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What's up? Positive bitches? How are we doing today? If you're hearing this episode, then you are meant to be here, So keep listening on that Bitch's Positive Podcast. Sometimes we will laugh. Other times, Baby, we're gonna cry, but we will always walk away feeling our most empowered positive bitch self. That is Babe in true connection with herself or himself. On this podcast, we unbecome who we are not so we can fully step into exactly who we came here
to be. Today, we're gonna talk about how to take the energy of heartache and turn it into your power. Today you're gonna learn how to become a mass alchemist. Whether you're getting bullied out the workplace, at school, going through a breakup, going through a transition phase, and isolation season. I'm going to teach you how to take the energy that has been hurting you and you're going to learn how to use it to help you. Energy, at the
end of the day is just energy. It doesn't matter if it's high vibrational energy like happiness, joy, pleasure, or low vibrational energy like sadness, grief, anger. You can still use energy regardless of its degree, towards your advantage when you remember your God given ability of alchemy. One of my favorite ways to alchemize my energy is to focus on my health instead of focusing on the brads and the chads of the world who I don't feel resonant with.
Maybe I don't like how they're showing up. I will use my focus to focus on eating foods that are healthy for me. I will use my best and my energy to do a workout that's going to help me stay in alignment. A lot of us have chosen a word for twenty twenty five that we want to focus on. Maybe you've chosen the word discipline. Maybe you've chosen the
word focus, Maybe you've chosen the word resilience. I really love choosing a word for every single year and focusing in on that word to help me find a common thread that I want to build upon in each given year. This year, I'm really focusing on my health and more specifically, my mental wealth. Mental wealth is all about investing in healthy habits today, so when you look back in three to six months, you realize how much resilience and strength
that you have built up. Mental wealth focuses on five pillars exogenous compounds, sleep, diet, exercise, and stress management. A huge part of me investing in my mental wealth has been Magic Mind. I used to have these crazy high highs and then low lows from caffeinated drinks that I would use for a workout or to record a podcast, and then I tried Magic Mind. Magic Mind has always given me this perfect boost of energy while still allowing
me to maintain my authentic flow. I really found that using Magic Mind, over the course of a couple weeks, two, a couple months, I really started to see a change in my energy level. I noticed that because I wasn't drinking those other caffeinated drinks, my skin got better, my energy got better, and I overall felt more healthy and therefore more empowered to do what I came to this planet to do, which is to help you, beautiful people, reclaim your power. I really love Magic Mind because of
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That's CII CII lt Jan again, forty five percent off Magic Mind bundles with my link www dot Magicmind dot com slash cclt jan and this link will be in my show notes. Before we get into this episode, I just want to invite you to take the Art of Alchemy course. If you do enjoy this episode, the Art of Alchemy will take you even further with somatic healing, meditation, journal prompts, and so much more so you can transcend
whatever season that you're in. Everyone's been asking me my skincare routine, and I just have to say it's truly speaking over everything that I ingest. This Sunday, if you're watching on YouTube, you'll be able to see I'm releasing my first ever collection of mugs. If you don't know, I frequently post about this on my Instagram. I am constantly speaking over everything I ingest, my food, my water, my coffee, and I went ahead and created mugs for you with source codes at the bottom where you can
encode what you're ingesting. Doctor Emoto showed us that what you speak affects your water down to a molecular level. Your water absorbs your words through the vibration that you speak. When you speak positive words of intention over your coffee, over your liquid, and then you ingest it, this is an opportunity to manifest on levels you have not done before.
I created the first collection of mugs all around Angel numbers one, one one through nine ninety nine, and each mug is designated to help you encode a different energy into your reality. There's one for if you're going through change or rebirth, one if you want to manifest or get magnetic energy. I'm going to be putting the link in my show notes so you can get early access
to these mugs. Only my podcast listeners are getting early access, and if you're watching on YouTube, you can see or you can just click the link in the show notes to gain access to these mugs. I want to remind you that you have the innate ability to olcimize your emotions. Every single human on this planet has the option to use their lower vibrational emotions, such as sadness and grief to cry into a pillow, lash out at someone else, or channel this emotion energy emotion as fuel to create
the side, hustle, the business, the TikTok. Your emotions, regardless of what they are, at the end of the day, they are just energy. Some of our emotions feel good and some of our emotions feel bad, but that does not actually matter at the end of the day. It's all energy, and it's up to you how you want to use that energy. A lot of people will try to disconnect from the three D circumstance that's causing them heartache, but I actually think this does more harm than good.
There have been so many experiences in my life that has caused me heartache, and instead of me lashing out back at that other person, because I understand the law of karma, what you put out is what you're gonna get back, I use that sadness to create a course, to create the book, to create a TikTok. I understood that this energy is so sacred. It might not feel the best, but it's still sacred and can be used
however I want to use it. I believe that our soul signs up to experience certain people, certain experiences, certain circumstances, so that we can use the negative feelings from the circumstance as fuel as momentum. Just think about it. Maybe those girls bullying you at school is going to create so much frustration and so much sadness in you that you were gonna work even harder to get into a
better college, to get out of this freaking town. Maybe your coworkers are causing you so much frustration, so much sadness, that you take all of that momentum and instead of cursing them out, you use that energy to work so hard that you get moved up in your company and no longer are their coworker, but now you're their boss. Maybe that breakup costs so much heartache within you that you rediscover who you are. You date yourself again, You
find out what your hobbies are. These circumstances that you are currently deeming negative. What if I told you they are actually your initiation. What if I told you your soul actually created this exact circumstance to cause so much grief within you that you would have no other choice but to reclaim your power. What if I told you that you from a higher perspective. Wanted this thing to unfold in your life so you could figure out who
you are and reclaim your power. Use that energy to create momentum to get to where it is you actually want to be. Now it's up to you how you want to use your energy. You don't have to alchemize it. You don't have to use it to your advantage. Go ahead, curse someone out if you so choose. However, you're not going to get the results that you want. You can use your energy to try to hurt that person back, but what is that actually going to do for you?
Is that going to move you up in your company? No? Is that going to allow you to create the side hustle? No, Because you are distracted. And what is a distraction? It takes you off your track. It removes traction. If you want to attract your dream life, your desired timeline, the distraction of these mere mortals who are poking at you is only going to take you off track and dilute your attracting abilities to get what it is that you
truly want. Alchemists understand the nature of energy, emotions, energy and motion. The nature of an emotion is to movement, to move out of your body. Your energy wants to move out of you. So if you have a negative emotion, feel it to heal it. Feeling a negative emotion is still a positive experience because you're releasing it. That's fine. If you're having a tough day, cry it out. However, there are going to be moments in your life when
you realize I've cried about this person enough. I personally don't believe in shedding tears on people who don't shed tears on me. If I'm having a moment, I will cry, I'll let it out, But after that, I'll say, you know what, instead of me crying about this person, how can I use my energy to my advantage and alchemize right? Because I don't get mad. I get everything I want want It's very simple. But how do I do that
I channel my energy? I think we're missing out on a huge key element here, which is our mind emotion connection. When you think of something, you have a biochemical reaction in your body. That's your emotion. If I think about all of the things that are going wrong in my life, I'm not going to feel good, am I No? If I think about all the things I believe are going right in my life. Well, that's going to have a
way different emotional reaction in my body. You need to pay special attention to how you're framing things in your reality. About six months ago, I by accident and fell in love with an alcoholic within one week. To be fair, I did not know he was an alcoholic because it happened in one week. And I just love human beings so much, it's easy for me to fall in love with ellem and I started to see them Monday, and then I saw them Tuesday, and then I saw them Thursday,
and then I saw them. I'm like, WHOA, You're drinking every single day. That's not normal Anyway. This was really a painful experience for me because I loved who this person was and also who they could be. But we have to be so careful that we don't look at potentials of who someone can be. We look at who they are currently showing up as. And I was a little bit in La la land, and I totally fell
for this person. I was out on I think it was that Saturday night, and I saw him walk another girl into his car, and then I sent a voice message saying, actually screaming, so fun to see you take another woman into your car. Thanks so much. Loved the show. Can't wait to watch the reruns of that experience anyway. Then I had to listen to Bible Versus to go to sleep because I was hysterically crying. But with all that being said, I felt so much pain from that,
so much grief from that. And maybe you're listening to this and you're like, Ceci, what is wrong with you? You know what? Actually, what is right with me is I allow myself to feel. I trust myself enough that if I fall in love with someone, if I have an amazing experience with someone where I have so much emotion for them but it doesn't work out, I trust myself enough to heal my way out of that. I
trust myself enough to stand back up. I'm not the person who is going to when I'm getting to know someone constantly be thinking I have to be the black cat or the chill girl or the cool girl. That's not me. I am someone who's gonna say what's on my mind. I love art, I love poetry, I love philosophy, I love spirituality. I have so much to say. That's who I am. I'm gonna talk a lot Okay, i have a degree in yapping, and I'm going to allow
myself to feel. Because I I allow myself to feel so deeply one way, now we have the law polarity coming in. I also run the risk of feeling very deeply hurt the other way. The law polarity states that as far as the pendulum swings in one direction, it's always gonna swing in the equal opposite direction. If I allow myself to fall deeply in love with someone or deeply in like with someone, I also run the risk
of being greatly hurt by them. But because I'm an alchemist, I'm not gonna keep telling myself I have to be the cool girl. I have to not care, I have to master detachment. I'm going to tell myself it's okay for me to feel, because if it doesn't go how I wanted to go, it's still working out for me. I'm gonna use that negative emotion and you know what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna create a course on shadow alchemy,
on shadow work. I'm gonna create a TikTok. And you know what, through that experience, I ended up making money, I ended up making a course. I ended up creating videos. I got a ton of millions of views. Actually, do you see how you can use your pain? I took what I experience from that circumstance and I used it to teach other people. I used it to open myself up, to feel, to release, and to create abundance in the space that that person left me with. If someone hurts you,
don't hurt yourself. Ask yourself, how can I use this situation to empower me to create healing where they created hurt? How can I use this to create abundance? How can I use this to gain more insight into who I am and what I came here to do. I told myself, no man is my friend, No man is my enemy. Every single man is my teacher. I'm not gonna get stuck in the trap of karma. I'm not going to try to do negativity onto them.
No.
In fact, you know what I did. I prayed for them, and I even told them I was going to pray for them, but then they got really mad and hung up on me. But anyway, I still did pray for them, and I still send them love to this day because I raise my perspective from my human eyes to my higher selves eyes. And I really see this as initiation for me to see my power as initiation for me to create more content so that needs to be on this planet to help other people heal. And I don't
see him as an evil entity. I see him as a child that did not get the love and attention that he needed. And that actually hurts my heart. I'm not gonna hurt people who are already hurting. I'm gonna take my energy. I'm gonna recall it back into my vessel. I'm going to take the hurt and I'm going to use it because my emotions are not monsters, they are messengers. They're telling me this is not a good connection for you.
This is not making you feel good. You have a stomach ache and anxiety, and now look at what happened in your reality. Take your energy back and use it to create beauty to help yourself and others. I tell myself, this was a waste of time. I didn't tell myself I have to get him back. I didn't tell myself that everything is falling apart. I actually told myself, no, this is exactly what needed to happen in order for me to gain momentum, to get to my next level.
This is the meaning that I'm creating. Because at the end of the day, you can either create meaning that's going to empower you or meaning that's going to disempower you. I choose empowerment because I don't want to feel like I want to go and say in every single day, it's up to me how I'm going to create meaning. There is no secret elf that lives under your bed that's going to tell you what things mean. It's really
up to you to create meaning in your life. I choose to create meaning that's going to empower me and going to push me forward, not meaning that's going to disempower me and make me feel like I'm stuck in a cage. So I told myself, well, I'm always at the right place at the right time. This is exactly what I needed for initiation. And if you were going through a heartbreak, it's not because you are being punished. It's because on some level, your all wanted this to
be initiated into the next level of your existence. You chose this. On some level, you purposely, maybe subconsciously, but purposely manifested this to get to the next level of your life. You're looking at this and saying, oh my god, I'm never gonna get anyone better. I'm gonna die alone. No, bitch, No, you're creating meaning that's actually just a lie. You're lying to yourself, and you're lying to yourself in a way
that's hurting you. You need to look at this from your soul's eyes and say, oh my god, there's gonna be something in your body that starts to unravel where you start to realize that the words I'm speaking is your truth too. You chose this on some unconscious soul level so that you could be initiated, so that you can evolve into the next level of your life. You want these big desires, these big dreams, Well, guess what, You're not going to get them if you keep doing
the same thing and expecting different results. That's literally the definition of being crazy. And I know if you're listening to this, you are not crazy. You are courageous. Though you do have big dreams. You want a lot, okay, and you can have a lot, but the only way to have more is to say, I'm not going to receive a less any more. I want bigger dreams to
now manifest. Okay, If you want bigger dreams. You have to make big room for those dreams to come in, and that means there might be some heartache, there might be some heartbreak, but that break is to let the light in. That break is to allow your next path of initiation to unfold. You have to lean into this season and surrender to it. I want to read you one small segment from my book Show Up as Her Pain can be the portal if you let it. Pain
can lead us back home to ourselves. When I was dealing with my anxious attachment map in relation to my boyfriend, feeling abandoned all the time, this caused me great pain. If this pain had never been triggered, I would not have known there was something that needed to be healed within me. Our pain can be transmitted into our power when we take responsibility for our emotions and get curious about the root of them. This pain showed me that wounds were exposed so that I could nourish them with
love instead of acting out for my attachment map. I have a chance to find myself and go back home to my home. Frequency. If there's something being triggered within you right now, it's inviting you to heal that part of yourself. It's inviting you to get not furious, but curious about what you came here to heal, to learn, and to expand. On page ninety five, I say, don't be afraid of the dark. We cannot outrun our darkness, and we're not meant to. Darkness is where growth begins.
Seeds germinate in dark dirt, Babies develop in the darkness of the womb, and at the end of every dark tunnel one can find the light. Instead of running from our emotions that feel dark, I invite you to dance with this darkness. In facing these darker emotions, you can bring them to the light and transmute the dark energy into empowering light energy. I want you to understand that your darker emotions, or lower vibrational emotions, you are meant
to feel them. You came to planet Earth, where there's duality and polarity to feel these darker emotions, to know what it was to be a human. You're meant to feel a whole entire range of these emotions. To be happy and joyful all the time is completely missing out on the human experience. And my darker emotions have shed so much light on me and have shown me what I needed to heal and have taught me things that my light emotions could never teach me. They are as sacred.
They are also medicine. They are also a gift. How do you alchemize your energy? It really comes down to intentionality. How do we do anything we first intend to do it. How do I move my arm? I intend to move my arm. When we are going to alchemize, we have to create the intention to do so. You can either just release your emotions. That is is a lower level of alchemy, or you can use your emotions to create, and that's a higher level of alchemy. A lower level
of alchemy, which is releasing. That could be the crying, the screaming, the shaking out your body. And that's great. On some given days, I just need a quick cry and then I'll be on my way to finish whatever else I got going on that day. Other days, my sadness will almost feel energizing to me, and that is the day I want to channel. So what do I do? I say, Okay, I acknowledge a feeling I'm feeling within me. I feel some sadness. What do I want to do
with it? I'm going to intend to create with it. So I'm intending and then I'm going to take action. I'm going to create the social media posts. I'm going to learn that language. I'm going to cook a meal, I'm going to paint something or write something. I'm going to intend to use the momentum to create what I want on this planet. You want to ask yourself, what is it that I want to create, either in my home for my health on this planet creatively, what do
I want to bring into this realm? And then when you're feeling upset, you're going to intend to do that exact thing. You have to marry or masculine energy of your mind, intending to get something done with your feminine energy of channeling, of learning how to take a lower vibrational energy and saying Okay, I'm going to use it to my advantage, and then literally you just do it. This is so much easier than you think it is.
It's acknowledging that there's a negative emotion, it's intending to use it rather than just release it through crying, and then it's using it in a way that's going to build what it is you want to create, whether it's a TikTok, or an Instagram or a podcast, or a dance or a song, or you're even just your house, your interior design. It's using that momentum. This is on page one oh five of my book Show Up. As Her I say, triggers aren't tragic. They offer new life.
Every time we are triggered. It's an invitation to reparent our inner child with love. It's a chance to apply spiritual and emotional neosporin to that wound that has been open for so long. It's an opportunity for you to validate yourself and your emotions. Facing triggers requires a mindset shift. Instead of seeing moments of being triggered as negative and wanting to run from them, see it as an opportunity
to transmute negative energy. If we have held onto negative energy for a long time, it's going to feel not so good coming up. This is why we try to avoid the low vibe emotions. It may lead us to cry or feel anxious, but that's a side effect of releasing. It's like milk. If we keep milk for too long, it will spoil. If we try to keep our emotions in for too long, they will spoil too. The longer we keep milk in the fridge, the smellier, the clumpier,
and the grosser it's going to get. The more we try to push down our emotions, especially lower vibe emotions, the smellier, clumpier, and more painful it will be when it's being released. Again, check in with yourself, what is it that your body needs? Do you need a good cry or do you want to create something today? It's really up to you how you want to use and channel your energy. But this is an innate ability you have. This is not something you even have to necessarily learn
to do. It's something you have to remember you already have within you. You have the ability to use your energy however you want, because it's your energy. So you can curse someone out if you want to use your energy that way, or you can cry it out, or you can use it to create a course, a book or whatever. But how you use your energy, it's down to your intention. That's what it is. Acknowledge it's there,
and then how do you want to use it? And reminder, you can't use your energy if you're trying to disassociate from everyone and their father. On every given day, you have to acknowledge that your emotions are energy, and you have to gain a level of trust with yourself. You have to start telling yourself it's okay if I fall in love with someone, It's okay, if I have feelings, It's okay if I get hurt. Because I'm also going to be the person who stands back up and I'm
gonna heal myself to my next evolution. I'm gonna heal myself to the next version of myself. I'm gonna heal myself to the next level. How are we going to alchemize this heartache? First, we're going to see it as what it truly is, which is initiation into the next level of your reality. We're going to see it for what it really is, which is room for your next timeline to come on in. You have to see this as you graduating to the next level. You're not losing anything.
You're releasing what has never been yours so you can gain what is divinely under your right. You're not under man's law. You're under divine grace. And divine grace wants you to have more because it can hear your heart of desiring more. When a negative emotion comes up, We're not going to run from it. We're not going to try to detach from it. We're not going to try to disassociate from it. We're going to see it for what it is, which is momentum to create, and then
you're going to intend to use it. If on a given day you feel like crying, cry it out, but if you feel like you know, maybe let me just try to instead of crying for three hours, let me try to use it to do something. Let me use this sadness and let me put my mind towards that workout or starting that account, or writing that book, or creating that song or whatever it is. There's a whole entire list of what you can do. You can learn something new, you can sign up for a new class.
I'm gonna let your soul lead you down the path that you're meant to experience. But it comes down to you intending to use this energy instead of allowing the energy to use you. You can only really feel an emotion for up to forty five minutes. After forty five minutes, you're not feeling that initial emotion anymore. You're actually retriggering yourself through thinking about your past over and over and over again. When you think about your past negatively again,
you then trigger a new negative emotion. So really key into your mind and what you're thinking about and what you're focusing on. Your focus will determine your feel If you're focusing on the heartbreak and what you think you lost, first of all, again you're lying to yourself, and secondly, you're not helping yourself create positive biochemical reactions in your body. Focus on what you can grow. We cannot water dead flowers, but we can water our dreams. We can water our desires.
We can water what we intend to create. So refocus on that instead and surrender to what's wanting to leave your reality. Reminder, you can try to beg someone to stay in your life. You can beg them to love you. I've tried to do what. It doesn't work. I would not recommend doing that for anyone who's listening. He he, It's not a fun time and it also completely destroys your sense of self. It's pointless. If God wants to remove someone or something from your life, it's going. There's
nothing can do about it. It's going. But do not worry, because God does not remove without replacing it with something better. It might not be in that exact moment or that exact season, but it will be replaced, and will be replaced with something so grandiose, so much more in alignment, something that's going to give you so much fulfillment, and you're going to be looking at what you get and you're going to be so thankful you didn't settle for
what you had. Change can be uncomfortable, Initiation can be weird. But nothing is as scary as staying the same. Nothing is as uncomfortable as not allowing yourself to grow. We as human beings, we on many levels, actually do like change because we don't want to live the same life every single day. We would simply get bored. So we want to appreciate the change that's trying to infiltrate into
our life. Instead of getting nervous, we want to get excited and ask ourselves, what can I create in this space? What is the universe inviting me to do with my life? Wow? This must mean that I'm on the brink of something huge, because you simply are. I'm not claiming for all of this heartache to be easy, but I will tell you you're stronger than you think. And if you're feeling this heartache. On some level, your soul wanted this to expand into
the next evolution, so lean into it. Intend to use this energy, get up, refocus, restart as many times as you need to. If there's a day you want to sit and cry, sit and cry, but on the next day, you're going to intend to use that energy differently. No begging anyone to love you, release them with grace, next them,
and bless them. If you want more guidance on alchemy and you're ready to dive in, you can take my course The Art of Alchemy, and this will teach you through a somatic healing session, through meditations, journal prompts, and so much more, how to take these lower vibrational energies and really anchor them into your light. I hope you enjoyed this episode. I hope it shed light on something you were wanting to learn about. As always, the sparkle
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