I'm Star Bottom w/ Willam

So I guess the question is, can you go to your friend's orgy if you never hooked up with them?

Yes, of course that's a great spot to do it. And when you get there, just check in with the cum dumb concierge and concierge. Oh, every orgy has a good cum dumb concierge.

You know what. This is a safe space to talk about relationships, love and sex. Now, let me tell you something messy. I went to lunch with one of my friends. If you listen to the Subsect Live, which happens on

Sounds great?

Shall we do a lube breaker?

Hit me?

Okay? I love it? Okay, well, bitch.

I was at this club in Lancaster talk Club Expose this weekend with the girls, and they had mint chocolate chip flavored lube in the vending machine by the Funians and the Dorito Wait, mint chocolate flavored mint chocolate chip, strawberry peaches.

Why would I want that in my lube? Have you?

I don't know, I don't but you said lube and I was like, let me tell you, yes, the blue breaker.

The blue breaker, the chocolate mint chocolate chip lube would be I guess do you put it?

Maybe doing girl Scout cookie season.

That's it. That's the only time you want it. I'm just going you want this thin mint? Okay? I hate them, I hate them all right? Shall we play a smash or pass?

Yes?

Okay, smash or pass? Very simple orgies, smash smash.

What is the biggest passed me around?

What is the biggest orgy you've been to?

Oh?

Probably like sixty people.

Sixty people.

Yeah, we were in fucking all of them. I was only fucking two people.

Okay, got you, got cha? But the vibes were you in a house? Was it outside?

Was it was not a leash?

Yeah? It was.

It was by area. It's just cauture runway leash. It's so cute.

It's like leather with like all these studs and stones alternating, and then it goes down to the wrist.

It's got a wristlet. Yeah. And I was just like, don't get lub on.

This belase, do not get your chocolate.

It's run It was runway. Wow the orgy. I gave it to money. I wore the squirt shoes.

You were serving.

See.

I've always afraid at those parties they're gonna mess it up and if they spill, you know, if they spill a drink or something on my shoes, I get very upset. So I have I have shoes and wear for oh yes, you know, for the bloody of it. So, but of course smash your past being fingered.

It depends on the finger.

Tell me what's the what's the finger? That's divine?

If they're looking for something like, no, what are you doing now?

They're searching?

Get what do you try it?

But what do you think it's going on down there, that there's some secret latch of doors gonna pop open?

I'm with you, No, you need to know what you're doing.

And if it's an addition to a tongue and something else, definitely smash.

But yeah, no, and nails count.

I'm like, cut it off. What are we talking about. We're not fingering on left, we got that. It's crazy trying to slice up your gut.

No, and don't be trying to put your thumb in just because you got four fingers in.

That is a whole nother question.

That is that is team Yeah, I tell your friend has to get out before you put you another hand in.

But yeah, yeah, yeah, we're not trying to get double fisted.

No, but bit I was in doubt.

Never smash for past being jerked off with feet if I.

Do it or they oh so I'll say smash, smash. I'm not gonna u somebody' jump. Yeah.

Yeah, yeah, I love it. I've never had my feet jerked my dick jerked off with feet, but I would be into it.

I think I definitely got to fucked once because I thought a guy was I was blindfolded and gagged on the floor and I thought a guy was raw dogging me. And this was before PREP, like two thousand and maybe six, and I'm like, no undos again, and I was like, that's not cool. We talked about condoms. Yeah, I felt skin and it was like obviously inside me.

He's like, that was my big toe, you pig. And I was like, okay, okay, perceived.

Yeah, tones were fine, it was just the big toe. It was a big well. I felt like a big dickhead, you know. Yeah, And I was like, this is in me. I was like, I wanted this was when you wore condoms. It was drilled in two thousands before some of you were born.

Yeah, so that was.

I've never fucked with a big toe. Would I let a big to inside of me? Would you let a big to inside you again?

Would I own a house? Or would I on a mouse? Yeah? I'm down, I'm down.

You won the game. You won the game. Congratulations you and my unconditional love as you well know, and you already had it, so all right. If y'all have submissions, you can email me tell me something messy at gmail dot com. Speaking of which, Willa, can you tell me something messy?

I can tell you a lot of things messy. My favorite messy story is because this happens to everybody. Yeah, everybody poops. It was a sexy time and like there were like more than three lesson six people in the room and someone was like, oh uh uh oh sorry, turn on the lights. And I was like what. I was like, no, I'm star bottom. This doesn't happen to me.

No, no, no, no no.

And they're like, oh, it's just a little bit of poop. I was like no, but he was like no. I was like, you know, I keep going to turn these lights on, to turn the lights on, it's blood. I was like, I told you, I told you, y'all should have gone one at a time, Like I told you, kept the fingers out and then you would have broken your toy.

We been able to play all night. Now I got a blow bang yard.

Yeah that is the worst.

In the barrel.

Wow.

No, oh okay, okay, yeah, get we let my saper not sleep on it after that.

You didn't know?

Wow, I would never would never know. Also probably smells the spot I have had to stop after. Yeah, after being fucked too long and then yeah, the blood happens. It is always, but never poop because I'm like, I know, I know, I know what she does. I know to keep when you know you know, you know? All right, shall we do some messy mail?

I would love that.

Okay, Gorge, time for messy mail. Remember all your submissions remade, not a bess. Okay, this first one says, which is just kind of a brag, and I want to celebrate them. They said I made a bottom come hands free just by rooming him. I feel accomplished. Have you ever made a bottom come or has anyone made you come just by eating you?

No? But that's when people do that.

They mainly don't have access to the pros state, which is like I mean, I say, for straight guys, it's a cool trick because God put it in their buta hole, so they got to dig for it. But if you're eating somebody out, I don't usually see anybody like knuckling the prostate from there. And then if your tongue is in there, has your finger in there?

So?

Or maybe both? But no, it hasn't happened to me. I've come hands free, definitely, but mouth no from being disrespected.

You'd love to disrespect it. I don't have ever made anyone come hands free by eating them out. Have I come hands free from being eaten out? I don't think so, But it sounds exciting.

Unless worthy task.

It's a worthy task, it's a worthy pursuit, a worthy mission. I think like if I've been jerking, if I've been edging, there's probably a chance. But I don't think like if there's been no touching up my dick, I don't think that I could just but shout out to you know this? You know hello? That's a good song. Okay, respect it. This one says, do you.

Say wide wired? Oh?

Wired has a wide tongue? Absolutely good. I'm starting to accept the guy I have feelings for really does have a boyfriend. My question for you is, have you ever won fell for somebody who was in a relationship or what do you think about this kind of Uh? What I think is a pattern of people falling for somebody who's in a relationship.

I mean, people seem to attract the same thing.

I guess a little bit. What do you want to tell you?

They repeat themselves with patterns. Sure, yeah, yeah, until they don't want the results of that pattern anymore.

Maybe preach so soft?

Wait what was the question?

I guess it was it is like, have you ever fallen in love with somebody or fell for somebody feeling for somebody who's in a relationship and like still wanted to be with them, or have you had that you know, like experience.

I've only been in one relationship.

Oh long, you've been a relationship.

I was in it from two thousand and two until twenty fifteen.

Oh my god, that's a long relationship.

Yeah, and I'm like still married doing what we're separating? Okay, here's my learning. He's my lawyer, he's your lawyer.

Yeah work, Okay, wait, I want to know more about this.

But I mean, he's the guy from drag Race that like got me disqualified, like that guy.

Oh that guy okay, which I'll still cool. Yeah, work, Okay, work. I think that people. Here's what I'll say. If you're falling for somebody who's a boyfriend and you're saying, I have to admit that they have a boyfriend, it's this fear of actually being liked back. Do you know what

That makes sense.

That makes sense, right, That's I think I've talked about this before, but I think that happens a lot also with gays falling for straight guys. So when somebody tells me, oh, I'm always crushing on a straight guy, I'm like, well, it's because you know that you can't have him or.

Like you.

Yeah, but like, okay, you can have him, but you get like have him you have not? Maybe I guess I guess that's not wrong, that's correct it. Okay, this one says, my appointment, why would I block this in my dick? Appointment wants to talk about feelings, but it's now lacking in the bed. Should I leave him alone? What do you think?

No?

Tell him be like if this was a month ago, when you were nailing me to the wall, we could talk about that. But right now I'm not really getting what I need, So I'm gonna be exploring some other options and then maybe he'll give you the fuck of a lifetime.

That's clear.

And then yeah, I was reading this one guy's book right now and he talks about like having this argument with this guy and then like he's like I went back and tears on my eyes. I fucked him twice and I was like work. He's like, yeah, it was like their breakup and I was like, work, bitch.

That breakup sect can really be special.

It's Ryan Russell's memoir The Longest or Between the Yards or something.

Okay, it's a good book.

Okay. I was like, I'll get it. Yes, right when you're like yeah, I mean I agree with you, I think communicate because if it was But I will also say thought I thought they said how long they've been together, because I'm like, how long have y'all been talking for the sex to start slacking? Yeah? But yeah, if you're talking about feelings. I think. I think it's fair to be like, hey, you know, we can have a conversation, but like.

You know, I need to be feeling something else.

I need a little deeper.

Yeah, these feelings, feelings.

I want tears in my eyes. For different reasons, we.

Go behind the bleachers a pride.

I don't know about all that. I don't know if you know, not get the drawer unless you know.

No, you can have a delta tooth brush. We have courtesy by the door.

ADULTA tooth brush is uninged but correct. This one says, what is your advice on pube etiquette? Your preference? I love me a forehead cushion. So two questions, what's your what is your advice on pupetdy kit? And what is your preference?

I say, whatever you do, trim it off the shaft. If guys have like a little bit that goes on the shaft as a top, they don't know that, like that can be like irritating to the inside of a bottom's Like, so if you're really hairy and it goes up your shaft, that can be a bummer.

What else I just say, like you could always like leave an indication.

I don't think it ever needs to be ballballed, the lowest one the indication of like whatever.

Yeah, yeah, love that.

And also the best tip I think I can recommend as a product called tense Skin. It's like a some sort of like acid that makes your skin not as susceptible to ingrowns because when people are shaving down there, then they got friction because like baby, I start a fire my thighs.

Yeah, the whole time.

So like when I shave, I can get ingrownes there or red bumps, like the next day, like I went in the ocean after shaving or something like that. Sometimes they pop up and this is something that get sort of ingrowns. So you're not like because sometimes you're like, oh, take take a picture, take a video. And I was like, fuck,

Electrolysis is better, got way better, got you.

I used to sugar my whole and then I stopped, and now my hold's harry because my partner prefers it that way. But but I when I will say this, when I have a shaved pussy, I feel really powerful because it's like summer.

Yeah, this summery, just.

Like free.

Summer time.

That's what that song is about. I prefer I don't actually have a preference. It's like whatever makes you comfortable. But I do think that that shaft tip is really spot on. I will say for myself, I just shave it all off because I'm lazy, because.

I really be.

I'd be so impressed when the dolls be like the dolls the boys they be like all shaved perfectly, and yeah yeah, yeah, I'm like wow, like y'all gardener's down there, and I'm just.

Not I'm like, I love that. I'm not going to shove my face in it any differently.

It's gonna be the same ques you go and choke me out no matter what. So I just like shave it off and then it grows back eventually, and and and then you know, then it looks like this period it's just like that at the top. That's me right there, right there. Okay, Uh. This this one says I got invited to an orgy hosted by a good friend and just realized he and I have never hooked up. So I guess the question is, can you go to your friend's orgy if you never hooked up with them?

Yes, of course that's a great spot to do it. And when you get there, just check in with the cum dumb concierge and oh, every orgy has a good cum dumb concierge, and what.

Is their responsibility?

It's like, uh, someone who runs the cum dumpery Like she lines up, Oh, you're going to be on that mattress, you're going to be chained.

To that radiator.

You're over there in the sling like and then it like she appoints to starbottom for the hour if it's like a four hour shift. Like they make sure they have sharpies with alcohol swabs so you can mark the cum dumb. But sometimes the sharpies dry out because it's all the lube and the sweat on.

Them on the the with the cum dumb. Yes, so they have to like get new sharpies.

So the come dump concierge also will come dump themselves or they just.

I mean not during working hours, got it.

They don't ship where they and hopefully no one shoulds it there, hopefully.

Hopefully everybody a little bit. Yeah, she thought she ate snacked.

She was snacking, baby, a little little nipple. I've definitely met many a come dunk concierge, and I've definitely been passed around by them, but not They were on duty, so they weren't sucking me. But they were definitely putting me in the places that I needed.

To in the offering place the congregation can meet.

That first thing, come over here, and you know, I will say a come to concierge, actual.

Foot in the kitchen counter, your arm on the refrigerator, yes, and then the on the back of the couch, Yes, it's yes, and.

Then look back at it, you know, wink it. They're very much a director. They're a cruise director. Cruising director and I but I find them to be to make the space safe in a way because it's like, oh I because sometimes it can be overwhelming, and but if you have somebody who's like holding your hand and guiding you, it feels a little less chaotic. Yeah, in terms of sucking your friend, I do think it's like if I've never fucked my friend and my friend invites me. Some

I already forget his question. It wasn't about me. I don't think.

I was like, come dumbs, I was like, oh, fucking friends, friends.

Fume on.

That's the advice all your friends, now, all of them leave some of them.

You know, some of them, don't like some of them. Just blow them.

Just a little blow job in the bathroom, you know. But yeah, I guess you could talk to them ahead of time. But also like if the orgie is big, like you may not even see them and you can surprise them.

Yeah, I'd be like, guess where I am gerald surprised them?

Just show up. Yeah, I think yeah, I think you can work around this. That is a paper clip.

To make my dick look big in photos?

What work perfect? Where'd you get that.

Great Big Stuff dot Com?

Really? Uh huh? And they just have big ship Yeah wow.

Like life sized plastic army men from like those toys Great Big dot Com. I got a giant chair that I sat in for DragCon for like ten years straight. It's like a giant camper chair. I just look so pe tite, like Louly Tomlin, an incredible shrinking woman.

How do you feel when you look pettit? I love it?

Yeah, yeah, that's why I like tall guys.

Yeah, tall guys are really a toxic trait of mine, a toxic desire of mine, because yeah, I want to feel tiny.

It's a red flag, but I will run up that flag. I can. Baby.

Maybe it is a red flag, but like I say'd like a bargain. I'm like, yeah, like delicious.

Rid of my plot?

This one says on this my messy pick, so we can like really go in it says I hear you and others talk about being yourself, but I'm struggling to figure out who I am. I feel so stuck and there's not a lot about my life that makes me happy. How do I find myself or be myself? What if I don't like myself? How do I work on becoming secure in myself and loving who I am?

Such good tips for this. Oh, first, if you don't like yourself, it's conditioning. If you'd say fourteen things to yourself in the mirror that you do like every day about yourself, it'll become a pattern and then you start to believe it. You have to find this stuff in your life that makes you happy lean into that because that's where you'll figure it out.

And then I feel like I'm under a timer or a gun.

No you're not.

And there was there was one more thing that I wanted to remember. Well it's okay, yeah.

Well let me ask you that when do you remember have you always loved who you were? Or there was there a moment that you had to really up into that.

Only thing I didn't like about myself grown up is my thighs because they were huge and you don't like the still, But now I like them.

I like them.

But before I was like a heavy kid.

I was like as tall as I was wide, and I was like thirteen and two hundred pounds and it was with Florida, and people made fun of me, and so I didn't. I thought I didn't love myself, but I still did. I was fierce yeah and I still am.

Yeah.

Period. What did you? Was it the fourteen the fourteen affirmations about yourself that change things for you? Or was there a person? No?

I always believed it. I just do that anyway.

And like when I feel down, I lie to myself and do affirmation cards and just be like, you know what, there's more right in your life than wrong in your life. Celebrate that, figure out what's good today. There's always a way that you can make yourself fool good, even if it's like helping other people just out of being selfish, like.

Oh my good person, look at me. I mean I did something good in the world, did I know?

Yeah?

So yeah?

How did you? But like, did somebody teach you that?

Like? No, I had to discover it because the universe got me. And the only reason it got me in such a pointed way was because I was doing not good by the universe like I did. I was scamming and I said my back was hurt in an area it was not hurt in and from a car accident, and I was like trying to get money, you know. And then I actually got hurt in that exact spot that I was faking it, Oh, falling off.

A chair on a set and I was gagged and I was like, God, you got me.

And then like I redirected my life and then I got a movie and then booked it and.

It was a good movie.

And they cut my part like two days before, and I was like what I was gagged or it was It was crazy, and I was like, I'm obviously fucking up the universe karmically.

The universe is not giving me good stuff. It's not working.

I should devote my life to good and helping other people and like leaving a positive market instead of a negative one and like be better, you know. And so I recommitted myself at Burning Man, I did all of this. I cleansed it out. I and that was like two thousand and fifteen, sixteen, and I became better. And that part in the movie came back oly shit randomly and it was stars Born.

Oh my god.

Yeah, they cut the whole club scene like the week before, and I was at a wedding. I was at Tom Dailey's wedding and I was gagged and I was like, oh. I was like, I already told people I was.

In this movie.

I mean even filmed. Yeah, I just did the wardrobe.

Chat shit yeaeah.

And I was like, God, you obviously hate me, yeah, or universe like something I'm doing wrong.

Let me redirect my life.

And then the next like week and a half after, I like seriously made a commitment to like being better. I stopped drinking. I didn't, I did a bunch of stuff. The movie came back and I was just holy shit. Yeah, Like I told a producer who produced silver Lining Playbook at the wedding. I was like, I'm doing this movie with Gaga and he's like, oh, say hi to Bradley. I was like, okay, well great, he's from really too,

I'm so mad. I was so mad, and then back in.

But that's why I redirected my whole life. It sounds stupid, but I knew the universe was out to get me and something wasn't right. I was also like scamming and hustling people in en light, setting up meetings as a showing up to whatever hotel room, sucking dick, doing whatever, and then being like, you need to give me three

But like, was there a reason for the scamming?

Was there money?

I saw sex workers an easy, viable option because like, people wanted something I had regularly and would pay for it.

So it was a supply demand and I love demand. Y.

I did it when I was like seventeen and eighteen in Philly too to make money to move out to la.

And I read fourteen grand in.

Eight months, girl, Yeah, aren It was in Philly that year, eight dicks one day, because all I did was suck dick. I didn't I fucked like eight guys, but I would have sucked them anyway. But I kept track of all them, the where, the who, the how much, the tips, how much the house got all that.

Oh my god, it was so fun.

You enjoyed it?

Yeah?

Would you ever do it again?

I mean I'd have to go to Nevada and to legally do it. It's because maybe I don't want to have to advertise every word of mouth.

That mouth speaks so.

Funny Bunny ranching.

One of my questions, my questions about I guess like did you learn about loving yourself at all through scamming? Like did you learn about or what did you learn about yourself? Inside of that?

It's just like an easy way out and like I could, I could do it, and I did it, and it was did I see myself as some like? I think I was like doing drag trying to find a a You know, when you do this it's like it becomes your life stuff and trying to act and stuff.

So I was like, this is an easy side job.

You know who was around you or like who who? One who introduced you to drag and who with anyone that influenced you in terms of the next level of yourself.

The drag I Rocky Horror was like my gateway drag and Rue Paul and like Bunny when I was like, I feel like the Muppets Miss Piggy. Like it was very that my dad drove me to Rocky Horror when I was thirteen, waited in the car, took me home. His friend ran it from NASA, so he was like, okay with me going and stuff and they come to all my shows, they tip what was there was one more question? Oh the best version of me? Now?

I just copied RuPaul. She's great, it's my favorite. Yeah, I want to do everything that she does.

But like I want to do a touring company and have the girls that are touring have the pie shares of the touring Okay, got instead of paying random money to Tom Randy and Fenton and Rue because they're not on the tour, Like they're not being seen.

Why is their name of the title? Like where the girls?

Yeah, we're doing this now and sure it's your legacy work and stuff, but like we should be making the money, yeah, not these random guys. Yeah, Like So I want to open a touring company. I want to have a housewares line. I want to do so many things. And the people that inspire me are Martha Stewart and I like Chris Hardwick.

Yeah, and some cool shit.

Fuck yus if it feels like you're always thinking about giving.

I'm opening a store.

Oh my god, what kind of store.

It's called Goodwill. It's on Cherokee right across the world. I wonder behind the Whig store. We do drag stuff. We do Airbnb experiences where it's like, you want to get drag, We'll put you in drag, you get your shoes, will take you to the bars, We'll go on the boulevard, will give you a lap for Airbnb. Because so many people don't have prides anymore. Then, yeah, and like money. So I was like, if you all want a corporate pride, come here, ten people. I'll get you all in drag,

Where did your confidence come from?

And all this my parents like support me and told me I could do whatever I wanted and told me they just wanted me happy. And then I was like, Okay, I can do whatever I wanted. I want to be in tabloids, So I did that. Yeah, I wanted to be in the National Choir. Some of these girls are here looking like National Geographic, the Wildlife toes not painted and sandals.

Oh my god, it's warm out, get ready girls.

So you're supportive. So when did you come out? Where did you have to come out?

Oh? I was always out.

My mom wrote my baby book when I was three. He's either gay or ballerina. He walks on his toes. She was right, she do ye kind of both. She didn't know what else to do with the toes.

Okay, So then what is your you know, what's your advice to somebody who is trying to learn how to love themselves and trying to learn be confident. So we have the we have the affirmations. What else is there that you think somebody could tap in?

You have to be able to look in the mirror and find something that you like about yourself, and if you can't, it's I don't know, because I've always been able to find stuff even when I didn't like how I looked or whatever.

I'm always like, it could be worse. You got your feet.

When I get out of the drag, every time I thank my feet, I'm like, thanks for holding me up.

I've had like two back surgeries.

I'm like, I feel like, just convince yourself, lie to yourself, and be as positive as you can, and do stuff to keep you busy so you don't get sad, and do stuff that makes you happy, and maybe you'll love yourself that way.

I don't know if you don't.

I just can't imagine not loving yourself like you're the only shot that the world gave to whatever vessel you are. So love it, bitch, someone's gonna like it. There's a pot for every lid.

Come what what that's tea? I feel like I'm.

Listening to and I'm cast Iron.

Season top Tyranny. You know Rex, Rex will see. That's my next that's my drag name.

I tell people. Now, I want this back when it's clean, clean it clean.

I feel like, wait, I was gonna pirate explicity. Really don't apologize, You're perfect. I've been listening to uh this Abraham Hicks, which is uh, I guess like meditation and whatnot. And all of it is about like finding something that makes you happy. That like, you don't wait for your life to change to be happy, but you find it

Got absolutely always something you can find that's like, even if it's just because it's not it could be worse and it's not.

Yeah, you know, yes, And just reframing your blocking is a blessing has been really helpful for me.

And I was saying, you're blocking as a blessing.

Yeah, And complaining is draining, don't it.

Like it's fine to like voice something you're doing, but when it gets that voice you're just slowing yourself down to when you could be fixing it or just like so I try not once the wigs on. I want to be a positive source of light. I try not to complain on my own sets. I like, you know, I try to. Yeah, it should be fun, and I want to. I want people see me in drag. I want them to like feel a light, not a complaint, like how long you've been in it?

Even though I.

Told you I said, like my feet, I said, oh the bobby pins. Yeah, but like I started off with a complaint but I didn't mean to.

No, But but you weren't complaining. But I understand because you know, weird.

It's pain.

Listen, beauty is faye. But like we know when people are like complaining and those those people who just like always have something that's wrong and you never and also don't like to take advice and that you're like if you're like, the vib is hurting and I was like girl, and you were like.

But once you have your nails on, you're like and then you're like, let's just feel.

But I love the idea.

If we always have right have a five o'clock though.

Okay, I love the proverb proverbial yes, putting up a wig on? Right, Like this idea that like when you wake up, you're allowed to have your whatever, but can you put your wag on? And when you put your wig on? Can you become light? And what you're saying like this folkus Judith Judith just see in the world. And also this idea that can you put attention on other people in terms of can I be of service to other people? Can I make somebody else feel good?

I literally missed my friends during COVID, so we started a podcast company Alaska and I where we produced our friends podcast and it was like being in a dressing room with them again. And now like Delta Work is touring the nation in comedy clubs, and like it's just one of those things where we were able to like just put some light and fun out in the world and now it makes those people money. They got gigs, more gigs, and everybody it's success is more fun with

Yes, the community of it all. Yeah, having your people,

Yeah, and and if you need help figuring it out, come dumb concierge again just saying they have their ship together.

They do.

Either get them or a lesbian.

They will fix your life, Madison or Madison, it's your life.

Just find her house in the new house. Yes, girl, I want to go.

I want to go wherever is. I'm trying to bet she's the best. She's the best, Okay. I asked these final questions to everyone. So the first one is have you ever had sex? And a Porter potty?

I've given a blow job in a porter potty. Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's sexy.

Yes? Was it clean?

Him?

It was early? Was it late?

It was the first day okay, okay, okay, the first day of the Yeah.

And it was burning Man, so it was the first night first Fine, it wasn't that bad.

Okay, great, Yeah, I got through it.

Out.

You know.

Wait, was it is it? Was it small? Are they tiny? No?

It was one of the big ones.

Okay, on on the end? What is the what are are they? I've never been running in I probably never will go because I have a lot of allergies.

Don't go, then I won't go.

It's dusty, but it's like an alkaline dust so like keeps everything clean, so nobody really smells.

But we had showers.

Anyway has showers and not everyone has showers. Wow, yeah, I can't. How long is it? How many days is it?

It's a week?

Okay.

It's about radical self reliance work and it's like going to an orgy. You should have someone walk you through it the first time, because like Courtney Act was my like burning Man sense and yeah, guided me. And then by the last year I was like I go on my own. She's like good I'm not going to be in your rvy this year. Then I was like, okay, bitch, I do and then she waned in so bad once we got there because we had good snacks and she was in a yurt and it was windy, and.

I was like, fuck you, b you don't want you still go?

I haven't been since twenty sixteen, but I went, like three years.

Okay, okay, will you go again?

Hmmm?

Probably not. I have like a I can't bike ride like I would in the Sandwich. How my back is. I don't do I can't do coasters or go karts. Somewhere I don't know.

I know my best friend girl has been going the last three or four years.

It's cool. It changed me as an artist and a person.

That's what helped me figure it out, like the universe and everything, because I was on shrooms and the shrooms gave me what I.

Needed to know.

That was my trip, that was your trip. And Burning Man may change my whole life because of that. Like as an artist's what I.

Hear from a lot of people who go, like it can be life.

It it could give you just what you need, like and some plants from the earth made me realize that or maybe put my put all the life things in order in my brain where I saw like all the planets aligning and that's what I needed to do.

Life, and then it happened.

Maybe it's not true, maybe I'm imagining it, but I like to think that my positive intentions and actions have caused my life to be better.

I will affirm that that is the case. I think that if you're putting out good, you're gonna receive that. If you're putting out you know, if you're trafficking ad not, it's just like and listen, life, life LIFs. But I think the point of tracking our kind of karmic energy is because life lives, and so things are gonna happen. But if you are some one who is dishing out good, I imagine that there will be people around you to

I believe it.

Yeah, we believe it also a shroom trip really will get you together? Okay, A little shrewd, little edible, a little plant medicine will really, I really believe, because you know, there's just like so much going on, and just a little bit of that that earthly, that earthly little whatnot just like quiets things sounds a little bit.

It's like the universe giving you Easter eggs. You're like, so that plant does that?

Okay? What that one? Just that one?

And you smoke it?

Okay, work, listen, the other animals are partaking so all.

Why why not?

Why not get at a little message? Okay? The last question I asked is what could you learn to love about yourself? What could I know? And this is actually interesting because you love, you love a lot about yourself, But is there something you could learn to love about yourself besides your thighs.

There's one thing I hate about myself and it's my big toe on my left foot because the toenail I wore a shoe that was too tight or Halloween two thousand and one, and it never grew right again. And it still don't grow right. It's fine if I paint it, but it's not right. It's not and I will never learn to love it. I ruined it, drag took that from me, and I'm fine with it.

It's what I gave. It's what I gave.

It's what I surrendered to have, like all of this beauty and glamour, So I get it.

It's my one toe. It's fine.

Listen, you can't be this beautiful without having one thing. You know what I'm saying. So it's a toe.

Yeah it's not, o Marie, it's a toe.

It's a toe. It's a toe.

Okay, yeah, So I don't think I'll ever be able to love that, but I understand it's not it's tost faults holding me up.

I'm happy.

I don't need the nail.

It don't need it. It don't need it.

Is there something that you hate about yourself? You want to try to learn love?

Do I always love? What? Do I want to learn love about myself more? I want to learn? It always changes?

But right now it's your cuticles are great. You couldn't make them any better perfect.

I get the girls what I got to give. Also trying to finger and you know you can't finger with the I could learn to love my can I call them the roses my like, I have to be organized, and I like, I'm really like, everything has to be in a and a little tight thing, and sometimes it makes me feel self conscious. But I also recognize that that energy. That energy allows me to do the things that I want to do. And so I feel like I could learn to love that more.

Yeah, because there's nothing wrong with not having your ducks all in a row all the time, but then you have to worry about cleaning up duck shit everywhere where. If they were in a row, would be just like, clean up the duck shit right there. So you got your shit together, So you're cleaning up less duck shit by doing what you do.

Don't feel proud about that.

I can also learn to love rest more. I do love it, but I don't take it. Do you know what I'm saying. Some people don't like to sit down.

Oh yeah, I don't do that. Everybody always says I'm doing too much. Yeah, and I am all right, but.

Like I sleep on planes.

Yeah, no one ever dies and be like, oh, I should have slept more.

I should have taken that.

Now, are you sure?

Maybe I will always go do a lap. I will never say no, I'm not gonna go out with any regret.

Wow, that's tea. But you're sure somebody ain't never been like I could learn to rest more, or like I wish I slept I took more nats. You're right, maybe at the end of your life. Are you thinking.

Jennifer Coolidge just said it on a red carpet. She said, Ah, I love to rest.

I love to rest. I do, But now now I'm questioning it.

I mean, it depends if you're resting with someone you want to rest with.

It's me. I love to rest with me.

Oh, I've seen taking it second day.

I love to wake over the but.

Waking up a sniffy spot.

For me, for me, No, I love I had. I had a nice little cat couch nap the other day. The pillow between my thigh and the hit had one pillow there. The dog wasn't baby. I was knocked the funk out for a solid thirty minutes. It was everything.

Yeah, I take naps. I love them.

Nap is everything. Yeah, midday the mid day nap makes you feel wealthy because like, what are you doing trips? Yes, why are you taking a midday nap? Rich?

Money?

Money nap on these one from Lancaster Last Night Club explos.

Napped all these singles. I wish I could take this mid day Tuesday naps.

Anthony's in my purse.

Listen, I love you so much.

Thank you, I love you, thank you having me, thank you.

All right, I'll see you soon. Bye. Well, you know we your hosts here, but hose with heart, so before we go, let me speak to yours. I love me some Willem. Oh my goodness. I've been watching drag Race since season one and I very much remember Willem season and Willem was one of my favorites. I remember the disqualification, but you know what Willem for me is the drag Race Jennifer Hudson, Okay, where you might not win the competition.