Above us, all the might, all the clarity, all the vastness. He hasn’t looked up at the sky for quite a long time he realized. Why? It’s not only the clouds or dust or moon or sun, somehow we do not pay attention to any details up there, do not think of sky anymore. Strange… Is it not perhaps the only indication of some order… Some cosmic order… Some rhythm… And as the rhythm is the life itself for us, perhaps it is really the reminder that there is order, there is rule, there is cycle, there is ...
Apr 01, 2019•8 min•Season 1Ep. 17
He is so happy. Warmer. He doesn’t realize it yet. Then and there is seems natural… — Let’s make the bed warm… — Making it warmer… — Warmer… His father made the bed warmer. And it’s not just some extra, unnecessary luxury, back then, those times, it was amazing to have the bed warm… It could take hours to get warm otherwise… Freezing cold… Head under the cover. Breathing under the cover… Let the breath make it warmer… He hated cold. He wanted warmer air, warmer bed, warmer feet, he was happy to ...
Mar 29, 2019•15 min•Season 1Ep. 16
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Mar 29, 2019•6 min•Season 1Ep. 15
Live far away and you die of thirst; live too close and beware of floods… and so is the rule in life where one is bored as emotions flee and shocked as they flood. Somehow, he always thought of Noah’s arch as soon as he heard any mention of a flood. For him it really always seemed quite an artificial drama – how can all be covered by water?.. And is that really something experienced or imagined by those who wrote for us the stories of t floods?.. He thought the bible was the book that started al...
Mar 29, 2019•7 min•Season 1Ep. 14
Maelstroms… Dangerous?.. He remembers how he felt nothing below his feet and almost drowned… That’s many years ago at the sea… He seemed so close to the shore… he thought he could stand. Then a wave, another, some stream underneath sacking him down and away. Frightened… How could they be of any good, he thought… Those spirals… They swallow everything… He thinks again… What are they though… Aren’t they just signs that there’s something beneath, something yet to be discovered, something deeper, so...
Mar 29, 2019•6 min•Season 1Ep. 13
Maelstroms… Dangerous?.. He remembers how he felt nothing below his feet and almost drowned… That’s many years ago at the sea… He seemed so close to the shore… he thought he could stand. Then a wave, another, some stream underneath sacking him down and away. Frightened… How could they be of any good, he thought… Those spirals… They swallow everything… He thinks again… What are they though… Aren’t they just signs that there’s something beneath, something yet to be discovered, something deeper, so...
Mar 29, 2019•4 min•Season 1Ep. 12
Here comes the sign again, as he is turning the page to read about the comet. The very stars he wished upon, the very religion that made him strong, the very belief that his wishes were heard, acknowledges, – and he – blessed… The comet, the stars, the very stars he waited and waited and waited and the sky signs that he missed over the past years, so many years… And there… Unexpected, they appear, during sunny afternoon, when its light, when you least expect. How to reach those? One is the bless...
Mar 29, 2019•3 min•Season 1Ep. 11
The times of Jules Verne… He’s sailing with him, across the ocean, across the seas, brave, conquering the lands… The last one, the least, probably… Ocean was always there… He did not yet think of the difference… Water, he thought… Tides, life, power… Tides, life… Power… The same tides would then inspire him to think of life as… As waves… Repeating, but never the same… Unique waves… Unique cycles… Seems repeating – not the same again – no, not the same – different, alive! What is life? It is chan...
Mar 29, 2019•5 min•Season 1Ep. 10
He woke up at 6am. The most unusual and unnatural thing for him. Yet, he set the alarm clocks, radios, light, phone alarms to repeat, to make sure he does wake up. It was planned to be yoga, meditation, exercises – he somehow woke up already tired of it – what seemed like a fresh initiative or rather a fresh hope to keep him together and be strong… The gym he already hated… Month and a half and some disgusting people with disgusting comments and animalistic attitudes made him feel like vomit, th...
Mar 29, 2019•9 min•Season 1Ep. 9
Tranquility. Peaceful. Yoga. Meditation. Still… We sing and dance and jump into the seas and oceans. We need the lake instead, sometimes. Or is it coming when the time comes? Should we have those rollercoasters, ups, downs, waves, noice and then go to the lake? Lakes are still so that you can look into them and see yourself. As if they tell you to calm down, look at your reflection, take that grimace off your face… Look into the face, into the lake, inside you… One, two, one two… Running shoes o...
Mar 29, 2019•5 min•Season 1Ep. 8
Thinking about what associations he could have with eclipse – the phenomenon he was about to describe, he felt uncertain. Has he ever seen it? Not really… Hmm… He saw one eclipse, the only in his life, that was few months ago, oh wait, he’s got the specific date – 2 months, 18 days, 12 hours, 45 minutes… That’s from the smoking-cessation app counter. He quit that day. Why did he choose that day or why quit at all? Hard to say. It was just one day, end of July, him feeling too down and depressed ...
Mar 29, 2019•7 min•Season 1Ep. 7
— Wearing any gold? Touch it!.. Any clue? No, not at that time, but now he gets it. Then, those times, still a kid, what could he be wearing of gold?.. Nothing of course… His grandma would touch it… She could touch her necklace… She saved them. She fed them, she brought money, food, and, what’s most important, love and happiness. He realizes, after her death, he lost that most important thing – the fun, the strength, the humor, the joy… She was grandma, – everyone called her Mamida – as she was ...
Mar 29, 2019•5 min•Season 1Ep. 6
One needs to explain that mechanism. Essentially it was a rectangular shape, a plastic box, with a bulb and the magnifier glass. Yes, sort of a projector. It could project to any relatively closer, smooth surface, of course. The communist-era children called it Diafilm. One was to put the film – which had slides and go ahead – turn, look, tell, turn again… He remembered that equipment from childhood. Even later, when grown up, they had the version of it. He then showed the stories to his younger...
Mar 29, 2019•9 min•Season 1Ep. 5
His grandma was in bed. She had cancer. He refused to accept the fact and never believed his Mum or uncle saying how bad the grandma was and that she is already not understanding them. They said she couldn’t even recognize them sometimes. They said she was dying. He would come to visit her. And he talked as usual. And he was full of confidence and he told her the story of how he bought his first apartment just recently… And she talked with him as usual, – a bit weak of course – but she was with ...
Mar 29, 2019•9 min•Season 1Ep. 4
So many things come to his mind, so many recollections, images, associations, – numerous, just like the stars. He misses stars though. His city has grown. The lights and fog and he looks at the sky and sees none, or perhaps just few. He remembers the nights, the starry night, where he would dare to step out into the darkness from the open area on the ground floor of the house in Kakheti. He needs to move a bit away, just few more steps to see the sky beyond the mighty trees – the walnut tree and...
Mar 29, 2019•5 min•Season 1Ep. 3
He has quit smoking. The app shows it is two months and five days. He now realizes all the bad breath he had before. Did anyone really mention? No one close and worth! He himself is urging loved ones around to quit now – bad breath is one argument only. It’s deeper. He sees breath as life. He seeks it everywhere. His deepest fear is to discover anyone he loves breathless. Breath is life. It is a subtle hint of everything cyclical in this life. Just like breath – in and out – up and down – here a...
Mar 29, 2019•4 min•Season 1Ep. 2
It’s the smell of hens, touching the solid surface in the hay. The boy finds two of those. He is bent as he slowly retrieves eggs from the shed. Back he goes to the house. There are feathers on eggs. He polishes those. They are still warm he feels. Someone told him to look at the eggs against the sun to see the life inside – is it in there – the life? He tries to spot it. Sees some darker dot. Perhaps it is. He does not feel sorry or happy or anything. The eggs will be added to the ones in the c...
Mar 27, 2019•6 min•Season 1Ep. 1
