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Everyone loves to talk about letting go, but no one talks about those seasons where letting go would actually be detrimental, seasons where letting go isn't the answer. Holding on for dear life is the answer. Sometimes letting go would also mean self abandonment. Yeah, I'm bringing out the psychological therapy words. I'm just gonna throw them out later anyway and probably
scream the F word. But it's fine. We can always start on our best butting But seriously, everyone that I've been talking to, including myself, hello, is going through something or another. This is not the season to let go. This is the season to lock in, baby little duckies. Okay, listen to me. We are in December. We are in December. The Year of the Snake is almost over. The Year of the Snake, of the shedding, of the letting go, of the saying goodbye, the revolving door, of the burning
away karma. It's almost over. We have a couple of weeks, literally only a couple of weeks, and then we are going into the year of the fire horse momentum. It's a year of one new beginnings. It's a ten year, it's a one year, depending on how you break it down. Either way, it's new beginnings in co creation with the divine, new projects, a clean slate, new energy. Right now, we are at a threshold. We are at a portal. This
is where you hold the hell on. I don't care if you're holding on by the skin of your teeth. You hold on moving into the air of the fire horse. We are being supported with fast energy. You want to make sure that you're giving yourself the best chance at starting again in twenty twenty six. And how are you gonna do that? I'm gonna tell you what's up? Positive bitches, how are you doing today? If you're hearing this episode, then you are meant to be here. So keep listening
on a Bitch's Positive Podcast. Sometimes we are gonna laugh, other towns, Baby, we're gonna cry, but we will always walk away feeling our most empowered positive bitch self that is Babe in true connection with herself himself, human self. I don't care if you think you're an alien, you probably are. I want you here if you want to take back your power. Okay, on this podcast, we unbecome who we are not, so we can fully step into exactly who we came here to be. Now it is
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to the light. You will discover hitting gifts you didn't even know that you were holding on to, and so much more. But without further ado, let's get into today's podcast. First, I need to talk about the distinction between holding on and clinging. Clinging comes from fear your lower self, a disregulated nervous system. If I lose this, I'm going to lose myself. Damn. How many of us have had ego deaths because we create our identity based on our external
circumstance and environment rather than an internal decision. I'll say that again. How many of us have created self concepts, identities that have everything to do with what's going on outside of us and nothing to do with who we actually are. Raise your hand if you're a victim of yourself. Oh oh, awkward, Yes, I am raising my hand. I recently was thinking about when I was twelve years old. I had an ego death. When I was twelve yup
in middle school. I remember being so stressed out because I went to a small Catholic school and there was only so many girls and my friend group. I loved them, but it was high stress. Every day someone was fighting with someone and I could just see the red sea happening in my friend group. I could see how we were really splitting into two separate groups, and I did not like it. You know, me you know I love attachment. You know that about me. I wanted my group to
stay intact, and I saw that it was not. And this really caused me to have an ego death because I started thinking, well, who am I if I'm not part of this friend group? Who am I if I am not involved in this specific person's life? Who am I outside of this friend group? If they played sports, I played sports. I hated sports. I hated basketball. And there I was running up a hill. Literally, I'm not referring to that song up a hill, Nan, no stranger things I think. Anyway, I didn't like any of that.
I didn't like it, but I did it all. I was in sports camp, lacrosse camp. I got so good. I was placed on a lacrosse travel team because I'm a Capricorn probably, but anyway, I would do all these sports because I didn't want to have this ego death of letting go of this friend group. And that was something that stemmed from even earlier than that. Childhood. We learned who to be based on the caregiver. We crave love from the most. That's how we create our identity.
Oh mom wants me to be the good girl. I'm the good girl. Oh my friends want me to be sporty. I'm sporty. But then we become so hyper vigilant of our environment. We become so sensitive to the people and the environments and the circumstance outside of ourselves because that is the only way we know who we are. That is the only way we have any identity. Who are we? Without the friend group, without the city, without the boyfriend,
without the family member. What happens when your physical reality changes and you are attached to that circumstance to give you an identity? That is us clinging. So if you're doing that, perhaps let go. Perhaps let go and you can work one on one with me. I offer something called the self concept tune up, where we literally create an identity from the inside out. If you are clinging to your external environment because it's what is giving you
an identity, you are going to feel stressed out. Why do we become so stressed out when things are starting to change but we're not ready to change with them. It's because that thing has been giving us an identity. And if that thing goes, Oh, no ego death, go death, que ego death at twelve years old, that is so different than holding on, persevering, sticking it out well when
the going gets tough, Yeah, we gotta get tougher. Sometimes I want to talk about how to anchor and focus when you're in a difficult season and you just need to get through it. Holding on isn't clinging. It's not coming from fear. It's not you trying to control, because if this thing leaves, then you have an ego death. Holding on comes from I know this is temporary. I just have to keep going. It comes from regulated presence.
It comes from even if this is hard, I'm still here with me and beyond that, God is with me, because in unknown seasons we still have a known God. Holding on sometimes is the bridge that gets us to our next quantum leap. Holding on is the golden ticket to that highest vibrational timeline. You can get there from here, but it may require holding on. Hard seasons make harder individuals, sometimes in the best way possible, sometimes not so much.
When you go through trauma after trauma after trauma as a child, that will really really disregulate you. We are not meant to go through that. I had my eradology read today where if you want to actually look him up, he was amazing. I posted about him today. His instagram is called Green Health and Wellness. He reads your eyes because eyes are not just the window to the soul,
they're also the window to your body. Quinton, who was doing my eradology, literally showed me the stress rings around my eyes and he says this comes from trauma when you're younger, trauma and heart season after his heart season. When we're younger, it definitely can cause disase in the body, can cause us to become avoidant or overly attached. But as an adult, I have to say, hard seasons make you a harder, more pristine, more clear vessel. My biggest
breakdowns were my breakthroughs, my hardest breakups. We're the thing that catapulted me into a spiritual awakening, into writing the book, into finding myself. Hard seasons can collapse people into flight, freeze, or a piece, but they can also teach you how to lock in. They can also teach you how to get even more focused. Pressure makes diamonds. We know this.
Resistance builds muscle. If you are going through it, yeah, you might have a second where you're fighting, fighting, freezing or appeasing that urge to quit, to ghost, to burn it down or spiritually bypass. That can just be our nervous system being completely burnt out. Okay, so take a breath, sit down, take a break, watch a movie. I just watched the movie I Origins. Highly recommend that it was so good. Not everything that feels unbearable is meant to
just be escaped. It's not. It's not take a break when you need to. But some things are meant to be met slowly. Some things are meant for you to walk through, even if you have to go a little bit slower, even if you have to be at your own pace, even if you have to take rest every other stop, you still have to keep going. I was talking to one of my clients today and she's going through something very difficult, and she's such a beautiful soul and human and I told her, look, you have to
keep going or you can roll over and die. But you can't roll over and die. The world is gonna keep turning with or without us. We can't roll over and die. We can roll over and take a second to breathe. We can roll over and take a second to rest. Some of us are exhausted, some of our nervous systems are caput. Okay, so take a second, take a breath. Everything's fine. But initiations often don't feel magical. Initiations often don't feel good. Initiations often feel like terrible,
terrible shit, shitty mix shitterson. That's what initiation feels like. Heartbreak, nervous system crashing out. I'm gonna lose all of my shit in one second if anything goes wrong, that's an issue. Welcome, Hi, I'm shaking your hand. Welcome to initiation. That is what this is. Initiations do not feel good because you are being initiated into a new version of yourself, new abilities, new talents, new gifts, and yeah, it's gonna take training.
The soul doesn't rush. Your ego is definitely gonna want you. Your ego is gonna want to give up. Your ego is gonna want to just say I'm gonna escape. I want to get I want to get out of this. I don't want to handle this, I don't want to do this. Your ego is gonna say, you know, I should just really walk out of this season. No, no, no, there are things to let go of. And again, we've been doing that all year. We've been doing that all year.
We are letting go of things we think we have to cling to out of our ego, out of fear. We are holding on to our revision. We are holding on to our faith, we are holding on to our desires. And sometimes that means walking through sticky season. Sometimes that means going through something that we really don't want to go through. Sometimes that means being initiated into a situation that feels like shit and wanting to rush through it. But honestly, we have to eliminate the need, the urge
to rush, and we gotta walk. We have to be slow. I always think of Jesus. Jesus doesn't run wildly, he doesn't rush. When you think of Jesus, you think of an ascended master, you think of a yogi. They're slow. Those people walk slow. They're not rushing. Oh my god, I gotta get here. And then they're no. They go slow, They take their time to listen, to feel. Divine timing is gonna invite you, it's gonna ask you, It might
even pressure you. Can you stay present without reassurance? Can you stay in this moment without knowing every single other dot that needs to be connected? Can you stay present? Can you stay here. Can you stay in your body without knowing everything? Or are you going to try to rush this? I mean, WWJD, what would Jesus do? Jesus would not be rushing through the season. There is a book the Elimination of Hurry. Perhaps we need to invite
that into our life right now. Perhaps we need to eliminate the hurry, the running like a chicken without a head, so we can actually hear ourselves and understand the golden nuggets in this initiation season. Faith is not believing things will work out. Faith is staying open and even when you don't know if they will, because on this podcast, we know, if it's not them, it's someone better. If
it's not this, it's something better. If it's not this season, it's because it's gonna be in a better one when better things are aligned for us. There is such a hurry noss around the holiday season. There is so much chaos, and that's exactly what the matrix wants. Don't focus on what's important, your loved ones, your well being, self care. Instead, rush rush R no no. In this season, when we aren't sure how things are gonna work out, we aren't even sure if they're gonna work out. But really we
know they are going to because we're positive. Bitchess, we are eliminating hurry. We are slowing down, but we are not giving up. We are not letting go of our faith. We are not letting go of our vision. We are not letting go of our desires. We might be neutralizing that, we might be opening ourselves up. And what do I mean about that? Que the law of substitution. If you are to tell me, Ceci, I need Brad to be the man I marry. I need it to be Brad.
That is you clinging. That's not you holding on. Be so for real. That is you clinging, not you holding on. Clinging is trying to force our will over thy will. How fun I've tried it. It was terrible. I would never recommend it. It was the worst thing I've ever done. And I'm so happy I don't do it anymore. Now. What I do is not cling. So I let go of three D circumstance, but I hold on to my vision. And I say to myself, I know the type of
man that I want. A man in his masculine, a man who is awake to his own attachment system, a man who knows how to create physical abundance. A man who has a relationship with God, a man that is healthy, a man who has a head on his shoulders. Hello, where are YEA? Where are ye? Anyway? I'm not going to scream up my future husband right now and ask him where he is a million times. I am instead going to get back into this episode here. I am reeling myself back in. Ha ha. I don't get stuck
on a specific person. Brad has to be my husband. I say no, it's either Brad or someone better. I let go of the specific person, but I hold on to my vision. It has to be this because this is what I truly desire. It has to be this feeling of safety, of security. That's what I hold on to. So sometimes we have to neutralize the specifics of the three D and tune back into what is my heart telling me? What is my heart telling me? What is my heart telling me? The law of substitution is always
at place. So if it's not them and you let go, you release, but you hold onto your vision, your idea, your concept, your desire. The universe immediately will send out a replacement. It's like when you pick one grape that's moldy. You're like, hey, oh, you throw it away, But then you go back to the vine and you pick a new one. That is how the law of substitution works. But you have to loosen up your grip enough that you allow in that highest vibrational match to actually come
on into your reality. So many people right now that I'm talking to hell, even myself, we get so obsessed with what we see in the three D. It has to be this building, this house, this position, this partner. We don't leave any room for the divine to do its thing. And when you give up, the first thing you're giving up actually is resistance, and funny enough, that
is when everything falls into place. Why is it that when so many people say, as soon as I stopped obsessing over finding my husband, he walked into my life Because you gave up resistance. You didn't forget you wanted a partner. You didn't act so detached and so avoidant that you forgot you wanted love. No, let your grip loosen. You held on to what you desired. You held on
through that season. You kept moving forward, you kept waking up, you kept going to work, you kept working out, you kept focusing on yourself and your health and your wellness. You held on and you kept moving forward. We have to keep walking, baby, even if you got a crawl, just keep moving forward. I don't care if you cry yourself a whole entire river of tears, and row row, row, row, row your freaking boat to the next season. I don't care what you have to do to get there. But
you must keep going. You must keep going. There have been so many times where I was so tired. I wanted to stop posting. I didn't want to make a podcast. I didn't want to write another sentence in my book. I just wanted to give up on men. There have been so many times where I wanted to quit the waiting, quit my vision, quit on God, quit being the strong one. But no, but no, why would I do that. That is what the devil would want. And the devil mm mmm mmm mmm mmmm. The devil is no friend of mine.
I put the devil in his place, and I said, not today, not today. I didn't hold on because I was confident it was going to work out. I didn't hold on because I had always faith that it was going to work out. I didn't hold on because I knew everything was fine and dandy. I held on because there was something in me that refused to give up on me. I spent way too much of my reality
abandoning myself for other people. I spent way too much of my reality abandoning my own wants and desires and just doing what the crowd wanted me to do, whether it's playing basketball or playing lacrosse, because I created an identity outside of myself instead of deciding who I was and being rooted in my own divinity. I held on because I refused to do what maybe most of the people in my life have done, which is either betray or abandon me, or give up on me, or just
not hear me or see me. I'm not gonna do that to me. This is personal. This is personal. Your life is your very own revolution. Your life is your very own reclamation. You can't give up. You can't give up. You have to hold on. This is not a dead end. You might be in a waiting season, in a reset season, in a season where your body needs rest. You might be under divine pressure. But that's what it is. Divine pressure.
It's the catalyst. It's initiation. You're not behind. Your light is being condensed so you could be laser focused and move through this season. And if you're dealing with a lot of difficult emotions, you probably know what I'm gonna say. Get my Art of Alchemy course. Let that course guide you on how to shift your emotions into your fuel, your pain in your power. I've already been there, I know how to get out what often feels like this
stagnation is an invitation for integration. So learn how to integrate with the Art of Alchemy, learn how to take that pain into power. And if you're still listening, and and if you're still here, you know you are powerful enough.
You know you are meant for more. You know you can't just let go, even if your ego wants to, even if your inner child is freaking out, even if your nervous system is tired, you are still listening because you know, like you know, like you know, you have the power to get through this, and you know, like you know, like you know, you have to keep going and you can't give up on yourself, and you cannot abandon yourself when you need yourself the most. You know
how it feels to be abandoned. You know how it feels to be betrayed. You know how it feels for people to misunderstand you. You cannot give up on you like other people have. You cannot let go of this desire, of this dream like other people just let you go like you're a piece of trash. Okay, they didn't have eyes to see that was evident.
But you do.
You do, and that's why you have to hold on to yourself, to your vision, to your dream. Maybe even hug yourself if you need to. Our own touch lowers, our cortisol Okay, you don't need to figure everything out right now, You don't need to have all the answers, but you have to stay with yourself. You have to stay present. Hold on not to the outcome, not to the outcome, not to the specific person, not to the ex You have to let go of, hold on to
your breath, your body, your becoming. You are blooming. You are blooming. You are blooming. Tis the season of holding on, Tis the season of blooming. Tis the season of waiting. Why don't we just romanticize the waiting period? It is kind of flirty and cute and fun and he he, you know what I mean, If you think about it, when you first start dating someone. That's when it's the most flirty and interesting and fun. Right now, you're in
a flirting phase with your reality. You're not really sure. Ooh, is my reality gonna kiss me today? Ooh? Is my reality gonna throw a plot twist at me today? Ooh? How is my reality going to respond to me today? Is my reality gonna text me first in the morning? I don't know. This is kind of fun and flirty, This is kind of enjoyable. We can do this, We can hold on, we can romanticize this. Look, you may never have this much romantic time with your reality ever again.
One day, you're gonna have so much certainty. You're gonna know your husband, You're gonna know your home, you're gonna know your city, you're gonna know your job, you're gonna know your kids, You're gonna know your this and your va. You may never have this much variety in your life ever again. And we're not gonna call it uncertainty. We're gonna call it variety. You may never have this many different flavors to choose from ever again. Shouldn't we have
fun while we can? What about that? What if we said, Wow, I really don't know what's going to happen today? But how exciting is that? Cause one day I might have to know it all. I might know everything that's going to happen, and that would actually kind of be boring. When I went to Catholic school and I had to wear a uniform every day, yeah I had a lot of certainty, but that uniform was boring. There was no place to get creative or get flirty with my outfits.
I knew what I was gonna wear and that was it. That was it. Now I get to choose, ooh, what do I want to put on my body today? What is calling out to me today? What new style can I put together today? Let's see this variety as a flirting a honeymoon stage with our reality. The fun, the chase, not us chasing our reality or the people in it, but the chase of our reality trying to get to us.
Because energy always manifests first, your three D reality is delayed, so your reality is chasing you, is trying to romance you, is trying to court you. So let it be. In this season. We already got really good at letting go, and maybe we're still having some stragglers that we got to let go of. But this is the season of holding on and again, what are we holding on to?
Our values, our desires, our dream our vision. We're holding on, but we're giving up on the little three D circumstances just so the Divine has enough room to give us exactly what we want. So maybe we say this or something better, this or something better. I don't know what's happening, but I know what's happening for my highest good. I don't really understand this, but I do understand that it's
happening for my highest good. I don't really know what's going on, but I have a known God, and that's what I need. When we give up on all these little stress points, we give up resistance and we get what it is. We truly want, what we truly desire in our heart of our hearts, in our hearts. Now our ceiling is God's floor. So even if we don't know what's best for us, don't worry. The Divine does.
I love you positive bitches, so so much. This is the holiday season of holding on to our desires, our hopes, our dreams. There is going to be a moment in your life when you look around at your reality at your relationship, at your home, at your career, at your family, at your closet, at your skin, at your hair, at your body, and you are going to realize that you are living your vision board, that you are living your vision board. And I just got confirmation with a text
message the divine saying, uh huh, yes, SuRie. It might not be on your exact skin schedule, but it's on divine timing. It might not be in the exact season that you thought, but you're gaining momentum. There are golden nuggets medicine in every season, and the way to get that medicine and not have to repeat the season is to be present. So hold on to yourself, hold on to this moment, hold on to the present. You are
right where you are meant to be. One day at a time, one step at a time, all is well, All will be well. If you want one on one services with me, gm me on Instagram to find out more. Again, a perfect gift for yourself or a loved one is show up as Her. Also the magnetizing mugs, or a course the Art of Alchemy shadow Alchemy, or if you're going through a breakup, the twenty one Day Breakup Globe Challenge. I love you so much, and as always, the sparkle in me honors and adores the sparkle in you.
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