Sequan performed at one of our first Own It shows in 2019. In a piece where she redefined the acronym HIV she also claimed a voice which has only grown louder. Now she runs a non-profit called “Hope on Tapp” where she offers free HIV and Hep-C testing to underserved populations. This episode is packed with information about these misunderstood diseases. The woman is a powerhouse, and her partner Shane knows it. “This is part of our date night,” he told us when they sat down in Harvey. How cool t...
May 15, 2022•1 hr 12 min•Ep. 109
Cary Judd and his buddies made a film called 828. They lived in a van and went all the way around Iceland, following Cary as he rode his e-skateboard into grief and came out the other side. We talked with him about the first screening of his film at LabeledFest, a festival of art to end stigmas related to mental illness. He talks with us about the unflattering scenes of himself and what it’s like to really show yourself to an audience. We also talk about flow state, suicide, rock climbing, falli...
May 08, 2022•1 hr 6 min•Ep. 108
Can one ever get out from under the weight of their past criminal record? Justin Hughes proves to be a man of influence wherever he goes, and tells a tale of prison politics. He shares about the hardships of paying down his court fines and how they continue to accrue interest and also psychological weight from crimes committed over a decade ago. Justin and Phil find a real kinship with each other. Although they've known each other for years, they know each other better now.
May 01, 2022•53 min
We’ve been articulating this notion of “beyond the beginning.” How does one find out who they are beyond a drunk, beyond a news anchor, beyond a junkie? We talked with Randall Carlisle and Rachel Santizo to discuss this question and the result was more revealing than any of us expected. We were honored to have these two inside of Harvey the bus. This lil old short bus seems to be a place which encourages the evolution of truth, where people feel free to really talk.
Apr 24, 2022•1 hr 5 min•Ep. 106
So it turns out that Sarah was wrong and Damian is no longer a shit starter. He has become a pacifist and tells us why. He talks about passion and anger and what is worth fighting for if anything at all.
Apr 17, 2022•1 hr 31 min•Ep. 105
Let's talk about food, and sex. Natalie is the creator of a group where people get honest about their relationship to food. Ironically, this leads to us talking about sex, and appetites. New to Salt Lake City, Natalie has only been in Utah for a year and she is already starting shit by talking candidly about these two topics which can be a problem for people in recovery. Phil shares his experience writing a song called "Porn Monster" where he divulges the unsexiness of porn addiction. Look for i...
Apr 11, 2022•1 hr 17 min•Ep. 104
The paradox between "come as you are" and "you gotta change". Travis Velarde and Alicia Fisher from 7th Street Treatment Center talk about the magic of their unconventional way of working.
Apr 03, 2022•1 hr•Ep. 103
Tell us about the Mary Jo beyond USARA... In this episode we dig beneath the "vanilla" of what Mary Jo McMillan usually talks about to discover a depth which Phil was thrilled to find. What drives her may not be what you'd expect. In a rare voice, Mary Jo shared a piece of her writing with us about broken sand dollars and the grief she carries.m We were honored to get the rare glimpse into what makes Mary Jo tick
Mar 28, 2022•1 hr 26 min•Ep. 102
He went from sitting on the couch as a client at Journey to being hired as the director 10 years later. Such growth does not happen without pushing the edge of what's possible. This guy is quite a story teller. He tells us about being wickedly burned by sulphur at Kennecott, and the realizations he had in the aftermath. What would you do if you received a $700,000 settlement? Tyler learned that money cannot bring you what you want, and after burning through so much cash, he was free to take risk...
Mar 20, 2022•1 hr 28 min•Ep. 101
Recorded inside of Harvey the bus, as promised. This episode is the first in the "Shit Starter Series" where we drive around with 4 mics and 2 velvet couches talking to people who are starting shit in a good way. Konrad from our former home The Beehive talks with us about the parallels between straightedge and recovery. Both sober, and yet quite different in a few ways. We discuss clarity of mind and the power which comes with making a lifestyle choice. With some drug saturated stories told by D...
Mar 14, 2022•59 min•Ep. 100
Sarah and Phil talk about the importance, or lack thereof, of boundaries; Sarah tells about how she had to kick her dad out cuz he crossed one and Phil talks about how people just know where his are. New venue secured at 777 so 1300 e. Also, the duo voice an update on the third amigo, Harvey.
Mar 07, 2022•22 min•Ep. 99
Phil n Sarrraaahhh break some sad yet hopeful news. Sarah talks about a new class she will be facilitating while Phil secretly can't wait for the podcast to be over so he can relax or somn...
Feb 28, 2022•40 min•Ep. 98
This episode answers 2 questions: Where is the correct line in not offending someone? Can you regain your innocence? So far Jefferson has graded our response to his questions with a "C." Hopefully he'll give us an "A" this time.
Feb 20, 2022•43 min•Ep. 97
The duo are all tuckered out after their latest show titled: Some Kinda Love Thing. They discuss the show, as well as adding some tasty little antidote-morsels to the mix. Sarah talks about why she did NOT read the piece she wrote at the show but - per your requests - it IS recorded here.
Feb 14, 2022•34 min•Ep. 96
Sadly, this is the last episode recorded in "The Fort." Phil is moving to a sunny new location. He reflects on his time in this apartment where he has lived for the last 3 years. Ironically finding that it has been his own chrysalis. He talks about what he discovered in the dark and loneliness, showing us the juxtaposition of these with an opening to love. This episode unexpectedly became a farewell to many things.
Feb 06, 2022•38 min•Ep. 95
Why do people have the kinks they do? Can you have assumptions without expectations? What's the best way to learn to allow love? Can we change our core DNA of what makes us individuals? Do all humans feel the need to improve because of ethics?
Jan 31, 2022•46 min•Ep. 94
Sarah n Phil get real focused with a little help from their friend, Jefferson Airplane. He sent a list of questions for them to answer. Here's what they discussed: Is ignorance really bliss? Where is THE line between art and not-art? Does simple have any real value? Stay tuned for the next episode of questions from Jefferson.
Jan 24, 2022•36 min•Ep. 93
In an expression of his newly budding feminine side, Phil adopts a cat named Yam. She's a skittish little kitty, and likes to hide behind the fridge. Sarah tells a story about a bird flying with one wing, and how it applies to the imbalance of masculine and feminine energies within humanity, society, and even within one individual person. Somehow this comes back around to sex, as things often do.
Jan 16, 2022•54 min•Ep. 92
What does conviction have to do with wearing a mask? The two get into it about masking and beliefs and sheep and lions. Phil stumbles upon some self discovery where he finds himself annoyed and frustrated. Sarah pokes and prods to get to the truth and perhaps the reasoning behind why some of us hide behind the mask.
Jan 10, 2022•51 min•Ep. 91
A short little ditty from the couch, recorded on Phil's cell phone because he was too sick to go anywhere. In the winter, sometimes life blends into itself and becomes homogenized. Sarah goes into a story about The Little Prince, and how to make your life matter when it all becomes the same color.
Jan 03, 2022•26 min•Ep. 90
Phil had coffee with his friend who recently told him that t he AA spell had been broken. The mystery of how it works is no longer enchanting. What do you do when it seems the magic is gone? Is it really gone or was it ever there? Sarah says either magic is or it isn't. Phil has an epiphany about the mini tragedies which are always occurring, and realizes without these polarities there would be no yin to his yang and thus no contrast and thus no creation...thus sayeth the lord....
Dec 27, 2021•54 min•Ep. 89
The Duo find a familiar parking stall place to record the podcast which happens to seem to be on the top of the world. After some time--jabber between the two, Sarah looks over the bustle of the not so distant city and asks Phil, What is cumulative Time? Phil digs deep in his thoughts to find himself lost momentarily in the depths of his mind while Sarah listens and wishes they could turn the heater on.
Dec 20, 2021•51 min•Ep. 88
After a few non sequitur stories about noodles, raw veganism, and Red Lobster, Sarah settles into a monologue about Jesus Christ as an artist, and how Christians got it all backwards. Self-help books claim to have the blue print and if you follow their program then "Dee Dee Dee and Dee Dee Dee and Ta-da!" You are a self actualized human.
Dec 13, 2021•34 min•Ep. 87
In writing circles we use prompts to get the pen going. In this episode we use a "Prompting" (that's Phil's elaboration on the term prompt.) It was written by Dalton Marshall, and is based on an idea articulated by Jordan Peterson. The idea is: Just because a symphony ends doesn't mean it was not beautiful. Dalton's writing is spacious and thought provoking and we were grateful he shared it with us. Thanks Dalton! We liked this idea of using promptings so much that we may do it for a few weeks. ...
Dec 06, 2021•42 min•Ep. 86
On this episode Sarah apologizes for coughing on the audience while eating PB off of her finger. Phil goes off on a tangent with one of his many personalities/personas/archetypes/grizzly bears. Can you be a different persona in different situations and still maintain authenticity? Sarah says that smart people don't show all their cards after which the duo explores a potential week in the darkness.
Nov 28, 2021•36 min•Ep. 85
Sarah is reading The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire by Deepak Chopra. Phil got picked up by a polka dot car in an elementary school parking lot. In this episode they weave the two happenings together, showing how nothing is a coincedence, and synchronicity is everywhere. IF you have eyes to see it and IF you know what your life is about. They also talk about how archetypes and genetic prison help them know what to look for.
Nov 22, 2021•45 min•Ep. 84
Recorded off the west coast in a van by the ocean, this podcast is the reflections of Sophie and Dalton on life and the recent death of their friend Mikayle. About a year ago the three of them recorded episode #40 of Own It SLC called "Where is the God Damn Soy Sauce." There is a distinct difference between that episode recorded in January, and this one. Real time experience coupled with psychedelic chocolates has shown these two a lot, and their partnership throughout is cool to hear. Accented ...
Nov 14, 2021•48 min•Ep. 83
The two zoom with each other while Sarah is in Sanfa Fe at a Carolyn Myss workshop on empowerment. She describes her experience of meeting a “guru” in person and her experience feels breakthroughish to Phil. Phil goes on about how heroes are just people who used to be on a pedestal and how now he feels equal to Michael Jordan.
Nov 07, 2021•29 min•Ep. 82
There a few people in Salt Lake City tryin to make spaces for the recovery community. We call them "small town celebrities." When you are an ambitious/creative person: How do you relate to others who are trying to do what you're doing? What is healthy competition? When is enough, enough? How does Grace fit into the whole thing?
Oct 31, 2021•40 min•Ep. 81
Pleasantly surprised how clean this episode sounds without any modifications to Harvey. If you haven't heard yet, he is the short bus we are turning into a mobile recording studio. Kept it short & sweet this week at about 25 minutes of imagining how cool this bus is gonna be. Check our website and find a short video to go along with this audio: ownitslc.com
Oct 25, 2021•25 min•Ep. 80
