In this episode is discuss my realization that I crave the pity of others. I crave the validation of the pity that I already hold for myself. I tell myself I hate being pitied by others and that somehow I am on a pedestal of sorts because I am a man and I can be vulnerable with others about my feelings and emotions. Last week I came to the realization when thinking back on past conversations with friends and loved ones, that I love to be vulnerable as a way to harness the pity of others. I do no...
Apr 11, 2021•23 min•Ep. 22
It is important to acknowledge what you may be going through on a personal level.
Apr 11, 2021•28 min•Ep. 21
In what ways was I creative while growing up within an isolated family system?
Apr 11, 2021•26 min•Ep. 20
What is this idea? I ramble about this idea for about ten minutes here. Enjoy.
Apr 11, 2021•11 min•Ep. 18
In an attempt to look at and try to answer this question I look at my past and how my parents viewed life and how they made decisions. Is man morally good? morally evil? or is mankind nothing more than creatures with the ability to make choices of their own free will which impact their lives in any number of ways?
Apr 11, 2021•18 min•Ep. 17
Homeschooling didn't benefit me. Here is why.
Apr 11, 2021•18 min•Ep. 16
Do I actually love my parents?
Apr 11, 2021•21 min•Ep. 15
In this episode I look back on my childhood and attempt to dissect the man my father was and try to answer the question of whether or not he was a misogynist.
Apr 11, 2021•19 min•Ep. 14
Raised to be racist? In this episode I discuss how many white parents, including my own, struggle when discussing the topics of racial differences and how teaching your children to be "colorblind" or trying to be the individual who "doesn't see color" is actually harmful in the long run.
Apr 11, 2021•15 min•Ep. 13
Grief. Here are my ramblings regarding five things I feel I have learned.
Apr 11, 2021•21 min•Ep. 12
Was the Loyalty I expressed towards my parents a loyalty out of fear or out of selfless love? Were my actions in the right place or were they misguided all along?
Apr 11, 2021•24 min•Ep. 11
After being raised within the closed and tight knit system that is the religious Christian community. I can look back at my upbringing and those I associated with inside of the church in a more critical and discerning way.
Apr 11, 2021•12 min•Ep. 10
Honor Thy Father and Thy mother right? Is Family truly everything? At what point is enough simply enough?
Apr 11, 2021•11 min•Ep. 9
It is very difficult to stay positive or even try to maintain a positive view in life when you feel like you are constantly being bombarded with negativity all around you. In what ways do I try to stay positive even though i may want hold onto a negative outlook?
Apr 11, 2021•17 min•Ep. 8
I have found myself time and time again always letting myself imagine the worst possible outcome of any given situation. Even if it is something simple, like going out. I catastrophize as a way to try and protect myself from harm. Why do I do this? Why is it easier to catastrophize than to let myself imagine something my be at the very least pleasant or dare I say, even great?
Apr 11, 2021•17 min•Ep. 7
How much sex education did I receive being raised inside of a Christian household with a negative view on sex? If I received any at all what did it look like and what did it make me think or in what ways did it impact my understanding of sex or my view regarding sex as I got older?
Apr 11, 2021•12 min
In this episode I explore how my mental growth and education was damaged or in other words, stunted by how I was taught to think and view myself and my families way of learning and growing.
Apr 11, 2021•12 min
In this episode my brother and I explore the Family Systems Theory. A way of looking at a family as one whole. This is also used when looking for patterns of behavior within a family dynamic. Listen to discover our thoughts on our own families dynamic. And what system our family could be.
Apr 11, 2021•23 min•Ep. 3
What was I avidly taught about sex growing up? as a boy who grew up in a Christian household, I can honestly say nothing. My parents held the view that any material presenting a female or male who was not dressed in what they deemed a modest way, especially as defined by Christian or simple religious standards to be pornographic in nature. This of course drew me closer to avidly seeking out what a assumed to be pornographic material and hating myself for sinning after the fact. For many years I ...
Apr 11, 2021•30 min•Ep. 2
Please Ignore the beginning where I name this episode as #2 please. this is a relaunch of the same podcast series with a different name where I am working on specific changes. In this episode I explore how my sheltered childhood affected my adult life and in what ways i think I struggled getting out on my own as a result of how my parents chose to raise me.
Apr 11, 2021•18 min•Ep. 1
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