This episode explores the tangle between your defenses and your desire to be free. We'll expose the illusion of “feeling good” as a false measure of healing, revealing how defense mechanisms like avoidance, numbing, suppressing, fixing and bypassing often mask deeper trauma loops. This is a journey from escapism into embodiment, from coping into coherence. We’ll explore the false construct of comfort as a marker of healing and dismantle the illusion that “feeling good” equates to freedom. Instea...
Jul 07, 2025•52 min•Season 2Ep. 102
After five years of silence, Meredith returns for a soul-stirring exploration of the personal, ancestral, and collective trauma we’ve been carrying—often in silence. In this soul-baring premiere of Season 2, she shares the deeper story behind her absence—a journey through ego reckoning, ancestral integration, and the collective trauma that weaved it all together. This episode explores the shadows of performance, the courage of withdrawal, and the sacred work of integration. If you’re ready to mo...
Jun 30, 2025•54 min•Season 2Ep. 101
In this episode, we will explore the importance of setting and maintaining boundaries even during difficult times like now. You’ll get 9 tips to set healthy boundaries in general plus some specialized tips on how to deal with toxic people. You’ll also get the opportunity to learn how to identify a manipulator when you set a boundary. The guided meditation part will help you understand how your body sends a security alarm when your boundaries are being violated. Get the FREE Worksheets here 12-We...
Apr 17, 2020•58 min•Ep. 48
In this episode, we will explore some ways that you can make the best of the quarantine and time at home. You’ll find out about some practical exercises that you can do to rescue yourself when intense emotions come up, especially if you already have CPTSD. You’ll also get the opportunity to learn how important it is to allow for the grieving process. You’ll understand why your past traumas and the recovery work you’re doing are going to help you get through these challenging times and even help ...
Apr 03, 2020•36 min•Ep. 47
In this episode, we will explore deeper into the narcissist’s discard, when they throw you away like an object. You’ll find out about 5 reasons why the narcissist might have discarded you. You’ll also get the opportunity to learn how the discard is different than No Contact. You’ll finally understand why the discard is so painful and what you can do about it now. Cord Cutting & Energetic Protection (guided visualization) Raising Your Self-Worth FREE eBook on the 4 Pillars of Recovery After N...
Mar 06, 2020•25 min•Ep. 46
In this episode, we will explore 5 common narcissistic fleas. You’ll finally understand why you might have taken on unhealthy behaviors, mindsets and habits via contact with narcissists. You’ll also find out the most important thing you need to do before you can get rid of the fleas. You’ll get the opportunity to learn how to reprogram yourself so you can get rid of these dysfunctional patterns. Ending Self-Sabotage Restoring Self-Trust www.InnerIntegration.com The Journey: A Roadmap for Self-he...
Feb 21, 2020•27 min•Ep. 45
In this episode, we will explore how abusers use gaslighting to cancel the reality of their victims. You’ll finally understand how similar this pattern is when it happens in interpersonal relationships, family and society. You’ll also find out how to recognize covert forms of gaslighting through doublespeak. You’ll get the opportunity to learn how this erasure of reality applies to the recent novel coronavirus pandemic. www.InnerIntegration.com The Journey: A Roadmap for Self-healing After Narci...
Feb 07, 2020•37 min•Ep. 44
In this episode, we will explore the false guilt that you might feel upon setting boundaries. You’ll finally understand exactly what happens when you set boundaries with toxic people. You’ll also find out about the particular type of manipulator who is the master of the guilt-tripping tactic and how to see this coming a mile away. You’ll get the opportunity to learn the 3 most important guidelines for setting boundaries with toxic people. Reinventing Yourself After Narcissistic Abuse www.InnerIn...
Jan 24, 2020•19 min•Ep. 43
In this episode, we will explore the dangers of fantasy on an individual and collective level. You’ll finally understand more about why you might have developed the habit of fantasizing since childhood and how that can be affecting your life now. You’ll also find out about common fantasies like the rescue fantasy, unconditional love, idealization and oneitis. You’ll get the opportunity to learn some helpful ways that you can stop indulging in fantasy so you can take action to create a better lif...
Jan 10, 2020•35 min•Ep. 42
In this episode, we will explore the topic of narcissistic abuse in society during the last decade and where that might lead in the next one. You’ll finally understand more about how the patterns of narcissistic abuse shows up in the world through real life examples. You’ll also find out how you can participate in creating solutions. You’ll get the opportunity to do an exercise to help you wrap up the last decade and initiate a new one. Upgrading Limiting Beliefs Change Your Story, Change Your L...
Dec 13, 2019•45 min•Ep. 41
In this episode, we will explore the topic of malignant narcissism and how to recognize the #1 sign. You’ll finally understand what differentiates narcissists from malignant narcissists. You’ll get the opportunity to hear real life examples of malignancy vs. non-malignancy so you can evaluate where on the spectrum are the narcissists in your life. You’ll also find out how you can discover the silver lining after having contact with evil. Ending Self-Sabotage Self-Care Mastery Course www.InnerInt...
Nov 29, 2019•31 min•Ep. 40
In this episode, we will explore the topic of the narcissism pandemic in our world today. You’ll finally understand why it seems like they all read the same book no matter which country, race, gender and socio-economic class they come from. You’ll get the opportunity to learn how this narcissism pandemic is spreading across the world. You’ll find out how the institutions of psychology and psychiatry are outdated and unable to fully grasp the nature of narcissists in real life. www.InnerIntegrati...
Nov 15, 2019•1 hr 27 min•Ep. 39
In this episode, we will explore the topic of having compassion with boundaries. You’ll finally understand why compassion becomes toxic when it doesn’t have limits. You’ll get the opportunity to learn how to set boundaries around your compassion. You’ll find out how you can intentionally overcome the guilt, shame and self-doubt that you’ll likely feel when you set limits on your compassion. Ending Self-Sabotage Self-Care Mastery Course www.InnerIntegration.com The Journey: A Roadmap for Self-hea...
Nov 01, 2019•25 min•Ep. 38
In this episode, we will explore the topic of narcissistic abuse in society and the family through the 2019 Joker movie. You’ll find out how people could unconsciously allow resentment, bitterness and the injustices of the world to turn them into the monster who hurt them. You’ll get the opportunity to learn more about covert abuse in the family, even when the abusers are also victims. You’ll finally understand why self-responsibility is so important for healing both individual and collective tr...
Oct 18, 2019•53 min•Ep. 37
In this episode we will explore the topic of what happens when we don’t get a secure attachment in childhood. You’ll finally understand why it’s normal that you keep repeating the same story from childhood with different characters now as an adult. You’ll find out about the importance of facing the truth about your life so you can heal and feel free from the past. You’ll get the opportunity to learn what you can do now to heal from childhood traumas like abuse and neglect. Ending Self-Sabotage S...
Oct 04, 2019•30 min•Ep. 36
In this episode we will explore the topic of reactive abuse where the abuser focuses on your reaction to the abuse instead of the abuse. You’ll finally understand why it’s normal that you reacted the way you did. You’ll find out about 5 steps to restore your integrity and power if you fell into this trap. You’ll get the opportunity to figure out how to handle these situations in a more empowering way. The 4 Pillars of Recovery FREE PDF Ending Self-Sabotage Raising Your Self-Worth www.InnerIntegr...
Sep 20, 2019•25 min•Ep. 35
In this episode, we will explore the challenge of getting stuck during the recovery process and not knowing how to move forward. You’ll find out about why it’s normal that you could get stuck at certain common points along the way. Almost everyone goes through this! You’ll get the opportunity to figure out in which of these points you are currently stuck and how to get unstuck. You can come back to this episode anytime you feel stuck again. You’ll finally understand the importance of actually do...
Sep 06, 2019•23 min•Ep. 34
In this episode we will explore the challenge of recovering your integrity and self-worth after disappointing experiences in dating and relationships. You’ll find out about why it’s important to identify your values, then to set standards and boundaries around those in order to raise your self-worth and maintain it moving forward. You’ll get the opportunity to do exploration exercises to find out what most matters to you in a life partner and how you want to feel in a relationship. You’ll finall...
Aug 23, 2019•16 min•Ep. 33
In this episode we will explore the challenging and confusing topic of forgiving, or not, those who abused you. You’ll find out about why spiritual bypassing is dangerous and how it’s used to force forgiveness. You’ll get the opportunity to learn about codependent forgiveness and how it’s detrimental to your wellbeing. You’ll also learn 8 steps that you can put into place to help yourself work toward forgiveness and prevent the same kinds of hurtful things from happening to you again. Raising Yo...
Aug 09, 2019•22 min•Ep. 32
In this episode we will explore some questions from the audience about narcissistic abuse. You’ll find out why the abuse cycle is expedited if you go back to the abuser. You’ll get some tips on how to escape an abuser or an abusive family when you’re financially dependent on them and feel like you have no way out. You’ll finally understand how to deal with your ex's emotional blackmail of your kids when they use them as pawns against you. This also applies to your narc-in-laws. You’ll also get t...
Jul 26, 2019•33 min•Ep. 31
In this episode we will explore the tactic of responding instead of reacting to the narcissist or other manipulator. You’ll find out about why this tactic is useful for when you have to deal with a manipulator in cases where you’re co-parenting and forced to have contact by law, or when you’re not able to leave a job yet, or when you would like to go No Contact but you’re just not ready. You’ll finally understand how to manage narcissists and other manipulators as best as possible without giving...
Jul 12, 2019•33 min•Ep. 30
In this episode we will explore the similarities and differences between the cognitive dissonance and the trauma bond as well as how they’re connected. You’ll find out about some helpful strategies for dissolving the cognitive dissonance and breaking the trauma bond. You’ll finally understand why you had such a hard time leaving the abuser, why you might have gone back several times, and why you kept falling into more abusers. You’ll also get the opportunity to evaluate where you are in the proc...
Jun 28, 2019•28 min•Ep. 29
In this episode we will explore the parameters of trying to maintain a relationship with a narcissist or other manipulator. You’ll find out about some helpful strategies for dealing with a narcissist if you can’t or aren’t ready to go No Contact. You’ll finally understand why you feel exhausted and keep getting set back if you’re still in contact with an abuser. You’ll also get the opportunity to evaluate the cost of maintaining a relationship with a narcissist in your life. Take a journey throu...
Jun 14, 2019•35 min•Ep. 28
In this episode we will explore 3 common stereotypes about abuse and an updated perspective of abuse in today’s world. You’ll find out about invisible abuse and covert abusers, two highly dangerous phenomena that are often overlooked. You’ll finally understand how stereotypes blind us from seeing abuse taking place where we don’t expect it or where we don’t want to see it. You’ll also get the opportunity to hear some examples of covert aggression so you can recognize this more clearly in your li...
May 31, 2019•33 min•Ep. 27
In this episode we will explore some of the most common ways that we self-sabotage after abuse. You’ll find out about some coping mechanisms that you learned in childhood to protect yourself from fear, uncertainty, pain and overwhelming anxiety so you can survive stressful, difficult or negative situations. You’ll finally understand why you keep repeating the same dysfunctional patterns that you learned in the past. You’ll also get the opportunity to reflect on the ways that you notice these def...
May 17, 2019•25 min•Ep. 26
In this episode we will explore why people around the world are increasingly stressed, what this trend has to do with abuse, and what you can do about it. You’ll find out about "junk values" and how these may be stealing your happiness as well as contributing to depression and anxiety. You’ll finally understand why discovering a sense of meaning is so important to your survival and thriving in life. You’ll also get the opportunity to reflect on ways you can support your health and happiness desp...
May 03, 2019•27 min•Ep. 25
In this episode we will explore why it’s risky to tell the truth about abuse in families, offices, social groups or society. You’ll find out about the 7 typical patterns of reaction when someone takes a stand for the truth in an abusive system. You’ll finally understand why people are shamed and smeared for speaking the truth. You’ll also get the opportunity to evaluate your own relationship with the truth. www.InnerIntegration.com The Journey: A Roadmap for Self-healing After Narcissistic Abuse...
Apr 19, 2019•30 min•Ep. 24
In this episode we will explore what could be going on when we keep hoping someone else will change. You’ll find out about 5 common thought patterns that could be keeping you stuck in a relationship with someone who isn’t changing. You’ll finally understand what’s going on underneath each of these schemas and how to shift out of them so you can free yourself and move forward. You’ll also get to hear why self-worth is so important in order to recognize when someone or something isn’t matching you...
Apr 05, 2019•31 min•Ep. 23
In this episode we will explore the line between accepting people as they are as long as that doesn’t imply destroying ourselves to make others happy. You’ll find out about the 8 “affective styles” or negative relationship dynamics with people whose behavior and attitudes put our physical and mental health at risk. You’ll also get to hear how these 8 styles of highly dangerous love drain the partners of these people and take our vital energy. You’ll finally understand what’s unacceptable if you ...
Mar 22, 2019•41 min•Ep. 22
In this episode we will explore the important lessons from the series and podcast called "Dirty John," based on a true story. You’ll find out about the dangers of online dating and how predators can use those sites to find their prey. You’ll also get to hear an analysis of common predator behavior through the real life example of Dirty John and how he abused his victims. You’ll finally understand why the Legacy of Abuse can continue on to future generations even when the abuser is no longer in t...
Mar 08, 2019•34 min•Ep. 21
