Miss Trust Fall

smiling so hard. But it was just unbelievable, and especially I think for me, this was like a real ooh testament of my will because I so fearful. You know, I've said before that I have been offered Dancing with the Stars before, and I've always said no. Not because I didn't want to do it. I'm a huge fan girl of the show, but because I was just terrified. I was terrified I would fail. I was terrified. I just so insecure about it. And also performing in front

of a live audience. I think people think actors like and maybe most actors are fine with live audiences. I have such a huge fear of performing in front of well, it's not just like in the ballroom there's hundreds of people, but you know it's a live show. There's you know, as an actor, we are used to you know, if something doesn't go right, we can do a take two, three, four, five, you know, and the final outcome that you see on TV or in the theater, it's it's the best one, right,

But you don't get that. But on a live show you get one chance. And keep in mind, this isn't acting, this is dancing. Something I've never done, so I don't know. It was like terrifying, terrifying, But I made a promise to myself that this year, you know, I would push myself out of my comfort zone, push past my fears, go for things that scared me. Because hey, I'm fifty one. I got to take my shot now, right, you know,

it's time. It's go time, story time. So when I decided to finally do Dancing with the Stars, I commit it because I'm the type of person and if you know, you know, like I say, I always say no before yes to everything in my life because my brain just works that way. I can't do it. I can't do it, and then I think about it, I'm like, okay, yes, so I can do it. I can do it. But the good news about me is even though I will completely tell myself I can't do it, once I say

yes to something and I am in. I don't back down. Like competitive to like beyond, but not competitive with others. I'm not competitive with others. I'm competitive with myself. So I will just throw myself in and go for it. And I feel like I really did this. And the live show, I was scared going into it. You know, we were all dressed in the wardrobe was amazing. I loved my dress, I loved my hair, I loved my makeup. I was like, oh my gosh, it's all coming together,

and it really did. I think I posted a picture the next day. But I like Pasha and I felt like a Disney princess with my Prince Charming on the dance floor, like, oh my gosh. I was so proud, like so proud, that's the word. I was really proud of myself. And yeah, we did our dress rehearsal the day of. You do it and you go full out, so right before the live show. It goes live at eight pm on the East Coast, which is five pm

on the West Coast seven pm Central. You do a full on, full on dress rehearsal, made up in your outfit, go out music, set's lights, the pyro, the confetti, everything

that comes out during my act. They do it full on, and then once you're done with the full run of the entire show, like introduce everyone at the end, you know, Julian and Alfonso say goodbye and like see you next week, like all the way through, and then we go back to our trailer and we have like twenty minutes to regroup and then boom right into the live show, which I think is good doing the dress rehearsal because you do it full on and then you're like, okay, memory,

save me now. I hope it's all there in and you know, as soon as we go live. But yeah, right before my dance, it was like three three minutes and they were like okay, you know, Torri, Pasha head to the stage. I was just like, here we go, Here we go. And you really don't have a moment to be falling out nervous once you go on the stage, because at least for me in my brain, I was like I don't know it now, I don't know and now here we go. My kids were all there all

five of my kids sitting in the front row. Sorry I got choked up there. Oh sorry, guys. I got to see them right before, so they came to see me and wish me luck and brought me flowers. So as I went on to the stage, you know, I took my place on the stage and I was laying down and they had the amazing like so kind of I did Trust by Pink and well, I'm going to

cry again. So I've had like no sleep and I'm literally going, going, going, and I'm so committed to this this just like emotions are coming out at all different forms. But I was laying there and it's supposed to simulate like I'm falling and then trust fall. You know, my partner catches me and we go through it. But as I'm laying there, you know, you hear the three clicks. So when everyone song comes on, right before it goes live, you hear three clicks, so it's like click click click boom.

It goes into your music. So as your music starts, that's when you know, you know, you start your movement. And I was laying there and I could hear them announce it like dancing at the Foxtra and I was like, oh my gosh, it's us, you know, Tori Spelling and her partner Pasha, And I'm like, yeah, this is us. And then I can hear my package being played, and I was like, stand in the zone, like focus, don't.

They don't play the package for you, so like we don't know, like what you guys saw live, the package that they create for us, we never see it or hear it. So that was the first time I was hearing it, and I was like, okay, keep your mind not, you know, focus in the game, like, don't listen to the package. And I get I did hear though, like you know, me talking in my interview that i'd done.

They put in the package and all I remember hearing before I went on was I'm going through really public divorce, and in my brain I was quickly like, oh my gosh, I feel bad. The kids are like hearing this right now, but they know, like this is our lives and stuff. And then I was like go and I was like, you know, let's start. So it began, and it had

a couple of hiccups. I don't know. Pasha just kept telling me for you know, the week before, like days before, hours before, minutes before, Like it's very important that no one knows our dance except us, Like they don't know it. So if one thing isn't the way that you know, oh I screwed up or I didn't do that move, no one will know it. If you sell it like you got to go on and you know, there's no in me. You know, I wear my heart and expressions

and everything on my face, big eyes. So that was a challenge for me, you know, through the rehearsals at the end, like being like, okay, you know, just smile through it and just go on and don't let them know you made a mistake because no one will know. And it's true, you know, and from seeing everybody's dances because we you know, we got to see rehearsals before and be with everyone during you know, camera blocking and

dress rehearsals and everything. We had seen each other's dances, so you know, we might know like, oh, you know, there was one little move that it was in a previous couple stans that wasn't there during the live show. But if they you know, just go through it and smile through it and just keep going. It's not noticeable. So for mine. I could tell rewatching it, and again I'm really hard on myself. I could tell for myself like, oh, I was slightly late on that beat or that movement.

You know. I think there was one movement my hand was supposed to go up and I like put it down. I did a slide across the floor. The floor we practice on is not as tactile as that one, so it's easier to slide. The ballroom had a little bit more stick to it, I guess, so I could tell watching it like my as I went into my slide, my toe got stuck a little bit going across, so it wasn't as full as slide, like a split slide that I typically do. But things like that don't matter.

And I've realized that now, and I was really proud of how it went. I had so much joy in it, like and that that's what matters to me, because so much fear my whole life of doing things that put me out of my comfort stone, and here I am doing something. Keep in mind, you know, most of the people on this show have some sort of dance experience at some point in their lives or they you know, athletes have a lot of you know a lot of experience, you know, doing sports. You know, I come into this

with you know, nothing, absolutely nothing. Never had, you know, the dance lessons, never had the dance training, never had anything. I don't work out like you know. And I'm keeping up. I'm keeping up. When I was getting my comments from the judges, I was I had to watch them back afterwards because I was a little like, I was so excited that I got like, Wow, I made it. I got through my dance. You know, I'm really happy with how it went. I could tell Pasha was really proud

of me. And I was like, okay, I see my kids cheering. I'm gonna cry again. Sorry, my kids are cheering from the front row, and I'm like, yes, this is it. And then all of a sudden, you know, I'm standing in front of Harry Ann and Derek and Bruno and in my head, I like forgot for a moment that I was there to get like critiques. I was like, oh my god. I was like, I watch you on TV. This is awesome. You're gonna give critiques in scores and I'm like, oh, duh, it's me. It's me, Like,

snap out of it. And then I had to be like okay, okay, wait, focus because I was so excited to just be standing in front of them. Anyway, I thought their comments were very fair, like they were great, really encouraging. I loved that Carrie Anne said, you know, don't be you know, as timid, and she wants, you know,

let go of the timatory and go for it. And you know, I'm in my fifties now, like doing this, Yeah, it's not as easy as you know the kids, the ones out there that you know, we're in their twenties and thirties and forties and hello, I'm fifty one. So yeah, you know, I'm definitely coming out of my shell. It was my first week. I definitely don't want to go anywhere, like I am beyond in this, like I want to keep dancing, like I I honestly love it so much.

I believe like when the show is long over, I want to keep dancing somehow, Like I don't know what warm that'll be in, but it's definitely the ballroom like has been my therapy. It's really affected me on so many levels. It has, Like the personal growth I've seen in myself is wild. You guys, Like I feel like what I just started this, what two weeks ago, two and a half, three weeks ago. It all happened really fast, and I already see a change in myself personally, like I,

I mean, don't get me wrong. Well, let me finish with my comments in my scores and then I'll get back to this. But so the comments were good. There's I forget the name of it. Pasha and I make up words that are tory words so that I know, like you know, because I don't know the technical like dance words, these fancy dance names. But there's a part where we call it the iconic dance because Pasha when he put this in our dance was like you know, in the ballroom and especially the fox trot, like it's

a sin not to do this move. So I do it. I hit it three times, you know, I do my dance like my iconic move, and then another one. There was like three of them, and whatever that is called, I'm gonna have to ask Pasha the name. Derek said it was that I hit it very well. I had pretty clean lines. I mean words you want to hear when you're dancing. Pretty lines. Yes, I'll take it. And Bruno gave great comments. I don't know. I just want

to keep improving. So because now they're a part of it with me, Like I've known all of them for years, but now I'm a contestant. A contestant, it's not a game show competitor. That doesn't sound right anyway. I'm a dancer on their show. And now I'm taking all of their comments to heart, and I'm like, wow, I want to make them proud too. I want I want to come back here each week and have them be like, she took that to heart, you know, the critique we

gave her, and she worked on it. So I'm definitely like keeping all of that in mind. And then you go up to the skybox and all my friends are up there. By the way. Everyone has become such I

call it my dance family now, like they really. Brian Austin Green and I were talking the other day because he's been such a champion through this whole process, because he was the one, like the only one I told about this when I got the offer this year, and yeah, so he's just been there and he and Charna for every step of the way, and and and he was like he was so proud, and he was so happy, and he was like, how'd you feel? And he this

wording was really correct. It's trial by fire this show, and it's like, wow, it is because you it's like an experiment. We're all just like thrown into this celebrities, and it's like, let's see what you can do. Let's push you to the limit and see what you can do and how your body, your mind, your heart and soul respond. And everyone's gonna watch live each week to see it really is the truth. But but I feel so connected with all of the couples. All there's thirteen couples.

I'm you know, so all the other twelve couples. I feel so connected with all of those celebrities and all of those pros because we're in it together. Like h I love them so much. I'll talk about them in a second. But Pasha, I went up to the skybox. We got our scores. I got six, six and a five. My daughter Stella was like, oh my god, I was booing when Bruno gave you a five and I'm like, no, no,

it's fair, don't worry. My kids were so buffed when I got a five, and I was like, you guys, this is all new to me, I'm not a dancer. I don't dance. You know. This was scary, and I went out there and did it, and to me, two six is and five it was like getting tens and a nine. Like literally, I was like, did you see my reaction? If you watch the show, I was like, guys, I'm like, I'll take it because it's just the first

week and there's room for improvement. I get it. And everyone kept saying after my friends would be like, we bummed that others got higher scores and you were lower on the leader boards. Yeah, I have all the lingo now, And I was like, no, not at all. I'm having such a great time doing this, and I really did

this for me, you know. And while I'm there and I'm making my kids proud and showing them how you face your fears, Like I really did this for me this time, and I've never done anything for me my whole life. So I'm just happy to be there. As

you could see, still smiling. Anyway, the show's over. Uh so, uh, I think we took you through this before, but if not, like you get about two weeks to practice a little less than two weeks because we had to go to New York and do Good Morning America and all that. So we lost a couple of days there. But like, you get a little less than two weeks to learn your first dance, so it's kind of a little bit of trickery to the brain because you're like, Okay, I

learned that dance. I learned a fox trot said no time in my life ever, and I did it. Not a simple dance, not a simple dance, but I got that one out of the way. I'll miss your fox trot. Not no, I'm gonna mistrustfall like that, Like that's my anthem. And I was like it was in my head. I was dancing to it for two weeks straight and now all of a sudden, it's like, oh, and move on to the next song. It's like, oh, I trustful, but uh yeah. So after the live first show, you know,

there's no like leading up to the premiere episode. It's every week now. So Tuesday, the twenty fourth, we'll be back out there dancing. So you really get five days after the premiere show. I don't think anyone tells you that that, or I didn't realize that, or I didn't even think about that. You get five days to learn a brand new dance. You're I already mentally, physically, emotionally exhausted, so it's such a high. After the first show, like I came home and I was just like, oh, this

is amazing. Though I was like, oh, shoot, okay, yeah, back to the grind. I gotta go to bed, you know, kids got to get up in the morning for school, you know, drop offs, and then back to the dance studio and start learning the rumba. That's right, I'm doing the rumba for week two, you guys. Oh, and Pasha said my strengths or I am really have beautiful hands and arms, and I tell him that he must be mistaken. It must be that it's just my nails. My superpower must be just my nails. But I guess I do

have graceful hands. So he's like, yeah, you know, your posture, your arms, your upper body, that's your strength. So we really want to use that, which I've said, like is so crazy to me because my whole life I had bad posture and like always didn't sit up straight. Always thought in pictures like it was like sticking down. And I'm like, oh, good posture. I have like a dancers like dance stance. I don't know anyway. So the very next day, after the live show, back in the studio,

so tired, so tired, I couldn't even see straight. I dropped the kids off at school that morning, still make them and hair on, and it's like dance makeup. So it's like it's I love it. I'm like sow into the makeup and hair and war job. But oh I couldn't be happier. But you know, they got to make it stay on you because you're sweating. You're sweating head to toe, and you know you're wearing a lot of glitter,

a lot of makeup, more makeup than the usual. Well it's not just like you know, a night out in the town, not just like a red carpet event, not just like doing a TV show, Like it's a lot. It's even more makeup and the lashes, and it's just ten times. I loved it, but I want to sleep. That night, so tired that I was like, I can't even take my makeup off. I didn't undo my hair. My hair rocked. Oh god, that hair. I just literally took my clothes off and went to bed. I didn't

even know if I took my clothes off. You guys, that might have been a lie. I think I still did bed in my dance tights, my dance fish nets. I just I crashed. And then the next morning alarm went off six three in the morning. I was like, oh, oh yeah. So I I literally was making Bow's lunch and like putting everything together. I had my sweats on and still in makeup and hair from the night before, and I was putting. I was like, okay, you guys, we gotta go. We gotta get in the car. We're

gonna be late for school. And Stella goes, Mom, I think you need to make a boipe and I was like, why, no, no, no, I'm fine. She goes mom, it looks like you have two black eyes, like you've been punched in the eye. And I was like huh. And I hadn't even looked in the mirror. And I looked in a mirror and I was like, oh my god, and all my mess care was like under my eye. And I was like, oh, well, the life of a dance mom. Okay. So she brought me a makeup b woipe. I wiped right under my

eyes and I was like, let's do it. So I'm sure in the drop off line I looked like I don't know, I don't know. People were probably like, what is that Like, I looked like doing the Walk of Shame night before or something. But I was dropping off

five kids at schools, you know. But to anyone that drop off line mom out there, they were probably like, wow, if they watched Dancing with the Stars and a lot of people did you guys got it got huge ratings, which I'm so happy about, they were probably like, oh, that's commendable. We just saw her dancing a little heart out last night, and here she is in the drop offline the next morning, and I'm like, yep, anyway, sorry, I tooted my own horn there. I was impressed with myself,

let's just say that. So anyway, clean myself up. After drop offs, went to rehearsal and I was just like, Okay, let's go. We're gonna do We're gonna learn the rumba. And he told me that I would be good at the rumba. Well, did he tell me that he eluded that this dance was made for me because it has a lot of like hand movements, and yeah, so or maybe I assume that, but anyway to learn the room. But I had to learn some things that he started teaching me that I can only liken to. He had

to hold my hand and I was doing movements. It felt like a moonwalk. I'm not going to lie, but it's like backwards. It's different, and it's toes, mostly toes, and he had to hold my hand because otherwise I would have fallen over. And we went up and down the dance studio for what seemed like two hours, not even just learning this one thing. And I was like, oh my gosh. I was like, do I look like a drunken toddler? And He's like, you look like a drunken something and I was like, yeah, yeah, I can't

do this. Oh my god, this is the rumba. What is happening? I was like, oh man. I was like, just when I go over the first week, just when I got the box trot done, now the rumba. No. So anyway, we've been rehearsing the ramba all week. I'm very excited. Is Oscar night on Dancing with the Stars and so we each got to pick an Oscar nominated movie and the song that we wanted from it. And I don't know if I could say what I'm doing yet,

so I won't. But this movie is very very special to my kids night and this song is truly our family anthem. So I'm dancing this one for my kids. I hope you'll enjoy it. I'm working really hard at it. You have five days, five days to learn it because there's camera blocking on Monday and then dress rehearsal on Tuesday, so you have five days, no day off, five days to learn this. So yes, so wish me luck. Please vote, Please vote for us because I would love to stick around.

And there's a double elimination this week, you guys. No one was eliminated the first week. Second week. I didn't even know this after the Live Shire double elimination. So two couples are going home. Well, we did have in couples, and I love all my dance family so much, but I gotta say, I really don't want to see me.

I don't want to see them go, but I even more so don't want to see myself go because I'm having so much fun, Like I feel like I'm just finding myself and this has been such an amazing journey. I want to keep finding myself. And hey, it happens in unlikely places in your lifetime that you find yourself right. Never once did I think I'm Tori and I would find myself on the ballroom dance floor. But here I am.

So please vote for us. The voting is live. A lot of my followers and fans and friends were confused on the live show because it's eight o'clock. The show's on live, which is five o'clock for us on the West Coast. So if you have the East Coast feed, great, but if you don't on the West Coast, then you're technically not watching the show till eight o'clock. Voting's over.

It's done with, So I'm toadt. It's called a blind vote, so you just have to believe in me, and East Coast you'll see me, Daniels, you'll be able to vote for me. But yeah, West Coast, you got to start voting at five o'clock please, and just you can vote a total of twenty times, ten times via text and

ten times by going online and voting. So all the information obviously I put on my social and everything, but yeah, both for us, and it will count from the first week, so the scores from the judges count from the first week, all the votes that all of you were amazing enough to put in for us, Thank you, will count and then they'll add that to the judges scores and the votes that we get the second week and total them up and we'll see where we are on the leader

board and if we're safe or not. Oh my gosh, please let us be safe. I really want to keep dancing. And there's some really good nights coming up. There's Sold the Knights, there's a Disney night. So put it on my dance and shoes, headed to the studio, and I'm going to continue to work on my rumba and guess what, you guys, I'll feel it in the ballroom.