advice, but you know, do a little bit of fasting, do a little bit more walking. Don't do it to get attention from women, but do it because you clearly don't like the way that you look and feel in your body. And that comes off right, So do it for yourself. So a that. And then here's actually here's an here's another thing I'm

gonna throw throw at you. Buzz. This email is very you focused, right, Like when you say things like do you ever think eating cum is vegan? And you start playing a Primus song. Right, Here's the thing when you if you're hanging out with a lady and you just start being like, hey, check out this fucking YouTube video. Hey check out this thing, and you're just taking yourself

and you're like throwing it at them. You're not really gonna connect, you say, I'm just gonna make this observation but it seems like when you're meeting these women that you're throwing yourself at them instead of trying to connect with them by showing interest in them and their lives. Like, here's the thing you like Primus, that's cool, but that and your favorite shark is the hammha tried shark. That's great,

But who gives the shit? Right, if you're on a date with someone, If you're meeting someone, you gotta you wanna get to know them. You gotta ask them questions about themselves. You got. Connecting with someone means you learn about them and their content, the context in which they live, the things that they like, who they are as a person,

and you interact with that. Because if a girl goes to hang out with you and you're just you're just a brick wall of yourself and you're putting on this Primus song and you're talking about sharks and you're talking about come and like, there's no connection this. This this woman is gonna be like I might as well have gone on a on a date with a with a you know, a TV that is just one side. This is a one sided thing, right, it seems I'm just gathering from your email that you might be having a

lot of one sided interactions. And so if I were you, I would just I would take all of the ego out of this process. I would take all of the I you start. Here's you say in this email you have it. This is how the email is formatted. It says, here's my situation. And then you wrote you wrote this in like numerical list. You wrote one, I love Primus, two, I'm fat, three I'm a ginger. It's the the format of the email is like, there's a lot of ego in it, and I'm and I'm I don't. I don't

mean ego in the way of like egotistical. I mean ego in the way of like the self Like this is like it's just it's about it's like me, I'm fat, I'm ginger, I love Primus, I like, I'm I'm this, I'm that, I'm the other thing. And it's not there's no you gotta you gotta drop all of the ego you got, drop all of the understanding of yourself and go into these things completely flip it, like why are you like, why are you pulling out your phone to play John the Fisherman? Why are you doing that you

don't be don't do that. Not because you could play you could play the cool you could play the coolest music or whatever that, but like you, it's it's a signal to me that you're not actually engaging with these people that you're meeting, and you're just throwing the ego of yourself at them, and people hate that, and people

and that leads to no connection. So you could be fat, and you could be ginger, and you could love primus, and you could wonder if eating cum is vegan, and you know, look, if you're those are all things within you that aren't necessarily gonna repel other people from you. But if you're lead, and and and but if you lead with all of that, and that's like your fucking

north star or whatever, you're not connecting. So next time you go on a date with someone or you meet someone, take don'ty, don't mention primus, don't think, don't even think about yourself, take like literally, strip the ego from it, strip the self from it, and focus one hundred percent on the person you're attempting to connect to, and attempt to connect with them by showing genuine interest in who

they are. Right and if in the process of doing that, you can find connection through things like the music you like and your life experiences, and you know your your curiosity about come then bring them out. But first and foremost, you want to go in there with the idea of seeing if you can connect with this person, not about like. Also, dates are not about trying to get people to like you. They're about seeing if you connect with people naturally. They're

not They're not things that you win or lose. So go into these So I've i've I've been repeating myself, but go into these seeing if you connect with people, and not see and not being like. And now, because you're going onto all this shit with this mindset of like, I'm a weird, fat ginger guy who loves this weird music. No one's gonna like that shit, where it's like that's all that's left field, that's not You're so far away from the mindset that you want to be going into

this with. You want to be going into this with an egoless mindset that has nothing to do with you, that goes like, Huh, I'm gonna see if I like this person, see if I find them interesting, see if I can connect to them and then you know, try to lose weight if that's what you want, if you want to feel better about yourself. And uh yeah, primus is cool. You should. You should check out check out that fucking Red Rocks concert with the South Park guys.

It's so sick. All right, let's see what else i'll read. I'll read another one. This is from Rambunctious Rampage, subject line airplanes and growing up. Hello, mister gecko. I've been listening since twenty twenty two when I started going to trade school to work on airplanes. Three years later, now I am a full time mechanic working on executive jets.

I always thought you would think my line of work is pretty cool, and honestly, I enjoy bragging about it because how many people have you met that'll work on airplanes? Sure it's cool. Sorry, I'm sorry, sorry, No, it's cool. It's cool to work on airplanes. I like being in airplanes. I use airplanes to get places. It's good someone has to work on them. If they don't, then they don't exist. When I graduated school, I got engaged to my fiance

of seven years. We moved four hundred miles away together for work. I landed my dream job right out of school and was promptly fired three months later after the works. After the worst two weeks of my life applying to jobs and playing Fallout New Vegas, I got my current job, which is going better than I ever could have expected. We have two cats and have been thriving in our big apartment twelve hundred square feet. This guy really likes

to brag. I built a gaming PC in March, and we each have a bookshelf full of our own books. You should try reading. Okay, now, fuck you, Thanks for your time, sir. Sorry you Actually you seem like a cool guy. Rambooks just rampage. I'm jealous. I'm not going to try reading. I'm happy before I really am. I'm happy for you. That's why I was being a dick, is because I'm actually I'm jealous because you seem happy about life, which is nice, and I'm happy for you.

I'm happy for you that you got You went from the worst two weeks of your life too to live in to enjoying life. It's good, man, it's good. I like it. I like it. You know what we get a lot of I think it's good. It's good to know that I feel like a lot of you know, there's a lot of fucked up shit going on in the world. So anytime I read an email of someone being like, oh, I actually enjoy life and things are going good and I'm happy, especially, I love it. I love a good story. I love this. I love a

good comeback story. Worst two weeks of your life? Now you got books. I've read a couple of times. I tried reading, but I I I don't have the I don't have the patience for it. I like I like playing video games, though I'm not a fall out New Vegas guy. I don't like games that are too complicated or like feel like work. You know. I feel like I was a dick to this guy, but uh, you know, he told me to try reading the nerve the nerve. No, thank you for sharing a re extrous rampage. I appreciate you.

Thanks for making airplanes? Who do you what? What you work on? Executive jets? Like for like, like do you make like Bezos' rocket ship? And ship? That is pretty cool? Or I guess it's cool. Have you ever seen the movie Airplane? She watched the movie Airplane. Remolxirous Rampage. Okay, let's read another email, all right, This is from Skip subject line I hiked across Spain. Hey, Lyle, love the show. You're

a real g Thank you Skip. In twenty twenty three, I hiked from the bottom of France all the way across the top half of Spain on the Camino de Santiago. I've always wanted to do that. Shit, that's cool. Then I went to and spent weeks recovering on the beach in Lagos, Portugal. I hiked the Camino because I was feeling dead for years, no purpose, had gone through a breakup and a pill addiction, and had no aim in life.

So I found out about the Camino from a friend and spent two years bartending to save up to do it. When I had the money, I quit my job, bought the plane ticket, packed my shit, and off I went. I ended up meeting six other hikers, all Europeans who became my close, close friends. It's been two years since that trip and we all still talk in our WhatsApp group almost daily. Spain and those people made me feel life again. Magic is real. It's out there, you just

have to find it. Skip. Ooh, what a great email to end on. Thank you for sending this skip. I love this, this so so so. This the theme of the episode today, The motherfucking theme of the episode today that life rewards you for just doing shit. And look at this guy, right, this guy fucking he he he didn't have any money, he spent two years, Barty saved up for it, and then he fucking went and he did it and he got rewarded. Life just rewards you

for doing shit. He doesn't. I gotta, I gotta, I gotta, I gotta apply this more to my own life. You know, life just rewards you for doing shit. It really does. It's not a it's a less and less and less feel like you gotta make any sort of like right decisions or whatnot. But it just rewards you for doing shit. I mean, this is a perfect example. This guy fucking breakup, pill addiction, no aim in life recovery, just fucking you know. That's the thing. I believe heavily in serendipity, Like this,

fucking shit just finds you. This is why I first started like doing my solo travel shit when I was, uh, you know, in my early twenties. I was solo traveling because the more you go and do things and put yourself out there and try to talk. Just life just rewards you for doing shit. I love it. I love it. SKIP. Thanks for this was a great email to end on this guy's friends now, because yeah, we had a bunch of other emailers who were like, I don't know how

to make friends. I don't know what to do. Do do something crazy, you know you're gonna die, should do something anyway? Well, okay, I kind of I feel like I black out when I do these, and I'm like, now I'm and I'm like, I don't even know what the hell I just record, and I'm gonna put on I don't know what I just recorded, and I'm going to put on the internet, but I it's too late. So that was gek mail. Thank you guys for listening. I'm about to go. I'm actually I'm in a half hour.

I'm going to the airport because I'm going to the gathering of the Juggalos to do some interviews, do my I'm gonna do a Gecko i RL episode there, and I think I'm gonna try to make another I made I made. I made that Japan video, I made my Tijuana video. I'm working on another video and then I'm gonna shoot something at the gathering that I'm excited for that'll be awesome. See, I'm That's what I'm trying to do.

I'm just trying to do shit. I'm just trying to if I just keep doing ship and making I'll tell you guys something. My all my like Gecko views or whatever are like down, which is like, and it's been five years. It's not like the craziest thing in the world. But so I'm like, okay, you know, what do I What do I do now? I want to keep doing shit? So I swimming. I'm just gonna keep doing shit. I'm gonna go to the gathering of the Juggalos, I'm gonna go to Kenya, I'm gonna go to Alaska. Just do shit.

Interview people, just make videos, put them on the internet, you know. I mean when I made that, I made this like video about having an existential crisis in Japan, I didn't think people would resonate with it. I thought it was just gonna kind of, you know, be me whining for a bit and die. And then I posted it and a bunch of people were really into it. So and I would have never known and It was the first video I posted in a while that was

not Geko related. It was just me and there was I didn't have a strategy behind it, and it was just just doing things.

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