America's Got A Problem: Black Women Are TIRED [BONUS]

The youngsters who were programmed to continue fucking up woke up one night digging Paul Revere and Nat Turner as the good guys , america's typical van . We had not all yet closed our eyes . The signs of truth were tattooed across our orphanage's vagina .

We learned , to our amazement , the untold tale of scandal Two long centuries buried in a dusty vault , hosed down daily with a gagging perfume . America was a bastard , the illegitimate daughter of the mother country whose legs were then spread around the world , and a rapist known as Freedom .

Freedom , democracy , liberty and justice were revolutionary code names that preceded the bubbling , bubbling , bubbling , bubbling , bubbling in the mother country's crotch . What does Webster say about soul ? All I want is a good home and a wife and a children and some food to feed them every night . After all is said and done , build a new route to China .

If they'll have you , who will survive in America ? Who will survive in America ? Who will survive in America ? Who ?

Even in the darkest times , your art is a quiet rebellion , a refusal to let the world dim your light , a refusal to let the world dim your light . You don't have to be healed or in a good place to make art . Make art angry , make art heartbroken , make art scared . Just make art . This episode is unplanned . I am recording it late at night .

I am recording it after having experienced a few spaces with fellow Black women who are processing what has transpired in the states during and post election . I have personally been experiencing waves of emotion . The day of the election , I felt very apathetic . I told myself I wasn't going to constantly be checking the polls and driving myself crazy .

I told myself I would just see what happens and not constantly be checking for status updates In typical fashion .

I did not uphold my own boundary and , of all the times to probably check in on the polls , I decided to do so right before going to bed , which was probably the dumbest thing I could have done Because even at that time checking right before I went to bed which was probably the dumbest thing I could have done , because even at that time checking right before I

went to bed I could see that Kamala was behind Went to bed , woke up in the wee hours of the morning because I had to use the restroom and I thought to myself I should check to see what's going on . And I fought it for a second and I said don't do it , that's going to disrupt your sleep and your to see what's going on .

And I fought it for a second and I said don't do it , that's going to disrupt your sleep and your peace .

Go back to sleep Once again , didn't listen to myself , checked , saw that she was even further behind than she was when I went to bed , despite the time , I jokingly slash not jokingly texted my dad and was like so have you identified that place in Canada yet , because it's not looking good .

And then , by the time I finished panicking and went back to sleep and officially woke up , I woke up to several alerts that Trump would be the 47th president , I think . I was in disbelief . So I kept checking Kamala HQ , like all of the accounts to see , like if they were posting any updates and it was just crickets .

And then around 4.20 or something , that day she delivered her concession speech . I feel disappointed , I feel numb , I feel apathy , I feel discontent , I feel angry , I feel grief and I feel rage , all of which are valid and sacred and holy .

So many people have expressed how unsurprised they are , but unfortunately I bought into the camp of having a tiny bit of hope and I was violently reminded of how racist and evil this country is . I don't know if this is like denial or me not fully moving through the stages of grief , like maybe I'm just not accepting .

I don't know what this is , but there's a part of me that honestly feels like Kamala running was a cruel joke , like the powers that be knew she would inspire a bit of hope , only to rip that hope from under us like a rug .

It feels like it was a way to humble Black women , like a countrywide joke that we were not in on , a blatant reminder that it doesn't matter what we've accomplished , what our accolades are , doesn't matter what we're doing , doesn't matter that we're earning the most degrees , the fastest group of entrepreneurs all of that still not good enough to hold the highest

position , well , the highest earthly position in the nation . That was not the black job that they meant Like , okay , y'all are doing a lot , sit down and relax . We don't actually like you . We don't actually like all of the diversity , equity and inclusion , like that's what it feels like .

But ultimately , how evil this country is isn't a surprise , right , I mean , that's not a surprise . Most people who understand the history of this country , the violence of these lands , like indigenous people , enslaved Africans and others who have had to experience that violence so that America could literally exist as it is today , those folks are not surprised .

The descendants of these very same people , who have had to withstand atrocity after atrocity , harm after harm , violence after violence , disappointment after disappointment for centuries , are not surprised , because we understand what it is here intimately , and this election made that salient .

On the flip side of that , I'm super disappointed by how divisive this election has been , even worse than it was in 2016, . It feels like , and reading statistics about the fact that Trump had even improved on his performance since 2020 now it's crazy . I'll be very honest too .

There's a part of me that is disappointed that a lot of us aren't even more angry that we are , and I have to check myself even with that , because I was reminded today that we don't have the luxury or the privilege to respond the way that other people do when they throw violent tantrums . But there's a part of me that wants to throw a very violent tantrum .

I feel like a lot of the anger that we're sitting in has us stuck in freeze in a way , or like dissociating , disconnecting and , as much as I value , like leaning on community and connection and finding joy and all of those beautiful things . I have rage , like I have sacred rage .

I have rage that needs to go somewhere and I will always stand by the fact that I think the only language America understands is violence , and we are not angry enough yet because if we were , a lot of things would be up in flames right now .

I'm sad that Black women continue to feel and be disappointed and unprotected , despite being the mules of the world that everyone turns to for direction , for support , for protection and to carry every burden .

I'm sad and disturbed that many men continue to hate women so much that they would put the lives of their mothers , their sisters , their daughters , their nieces , their aunts , their friends , their lovers and everyone else in jeopardy . And this rhetoric of Gen Z saving us . They can't and they won't . They're children and it's not their job .

And very much so not Gen Z males , because many of them voted like their fathers , grandfathers , forefathers and founding fathers . Men have also been showing their ass online recently , even worse than usual . Ladies , please protect yourselves by any means necessary . Interpret that , however you need to . Men who actually care about value and respect women .

Now is the time to step up and be the protectors you all claim to be . Check your male peers when and as often as needed . Call out or in your male relatives that need to be checked . We all have a long road ahead of us . Trump is literally the physical embodiment of centuries of hate , white supremacy , cruelty and violence .

And because white America is so scared of change , of evolution , of inclusion , of equity , they would rather see him hold the highest position in the land at the expense of every marginalized person and themselves . It reminds me of an interview clip I'd seen a while back that resurfaced lately . Let me actually play that for you .

You Based them on facts instead . That's essential , but what I find interesting is you're so into facts and you're so into science , but then you supported Donald Trump , right .

and emotion .

You know , according to you , I guess I would be perpetuating the dispossession of white America . That is true . That is true . Would you say that you wouldn't want me in this country ?

Black people , native Americans , chinese people who came and built the railroads ?

My issue with you is that I don't think you have enough compassion and vision , not because I don't like what things are now .

I've had an issue with the phrase people of color , and when I mean black , I do my best to say black , or , if I'm trying to be more inclusive , I do my best to say BIPOC , like black and indigenous people of color .

But I still talk about black people when and where I can , and like the phrase people of color , poc , who and what it represents , continues to remind me that we are not all in this together . This election is evidence of that . Additionally , white people continue to show their ass constantly . They don't learn , and you know .

Black women have been expressing our grievances with Black men and the ways that many of them continue to fail us , and although 80-ish percent of the Black men who showed up to vote voted for Kamala , far too many didn't vote at all . Not only was their silence deafening , it cemented many of the feelings of frustration and hurt for us .

I was just on a call with 50 plus other Black women recently and one of them shared that she has never felt protected by the men in her life not her father , not her uncles , not partners and after this election , she fears she never will Like .

Asking if and how you voted has already been a deal breaker for many , but it's become an even bigger deal breaker for so many more after this election .

People are expressing their frustrations around people not voting at all or voting third party or the Democratic Party's terrible strategy terrible strategy and although they had to consolidate a two-year campaign into a hundred plus day campaign , listening to the people would have helped a lot .

There's also the important issue that no candidate was ultimately viable due to their stance on Palestine , and that was a huge dividing factor for a lot of people not everyone , but for a lot of people . I'm personally embarrassed by a number of those things and beyond .

I think the election was rigged and the results were tampered with , and I think that will eventually come to light . I'm all for black women tapping out and resting . However , the trends going around online right now to flood Starbucks with support or calling ICE on people is diabolical beneath us and ultimately doesn't target the real enemy .

All of that being said , this election was a battle in a longer war , and that war is not over . That war will continue for decades to come , as policies change , as generations change , as climate change ranges on and so on and so forth .

All I know is that Black women are being reminded to rest , to dream , to return to their original spiritual practices , to build and grow community with each other . I've been lucky enough to have really incredible guests on this show , like Ebony Janice Moore , like LaVon Briggs , like Ashante Renee , like Jennifer Roberts and so many more .

I encourage you to revisit those episodes or listen to them for the first time , if you haven't before . Ebony Janice has made post-election posts that I think are worth your time , and I'll be sure to link them in the show notes . Lavon Briggs did as well . She actually posted a carousel that I think is so special , and I want to share that with you now .

Lavon writes Deep , cleansing breath , rub one out , shower , soak , nourish , hydrate , puff , ingest , frolic , Rest . The exit polls , the POC in quotes , the think pieces , the hot takes these things don't deserve your energy . They feed off of your life force and drain your energy . They feed off of your life force and drain your energy . Your feelings matter .

Your feelings are valid , your grief is sacred , your rage is holy . They are not the end . This is the time for alchemy . You cannot alchemize what you do not face . This election energy is heavy and potent . I am shocked , but not surprised , and you shouldn't be either .

This country was built on abuse and power and domination , and as a new world emerges , the old one is grasping for control . The rise of the Aquarian age means new systems and ways of being . The old system is throwing a tantrum . Ground yourself in your indigenous practices .

Spiritual tools and technology and ancient knowing Nature , ritual and community are the holy trinity in African traditional religions and spiritual systems . Go to the water , set your intentions , sift through your contacts . You need divine wisdom and active discernment to take inspired action . Community is currency . The term has been overused and oversimplified .

Now is the time to investigate your acquaintances , connect with like-minded individuals and circles and pool your spiritual , social and tangible resources . This ain't new . It's just now . My ancestors survived worse than this and they still managed to make love , pray , laugh and dream . I will do the same . This is not the end . This is actually the beginning .

What we are witnessing in the physical realm has already happened in the spiritual realm . We're catching up . What is your role in the revolution realm has already happened in the spiritual realm . We're catching up . What is your role in the revolution ? The divine feminine is here and we want our stuff back . Alchemists arise , healers awaken .

This is our time Again . That was a post by LaVon Breaks . I will link it in the show notes so that you can revisit it as many times as you need to , and I also highly recommend that you tune into the episode we have in the show with LaVon Briggs . If you haven't already . It'll be linked in the show notes .

My mentor and friend , ashante Rene , is the one who organized and held the space for over 50 Black women to show up and grieve and vent and connect . I urge you to revisit our episode with Ashante Rene , which is also linked in the show notes .

Chimdi Ehazie , who's also been a guest on the show , bared witness to my grief and my rage recently and held me in her thoughts enough to share another virtual space . That happened recently . Another account that I really like on Instagram is Glow's account , aka Glow Graphics , and she made a post recently that I thought was really powerful .

I'll link it in the show notes , but I'm also going to read it here To the 51% of Americans who did this to us you helped a country rooted in the principles of white supremacy default back to its factory settings . We fight for equity . You fight for power . We are not the same . The uneducated majority don't want a president for all . We are not the same .

The uneducated majority don't want a president for all . They want a president for them . It's not just politics , it's principle , it's personal . America enabled , empowered and elected the bully . We have many stains on our flag , but this one feels unwashable . Life , liberty and the pursuit of happiness are not exclusive American values .

Life , liberty and the pursuit of happiness are not exclusive American values . I exercised optimism . Now I'm exercising options To the Black women starting their expatriate journey . I promise you there are countries that celebrate and support us in ways America could never .

America could never Indonesia , thailand , japan , ghana , sri Lanka , turkey , bulgaria , portugal , ireland , slovenia and Senegal , to name a few . It's not about the grass being greener . It's about the grass not being fertilized with manure to the likes of a 34-count convicted criminal and sexual abuser .

Yet one out of every two white Americans you know , voted for that Child . They ain't the only one , because Latin slash Latino people for Trump crazy work . Anyway , y'all share all this to say that community looks different for everyone . But trust that we need it .

We need it the communities that can hold our emotions , the communities that understand gardening and medicine and foraging and so much more . I'm personally leaning heavily on my spiritual practices and my bloodline . As Black people , we have survived so much worse than this . Survival is literally coded in our DNA .

Fortunately or unfortunately , our ancestors know the way and they can show us the way if we allow them to . So I'm channeling mine . I'm channeling the ones who are calm and soothing and have mastered nervous system regulation , and I'm also channeling the ones who have reveled in cutting heads off during times of revolution .

That's what I got for duality and that's what I personally mean when I say we contain multitudes . I feel like it was really appropriate in many ways for me to replay the episode about death recently , because in many ways , this election felt like a death . But , as many of us understand , death is not the end .

Death is but a moment in the cycle or in the spiral , and through the darkness of death we are reborn . Before we close out this episode , I wanted to share that I have some new episodes dropping for you for the next few weeks . They are going to be a little shorter than they've been in the past .

They're short but sweet episodes and we'll be doubling up the next few weeks to compensate for the length , but I'm excited for these episodes to go live for you . Be sure that you're following the show on your favorite podcast platform so that you're always notified when a new episode drops , and subscribe to the podcast channel on YouTube .

Thank you for taking some time to sit with me during this very heavy week . I invite you to share your thoughts and your feelings with me as well . You can always let me know what you're thinking and how you're feeling in a text to the show , leaving a five-star rating and positive written review , or in the comments on Spotify and YouTube .

I hope that you're doing whatever you need to do for yourself , for your community this week and going forward . We haven't done any mental health tips of the week in a very long time , but I want to remind you of several In this season . Please surround yourself with community , lean on the circle you feel safest with and if you don't have that .

Seek spaces that can substitute . New and existing communities are popping up everywhere for Black women to mourn and grieve and restore each other , so please find yours .

I know isolation feels safe in this season , especially when you're confused about who you can trust right now , but trust that your community is seeking you too , so please surround yourself with community when and where you can . I'm reminding you to connect with nature . This is important . Visit a beach , if you can , or a pool if that's easier .

A stream , a creek , river , lake , whatever . Cry , float , be present . Touch grass if you can . Let the sun shine on you and be very present with its warmth against your skin . Be present with your body , move and shift the energy . Stretch , do yoga , work out , do whatever movement feels possible in your body .

Move your body , move the energy If you believe in something . Pray , meditate on the health , wellness and safety of yourself and your sisters and fems for the long road ahead . Cry , scream , rage , ground , play , rest and find joy when and where you can . We gon' be alright , no matter what y'all we always are . Feel your feelings , let go .

Don't be so quick to rush past them , to fix them , to solve them , to distract yourself from them to move on to the next thing Feel your feelings . The only way out is through Feel your feelings . Before we head out completely , I want to play a piece by Jasmine , aka Jasmine's Garden .

Jasmine is a spiritualist and a spiritualist consultant and has a pretty big platform on TikTok and Instagram , and she wrote this piece and composed this piece a while back and recently revisited it post-election and I want to play it here because I want to leave you on high note so that you're reminded that you're loved and we will be okay .

So much love to you , friend . Talk to you again soon .

No , black woman , because you can run faster , you might as well run farther . Yeah , black woman , if you can stand prouder , go ahead . Smile unbothered . Black woman , you will constantly achieve and exceed all their expectation .

Black woman , they need to hear your war cry . Black woman , you must let all of them down before you . Let us die . Black women , we are the reset . Black women , we are the revival . Black woman , you are the author of creation . Do not let them teach you survival . Black woman , you pick your head up . Don't you ever bow .

Black woman , your time has always been and it is still now . Black woman , do not let them try to dumb you down in their conversation . Black woman , you are the most educated demographic in the nation . Black woman , you are the source of this world's magic and they can't replace you .

Black woman , your track record is in your blood and that's why they keep trying to erase you . Black woman , your track record is in your blood and that's why they keep trying to erase you . Black woman , they're gonna taint your beauty , but promote it and sell it to everyone else .

Black woman , they're gonna hate you because your greatest power is the love that you could have for yourself . Black woman , you are the reason the sun of the east shines in the morning , when it rises . Black woman , you are the reason the sun of the west touches the waters on the horizon . Black woman , your tears of rage and wrath would fuel the seven seas .

Black woman , you could level their lands , reclaim your throne , and they would bow to thee . Black woman , everything that moves came through you , Mother first . Black woman , your fear is the byproduct of you not knowing your fucking worth . Black woman , your essence gave birth to the stars that shine in the sky at night .

Black woman , everything we've created is going to be in vain if we don't stand up and fight . Black woman , they need to hear our war cry . Black woman , you must let all of them down before you let us die . Black woman , you are the reset . Black woman , I am the revival . Black woman , we are the authors of creation . Do not let them teach you survival .

America , America has a problem .