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System Speak: Complex Trauma and Dissociative Disorders

Diagnosed with Complex Trauma and a Dissociative Disorder, Emma and her system share what they learn along the way about complex trauma, dissociation (CPTSD, OSDD, DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder (Multiple Personality), etc.), and mental health. Educational, supportive, inclusive, and inspiring, System Speak documents her healing journey through the best and worst of life in recovery through insights, conversations, and collaborations.
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Episodes

Unshame

We talk about the book "Unshame". The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to resear...

Nov 11, 201935 minEp. 129

Global Trauma

While on deployment, we talk about trauma around the world - and that now time is not always safe. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in ea...

Nov 01, 201926 minEp. 128

Facing the Fire

We share about the "facing the fire" at a women's retreat, as well as deployment updates. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episod...

Oct 28, 201950 minEp. 127

Organized Abuse

Sasha explains terms about organized abuse, and also educates about self-care. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific...

Oct 21, 201947 minEp. 126

Emails

We read and respond to listener emails. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to ...

Oct 17, 201937 minEp. 124

Emails

We read and respond to listener emails. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to ...

Oct 14, 201944 minEp. 123

Now Time Is Mine (Rose)

We talk about how hard therapy is, and try to define what "safe" means. We explore "now time is mine". The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given i...

Oct 10, 201936 minEp. 122

Guest: Neil Brick

We interview Neil Brick about organized abuse. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given ...

Oct 07, 201943 minEp. 121

Triggers

We share about a workbook chapter and homework about avoidance, triggers, flashbacks, and memory time. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given i...

Oct 03, 201952 minEp. 120

Emails

We read and respond to listener emails. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to ...

Sep 30, 201930 minEp. 119

The Duck Pond

Emma reflects after therapy was so hard that we ran out of our session (which was about getting to know others inside). The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are ...

Sep 26, 201930 minEp. 118

Emails

We open mail and we read and respond to listener emails. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are ...

Sep 23, 201939 minEp. 117

Guest: Sarah Clark - The Plural Association

We talk with the Plural Association System about the ableist aspect of Structural Dissociation. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each ...

Sep 19, 20191 hrEp. 116

Structural Dissociation

We share what we are learning about structural dissociation. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings ...

Sep 16, 201925 minEp. 115

The Beginning of Grief

Sasha processes what happened with JohnMark's "Nachos" episode, including recognizing grief both in now time (with therapist and friends), and in memory time (dead parents), and tries to remind us that now time is still safe - but it is not feeling like it. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcas...

Sep 09, 201926 minEp. 114

Nachos

JohnMark grieves, talking about leaving therapy and missing friends. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger w...

Sep 05, 201922 minEp. 113

Guest: Kathy Steele

We interview Kathy Steele. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to research repo...

Sep 02, 201944 minEp. 112

Guest: Christine Forner (ISSTD)

Dr. E speaks with Christine Forner, the current president of the ISSTD. Christine shares her own trauma journey to healing, and opens up about what that was like professionally. She explains her clinical perspective of trauma and dissociation and what healing looks like from her own perspective. She discusses her goals for her presidency, as well as upcoming ISSTD projects related to survivors and updated treatment guidelines. Domestic violence and trafficking and other “genres” of abuse are ref...

Aug 29, 201953 minEp. 111

Emails

We read and reply to listener emails. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to re...

Aug 26, 201941 minEp. 109

Guest: Rachel Lewis-Marlow

Rachel Lewis-Marlow is a somatically integrative psychotherapist and shares with us about the importance of connecting to our bodies. She explains about the different ways different systems are organized, and different ways facilitating change. She explains how this “language of sensation and movement” applies to preverbal and nonverbal memory work, to eating disorders specifically, as well as to dissociation. She defines embodiment, so as to define dissociation as disembodiment. The website is ...

Aug 21, 201951 minEp. 108

Emma Lets the Walls Down

Emma reflects on therapy, learning to sense triggers for memory time and for switching, and learns about the concept of integration. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content des...

Aug 15, 201937 minEp. 107

Bethany Brand & Kim

We share a partial interview of Bethany Brand, of which the remaining interview was lost due to technology interview and she was unable to reschedule to do another interview. We also talk with Kim about what it is like to be a partner of someone with DID. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts...

Aug 12, 201950 minEp. 106

Guest: Dr. Dan Siegel

Dr. E interviews Dr. Dan Siegel of the Mindsight Institute, who defines dissociation by defining integration by defining differentiation. He explains interpersonal neurobiology, and how that has everything to do with DID but is also bigger than that. He then defines developmental trauma as an assault on integration. He then explains the science of why and how this is, and what hope it gives for healing. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to...

Aug 08, 201947 minEp. 105

Wall of Terror

We share the processing we have done following the Mother Hunger episode and the interview with Dr. Siegel. We share how understanding what Dissociation is actually helps us deal with both false beliefs from shame and the protective denial that comes with it. We explain how Dissociation isn’t just avoidance of what was bad, but avoidance of the realization we couldn’t do anything about it. This tells us, we learned, what the wall of terror is and how to get through it. The website is HERE . You ...

Aug 05, 201940 minEp. 104

Guest: Kelly McDaniel (Mother Hunger)

We speak with Kelly McDaniel, who coined the term Mother Hunger. She explains what this means, and how it is the earliest trauma and a disenfranchised grief. We discuss not having “permission” to talk about our mothers, much less work out mother trauma, which leaves us isolated from mothering and healing. In this, she is able to explain how and why dissociation starts in infancy - and what it is protecting us from exactly. Trigger warning for mother related content, and reference to the mother-b...

Jul 31, 201958 minEp. 103

Emails

We read and respond to listener emails. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to ...

Jul 25, 20191 hr 7 minEp. 102

Attachment Theory

Dr. E explains about attachment theory. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific trigger warnings are not given due to ...

Jul 22, 201946 minEp. 101

Cycle of Anxiety

Emma talks about the Cycle of Anxiety, panic, avoidance, and dissociation. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in the podcasts is assumed to be trauma and/or dissociative related due to the nature of what is being shared here in general. Content descriptors are generally given in each episode. Specific tri...

Jul 18, 201933 minEp. 100

Guest: Dr. Roger Solomon (EMDR Institute)

Prior to airing this episode, we explain some issues and terminology related to the interview. Dr. Roger Solomon shares with us about the loss of Francine Shapiro, as well as the history and work of the EMDR Institute. He defines trauma as that which is overwhelming and impactful, as well as stored maladaptively in the brain (different aspects of the memory stored in different parts of the brain). He talks about how this impacts our present functioning in many areas of our lives. This is dissoci...

Jul 15, 201946 minEp. 99

Emma Shows Up

Emma uses one of Nathan’s musicals to find words for inner strength after recognizing she got herself out of danger in Africa, and that she isn’t helpless anymore. Content note: toward the end of the episode, she reads “blessings” Nathan gave to each of her alters. The website is HERE . You can join the Community HERE . Remember that you will not be able to see much until joining groups. Message us if we can help! You can contact the podcast HERE . Content Note: Content on this website and in th...

Jul 11, 201938 minEp. 98
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