Explain the happiest moment of your life- to be engaged

I literally don’t go a day without thinking of this exact moment where this man got on one knee after he decided I’m the chosen one! I’m the one he will consider everyday! Without pushing, forcing, controlling any of the picture perfect situations they happened because it was supposed to happen! The mature self let the authentic self be seen! I clearly didn’t know that this was the moment-as @wyattherbst said so perfectly “you didn’t know, you were side shuffling to the center of the castle!” I was wearing my back pack, I was ugly crying! This has nothing to do with setting the perfect Instagram social media stage & it never will! That’s why I show my ugly cry to my filter European close lip smile

. On a serious note though- I thought turning forty was enough to celebrate that day! I thought celebrating our 1 year & a half was enough! I thought being in Europe for the first time together at a castle was enough! . @dan.knapp led with his heart holding the ring till he felt the moment! Because he didn’t know- because no one knows unless they feel first! . . He knew my pain but guess what pain is apart of life! He became part of my post pain experience which was re learning- also a huge part of life that will never go away! He became another reason why I love my birthday again! I love the holiday season again! Why I love life again! I had my faith & that’s what kept me ticking then came along another soul to captivate my soul on even levels with the light inside of him that shines strong! . . I never ever stopped believing even when I felt I was at the end & it couldn’t get any worse I just didn’t stop believing! Dan also didn’t stop believing in himself! In me or us! The man of poise & character followed his heart! And here we are together engaged- what that means to me today in this mindset- “we are engaged in one another’s life equally to enjoy the freedom to be ourselves & enjoy the freedom to be a unit in trust & in love-   . .

I share the story about the thought & action behind the ring!