Are you scared of being alone? Does the thought of you being by yourself make you freeze up in fear or just make your heart start beating out of your chest? Does it Make you feel crippled? Just alone Why is that? Why is it that some of us are so afraid afraid of being left with just ourselves?
And with our own thoughts and own devices that it honestly just cripples us Well today, we'll look take a look at that Aspect of fear through one of the characters from blue locks, you know blue locks dancing boy Meguru Bajira
What's going on guys? My name is Nate and you're back with the Otaku liberation for those You don't know this is a show where we help people Break free from the chains that are holding them back in their life by connecting some biblical principles with themes from your favorite anime Again, this is my spoiler warning for all you people who are anime only and who haven't caught up to the manga That will be going over just a few things From the manga just to make it all tie together
Without further ado, let's get into it so I said this thing about trauma, right? Essentially, what is it that you can't move past from? What is it that happened in your past whether it's it was last week, you know two years ago
14 years ago when you were a child. What was it? What was that moment or moments that Basically Blocked in that they blocked off the part of your mind where is okay I'm gonna be okay to be by myself to be my own person and the reason I'm bringing this up because Bajira He experienced a trauma like that during his youth so again for those who don't know who character Bajira is Bajira is you know, obviously another character in Blue Lock another another four and his
incredible skills with the ball is honestly second to none like his dribbling and passing is far and wide better than majority of the characters on the series and And as a child his the way he played was clearly better than some of the other kids and like like what we humans do what we don't understand we fear right and The kids decided to bully him about it. They decided to bully him because of a if his eccentric personality because again, if you've
Seen the series or even ready, you know Bajira is a weird guy. He's he's he's weird But then again, aren't we all right, but he's a little out there and Not only that they they bullied him because of his gifts
They were they were they were jealous or not. They didn't understand it, but they hated the fact that he was so good at soccer and that they couldn't do anything to stop him they didn't want to play with him anymore and When he asked them why you know, just do what I do and granted he didn't understand
That not everyone can do what he do. That's his gift. But at the same time The kids just started shunning him and he shunned him some of them even tried to beat him up but and his Something that's simple as that right of not being if not being understood if not being Not being and not being able to connect to other people around you and he kind of just shunned the shunned him and he kind of shut down and became cut off and The way he coped with it
It was to create what he calls the monster and the monster essentially is a personification of the type of soccer that Bajira wants to play somebody who can keep up with his skill keep up with his creativity when he has the ball and be able to play the way he wants to play and The issue with that is you can't play with an imaginary person and They've shown some flashbacks We try to play soccer with his teammates and some of his passes looked erratic because he wasn't passing to an actual person
he was passing to the monster that was beyond the person where Bajira figured okay, this is the best place to put it and Growing up he always felt alone because of that He always felt like it was only him and the other person that he was playing with He felt alone because of that he always felt like it was only him and in this monster that he made up in his mind
Because no one else seems to understand him. No one else wants to take the time to understand him and and really get to get to know who he is and I Feel like that can happen to a lot of people here and I mean I was in the real world too, right? Where you may be a little different from other people, you know for better or for worse, right?
And you feel you feel you do feel alone. I feel like no one really understands you and you Either have to put on a mask or put on you You put on airs about how you are how you really are Maybe you had to put on a mask to be the perfect child and me to be the perfect sibling, you know spouse boss employee, you know, whatever role is that you're trying to feel and You may maybe you feel isolated because of that because no one ever gets a hundred percent of you
Because you're afraid to show a hundred percent of you We go remember that's because something happened in your past. Maybe you tried to be more expressive be more authentic and people reacted negative negatively to that and Maybe I don't want too many times. You just said, you know, forget it. I Don't I don't want to I don't want to experience that pain again
I don't want to experience that pain again. I don't want to experience any pain again. So I'm not gonna let myself feel anything and As Good as that sounds is really is really not it's really not it shutting yourself off in the world Should shuts off Everything not just the potential pain but also shuts off the potential you know love and joy that you get to feel when you connect with other people and That can leave you feeling numb I'm inside always
Always walking around with a with a sort of fakeness about it Because after a while you start to resent yourself too because you feel okay. What's wrong with me? Why can't I just be like them? Why can't I just be accepted? Why can't anyone just accept me for who I am, right? And then you start not understanding yourself and then the people around you and it's just it just starts becoming a downward spiral and downward spiral and They can you can easily easily get stuck there and
When I want you down there, it's hard. It's hard to get out It's hard once you want some negative self-talk starts to seep in and really take all it gets it gets difficult to break those chains and I just I just want to tell you that you it it's okay to be different Because everyone's different and I know I don't know if you've ever walked around and you know seen another version of yourself Unless you're a twin, right?
You're a twin triplet something like that, but even then That just because they have the same face doesn't mean it's the same you right? They're their own person and you're your own person and that's how that's how God made each and every one of us made is unique It made us different with our different gifts and different talents. I mean again, that's the that's the theme of the theme of This season of the of me covering blue lock is that we're all different. We're all made different
We all have different gifts. We all have different talents. We all have different ways of thinking different ways of communicating different ways of expressing ourselves and Them that's what makes this world beautiful. Okay, if everyone was the same we'd be boring is just It'd be boring. You know creativity and there'd be no room for innovation. No room for improvement if everyone's saying you're just doing the same thing each and every day and
Again, I don't know about you. I don't want to live in a world like that. That's just that man, that's so so boring and
You can say being indifferent is cool. It really is because you get to do some things and no one else can and That kind of moved me to my next point is essentially moving past that trauma, you know, how to since you fall back in love with yourself and your uniqueness and not just not just yourself, but who who you are who God called you to be right and For Bacchira it was basically just decided to be more confident in his own skills and being the one who gets to choose
right not always being the one to Has to be chosen by somebody else if you feel like you need someone else to choose for you to choose you like yes Come on, pick me pick me. I'm clearly the best here, but Flipping it and be like, you know it no, I'm gonna take control of my own life. I'm going to Be the one who gets to choose from now on that you basically if you're not You know, I'm not gonna say worthy guess that's a
Good no one's better than anybody else. But if you're not on the same vibe that I am then I Don't I don't want to have anything to do with you and then that's in the sense that you know, if you're not If you're just all you can do is just drag me down or tear me down or you know Try to put me down then I don't need you in my life you know, we don't have to agree on everything, but you're not gonna sit here and degrade me and
Just basically just badmouth me the whole time because I've seen so many times where people and especially in playing the role in a romantic relationships now again, everyone's situation is different you know, there's other factors involved, but They just stay in these In these just negative situations with these with these people now whether the people themselves are negative or just
Them together is negative because then that happens too to good people can be in a negative situation because they're just not good for each other and
It can be just at that time. Maybe we'll need to grow more Individually so they can come together or what have you like I said, there's different different factors for different situations, but oftentimes it's the fear of being alone the fear of Still not being good enough for the next person because some people may think that hey if I can't make this relationship work I'm not gonna be able to make any relationship work
So I might as well stay here with this person because you know already got skin in the game. I'm already here and That that's that's that's not it. That's really not it You know take the time to really evaluate yourself in your situation because again
Like referring to last episode the only thing we can control is is ourselves, right? How we how we act how we react to things We can only control what what we can do so Yeah, so I strongly encourage you just to take the time to really look back at yourself to really look back at your sister whatever situation you may be in and Really reflect on yourself. It's like okay What is it that I can do? What's the work that I can work on to kind of reclaim?
that that love for yourself and honestly because Hey, you're awesome honestly, you're awesome and Not everyone's gonna see that awesomeness Some people some people are gonna see it and love it some people are gonna see it and hate it because they want They want to be able to express their awesomeness, too But they can't because they're they're still stuck in the same cycle that they you're in right now or that you were and if you already moved past it, right and
Maybe they're just too afraid or too, you know, what's the word there to I? Don't know if it's just as good with the fray ran. I did just too afraid to be able to express themselves to who afraid to be able to ask for that help for that advice and So they they take it out on you and then again That's what a lot of us do right when we're when we're scared or unsure anxious We tend to we tend to deflect
Our insecurities on other insecure. That's what the word was We tend to deflect our insecurities on other people and or things or objects or whatever it is because we don't either we don't want to or we don't know how to do the work on ourselves and And again self-work is hard work most just we don't think we're built for that when we really are and
Case a point for for Bajira, right? I mean you can just tie this all in so when Bajira How he decided to be more confident his own skills and to Become one who chooses right it was during his match against the main character Isagi Bajira's team with with the Rin and going against Isagi because
Prior to that Bajira was only Sagi's team. They faced Rin they lost and then Rin took Bajira that joined his team So now Isagi fought his way back up to face Rin again So that way if he wins he gets to take Bajira back and Bajira at this point had just been waiting for Isagi to get back I mean he believed in him. He believed he believed in Isagi more than he believed in himself and
Rin called him out on that. It's like you're playing a brand of soccer where you're waiting for somebody and Struck a chord with Bajira because before then no one else has ever said that to him No one else has ever really even acknowledged how he plays to that sense and Bajira kind of realized that he really realized that during the match when He saw that Isagi and Rin were on a totally different level than what he was
He felt as if neither one of them were looking at him. They were too busy looking at each other you know trying to compete and at that part of the story
Everyone else around Bajira was on a different level than what he was because he hasn't gone through his awakening. He hasn't been essentially embraced his ego enough to play for himself and It was during that match that he decided he he wasn't gonna wait for Isagi to come rescue him anymore He was he and and he also wasn't just gonna wait for the monster to show of the play
He decided he was gonna essentially become the monster. He was going to Just take the steps he needed to take charge and become the monster who makes things happen and it was during that match and honestly again if you've If you read the manga, you know that that was honestly the nail in the coffin That was the last piece that we needed to make the game go in one direction or the other was Bajira Was for him to awaken and to realize okay
Nothing's gonna happen for me unless I make it happen. So let's make it happen and and it was it was it was beautiful, honestly because he went from being a person who was Essentially scared to be by himself. He was so scared to be alone that he was just He honestly didn't know how to play without Isagi right to his fullest potential and But after this awakening after he decided okay, you know what? He's still my boy. I'm still my boy. I'm still my boy. I'm still my boy
He's still my boy and I'm still gonna play with him. He's still longer than my best friend, but He he's not he's not the end-all be-all if I if I can't have him or we can't play together Whatever. That's not the end for me. This isn't the end of soccer. It's not the end of life. I can still move on and continue to follow my dream of being the best striker, right and Again, it's gonna want to say all this is to say that hey we We are not defined by the people around us
You know, it all starts with you and all starts with you now. I encourage you to get people around you who
Who can encourage you who can push you right? It's gonna find encouragement and pushing are different People can be encouraging and supportive of you But you also need someone some people who are real with you too when they real with you when you're acting out of pocket or when you're going back to the scared mentality again So I'm like to step up say oh, we're not going back there because you you've already gotten past this
We're not gonna go backwards, you know, and I'm here to support you here to uplift you, but we're not we're not gonna do this So we everyone needs that everyone needs somebody like that in their corner to just hey bring this let's come back to reality Let's you know, let's dig in. I'm here with you. I got you and
You may not find them today. You might not find them tomorrow You may you might already have someone like that in your corner You just don't know it yet because you've been too afraid to even take the step because In case you haven't noticed everything's coming back to you taking the first step
And the first step is gonna be the hardest one. It's gonna be the most nerve-wracking one. It's gonna be Probably the hardest thing you're ever gonna do but once you take it every step after it's just gonna get easier because You know wave momentum works once you're already going in a direction is it gets easier to go that direction it gets harder to stop and then to go back and And if you're still not feeling too too encouraged about it
I got get the one scripture for today's episode and it's 2nd Timothy chapter 1 verse 7 and It says for God has not given us a spirit of fear but one of power love and sound judgment so again says right here God doesn't The spirit of fear isn't isn't of God right? It's really of man and it's Essentially the fear of not trusting It's not trusting in him and in the creation that he make I mean we're all made in God's image and
If you're a believer, you know that God doesn't make mistakes, right? And That means you're not a mistake. It means whatever you're going through whatever quirk you may think is you know detrimental to you is not a mistake It's a uniqueness and something he purposely put there for
For you to be honest. They bring to the world whatever it is that you You bring whatever uniqueness that you have because there's only one you there's only there and there would only ever be one you all of us are created uniquely and
God and he loves all of us right? He loves all of us He wants us all to experience the love that he has for us within each other and Honestly, there's no room for there's no room for fear in any of that He didn't even say it's a spirit of power love and sound judgment So we we are powerful people. We are powerful beings And we are powerful people
So we we are powerful people. We are powerful beings and when they say you can do anything you set your mind to that's literally yeah, the mind's a powerful thing and if you just You know just Take a leap of faith On God on yourself And really dare yourself to be to be great to be different to embrace your differences and not be And i'll be so hung up on Other people on what they may think especially strangers
Like if you're you're talking about people on the internet and think about you man people in the internet hate on everything. So like And like 99% of you're never going to meet ever. So Why why would you even care especially when the same 99% are most likely going through the same thing you are or something very similar?
and Honestly, I don't know about you, but I got enough of my own stuff trying to deal with Without worrying about what other people are doing on the internet or to care enough to you know You know cast shame on them or whatever whatever the case may be honestly Just there's not enough time in the day for that and not enough brain power to really even put thought towards that so But yeah, I mean that's today's episode
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Yeah, always remember guys. You are the main character of your story and that story doesn't end until he says so So, all right be blessed