Ep41: New Year's Hoe-solutions

part what are you singing? I love coming? Hey guys. Um, welcome to the last episode of Horrible Decisions for the Year. For the year, guys, you got through another motherfucker year via host Now I'm just playing. I mean no, let's gonna say we got through a year not beating each other as I don't even know how we're here in real life. Okay, Okay, I'm so dead. Um. It has been quite um a roller coaster, I would say, um for Horrible Decisions as a brand, me and Wheezy literally

going over this concept over dinner. I know, um, And so it's just it's just really strange. I'm so glad that so many of you guys have grown to become a part of the brand. I think we like to call it the hore Colt or hive hore Gang. I don't know. You guys help us decide because you like hor Gang Gang Gang Gang UM, and so it's it's

just really excited to finally be here. UM. For this episode, we are going to talk about our hopes for the New Years, and that's spelled h o E as y'all know e s Hopes for the New Year, hopes for the new Year. We wanted to take this episode to discuss some of our favorite moments and some of our not so favorite moments. Maybe we could even talk about things off the air, like times that we thought we weren't going to do another episode. Yes, I'm gonna try

to start with my favorites. I don't I actually ask some of you guys your favorites at the live show. Um. I think there's a go name has the name Adriana from Cleveland. She said her favorite episode was XD and Jade, which is funny because I remember Mandy was like, we didn't we didn't do an outline, like it didn't feel like an outline. I was like, I love that one, and I think it's because all of my favorite podcasts have no outlines, but people love us be so crazy

because I'm the complete opposite. I am, um. I mean, for most of my friends that know me, like when I go on trips, I have Excel spreadsheets of our itinerary, and so even so even when when me and Wheezy come on here, I know you don't heard it. I mean, like, bitch, that's not what was in my out line. I sent you the outline before the goddamn show. Why that, I'm like, why the fund can't you follow my outline? I can't so a lot of our show, and I'm just like, so a lot of our shows, I really like for

us to to stick to the script. And wee see if y'all don't know, it's just all over the mother. This one I don't remember. I'm like, literally, so I'm in our iTunes right now and I'm looking through our podcast names. I don't know what this one was, NYC Sex, Dougeons, Bruise, Buttholes, and condom pain. Yes, so that episode you talked about, you were just prepping for um, you were just prep for anal and you put the toy up your ass and um, you were bleeding from it, bleeding from anal

And then we talked about the sex clubs. That's so crazy, like I don't do it right or maybe his dick's too wide. Well it needs to be moved up, but not only that, Like I think an your ass is meant for things to come out of so when you're shoving things in it, like which I had anal sex I think at nineteen And if I haven't now, I'm probably still gonna bleed. And that's eight years later. Yeah, like I had my first experience with anything first, first

said last time. My last time was probably actually in like May or something like that. And here's an interesting episode and it's funny because Preach was here for this one. As much as I love Eight Guards to Death episode three? So can can I can I let y'all in on something? After we did episode three with a guard and Trade busy getting in a man's head, we said, oh, we ain't doing no more. Um, we're not doing no more guests,

we said, We said, what was that? Yeah? We said, maybe guests isn't for us because this didn't really go how we thought it. I want to tell you what I what I what I know now they are a podcasts no Chaser with a guard on. It is not bad right there, It's fun, it's interesting. They laugh a lot. So I was like, why the fund is this so bad? Them two New York niggas was competed no homo And then not only that, I us feel like they kind

of wanted to be as nigger as possible. So when we introduced any idea of a motherfucker athlete and it was just too much. It was just too much, and me and weasy, We're looking at each other like, well, I was so convin And then that was the first time we heard the word bagging on the show. That pissed me off. Yeah that is because we we definitely want to believe it right now. And I think you did. You wanted to and I was like, well, listen, like

there's people. I was like, it's cultural. There are people that think this way, and although we may not agree with it, we need to be able to have a mix of people on here and talk about, um the different things. Yeah, it was yeah, um, well it's funny because now you that night were like, no, I don't you have a bunch of gay friends, dude. I wouldn't use the word. I'm just saying we're not about to leep it out. And now we've had episodes where you

say we don't use that word. I've heard you, well not to someone who said it on the show, Like, that's not a word we use and it's not you and I don't use the word. I'm curious. Um, Preach, you've been in the studio a whole lot with us, What has been one of your most favorite interviews preachers, our engineer, our producer, everything, the most favorite? Man, I don't know, Um, I know it's one. I think I saw you after most, But okay, which one was it?

My mom was here? Yeah, your mom face that one? Like, yeah, I just think it's both. Both of you guys have a great relationship with your mother's which is kind of really cool. So the fact that you guys can have the same conversation on the podcast with your mom's the ambulance, why do they both have these detrimentals And I think it's something that has rang through not only our listeners but us. I think the Lethal Lips was one of the best episodes, Like she came on and she was

as funny as that's bitch. I was like, wait, hold on, that's what life is your Christie she when reading with her, she said that was her favorite. Yeah, Lethal Lips was was awesome. Lethal Lips I think was and the only episodes where me and you felt like nothing, like we have never done what's all Like I never sucked a dick? And when she came on here was like, a Okay, that's what you do. You get you a little tick niggas, and I thank him every day for getting me ready.

That's all you gotta do. Let him you want to ask, get in a shower. And then not only that, she dropped gems and was like, don't funk with no nigga who wear black socks because that nigga dirty dirty. If you were James was a dope episode. He was one of my favorites. So on the episode with James, we kind of got to really dig into kind of how we how we how we come across and um, kind of how we contradict some of the things that we

do say or stand by. J phobia liberal the day He's like, I'm not, but even just the hor phobia, because I don't think that we really align ourselves with the slut walk or the Amber Rose movement, but more so on just being comfortable with who you are in your sexuality, and I think that's a big thing. The interesting thing about his episode, people wrote in a lot saying it was their favorite, and then at people said

they hated it. My favorite was remember that I told the couple guys, if you guys have not listened to this episode ten, bitch. I know, because I'd be telling everybody if you guys have not yet listened. And I think that that was actually one of the one of the tipping points to us being like we can people, we gotta get some good interviewers in here. Um And if you guys have not listened to episode ten yet,

it's uh. It's a couple in which both parties are bisexual, the man and the woman, and just the stories and fucking bombs that were driving before it was with a man. Um And I guess another people like Tahoe's episode a lot because Tahowai ship. Shout out to Tahoe if you guys are looking for another podcast. So Shameless is now just Tahoe and he's doing a May interviewing. He interviewed his goddamn baby mama. He and he's really getting down to some real now. Shout out if you haven't yet. Also,

we had Passport Cutty on the show. She came through and dropped some gems on her. I thought we were grouping out over Cutty. Kenny. I followed you in two O nine, Okay, I remember all of you. My two favorites were episode four, Episode four, it's called Tender Golden Showering Tears. That's when I told my peace story. Mandy talked about how Nigga wanted to mix her pee with rock and I could here because that was when Loverboy

made me. We named him. Loverboys was the one that was the other one when she played herself being one the g O the episode eight that was with my friend and I remember. It's funny because at first I didn't like her. I'm gonna just be very honest. She was shading her car. I was I thought she was. I think it's when people have stories that are so crazy, sometimes I think they're lying. And I realized some people

think we lie. So she got in the car and was like saying, girl, you have a nigga dude this and it isn't like to but you have to realize. And I think it's something that we've talked about more on the show, so we get so many Um, it's so funny you guys call us your bfs now, And I think that you have to realize there are so many people uncomfortable talking about these things, that people can't

share the stories with their friends all the time. So when she was doing that, it made me think she was trying to like, but she just she only found a hole and she talked to I liked, I mean a car with a hole. Like Girl by the way, was a like. She owns her own pr agents and money.

She now works for Atlantic and I saw he documentary and now she's an a in Atlantic, and I think that, Yeah, I think it's amazing that we just are able to have people that come in here and who can openly talk about their sex lives and know that they're out here doing the goddamn thing and they're regular career I do want to talk about one thing a lot of people.

Sometimes I don't know how to describe the show. And initially when we first started, I was like, we're going to get on and tell our sex stories, right, We're gonna interview people sometimes, but we're gonna tell our stories. Then I realized how often can I get fun? And we went to hold four months around me hitting no date. So now the way I describe our show as I say, we have a show about the horrible decisions we make, and we bring on everyday people to tell their kinks

and they're crazy shit. Like I met a dentist. I don't know if I told you. I'm trying to get him on Midtown dentist New York, huge office has an oral fixation that did not come until he became a dentist, he said. Now he makes sure that he leans the chairback sometimes because he gets so hard touching people's mouth, he said, even sometimes men. He said, he's straight. He's something about the saliva sometimes something they used the tool to hold your mouth op and he's like all of it,

this action where you got. I'm like, dudn't where you come on? He said. He's scared that one person is gonna notice and it's gonna affect his practice. Ben his voice, we couldn't change his voice. You can't we done here is anonymous to do so, But like that's what I want. I want people, I want this show to be people that I want, like the teachers that we met that we met a shot the live show and just even

talking about them in a very intimate setting. Intimate, but there was two hundred people that you can still enjoy this show and not be a crazy, motherfucking free Yeah, and so I really like that. And so I actually um coming to here on the train. I got a message on Twitter, and I want to read it because this relates to I believe episode twenty four, the top ten blowjob tips, which right, but I mean they still people. People are not prose like us as sucking dick. Okay,

we have to realize this. And to the dick sucking contest that I lost, that you lost, you're not as much. I was nervous. Um. So this lady said, Hey, Mandy loved the podcast. I just wanted y'all to know that the dick sucking tips the improved my head game. I usually only give my hubby head on special occasions, but she said, but since using the tips you all gave, I gave him head two nights in a row and he loved it. Keeps doing the dance. Let's go, hey girl,

not bitch. And I guess he said, and she said that he loved it. And it's something that we talked about in the previous episode just women. Maybe you guys initiating more of the sex and so as two women, UM and I know we've talked about females feeling oppressed, especially black women, UM and and not really owning your sexuality. I think that it's super exciting that we're literally changing people's lot sex lives, like the Obama of sex. I think one thing you your podcast is really done is made.

I think you made people who felt judging about what they're doing in their bedrooms or outside their bedrooms. You've made it. Okay, you haven't made. You can embrace it and not feel like before Mandy walked in the studio, Preach you was saying to me, so just let you guys know even talking about being managed finally and so those of you are hitting us up about ads and stuff like that, we'll finally have a place to for you to go to and inquire about us and doing

more live shows. And so Preach and I were sitting here before Mandy got and he goes. People ask me all the time how you guys got popular, and I wanted to ask you preach. Have you heard anybody come in here and tell you why they like us? Or do you or even how do you answer that question? They just tell me that, you know, are really fuss with the podcast, like they always say, like it's it's

just dope. And I think that goes because I don't know if they want to say oh because I'm a freak and I don't have to, but so they'll just keep it like it's so crazy, so people for people don't know how the studio works, Like I'll run through logos to to put out the monitor so they'll see your logo and immediately he's like, yo, what's that about. Yeah, it's always like me and Mandy can't get on one

of one of the platforms. So it's funny and I want to share with you guys, Tom, even as much as we embrace our house ship, and although this podcast has become more educational and really teaching you guys some stuff. Um for the live show, we got denied three times for our Snapchat filter, which is why there was no Snapchat filter a lot allowed. And so I responded finally and was like, well what is wrong with the Snapchat filter?

And he's like, well, for one, there's the whore needs to be removed, and I was like, well, that's kind of the title, and then he's like, yeah, the picture of the people with the bananas in their mouths, that's just kind of not appropriate snatch, and so we couldn't. Um. We we actually weren't able to have a Snapchat filter with our logo, with our brand. And then there was

actually another platform that I contacted. They like to feature podcasts in different shows, and so I contacted them about possibly featuring the King Noir episode because I knew it would be very informal um and they responded and was like, well, after looking at the cover art and seeing what your show is about, I'm sorry we can't put you guys on there any Is there any talk of rebranding or

changing I don't think you should. I did ask Mandy at one point with work to remember that when I was like, I have to change this cover art, and I said no, besides this podcast, I just don't like that people where they work outside of their podcasts are influencing what they're doing creatively. I hate that ship for sure, because I'm not doing it during your time, I'm doing it after hours. I'm doing it on the weekends. I'm not doing it in your building. I'm not wearing your

logo or the company logo. I'm not mentioning the company that I was Yeah, buy the software. And but it's crazy because I think, um, even even when we first started the podcast, a lot of my friends knowing that I'm entering you know, finance and accounting, and it's a very conservative And that guy you were talking to was like, I don't know what you're doing with yourself. Yeah, and so yeah, I had a guy actually tell me and

he claimed to be a friend. Um, but there's a lot of judging that he does, not only with my Instagram, but now with this podcast especially. I don't know if you noticed, but we took a video I have a dildo to my face of the headphone and she has a leash on. It has probably twenty four thousand views, and they're just like, what are you doing with dildos on Instagram? Like, and I was gonna Jake, Yeah, one of my pictures wasn't pink. It's a pink dildo, so

it's not even resembling a penis. It got removed and so it's just weird. Because now that we are like heading literally on this goddamn podcast, it's just like heading head and just you know, I told my therapist something or something that I never admitted or said out loud, but I was like, you know, I've been with lover BOYD since the start of this show, and I'm scared to leave that nigga, because how do I That's the next question. Has this podcast changed your guys last person

as far as personal relationship? Absolutely? But how am I going to meet someone new? And then they can go back fifty episodes in here and it's very intimidating, very air to meet someone who I swear I think that as someone who's single like myself, And I've shared on the podcast a couple of episodes that I've dated guys, and they'll be like, well, you can't keep doing this podcast? I care. How come I can let all these tens of thousands of people know every month, but I can't

tell someone I'm intimate with someone. Why am I afraid of that? It's not that it's not that you're afraid. It's honestly, they're gonna they're gonna be afraid of how people are gonna judge him for quote unquote wifing ah, and I think that that's I've never thought of you guys as holes, although that's the moniker and that's what the ongoing theme. I guess that's what listeners. And that's when I knew at that live show, like people really don't. When people are using the word classy, I have to

say that again, classy such a classy way. We're up there with banana stuck down our I agree with them because there's a certain you're not ratchet with it. You see what I'm saying. You know what I mean when I say ratchet like it's it could it could just be like I'm gonna try this and stick up this. Then I think that it could be tastefully done. I think that also. The confidence is something that maybe it's

like not taking as ratchet or bla blah blah. It's it's when you own it, which makes it for some reason, other people see it in this different way. It's even me and you can laugh and talk to it about hose, but behind the scenes there this bitch be doing this,

this and that. But there's something about owning it, much like Lisa splifs in that makes you suddenly respect somebody for it's like when and just like you get mad at me, like these hews on Instagram, well because there's no but I do that, but it's not even owning it. But I feel like we've done such a good job with literally not judging that. When you sit here and

talk about the Instagram models. Mind you Instagram models, of which a lot of my friends are, I do kind of take it personal because it's just like, we do what we do, and bitch, I know, our first five episodes, you came on and talked about sex with five different people, and I'm like, the way you judge sometimes the Instagram models, I'm like, but you don't have to x more than they have I judge. Maybe let me try to articulate you better. I judged Instagram models because sex workers is

what sex work. Sex being like acceptable is what we're trying to do with this podcast, right, And a lot of these Instagram models are in sex work and pretend to be doing something else, and it sheds this light like it's an embarrassing thing to do, which I don't appreciate. But see what you just said is how they pretend to do something else. Lisa's are actually, every sex worker that we've had come on, aside from Candy Deep Throat, I believe all of them have jobs outside of sex work.

And so just because they openly expressed their sex work doesn't mean that if I'm if I'm a quote unquote stylists, I can't be a stilist and sell pussy on the side, which is which is why I think that us we sit here and talk about how we're in corporate America

and which we do whole ship. We've talked about me sitting here being in finance and fucking ball players or getting money from married men, and so when when you sit here and put the Instagram models in a bubble, to me, it's a bubble that doesn't exist because it's a bubble that a lot of us are in. It's

a bubble to wear. If you sat here and ever accepted money from a man, you're you don't have a million followers, and you're not sitting here publicizing that you've gotten that money from another man, which I think is what I think its more so of like women assuming that this is like the life that they're sitting out there getting it and flying in just because their stylists and it's like, but none of us and I do it even on my Instagram. None of us share our

entire lives with people. And I have people sit here and ask me like why do we go the nigga shade me? And was like when I told him I was in school getting my BS and accounting, he was like, oh online And to me that was just shade because it's just do you think especially with the climate now with the hashtag me too and all the women that have come out, I can't believe we haven't even diminished.

Do you think that's diminished or will affect the perception of what the show is because essentially, like because something happens you you know what I mean, Like people might look at it and say, well, you can't you guys deserve this because look what do you guys talk about and look at your logo, which is unfair. Um, I don't know if it will diminish the show. Wait, I'm

now I'm a little confused. We haven't discussed anything. We have not, and it's surprising because people have asked us like when we're going to have the conversation as far as rape or um sexual assault, And I mean it's crazy because I think, honestly, me and we look, we see's over there, scratch and she got highs come and talk about this guy. Damn topic. It's such a sensitive topic and we will talk to talk about it when they can't, Like, I think that nobody can do that

ship justice. I've listened to like seven milli Vidiots episodes or they keep talking about idiots keep talking about and that I don't love them, but and I'm still gonna listen every week. But it's two men that keep talking about something that they can't talk And then they had a female on it and she was just victim blaming the whole episode. I hate it was probably my worst, that my least favorite. It's kind of those are sitting here complaining about n like and she had she said

that she was sexually assaulted. I think it's an episode that me and we do want to have. I'm not gonna I think we also want to have someone on the show who has been raped or someone who is a part of not not the slut walk, but someone who's really an advocate of sexual assault. UM. And so yeah, it's a topic that me and we have a problem. It's like I as a person. I can see the difference. I can see the line like, there's nothing wrong with

being sexual and conveying your sexuality. That still doesn't mean it invites you to violate me. Well you in that way. So just because you're to do that, because you're right, we could diminish something. Think about when we had with the episode with her piece, and there's a few people that said, oh, you act like herpes is okay. The HIV episode, we talked about how you can live on through it. I don't want to make it sound like rape is okay, and I don't think I don't know

what I'm gonna do. Yeah, it's a it's a conversation that we haven't yet touched on how we're going to execute it. We want this to a woman. I think we've all heard these stories. Probably bring a man on who didn't sexually assaulted somebody. Yep, who was somebody has been charged with it. But that's what I'm saying. We don't have someone open to come on and say, yep, I have her pest, I have HIV and so, but to admit you've done something women, especially in this climate,

I'm gonna go on. I'm gonna go on. If you guys remember from the past episode, I'm going to go and may down if you ever and try to find somebody or you notty dot com and find somebody who's in there first secution and we could have them write us a letter and talk about their what made him do it? But I got sexually arrassd okay by woman? How they grabbed you? But what were you doing? What kind of job I was working at? It was an office job. Kind of a man gets sexually assaulted sexually

right into a sexual assault episode. I got sexually arrassed, but it wasn't nothing like I'll say it right now. If she was bad, I would have went through with it. Was she older, Yeah, it's much older. I was nineteen at the time. And she was like, what did she do? Did she touch you? But she was very like numerous times, numerous m a threats. Wait, she made threats to you that probably turned her on. Was she black? Yeah, I just kid, you're a white woman doing wands. Wait, but

threaten you to do what? No, it was it was empty threats. Like I was talking to a friend. I just became friends with another girl at the office, and then she was engaged. So she was gonna tell her fiance that me and her were hooking up. If you didn't do what if I didn't like, I don't know like she wanted me to like. It started off she said her favorite time at night is three am, and I'm nineteen, Like, what what are you talking about? Like, I'll tell you whole story offline? What so what I

wanted one more? What was your besides episode three? We talked about what episode did you not like? What episode did I not like? That? There was one specific episode and I actually did a whole blurb in the beginning of the episode. So we had on the We had on Sebastian, who was a game out escort. You were here for that, and he walked out in the middle

of recording. We we got left in this. It was right after Lethal Lips that we were like yeah, and so my roommate, Lethal Lips, and the engineer all walked out because we're literally recorded yeahs to shoot on to shoot on you yeah. Like So I want to let you guys know that we try our very best in vetting who we have come onto this show, because I think it's very important that we come on here and bring people who not only bring truth and their experiences

and reality, but that you guys learned from it. And during this interview, UM and I said it on Patreon again and I love that I can talk with you guys now on there. I literally said that in the in the interview, he just contradicted himself so much that I didn't believe anything out of his mouth. Not only that the numbers as far as money that he was talking about in this lifestyle that he was we know the nigger in real life and it just went okay, But that that was one of the first episodes where

I remember I never closed episode early. I said, all right, thanks for coming up. We got stuffed that I was like, okay, because you didn't feel energy when it's other than that. Honestly, I've left the studio saying, oh my god that and won't either say we don't know how we feel and sometimes I'm not gonna lie. Actually, the episode that we did release, UM, I did not like this episode with b K Chat with My Pussy is Golden Get my Diner. Yeah, it was very just UM against everything that we think

of and I think people parts were attacking them. Yeah, we got definitely feedback that we did when you talked about I don't know. Their psychology is not a degree for so many and she's like, no, you know, I'm gonna go in. But even then, you still can't do afters. You need to go for a p a talk. There's a good part of the podcast you're not want to clipping that podcast that I sent Mandy a minute mark where we said, and so what do you She goes, I'm you know, I'm pushing him for his PhD. He's

getting it. We said, okay, and what um We said, Okay, I'm sorry, litening, Okay, let's not make fun. So it's so funny because for the kink of the week for this episode, UM I wanted to actually maybe talk about previous kinks um any and talk about maybe if there's been any that we've tried since talking about it, UM, anything that maybe we've considered doing. UM So, what has been some of your favorite kinks that we've talked about. Clearly,

piss has been an ongoing discussion throughout the show. UM I have not pissed on anyone since we've been talking about paying on somebody. I'm definitely gonna do my first golden shower with love a voice suit I said to him, was like, do you want me to be on you or you want to be me? He said, fat be on me. But I think it's only I don't think it's like like sit there with your mouth open thing. He's really into squirting. I can't do it, and I

think he's just he doesn't want you to piss. I think he just want to say more crazy wet sous me. I've been trying to convince them to go to Mexico for MLK weekend because I'm trying to be old in some tacos doing a boomerang. I hate you much. Another one I really want to do is when we had aquaphil. Yet I want to be not drowned. I'm trying to think of another one I do. I mean, I want I guess aquaphiley in a different way. I've always wanted to have sex, like on a beach in the water,

and should I have it burned? I know, because there's sand, right, I've always I don't know how that works, but I want to have sex on the beach. I don't think he does. No. Actually, the dude I was dating at the time was like, oh my god, I pete and I could see the sand come up. Yes, what there was sand like the kid he was uncircumcised and so like he was in the bathroom a long time back back to the um. If y'all know, I do not do the turtle. One thing I want to do and

I'm really scared to say this. I hope it doesn't bring the move down. What do you want to show on somebody? I have a rape fantasy. You and I both. I actually talked about this with Kignoir. I kind of just wanted to get a funk out of me. But I don't think okay, I think we're using the wrong word. Maybe now please describe this because so people don't take this right wherever, Like okay, I think it's just the

aggressiveness like I want him to I told him. I was like, I want to, Yes, I want to give him the key to my apartment and I want I want to have just seven days in the week. I'm like, don't tell me when you're coming over. I want you to come in. I don't know what I'm gonna be doing. I want you to sun this out of me. You don't talk to me, make me feel scared, like I just wanted to be this like taken over thing. But yeah, okay, that makes sense for me. Um, It's it's a fantasy

that I've had. And it's crazy because I even said this. I can't find ship on porn hubb on it Like I type in rape and it doesn't show up. And I think because it's very sensitive, Yeah, and it shouldn't. Yeah, but there's something I think that is because I am so dominant in the bedroom with a lot of the

guys that I deal with. It Damn, that sounded bad, But I'm very dominant that there is a part of me that just wants to be completely overcome by a person that I'm dealing with, not anyone knew, not anyone that I don't know, but someone who I'm genuinely comfortable with. There's a lot of wanted to be like no, no, I don't want it, and he'd be like, yes, you do, a bitch and monsters. I want to take that clip so bad and making my text message Okay, I could

be like who is the guest? Wait? Both of you? That is a scene. They're interesting enough. On Sex in the City, where Samantha was dating Smith Jared, who was a blonde model dude and he came in and it was a burglary scene. A lot of women did not like this in sexon City, do you remember this, No,

I don't. So he came in the house with all black on, in a hoodie and like a thing over his face and she was like, oh my god, my husband's at home, blah blah blow and he was like no, I'm gonna do this and she's like, oh, please know and he sucked her And a lot of people said this is disgusting, and I was like, but to me, it's a very safe way to play out role play. Yeah, funny enough Lisa's splips in the Girl that we had

a few weeks ago. I don't know when you guys heard at the Finn Doom said there's two fantasies that aren't okay, and it's rape and incest play. So me and you were both sitting there like, oh yeah, true. And then but I wanted, but I kind of wanted to do fantasy thing right after that I'd like to do because I was like, I feel like I'm lying. The only thing I don't think I think do thing is gross with incests play is like calling someone like mommy and what's crazy is it? Wait, day daddy, I

don't like, sorry y'all for the ones that listen. Does that count as incest? Calling him daddy? Daddy is like a nah, and I'm very talkative, well you, but you know what's crazy? That's actually and me and King Noir

talked about it on our episode. It's a it's a tab side of porn that I actually google, and it's actually really widely step Mom step Brother shows, like with the Young Team, Yeah, and it's just like it's very common or like the mom walks in on the teen and the boyfriend and the mom joined to say something about those teams that I have seen, those are cool. The only ones I can't watch, or when they say like mother and Daughters suck tack together, like because it's

like them, but it's always stepped. I love watching porns that have a plot or a dialogue like yeah, like there's the ones in Gang Bang that I no, no I do, which I don't like just right to the second. I love plot porn, so like my favorite type of plot porn, I'll tell you all real quick delivery man is the thing. No, no, no, there's there's two type of type of porns that I watched, and I told

you guys, I like gay corn and gang bang. So in the gay porn ones, I like watching really masculine men turn each other out, like they just chilling playing video games and then maybe they're just smoking weed getting drunk and they just kind of fall into each other's assholes that I feel it. And then the other one that I really like watching, so a lot of gang

bangs and Lisa and these are most of her plots. Um. She has movers come to her house and it's like five thuggas niggas, like we're here to move your furniture, and then she just happens to come down in a very short dress, like my furniture is upstairs. And then next thing you know, she's like double penetration dick in her mouth at empathy and know there, Like I like plotorns because when I was moving from Midtown to the Lower East Side, a bunch of niggas knocked on my

door and I said, is this dumb Bow movers? I did not order the Bronx. You didn't order the Bronx. The Bronx movers this I thought it was a downtown Brooklyn area and this was something. A matter of fact, my doorman called me and everybody because miss it's I think it's movers. Hold on, I'm trying to say, I'm trying to look up no, no, no, because we these last buildings she lived in. If anyone black came in, oh you're here for Oh yeah, just go over. When T came over, you know who that is? I dated

who played ball? What is he? Six ten? He came and knocked on the door. I'm not even exactly where I would need to go. She looked at my building free. Yeah, she apparently like she was working, like I guess not. Nicka's like whenever people were in her plays, like anytime I saw her come down, they were just like very like together put looking like, well, no, she's she's actually very very very like cool. I played a game of spades with her. Um, I'm really cool with DJ web Stars.

So I went to the studio one day and she was there. Of course, she's super into football, so we had football on the on the TV. She is absolutely like precious, just super I'm looking up the j I was gonna say, I'm the oldest person I ever slept with, at least in that Yeah, he was forty seven and that's old. You know, I don't mean old. But he did not like daddy at all? Really, And then I

sucked someone else in their forties not midife crisis. Maybe I held up this article that said, real dad's weighing on what it's like to be called daddy in bed because why is it? I like it more if it's from I like Bobby. If it's from like Spanish, we're not. And I thought the same when a nigga nigga call me mommy, you don't use mommy. Yeah, but if the guy's Dominican is okay? Wow, listen to this women are

because okay. So this one says it's more of a freak out for women when daddies call themselves Daddy's like, oh, who's Daddy's a good girl? It says it freaks wing out. I know. I love when my nigs tell me who daddy is you. Yeah you wait, there's a big difference between I can't telling me daddy and see I'm not done with this cookie. I'm like, we have never changed the icon for our picture for an episode for this Yeah,

I like that's just the best. Now do their angles don't be lit sometimes you like amateur porn, right, bro, it depends the megapixels gotta be up on if you're you're using an android. We don't want to eight or get the bro like, come on, man, you know what, I'm kind of insulted. It's saying that a lot of women fantasize about doing something dirty with their biological or adopted parental figure and their dreaming of doing things with

their parents. It's an inner thing that we have, and that's why we use the word daddy during sex because it feels forbiddens, you know, you know, it's crazy. I think that whoever wrote this article, and I feel like this has to do with maybe the females who have quote unquote daddy issues. They like to relate this a lot, and to me, I have, it's my daddy, not even my hype requirements. So I damn sure I'll be looking at my daddy like my daddy's shortest fund, like my

types what oh. It says, even if you find it creepy to be called daddy, it's strange because a lot of men personally like to call it referred to themselves as daddy in non sexual settings because it has nothing to do with their actual parents, but in the dominant role. Feeling like a man. I guess, I guess, well, I guess, oh, gentler way for daddy is sir. If you don't want

to get that, I've said, sir. Only with the dudes that are like I swear to God because you do a white No, no, no no. The dudes that I've been with that are all the way through Dom's I actually Kingdom arm might have a point where they say that's a dumb sir as that you fancied. Yeah, boss, fancy where the funk are we at? So I ain't got but it was way back in the day when I worked at Champs. He's wear the little switchy pants.

I kind of wondered what his dick was like, so I said, like, look for a dick prent at sixteen of Champs. But don't judge me. Anybody's fun. All y'all guess that you that you met a Champs None. I didn't. I didn't really, They're all coming through there, Yeah, asked girl working at foot locker when I went for Black Friday, and I was like, you know what, you know where I've met most of them? Because you when I used to work at Demo and that's kind of like yes, like,

oh bitch, that's why I was bitch. I was coolgi out baby fat Apple, I know. But okay, So what we wanted to do for this episode, guys, since it is the last UM, we wanted to talk about our whole year's resolution, our hopes for the new year's UM. So we're gonna play this song kind of like we did the live show. UM. So each of us have three New Year's resolutions, and we kind of just are gonna let you guys know what they are for the new year. So go ahead, what's strong DV you want

to try DP? So it doesn't have to be with people, Okay, could be with one person and a toy. Okay. I'm really just tired of like being so into anal point and not being able to have anal sex. And I think that the dick, the girth of the dick is too wide, So I really want to say you need a little dick, nigga, and then you're nigga. Yeah. Okay. Also, I know he's not gonna do it, so you just want the toy. This is what I'm trying to do.

When he goes back to Europe this summer. I'm gonna be like, Yo, no one knows, bro, we don't have to do it in your country. Let's just go back to Italy, but not like Venice, where's too romanic, like Papa Italy Milana or something. Find a negga that we can confirm has a little dick. I'll check and then just let this papa. I won't kiss some I'll let nothing happen and be like, no, do you wanna do some DP? Matter of fact, got one of my homeboys.

I was telling me about how he was sleeping with this girl and that they were super high, super drunk, and she was like, dude, I just wanted I want DP be so bad right now. I want it right now, call somebody, he said. He was FaceTime and his friends like, dude, look look what I got. It's real, it's real, it's real.

And told me like I was really trying to get this fucking DP going, like she was so into the idea of it happening, and he said, a lot more women he's meeting, he's in his forties, are like fucking down for this. I want to try it, but just with someone on that's very interesting. Um, so mine, I'm actually starting off a little bit more of other than you. Um mine is actually for no, no, no, not school bit. I know, no, that's gonna be. So one of the things that I actually wanted to do for the New

Year's was by more grey and undergarments. So I don't have really any panties, That's what I'm saying. So for for the I want to be more sexy, if that makes sense. I am going to be undergoing a body change shape and all that stuff, and so foren just my confidence as far as lingerie, I used to have a ton of lingerie when I was modeling. I don't have confident lingre that I do naked. Yeah, so I'm a smaller. I'm smaller than you, and like I'm even scared of sometimes like oh my god, this angle, this

and that I think anybody. I don't think it has anything to do with someone's eyes, like we always feel that way. Of course, last night, like I had on this little lace pajama thing and he started even the post and I was like, no, but no, but that's what I say. So I just bought a silk robe. Um and then we all know, oh yeah, because I've been taking pictures in that now Instagram live, what's up? I'm in my silk rube. When you spend money on

your things. Actually, when I was dealing with my ex girl like she is known for, are you used to send me pictures and I was like, damn guard another guard a belt. She does not play around now and so that's something that I want to do more of an investment in as far as my undergarments on. My next one is to actually have sex at a sex party. Oh, because yeah, we haven't gotten into that and we're saving the sex club story foreen it's coming soon, guys, maybe

that could be a bonus. It was so good um as far as well both of us, and you brought one of them up at the to hear that. Yeah, so I think it's going to be exciting if when we could share our sex people. So you want to go to one and actually have sex because okay, I talked about it a little bit on b K chat because it was the next day, right, I don't know, but anyway you brought it up actually on the road timmy episode. It wasn't that it was I wasn't scared

of my own body or anything like that. I actually felt it isn't going to be can see, but I was like, I'm one of the hotter people in here, but not even the dude I brought. I went with a guy that I was just cool with. Um he had a girlfriend, she was out of town. He knew lover boy was in Europe, and he was like, listen, we know we're not going to sleep together, but you can't give them the story. Now, we're gonna save this. No, no, just but he's like, we know we're not going to

sleep together, but let's just go. And when we were there, people had their eyes on us for sure renewer and we were really but I remember thinking in moments like, how would I even start this off? Would I be thinking about other people the whole time? How do you get out of your own head to enjoy this? And the only pee drink a bottle of Don Julio like

me and my friend did, Well, maybe that's me. That's literally honestly, and me and her talked about it and I'm going to bring her on the show just because she's different than us. But we literally we got kind of mad that bitch. There were times that we blacked out. We don't know how to funk. We ended up where we ended up who we ended up. I ended up dealing with three couples um that night. I mean I didn't get penetrated by dick, but I had like three

different people eat me out. And so even yeah, being involved in that, I think he was shading me for the three. It was the couple. If the nicka sucking my titties and his bitch is eating my pussy, I don't count that, you probably. I mean, I'm just saying I don't like this how many times? Okay, so that would be awesome. I think that you actually sex in a sex club would be nice. Letter Boy told me he was not down, oh for the sex club. He was like, he was like, he said, maybe I'll go back.

I think he doesn't want a friend of people, and I think I think he. I think we're at this point now, which I wish it wasn't there. But we used to talk about these things a lot before. We had deeper feelings for each other, and he told me when I went to his country in Europe, he was like, no, I know, I said, we can do this. The names to damn, No, we're not. No, I can't not anymore

like what the fund changes. Yeah, I'm still for eighteen, and I wanted to put this as a resolution, especially because I know I'm gonna be entering a new career in my life, um once I'm done with school, so I feel like it may be more possible. I also want to reiterate that this has probably been a resolution every year for the best couple of years. Um. But I want to work on cutting off some of the

dicks that I've been fucking for the past ten years. UM. So not literally, I don't want to took your hand and did no I did. I don't want to cut off their dicks. But there are certain guys who have been literally been lingering in my life. Um honestly since high school. There's no reason at twenty seven I should still be fucking niggers from high school. Girl, don't say like malod to me. Um, um, girl, I'll believe it. Still in my motherfucker phone, Girl, he's still on my phone.

Um from Atlanta. He's gonna be here Monday. He's saying for my blazing yes him. Um, so that's what I'm saying. That was the last time he told me? Yeah with him? Well, who was the first one you said, Oh, the nigga who pisses on me, I like to fiss on him. He's still on my phone, trying to give me a kind of in life. No, he ask you, why do

you want to cut them off? If honestly, because it's to the point now and um, once I get my career, and you know, once school is done, I know that I doesn't have to do with a new career because I know that I'm going to be at a place where I am gonna look for more. And these are individuals that I haven't been able to cut off. And once I do get into a relationship or commit to somebody, I don't want these demons in my closet to still hit my phone because a lot of them I don't

know how to say no to. I really enjoy our sexual connection, and so it's something that I don't want any of them in my phone. I don't want out of sight, out of mind when I get to the point where I have you had sex with? Do you have sex with? Like? With these people? Like at least once a year each of them. Oh yeah, Like, um, the one who comes in town tomorrow. We've worked already

twice this year even, and that's four years going. Like, there's certain guys that I just I like where I'm at, and I know that next year, like I said, it's going to be a change as far as my schedule, my career, my body, there's certain things that I do want to leave in the past. Pitch even mother like Damm, I don't want him in my phone anymore. So that's definitely a resolution that I'm trying. Funny you said that because it kind of goes in mind. Okay, I want

to get some hose for the New Years. So when I went back to Orlando, I was like, there's so many people I can hit up. I have nothing like that here, women or men really, and I think that I should be at least fucking with some more people like just I don't know, there's no their tongues were ready. Really, I just want to know if my face there was a girl, that's it. And I know everybody else with that. And when my friends were laughing after when she goes,

are you into thick chicks? And I'm saying, You're like yeah, I'm like lying, she was, Okay, this is the thing. I just feel like they're totally out of my lee because they won't suck me like thick chicks. Be like, I don't like how thick chicks tease me about it. Nick, is that funk with thick chicks tease me about like that? I don't like. Even love Boy was just telling me, like um, one of his brother's like super thick chicks. He was telling me about right, and I'm like, and

what about you? You don't like them? He's like, no, I like the tea girls and then no, wonder he thinks my ass is big, right right? Okay, well that makes sense. So like I mean, give with someone because you with white boys, I don't have them in my phone nowhere to help you out with this. I don't have white holes in my phone. I don't. Okay, let

me finish. My next thing is like I was talking to j Aid from Extra and Jade and we were just randomly talking about ship and I was telling her about like how my therapist was saying, I need to hang around more nigga because I'm feeling I'm like she don't, I'm feeling experiated from you are out of the culture. Yeah, first of all, bitch, just because I don't watch hip, I'm not out not just not loving him. It's funny because no preach real quick. We talked about it um

the other night. Of course, not only with what she's been going on with her therapist, but when we're going out, people are starting to notice us around New York. So we just like, we just like, we really need to start hanging out more together because we don't outside of

the show me and we need to hang out. And she's like, so, yeah, whatever black events coming up, if you can bring me along, and I'm like, see, this is what I'm talking to you is It probably wasn't exactly like that, but she definitely wants to go out more with the urban crowd because when I go about, like, but no, I hate people think my roommate is wheezy

when we go. But even I don't want to go to because okay, when you're in you have a podcast studio, rey remy producers that I go and it's like, you know, people go and do beats and um, my friend shout out Edgar. He has a lot of a lot of cool dope events, but it's sophisticated black people. You're not saying I'm trying to go to an event where like you can possibly get shot. That Brooklyn museum I went to.

I was like, oh my god. But the therapist was saying like, even though like you like partying at the Solho meat Pack and Ship, He's like, because you identify as a black girl, He's like, you feel excluded. And she'd be good funk Trump and they're like, yo, you gotta chill, get the funk out of it, not for you. Soho house that it's funny because Trevor Noah walks in and everybody looked really nervous at me. So it's so whole house. You know what it is members only. You're

not a lot to talk to people. You're not allowed to go out to celebrities. I was wasted sitting in one of them in cabana beds, and I was like, can I just tell you I love what you do for our culture, and I just feel like people don't get in blah blah. Me and him connected on this for a minute, and people looked at me like how is she talking to him like this? And I was like, holy sh it, because everywhere I go out, nobody's like me. Yeah,

people get uncomfortable with the things I say. The white girls. First of all feminist them. It's a totally different thing for white girls. Oh yeah, fu planned parenthood, but we ain't talking about black chicks. But it's just it's it's just really funny. I think it's and I think it's something that will both work on, is bringing you back to the black side. But no, it's crazy because so much that she advocates for, um are you know, rights

and all of that stuff. And it's so crazy. Because someone hit me on my Twitter and I was like and felt uncomfortable, was like, listen, um, I just want to tell you I've kind of felt uncomfortable with your co host saying nigga black. He didn't even know you were black. I guess because of how you sound. I don't know which episode it was, but maybe it wasn't the power for the people I think the same, right,

but it was something that he didn't know. And I guess you're talking strongly about your the white men and you know what I mean. And so so it was funny because I thought people would assume because I say, white boys is the opposite what that you deal with, because I'd be kind of talking about it. But I think that a lot of people know because on my Twitter, I have black as are like blah blah blah blah blah or whatever they I mean, not my Twitter, my Instagram,

but anyway, yeah, I don't know. I think that would be any of my voice. Everybody tells me pretty white girl. So we're gonna work on getting you some hose enough because my white not my people's. But like these New York crowd I'll be hanging with, I've seen their face. But I don't change what what I'm saying. If I want to say these niggas sacking up, and I might be talking about a group of people I do. It's a bit either gonna take it or not, right right,

I don't want to change the way of talking. I think that the inclusiveness that my therapist is talking about is because you hanging around a bunch of people that are not thinking the same as you. Absolutely the only thing you guys have in common is partying. But both you guys are though, right, Yeah, obviously it ain't Disneyland listed chop a City falls seven West Side. Okay, Well, not only that, you have to realize too, we we

grew up on two different sides. Like wee was the new New We's lived in a mansion and went over to the ghetto with her pink hair and girl she had a yeah, so we literally weez. Nick name in Orlando was new news. I used to get the funny thing about it, but we was about a little bit of my mom's episode. But I used to get embarrassed of how big my house was because I didn't feel included with the white kids movie theater, and I knew the white kids in my school didn't work with me

because I was too black. Some of the black kids might have thought I was too white. But even when I got accepted by black kids, I was like, I can't show them I lived. Yeah. And so that was I had a skip party and everybody was like from her, I was on the opposite side. I grew up in a single parent household. I grew up like Section eight, food stamps, all of that. And then my schools there's only three in Orlando that are all black. I went

to two of them. I graduated from Evans High School, which is black, and I also went, oh, yeah, if you look, I think the other two percent is other like and then and then I went to Oak Ridge, which was predominantly black and Latina. So I mean we both grew up on different sides of Orlando, had the hood and so no, no, no, like the hood show me mad love bro oh yeah, because you know at one point she was honey Crip, she was gang banging

with the crop. But I never went to white Clove in Orlando, I swear to that's the no. We were fifteen sixteen with fake I d s going to what we had on all of my friends joke and be like we need her ship because like I'll go out with them to white clubs in Etland and I'd be like, I'm done, I'm ready for I've been ready to go. I need my friend's home like a black people that the in Lando, I just feel connected. I can't walk down the street downtown where it's not love and in

New York it's totally not like that. Now absolutely New York is very like it's everything. It's everything, And I think, I guess for my last resolution, um, and I'll do this fast as we wrap up. I mean, I honestly just kind of I would like to find a not and I'm not saying this in a boyfriend way, but I would like to find a swinging partner. Um, so as far as she's like not a boyfriend. If it

turns into a boyfriend, I would love it. But I would like to have a partner where I could go to the sex clubs or swingers party you should get on. Is that that I don't know what you want to call him? But is he also engaging in individual sex which just you well, actually it's it's someone of that question, well someone that he's he's engaging sex with me. But

I kind of want to watch more. I don't have a guy that I've ever been able to really watch for the swinging want to go with not just you and you and him having sex too, that's what preaches. That's what I'm saying. We don't have sex, I mean, but I probably wouldn't want to have sex with him. I want to go to these parties and with him. But but okay, but then let's the nights you can call them too. Well, yeah, I got a lot of

else though. Oh you want to find someone just I want to find someone literally who as you said, even if it turns into a boyfriend, If he turns into a boyfriend and we connect on that level, cool, But even going to the sex club for the first time with my home girl. I want to know that I could go with a man and we could share these experiences. I can watch him and not be weird. Yeah. Um, And so that's kind of something that I you know what I think like, So it's funny that's me and

you are different than this part. I would want someone like that that i'm with, only because I think that you kind of assumed and tell me even wrong, that you're always wrong when you assume anything about me. You've made a lot of comments about threesomes and how you don't have them with people you're with. So a lot of the things that you've said, like when you're emotionally attached to somebody, I feel like you think that those things will be brought into a swinging or a threesome

or an orgy type situation. Do you, because what is the question, like, do you think that if you like someone too deeply that it could be a problem because you said you can watch him suck dick and it's no right. Um, I don't think it would be a problem.

But I know that I've had this conversation with people, um a lot of times, and there's a lot of things that would be a limit to me, um because men can't see me another guy, men can't don't want to this, and so when it comes to a relationship, I feel like it's gonna put more um halts or restrictions on me um. And so that's why I would want it to go this way to where we're both not restricted. Um. Even if emotions grow from that would be cool too. But yeah, and so yeah, those are resolutions.

Should make one for us yea for the podcast itself. Yeah, well what is the way? Wait, I'll ask you what would you like to see change? And actually, I'm gonna be a great question for everybody. I want to leave a comment under here, what would you like for us to change? Going into about horrible decisions, whether what you would like us to change in the negative light or what you would like to see us add to the show. I'm a risk takers, so I want you guys to

even go even further. You know what I'm saying, Like I want you guys to I mean, like, let's say, let's take it to a certain level, like let's let's well, how do you say that? Mean? That was pretty vague? Something like, man, I guess that from a guest perspective, Okay, in a guest perspective, like a dominic dominatrix coming with their actual you weren't you wasn't here. You wasn't here for not a dominicant slave. Yes, oh that you have more couples on Oh, well, I would love to do.

And I have a couple that throws the actual sex clothes there they already I'm talking about. I want to have an episode where there's two couples of you guys are in New York and you exist may be either about to break up or one wants the other to do more ship sexually. And here we are, like Jerry Springer knowing what the secret is, right, and we're sitting here interviewing Katie and we're like, well, you know what,

Mark has something to you. I hate you? So okay, I guess um for me honestly, um, And this kind of got to be I'm sorry, but I gotta be for the freaking for the patre Yes, we don't say we're we're going to give you good on patriarch um, something that I honestly would like to change in And I guess it's gonna be more so on a personal level. Um, me and Weasy don't hang out. Me and we don't have a relationship outside of this podcast, and I like, we don't, we don't hang out. Both of our circles

are completely different. Um, and I think I'll bring you to the more urban crowd. We should try to commit to not one a month, like one every other one of the one every forty five days. Um. Well, even even my roommates suggested that we even meet on a

monthly basis to make sure we're on the same page. Um. So there's just a lot of behind the scenes with us, and we we want to keep it going because both of us have such strong passion for this, for this podcast that I would like to possibly build a better relationship with Weezy off of the podcast. Yeah, and it's not there, um, And so that's probably something that's when I'm thinking about, Like even there girls like God, I hope they keep it up because I know they're gonna

break up. And it's like I think that sometimes we assume keeping personal lives out of it is gonna make this show good. And then that one Patreon episode where it sucked, it was very obvious that because we have no friendship was like, not only because if you don't care about what the other person saying, are you trying not to care about the other person's life. It comes across well, not only that, I think it's also um.

Things are said on the show out of assumptions or out of what we knew about each other five years ago. So even on the episode that um where we did the recap, you were like, well, Babe, we can do a lot show because you fly out for Dick. And I was like, actually, I don't do that anymore. I was right, but you know it can it can come out somewhere or even me to tell no jokes about you can you can tell you the joke people outside

for the next ship. But yeah, again, I think the longer episodes, I guess could be Yeah, I don't know if I can do it. Our in hand Bro. When Bro Timmy came on, we kind of ran out of Bro. He was just so good looking at you was ready to suck as Dick. But hop on the elevator. Hey. Anyways, guys, again, we want to thank you so very much. Thank you guys who are patrons on our Patreon account. That is really what's going to push us over the Edge for

and I'm like appreciate that. I know, like five dollars is nothing to some of you, and maybe a lot to some of you, but like just knowing that you're paying us for the content you receive and supporting us. Like I had a girl tell me she's paying five dollars, a mother that hasn't listened to one of the bonus episode yet. She's like, I just do it because I want you all to have something for me. Yeah, so

I enjoyed what you do. It's really great, And you guys can go ahead and become members on that at Patreon, p A, t R e o N dot com. Bat flash,

horrible decision. We're gonna China for two thousand eighteen, have a lot more of advertisement going on, and we're going to start connecting you, um from to our manager at some point in time, and you can discuss rates and um if some of you have businesses and want to do profits of your sales as well on the show, Like, yeah, we're really we're really looking out to all different we're looking at all different and so yeah, three years later, we don't have to ship to talk about come on

Blue Ape for anyways, guys, this has been yet another episode of horrible decisions, signing out for twenty seven to Bye Bye