#144 Gives Me The Gigs

with you. Do you ever notice that, Noah, Like whenever, whenever you feel like a day is a different day and you say it out loud, people agree. It's like we all have a common um circadian rhythms. Just I don't science words. Um, how are you this morning? Noah? This afternoon? Good? How are you this morning? You know it's definitely the afternoon and um, and we're starting late because I cannot stop sleeping. I can't stop sleeping. I'm kind of like weaning myself off of um uh, an antidepressant,

because I just want to come again. I'm just like Nikki, so I'm we I'm responsibly weaning through a plan that my doctor has not approved, but that I googled. And I've done this before with like, literally I've been on every single antidepressant you could list since I was eighteen, And um, I always do this where I now I'm just skipping days, but I think maybe that's a trip and I think my pi rod is about to come, and um, I think that always sends me into this,

like I just am filled with sand. My body just cannot get up, and I just want to keep going back to sleep. And you know that, I've been listening to that sleep podcast by Sam Harris and that other guy that studies sleep who talks like this and is a very hypnotizing sounding man, and he talks about sleep and he says, if you wake up in the morning and your alarm goes off and you still could go back to sleep, that means you're not getting enough sleep. And I was like, damn when he said that. I

don't know why that bob. I keep sharing that factoid with literally anyone that will hear it, and um, like, and it's because I just think that obviously it seems like, oh, that's so obvious, but it's just so And then you overuse the word I gotta come up with a new word. It's ubiquitous for Americans to not to hit the alarm and go oh, you know, like that's that's the start of every rom com. It's like a sloppy hand on

a alarm clock one right right. It like it's a beautiful morning and then a girl gets up and she's like single and sad until a man comes into her life and then everything works. Um so, but it I have no fear. A few people that just like wake up and they're like, m it's time. And if you do, you have good sleep hygiene. Do you feel that way about the alarm clock? Noah, I sleep. I feel like like I'm filled with sand two as you put it.

I've been trying to go to bed at a decent time and I just keep I keep waking up after five hours and then I'm up and then I'm so tempted to go on my phone. Yes, and I'm not. So you know, it's supposed it's like the phone mimics daylight, so it's a bad idea to do it. But it also helps me, Like all the scrolling helps my eyes roll back, like roll to the back of my head. Yeah, and all the times that all the things you see that make your eyes roll right exactly, so it does help. Yeah,

that's true, but man, it's Um. I to get one of the sleep trackers, and I can't get to the end of this fucking podcast. It's like three and a half hours long, and so at the end of I just they are so smart that if I'm not paying attention fully focused, like meditating on my breath. It's almost like meditating. You know, if you are someone who meditates or has, you have to focus on your breath and only that and then when your mind wanders, you come

back to the breath. Well, this is like the breath, but if you lose focus, you miss a chunk of information, so then you got to go back. So I just I've listened to the same thing over and over because I just have this obsession with getting all the information and they're too smart, so I can't get to the end. But they do talk about sleep treckers and which ones are the best one, and I'm going to get one because I want to start like knowing what's going on. Um,

I don't have a Luigi on my lap today. Um he is at my parents house because I'm going to San Francisco and Portland's this weekend to shas in Portland one in San Francisco. Um, but I do have another pet that I just want to get really quickly to see because I couldn't find it this morning. I couldn't find him this morning, and then I saw him when I started podcasting. Hold on it once again? Okay, oh does my good boy? There's my room. He got tangled in some cords. It's so dumb, this room ba and

it's like I'm hugging a vacuum. What is this joke? Does not pay off? And it really just got me so dirty. Goddamnit. Roomba fucking hate you. I'm gonna beat my roomba. Could you get in trouble for that? Um? Not yet. Yeah, someday the robots will be sentient and will remember which one which one of you? Why do you robots always talking like this when they become sentient and they decided to kill you? I don't know those

same guys that sleep guy? Um, I yeah, I've been having terrible nightmares and just wanting to go back in to them. I'm just I'm a little bit of a slug and I was supposed to go do a raky session later on with my um friend slash voice coach, who does raiky, which is all you just lay on a fucking bed and she makes sounds around you and doesn't touch you. It's fucking great when she just hits gongs and like does all these swirling pots and like these little crystal like you know, uh one of the

wind chimes and ship It's so good. But um, I'm supposed to go to and I just canceled it because I I wanted to wake up early this morning and get so much done before the podcast, but I was. I couldn't even finished breakfast because I'm just so slow. Um, but I'm feeling good as I'm talking, and um, I watched I went to my parents house last night to watch the Beatles documentary. Have you seen it yet? No? Are you a Beatles fan? Um? I think they're okay.

They're my dad's favorite band, so I like them for that reason. Same um, but not they're my dad's favorite band. But I do love um and they they send the same kind of chills through my body when I see them perform or see something new or hear something new that I get from like Taylor Swift Um, they're probably my first, first, first, first obsession, and I think it was a way to like connect with my dad. But I was also like really had a crush on them, and um, yeah, I just I love them a lot

and I was excited about this documentary. Boy is it a lot of nothing if you ask me, And as a Beatles fan, I know that's probably sacrilege, sacrilege with to say, but it's so it's tedious. Is anyone with me on this? Like I've only watched the first episode and we didn't even get through that because it's two hours and something long. But it's one of those things you can put on and talk through the whole thing because there's no plot, there's no um story you need

to follow. It's just watching it's bird on the it's fly on the wall, watch band members talk. And it bugs me because I am very fine tuned to reality shows where they pipe in audio where there's not actually that being said in that scene, and that's what happened here because they had to and they tell you what happens,

you know. They said they have a hundred and fifty hours of audio and like ninety hours of video, so they're using audio and putting it into video that where did you know this audio occurred somewhere on these premises in the same condition. So it's not like so insincere to do this because these we know that this happened. But it bugs me when someone is supposed like it's George talking and they show the back of his head and his head's not moving at all. When you talk,

your head bobbles a little bit. And these I'll just I can sniff out when audio isn't matching the video immediately. I'm very like I can do it in movies and TV. I can do it in reality TV. It happens constantly. I'm just a uh cynical uh viewer of stuff, and so I just know when things are being faked. And there's so much of that in this documentary because they have to, and they tell you beforehand that is what

they do. They try to recreate it as as like honestly as possible, but they are telling you like, there will be some places where audio and they say that they only use they only use still images over the audio that has no video. I called bus um, but it's just a bunch of guys. And Andrew was like, pay attention. You're gonna love how they just talk in shorthand, like they just have a secret language. And I'm like,

it's sixties British. It's just it's sixties British. It's a different language because they use different words like grotty instead of like to mean something. I don't know they used there, because Andrew today was like, did you hear the secret language? And I'm like, Andrew, it's British. It's just some people with a British accent in the sixties. You know, if you're people talk in the sixth season, you know, with an American accent, you'd be like, oh, this is kind

of weird because those different words. And you know, if someone hears someone say that's lit forty years from now, it's fifty years from now. Um, you'd go, oh, wow, they have a secret language. No, that's just what people said. So I I think that was what was going on. But boy was it a snooze fest. And my dad and mom were they had already seen that episode, so it was nice that I could just talk over and

we can just hang out. But um, at one point, I was like, can we shut this pitch down and pull up Taylor sort on sn L because you guys haven't seen her yet on that, and so I made them watch ten minutes of Taylor Swift on sn L and I tried to film it on my Instagram because I thought my mom was going to say something funny or you get, or just to be like she's so great, Like I just thought she'd get some commentary, but they just sat in silence the whole time. I don't know

what that meant. And um, my mom just wanted to know what she wore for it when I was talking about it yesterday. But then also last night, I got home from watching um Get Back at my parents house, and Andrew had rented that Anthony Bourdaine movie and it's so good and heartbreaking and he's kind of an asshole and such a dark soul, like not a dark soul, but like so negative. Definitely was a heroin addict. He

you know, he was a junkie. He recovered, he became a huge celebrity that became a chef, poured his addiction into that because he quit, he quit being a junkie. Cold Turkey didn't you know, find a program. He didn't go to rehab, he didn't have like a you can't just quit. There's a David Um, not David Show. David Cho's brother who's an artist in the movie, is also a junkie. And he says, you know, I always talked to Anthony and I said, how did you quit heroin

Cold Turkey? No one I know has ever quit heroin Cold Turkey? And he had the soul story about I looked at myself in the mirror and I just didn't want to be that anymore. And I just saw a future for this man that's all well and good, but like you will put somewhere else unless you develop up like if, unless you have work around it and have

like a support system, which he did not have. He was always the theme of his life was alone Um and this guy, this artist was like I remember believing him at the time, but now I realized he just put it into other things. And you could see all these chapters of his life where he got obsessed with certain women, He got obsessed with being a father, He got obsessed with jiu jitsu, like obsessed with jiu jitsu.

His camera ops were like, I don't even know jiu jitsu, and I would I'd go Anthony, I don't want to hear about fucking jiu jitsu anymore. I've been I've never I don't know anything about jiu jitsu, and you've talked to me about jiu jitsu for a hundred and fifty hours. And his wife, his second wife, got him into it, and she goes, I I love ju jitsu, and she goes, And as as everyone knows, anyone who does jiu jitsu becomes at one point unbearable to be around. Unbearable. And

it's why I don't get it. No, h Why is jiu jitsu this thing that everyone just gets addicted to it? Right? Yeah, it's really hard to explain unless you get into it. But you just become like punishing Lee obsessed, and all you want to do is talk about it, figure out your game, figure out the little technique that you can adjust to get better. It's just it sounds like it's very people with like addictive personalities. Are there a lot of heroin addicts or like you know, X cons type

people in jiu jitsu? A lot of um you know, there's some sports that attract or things that attract um junkies, like being chefs. There are a lot of chefs that are junkies because it's just such a high pressure, fly by to the seat of your pants, make quick decisions kind of thing. He was trying to explain it, and like with how jiu jitsu or his wife was like, it just moves so fast and you have to make you have to win a lot of situations very quickly, um,

and make decisions on the flow. Like it's almost like it was kind of like what he wasn't because he stopped being a chef once he became famous, gladly because he was like that world was you know, abusive and um, you know, backbreaking and soul crushing. But I think he missed that kind of running around. I really related to a lot of it, to be honest. They said he was always rushing everywhere there was. He was rushing into

a situation, he was rushing out of it. Although there was one quote he had where he was like, um, there's you know, there's nothing worse than mediocrity, like mediocrity is the most disgusting thing you can be or something like that, and I was like, oh my god, that is That's my biggest fear is that because I know that there are times where I just don't have the energy to be as good as I can be. That's my thing is, like I have the potential to be as good as this person that I think is the best.

You Like, I know that I could be. This is cocky. I if I applied myself and only worked at it, I could be as good as the best comedians out there, like or whatever I really could or the But you know I because I do believe it's all about practice and about like discipline, That's what talent is, and and there is something to having a kind of brain that is good for these things that I've chosen to do, But I just don't have the energy to do it.

And so I feel like if you don't get to the top potential of what you're you're like, um, the highest level of how you could perform. Then your mediocre then you're like taking less. But the truth is that I don't want to get to the top. Sometimes when

you reach that level, you sacrifice everything else. And I have to remember these people that I look at that I'm jealous of their lie or like their success or their um skill or their talent at there are actually in the end, maybe they are operating at a ten in terms of joke structure and joke formation for the jokes that they're doing. But because they're not living a life outside of that so that they can reach that ten, their material always stays on the surface level of never.

They don't reach a different depth of materials. So, you know, Bob or you know something I'm I might only reach a level of seven for you know, accuracy and meticulousness and like having this joke carved out perfectly, where you know a joke smith or or someone like like I could look at it and go that joke is airtight, there's nothing wrong with it. They've squeezed every little piece of juice out of that topic. Those are the comedians

I admire. But when I failed to do that, it's because I want to go take a nap, or because I want to go watch a show or hang out with a friend or fucking do nothing. And I think those moments, although my jokes maybe never will get past a seven, in terms of the ten that I could achieve, I will the subject matter and the things I talked about. I would rather have someone talk about stuff that matters to me and that connects with me on a soulful level and reach a seven, then things that don't and

reach a ten. So that's what I have to remember. And that's just for me today to get through Uh any self doubt I have, but I did cancel my reiki session and I did. Um my my voice teacher is trans and um it was trans woman and uh I she recently asked me if I would teach her how to do her makeup. She's my age and transition like five years ago. And it's so like you would never know that she had transitioned. She just presents as, uh, you know, a woman to me. Um, and she asked

me to teach her to do your makeup. We did it um one time. I'm and like it was so different than what she's used to that she was just like like kind of shocked because when you first put on like a lot of makeup, you're like what the fuck. But she did love it and she looked beautiful. So I went and got her all this. I was like, I need to get you like a kid of just

the simple thing. So I have all this makeup I want to give her that I bought her and so I'm probably gonna just have her come get that and I'll do another tutorial. But I gotta figure out my fucking day. Oh god, I got San Francisco tomorrow, early flight, and I'm going to see a movie and I'm going to see Ghostbusters. Let's get Andrew in here. What up? Happy Brenna's birthday? My baby Brenna's birthday? Is Brenda's birthday? Baby? I miss you. She's literally ten ft away. Um, how's

it going? It's good. We just filed out the application. We're gonna be neighbors. Check. Yeah. Oh, I gotta send my lease for normal. I forgot to do that. You get kicked out of the building. That would be hilarious if I have to leave and you're still here and you take the apartment we really wanted. I wouldn't take that fucking small shiittle. That's our dream house, that's our dream. Um. Yeah, how so I watched I finished the Bourdain. I don't

know if why did you not watch it all? It is the one, it's really I think that's like an old document. I don't think that's the one that's not. They have it all up to his death in two thousand. Are you sure? I watched it last night and he dies in it, and he wasn't dead in two thousand thirteen, so that would have been very prophetic. It's the one where you want. You watched the beginning of it Andrew

and they're talking about him. Community. Yes, I put it on to day and I could have sword said two. I was like, oh my god, we've been watching an old documentary. Why did you guaits stop it right away? You just got bored? Yeah, okay, little birthday love making not on the cop um. I finished it. It was I mean, I was sobbing at them. It was so good. I can't wait for you to finish it. Yeah, I'm excited. I mean, I hope he doesn't die. Uh yeah, I mean's he's gone? Oh yeah, yeah, I'm sorry. I thought

you knew. It was like speaking of things I haven't seen. I've never I'm going to see Ghostbusters to night. I didn't even know there was a new Ghostbusters. Who's in this wait like with all the women. No, there's a new Ghostbusters? Is that right? Or are they just bringing the old Ghostbusters back? No? I think I think there's a new one. I'm I'm looking it up right now. Why don't I know anything about movies? I don't know there's a new Spider Man coming out. I didn't know

about that. I don't know that any of this ship. There's been eight thousands, but I always know when those things at least I don't see them, but I at least know they're coming out. Know it's like in the ether. Yes, I mean I don't think he was in this Ghostbusters? Okay, in that case, who else? And then old school Bill Murray Dan Ackroyd? What Okay? Yeah, because they're in the original, right, can I see Okay, Ernie Hudson's in the original? Can

I see this Ghostbusters without having seen the original? I'll probably be the only one in the theater who hasn't seen the original. And I know that's a bad part of my personality, but I was just scared. As a kid. I didn't like ghosts. I did that slimer thing. Scared the funk out of meat. Yes, I knew enough that I like your dad a little bit. Okay, very blond hair and he doesn't have blond hair. Get back. I love about the get back thing. One thing I noticed,

so John Lennon is late to one of their practices. Okay, he's they're like ring goes, like I'm always on time, and Paul was like Rango, a good old ringo, always on time, and John is at the time snorting Heroine at night. My dad said, my dad knows a lot of extra details the old man in the painting. No, he was because my dad also said last night he's like Julian Lennon said he watched this documentary and said, I did have a whole new appreciation for my dad.

I go, you just said that he's he's snorting heroin, Dad, And he goes, well, he's only doing that night, And I'm like, well, he's I wouldn't want to watch my dad as an addict and feel closer to him. But maybe I don't know. So it's which way is it? Is Julian Lennon seeing a new side of his dad that he loves, or is John Lennon the heroin at it? Because you can't have it both ways. Well, maybe he saw Daddy at home and not Daddy at work, you

know what I mean. I mean he saw Daddy at work kind of thinking about my life, Like you see Daddy at home. They're fighting at home, They're they're angry at home. You never you didn't see the process I didn't see daddy's saving cancer lives. To be honest, your dad was maybe kind of sucking at work. Yeah, but he was only only one he would do heroin, which is Tuesday Thursday. Great. My grandpa wasn't uh I surgeon my dad's dad, and he did some meth back in

the day to get through surgeries. And also, um when these guys when it says in the beginning to get back that the Beatles would play in um the court when they were the Quarrymen, and they would play eight hours a night, did you see that. I haven't seen that part. Yes you have, because it's the very first open scene when you say you watch something, you don't watch it because you're on your phone. I just don't believe it anymore. There's no way you watch a surgeon

on meth. It's pretty scary. You know. They all were back then. Em feta means they meth is pretty much like you know, a very extreme form of a d D meds. So they were just it would make them focused to be able to work do surgeries for hours and hours and hours. I mean they gave it to the Nazis, like the people get fucking worked on on meth before it starts to rob their face and their teeth. I got into a whole side right last night's window,

like very like you could probably you could. Yeah. There's a subredit like where people talk are all math users and they talk about meth like it's like you know, we'd culture. They're just like, got a fucking new meth pipe today and they're all like smoking meth and talking about it, like what's the best way to smoke with beth? How what should you? I haven't slept for eight days? Is that too long? They're like keep going, man like. It's the supportive community of like Lucid Mathews and I

use Lucid and quotes. But they they're writing like interesting things. They're all like they all they all go like, oh, I had a shift at my job. People are just doing meth. Don't do math, by the way, don't have he do math. No, we're not promoting, but people. Some girl was on there and was like, Hey, I'm thinking about doing meth for the first time, and they're all like, so start like this, and it's like what, she's nineteen and you're telling her to start. You start with this adder,

you work your way up. Yeah, I mean, that's how but it's anyway, my my, my grandpa was a nice surgeon who was definitely on meth when he was working and um, and the Beatles used to do um. They were doing meth too when they were um or like a form of it. You know. It wasn't like the meth we know now, like hillbilly heroin, but they were doing meth when they Because it says the Quarrymen played eight.

The Beatles were so good when they debuted and became, you know, in nineteen sixty three, and they became the biggest band in Britain and then they came over to the US. They were so good because they put in their ten thousand hours. They had been playing as a band since they were four, for like three years. They played eight hours a night for three like three or four five years. Eight hours a night, yes, and that

little um, I forget the name of it. People are very drunk and loud, and so because the hours they put in. If you don't put in the hours, you're not good. And it's like that's what no one ever sees, is all the work that goes into being that good. We just go these young boys in Liverpool how did they get so good. It's like they sacrificed, not sacrificed. They loved playing and they did a lot of math

to get it done. I just feel like when watching that doc, I didn't feel like they were like they were like good friends, but they were like Paul was constantly like saying, I'll just go off on my own. Then I'll go off like he said it like George, but Paul said it to more. I empathize with Paul because everyone else is just like, we can do it this all, we could do it this way. Oh, I'm gonna do It's like Paul's like, we got to make a decision and you guys need to stop playing for

so we can realize what we're doing. For that scene was pretty like intense, wasn't it. Yes, I feel like a Paul a lot of times in which you get to you're the enemy because you're the one going, guys, we need to do this, and everyone goes, oh, taskmaster and he's like but at this time, Brian Epstein had

died their manager, so that is a manager. They always had someone steering them and telling them collectively as a group, guys, you all have to do this and if don't do this, you're like, you know pretty much there their boss and this was a rudderless ship. I like it. I like when they talk about him, like he helped us so much. He told us to wear suits and we wore suits. Yeah, and that was like the whole example. But it worked. Like the blacks and white suits with the haircut, everyone

the same. It worked. I mean that those Paul McCartney you could tell and John but like whatever, they're all brilliant in their own right. But Paul McCartney really stood out to me in like, granted it showed like he came up with those singles, but like he's on another level of just like of creativity and and I love how they were like we're going to simplify everything and then we then make it, yeah, which is interesting, Yeah, because I supposed the other way. Well obviously with music,

I guess you can't. Yeah, you have to. It's the same as like a joke, like okay, the bones of the joke are I you know, I start with like a one liner and then from there you can build to like a bigger concept, but like, okay, this thing's funny.

Instead of instead of tackling when when comedians go, oh, I gotta write a bit, they see something that like me or you are doing and we've been doing this for fucking forever, and young comics are like, I gotta write a bit, like a four minute bit about shoelaces, and it's like, no, right, one joke about shoelaces and then go to the next topic, like don't don't make yourself crazy. Even like when I'm trying to write a song, sometimes I'm just like, it's too daunting to write a

whole song. But it's like, write a bad song. Just write a bad, fucking simple song like Alligator Boy, and then Alligator Boy could become this like which blows up. Sometimes simple batter island boy. Sometimes simple is better. I saved a Reddit post of island boys guys getting fucking bo Yeah. I know you probably saw that in Miami. Yeah. By the way, everyone that goes to live in Miami's a fucking cheese dick. So I'm actually on the island

boy side. I was totally on their side. Those poor guys bombing their faces off, which their face look they've already been bombed off because they're covered in tattoos. It looks like ash. Yeah. Um, I will say though, that the coolest part about the documentary that I've seen so far, and I've only watched I didn't even finish the first episode before I was like, let's turn this off and

watch Taylor Swift. Um, oh god, last night was so funny at my parents but I um so, John Lennon's late to rehearsal and it's Ringo, George and Paul and they're all waiting and Paul is just playing a bass which obviously only has four strings, and he's playing it like a guitar and he's like fucking ground on it and there look, you know, at this point, there twelve days out for performing this like concert that's like the Beatles are back kind of thing. They have to they're

doing this. The whole documentary is them writing within They have like twenty days to write songs and learned those songs then perform them live, which ends up being the

Rooftop concert that was their last concert before they broke up. Um. John's running late this morning because he's probably like fucking hungover and he's always late, and they're all just kind of waiting around, and Paul picks up the base and just starts like like like just like fucking around, and they're all kind of like talking and schmoozing, drinking coffee, and then all of a sudden, he starts like doing this riff, and out of that riff comes the number

one single from that album, get Back. And if John would not have been late, we might not have get Back, which is so cool to think that, like if John would have been there, or they would have been thinking, Okay, let's get back to let's let's not get back, let's let's move forward with this song we were working on yesterday to move forward, Move forward. That the song was a man who thought it was a woman who thought he was So did he come up with the lyrics?

Because I saw that clip it was like just amazing to see them creative like that and just like like free form. Do you think he came up with the lyrics also at the same time he came up with the riff. I have to watch it again. The lyrics are always so interesting because I don't know what songs ended up on this album versus songs they had already done. And sometimes during these rehearsals they will just play they will start singing their other songs that we know and love,

and sometimes they're working out the rudiment. They'll they'll kind of transform songs that they we already know and like kind of like funk around with them and they make them sound different, just noodling around and you go, oh, wait, is that the beginning stages of that song? You know yesterday? You know? No, no, no, they're just playing yesterday to

warm up. And then sometimes it's a song that ends up on this album that isn't created yet, so you don't know where I need to know, like which songs are being tracked out at that moment um. The lyrical process is insane because they're writing it all on paper. There's no phones. The number one thing you noticed about this No phones, no water bottles, fucking insane. When Yoga is looking down, she's reading a book, or she's writing on a notepad, or she just has to stare and

watch them like. That's the wild thing about this is no phones and no water bottles. The water bottles thing you once you open your eyes to it and see no water bottles, you'll be like, whoa a water bottle? This world? I didn't even realize it. And their their color scheme in the background for a lot of this is the same as our background of this is the same two colors. It's so cool. I wonder was I

gonna say ship? Sorry I forgot, but I think there's probably some joke about yesterday was written also because John was late that day too. You know it started as scrambled eggs. Do you know that those were the filler words? Because sometimes when are people are writing songs, they just put in, you know, like, yeah, scrambled eggs was the first thing. And also let it be was oh no,

that was from Sesame Street. They did a cover of it like letter be letter be let it be let her be um um, yeah, I I I appreciate it, Doc, But you just love thinking of if John Lennon would have been on time, we wouldn't have getting But also if he would have been on time, what song could have happened that didn't happen? You know, it's vice versa. What about this would have do you think as a band because they put in so many hours up Tom made him great, but it also you get sick of

I mean, that's a lot of time together. So with did the Beatles have lasted another few years? Because they wouldn't have been they wouldn't have been as good as they didn't get that time, and and they were young. And when you put in that kind of the thing is they got sick of each other because they all got egos, because they got famous, and they all got resentful of each other because you know, you saw it and kind of almost famous the front man they debut the T shirt and the guy in the front and

all the guys are blurrying in the background. It's so funny. Um and yeah, I mean you could see George had a huge chip on her shoulder. At one point apparently during this apparently during this um daring this um documentary, George quits the band and just walks out. And you don't even know it. It's so subtle because George is like, so George has just monks sitting around, just taking up space. And John Lynn's like, who's that old man of that? It's like a twenty year old guy. That's just a monk.

He's like, who's that old man over there? All right? Guys, Ring doesn't do ra love his eyebrow, by the way, very cool eyebrow. You know. There's something that we said about guys who don't get involved when two people are fighting and just like kind of stay back and say nothing. But it's also like pick a fucking side, and have I wanted so many times Ringo say something? It was incredible and Ringo's mouth is always open when he's drumming. I love Ringo, but do I I don't know. I mean,

I did stock. I think it's impressive that he didn't say a word, you know what I mean. It's also funny that if someone leaves the band and because no one really talks to him or thinks of them, no one really reckon he like, I'm mad here, and it's like when you just sitting there, yog the balls on Yogo to just sit there like she's a Beatle. What about when he was screaming and someone told his sad story. Oh no, I haven't seen that clip. Yeah, we got to look that up, but I didn't see the part

where let me just tell you. I recommend yeah, the Beatles documentary. If you're not a fan, i'd skip it. But if you are, if you're you're not a fan of Anthony Bourdain, still see Roadrunner. It is really great and very interesting about addiction and just um, a guy that was always going to die at some point. He just couldn't. And when you when they asked, like what

did he die of pain? He just died. He couldn't take the word and he someone said in the documentary if he would have been in that hotel room where he killed himself, if someone else would have been in there, he would have murdered them. Someone was going to die. He just was alone, and so he killed himself because he was homicidal as well. I think it's probably that cobra heart ate, you know what I mean? Yeah, I couldn't even watch that scene, right, a cobra heart murder

in everyone in this room. Cobra Heart sounds like a eighties single from a band Hear Me and My Cobra Heart. It actually first was written as Cobra Fark. Not many people know that. It's pretty crazy. Yeah, so what else is going on? It's Thursday, folks, You know what that means out there? It is Thursday. I hope you're having all the swells. Hope you have a great weekend. We're gonna be in San Francisco and Portland's two different cities over there, all right, Yeah, two shows in Portland. Did

you know that. Yes, we have to have a tight schedule. I know, I heard it. I heard it already. I know the drill. I've been scolded already through text form. But we love him, yeah very much. Alright, cares about the show. And thank god someone does. Yeah, thank god we have one person. You're coming to the early show in Portland. It will be a tight show. You will get a full hour of my stand up, but the rest of the show will be and yeah, and there

will be a hook just in case, the best sex position. Okay, listening for each zodiac sign, I'm out, I'm out. I was listening about I'm so sick of zodiac signs. I'm sorry everyone, I'm out on zodiac signs. But you know more about yourself. Just know that zodiac sign is just telling you things you already know about yourself. And you go, whoa, that is me. It's like what you already know you? So why is this impressive? Well, here's the thing. If

you're reading your zodiac sign, you're saying that's me. Go down, read all of them, and they're they're all you. Yeah, we should do a blind zodiac thing with someone who we should call someone who cares about the stuff so much. Read all of the charts and say which what is you? Which one with you? And you're gonna go umally, I know I resonate with Gemini, but I'm my my moon

is Gemini rising in Jupiter. So that actually is actually because I would point out eleven forty six on a Tuesday and there was three clouds in the sky and my mom had on sandals. And I'm not that intelligent, but sometimes I let up people. There's so many intelligent people that believe in the stuff. No I was, I honestly do. I used to think people that I believed in the stuff weren't intelligent until so many of my intelligent friends believe in it, and so I just go, okay, alright,

so Gemini me, you're a Gemini. Correct, Okay. You get bored quickly. So to keep things spicy in the love department, you use positions that involve some acrobatics and don't confine them to one space. Take the standing spoon for instance. If if anything, I do not get bored. I love exactly what I like and I want to just do that every time. So it's eating o. Man will get in your asking. Yeah, eating oat mal is so euphemism for getting my ass eaten, because that's the only thing

that's coming out old meal, all back hamdrip. It's something. Okay, start out making love up against the wall, then moved to a table, the floor, a chair. Okay, Look, they didn't get my backbone because I'm always on my back and my spine will get hurt on tables. Whenever I fun on a floor, my spine always gets rugburn because it juts out like a stegasaurus. And I don't want that. I want to be on a bed. I want to be laying on my back. I want my legs around

my head like I'm a baby getting changed. I want to be blindfolded, and I want things put in my holes. Oh that's in that. Oh I'm a sad you're a vegetaus. Okay wait wait, no, so my mom aries. Okay, so it's legs being on top. No, I like bottom. I like my legs around my head, a baby bottle in my mouth, and a blindfold on the back of my head. I just want to look like Rambow. No, no, I

you know me. I I like bottom and I like the reverse cow girl where my legs are around the woman, so then she could get down very deep and not get too far up to get off her legs. Again, she's inside, she's sitting, yes, sitting facing that way. So do you help her, like bounce up and down with your hands? What is propelling her? What's propelling her? Just you you're lifting her. But I don't know what her feet are. I don't see. I'd have to ask her.

Maybe she's just levitating. No, you can see if she's squatting or not, because she needs to propel herself in some way. If she's just laying like this, like with her legs straight out and bouncing, you can't get any leverage to bounce. It's a good question. Bretta went to get a pedicure. Wait, what month is? What? What? What? What is today's month? It's a December sex second Okay, so what would that be? Does anyone know? I don't know. But she's not even here to corroborate if she likes

that position. She likes when someone other than Andrew has sex with her. She's she's actually a sadge. Oh she is? What is a sadge? Noah? Do we know? Okay? Um, they have an affinity for flexibility and adventure. Putting a twist on a common sex position is a way to go. Case in point, the corkscrew. In this position, the receiving partner lies on their side with legs bent, facing away from their partner, who stands at the edge of the bed and enters from behind. Actually, cork screw, that's that's

pretty on. Maybe they are who doesn't like a corkscrew? Just lay there and being a ball like you're on a diver. It took me forty years to know I could stand up when I fuck. Wow, maybe I was on a bed, but you know what it was, I realized what it is. I never had a bed out on the floor, so I couldn't stand up. Oh my god, that's so insane. Whoa, whoa dude, and your bed is really low anyway, this one's high. You'll check it out of time. I'll believe because I had to put stuff

under there for my studios. Dude, I've been just giving. The best thing ever is just to give. Like I recommend this to women so much. Let your guys just lay back and fucking relax and just give him my hand job with a bunch of oil and just talk, just talk. Like a slow hand job with like no no goal and just talk about life and just like talk to them and like get just do whatever you want while you're giving the massage. Maybe act like you're a masseuse and be like can I just like kiss it?

And they go like want to like just do like a like I literally did that last night. That's great. It was funny. I like went in the bat, I knocked on, I go, you ready, like I went through the whole thing, and then I go and said, okay, if I touch you here And then she doesn't lou of buying her a massage for her birthday? What are you doing, ma'am? That I do? And then I kissed her vagina. I was like that, I think I went over the line. She's like yes, she did. Stain so good.

But honestly, like it's just a great way to connect and like you don't have to do any like it's such and just use a ton of lube, like use massage oil and lube and it's like it just does it makes your life so easy. You don't want to like sucking spit all over it and like if you don't want to and if you just have dry mouth, like, you gotta use lube. I always used to roll my eye when these ladies, these sex positive women, like sex with Emily, would be like, lib is your best friend.

I'd be like, shut up about lube. But it truly if I am so mad in my twenties that I didn't use lube, it's like, it is just the best thing you can add to sex. It doesn't mean you're an old menopausal woman. Just please get yourself some lube. Girls, I swear to God, it will change your life and guys will not judge you for it. They don't care. Yeah, it's changed my sex life. It's way easier to fuck.

Y um okay. A Florida woman who dialed the wrong number inadvertently spawned a friendship with a Rhode Island man has lasted more than twenty years. My god, So this woman glad Is, who's now eighty. God, we gotta bring back that name Glass. Yeah, it's a nice one. Kept dialing the wrong number. At first, it was just her saying, oh, I'm sorry, and she's really southern, very hospitable, polite. I'm so sorry child, and then she hangs up real quick, said Mike, who was on the other end one day,

he sparked a conversation. I guess she kept calling the wrong number and learned that Gladys went through divorce and also lost her son during that time. I was roundhearted, and he felt my sympathy and everything and lifted me up. Cuty, he's a communicating very phone via the phone. The friends finally met the first time over Thanksgiving, just like this, Like that's adorable, you know it's like that one um that text, that text exchange from that guy and that woman.

Do you ever see that? And they spend everythingsgiving together. It was just a yeah, they've been doing it forever and it was just a random number. Yeah, it was like a random text mistake and it was like, oh, what are you going to bring to things? It was some kind of I don't know, it was a wrong number situation, but with text. And then now they always spend Thanksgiving together. Have you ever done a wrong number thing and gotten to know anyone or had some fun

with a wrong number text? Or I had a guy calling me for a little while, and I just would never pick up a wrong number because it could have been a beautiful story. I know. Yeah, now, who picks up a wrong number. I mean the fact that this this happened twenty years ago, that makes sense. This would never happen because you see a wrong number and you go, what the fuck is this? Oh? Yes, yes, So I

mean why she keep messing up? I don't understand. Would be like she had an older number and her like she mind, she was trying to reach her sister, whose area code was four zero one, but she dialed air code for one zero constantly, and she kept reaching that guy that's so cute. So it's a whole different you know. There's actually a story, a sports story that just came

out yesterday. These kids started a basketball chat like with their group of friends, high school kids, and they got one number wrong and ended up being a football player who plays on the Bucks Bucks And so then they FaceTime that he would ended up in the FaceTime and they're like holy shit, and then Tom Brady ended up on their groc ended up on it all on this

like that's hilarious. Yeah, it's um. I sometimes get people faking like there messaging me like they get my number, and then they pretend like they they have a they have a fake text that's like hey, I'll be at

rehearsal later. I'm sorry, I'm running late. Um, it was just really I was writing a lot last night and I had to save a kid and on my way, they'll make them sounds sound like a huge hero, so that I go, it's a wrong number, but that sounds so cool and we should be friends, and they fucking no, it's me and they do this. This one guy used to do it all the time, and he kept kept writing and he would be like, wow, it's a wrong number.

And I knew what he was doing, so I was trying to give him the idea that he was thinking it was working because I was like, wow, you sound like a really cool glor Like I said something like no, I just get in going a little bit. And he kept on saying these fucking lines about his life and how interesting he was, and he's like yeah, I mean like this is such a random thing, like we should keep in touch. What do you do? And I'm like, oh,

it was such a These guys are such sociopath. It reminded me that Reddit girl that just like created a or the TikTok girl talking about all the lengths she went to to reach a guy speaking idea that it was just like the nicest guy ever, like this a li like you're like, fuck you, this guy was should have found him because I would have just liked to just you know, oh man, I'm I wanted to match with this guy on one of these dating apps when I was on those and was swiped right on him

just because he was like, you know, Trump is number one, got over everything, and I swept right just so I could. I was gonna remember. I was going to write him and be like, hey, I present as a liberal, but like truly Trump is my god, and like let's meet up and just like watch him meet up with me and then fucking just watch him. I don't know. I just want to see these people in real life, even though they walk amongst us. Yeah, it would be great, as if he's like so hot, like where your best

Trump shirt? And I'll know it's you, kind of like you've got mail, which I made you watch the other night so fast forward, which was perfect. Yeah, I would make so great of the Trump guy was like like the handsome yeah, and you were just like you know what, listen, I'm in Taylor Swift. People don't understand that. Yeah, Oh my god, I don't know it's uh, yeah, you've got me on the other night. Yeah. I like the fast forward version. I think that, you know, hey, let's just

here's the thing. Scenes you need to know, and I would go to the best scenes. I'm like, okay, so before this he knows, he knows it's her. She doesn't know it's him yet. Boom. What I really realized that which a lot of people bringing to my attention about my favorite movie, You've Got Mail, is that he's lying to her throughout the whole thing because he knows it's her. You know what, This lady looks a lot like Kathleen Kelly. What yeah, Kevin Kelly. She's a beautiful woman. Why are

we talking about Kathleen Kelly. Well, if you don't like Kathleen Kelly, you're not gonna like this girl. Why? Because it is Kathleen Kelly? Was dashall. My favorite scene is him seeing that it's Kathleen Kelly before Tom Hanks does. And the thing is, once Tom Hanks realizes that the woman he's been talking to online is Kathleen and Kelly, he doesn't tell her that he's the guy and then goes on to befriend her, and then they become great friends.

She kind of falls in love with him, but is still holding out a place in her heart for this guy she's talking to online, which he's still talking to her. He's a fucking liar the whole time. Yeah, he's the guy that's talking to you on your It's wild that he like we never get his reasoning for why he does that. It just doesn't come clean right away. Yeah, I wonder why. Well, maybe you skipped the scene where around a little bit. I have some more scenes of

that movie to show you. It's it is my favorite movie. Um, let's take a quick break and come back. And why do I care? Oh? Sports moment, Sports moment, Let's do it. Here's Andrew's weekly supports moment. Tiger Tigger Tiger would y'all says he will never play golf again full time, but the fifteen time major champ revealed Tuesday that he nearly lost a leg after the crash earlier this year. I'm lucky to be alive, but also to still have a limb to see some of my shots fall short of

the sky a lodge shorter than they used to. It as a little eye opening. Yeah, but at least I'm able to play golf at all again. Dude, David Spade was the last person to golf with him. We talked to about it, yeah, because they were shooting some like um segment for some show. Well he was saying how tigers back it was like so fucked up like before the accident, and then we were kind of joking like, oh, the leg took away from the back pain Like, sorry to I'm sure that kind of mate, do something I

don't know. That's why I would put a vibrator on my head when I would have a migraine, because it would create a new kind of pain. That was. It was just a it's a you know, you can take doll pains versus like there's like different kinds of pain. I love a doll pain, but a sharp pain I will I hate a sharp pain like a doll pain, So I'll make a dull pain over like supersede the sharp one. God pain sucks. I feel sad for him

because I know he's in chronic pain. It's just crazy, like golf can make a body that injured and this is pretty accident. Let's talk about it. He also worked out like I mean, he was a Shane. Yeah, he was an animal because he wanted his dad was like a Green Beret, so he wanted to impress his father's old so he like went into green Beret training. He lifted like he was gonna, what's going on with your golf game? Are you playing yesterday? Damn wait, you went

and played yesterday. I figured I figured out something I had. I had a lesson, And there's a lot of ego in golf. Ego will kill you in golf. It's a fucking great sport man, but ego will kill you be And the thing is with your driver to drivers swing is different than the iron swing, but you can if you choke down, you can swing almost like an iron with your driver, which you'll lose like fifteen yards. So there's your ego, but you'll gain consistency. But it's a

because everyone guy wants to do. It's like what we're talking about yesterday, drop three hundred yards, work out the hardest, be the But you could be the best by just talking about at the top of the show, like sometimes

I want to work. I could make a joke of mine if I wanted to work as hard as some of these comedians, if I wanted to reach my potential as a comedian and do like a ten for every joke and like dissect a joke and attend The amount of energy that would take me to do would make it so I didn't live a life that would fulfill me enough to write about things other than those things.

So I might only reach a seven in terms of how good my jokes are, but the depth of which the things those jokes are about are going to be far more interesting and like consistent with what I want to do as an median. You gotta You can't have it all. Relationships. You can't have it all. The person cannot be like everything you want them to be. Your talent, you can't have it all. You have to make You have to choose what's important to you, and it's not

always what's gonna be what's important to someone else. And I met a new friend. If you're like a guy out there and you're listening to the show and you play golf and you don't like, oh, I can't play alone, go play alone and team match up with someone. Look, it's a you can end up getting someone terrible, but most likely you're gonna get another. This kid was walking is in law school. I watch you, he's just and I was like, hey, just ride in the cart. Well,

just you don't have to walk. We just rode in the car. We became like I got his number. At the end, we're gonna play again, Like he shot a forty, Like it showed competitiveness. And I don't know, It's just it's a beautiful thing that's like quick little friendships that you can get through, like a common hobby if you get outside. Your obsession with golf wavered slightly, though, because I feel like I don't see you on TikTok constantly. I don't you talking about it constantly as much? And

is that a good thing? Or do you feel like, oh, I'm not as obsessed. I'm gonna That's an interesting question because I do feel like I was overdoing it, yes, to the point where I wasn't understanding uh, things I was learning because I was just doing instead of stopping and processing so much of sleep. In the sleep thing that I'm listening to is like if you if you'd like to sacrifice an hour of sleep so you can

study more or practice your swing more. You're sleep is essential for taking the things that you learned during the day and downloading them. So it's almost like you know, when you upload a file, but then it doesn't transfer to like where you needed to go. So it's on your computer, but it hasn't transferred like that takes seven hours, where as opposed to like you know, when we ever we transfer the video files, it's like you get them on the computer, that's seven minutes, and then to transfer

them to the thing, it's like a seven hours. And it's that's the difference between like going, oh, you know what, I'm sacrificing sleep and rest and like just not doing something so it can download. I think a lot of us cognitively are like, but if I'm not doing I'm

not learning. You need rest to actually have it and and more and that more isn't always And I know we're using golf in an example, and I know guitar whatever, I'm practicing a guitar thing, I will get it in my head so much and then I just stop and I'm like, now, just go meditate for twenty minutes because that's going to serve you better than just doing this

again for twenty minutes and practicing with intention. So more isn't always more, if that makes sense, Like like less can be more if if you if you have intention, if you're hitting a ball and you're going, why am I hitting a ball like this? What am I learning from each individual shot? As opposed to allow they call him like, uh um, I forget like Mattress Warriors or matt Warriors where you just go and you just hit four balls and you get in a rhythm and it's meditative,

but you don't download anything. Yeah, I don't know. It's sending guitar talks all about that of like just be mindful about what you're doing. It's very interesting, but it makes you feel lazy as someone who sees, you know, with success equals constantly working and never resting, and rest is such an essential element and and and you know meditation and slowing down as such as essential element to being the best that you can be. And it just seems, um,

it seems counterintuitive a lot of times. And it's it's it's it's feel lazy. Yeah, there's definitely a threshold of like you're gonna if you want to learn that scale, you have to be obsessed. But then you get to a point where you start sucking and like that's but I did watch a video of myself from a year ago playing guitar, playing the same song that I can play obviously now, and it's insane how much better I am. And to me, this year was just a fucking wash.

I've played a lot, but I haven't actually like practiced. I've just been like playing for fun. But it's just so nice to see how much progress there's been and how like it sounded like I thought I sounded good last year and it was such ship and this year I'm like, oh my god, it sounds so much better. And now I'm like, oh my god, next year if I just do the same thing, which is just I had an enjoyable stress for a year playing guitar. It was only just something I love to do. Never made

me feel bad. Um, I'm going to be that much better next year. And then like, do you want to learn how to pick and stuff or no? Lead, I just like I want to be able to just sing and I mean the rhythm wise, you're I mean it's on point, you know, yeah, but it's like now it's just making it sound good and being able to do little effects like hammering on and like just doing like you don't like a little bit of that would be fun,

but I'm not into like pay doesn't your rhythm. Same with the golf swing, like if you're not, you can't fucking break it down in the forty five things you need like three simplify it, like like how you strum. You don't even want to really think about how you want to just think about maybe one thing, two things.

So nice when it becomes but if you're like I gotta press hard with this finger, No, it starts that way, and then when you practice it enough, it becomes second nature because your body downloads it as like this is just what we do. It's like driving. When you first start driving, it's like, I mean you still drive like that, but like the left lane, and then it just becomes like, oh, that's just what I do Now, I don't have to

think about it. It's just natural. You still remember that. Yes, you d like a person I you drive like humming. My mom doesn't. Oh yeah, TEXTI not at all, And there's a buzz on my side. Oh wake up San Francisco, Jesus Christ. All right, No, no, no, I like it. No, it just I felt it this morning. It hit me, It hit me in the amigdala Alright what's what we got for fantis. Our first letter came as a response

to Love on the Spectrum from anonymous. Okay, one of the topics that has been brought up on the podcast is the Netflix show Love on the Spectrum. Throughout most of my childhood, pretty much until I got out of college, I was raised under the assumption I had severe Asperger syndrome.

I'm not an expert or even really an active advocate in these fields, but I have a near lifetime of firsthand experience, and I think when it comes to things like neurotypicality, people should have should get as many different perspectives and viewpoints as possible. Hopefully you can take this email as not some be all and end all authority, but one voice, one chapter of a very complicated book, and none of it comes from a place of anger

or negativity. Okay. Despite having lived nearly twenty four years under the blanket of having Asperger's, I haven't used that label or any autistic language to actively identify myself. Frankly, it's because of shows like The Good Doctor, Atypical, or even Love on the Spectrum, which perpetuate a stare of a type of my condition that makes me not want to identify with a label. Oh it's hard to describe

without being a bummer. How damaging these tropes are. There's nothing wrong with positivity, but the way mainstream media exemplifies autism whitewashes so much of the uncomfortable trauma that comes with the experience. Time and time again, autistic behavior gets viewed as this childlike or special thing when it is

a much messier and painful experience in reality. Okay, And I want to say that, like I had to condense this down and I went back and forth with the person who emailed this to us just because it's it's very thoughtful and and really important, and I'm sorry that it's right. Okay. Um, what the media is afraid to show is the hard truth. Being autistic means of the time you are difficult because you don't communicate or coordinate

in an optimal way for most situations. And the messed up part is the main people who you relate to are also autistic, and they can be a big, big, paid in the ass. You could deal with people with toxic anger issues, people who have severe hygiene issues, who are super uncooperative or hurt your feelings. Every other sentence. People that can be your best friends because they really understand you. The experience of being diagnosed as a kid is very different from being diagnosed as an adult. I

also want to clarify. I love my traits and quirks. I love my offbeat sensibilities, openness and bluntness. But I hate this label of autism, this label that says I can be adorable but I can't be challenging. I can be precious, but I can't be powerful. This isn't me saying love on the spectrum is bad. I hope you continue to watch and talk about it. I still haven't seen it. I don't want to see it. This is how deep the stigma has sunk in our community. However,

I have seen some clips of Michael on YouTube. He seems like a genuinely cool guy. It's a very uncomfortable subject to unpack. Hopefully we can all understand why. Okay, yeah, that makes sense of um feeling like I think that what I gleaned from that is that the person feels that love on the spectrum paints it in this like fun light, like they're so adorable and they make everything great and we get to all kind of watch from the outside and be like they're just cute and quirky

and all and all that kind of Yeah. I think also like Love on the Spectrum from from what I gleaned from it, because I read the whole thing is thus, the spectrum is very wide, and Love on the Spectrum shows you one small piece of the spectrum. And I think what this person is trying to, you know, get out there, is that the spectrum is very, very wide. I do recall, though, from the first season, I want to say that there was a guy that had much more severe a case of it than anyone else on

the show. Do you remember him. It was an Asian boy. Okay, he was an Asian man with the father who was raised by a single father, and he was you know, very very different than the other people in the show that are more highly functioning. And it really did show

the side from the like it showed. It showed more of like a case that of And then I think people you meet within Michael's world or like just watching them go out and interact with other people with autism, you see a further you see different sides of the spectrum that can be obviously really trying to families and um not just yeah, whitewashed in the sense of, oh, it's all fun and cute and there. Yeah, I guess

it's I want to know more. Honestly, I want to know what this person which is we're different about them, Like if they love their quirks, what are some quirks that they have that they really struggle with and just wish we're not that way and that are like the parts that you wish that would be more represented in on these shows like good Good Doctor in any typical and love on the spect um, Yeah, because maybe because it just feels to them like it's too surface level.

So like it's like I'm Jewish, right, So if the show was like, here's some Jews, and then it's like these are the Jews and this is what Jews do you know? Like and yeah I was thinking curb but no, no, no, but you know what I mean like, and then it's like, okay, well this is like, uh, the feeds into a stereotype and this is everything we need to really know and this is and it's fun to point out and whatever. And then you see a show like, um, I forget what the name of it was, but about the Hasidic

girl that like was unbelievable. First of all, you have to see like it is one of those shows that I can't believe. I haven't convinced you see. But but then you see like a whole like dark side of Judaism and like this like and so maybe this person wants to see like something like more specific and more like and not just a doc You're I can figure out things because he's you know what I mean. Like, so yeah, you just need we're seeing the like comforting

side that makes us all feel like, oh everything's okay. Yeah, M like it. Thank you so much for writing into us and sharing that I love. I love notes that um and you know fan Trex that shares people's experience that we don't know, Like we all just want to empathize more with other experiences because we think we know, but you have no idea the real world, San Diego okayap okay, So let me play Becca from here, Becca, Hi, Andrew,

Nikki and Noah. Um. First off, I love the pod um on days when my DJ is pretty s S. I really appreciate it. And um uh yeah, I was just calling because when Nikki was talking about um pain and the fear of pain never ending. It really blew my mind. And Um, I have chronic pain. And when it was really really bad and I was undiagnosed for about a year, UM, and doctors kept telling me that I was fine and they couldn't find anything wrong with me. Um. I really think it was the fear of dying is

what made it so unbearable. Whereas now that I know what it is and I know that it's um, you know there's things that I can do to feel better if it gets bad, and I know the cause and I know it's not going to kill me. Um, it's like I'm fine now. So that was just really interesting and I really like, yeah, that's it. Keep up the great work. Yeah, thank you Becca that I'm so sorry you go through chronic pain. My god, I just said it.

I was like, I feel so I mean, my heart goes out to so many people in the world, but those that suffer with chronic pain. Is idea, You're so strong because whenever I have any kind of pain, I just I always think about you guys. Um. Yeah. I think the thing I shared in case people want to know what she's talking about, was that I was listening to a meditation the Waking Up app says working with Pain.

There's there's a se meditation called working with Pain, and you can get the Waking Up app for free if you write in and tell them you can't afford it, or you can buy it yourself. But there's a meditation that I listened to and I have migraines, and it says that a lot of the anxiety around pain is that it's you've if you think about pain in the sense that you've already borne the pain of this moment, like you're already when you go I can't this is unbearable,

you're actually bearing it. You just did it, like you're in the moment, it's happening now and you're getting through it. Um that so much of pain is anxiety about it not going away, and you're thinking about the future, which you cannot predict. You don't know. A lot of times, I guess you can if you have a diagnosis, but a lot of times you don't know if it's going to go away or not. And that's the fear of Oh my god, is why am I getting so many migrants?

Am I going to have a fucking to have a tumor? In my head, all of that is really what the pain is. And if you can think about that, you've already the moment you have right now is all that you have, and that you've actually your experience, you've gotten through the pain already that you can get through. You could just stay in the moment. I don't know. It

was something like that. I don't know, but yeah, I get that, and I think relating it to like death, like once you can figure out this isn't like I would have like horror, but we all die. That's where I get trapped up on like I'm gonna die. It's like, but you are, but you feel like you're it's expedited that you're gonna maybe die in two months. And you're also maybe thinking, if you're a hypochondract that this pain now is bad. But the closer I get to death

two months in forty years. In terms of like you just want to get more stuff done, it's the it's the anxiety of like I didn't I didn't get enough. You want to see your nephews grow, your kids grow, or or you don't want to die. But I'm not devil. I'm not trying to be like I'm dub I don't know. I'm just when I think of death, I'm like, if I go tomorrow versus when I'm ninety, it doesn't matter to me because I'm dead, but it manages to everyone

around you. Yeah, but they'll be dead some day two and then that pain will be gone with me losing. Like you know what I'm saying, I'm not trying to minimize it. Doesn't want everyone to live as long as they can, and I want to live as long as I can. But when I don't fear death like I feel like most people do, and I wish some people could just get I wish I could like transfer the way I think of it to other people, because it's

not because I'm like I figured it out. I just don't know why I don't fear death the way other people do. I get what you're saying to what she said though about she was afraid of death, So that has you know whatever, I think that you can change the way you look at it. And but my point though is that she has his pain right. She decided

to go to the doctor. They finally figured it out, and then she could she learned that it's not death related, that it's not a death sentence, right, and because of that, so much of it was the anxiety of potentially being death, which yes, what you're saying, yes is true. But a lot of people are in her boat where it's like they still fear death like it's a whole another thing.

But but then some people won't go to the doctor when there they got a pain in their neck and they think it could be a tumor, but instead they're like, I don't want to find out the truth. But the truth really is you just have you know, maybe like a pinched nerve, but it's not that bad, but you know what I mean. They think about brain aneurisms where like your brain just explodes and no one can see it coming and it just as a healthy person and

you just fucking die. Yeah, And sometimes I'll go like or I'll be flying in a plane and I'm like, oh my god, we could hit another plane and it could be a second of peace, boom, and then everything's done like it happened in a second getting hit by a bus, And I get a little overwhelmed by that of like, oh my god, my life could be over right now if this building collapses, Like it wouldn't be a slow, like you've been diagnosed. Um, And I get

a little anxiety over that. Like I used to get in planes and be like right now, right now, like what's your anxiety when you drive in a single car road? Um? That to control it and this person I know, But let's say they come in and they kill you. I'm afraid of dying there. No, I'm scared. I have anxiety over the fact that I'm not doing all I can right now to prevent it. When I'm in a plane, I let go of that anxiety because I don't have control. There's literally nothing I can do to get in the

cockpit and go, hey, can you guys watch up for planes? No? I get that, but I'm saying no, no, no, no, what I'm driving, I don't have anxiety, But what are you so only if you're riding, because I am aware that they could come in my lane and I'm ready to turn, and I have a plan. But when you're driving, I know you don't have a plan because you're not obsessed with it like I am. And I can't tell you you think you are more on point with driving

than me. No, when on a two lane highway, because that's my number one fear like you would have a better plan to escape lizards than I would. But why is what is the I would what I'm saying, like, what is? But what is the You're saying you're not afraid of death? I'm I'm no, I'm I'm I wanna obviously obviously mitigate against dying in a really gruesome way where my body is crushed and I hear all the people around me screaming and I have to watch people

around me die. That is, I'm really scared of big crashes and big sounds and just very quick like that, Like I would much rather die a slow, agonizing death than car crash. If I die in a car crash, just know that it was not the way I wanted to go, and I was very very sad about it, and it was I would probably die from this being scared of the sound I get really scared of. So I don't like air shows. That's why I don't like fireworks. I don't like I don't like balloons popping. I don't

like guns. I don't like loud abrupt sounds. Um. So this so that same fear this person is the fear of dying in three months from now, Yes, I get that, but I'm just but I know that there's probably some out there that could help me get over my fear of this. And that's what I'm saying is maybe I could transfer however I look at it too, I could say some way that might because sometimes you say something and all of a sudden cracks open a part of your brain where you're like, oh, I'm free of that

fear now. Um for turbulence. When I heard that pilots say that turbulence is like driving over a styrofoam cup on the highway. That's how much it gets in the that's how detrimental it would be to a flight, I was like, I'm no longer scared of turbulence. That just cracked it open. When Louis c Kay said that when you complain about the WiFi and your airplane and you go like, oh this bullshit, Well you're in a fucking airplane.

This used to take months and a half of you would die by the time you got to the other side. Now you just take a ship and watch a movie. That cracked open something in my brain, so that now when the WiFi is down, I don't care. And I used to go would do WiFi. I don't care now. All it took was one sentence, and you could crack the code before you even worry about having to go

to the doctor or the like. You could get there before crack the code for I'm not saying I could, but I would like to whatever is in my brain that doesn't make me worry about the thing that that girl and you worry about in terms of a sudden death through Uh, this cough I have or this tingling my throat is going to mean I'm dying. However, the way I look at it, it is not. It's not in my mind. I could somehow bestow that to you if I was able to figure out how I think

of it in my head. That doesn't give I don't know how it is because it doesn't bother me. And if you can figure out how to process to lane highways the way you do and give that to me, I could crack that open. But we just don't know how yet. And that's why I think comedy is important, and like just for podcasts and stuff like this and

books and actually just information. And I just feel like if you are that, if you are similar to me and like this girl, like and you have a pain, a random pain, a random cough, just don't avoid it, like, don't avoid the doctor, because that's when I have to pay my chest. You don't go to heart attack, No, I just go to heartburn. I go. Oh, it's one of those random like kind of oh. Or if I have like a sizzle in my brain or like a

for me, I don't I don't go. I don't have those wondering why I don't go there because I am an anxious person. But there's something about like when I have not I had numbness all in my arm the other night at the hockey game out of nowhere. I wasn't sitting in it weird, I didn't have a tight shirt on. It just was numb. And I just was like, Oh, my arm is numb. That's probably just like a freak thing because I, you know, don't have enough potassium today

or something like I wasn't. But I know that that's capable. It could. That's probably dumb of me to assume that my arm going numb randomly is a healthy thirty seven year old woman isn't an alarm going off. But at the same time, you haven't gone to and a lot of times anxiety. No I didn't have, but a lot of times anxiety about my arm numbing will turn into more arm numbing crack. So that's where we get caught up.

Let's get one more left arm or the right arm, because the left like, then you go the left armed heart attack, the left arm and it heart attack. Final thought. Okay, so this very quick one. Ah, it's from Hannah, Hey, Andrew, Nikki and Noah. I just wanted to hop on here and tell you something that's been really funny. Um. I'm an elementary music teacher and right now I am teaching my fourth and fifth graders how to play you Are

My Sunshine on the xylophone. So we have to, like, you know, sing it a lot just to make sure they know it and know the notes. So whenever we sing it, you know it goes you are my Sunshine, my only sunshine. But in my head all I can hear is Andrew saying only so I come so close to saying you are my sunshine, my only son shine. Oh my God gives me the gigs real good. It just gives me the gig. I hit the spot for you as well. Oh, your voice is so good. I feel like I love you all. Her talking voice is

awesome and then her singing voice. Man to show off her voice, No, you think sometimes people do that, but it's like she just said, a naturally great voice. Yeah goos my only son shine, Oh my god. iMedia named Perez. Did you ever know him? I did know. He's from Florida. Yeah. I like him a lot. He was so sweet. Used to work at us. That's right. Um, well you guys that I hope we all we have that song called in our heads all day today. You are my son, shine,

my only son, Shine. You make me happy, daring clouds of gray. You'll never know tear what her the other words you do? How much I love you? Please don't take turbot and so with happy birthday, brand I love you baby, and don't be Cat and Jack. I think we'd be nimble. We haven't done, Ripper. I feel like you're googling tonight. I'm not