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S3 E3 - Chika Amatori - The Enemy is Me

Jun 14, 202325 minSeason 3Ep. 3
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In this thought-provoking episode, we delve into the captivating story of Chika Amatori, a character who embodies the struggle of embracing change. Join us as we explore the moments that shaped her path, the challenges she faced, and the remarkable transformation that ensued. As well as how Chika's story mirrors our own dilemmas, illuminating the intricate dance between fear and desire.

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So what's something that you wish you could do, but you just can't? Is it starting that business? Is it traveling the world? Or maybe it's just allowing yourself to say yes, or no. Now, oftentimes we come to a crossroads where we have to make a decision, but for some reason, we want to allow ourselves the chance to change. Well, today's character that best represents this is the sniper who can't shoot people, is Chica Amatore. Hey, what's going on guys?

My name is Nate. You're listening to the Otaku Liberation, a show where we help you break free from the chains that are holding you back in your life by connecting some biblical principles with things from your favorite anime. And without further ado, let's get into it. And so for today's verse that I'm going over with this episode is actually Philippians chapter four, verse six.

And that says, don't worry about anything, but in everything through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the key points I want to pull out from that is the beginning says don't worry about anything. And then towards the end it says, present your request to God. And so let me start with the don't worry about anything.

So I know, especially for me personally, I used to have a bad habit of worrying about things that are beyond my control, which is literally everything else in the world besides myself. And the biggest thing was what other people thought about me and what they may say, what they might think. If I did this and that and third, growing up in school, it was, if I wasn't always at the top of the class, well, people say, they all been, you've lost your edge.

You're not as smart as you think you are type thing. If I were to fail at something, especially sports, because I tend to overthink things that hinder my physical performance in sports. And it's like, man, people just think I suck. I'm letting the team down, things like that. And even starting this podcast, what are the people going to think about it? Are they going to like it? Are they going to hate it?

Are they going to hate me personally because I don't, you know, essentially preaching the gospel through anime, it's like, oh, that's a taboo. You can't do that. Who knows? I don't know. I honestly don't know. And again, so this verse kind of came to me. It's like, just don't worry. Just don't worry about it. Just give it all to God, let him work it out. And that's it. I mean, that's literally it. There's nothing more, nothing more than that. And it's easier said than done.

Definitely that's something that we have to actively choose to do each and every day in each and every moment. And even now I still have things that I worry about sometimes where I have to just take a step back, take a deep breath and just say, okay, God, I'm going to let you handle it. I'm just going to let you handle it. I'm not going to worry about it. But I know it took a lot for me to get to that point where I can just readily drop it and give it to God.

And for today's character, Chica, is something that she's still struggling with, but she's getting better with herself. And what she's worried about is essentially people blaming her, blaming her for her actions. And it doesn't give you a little context to that. So again, like I said before, in World Trigger, the power system is called Trion, right? Trion is something that all living creatures have, and you have a pretty set amount from the moment you're born, right?

And in the previous episode, I covered Osamu who has below average amounts of Trion, like abysmal levels. Chica is the exact opposite of them. I think they've stated she has the most out of everyone in the series that we've seen thus far. And I mean, her volume and density of it is massive.

And because of that, she grants unwanted attention from the neighbors, which again, for those who don't remember or who don't know, the neighbors are essentially the neighboring planets that are close to Earth's orbit in an alternate dimension. And then they cross over since they're closer neighbors at this point. And the neighbors are essentially just the term to use for the aliens themselves.

And because of Chica's high Trion levels, the aliens are trying to come take her and use her essentially as a, at first we thought it was just a fuel source, but we learned later on in the series for something even bigger than that. But the biggest thing is that Chica's always been targeted by neighbors since she was like a small child. And it was because of this that ultimately one of her friends ends up getting taken instead of her.

Because of Chica's high Trion levels, she has an ability that she can sense when the neighbors are near. So she always knew when one of them was around her. So that made it hard for them to be able to capture her. But for her friend, that wasn't the case. And one time when she again, I think she was in like in grade school, something like that, her friend ends up getting taken by the neighbors because she was essentially, because she was close to Chica and she can do anything about it.

And the crazy thing is before the kidnapping happened, Chica would tell the teachers, the other kids, to her parents about these creatures that are trying to get her. Because at this point, border was still secret. The neighbors weren't common knowledge. So no one knew about this alien threat. No one knew about it. So at the time they just thought, what most adults think when they hear a small child frantic about something that they think is just make believe, right?

And because of that, no one paid her any mind until her friend ended up disappearing. And then at that moment, they all went back to what Chica had been saying prior to this, was that, you know, maybe they're all creatures out there. Maybe she is right. And then somehow, because they got this twisted idea in their mind that she was to blame for her friend's disappearance. Because of what she did or didn't do, that she is the reason that her friend disappeared.

Now, us as viewers, we kind of know it's kind of right, but kind of not right. Because the neighbors were just taking a lot of people at that point. And like her friend wasn't the only one to be taken. But the neighbors were targeting Chica because of her huge amount of try-ons. So you could argue it kind of, it wasn't her fault intentionally, but it's just one of those things of circumstance. But regardless of the fact, that stuck with her up until where we are in the story now.

And that just fed into her inability to shoot people. Right? So in Border, the agents have different classes they can be, more or less. I think class is the best thing I can use to describe it. And Chica decided to be a sniper. And the crazy thing is because her sniper, her shots aren't like normal shots. They call her the cannon because due to her huge amount of try-on when she pulls the trigger, it's literally like a cannon being shot off. And she just decimates the area.

And it's kind of a running thing throughout the series. And because of that, people initially thought, oh man, she's gonna be just a huge threat. No matter what squad she joins, she's just gonna be just a menace on the battlefield. But they soon realized that she freezes up and she has to take aim at people. Now she can shoot buildings all day long. She can shoot buildings and level the map.

But the minute she has to do essentially what a sniper is there to do and to take out the opposition, the enemy agents, she can't pull the trigger. She freezes up.

And more than once has that cost her team some serious damage, whether it's her not scoring points where she could have or by her not taking a shot is inadvertently cause either Osama or Yuma to lose in their respective battles and causing their team to essentially lose out on either the match entirely or just on points they could have had. And for me as a watcher or a seer, that was so frustrating to see is like, you're so good, but you're not living up to your potential.

You're not doing what essentially what you need to do. And looking back on it now, it was selfish of me to say, right, to this anime character. But think about how oftentimes we just think about people or we see somebody who we just, sorry. How many think about how we see people who we think they could do better with their lives, but for some reason they just don't, they don't, they're always stuck in this hamster with this self sabotaging cycle.

And we don't know what it is because again, we're not them, right? We can't read minds, we can't, we can sympathize with what they're going through, but we can't understand it because we're not going through what they're going through, right? And because at the end of the day, we're all unique. We're all unique people. We can go through similar situations, similar circumstances, so we have that level of empathy for it, but we don't truly understand it because we're not them.

Two people going through the same scenario can handle it completely different ways, just based on their own personality, their own mental toughness, so to speak. And I know, so for Chico on the outside looking in, people just thought she was afraid, she was afraid of shooting people because she didn't want to take another person's life, that she didn't want to be someone who just kills people, right?

Even though in the anime, no one really dies, since these are all mock battles, but it's just that mindset, right? And so when she joined Border, it's kind of funny, she joined Border in order to search for her brother, right? I mean, it's kind of the main premise of the story. So Chica joined to find her brother because he went off into the neighborhood and into the alternate dimension of his own free will, but she's trying to find out why he left.

And that's the reason why Osamu wants to go too, because Chica's brother actually taught Osamu about Border and triggers and all that stuff. So that's their connection. They want to essentially find him and find out why he left. But even after joining Border and becoming a sniper and joining the squad with Osamu and Yuma, Chica's still unable to shoot people, even when the need is there for her to make a decision to take action.

And part of this is twofold, but it's the same problem, is that we tend to make excuses, right? We tend to make excuses for ourselves as to why we can't do this, that, and the third. We tend to blame other people. We tend to blame our circumstances. We tend to blame our luck or a lot on life about, oh man, I can't start this business because my wife won't support me on it or my husband won't support me on it. I was like, okay, well, have you really had a conversation with him?

Have you sat down and tried to have like a full-on conversation, or did you just say, hey, I'm thinking about doing this with no explanation whatsoever, right? It's like one of those different type of deals where are you really giving it your all or are you just saying you are to make yourself look good or to convince yourself that you're really doing everything that you can. And I mean, that's a serious question.

Like I'm seriously asking, because I mean, this is a question I had to ask myself multiple times, multiple, multiple times. Am I really giving it my all or am I really just saying that to convince myself that the mediocre work I'm putting in is enough? And sometimes the answer is yes, I'm literally giving it my all, there's nothing more I can do. And honestly, sometimes it's no, I'm just being lazy. I don't feel like making myself uncomfortable by trying new things.

I don't feel like trying to grow and be better at this thing that I'm trying to do. And let me say, the truth hurts, no matter where you hear it from. But it's so often since we as people wanna be as comfortable as possible, we don't wanna try to do different things, try to go outside of a comfort zone. We'll make excuses that sound good and grand to justify us not taking action. And honestly, I think the worst part of it is others will make excuses for us as well.

And nine times out of 10 is those who are closest to you because they care about your emotions more than they care about you. And it's not intentional, it's not intentional. Most of us have been raised and taught to be considerate of other people's feelings and their emotion and be understanding and sympathetic and things like that. But to a certain extent, that can be detrimental, especially when you see someone self-sabotaging themselves and their potential and what they could possibly do.

When you make excuses with them to justify their self-sabotage behavior, you're just enabling the badness. You're just enabling them to essentially throw the pity party to not really give it their all and to, and honestly just to go through life instead of just living it. And in Sheikah's case, it was Osamu and Yuma, they're always coming for her on the battlefield and off it. And again, it's coming from a place of good intentions.

They're her friends, they don't want her to do anything that she doesn't wanna do, that she doesn't feel comfortable with. And again, it's from good intentions and I definitely get that. We don't want, you don't wanna push someone before they're ready, but sometimes you need to push them so they can be ready.

And because we, since we're alone with our own thoughts, alone with our own thoughts all the time, it's easy to convince ourselves that we can't do this, we can't do that, we're not good enough, we're not ready, we're not this, that and the third where it takes an outside force, someone else looking in to say, no, that's not the case. You have the potential, you can do it. Is it gonna be hard? Yes, but that doesn't mean you can't do it. That's the difference.

And like I say, like again, since we're taught to be considerate of people's feelings, sometimes we don't say what needs to be said because I don't want them to be upset, I don't want to make them more upset if they already are, I don't want them to be mad at me, I don't want them to feel any worse about themselves. Whereas sometimes they just need to hit in the mouth and it's like, hey, suck it up, this is what it is, this is, you gotta make a decision, right?

Now, I'll admit that doesn't work for everybody at every time, but you need to have someone in your circle who is honest with you, completely, utterly honest with your strengths, your flaws, the good, the bad and the ugly, who can give it to you straight no matter what. You being a knucklehead, they're gonna tell you you're being a knucklehead.

If you're being too soft on yourself, they're gonna tell you being too soft on yourself, being too hard on yourself, you're not giving yourself the chance to change. And basically I'm here to tell you you're being stupid and to get it together. And for Chica, for the longest time, she didn't have that, she didn't have someone there to essentially knock that sense into her.

But there was two times where someone alluded to the fact that Chica is just making excuses, it's not some grand fear of shooting people or that she can't bring herself to do it. And the reason why is so, to compensate for the fact that she can shoot people with actual try-on bullets, she came up with a method to shoot them with lead bullets instead, which they're non-lethal, they just slow the targets down long enough for Yuma to get them.

And the person who made the observation was one of the veteran snipers on in border. He was like, if she was truly afraid to shoot people, she would never shoot anyone with any type of bullet. But the fact that she can shoot people down with the lead ones remorselessly, without remorse, is that shows that she can pull the trigger and she's just choosing not to, for whatever the reason is, she's just choosing not to. And so that was the first time.

And the second time was when their squad got their second ace, Hughes, Hughes brought it to the fact that he was like, no, no, no, I think she can do it. And she's just refusing to shoot people. It's not from the fact that she can't do it, it's the fact that she won't. And that kind of shocked everyone. They were like, hey man, you just joined the team. What do you know? And Hughes is a war veteran. I mean, he's a prisoner of war and he's been on the battlefield.

He's seen enough action to know the difference between someone who can't do something and someone who won't. And ironically enough, he was really the deciding factor to help her find a resolve in order to start actually taking real shots. Because he brought up this point to her, is like, right now these are just mock battles, but when you go on the away mission, when you go out into the neighborhood, these are gonna be real enemies out there.

And your inability to shoot is gonna end up costing your friends their lives. And it's when that reality hit her and it shook her, and she realized, I need to make a change, not for myself, but for my team, for my friends who've had my back since the beginning.

And that is the type of change that we all, I know for me personally that I'm doing better at, is that our inability to change, our, well, I'm saying inability, our reluctance to change, our reluctance to give up the excuses and to really just risk it all and go for broke on something, is gonna end up costing somebody their lives somewhere out there, right? And it may not be as someone as close to you as your friend, as your family, but it can be just a complete stranger, right?

I'm just trying to put it into perspective that, all the different motivational coaches and speakers out there, all the ones who, I've seen some in the post and I've seen some in the comments on their posts, where it's like, you saved my life in my darkest hour because I heard your one video, your one speech. Sometimes it's even just a single quote, just a single word resonates with somebody on a level that you're not even aware of.

But if you're too afraid to just take that chance to really put yourself out there, to really go for broke, and you're too worried about what other people are gonna say and think, then you may be forfeiting the life of so many other people that you would never know, that you would never know. And I mean, that's pretty much all it took for Chica. She decided to, she can start shooting real bullets now because she figured that helping her friends outweigh the possible backlash from others.

She figured that, despite what everyone else might say, because again, none of this is confirmed. She's living in the what if scenario. And boy, have I lived in the what if scenario for too, too, too long now about, what if they say this? What if they say that? What if they don't like this? What if they don't like that? It's like, and in the day, you just gotta go. That's it, you just gotta go, you gotta move. You have to decide that the reward is greater than the regret.

And I was like, I don't think anyone wants to live in regret, and I don't think anyone wants to just stay there all the time with the what could have shit us. And I know I feel better to have tried something and I failed at it than to know what could have been if I never tried it at all. And I mean, honestly, that's it. That's pretty much it, is that we can't, don't hold yourself back, right? Don't count yourself out before you've even started. Allow yourself the chance to change.

Allow yourself to fail at something so you can have the opportunity to be great at something else. Because if you never try, if you never take the chance, if you keep making excuses for yourself, if you keep allowing other people to make excuses for you, then you're never gonna reach the potential that you've always been meant to reach. Because I do realize we all have different columns in life, we all have different values, different things that we bring to the world.

And it's up to us to discover it, and it's up to us to hone it and to really master it and just put it out there, right? Because I truly believe that we all have gifts that aren't just meant for us, they're meant for other people out there, they're meant for your family, your community, your country, the world, whatever it is. And it doesn't have to be, some of it might not even be now, it might not even be while you're alive.

Your gift and potential may not be truly recognized until long after you're dead and gone. But if you never start now, then that's never gonna happen. There's just never gonna happen. A lot of people are never gonna see the light of day. And I just wanna encourage you guys to, just take the leap of faith, just take the faith. Don't worry about it anymore. Just let it go, pray about it, give it to God, let him do what he does best, which is everything.

And just really take that load off, and then just move with the peace and assurance knowing that he got you no matter what, no matter what all the other flawed people on this earth are gonna say about you. The perfect one is, he's already say, this is done, you're forgiven for whatever you've done in the past. And I know what I've given you and what I've called you to do. So I just need you to walk in that path. And that's it, that's it.

Honestly, it's easier said than done, but I promise you, if you overthink it, you're gonna just make it worse, like we always tend to do. We're just gonna muck it up. So don't overthink it. Take a step back, take a deep breath, and just go, that's it. So all right, I wanna thank you guys for tuning into today's episode. I pray that you got what you needed out of it, and hopefully you learned something new about yourself. Feel free to subscribe to the podcast and leave a review.

I love reading guys' comments, and it helps me improve each and every episode. And always remember, you are the main character of your story, and that story doesn't end until he says so. All right, be blessed. And I'll see you next time.

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