Possibilities: Reflecting How Far You've Come [471]

We think that our journey should be like somebody else's and every time we turn around it looks like somebody else is popping up in the online space , or at least in our online space , and it feels like they were an overnight success . And we know deep down inside that wasn't true . We just didn't see their journey .

But sometimes it can feel like that and it can be very , very defeating . So yesterday I was going through my memories and I was like this is very , very interesting . So four years ago yesterday we'll just say this month I was truly recovering from a surgery that I had on . I think it would have been like November 26th , something like that .

I just remember it was that that year it was the Tuesday before Thanksgiving and I had surgery . I thought it was a perfect time to have surgery . I was told it was going to be a , you know , two to three day recovery , in and out , super simple . Well , you know , my expectations did not happen .

I was sold on this and that's funny that I'm saying that I was sold on a surgery . But I really didn't want to have it . But I knew I needed to have it . So , anyhow , surgery did not go as planned . Basically , I had a cyst that was being removed and it was about six inches long and it burst inside of me .

So it took I was in surgery longer because they had to clean me out whatever all that gross stuff was . It was laparoscopic . So , anyhow , when I got done with surgery I realized oh I'm , I look like I'm pregnant . I have , like , this whole bulge on the side of my stomach . I don't know what's going on . We got to keep you . That's not good .

Ended up being an air bubble , but we didn't know it at the time . So basically nothing went as planned . So I was supposed to be healed and like be back to normal in two to three days . It ended up being about eight weeks of constant blood , like taking my blood and helping me feel normal .

And I'll never forget I was looking at my memories , even though over the past few days I was in such pain in that time and I could not see the light at the end of the tunnel . All I could see was .

I'm getting my blood taken every day because you nobody knows what's wrong with me , nobody can tell me my blood , all my blood work , is like all over the place . It doesn't make any sense . Nobody can tell me why I feel horrible and I just don't feel like myself , and it would have been about two weeks , maybe three weeks , after surgery by this point .

So I think this is like one of those moments where it's like I couldn't see the possibilities right , and so it was very , very hard to have hope , and I wish , I wish now , I wish I would have done the work that I've done now , because I can see it so clearly now , but back then I couldn't .

I do remember thinking , I can't imagine how people in chronic pain do it , because I'm struggling because of this , you know , and what would I do if I had to experience this all the time ? You know , and I know that I had to pour into myself so much more than normal because I was struggling hard .

I was struggling really , really hard , and it was a very , very dark time in my life , and all stemming from pain that I couldn't , nobody could , figure out , and so if you're obviously ever in that situation . I only lived it for about eight to ten weeks , but I do feel you and my thought immediately was like how do people deal with this ?

Like how do people deal with this and deal with this ? All the time you find a way right , just like I found a way , but it was still very , very uncomfortable because it's easier to just be in pain and deal with it versus , you know , advocate for yourself and work on your mindset during this time and all of those things .

But anyhow , that was four years ago . At this time then , if I go back to three years ago on this date , I was realizing that , oh my gosh , I'm going to make my first six figure year in my business , like I've never been able to do and create this amount of money in my business before .

And I had just come off of what would have been at the time my three highest months September , october , november and I didn't know that January was going to be like almost double , like what that was . So it was a very , very exciting time . But if I would have looked back at four years ago me , I would have never thought that was possible .

Right , four years ago , me and Payne didn't give a crap about money at the time , she didn't care about her business , she just wanted to feel good , right . And so I think again , really going back and looking at our lives .

You know , when I go back , two years ago today I was in Hawaii , or yesterday I was in Hawaii , and it was my first trip to Hawaii . It had been on my bucket list for 15 years . I never thought it was possible . I went for 14 days . I went for two weeks . The first part I spent with my husband , the second part I spent with my mastermind .

But it was a magical , magical time that I did not think was possible . And again two years ago today , and then thinking back at four years ago today , well , what was I thinking ? What was I going through ?

And last year at this time , I was back in Hawaii on my third trip in a year , which , again four years ago , me , I never could have imagined that , didn't think that was possible . So you thought it was a pipe dream and I was back in Hawaii mastermining with three of my favorite humans and it was beautiful . It was beautiful .

And it's just a reminder that today , and , you know , this week , I'm sitting and reflecting on four years ago , three years ago , two years ago , and it's just unreal what has happened . It's unreal what has been possible . And I have always been the strategy girl I can . I will tell anyone . I am consistent to a fault .

I am visible , visibly consistent , like that's another one of my superpowers , and I am very , very good with the strategy . I'm very , very good with the doing . I'm very , very good with that .

But I struggled for so many years with the magic and the air quote , impossibilities , right , like , that's not possible , that's never going to happen to me , like , and I struggled with all of that . And I can look back and you know , four years ago , I didn't think I was ever going to be out of pain .

I couldn't see the possibilities from the pain , right , three years ago , I never imagined I wanted it and I desired it , but I didn't know that I was ever really going to hit six figures in my business , much less multi-six figures , right , and I was making a month what some people make in a year . And you know , I never thought I would go to Hawaii .

It's on my bucket list , it was on . I was at a conference in 2019 and they asked us to write down all the best one to travel . Hawaii was the first one . Again , I couldn't see it , but I wanted it , but I couldn't see it .

And the one thing that I've learned in this journey is that we get to start seeing things before they happen , because so many times we want to be real , we want to be realistic , we want to be all these things and we want to , like , push our dreams to the side and push our desires to the side .

And I can tell you , I've done it both ways and there's so much more fun when you get to dream bigger . There's so much more fun when you get to think about the things that you once thought were impossible , that could actually happen to you in your life , in your business . So if I can encourage you to do anything , it's this and that is dream .

Don't push things to the side because you think that they're never going to happen or they're impossible . Business and running a business is full of strategy and it's full of doing and it's full of consistency and it's full of marketing and wearing all these hats as an entrepreneur .

But don't forget to wear your what's possible hat , don't forget to wear the magic hat , don't forget to wear the abundance hat , because that , my friends , is what can keep you going in some of the dark days that you don't think you're ever going to get out of .