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153. When God Goes Ghost: Navigating A Dark Night Of The Soul

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You feel like God has gone MIA, now what!? It's easy to give the Chad's of the world the benefit of the doubt when they ghost us, but what do we do when we feel like God has ghosted us? In this episode we delve into God's mysterious nature. We challenge the notion that God's existence is solely determined by our feelings, and explore why he may be hiding in plain sight. We are tuning into our inner light to guide us during our possible dark night of the soul. This episode will help connect you to yourself, God, and your purpose. Discover the key that will allow you to open doors to the beyond in ways you didn't think possible, and listen now!

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Not sorry. What's up? Positive Bitches? How are we doing today? If you're hearing this episode, then you are meant to be here, So keep listening on that Bitches Positive podcast. Sometimes we will laugh. Other times, baby Girl, We're gonna cry, but we will always walk away feeling our most empowered positive bitch self that has babe and true connection with herself. On this podcast, we simply unbecome who we are not so we can fully step into exactly who we came here to be. Today, we are going

to be questioning. We're going to be in investigating those seasons when we feel disconnected from everything, when we feel like everything is falling apart, when we feel like, hello, God, what are you doing? Have you forgotten about me? Yeah, we are diving into the concept of being ghosted by God because the broads and chads of the world, they may ghost us here and there, but when we feel ghosted by God, well that is quite

a the ultimate ghosting, shall I say? We have these seasons where we do feel alone, We're not seeing the angel numbers, we feel like our whole entire life is just falling apart. So what is going on? Did God forget about us? Did God ghost us, does God just not care about us? Well, Hello God, today, I'm here with my positive bitch posse and we want to rediscover our connection. Oh if you we want

to know what's going on. We want to re establish our relationship because why well, life happens and sometimes we need to reconnect, re establish and re understand what's actually going on in this quantum field before we get into it. And by the way, I'm going to give you ways you can connect to this all loving, all powerful energy and they're going to be ways that are perfect and specific for you, because not everyone likes to connect to this divine,

loving creator in the same way. But before we get into all of that jazz, if you're not yet following me on Instagram at vibing what cc v ibi n with ci CII, be sure to follow me there for daily magnetic tips and tricks. You can follow the instagram for this podcast at that Bitch is Positive. If you need any help in the breakup department, you can sign up for the twenty one day break Up Glow Challenge, where I become your built in breakup BFF and learn how to take your power back put

your softback on the pedestal and of course have a magnificent glow up. If you want to understand the subtle energies of dating, then you can get the Calling Your Power Back work Book. And if you're looking to heal your divine feminine energy and balance that masculine energy, you can also download the Healing Divine Feminine Work Book. Without further ado, let's get into today's episode. Now, today, our special guest comes in the form of a book, and

this book is called The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. Now, I don't agree with everything in this book, but there are some points that I just absolutely love. This book is a little bit too religious for me, however, and I just saw three three three on the clock Divine Synchronicity Angel, and it's so funny because the number three is all about taking your divinity and your human self and combining them to birth your purpose. And this book

is literally about finding your purpose. So there we go. I love the way this is starting out. This book is a little religious for me. There's a lot of things that I'm like, Nah, that's making my soul crazy, and I just don't agree with that. However, there are some amazing points that we got to talk about. So my whole entire spiritual awakening started because I felt so alone, so disconnected, and I was literally screaming at God. Yep, that's how I got here. I was screaming at

God. I was mad, I was upset, I was annoyed, and I think that there's this whole entire narrative that you can't be honest with God. And I'm so happy I had my mom growing up, because she always told me God, in her viewpoint, is your father. You tell him whatever you need to say. Put it down, girl. You let him know what's going on in your mind and your heart and your soul. And

I went to Catholic school and that was not something they taught. They really taught, Okay, you do these certain prayers, and this is how you connect to God. But when I was reciting those prayers, I didn't feel anything. I felt connected to God when I was just screaming, crying, or just praising in the way that I like to praise. Hello, God, how are you doing? I think we know? I like to talk Hello. So I felt the most connected to God when I'm in nature,

when I'm just speaking. That is how I like to connect. But at the beginning of my spiritual awakening, I really lost touch with God because I was in college. I was being a human and there's so much going on in our life, the internships, college, figuring out what you're going to do with your life that I think God does fall to the wayside, and by the way, God to me, whether you call it the divine creator source energy, I don't really care, because the human language can never fully

express the truth of what God is. The human language, which humans created, can only point to truths. It can't fully encompass the truth, like when I tell my partner, oh, I love you, The word love can't fully encompass how I really feel. So I like to use the word God. And to me, God is this all loving presence always around. We all have God within us. God is the ocean and we are the waves, and we are all divine. We have this connection to God.

They are higher self. But even though we're connected, doesn't mean we always feel God's presence in our life. I have a TV in my room, but I'm not always turning that TV on. I'm not always tuned into it. Just because I'm not tuning into the TV though, doesn't mean it's not there. My spiritual awakening started because I was telling my mom I feel depressed, I feel anxious, I am not happy with my relationship. I have

no idea what I'm going to do with my life. So she dragged me to a chapel and wailing on the floor, hysterically crying pretty much, just telling God like I don't know what the fuck is going on. Please remove anyone and anything you need to remove from my life, because I can't do this anymore. I'm going to have an even bigger breakdown, which is always a breakthrough, let me remind you, and yeah, I feel like I'm

going on tab but congress over here. And within a couple of days, after crying my eyes at, eyes out, wailing my arms around, just leaving everything at the altar, sat right up in the front with my mom. After that, a couple days later, I went through a breakup because I found some interesting things on my partner's phone. I had a dark knight of the soul. I was completely isolated, and I went to a therapist who asked me, have you ever read The Power of Now at Cartoli?

And I read that book and everything started happening at once. Understanding the universe and God and the quantum field and manifestation. Everything just started flooding. And in that moment, I knew, Oh my God, God is real. I've always sort of believed. I went to Catholics all my whole entire life, but literally asking, crying and screaming at God. And three days later the divine intervention and what went down that led me to spiritually awaken, which

led me to find my purpose. I couldn't ignore that that was divine intervention. I knew it like I know my own name. That's how strong it was. And I feel like a lot of us don't know how to connect to this all loving energy. We don't know how to speak to it. We don't know how to connect, we don't know how to even look at it or talk. We're just not really sure what to do. And then we go through life feeling really upset and freaking alone. So I always prayed

to be God's mouth peace and hello, positive bitches. I want to read you some blurbs from this book called The Purpose Driven Life, and then we're gonna talk about it. We're gonna dissect it, we're gonna understand it. Because like my TV, it's always there, whether or not I tune into it. God is always there, whether or not we're tuning in, whether or not we feel him, whether or not we see him. He's there,

but let's talk about it. The deepest level of worship is praising God in spite of pain, thanking God during a trial, trusting him when tempted, surrendering while suffering, and loving him when he seems distant. Friendships are often tested by separation and silence. You are divided by physical distance or you're unable to talk. In your friendship with God, you won't always feel feel

close to him. Philip I. Yancy has wisely noted any relationship involves times of closeness and times of distance, and in a relationship with God, no matter how intimate, the pendulum will swing from one side to the other. That when worship gets difficult to mature your friendship with God, God will test it with periods of seeming separation, times when it feels as if He has

abandoned or forgotten you. God feels a million miles away. Saint John of the Cross referred to these days of spiritual dryness, doubt, and estrangement from God as the dark Knight of the soul. Henry Newon called the ministry of absence. Aw Towser called them the ministry of the night. Others refer to this as the winter of the heart. Besides Jesus, David probably had the closest friendship with God of anyone. God took pleasure in calling him a man

after my own heart. Yet David frequently complained of God's apparent absence. Lord, why are you standing aloof and far away? Why do you hide when I need you the most? Why have you forsaken me? Why do you remain so distant? Why do you ignore my cries for help? Why have you abandoned me all my codependent girlies. I feel us getting triggered. Of course, God hasn't really left David, and he doesn't leave you. He has promised repeatedly I will never leave you, nor forsaek you. God however,

has not promised that you will always feel feel his presence. In fact, God admits that sometimes he hides his face from us. There are times when he appears to be m i a or missing in action. I think we've all felt these times, and I think we either just forget that God exists sometimes, I mean I know what I did, or we forget to plug into our own divinity. But I mean, I don't think I'm alone and getting pissed off when we have these seasons. And I just want to

say that's okay. It's okay to feel like you are disconnected from God or our own divinity. It's okay to feel pissed off about that. It's okay to feel like you are getting ghosted by God. And I love how this book explains, oh my God, and the next page is one one one. I love how this author explains that the pendulum will always swing from one side to the other because that's the law of rhythm. The pendulum is always going to swing from one side all the way to the other. That also

plays into the law polarity. As deep as we feel pleasure, we're also going to feel pain. So enjoy the pleasure. I know the pain will end. And this happens in our relationships. You have seasons of really amazing closeness to your friends, and then you have seasons where you're more so isolated.

And I really think that there are divine seasons for a reason where we're going to feel closer and we're going to feel more separated because I was talking to one positive bitch and she was telling me, you know, I don't know why I had a relationship with this person. I really thought we were going to end up together and we didn't. And they were my soulmate. I really believe it. And I told her that person may have been your

soulmate, but you don't know what kind of soulmate that person was. It could be a person who was a soulmate that lasts forever, or it could be a person that's a soulmate who's meant to trigger you into spiritually awakening. We have different seasons, we have different soulmates for different reasons, and I think we have some seasons where we're meant to be closer to God. We're

meant to feel the connection closer to God. And then I think there's some seasons where we're meant to go off, play with this quantum field, see what we can do, and then report back to God. I don't think we're meant to be so so so so plugged into God all of the time, or else I think we would be. So I am feeling like, yeah, the pendulum swings from one direction into the other from left to right, it will even out because that's a law of rhythm. It also plays

into the law of polarity. But even think about growing up. If you never go out on your own, you really can't learn much. And it's not that your parents just disappear, No, they're still there. But you have to go to school, You have to make friends on your own. You need to see what you can do as who you are, not with your parents over you watching like a hawk. Think about a little birdie.

They have to fly out of their nest on their own. And I feel like there are seasons where, yes, we're going to be in that dark knight of the soul where we do feel alone, and we do feel disconnected, and we are like God, where argue right now because what is going on? And I think we're meant to go through that, not actually alone because we're already connected, but under the veil of a ownness, so that we can find our own power, so we can see how much strength we

actually have. Because if I go through life and let's just say I always rely on my mother to coregulate me, I'm never going to learn how to regulate myself. We have to go through seasons under the veil of doing it alone so that we can understand that we can do it. We can do it, and it doesn't mean that God is not watching, that God is not there, that God is not with us. It means that we are more on a track to understand our own strength then having to rely on this

all loving presence. Let's feel that for a second. Let's feel that for a second, because we have to know what we can do on our own. We have to. If we jump from one relationship to another, to another to another, we never get to create our own identity. We never get to fully understand who we actually are because we can only identify ourselves through our partner. We need time alone to get to know ourselves. We need time to go out and under the illusion that we are alone to understand our

true capabilities. Let's read a little bit more of this book. I love how he also talked about how God always promised us he'll always be with us, but he did not promise that we're always going to feel his presence. And that's why one of my favorite affirmations is I see God's support in my life daily because I am always looking for God's presence to remind myself that I'm connected, because, like I said, it's really easy to get distracted in

this three D world. It is easier to focus on all that's going wrong rather than and all that's going right, because our ego is really programmed to see the negative because it thinks it's keeping us safe. It is easier to focus on the gossip and what's going on with celebrities than it is to connect to God sometimes, but what is more rewarding to me is finding that connection to God and myself. This is a Christian book, by the way,

so it's going to have that sort of tone. But understand this applies to all of us. The most common mistake Christians make in worship today is seeking an experience rather than seeking God. They look for a feeling, and if it happens, they conclude that they have worshiped wrong. In fact, God often removes our feelings, so we won't depend on them. Seeking a feeling, even the feeling of closeness to Christ is not worshiped. Again, there's

that Christian tone here, but Loot's dial it back for a second. He's talking about how we can't just rely on our feelings to tell us if God is there or not. Yes, we can't rely on our feelings a lot of the time, and why because feelings are not fact and a lot of us have trauma, or we're picking up on external sources around us, our friends, our coworkers, or even an energetic form through a scary movie can

cause us to feel something. It doesn't mean that feeling is true. That's why we really have to do a lot of work understanding our egoic feelings versus our intuitive downloads, because those are two different things. Our feelings are moving energies. They move through us. That's why they can change in an hour. We can go from sad to happy within five minutes. Feelings are energy forms and their natural state is movement. They're gonna flow, they're gonna transmute,

they're gonna change over. Let's keep that in mind. So just because we feel like God is ghosting us doesn't mean that he actually is. It means that we're having that as a feeling. And I think a lot of that feeling is maybe we're going through a season where we need to figure out what we can actually do by ourselves, by ourselves quotes, or sometimes we're

just so plugged into the external world. We're so plugged into what's going on with the Kardashians that we forget to plug back into ourselves before we trust that feeling. Let's remember that God can never actually leave us when he's part of us. And I say he, I don't think God is a man in the sky. I think it's an all loving energy. But it's just easier to say he. I don't think that God is ghosting us. How could

he when were part of him. He's literally always within us and we are always connected to him, So how could we be ghosted by something that's part of us? See what I mean. God's omnipresence and the manifestation of his presence are two different things. One is a fact and the other is a feeling. God is always present even when you are unaware of him, and his presence is too profound to be measured by mere emotion. Yes, he wants you to sense his presence, but he's more concerned that you trust him

rather than you just feel him. Faith, not feelings, pleases God. I just think that also makes us feel better having faith rather than just trusting our feelings. Because sometimes we're in a bad mood or we have kind of a shitty day and we're like, oh, okay, so I had a shitty day. So this means God's not here and I'm all alone and life sucks. That can be a really tricky, tricky path to go down,

and that can lead us into a hole really quickly. So what if instead of just assuming that I don't feel God around me so he ghosted me, we instead lower the volume on the feelings and raise the volume on our faith. What if that is actually the key that's actually going to allow us to understand God's presence, feel God's presence the most? The next thing that I

just love. Let's get into this. The situations that will stretch your faith the most will be those times when life falls apart and God is nowhere to be found. This happened to Job on a single day. He lost everything, his family, his businesses, his health, and everything he owned. Most discouragingly, for thirty seven chapters, God said nothing. I mean I would be pissed too. How do you praise God when you don't understand what's

happening in your life and God is silent? How do you stay connected in a crisis without communication? How do you keep your eyes on Jesus when they're full of tears. You do what Job did, and you do what Thesey did. Then he fell to the ground and worshiped and said, naked, I come from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave me. No, the Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away. May the name of the Lord be praised. Tell God exactly how you

feel is the moral of the story. Here. Pour your heart out to God. Unload every emotion that you're feeling. Job did this one, he said, I can't be quiet. I'm angry and bitter. I have to speak. Oh for the days when I was in my prime, when God's intimate friendship bless my house. I love this because I feel like we don't hear about this. God can handle your doubt, anger, fear, grief, confusion, and questions. When it's too heavy, give it up to

God. Let it go and let God. Because there's a reason it feels too heavy. You're not meant to bear the pain alone. You're not meant to carry it alone. Give it up to God. Tell him exactly what the fuck is going on with you? Everything, all of it all at once. What I love about God because he can't ghost us because he's seriously connected to us. God has this unchanging nature where he's always going to be there even when we can't hear him. And I just saw another angel number

four four or four, Oh my God. One way we can connect to God during these times that we feel like, where are you? I don't know what's going on? Where are you? Number one thing? Just be honest, start screaming, singing. I don't care how you do it, but be honest. This energy has created you and you're meant to stay in contact with it. Scream it. Tell God how you feel. When my mom dragged me to that chapel, I was crying, screaming. I didn't care. I was like, what am I supposed to be doing? What

do you think this is? Because I'm confused. I really don't understand all of this. So could you want to fill me in on it? Because I don't get it? You want to let me know what's going on because I don't understand. Still to this day, I will literally say, God, what is this? I trust you, but I'm not liking it. So I want to see something better. I want to see me feeling blessed today. I want to see a better outcome today. I want to see

more blessings today. And the funny thing is is whatever you seek, you will find. And when you start priming your articular activating system, which is a filter in your brain, you will get exactly what it is you are thinking about. Your articular activating system filters in your life based on your own biases. There's way too much for us to intake all around us. There's billions and billions and billions of things the process. So our articular activating system

just filters in life based on our own biases. So if you want to see God in your life, first of all, be honest, scream it out, say what you need to say. You can. If you're angry, tell God you're angry. Hell I did it, I'll do it. I'll do it again. Tell God how you really feel. And secondly,

start looking for the blessings. Start looking for what you do have. Start looking at the things you are grateful for, because that primes your articular activating system, your energy, and you know God is gonna want to go where he's praised. I guess you can say, I mean, think about it. If your friends were always shit talking you to your face. Would you want to hang out with them? Probably not. I can't imagine God wants to be around people who just shit talk him, So don't shit talk him,

but tell him straight up how you feel. The point to ponder in this chapter is God is real no matter how I feel. Now, Okay, that's all great, And I really just want you to understand that you're not alone if you're feeling like God has abandoned you, because I have felt

it before too, and it can just be really scary and upsetting. But what I want you to understand before we get into how to actually connect to God different ways, I want you to understand that it's okay, and maybe you're having this season because you have to go out there and see what you

can do and start trusting yourself. Maybe you already trust God, but you don't have faith that you're capable, that you're capable of changing things in your life, that you have the power, that ascension is not about going upward but really going in word, maybe this season is here for you so you can start seeing what you can do with your own energy in the quantum field, how you can manipulate energy into matter, or maybe you need to have

this isolation period so you can go inward and start questioning all of your beliefs and all of your stories you've been telling yourself, and don't forget start talking to God even when you think he's not listening, because he is. Just because we feel like he's not there doesn't mean he's not It means that we can't feel his presence, but it doesn't mean his presence isn't there. And I'm the first one to say, of course, I prefer to feel God's

presence in my life. I prefer to see God's presence in my life. Hence why that affirmation of I see God's presence in my life supporting me daily is so special to me because I want to see that. I want to feel that. I don't like a life where I feel like I'm all alone out here on a floating rock. That doesn't feel good to me. I'm like, no, thank you, So I understand that. But rather than focusing on how we feel, what if we focused on our faith and now

let's say you're like Cecy, Okay, I got it. I'm gonna focus more on my faith that God is there even if I don't feel him. I'll give God the benefit of the doubt. Maybe he's an enghost. Me I think we can give God the benefit of the doubt rather than Chad, you know, rather than that a boy, Rather than giving that f boy the benefit of the doubt fifty thousand times after he goested you, why not

apply that saying that same approach, but this time to God. You know, if you can give Chad the benefit of the doubt after you feel like he goes to you, let's give God the same benefit of the doubt if we feel like he goested us. Because, like I said, just because we feel like God isn't there doesn't mean that's true. It means it's a feeling. How can we connect to God? So there is a book called the Sacred Pathways, and in this book, this man Gary identifies nine different

ways that people can draw themselves closer to God. The first way is for naturalists. Naturalists are most inspired to love God out of doors in natural settings. So for me, one of my favorite ways that I can actually activate the feeling of feeling connected to God is going for a hike, is going to this harbor near my house, is literally just meditating outside Because to me, nature is God. It is God's creation in its most natural form.

And I love nature that's just untouched by humans because it just feels like, wow, this is so beautiful. No human could have even tried to create this because it's just too perfect. So if you love nature, go out in nature, and that's going to help you connect to God. Go out in nature and tell God exactly how you're feeling. To me, the sun when I feel it on my body, when I go sun gazing at sunset,

it feels like God's love to me. Sen Sates love God with their senses and appreciate beautiful worship services that involve their site, taste, smell, and touch, not just their ears. So another way I love to connect to God. If you're watching my podcast on YouTube, you can see behind me my altar. On this altar, I've crystals, I have holy water, I have rosary beads. I have a portrait of myself that my sister got me. Hello, I was created in God's image. That's praising God

there. I have my oracle cards. I just have anything that's special to me. I have a little Buddha and I love to just light some sage, say a prayer, look at my vision board, and that is a beautiful way for me to connect to God. I go inward and I visualize all the things that I want, and I remember that I'm capable of creating because I come from God and God was the ultimate creator. And if God is within me, then I also have that creative ability. And I love

smelling sage. I love putting on the essential oils. I love my little sunset lamp. I love aligning my crystals. I make sure my crystals. I have a really specific color gradient for my altar, and all the crystals are very specific color because they all feel like just beautiful clouds to me. And looking at this having the essential oils, having the sage, it creates a whole entire sacred self ceremony. And when I connect to myself, I

feel very connected to God. Traditionalists draw closer to God through rituals, liturgy, symbols, and unchanging structures. So if going to a church or a sacred site allows you to connect to God. There are reasons that there's places in Sodona, for example, that are known as energy vortexes because the energy of that place on this planet is literally different than the whole entire surrounding area.

Let's not forget Mother Earth, Mother Gaia. She is energy and there are certain points along the Earth's grid that has this really unique energy and they're all at religious sites. So you pick your religious site, whether it's a pyramid or a chapel, and if that allows you to connect, let it

out. Girl. Some prefer to love God through solitude and simplicity. Maybe just closing your eyes, letting go of all the outside distractions is going to allow you to connect to yourself, which will allow you to connect to God. One of my favorite ways to connect to God, I guess I have a lot, but one of my favorite ways is to put on a third eye frequency and just lay outside and put my headphones in, close my eyes and just go inward and see what my spirit gods want to tell me,

see what I hear from God, see whatever spiritual downloads I get. And it's a beautiful way to ease your anxiety and get connected to yourself rather than everything outside of yourself. I mean, I did a whole entire episode about this, called the distraction dilemma, because it is a fucking dilemma that there are so many things trying to pull our attention away. We need to use our attention for good. We need to use our attention to create the life

that we wish to live. Because where focus goes, energy flows, and we live in an intention economy, and you've got to take control of your where you're putting your attention. Activists love God through confronting evil, battling in justice, and working to make the world a better place. Maybe you feel most connected to God at a rally or doing volunteer work, whatever you love to do, you want to connect to God through that avenue because you were

given those desires embedded in your heart for a reason. Caregivers love God by loving others and meeting their needs. If you love to help others, that's a beautiful way to see God in all people. Enthusiasts love God through celebration. If I mean my mom, I feel like she's an enthusiast because every single Christmas Eve she has the Holy Water. She's telling us to sing Happy Birthday to Jesus. She literally gets Jesus Birthday cake every year and we sing

Happy Birthday to Jesus. She loves to celebrate God through these celebratory moments, through Christmas, through certain masses, contemplatives love God through adoration. However you prefer to adore God, a girl, go up. Intellectuals love God by studying with their minds. I love to study how this quantum field works, that God created, how the universe works, the Kabalion, all of these different hermetic principles. That's definitely one of the ways I love to connect.

But I mean I love to connect in all different ways. There's no one size fits all approach to worship and friendship with God. I remember in college, I think it was Saint Augustine that said walls don't make Christians, and he was alluding to the fact that just because you go to church doesn't mean you're a good person, doesn't mean you're a Christian. It doesn't mean that you're connected to God. It means you show up in a building, go

here. And really that's why I love exploring God through my own connection to myself. I see God in the world when I'm making TikTok videos that help other people. I see God in the world when I go into nature and I just see beautiful two white butterflies that I always see flying together. And somehow I saw these two butterflies last year or two but Apparently, butterflies lifetime is only two weeks. That's as long as a butterfly last, so it

cannot possibly be the same two butterflies. But I don't know. Maybe they reincarnated, and these two white butterflies are always flying together. And I remember it last year because I was going in the pool a lot, a lot of pool water healing, and I would always look at them, and I noticed they We're just so beautiful. So I see God in that way too. We can pick and choose how we want to see God in what ways we want to connect to God. The one thing I don't want you to

choose, how ever, is feeling like he's not there. God is not ghosting you. God is all the way, always, all of the place, everywhere. What was that movie? Everywhere, all at once whatever. Yeah, that's like God everywhere, all at once, all the time. Just because we don't feel God's presence doesn't mean God isn't there. It might mean that we're not tuned in. It might mean that we're going through a dark knight of the soul for our own evolution. There are some things and

I just saw too too too. There are some things we have to do under the veil of being alone. My loneliness journey was one of the best things for me because it allowed me to break free from that codependency. If I always had someone in my corner all the time, whether it was friendships or a relationship, I would have never gotten to know who I was on

my own. I would have never done that. Sometimes we need the disguise of loneliness so that we can tap into our own power and realize that God is here, God is within here here, you are capable of doing amazing things. You are capable of going out on your own. You're capable of achieving what it is that you desire. And sometimes we need to feel that loneliness to remember that we are capable of creating the life that we desire.

We are capable of manipulating the energy around us to create the reality that we desire. We are capable of switching quantum timelines so we can align with the life that feels good, because why fun is our divine right and living a good life is our divine right. So it's not that God has ghosted us. It may be that we haven't connected, that we don't know how to be honest with God, or we don't know that we can be honest. Just start talking, Just start talking out loud. You'll find a place to

land. I promise you. I do it all the time, Okay, I promise you. I hope this episode has brought you some clarity. And if you're going through a season, a dark night of the soul, feeling alone, you're in that in the winter. You're in a spiritual winter. Remember that you have all that you need within you. Sometimes we just need a little flashlight to find where the information is within us, where the strength is within us, where the courage is within us. If you're feeling burnt

out, if you're feeling tired, take a fucking break. Okay, eat a cookie, take a deep breath, go out in the sunlight. It will all be okay. Everything is constantly changing, It is constantly transmuting, it is constantly turning over all is well as always a sparkle and Me honors the sparkle in you. If you enjoyed this podcast, you can post about it on social media and be sure to tag me. If you loved it, you can leave a positive review on Apple Podcasts and Spotify it podcasts Grow

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