#IVEHADENOUGH

this past week. UM. I am grateful for those with platforms who could come forward quickly and articulate their thoughts and emotions. UM. You guys know that I share this platform with my co host Wheezy UM, and she was able to articulate her feelings in a manner quicker than I could. We are both completely different individuals and UM in the way we process things are different, as you

guys have been able to see. For those of you who have listened to us over these years, UM, it kind of saddens me that there have been questions on what side I am on. UM. I have simultaneously been

fighting so many fights, guys. I've been fighting for the rights of the lgbt Q women's rights standing along with Me Too movement, Sexual ass lot awareness, but most importantly fighting for the lives of my people, making sure that this is a black ass show for the black community, for my people, my cousins, my friends, my aunt's and my uncle. I'm stop being able to get through this without crying. One moment, I'll be back again. We share different thoughts, and I want to say that I am

not going to make this a POC conversation. This is not a people of color conversation. To our Latina, Indian, Asian and every person of color that listens to any platform or follows me, I'm sorry, but this is our fight. Our black men and women are dying at the hands of these blue uniforms. Furthermore, as far as processing this and what's been going on, George Floyd deserves to be here. He was a truck driver, he moved to Minnesota for a better life, and my heart his ache for Stephen Jackson,

who I know personally. So to see that man on TV in pain seeking justice for losing his brother and knowing that it could have been any of our beloved friends and family members, but knowing feeling that pain and feeling almost directly tied like I feel that I've been fighting as a black woman, and over the last few days, there has been confusion with being raised by a white woman because of all of this race tension has caused confusion with what me and my sisters and my cousins

and my family, and what I tell my mom. She wanted to go protests, and my sister was just like, and I know my mom is fighting for me and every other black person out here. But then I see Trump flags and I see Blue Lives Matters flags waving in the fucking win by these white people, and so then it's just but they're not the same people, But aren't they? But are they not? And I don't know. Then, as a black woman, I'm filled with also anger at

the selective outrage of our own people. Right now, people ran two point to three miles in solidarity with a mod are very diet. We're marching the streets now nationwide to protest the murder of George Floyd. Yet we have barely shed a tear or seen protests in the name of Brianna Taylor, say her name. She didn't think she would be at risk in her own home. And on March thirteen, guys, this June, on March thirteen, Taylor was fatally shot by police in Kentucky and her own home.

Say her name, Brianna Taylor, Black women, black men, say her name. George Floyd's last words were cried for his mom. In his final moments, he called out to his mama, this fight is for us. One moment. Please. After I'm Okay was assassinated, about a hundred and ten cities across the country started to riot, causing millions of dollars in damage. On the sixth day of the riots, the Civil Rights Act of nineteen sixty eight was passed. When Rosa Parks refused to give her seat up for a white man,

black people stopped taking the bus. They came together and car pulled and walked for three hundred and a d one days. That's over a year. Most of those boast companies collapsed and the government had to intervene. Years ago this week, four l A policemen were acquitted in the Rodney King beating. During those five days, fifty riot deaths was resulted, including ten people who were shot and killed

by lap D and the National Guardsmen. More than two thousand people were injured and the only six thousand people were arrested. I am not here to tell you not to protest. I am not, but please be safe, be safe, Pray for your loved ones, Hug them, tell them you love them. We are leaving our houses, not knowing if we're going to return. Mhm, Riot Lou. Fuck these corporations. Fuck them were bad enough. This year has been a lot and has completely changed all of our lives forever.

There's a lot of weight on our shoulders and backs. And I'm honestly doing this because I have to with this platform. I'm not ready, y'all. I'm fucked up, and I do want you all to note that I appreciate again everyone who has been able to come out and articulate this. But again, this is affected all of us very differently. This, this pandemic has affected my mental health

in ways that I don't know how to fix. The constant videos of black men losing their lives is continuously being shown, and it's called cause trauma and triggered me in ways that I cannot explain. I I shared with you, guys, um On Horrible Decisions about a year ago, my experience in Europe, and if if you guys go back in the episodes, I realized how much trauma. Seeing these videos and seeing these men die, this is all very heavy

for me. And while many of you feel entitled to hear my thoughts and for me to be transparent, because this is who I've been over the last three and a half years and beyond on public platform, I am exhausted. I'm hurting, and I'm full of pain. For everyone that I call my friend, cousin, brother, father, listener, member of the hive, soulmate, niece, nephew, and everyone else who's fighting this fight. I've had enough, and we're all human and process things differently, and I'm on here to ask for

you guys to respect that. I don't even know how to make this lighthearted, but y'all know I'm not the emo one of the bunch, but this is how I've been having these conversations. MM. So when you guys want me to get out here and speak, please no. This is how I am processing things right now. And while I did not want to give this speech just yet because I have not been ready, I know that you guys and many people wanted to know where I stood,

and this is where I stand. I was speaking to a friend shortly before recording this and She said that she is struggling with the fact that she feels that she hasn't taught her daughter enough of our history, which is why I wanted to shed some light on some of the history. This is not new, guys, this is not new. And as a podcaster, as someone who's been on social media, as someone who has lived life as a black woman, this is not new. H m hm.

And just know that this fight is not over. But if you can, if you want to know what to do, teach the people around you. Read, learn, and share what you are able to gather about this fight, because it's not over and they have tried to keep our history from us. They have and now we're making it and we're living it. So if you don't know what to do, learn, read, and teach. I will be putting links in the description of this for you to make a difference and sign

petitions and donate. But I please respect that I'm a human and although I have this platform, I am processing this. I'm trying. We're all trying. Thank you.