Andenogy s cancer, I'm so high, ecstasy sag cancel coma it's not sorry, andenogy, what's up? Positive bitches, how are we doing today? If you're hearing this episode, then you are meant to be here. So keep listening on My Bitch's Positive Podcast. Sometimes we will laugh, other times a baby girl, We're gonna cry, but we will always walk away feeling our most empowered positive bitch self. That is Babe in true connection with herself. On this podcast, we unbecome who we are not so we can fully
step into exactly who we came here to be. Today, we're really diving into post eclipse confusion. I know everyone and their mother is like post eclipse clarity. Oh my, oh my, oh my, it's so great. Well, a lot of us aren't feeling clarity, but actually more confusion. And why would this be. Well, the eclipse comes in and shifts things energetically out there. The moon is shifting, the planets are shifting, and then, of course, as above so below, we feel shifts within our
own bodies to celestial bodies are shifting. We're shifting. We're all one and the same when it comes to the law of one, So a lot of us have felt these shifts happening, and now we're left with all this new energy and no roadmap. We don't know how to handle it. We don't know what to do with it. We're not sure how to take the next step forward. But that, of course, is why we have that which
is positive on deck. What we're talking about today is the confusion, the possible sadness, the scaredness of not knowing really how to move forward in this post eclipse confusion, because that hit hard. I recently posted on my Instagram, are you healed or are you just trying not to think about it? And I had such a strong response, and I knew that we needed to do an episode about our feelings, especially being lost, confused, all these
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dms that everyone is in their fields right now. Feel your emotions. I was talking to one of my clients today and they're telling me that they have this fear around feeling these lower vibrational emotions like grief, sadness. But we have to remember that feeling a negative emotion is still a positive experience because you're releasing those emotions you're feeling to heal, and you're allowing yourself to move forward. My theme for this eclipse is we came, We cried, We conquered.
I was feeling the rebirthing energy of this eclipse prior to when it hit, and then afterwards, I have been crying so much and it feels so good because I'm allowing myself to do what I came here to do, which was feel a range of human emotions our soul. When we're in another realm before we come to Earth, things are just perfect. We come to Earth as a school to feel, to heal, to learn, to develop, to grow, to experience. Allow yourself to feel all of the human emotions.
Okay, we came, we cried, and we conquered, because when you allow yourself to feel, you allow yourself to heal. I want you to keep that in mind now. What I posted on my Instagram story was are you healed or just trying not to think about it? By the way, if you're not yet following me on Instagram at vibein with CC link will be in the show notes. Be sure to follow me there because a lot
of what we talk about here is actually from my Instagram. You guys will ask me questions and then we talk about it in length on the podcast. When we go through changes, it can oftentimes make us feel lost, depleted, confused. When we feel like we need to make a change, we can oftentimes also feel lost, depleted, confused. When we aren't sure which change to make, we can feel lost, depleted, confused. Change is really an interesting thing, especially when we weren't expecting the change, and a
lot of us right now are going through changes we didn't foresee. When we, for exampleople find out that our boyfriend, who we think is this great man, we love this man, he's the best, we find out, oh, he's been talking to other girls. He cheated on me. Oh
okay. We are now faced with the fact that not only is the reality of the person we thought we knew false, not only is the reality of this relationship false, but also the reality of our senses, the reality of ourself in relation to this person, all suddenly no longer is the reality we knew. When we go through changes and they happen all of the sudden, our whole entire life feels like it's falling apart. And why is that?
It's because we've been believing a story of reality for days, weeks, months, years, and suddenly the story poofs out of existence and we're faced with a completely different reality we did not even know existed. Whether you're spiritually awakening and becoming understanding of the matrix we live in, or you're going through a
breakup. The reason these changes are so confusing difficult is because we are literally shifting from what we thought reality was to a completely different version of it to a completely different version of it. And then what starts to happen. We start asking ourselves, did I miss the red flags? Am I delusional? Am I the victim? Or am I just unlovable? Am I the victim? Or am I unable to see red flags that are right in front of
my face? We are literally faced with not only not being able to trust that person, but not being able to trust ourselves, our own feelings, our own interpretations. Maybe we're not even able to interpret our intuition correctly. The reality we trusted and loved and knew suddenly no longer exists, and we're supposed to just know how to navigate this new reality. Of course not, of course not, but it feels like, kind of you do have to
do that, because what's the alternative? Well, there is none, There is none. We have to move forward. Things are going to change, and even when we feel shell shocked, the world will keep whirling and twirling without us. What happens is when we're going through these sort of changes that oftentimes eclipse ring, it's not that we're stuck, but we do feel like we're in total shock. When we go through something, the nervous system can react in a couple of different ways. First of all, we can fight.
Secondly, we can fight, we can leave, we can get out, we can freeze, or we can appease. Most of the time, when we're going through these changes and we don't know how to navigate this new reality, we freeze because we're so overwhelmed with new information. We're overwhelmed and confused if we can even trust ourselves and other people. We don't know what to look at, what to look to. We don't think we can look to ourselves, so it's confusing on how to process and how to move forward.
I remember talking to one of my clients and she kept telling me that she was stuck, and I knew immediately, no, baby girl, you're not stuck. You're in shock. You're in shock because the reality that you were literally experiencing yesterday suddenly no longer exists. It poofed, it's gone, and today your faced with a completely different reality and you don't have the roadmap that you had from yesterday. Even if you did have that roadmap, it
doesn't apply because this is a new path. When we're we're having this eclipse in this new moon, and we're going through a mercury retrograde, there simply are a lot of changes that are happening. And a lot of these changes, why are they difficult? Well, we don't want to accept the new reality. We want to hold onto the old reality. We want to go back to the reality that we thought we knew. We want to go back to what life was. We want to go back to using the Saide road
map that we've been using. Why because it's familiar, it's easier in the moment, maybe, But suddenly that's no longer an option. But I want you to think about what if it was? What if you could go back to that reality. Oh my god, I'm gonna cry today. I just know, I just just knew it. I just knew it. Bear with me, because uh, I'm also a human experiencing many things. Even if we could go back to that reality that we knew. Would we even want to? Would we even want to? Would we want to go back to
that relationship that just wasn't actually really fulfilling us when we look back. Would we want to go back to that relationship where that person didn't respect any of our boundaries? Would we want to go back to that town where we had a bunch of these friends but we didn't feel any of those connections were actually genuine. Would we want to go back to the job that we hated every single day, but yeah, it gave us some income, maybe more than
we're making right now. If you had the choice to go back to what God is removing from your life, would you even want to? Really and be real with yourself and don't just romanticize it because it's no longer here, Really be real with yourself if you went back, would you want it? And when I think about the things I've left and maybe the things I'm leaving, there's a part of us that doesn't want to let go of it. But there's also another part of us that knows this really just isn't fulfilling me
anymore, It's not making me happy anymore. I'm changing, and there's things that have to either change with me or they have to go. We have to honor and mourn the death of whatever life we thought we were gonna have, because a lot of us aren't having that life anymore. Especially as women. You have to understand how our brain operates. Men process information in localized areas, so one area at a time, and it makes it actually easier
to compartmentalize information so they might be better at distracting themselves. For example. However, women process information on both the right and left hemisphere simultaneously in their brain. This makes it easier for us to multitask. It also makes it easier for us to see our present moment are past and build a whole entire future that's not yet here. A lot of us, when we get that new job or get into that relationship, we're not just living in the present
moment. We are building up how our life is gonna look with this new addition in our life. We're building up. Oh yeah, me and this person, we're gonna get this house together, have this family together, We're gonna live in this place together. Or maybe it's a career. I'm gonna do this and then I'm gonna move up here, then I'm gonna do that. And when that idea that we originally had is pulled out from beneath us, the rug is pulled out from beneath us, We're not only mourning the
life we had yesterday. We're also mourning the life we thought we were gonna have. And that's a lot. That's a lot to handle. We're not meant to process so much information at once. That is literally me why, okay, let me take a second here. You know, the funny thing is, I don't know why I'm exactly crying, but it's just it's happening. So we're gonna let it out. And if you are crying too, you should absolutely like honor that. Oh my gosh. We have something called
our reticular activity. I'm sorry. Part of me thinks this is kind of funny because I'm like trying to talk about the brain but also massively crying or wanting to massively cry. I guess you can say, oh, okay, we have something in our brain called a reticular activating system, and this literally operates like a filter when we go out to the world. There's way too much information for us to try to process so our reticular activating system will filter
in the outside world based on our own beliefs. So if I believe that all men are trash and I go to a bar, there can be ten men there, only two of them are actually trash. But because I believe that, I'm going to be drawn towards the person that's going to reaffirm what
I already believe about men and this reality. So when we're going through change and we're trying to process what was, what we thought is, and the future we thought we were going to have, and now all that is ripped away from us, it's a lot for the brain to try to process. It's a lot for us to energetically and emotionally process as well. It's a whole lot, and we're not meant to process everything at once. That's why when you think about your past and you think about things you regret, you
get depressed. But when you think about your future, you get anxious because you're trying to plug into a future or a reality that's not yet here. When do we feel the most grounded When we're plugged into the present moment. We're looking at what's in front of us, listening to what's in front of us. We're tasting, touching, smelling, feeling what's in front of us. That's when we feel the most grounded because that's where we're meant to be
in the now. We're not meant to be in the yesterday or the tomorrow. And I know a lot of us are feeling changes and going through changes, and it can be confusing, frightening, depleting, all of these things. But if we could even go back, would we actually want to? And if we're feeling really anxious, it's because we're trying to process too much. We're trying to look too far into the future. Just look at your today. Focus on your for now, not your forever. Your for now,
not your forever. Because when you can focus on your for now, it makes life digestible again. It makes it easier to move forward. It's too much to ask ourselves what are we going to do tomorrow? On the next day and the next day, the next day? No, no, no, wake up? Say what am I doing today? And focus on that? And if that's too much, break it up into smaller, more digestible pieces. What am I doing in the next hour? Okay, what am I doing at three pm? What am I doing at six pm.
Break it up so you can digest, be present, focus and keep moving forward. Keep moving forward. All of us have within us this inner child that's feeling and experiencing a lot, but we also have this inner wise adult. Talk to yourself as your inner wise adult, rather than just listening to your inner child scream because she's going to be screaming. But you know what, there are many parts of you that you can use to respond to that
screaming instead of just react. I've literally been telling myself it's okay. There are new things coming through. Maybe we didn't expect some of these things. Maybe these things are shocking, maybe they're not. But it's opening us up to something new. It's moving us forward to something new. We're being invited to something new, and honestly, most of our desires lies in that newness. If your comfort was able to give you what you truly want, well
you would already have it. The newness holds your true desires and is inviting you to go there. Someone asked on my Instagram, how do we grieve our fantasies? And here's the thing. We have to acknowledge them, but I also think we should take it as a lesson that next time we get into something, we're not going to romanticize the situation. We're not going to try to drag it into our future. We're just going to experience it in
the now. Because our fantasies are our responsibility. And there's a difference between being goal oriented knowing what we want versus filling in someone else's silences with our fantasies, versus trying to change someone into someone they're not. Those are different than having a vision board, you know what I mean. So having a positive outlook and having goals and values and ideas of what you want to bring into this reality is one thing. Forcing that onto another person or situation is
another. How do we grieve our fantasies? Have a funeral for them? I'm not kidding. You Write a letter to whoever you need to write a letter to. Maybe you need to write a letter to yourself. This isn't how it's going right now, but something better is going to come. Write a letter to your ex, to your past employer, whatever you need to do. Write it all down, don't reread it, because then you're reinviting the energy back into your body. Write it all down, burn it,
or rip it and let it go. Honor that this is not going to be something that's coming with you. Honor that there's actually something better, There's actually something better. How do we grieve fantasies? We acknowledge them, We allow them to take up the time and the space through our many funeral work going to have for them, and then we're gonna realize that actually there must
be something better. I have truly adopted the belief. And I just made a video about this, but I have adopted the belief that God does not say no. Sometimes my dog wants a piece of chocolate or something that's bad for him, and I don't give my dog chocolate because I know better than my dog. I'll give my dog a different treat that's better for my dog. And this is how God, I truly believe, operates with us.
When God knows that there's a better option, that right now isn't the right time, or it's not actually gonna make us happy, I believe that God will redirect us, reroute us. It's not a no, it's I have something better. I have something that's actually going to give you the feeling you think you want. Because the thing is, we are making assumptions on how things are gonna make us feel. We think, when I get that car,
that house, that spouse, it's gonna make me happy. But then sometimes we get those things and we're wrong, Like we're just straight up wrong. So allow there to be leeway in your plans of how you want your life to unfold. Learn to surrender more, because what if there's actually something better and it might not be in your eyesight, It might not be on your radar, but that doesn't mean it's not on God's radar. It just means you don't see it coming or you didn't think of it yourself. But
our ceiling, we know, is God's floor. Okay, So how do we grieve what we thought was and what we thought we were going to have? We can write it all out on a piece of paper, have a funeral. You can wear all black, let it go, rip it up, burn it, and then realize that if it's not this, it must be something better. And remember what I said about the ris a reticular activating
system. If you believe that what happens, your brain will filter in things that are better, and that is how we manifest, you will get what it is you want or something better, because God does not say no. I really believe that sometimes we have to let things fall apart to allow them to fall together again, but this time in the right place. Now there's a story. It's a child story, but it's called There's No Such Thing as a Dragon by Jack Kent, and I read it when I was reading
Twelve Rules of Life or for Life. So I wanted to share this story with you today because I feel like it resonates and it's related. So this is how the story goes. It's about a small boy, Billy Bixby, who spies a dragon sitting on his bed one morning. It's about the size of a house cat and friendly. He tells his mother about it, and she tells him that there's no such thing as a dragon. Starts to grow four four four on my clock, by the way. It eats all of
Billy's pancakes, and soon it fills the whole house. Mom tries to vacuum, but she has to go in and out of the house through the windows because of the dragon everywhere. It takes her forever. Then the dragon runs off with the house. Billy's dad comes home and there's just an empty space where he used to live. The mailman tells him where the house went, so the dad chases after it, climbs up the dragon's head and neck,
now sprawling out into the street, and rejoins his wife and son. The mom insists that the dragon still does not exist, but Billy, who's pretty much had it by now, insists, there's a dragon, mom, and instantly it starts to shrink. Soon it's cat sized once again, and everyone agrees that one the dragon exists, and two the dragon is much more preferable to be a cat size. Mom looks with her eyes wide open, and she asks why did this dragon have to get so big, and Billy quietly
suggests maybe it just wanted to be noticed. Gosh, what if things will become easier if we just notice acknowledge that these things are shifting. They might be hurtful, it might be painful, but they're shifting. So this new reality, the manifestations we've been trying to achieve, can be noticed. What we want can't be realized if we're trying to hold onto all the old things. What we want can't be realized and welcomed in if we're not letting anything
from our past go. What if this is more painful and more confusing, and taking longer and becoming harder and harder and harder because you just won't acknowledge and notice the new life that's trying to come into your reality. What if things are feeling more difficult and your past feels like it's getting heavier and heavier and heavier because you just won't look at the new life that's trying to emerge. It doesn't get easier when we're in denial. It makes things so much
harder because being in denial doesn't mean you're healing. It doesn't mean things are shifting. It means you're pushing down the truth. Another question I got was, how do you know you're healing? Well, let me tell you this.
You know you're not healing when you have to go out every single weekend and binge drink, when you have to binge eat every single night, when you have to have these addictive patterns in your life in order to survive, You know you're not healing when you're so afraid to just sit and be with your emotions. You know you're not healing when you refuse to look at the
writing on the wall. You know you're not healing. When people, places, and opportunities are trying to leave your life and you won't let them, that's when you're not healing. Sometimes it's more helpful to know what something doesn't look like so we can further fine tune what it does look like. How do you know your healing? Some days you're going to be an emotional wreck. You will because remember, feeling a negative emotion is still a positive experience
because you're releasing it. How do you know your healing? Every day might look a little bit different. How do you know your healing? When you're faced with your triggers, they don't hit as hard and as deep. How do you know your healing? You're able to look at your day and you don't have to break it up into such small pieces. You're able to just say, I'm going to have a good day. How do you know your healing? Sometimes you don't know, You don't know, but you know you're
moving forward. You know you're taking new actions, having new thoughts and new emotions. You know you're trying. I think that your inner being knows when she's on the right track. I also think she knows when she's not on the right track. And then she starts to really kick up some negative emotions. I don't want us to get stuck into this cycle of I've never healed enough, I've never healed enough, I've never healed enough. No, we are meant to live life and have fun too, So it doesn't mean when
we're healing that we only have to heal. No, live your life, have fun, do new things, learn new activities, but also put in the work, to journal, to meditate, to reflect. We can do both. Someone asked, did I get good at just distracting myself? And I do? Want to make a point about distractions. There are good distractions and then there's not good distractions. Good distractions are healthy behaviors that on in
your horizons. Good distractions are like yoga, walking, making lemon water, cooking a good meal, reading, writing, listening to a ted talk, learning something new. Because when you do those things, you put yourself out there, You experiment with the universe, you meet new people, and you might end up finding purpose in this pain that originally led you to this new outlet. So good distractions lead you somewhere. Bad distractions are binging, drinking,
partying every every single weekend, where you're never looking at yourself. You're never reflecting, and bad distractions stagnant you. They cause us to drift with the devil, as we say on this podcast, and they don't move you forward. A healthy distraction, it's okay that it's distracting you from your pain if it's leading you into something else, something new, that's healthy for you. A bad distraction keeps you stagnant and in denial. If you're really struggling
with your emotions, call on your spirit team, call on God. These energies are here for you. Ask God, deliver me from this pain, Deliver me from this confusion. Deliver me from not being able to let go, and strengthen my ability to move forward. Strengthen my discernment. Strengthen my willpower so that I can align with what's truly for my highest good. Make it easy to let go of things that are not for me anymore. Make it easy for me to move into this next season. Remember God is not
a side check. God is our husband. Ask God for what it is you need and he will provide. Ask Him to strengthen you and deliver you from what is not serving you anymore, and it will give you that extra extra spiritual muscle to really have the boots on the ground and move forward whatever you're going through right now. No, I'm also feeling it and I'm here with you too. I get hit all these emotions. They're a lot. They can be overwhelming, they can be shocking, surprise and confusing. I
know. But these emotions are fleeting, and emotions are not final. What isn't fleeting and what is forever is your soul. It is the fact that you can make changes, not just in any direction, but a positive direction. We are stronger than what we know, and we're gonna lean on each other. We're gonna move through this together, and we're gonna call on God and our spirit team whenever we need it. Changes are always going to happen.
And when we're in a season of unknown territory, call on the one constant, which is God and your spirit team, and ask them to help your soul heal, to let go, and to move forward. Please, whatever you do, don't stop yourself from feeling your emotions. That's why I am able to cry on camera. That is why I'm willing to show you these parts of me, because it's necessary as a human that we feel our emotions. I'm literally a certified Life and Energy coach. I still cry,
I still feel negative emotions. I still move like a normal human, and so should you. This is part of humanity, not away from it. It's a part of your healing. It's not moving away from it. Let yourself feel what you need to feel. And if you're thinking CEC, I don't stop crying, schedule in your crying sessions and say, for forty five minutes on Wednesday, I'm gonna let myself cry, and for forty five minutes
on Friday, I'm gonna let myself cry. If you're at work and you know you can't cry at certain points, schedule your crying sessions in so you can let them out. I'm looking at my Instagram responses right now and someone said it was messy. I need to hear that it's okay. I am okay girl, I'm feeling messy. Okay, I'm also feeling messy. It will be okay. It's always going to be okay. You know why, because we can't always control the changes that happen in our life, but we
can control the direction in which we change. And I know that if you're following me, you're listening to my content. You are a conscious co creator, and you're going to take the bull by the horns and you're going to whatever's happening to you. You're gonna make it work for you. Because things don't happen to us, they happen for us. And the more that we can reframe our experiences and bridge the gap between where we are, what we thought reality was, and where we want to go, the easier life will
get. It's a practice, just like yoga, a yoga practice because you have to keep practicing refining your mindset. I feel messy too, I'm feeling so much. I don't even know what I'm feeling. Sometimes sometimes we don't have the words for our emotions. And that's okay because we don't need to label everything all the time. I'm so tired of labels. Sometimes we just need to experience things. We just need to let things out. So much
sadness and regret over the past. Remember, when we think about the past, we get to pressed. When we think about the future, we get anxious. When we are in our present moment, we feel grounded. So if you're feeling depressed or anxious, reclaim your reality and do something that's going to present you to the present. Do something that's going to ground you in
the present moment. What grounds us doing something new because it forces us to focus on what's in front of us, Watching something like a comfort show, moving our body, doing a meditation, a meditation and movement I really love and anything creative or learning something new will ground you in your present moment. A lot of people are just saying they've been feeling intensely emotional. I'm drained, I'm feeling triggered. I don't know how I even feel, I feel
called out. Okay, So the point of me reading these things two to two on my clock. Now all of us are feeling this, and if not all of us, a lot of us are feeling this. You know why because rebirthing yourself to a new cycle isn't isn't clean. It is messy. Think about a woman giving birth. Is that all clean? No, there's blood and guts and gow and all of these things happening coming out of her around her birth is messy, quite literally, And when we're rebirthing ourselves
to the next moment, it is messy. It is messy. So what is our choice to be doom and gloom or to have hope to control the controllables and let the rest go to. Ask for guidance, ask for clarity, ask for discernment. Most of the commons that I'm getting on this post are just people feeling sad, lost, oppressed, overwhelmed. And you know what, at least we can do it together. Oh yeah, yes, okay, So how do we deal the eclipse happened? And now what do
we do with ourselves? We keep moving and grooving. We put our best foot forward and we try our best. That's all we can ever do. Try your best. Okay, ground yourself in the present moment. We're going to get through this. I'm telling you you will be okay. I will be okay. There's hope for everyone. God doesn't abandon us Nope, not our husband, not ours Nope. When you're revisiting older emotions, don't think you're going backwards. Know that you're going deeper. That is just how life
works. How do you get better at something You have to repeatedly do it. How do we get better at healing our wounds? We have to repeatedly feel the emotion tied to the wound. You're not going backwards, You're going deeper and I'm feeling it too, girl, I'm feeling it too. It's not always easy, but it's worth it because there is polarity in this world, and as deep as we feel pain, we will also feel pleasure. If you're feeling confused, if you don't know how to move forward, if
you're feeling scared, it's going to be okay. I can promise you that. The one thing I know is it's always going to be okay. It might not unfold how we think, it might be scary in the process, I don't know, but you know it will always be okay. And if you don't believe that yet, you will believe it because you're gonna see it in your reality and then you'll be able to trust it more. But if you can't just yet, just take my word for it, because what's your
choice. The alternative kind of sucks to be doom and gloom just sucks because it doesn't make us feel good and it leads us to manifesting more doom and gloom. I love you so much. I know I know, I know I'm feeling it too. I really pray for all of us that we are able to move through this in the best way possible, even if you don't know what these emotions are. Just let them out. They just want to be released. They just want to move through you so you can make room
for some more. Okay, I love you so much. I love you, I love you, I love you. Show up as Her comes out April thirtieth. If you want to get it, be my guest. I would love for you to have it. I don't even know what to say. Okay, I love you by it than mysie Pama. I'm sorry, Stenogy, s cancel I got I got doengy No, can't. S cancel me. Cances me