I eaaaaaaase into conversation with no one; a familiar practice I haven't engaged in for some months now. I wander from one thought to the next: Style Guide & Vocal Expression Data Cleanup & Research Memoirtistry & Mental Health: You can hear more from Quincy and I over on COMPLEX, The Podcast . Word of 2025: OPEN & Green Goddess Tara Performing a Persona with the Mirror Mask & Jumpsuit Published Art Commentaries Unlearning Patterns of Behavior OCD dddddddddddddddddddd The Ha...
Jan 14, 2025•25 min•Season 4Ep. 1
In this episode, Quincy and I hit record mid-conversation and follow our thoughts: We begin by reflecting on the previous episode with Clairvoyant Elizabeth Mihelich, which leads us to addressing the symptoms I experience from [C]PTSD and the emotional neglect I suffered in my childhood . Quincy drills down to the deep questions: "In a situation where you never received confirmation that your parents loved you more than religion, (you knew for certain they would never change or that they weren't...
Nov 25, 2024•1 hr 3 min•Season 3Ep. 24
I have been interacting with Elizabeth Mihelich for almost 10 years now, and I value her work as a Clairvoyant. She has shown me many things “without knowing” and she is faithful to her craft. In this episode, she talks about her training in clairvoyance and what she sees when she provides Aura Readings. Then, we have a personal session together in an effort to reveal the process. I set my intentions around Memoirtistry and, saying my name at birth three times, we begin… You can scheduled your o...
Nov 19, 2024•1 hr 27 min•Season 3Ep. 23
In this episode, Quincy and I discuss the concept of anxiety. He explains anxiety as a message from the self, often misconstrued as a threat. He emphasizes the importance of understanding internal triggers and managing anxiety through awareness and physiological techniques like widening one's visual field. I, of course, share my personal experiences with anxiety, highlighting its exacerbation during COVID-19 and the ongoing impact of social media. We discuss practical tools like the Five-Point C...
Oct 08, 2024•53 min•Season 3Ep. 22
In this episode, Quincy offers a window into why he loves doing the work he is doing. I ask, and we get into it: Where are you from? (Spoiler Alert: AK, like me!) How did you get into coaching? What fulfills you in the coaching role? Why coach and not therapist? Quincy is accepting clients , and is a fantastic resource for individuals and couples exploring Ethical Non-Monogamy....
Sep 20, 2024•43 min•Season 3Ep. 21
Quincy and I continue the conversation about how one can shift from monogamous patterns of belief to the openness of polyamory using my own experience as a guide. We explore the concept of solo polyamory and the misconceptions surrounding it, and we consider how to address satisfying sexual needs to reduce the charge in relationships. We highlight communication challenges and the importance of self-awareness, mutual respect and understanding. I share personal fears about enforcing boundaries and...
Sep 09, 2024•57 min•Season 3Ep. 20
Mental Health & Relationship Coach Quincy Schmidt and I discuss the transition from monogamy to polyamory, exploring the concept of polyamory and its implications. We share insight into our [separate] journeys away from serial monogamy to polyamory, having both been influenced by non-monogamous friends. Our conversation delves into the challenges of defining and practicing polyamory, including the importance of clear communication, understanding personal values, and setting boundaries. We hi...
Aug 22, 2024•47 min•Season 3Ep. 19
I don't know if I shared this in previous episodes, but I have been working with Poetry Lounge Press to publish my first poetry chapbook. In this episode, I have the proof in hand and am driving myself to the woods to read it aloud for a first look. It's real! It's happeningggggggggg! The edits are now in full swing. The expected release date of I Left a Stranger: A Coming Out & Into Estrangement is September 30, 2024. More to follow!...
Aug 09, 2024•23 min•Season 3Ep. 18
I let AI write the summary: "The conversation revolves around the challenges of navigating life's complexities through binary thinking, the importance of finding joy in the gray area, and the need to recognize and challenge limiting beliefs to move forward." My brain takes Quincy's concept of Black & White thinking, and the fear of the Gray Area, and connects it to my experience in estrangement. We also find ourselves discussing our beliefs around money and "free". Per usual, it's an explora...
Aug 02, 2024•1 hr 5 min•Season 3Ep. 17
Quincy discusses his meditation practice using The Way app . Recently, my energy appeared in one of his meditations and he poses some questions to me about performing Memoirtistry on a stage. Questions: Who is the person who performs your art? How do you get into the space to express? How did it feel to perform a flashback from the Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder symptoms you experience? What do you mean by "flashback"? What are your thoughts about being in the moment without preoccupying...
Jul 18, 2024•1 hr 3 min•Season 3Ep. 16
I sit in the backyard with the birds, reflecting on my 43rd birthday. I read from Ember & Flame by Rasaja Wolfe, my soul sister, and consider my next July ritual to celebrate my 6th year divorced.
Jul 14, 2024•23 min•Season 3Ep. 7
annnnnd we just get right into it. Quincy Schmidt is a Mental Health & Relationship Coach and friend. We have been engaging these kinds of discussions for years and only recently decided to record them with the intent to share; we like learning most through conversations with people. Quincy delivers the concepts and I spin story. The religious trauma I have experienced surfaces and we engage in a memory of high school together. We follow a thread of thought: The Space of Co-Creation > The...
Jun 20, 2024•49 min•Season 3Ep. 14
Quincy Schmidt and I have known each other for 28 years; we began orbiting one another in high school. He has a lovely voice, is over 6-feet tall, and is [partially] responsible for the title of my second memoir, I'm Not Wearing Any Pants . Time and distance has only deepened our desire to relate our lives. Quincy is a Mental Health [Relationship] Coach out of Austin, TX. He's not a therapist, as you'll hear him say, but he engages in active listening--he is curious, empathetic, and open--and he...
Jun 04, 2024•1 hr 6 min•Season 3Ep. 13
I haven't been painting as much so I thought I'd work on a piece and verbally ventilate story, as I do . I changed the name of the piece from love, a question to love, defined after I recorded this. You can see it on Instagram. I am painting while engaging the symbol of The Phoenix; this is a work of transformation. The passages I share come from Love by Leo Buscaglia--the book I cut up. And you can listen to my Love, 2021 Playlist if you want. This piece also reflects "as above, so below" whi...
Apr 28, 2024•46 min•Season 3Ep. 12
It's raining, and I like the sound it makes on the roof of my car. In this one you get extended commentary on my relationship with my hair. I have found estrangement exacerbates my trauma in a way I can see it to heal it. So I'm looking closely. I am the Transition Queen... because "I really like myself a lot." You also get more of the story about Plan B. And I mention this Art Critique of Pleiades, 1983 // James Turrell that I finished writing and realized is part of the first chapter of my boo...
Apr 15, 2024•24 min•Season 3Ep. 11
Yes, I drive a manual transmission. I'm teaching a writing workshop in May and find myself processing the outline while also reflecting on the book I am writing. I also introduce my new business cards: mini introductions [of myself] with 100 unique writing prompts that I share during Open Mic performances. How do you talk about yourself? If you are an artist or writer and could use support, contact me at memoirtistry.com/contact...
Apr 15, 2024•29 min•Season 3Ep. 10
I suffer the consequence of spontaneity. I push myself to discomfort; walking is my wrestling. I use my body to warm my body. I remind myself it is okay to turn around, to opt out. I engage the absolute of "never coming back". Coming back implies failure, doesn't it? What if I woke up in a day from last year and had to start over from there? What if I am only dreaming all that has followed? How deliberate are you in communication? I find myself taking the defense when I don't understand. It is s...
Apr 15, 2024•27 min•Season 3Ep. 9
The anxiety of surprise to see someone else's interpretation of my work was a delight inside my body. This experience literally stunned me. I felt connected to Tom because his method of approaching the blankness [of a canvas] is very similar to how I approach the blankness. I was able to give him more insight into who I am based on his illustration that he made based off something I wrote. Magical, and eerie. There are some very obvious things about me inside this illustration, and Tom and I onl...
Mar 04, 2024•24 min•Season 3Ep. 8
If I am "living the dream", am I dissociated? My thoughts wander to the dream state I feel myself living inside of... the dream that is currently unfolding my reality. What if I could wake from this dream to a moment in my past with all of the information I've collected? I imagine May 25, 2023; the day I awoke, alone in a tent, in Roswell, New Mexico. Engaging life as a Choose Your Own Adventure novel, would I opt for an alternative path to the one that got me here? And if I went a different rou...
Feb 21, 2024•27 min•Season 3Ep. 6
I finish climbing the hill at 3:46. I dare you to stay with me through the breathing. A string of thought inside my reflection of S3-E5: I can hear my contradicting statements in the midst of my flow. Maybe it's not so much about manifesting what you want, but anticipating what you want--and when you're anticipating, your intuition kicks in and you can intuit what is to come. I'm not homeless. The pizza was good. I wound up walking to a cemetery and singing a few songs to the bodies buried and t...
Feb 07, 2024•20 min•Season 3Ep. 6
Recording audio hasn't been the medium I've reached for lately. I'm sure it's obvious by now there is no schedule for when another episode will release. It doesn't really work that way for me, when I'm in the creative flow. In this stream, I share a what I am currently reflecting on in my healing process; I talk poetry and editing, and did you know I am writing my second memoir? It's true. My theme for 2024 is Release & Root. I suffer chronic mistrust. I'm unsure of myself. I trust myself. T...
Feb 07, 2024•32 min•Season 3Ep. 1
A mantra arises with deep breaths: I am listened to. I am listened to. I am listened to.
Sep 19, 2023•11 min•Season 3Ep. 4
On the road, thought explosions, oh, the stings of awareness; of process recognition! These are my REASONS: shaking off the old stories. howdoirewriteasigo thisishowiwilllivewithcptsd presenceismyreligion I'm learning how to capture my second memoir in real time; because I am living it. December 19, 2022 is when I truly began living [like] I'm not wearing any pants; it is when I became aware of my own nakedness. APA-CALYP-TIC FEEL :: UPDATE (24 hours after recording this episode) and now this la...
Jul 18, 2023•25 min•Season 3Ep. 3
In classic Memoirtistry fashion, I wax poetic my thoughts in stream-of-conscious format. I wander from aging to idealism, past versions of myself, C-PTSD, the opportunity of "stranger", solitude & the artist's journey, long-distance partnership and what happens when we love our fear with PRESENCE being a key. (Present is my word of the year for 2023.) I'm also interrupted by a stranger who asks if he can take photos of my tattoos and I oblige. Listening back to this episode, I recognize the ...
Jun 28, 2023•52 min•Season 3Ep. 2
I am an investigator of my past selves; they haunt me, they are alive . I’m baaaaaa-aaaaaack! A few things to note: I previously unpublished every episode of this podcast for personal reasons that have now expired. As of today, the past audio is available but the episodes did not maintain their original publish date. It looks like I made this entire podcast today! Look how fast I work! I don’t have the desire to figure out how to change that, so I’m not going to waste energy on it. I began this ...
Jun 11, 2023•41 min•Season 3Ep. 1
I have a tattoo on my right forearm that says, "Be brave with your words." I remember when I got the tattoo how scary it was; the permanence of it, the commitment to living this truth. Every expression of myself lends itself to using my voice. I use my voice on this podcast. I use my voice in my writing. I use my voice in my art. I use my voice when I edit. I use my voice when I sing. I am meant to use my voice. And so, I persist.
Apr 16, 2022•40 min•Season 2Ep. 7
I don’t want to be trapped by my body. I am not my body—I am not my heart, I am not my brain; I am not my feelings, I am not my thoughts. I Am. Today I declare myself healed.
Mar 21, 2022•45 min•Season 2Ep. 6
In this episode, my train of thought goes something like this: When I’m invisible, I’m more myself. My current day job is driving for DoorDash. I share some data I've collected, the experiments I do, and a few stories from my last dash. It’s a great job to have when suffering writer’s/artist’s block because I can work almost anytime. What is this new trend of public boom-boxing? As a business, I’m always adjusting my language and my approach, so back-end work on my website is usually on the list...
Mar 01, 2022•30 min•Season 2Ep. 5
My name is Elizabeth, and she is trapped at 8-, 12-, and 20-years old. When I married and took my ex's surname, I laid Elizabeth to rest and embodied Liz. But I'm still Elizabeth and she's angry for being locked up, so I'm growing her up to 40. Maybe now I'll get some grey hairs. I'm writing my second memoir. It shines a [sometimes-harsh] light on my journey to heal my injured brain and understand the Complex PTSD diagnosis I've been given. You can buy my first memoir, I Was a Good Wife: A Self-...
Jan 26, 2022•59 min•Season 2Ep. 4
It's been a minute. I take myself on a crisp morning walk to process life, and then Wordw_tch reveals herself. (Don't mind the subtle scratchy sound. The mic was rubbing against my teddy-gear-inspired coat.) What's inside: Energy Management vs. Time Management Information shared WITH me vs. Information shared AT me Changing careers is stressful and I'm trying not to exist in the worry of financial strain. I'm finally hitting my stride as a barista! It feels good to move from learning something t...
Oct 12, 2021•52 min•Season 2Ep. 3
