Emma talks about chosen family and self-care, including staying present to set boundaries in parenting. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given ...
Jul 08, 2019•30 min•Ep. 97
We read and respond to listener emails after our Africa trip. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings...
Jul 04, 2019•40 min•Ep. 96
We talk with Mary and Nathan about what happened in Africa. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings a...
Jul 01, 2019•38 min•Ep. 95
Dr. E interviews special guest Susan Pease Banitt, LCSW, author of “The Trauma Toolkit” (for survivors) and “Wisdom, Attachment, and Love in Trauma Therapy” (for clinicians). They talk about attachment. They also talk about ritual abuse. Due to the nature and content of the interview, some triggering topics are referenced, such as types of abuse including ritual abuse. However, no detailed stories or examples are given in this episode. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Reme...
Jun 27, 2019•57 min•Ep. 94
We talk with the Adaption System. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to resear...
Jun 24, 2019•58 min•Ep. 93
Emma talks about therapy progress: internal communication, getting grounded, memory time, triggers, and accepting diagnosis. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors...
Jun 12, 2019•26 min•Ep. 92
Sasha talks about Mother's Day and Father's Day, and how important it is to care for the body when struggling. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally...
Jun 10, 2019•47 min•Ep. 91
Sasha reads and responds to listener emails. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given du...
Jun 06, 2019•46 min•Ep. 90
Emma talks about being afraid she is not strong enough. It's two months after the avoidance episodes and she is struggling with how real the pain is. She briefly mentions outside children having trauma and being okay and pure now without details. She is struggling with internal children being stuck in memory time and feeling responsible for them not feeling better now. She talks about tornados wiping out Kansas city, and how scary it was with trying to protect and comfort children. She also proc...
Jun 03, 2019•31 min•Ep. 88
We invite Dr. Peter Barach to speak with us again about a reader’s question regarding regression in treatment, which he explains as dissociative response to stressors. We use the experience of tornadoes as a neutral example to explore this. We take what we learn and apply it to the good stress of girls weekend, and the difficult weather. We talk about good stress such a non-trauma holidays still being stress, plus hard stress with the things you cannot control. He then explains the importance of...
May 28, 2019•43 min•Ep. 87
Pat Ogden, PhD, is our guest to explain sensorimotor psychotherapy. She tells her story of learning about trauma work, and the recognition of the body as an ally in healing. She explains how somatic resources help stabilize the nervous system. Trigger warning for the example of thinking about how your body feels when your remember being abused (a father specifically is used in the example, but no abuse story is detailed at all). She explains how safe touch can be so healing, and how being mindfu...
May 21, 2019•39 min•Ep. 85
Emma reflects post-girls-weekend, including about getting to know others inside. She talks about relationships internally, and trying to participate and repair internally. The outside kids sing two songs. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative relate...
May 20, 2019•45 min•Ep. 84
Emma talks about trying to spend a weekend with friends, and learning how to make mistakes and recover from them. Emma reflects on others inside and trying to track what is happening when she can't remember. She fights for her own independence in trying to be herself. Some religious references at the end when she references noticing Molly. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You ca...
May 18, 2019•22 min•Ep. 82
We talk to the Infinite System. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research...
May 16, 2019•40 min•Ep. 79
We talk to the Labyrinth System. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to researc...
May 13, 2019•28 min•Ep. 78
Emma opens up about the ways Mother’s Day has been difficult in the past (trigger warning for references to miscarriages, deceased parents, infertility, and abuse dynamics). These issues are only referenced, not described in detail. She then shares that this year she is focusing instead on the things she has learned from the therapist, and she gives a list of ten. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message ...
May 11, 2019•47 min•Ep. 77
We speak with local clinician Robert Cox. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due t...
May 02, 2019•1 hr 2 min•Ep. 75
Emma reflects on therapy. She talks about learning to accept the others. She talks about the overlap of memory time and now time. She shares an experience of sensing one of the others inside, in a safe way. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative rela...
Apr 29, 2019•32 min•Ep. 73
We speak again with Dr. Peter Barach, who teaches us all about attachment. He tells the story of being in class with Mary Ainsworth, and explains Bowlby’s theory (links in the blog). He explains the different attachment styles, and what that looks like in adults. He shares that disorganized attachment is quite common in DID. He gives the example of the Robertson research film “A Two Year Old Goes to the Hospital”. He then applies all of this to the context of trauma and multiplicity for some dis...
Apr 28, 2019•53 min•Ep. 72
Emma talks about being busy to avoid therapy. She shares about only feeling safe with her family, and not having support outside the family. She shares about feeling panic that they will lose her therapist. She talks about feeling like the lights inside go out when she can't see her therapist, and when she feels this that she feels scared and alone. She reflects on the impact of missing therapy sessions. Emma notices her avoidance of journaling. The website is HERE . You can join the Community H...
Apr 25, 2019•37 min•Ep. 70
After trying for months to connect, Dr. E finally gets to talk with Robert Oxnam, who wrote the book “A Fractured Mind”. He opens the interview asking her questions, which gives us all a rare glimpse into her own perspective throughout the interview. She mentions what we have shared before, about the deaths of our parents. He shares about his collaboration with McClean Hospital and gives some statistics about the occupancy of DID. He introduces his own story of DID, including causes for his expe...
Apr 24, 2019•49 min•Ep. 69
Emma does a chapter of therapy homework about avoidance and dissociation. She discusses the impact of avoidance on daily living. She learns about trauma and triggers. She talks about how all of this impacts relationships. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or di...
Apr 22, 2019•48 min•Ep. 68
Sasha talking about the Steele workbook and mentalizing and reflection. Also talks about containing memory time flashbacks until therapy. Also talks about noticing internal experiences without judgement and with curiosity. The whole topic is about reflection and noticing internal and external things. Also talks about empathy internally and working together to meet needs of everyone when you can. Sasha talks about Emma feeling Sarah's feelings without knowing it's Sarah. Sasha also talks about ha...
Apr 18, 2019•39 min•Ep. 67
JohnMark talks about being at the park and taking care of those girls after hard weeks of therapy. Talks about getting away from memory time, and not being strong enough to keep the girls from getting hurt. Does talk about JohnMark trying to stop the abuse, and about making Kassi to do it. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content ...
Apr 15, 2019•23 min•Ep. 64
Taylor talks about the therapy group making things harder because Emma knows more. She also shares information from the group about avoidance. Talks about the trip to Missouri and the triggers there. Lots of talks about Missouri being a break from the hard things happening at home. Also mentions neglect from the mother. Also talks about littles talking about grooming and good touch and bad touch in therapy. Taylor also talks about being more sexually aggressive and tolerating pain with sex. Also...
Apr 11, 2019•37 min•Ep. 63
Starts with running water sounds. Emma shares about a trip to the cabin before their child has surgery. Mentions the family cabin, the mother's grave, the grandparents meeting, and the parents' families a bit. Also discusses the mother's death and cremation and burial. She also talks about what it's like to lose time. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast ...
Apr 08, 2019•24 min•Ep. 62
We share therapy updates and how we know we are making progress. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warni...
Apr 04, 2019•42 min•Ep. 61
We speak with Justin from the Polyvagal Podcast. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not give...
Apr 01, 2019•59 min•Ep. 60
Emma talks about homework about grounding. She talks about triggers and now time versus memory time. She references a time after therapy when she smelled fire in the fields from seasonal burning and kept crying. She also talks about feeling uncomfortable with having her picture taken and walking past a group of men. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HE...
Mar 30, 2019•42 min•Ep. 59
JohnMark talks about therapy with him and Sarah. He talks about feeling the little girls fear when he gets close to them. Talks about there being reasons it's hard to talk about hard things. Also mentions body memories, dead parents, and holding now time while also looking at memory time. Talks about not being to be scared of every man or woman. No specific memories shared. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups...
Mar 29, 2019•31 min•Ep. 58
