I’m Not What I Thought

I wish you were here. I know Holly thought I was crazy because last night, getting ready to preach, I started playing all the old Elevation worship videos and I know she must have thought, like, this is kind of weird. You're in there listening to songs that you wrote. Kind of weird. But I just I needed to see everything like it was. Might start crying. I started crying. I'm not a crier, but I don't know. I thought I wasn't a crier. But I guess I'm not what I

thought I was. Let's just call the sermon that can we call this sermon? I'm not what I thought. I'm not what I thought. And if you'll join me in the Bible and also share this message with someone who needs to hear it. I'm gonna be sharing from Mark chapter five. And if you share this message, the Lord will bless you with something better than a stimulus check this week. You will have treasure in heaven. Amen. And if you share this message, everybody who shares this message

will receive a blessing. Let's make it super vague like that, right, I'm not what I thought. And after you've written that down, and now remember you can misinterpret my messages. Do not look at your husband and say you're not what I thought, because that's not the that's not the idea here. But I'm not what I thought. Thank you. Jesus. Mart Chapter five, verse twenty one says when Jesus had again crossed over by boat to the other side of the lake, other

side of the lake. I was just thinking about Brandon Lake when I read that A large crowd gathered around him while he was by the lake. Come on, Anna, say I'm by the lake. Then one of the synagogue leaders named Jyrus Important due Important du came in. When he saw Jesus, he fell at his feet. He pleaded earnestly with him. My little daughter is dying. I can't imagine that. I can't imagine that my little daughter is dying. Please come and put your hands on her so that

she will be healed and live. So Jesus with him. Now I want to pause and just deal with that for a moment, because to skip over Gyros does not do the text justice. And yet Gyros is not the assignment for my preaching today. But I want to point out that certain situations will make your position irrelevant. Certain situations will make it not matter that they call you a CEO when there's no peace in your home. There's no position on your job that can make you feel

good about your life. And so that issue that was happening in his home brought him to a low place, even though he occupied a high position. Now, remember, a synagogue ruler wasn't just somebody who stood and attended. It was someone who actually had some influence. And yet he finds himself at the feet of this rabbi, this radical teacher, healer, and he wants to know, will you help me with

this issue? Now. I don't want to move too emotionally too fast, but some of us have completely had our positions upended over the course of the last several months, and we find ourselves in a place we never thought we'd be. For Gyros, it was at Jesus' feet. And that position of desperation, of course, is not unfamiliar to you unless you're under the age of twelve. It just so happens that Gyrus's daughter was twelve. But Gyros encountered something, and you will if you live a little while. That

made his position irrelevant. He did not announce himself by his title. He demonstrated his desperation by bringing his issue to the only one that he thought had the ability to fix it. And I wonder if God Is brought you to that place in this season of your life where the things you used to try are no longer relieving the trouble anymore. So he came to Jesus, which in itself is a miracle. It's a miracle that he could get to Jesus because Jesus was so popular. Somebody

say in the chat, it's a miracle. I'm here, it's a miracle. I'm here. It's a miracle. I'm here. It's a miracle. I'm here. It's a miracle. I'm here. It's a miracle. I'm here. It's a miracle. I'm here. It's a miracle. I'm here. Oh, that breath was a blessing, because it's a miracle. I'm here, it's a miracle. I'm here. It's a miracle. Now, this is the miracle that Mark is highlighting in the text. But yet there is an interruption to the miracle that forms my main point for

my sermon today. And the reason I stopped to point that out is because sometimes the miracles happen in the middle of the other things that you think are more important. You ever noticed this, Sometimes the miracle happens in the middle. This is like a sandwich approach to scripture. Because Gyrus is asking Jesus to come and do something at his house. On the way, he gets interrupted, and now the thing that he gets interrupted by becomes the main point of

what Luke or what Mark writes. Luke wrote it to, Matthew wrote it to. When Luke wrote it, he wrote it differently because he was a doctor, so he gave it from the perspective of a physician. But Marcus is classifying this miracle on the basis of action, and the Bible says that a large crowd followed and pressed around Jesus and verse twenty five. A woman was there. Here we go, Here we go, Here we go. I want to talk to you about this woman. You ask, what's

her name? I would tell you if Mark told me. I checked Matthew. Maybe Matthew told us. He didn't tell us. I checked Luke. Luke didn't care to mention her by name either. What we do know is that she had been subject to bleeding for twelve years. She is identified by her issue. Done this suck to be identified by your issue? Last week I preached water walking, and I talked about how the first time I ever preached on that text, I was preaching at Monks Corny United Methodist Church.

Then I went on as a sixteen year I've been preaching since I was sixteen, and I didn't know anything about the Bible. But I was bold. I was boldly. I was a confident idiot. I was a confident idiot. And I would teach these kids on Wednesday night and feed them and then teach them. And one week I was teaching about how God can do anything, and I was teaching about the woman in this text. But I

didn't understand the background. And I was sixteen years old, and I got there teaching, I was trying to make it come alive, make it interesting. I was trying to make it vid And I said, this woman had been subject to bleeding twelve years and she comes up to Jesus and she's bleeding all over the place. Because you know, I'm sixteen, I'm stupid, and I'm like, she's bleeding all

over the place. And a thirteen year old boy that was there, he raises his hand and I call on him, and he says, she wasn't bleeding on the outside, Stephen, she was bleeding on the inside. She was hammers saying it was a uterine infection. I'm like, how do you even know about a uterus at thirteen? It was an internal issue, Stephen. You couldn't see where she was bleeding. You couldn't see where she was bleeding. Nobody sees where you're bleeding. That's a lonely feeling. Nobody sees what dominic

and depresses you. They see what you show them, and your feet is clean. They don't see where you're bleeding. It wasn't internal hemorrhy. Stephen read the Bible and no man's voice hadn't even dropped, and he was dropping truth like a theologian You couldn't see where she was bleeding, couldn't see where she was hurting, couldn't see where she was hemorrhaging. And that's a tough place to be because if you walk up bleeding from your nose, I got

tissues for that. If you walk up with blood on your face, it's gonna cause me to stop in my tracks. She was bleeding in a place no one could see. I feel like I need to stop and ask you to think about where are you bleeding that no one sees? Where? Where are you hurting that no one has really heard about. And even though you generalize those places by saying, just pray for me, I need a financial breakthrough. Really, the

issue is that you need a financial breakthrough. It's that you don't even feel like a man anymore because you've lost your ability to provide. And if you can't even provide for your family, what good are you. You are bleeding, not financially, you're bleeding on the inside. I'm bleeding and no one sees it. And even ready for this, even Jesus didn't see the woman. He sees all things, not this time he didn't. The Bible says, y'all believe the Bible?

Can I read? Can I read the Bible? Or you want me to get a doctor, sue, So the places you'll go, all right? Well, Jesus did not see this woman, but he felt her presence. And that's that's going to be important in how I unpacked this, because it said that a large crowd followed and pass pressed around him, and a woman was there with the subject bleeding for twelve years. She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors, and had spent all she had.

Yet instead of getting better, she grew worse. Instead of getting better, she grew worse. Isn't it crazy how some of the ways you try to feel better make you that much worse in the end. Have you ever done something to feel better but you found out it actually made it worse. Had you ever ate something to feel better and you felt better for five minutes? Ah, but about three am the devil sent you run into the toilet talking about it felt good. It fixed it for

a minute. Now you've been doing some things that fixed it for a minute. The Bible doesn't say she never felt better. The Bible says she didn't get better. And I wonder if in this time of our life, this time of trouble and transition and trauma and secret bleeding, if some of us are running to places where we are spending our energy and giving our attention to things that promise to make it better but end up making it worse. My grandfather didn't have the Internet. He was

at such a disadvantage. He couldn't just google an answer. He had to actually talk to somebody. I have it so much better than him, so much better off, man. I want my kids to have it better than I had it. Sometimes what we think is better is based on a point of reference that has no grounding in reality. So if you think about this and again, we can take vote okay, church, vote church, vote em around the world.

Everyone who thinks that being able to constantly share an access every opinion that has ever existed in humankind in an instant has made our ability to connect with one another that much better, say I. And yet y'all ain't saying nothing in the chat. Yeah, you didn't say nothing in the chat. Just because we have more ways to connect doesn't mean we're better at doing it. And yet here's here's here's the flip. The only reason I'm able to preach this is because of the technology that I'm

preaching against. When when Luke gets ready to share it, he doesn't say it quite like Mark says it. Mark says she spent all she had, but every doctor that she went to made it worse. Luke is a physician, so he says, nobody could fix this woman. Nobody could fix her. Mark seems to imply that there were some people taking advantage of her. Mark seems to imply that the motives of everyone that she went to weren't so

pure and so clean and so clear. Mark seems to imply that the founders of Facebook and the proprietors of Instagram are not primarily interested in your inspiration, or that the news is not primarily interested in informing us. So now I want to ask you a question. With the news on all week long, are you smarter or dumber on Friday? It's just a question. Answer it how you want to answer it. And I just wonder, is it making it better? The place you go to to feel better.

Isn't making it better? That's a question. Before long, you start to identify yourself with the information that you receive, and in this woman's case, she was getting work to the point that her issue had consumed her so totally that she was only known by her issue. And I love when the text lines up real pretty like this. How many of y'all really love the Bible? Not just the verse of the day, But you'd like to see that little hidden stuff, those little hospital corner tucks that

the Bible does. All right, look at this. There's one man who is identified by his significance Gyrus, and one woman who is identified by her issue. There's one man who has a position, but he also has a dying daughter, so now his position is upended by what he's dealing with, just like the woman. Now all of a sudden, the woman who is identified by her issue. That's why she's called in the King James, the woman with the issue of blood. Would you every kid in my house has

a nickname. How would you like for your nickname to be the woman with the issue of blood? How about it? Lucius? That's what I call Abbey. I call her Lucius. It's a long story how it got there, it's been through about. It's a whole morphology of how my kids go by their names. He was Graham, and then he was g and then he was g T. And then he was Gt. McSwain, and then he was swaying, and then he was shwig and then he was shwigglish, and then he was leish.

How would you like for your name to be issues? Her name was Abby, then it was Foffe, then it was foth, then it was foof, then it was fIF then it was leash, then it was lush, and now she's lush. There was a time when she was called There was a time when this woman had a name. But twelve years is a long time, and over time she lost her name, asked, she was consumed by her issue. Now you start thinking things like you know, I'm an addict. Now you start thinking things like I'm just a grumpy person.

Now you start saying things like it's just in my genetics. But your genetics haven't met Jesus yet. Your genetics need to meet Jesus with the woman's genetics that Jesus, WHOA, I got a new nature. I'm gonna come back to that. So depression is something I deal with. I'm not depressed. I deal with depression. You understand what I'm saying. Now, Just like that is true, it is also true of your achievements. Just like people will identify you with your issues,

they will identify you with your position and achievement. Like the man who told me on the Rattle YouTube comments. I know I'm not supposed to look in those comments. I know I tell y'all not to do it. But do as I say, not as I do. I'm a hypocrite. The man said he saw me up there. I was singing on Rattle Brandon having the time of my life. It was like metallic of creeping death in reverse James Hedfield saying die die. I mean you shall live live

best moment of my life. Man said, stay in your lane, Steve. Let the worship leaders lead worship. You preach the word first of all, Worship worship, y'all better understand where I'm coming from. Worship for me is not what happens before the sermon. Worship is how I make it through the worst moments of my life. And secondly, I'm not what you thought I was bro Big Da before twenty three in the YouTube comments. I'm not defined. I'm not defined. You didn't make my lane. You didn't make my lane.

So it's weird that we just call her the woman right and we define her by her issue, and we do it to ourselves all the time. Yeah, you know, I mean, are you can even define yourself by how you feel in this moment? Right? And that's dangerous. Let me teach you for a moment. Do you define yourself by your emotions? Do you define yourself by your status? Do you define yourself by your lowest point? Do you

define yourself by your highest achievement? All of that is dangerous, okay, because the moment you start believing that you are what you do or you are what you went through, it creates something inside. The woman was bleeding on the inside. She was bleeding on the inside. She was bleeding on the inside. There is a bleeding on the inside that happens when your sense of self worth flows from what you do and what you go through. Somebody say, I'm

not what I thought. And in the text, and some of you may be very familiar with this text, the Lord put me on a clear direction since quarantine to only preach scriptures that I preached before. And I don't know when that's going to end, because there's a whole lot of good stuff I hadn't preached in fourteen and a half years. But until further notice, I'm trying to go deeper in what I thought I knew. So every time it's causing me to stop and see what am

I not seeing? This woman who was not seen by any people, even including Jesus, who she needed a miracle from what That's what she did. She self activated. And that's what you did when you went on this stream. By the way, today, you self activated. You didn't wait for God to encourage you. You said, I'm getting under the spout. This is old school, where the glory comes out as the deer pants for the streams of water. I'm gonna get on a stream today that is going

to hydrate my hope. And this woman got in the flow of a miracle because she needed it. She needed it. I need it, I need I need God. I need I need God at the level not only of my conceptual abstraction, but at the level of my feeling, my thought. Now, this is what happened to her. She had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had. Yet instead of getting better, she

grew worse. And when she heard about Jesus, when she what when she so that's the first thing she did. She heard. She heard, but I want you to notice she didn't get healed off of what she heard. This word can only do so much by hearing. Faith comes by hearing hearing the word of God. But faith without works is dead. So James would say, do not merely listen to the word and deceive yourselves. Instead, do what you said. Let me tell you something. It's not gonna

get better because you took good notes. You can go to every Bible study and get worse and think you satisfied your intellectual quest for God. But this woman did not get healed because she heard. That was the first step she heard. And I think it's important that we put ourselves in the path of God's word. Don't you to put yourself in the path of the promises of God. To put yourself in the path of words of truth and words of life, and words of grace and words

of possibility. I think that that is so important. Yet she didn't get healed when she heard. She heard about Jesus. She heard about Jesus. And then after she heard about Jesus, come on study with me. This is about to get so good. This is about to get so good. You're gonna call your grandma who thinks the preacher shouldn't wear jeans with holes in him and say, watch him this week. He's got a word for you this week. I don't care what he's wearing this week. This is a good word.

When she heard about Jesus, she came up behind him in the crowd and touched this cloak. So what we have so far? She heard, she came, She touched. She heard, she came, She touched, and maybe instead of waiting for a touch from God, you just gotta make up your mind. I'm gonna touch God myself. I'm gonna praise God myself. I'm gonna be grateful. Gratitude is a strategy. I need to feel God. So I'm gonna get grateful for a

minute because I need to feel him. She heard, she came, she touched because she thought, if I just touch his clothes, you see verse twenty eight. If I just touch his clothes, I will be here. If I just touch his clothes, I will be here. And immediately twenty nine her bleeding stopped, and she felt in her body that she was freed from her suffering. So many questions I have about this text. How did Jesus not Sere. You know, how did Jesus

not Sere? Who did she think she was to sneak up on the Savior of the world when he was on his way to the deathbed of a dying little girl. Another question, why didn't Jyrus him grab this lady by the throat and throw her out of the way. I would have done it if it would have been you, I'd throw any of y'all out of the way. I'll put you in a figure four leg locks so Jesus could get to my house and heal my daughter. I'll put you in the what's it called the scorpion? Remember sting.

I'll be making up all kinds of moves. Get out of my way. I got a daughter that needs a touch. But one question I wanted to ask you, and maybe I'll ask Chris because it's like one of my best friends in the world. He won't mind me putting on spot what stopped the woman's bleeding? And I know Christ is like Jesus. I think it's Jesus for them. I think this is a trick question. It is. It's a trick question, all right, Brandon, You're down there at sea

coast for a real, real preacher preaching the word. So what would josh Sarat say that the bleeding stopped? Because for years when I taught this text, I thought that when she touched Jesus, that that action, which signified faith, caused the flow of the bleeding to stop. But the Bible says immediately, Mark's favorite word to use to transition

his gospel. Immediately, and in the interconnectedness of all things, the moment that Jesus stopped because the woman touched his garment, the edge of his garment, I might point out, Gyrus's daughter lost her life. So the gaining of life for the woman cost Gyrus's daughter her life. Jesus went on to resurrect the little girl, but Gyros didn't know that. You ever notice how everything's connected. You don't see those

connections in real time. Only in retrospect do you see the connection, the connection between the breaking that you experienced and the blessing that God had in mind, the connection between the loneliness that you felt and the intimacy that was developed in that loneliness. You don't usually see those connections until later. And when she made a connection, everybody said, make a connection, make it, could make make it, make make a connection, Make connection, make connection, like a phone

hooking up to a WiFi. That's how I imagined it. She accessed his power when she touched his cloak. Why did her bleeding stop? And I guess you could say it was when she made a connection with Jesus. But there's another connection that I never made. I always thought that her healing started when she touched his cloak. But I read verse twenty eight, put it on the screen, and I found out that the bleeding stopped because she thought she heard she came. She thought she touched, and

it stopped. God said to tell you can stop it with a thought. You can stop it with a thought, all caps. I can stop it with a thought. I can stop it with a thought. It's not stronger than me. I can stop it with a thought. Man, I am not my issue. See, you've been going through what you've been going through so long. You think the issue is you. But you can stop it with a thought. I mean right now, I mean right now. The darkness that has overwhelmed you helped me, Holy Spirit. They don't believe me.

You can stop it with a thought. Now, she did not get healed because she just thought she got healed. When she touched, But she only touched because she thought. It starts with a thought. When I think of the goodness of Jesus, when I think about the Lord, how he saved me. We used to sing this holly, how he raised me, how he filled me, how he healed me, how he reached down and rescued me. You can stop it with a thought. You can stuff it with a thought.

The gates of hell will not prevail one thought about God. My thoughts are not your thoughts. God could stuff it with a thought. I found out thoughts are optional. Yeah, thoughts are optional. I might have a thought, but I don't have to let the thought. Have me be three on that point. Give him twelve seconds to praise God. I don't have to think like this, live like this, bleed like this. I don't have to die like this.

That was kind of weak. Let's try it again. Think of all the ways he made, think of all the things he did. I've been thinking about the wrong things. I'm one thought away from joy, one thought away from la. Yeah, thoughts are optional. Can I tell you how I know if you did everything you thought? You have a prison ministry from the inside of the prison. My God, Tim is so unsanctified. He'd be in prison if he did everything he thought about. Since I've been preaching, it's kind

of like a split scream to me. Okay, it's like probably what the other people thought when the woman was coming up right, and what she thought almost called the message hold that dog, hold that God. I almost called the message hold that dot. Let's at least put that in the chat. I mean, even if you're watching this after three and a half years, hold that gow, hold that dog. Hold that dog. I mean, she said, if I touch him, it don't matter what anybody else thinks.

Once you get over the fact that other people's opinions, they are not limits. They are merely suggestions. Contrary to what your mom told you don't have to eat everything on your plate, okay, you don't have to believe everything in your brain, So the thought is optional. And I imagine that the woman thought put it back up because she thought. That's what got me started on wanting to preach about this woman is because just like her bleeding

started on the inside, so did her healing. Now, if y'all gonna sit over there on my side, you got to get in on the sermon. Y'all can't sit there like it's a spectator event because she thought, Wow, but you can't see thoughts. So how does Luke know or Mark know or Matthew know what she thought by what she did. I'll make a suggestion and y'all can click over to Andy Stanley sermon or something if you think

I'm preaching heresy here? But what if? What if she had a thousand other thoughts and yet the only one that she acted, it's the only one that mattered. See, I can have a thousand thoughts. I can have a thousand thoughts, but the one that I hold determines where I go. I bet she also thought, can we talk about what the woman also thought? You've been sick twelve years. You've been to every doctor, You've been kicked out of

every insurance policy. Nobody wants to hire you. You got pre existing conditions, so nobody wants to be with you. Twelve years. That's long enough to completely give up hope. That's long enough. Where she would have thought, also thought, how many agree? She would have also thought, put it on the split screen. Here's the screen of what she did. Here's what she also thought. What's the point I tried

this before. Some of y'all can't even hear a sermon real good because you guys inspired last Sunday and you feel like you had an even worse week, so you don't want to hear it anymore. Yeah, cool man, and whatever, I bet a part of her. I bet I bet she had the thought, whatever she heard about Jesus he's a healer. I bet she thought, whatever, I've seen this show before. What does he want? He just wants my

money too? You know, you goin to think things, you ever think things, even good things, even good things can be wrong things. I was talking one of my friends this week who studied the creative process, and I was like, give me a piece of advice on the creative process, because I'm constantly trying to create. I feel like sometimes like I'm just bleeding hemorrhaging the next sermon, you know.

And my friend said, hey, make sure you rest while you're working and let your spirit work on your sermon too. I was like, cool, I don't know really how to rest because I identify myself by what I do, and I I tend to associate my worth with my work. Yeah, somebody say, I'm not what I thought I was. I always thought I was only as good as my trophy. I was only as good as my achievement. I was only as good. And so here's what I said back

to my friend. I said, that's really cool. I said, I love that advice to rest and just let my spirit work on my sermon, let my subconscious work on my material. I said, that's a great creative tip. I said, it's kind of like when a computer renders. My friend said, yeah, I kind of like that. But you're not a computer. I'm not what I thought. My friend was trying to get me to see. You got the right idea, but you got the wrong identity. You're not an object. You're

not a machine. I know every parent sometimes just feels like a bending machine, and then an uber, and then a referee, and then and then what else? You feel like? Parents? Parents, parents? What you feel like? Sometimes I feel like, if I'm not driving them somewhere cleaning something up, I'm a housekeeper, I'm a short order shelf. But I'm not. That's not all I am. That's not all I am. Stanie Lane Steve be a preacher. That's not all I am. That's not all I am. Do you feel God on that

that's not all I am. Now, that might be all I've experienced up to this point, but that's not all I am. My genetics just haven't met Jesus yet. That's not all. I'm not just the woman with the issue of blood. That's not all I am. I'm not just Gyros a synagogue leader. I'm also a dad. I need ministry, I need a touch, I need refreshing, I need a flow, I need a prayer answer. Yeah, that's that's not all I am. I'm not what I thought I was. I'm

so much more than I thought I was. How many times have I limited what I could receive because of what I thought I was because she thought she touched, and because she touched, the healing stopped. But you know what's really crazy. Instead of getting back on the road to get to Gyrus's daughter, the one who was more important, Jesus stopped in verse thirty, and here we see in the scripture the first instance of contact tracing. The Bible

says Jesus stopped, so her bleeding stopped. Jesus stopped. You got thirty and he realized power, power, power, power. There's power in a thought, there's power in a thought's power and thought she thought she touched. Jesus said, I felt that. Now, remember she heard she came, she thought she touched. She felt. Feelings follow thoughts, and Jesus stops and goes, WHOA, I felt something, and the woman's like, I did too. And

it started with a thought. Feelings start with thoughts. And so next time you wonder when you're in a bad mood or something like that, like, oh my god, what it was like the weather just changed on the inside. What happened? Do some contact tracing with your thoughts and some of y'all. This is gonna mean you're not gonna be texting everybody back this week because I did some contact tracing and I found out every time I text you is trouble for me. My Lord, look in the Bible,

so up to date in the BBISO twenty twenty. Look at the Bible. The Bible said Jesus stop, and he said, turn around across said who touch my clothes? Who touched me? Now the disciples are annoyed, not just because they don't want to go back through and do the paperwork to find out who had COVID and who was exposed and six feet distance none of that. But watch what the disciples said verse thirty one. It doesn't say it's Peter,

but I bet it was. You see the people crowding against you as disciples answered, And yet you can ask who touched me? Your feelings come so fast, don't they. It's hard to even know where its started. It's like you want, you want us to trace it all the way back. Jesus, we don't have time to stop and talk about your Cyrus's daughter is dying. So we can stop and break it all down if you want to. But it's a lot of people, and it's a lot

of stuff. I was telling Eric the other day, I said, I try to figure out why I'm in a bad mood. But if I tried to trace everything that made me in a bad mood back, I'd never go anywhere. I'd never get out bed. Some days, sunny weather makes me depressed because I think I should be outside and enjoin it. Some day's rainy weather makes me depressed because it's raining. I can't trace anything back. It just comes so fast.

You know what I'm saying, who touched me? It's like a lot of people are touching, a lot of things are happening, the world's really crazy right now. I can't He said, no, no no, no, no, no. Who touched me? And he kept looking around verse thirty two to see who had done it? So I know we don't live by our feelings. Sometimes we need to focus on our feeling and see what led to it. You're following me, you're following me, So Jesus, like who touched me? Who

touched me? Who touched me? Who touched me? Who touched me? He touched me, he touched me? Who touched me? Who touched me? Who touched me? Who touched me? He didn't see her because she came up from behind. And the woman verse thirty three, who is only used to being a nuisance or an inconvenience? How many of you give me the camera write that one? How many of you have ever felt like you were a nuisance because that's the way other people treated you, or that's what you

thought they thought. How stupid is it to be trapped in what you thought they thought? This is called thought tracy, not contacted, this thought tracing. Well, I think they thought they did that because they thought they thought the woman thought she was in trouble. And the reason I know she thought she was in trouble when Jesus stopped on the way to Jyrus's house. Help me do this, Lord is because when she came up verse thirty three, the Bible says descriptively, she came back and fell at his

feet and trembling with fear. She thought she was in trouble, but she wanted to tell the truth. She heard, she came, she thought, she touched, she felt, she told it was me. It was me. I don't mean this in any kind of stereotypical way, but the fact that she was a woman makes me think she didn't give Jesus the plot summary, because my wife doesn't give me plot summaries or cliffs notes.

She told him the whole truth. She told him the whole truth, what it had been like to bleed on the inside, what it had been like to once have resources, and as you spend all your resources, your issue continues to deteriorate your reality. And she told him that, you know, trembling. She told him, I know I wasn't supposed to stop you. I know I caused a big commotion. I know you were on your way to heal that important man's daughter, and Jesus stopped and said who did it? Who did it?

It seems petty that he would stop healing somebody to come fuss at somebody. He said, who did it? I wonder why he did it, because when I read his response after she told him the whole truth, it says in verse thirty four, can you give me verse thirty four, that he said to her daughter, your faith is healed. You go in peace and be freed from your suffering. But she was already freed from her suffering. Give me verse twenty nine. When she touched him, Immediately her bleeding

stopped and she fell in her body. That she was free from her suffering. She was already free. What do you call her back? Not to reprimand her. Maybe he called her back to give her a little bit more money, or a little bit more details, or maybe to give her a little extra help. So I read that over and over again, somebody say, I'm not what I thought.

You remember how she snuck up and said, if I just touched the hem of his garment, the dirty part, the part that has been dragging through the street with with feces and urine, and and and the mud off of the shoes, of the feet of the other important people as they moved through the street to do things that she no longer had the resource to do. And that's all that's all she thought she was if I touch it and then I'll sneak away, And she snuck away like a thief. They couldn't find her. She snuck

away like she stole something. He said, who did it? Bring her back? And then he told her what she already knew. Why did he call her back? Why did he call her back and let Gyrus's daughter die just to tell her what she already knew? And then I realized something. Put verse thirty four on the screen. It's not what he told her, it's what he called her. He didn't call her a woman with the issue of blood.

We call her that. He didn't. Wow. There are many times in scripture that Jesus touches people in their heels. There are very few where someone touches him. And there's only one time in scripture that Jesus calls somebody put it back up, daughter. This is the only time Jesus uses that term. Why did he stop on the way to heal Gyrus's daughter because there was another daughter who forgot that she was a daughter. So I'm not going

to let you sneak away like a beggar. If I let you sneak away right now, the bleeding may stop, but you will live the rest of your life believing something about yourself that isn't true. What would you do if you knew it was true that you were a daughter of God? What would you do? What would it be like if you knew that almighty, omnipotent, all powerful God had committed his resources to you, like weak little Stephen Ferdick has committed his resources to Abby. What would

you do? What could knock you off your balance? What could the opinions of others do to you? If you knew that I am not what I did, and I am not what I went through, and I am not what I thought I was, and I am not what I suffered, and I am not what I lost. Jesus said, call her back. I know Jyrus has a daughter, but she's a daughter too. I know nobody else, Caesar, but that's my daughter. Just minister, lj Just minister. I need you to receive this word. You don't have to touch

the dirty part, the limited part. Come on, I'm not what I thought I am not my temptation. I am not my perversion. I am not my discouragement. I am not my last mistake. I am not my pattern. I am not my flesh. I have been crucified with Christ, and if I can touch him, I can have what he has because I am like he is. I'm a daughter, I'm a son. He called her back so she would know, You're not leaving like a thief. You're not leaving like a beggar. You're leaving like a daughter. Don't you crawl

out of here waiting to get caught. She thought she was in trouble, but Jesus brought her back to tell her the truth. She's bleeding on the inside and she did something on the outside. God didn't just want to fix what was happening in her body. She heard about Jesus and that freed her from her suffering. But when she heard from Jesus, not about Jesus, it freed her from her shame. Lift your hands in the air right now. I break the power of shame off of your mind.

I break the power of shame off of your past. I break the power of shame off of your body. You're going to feel it in your body. Right now, that healing is flowing to you, identity is flowing to you. God said, I stopped everything for the forgotten daughter. I got a daughter. I got a daughter. I know what you would do for your daughter. My two boys they criticize my parenting all the time. They say you treat Abby different. They say you do stuff for her that

you won't do for us. Huh. They say she doesn't get in trouble for stuff. You used to punish us for stuff that she doesn't get in trouble for. And one day she heard them going on and on about this. She said, guys, it's different. I'm the daughter. I mean, even if you're a male. I'm not trying to make this about gender, but just say it's different when you're a daughter. It's different when you know that you belong. I'm not sneaking in to get a healing. I will

be made. She thought, she touched, she felt, she told, and then she knew. You might have come crawling, but you're walking away. So whatever time zone this message finds you in, or whatever season of life, you could be gyrous, or you could be this daughter. How cool is it that the one that nobody saw coming is the only one he ever called daughter. And I don't know, maybe you don't feel forgotten, but in case you do, the one who the disciples didn't even think was worth tracking down,

it's the only one he called daughter. Gyros had a daughter, but she was a daughter or too. You belong to him. And when you go troubleshooting your soul, make sure you don't go to the wrong doctors. That'll make it worse instead of better. Don't do it. I'm really bad at troubleshooting, but I know if it gets bad enough, I got to take this back to Apple. Some things can only be diagnosed by the manufacturer. You hear me. Sometimes I

need to take it to the genius bar Well. Some things I need to take to Jesus, Some things I need to take to him. I'm not what I thought. I'm not what I thought you mean, I'm not the woman with the issue of blood. When we get to heaven, we'll all have nicknames, and it won't be the woman with the issue of blood. This woman, I can imagine, because she's bold. We'll be standing there at the front of the line in case you feel unworthy, in case

you feel like you can't come in. She's gonna be like, Hey, you might remember me from March chapter five. Oh yeah, woman with the issue of La nah nah nah, the only one he ever called daughter. Now, come on, if you got bold faith, if you got grace, faith, not work spaid, not what I did. I'm not what they said. I'm not what I'm calling through. Lord, bless your sons and daughters today. Call them by name. I don't know their name. You do, God. I thank you for j

I thank you for I. Thank you for Charrell. I thank you for for Betty and for Sharing. I thank you for Ebony. God, I thank you for Peter and for Grason, for Cammy and for Kelly. You're calling them by name. These are your daughters. These are your daughters. And Mary and Tamla and the cold. Oh, they're going so fast. Look at all those daughters and sons. And they're not leaving this sermon today bleeding on the inside. They're not leaving the sermon today, just bleeding on the inside.

Give them a thought to hold on to. I'm accepted, I'm loved. Get that thought and hold on for dear life, and you will be healed in Jesus' name. Come on and take just a second and say I'm not what I thought. I'm not what I thought. Right there in the chat, I'm not what I thought. Maybe you need to send a message to somebody who underestimated you. I'm not what you thought. You told me. I never amount to anything, but I touched somebody who knows something you

don't know. I'm getting this fixed on the inside. I have a child of God. We bless your name. Thank you for your grace. Our teams are here right now to minister to you. If you have a prayer request, put it in the chat. In fact, right now, one of our team members is going to lead you in a prayer to receive Jesus Christ as your savior and being made whole again. Right now, we're praying with you. We're praying with you right now. Well, I want to

pray with you personally right now, which you buy your head. Lord, I thank you so much for your sons and daughters, your daughters and sons, you brought this word to today, and we may not touch physically right now, but we joined together in the spirit in this moment. You say in your word that whoever calls on the name of the Lord will be saved. Right now if you feel God drawing you to give your life to Jesus Christ, I want you to pray this after me. It's not

a magic prayer. The woman wasn't healed by her superstition. She was healed by her faith. And it's by grace through faith that we are saying. If you want to invite Jesus Christ to be the Lord and savior of your life right now, I want you to pray this after me out loud if you can't, but in your heart he hears you. Pray this. Heavenly Father, I am a sinner in need of a savior, and I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God and the savior of the world. And today I make Jesus the

Lord of my life. I believe he died that I would be forgiven and rose again to give me life. Now receive this new life. This is my new beginning. I am a child of God. Man. What an awesome privilege to pray with you today and to minister to you God's word. What God says you are, not what people say you are, not what you thought you were, not even what you have been up until this point. What God knows you to be. I'm telling you I still feel the revelation coming right now, even as I

give you this little outro. But I'm going to close for now. We love being your extended church family, whether you're a part of our church or whether God just used this ministry in your life today. Thank you forgiving, for praying, for sowing into good ground all over the world. It's bearing fruit because of you, and I'm so thankful for you. I'll see you next time. God bless you.