Ep176: Right Person, Wrong Time

West Street. Is that correct? That's the Adam finished, but it's super affordable. We've been coming here for years. You guys got to stop by. Thank you guys for being open, you know what I mean. I'm glad to be back in the studio. We was doing Zoom. I want to shout out to everyone who rocked with us during the goddamn everybody like here you go. I do want to actually shout out to our listeners who have still rocked

with us at home. I know you have your children, your pets, your spouse, and somehow you managed to find headphones and still listen to what I mean, I can't listen to podcasts in the house unless I'm cleaning or less I'm alone, bit I ain't going. I was gonna listen to the podcasts in front of my nigga and he's like, why you like? My friends hate it. I was in fucking Miami with Crystal and she's like, Bro, you think I want to get dressed to fucking Joe Button.

I don't want to hear that nigga voice. And I literally will listen to Joe Budden and the Read and between. So Joe Button drops two episodes a week, three hours, then the read be over two hours. That's all I can fit in right now. You know what's funny? From the Read? I fell from like I can't listen anything for too long. But when I went to Mexico, I kind of wanted to feel more normal. I was like,

I need more niggas in my life. So I started playing the Read and it's funny because they're coming to room. He'd be like, that's crazy. I know that ship about Keisicole. All right, It's it's funny how like you can take a break and like immediately feel like, oh my god, how have I not been listening to this? So for you bitches who even listening to our fucking show, how well you know what you do know they try to cancel us. But anyway, but y'all who is new because

y'all still heard us through the grapevine. Um, I'm a girl, Mandy b a K A Mandy Baskins a K A peg the Stallion a K full corpus aka that motherfucking bitch, so uncomfortable and what I really listen, I have to okay and I need to actually keep it growing. I just haven't thought anyway. My name's speezy, and I am not like a person that just like a K S or whatever. The girl shut us talking about it. I

ain't a person, did anyway? See the clip recirculate where you said we were talking about what we like the same man. He goes, I'm trying to catch that nut, and I said, that is so good. You know, it's crazy. I actually was just talking to my toy friend about it because he says I've only really asked him for dick one, and I was like, damn, that's crazy because when I was seven, you know, I literally hit him up, like let me catch that nut. You want a nut, let me and I will send him pick n emoji

now like that nut. Yeah, we're that nut going baby, So dude, this is what why is is that ghetto? Man? You know what? I go like, he calls it southern, but then I realized, you don't like nothing southern, So I don't think he really like. I mean, I say it more sexy. Give me that nut, Give me the nut. You don't ask for the nut. What do you call it? Combach, it's synonyms. Okay, cynonylms. Anyway, let's go ahead and do a little quick catch up because y'all we are solo.

There ain't no guests in the motherfucking bill. Dude, well, I think we should do our horrible decisions catch up. You guys. This isn't an announcement because we can't say it yet, but Mandy and I are about to have a boss. And this is really funny because yeah, we can't say yet. I can't wait to afflect when there's an issue and be like, well, you know what, taking up with the manager, bitch? I mean, that's just what it's gonna be. I'm excited, y'all. We have um some

news to tell y'all, so we ain't gonna tell y'all. Yeah, it's probably gonna be after Labor Day, but I'm fine with that, y'all. Um, By the way, um are we doing? You said we're not doing the contest, right, So now I won't say nothing about that. Never it's gonna be some switch ups. Um, I guess I guess I'll go ahead and start with the catch up because there's not much for me to catch up with. Y'all. Know, I got my little toy friend and he surprised me the

other day. He no, bitchual, I get that all the time. But he Um, he was supposed to take me to home depot because I'm getting plants. Not that I'm gonna be a plant like you, but I have pots now, like I'm redecorating my house. So I'm getting these plants. And so I was like, babe, I need you to take me to home depot. So today he was supposed to take me to home depot. He hit me up and was like, so is the nude peach open? And I was like, uh yeah. He was like would you

want to go? I said duh. He said I'll be there in thirty Have you met me before? I Well, I'm the one who told him about it. And he had never went. So I'm like, it's a random fucking Tuesday, and here we go going to the beach. So we went to the Nude Beach. I had a great time. He actually had a great time. Yeah we did. It's it's in Sandy Hook, so Gonnason beat y'all know. I talked about it all the time, the school thing, see,

and that's what I told him. I was like, I only know about the school for Sandy Hook and you can't even say the word what what? What was it else? It was like a hurricane that ruined Sandy Hook to right and then I don't know. All the trains was sucked up going and leaving Jersey. I got stranded in Jersey one time and got kidnapped because I was new to New York. I shared the story of the last show. But anyway, so we went to the nude Beach. Um he actually got all the way nude. So it was exciting.

Wouldn't need dick down to his dick is so big, but act I mean, because he's still like, I mean, he's still like I wouldn't say, like in that lifestyle. So we went there and it's crazy. Shout out to Candice Vane, she was there, so I ran into her. She was like, oh, y'all just looked so beautiful walking up good but even so, yeah, y'all want to go to the beach there as porn stars and all types of fun. So we got into the water and then

came back. I was drunk as ship, so I don't even know what all conversations we was having, but I didn't let him know. I tell everybody he's my boyfriend, and he was fine with me referring to him as my boyfriends. So I was like, okay, I guess you understand your my boyfriend. Isn't it funny how that happens? I pretty much. I was like, so like when you talk to your friends about me, like, what do they know me as my boyfriend? Do you say toy friends? No? I mean I told him on the show he's a

toy friend. But I mean I was like, my boy, don't do that. Don't do that. So you called him a toy friend? How you was like with toy friend? Um? But we ended up. Um. I ended up Like it was so nice for for I guess any of you guys who were in the New York area and I'm sorry to the life side of people. Every time I tell talk about Gunnis and they'd be like, damn, don't tell everybody, Um, but where, Like what the funk? This is like? This is like a horror arena. It's take

a horror convention. Every time you listen to this show, whether you're in secret or in public, and you're part of the horror hive, you know you're listening to find out some ship that you feel like you either can't ask your friends or that you're a part of. So we have to tell them. We have to die. Mandy

didn't want to tell you about the sex club. Don't do I know, but now I can't go there, but you do, but not since we really don't started show first off covid too, I'm thinking of doing in a s W but we're gonna talk about many had sex at NSFW after the nigga was interviewed at our show, And now you wanna be like, we can't tell everybody, but well, anyways, let me tell y'all what happened. For those of y'all who were interested. Um, so it was probably much space out than Miami was. I actually did

feel everybody was six ft apart. He was comfortable, we got in the water. I ended up giving him a massage um on the beach, which is nice, and then my friend shot out Anthony a k A white chocolate. He pulled up with more to vodka. But then he put a barrier because is he white chocolate? Because here you go, he's white. He feels like he is a black man in him. I don't know much like gay men feel like they have a white gay man feel like. He looked like he looked like a short big Clay Thompson.

So maybe he's makes with black but he looked white. I don't know, but anyway white. No, he don't feel like that, Okay, because I hate like that wigger ship. Yeah, Dawn, I really do everything. I ain't gonna hold you, but I mean I feel like that's at the same time the only type of white guy I would really a wigger, Like who's the nigger who dancing? Mike? Who? Who he is dancing? Like magic Mike? That who? What's his name? What's his name? Oh? Tom A something change him him?

That's a wigger to me, and I would some chance, yes, he got some salt to him, like a justin Timberlake is a wigger to me. No, no, even though okay, wait hold on, wigger to me is like not white people that are like, okay, I got cold, I got you. White people have to have to like put avoid Paul wall Yes, Paul wall A, who's that white girl that she's like, Oh, bad baby, Cyrus be doing it. Sometimes it's not it's bad baby. That bed anyway bombs over behind baby. Anyway, we did. We did end um the

nude beach with a nice parking lot. Fuck. So that was just nice. And guys, I just encourage you before the end of the summer to text duh, which I was drinking. I said, listen, I just wanted to get that net in the in the back of a call. So did. And so he had a little, you know, a little line in the the aluminum foil you put in the windshield. He kept that thing up so no one could like, look, that's cool, that's that's a great sex tip. That could be a hordr. That could be

a HORDRV bitch. Let's see what I felt like. I wasn't an easy baker of and bit what's new? Oh a bitch moved to Brooklyn and we got trying to leave, and by the grace of God, yesterday I had a ghastly But you said they fixed it, right, Yeah they did, but I was still complained and it was my fault because I was getting TV's mounted. But that's not the bro you busted the pieoney. Some of Jamaican man came in and he hung up a living with when it

was fine. So then the sea we're getting a Jamaican accent and mine, I think we broke a pace mind you right, like I'm on my computer worker or whatever. And he comes in with his basket on and I already can't understand him because it's through mask and accent thick, and he gave me this look. I was like, oh wow, it's finished already. He like, not exactly. Did you come the room and let me show you off? And so I come in the room and I'll like to hear

is no seriously? And I said, is that smoke? He's like, no, that's gas. I'm just like, like if you smell eggs, act fast when you smell gas. I said, should I call nine one one? Yeah, because I'm on a contract with right, so hold on, this is one I knew I should have called one of my like old niggas to come fucking mount the ship during the day. So anyway, now the fucking pipe is sucking bust and the gas is coming out because opposite my bedroom wall is the kitchen.

I guess I ain't gonna hold you. When I moved into my apartment, they told me I can't mount t vs because of how the walls and the pipes were set up. They literally told me I couldn't, and of course, aesthetically, I want my fucking TV's mount. I didn't add a millennial because who doesn't have mouth to TV? So I don't have to ask to drill anythings or whatever. So now I'm embarrassed to bother the super because I already locked myself out of the apartment twice because it heavy. God,

So I called the super. I'm like, hey, something's going on with the wall and there's gas coming out of it. He's like, excuse me, was the wall fine or did you do something to it? I was like, well, now there's a hole in it, said because I was trying to watch my words. Time to get out of this lease and move back to Laurisa. He's like, well, what did you do to the wall. I was like, well, I didn't do anything, but there is a hole in it. Maybe you could send somebody up. Bitch. The gas starting

to fill up the house so much. I'm getting light hated before Jamaica be you don't know what to do, and I'm like, wow, okay, you just can't break your Lisa. You did it well technically I didn't do it, but here's what I did. They had to cut off the gas. I feel so bad everybody on my side of the doing it. So my unit ends and they had no hot water and no stoves. If you but let me tell you what, I feel so bad, I'll go downstairs. I recognized this girl from like a bar in the

mail room. She's like, oh my god, did you just move here? I'm like, yeah, what about you? She was like, girl, this is this fun my mother sucking hot water and working. I was like, oh, wow, you did that well. I sleep in my house when I was like because I felt bad about it. But anyway, so here's really all that's new with me. You guys know, I was on

birth control. I told on Patreon I'm off it because it like sucked me up and I feel like literally I have panic attacks about if I'm gonna be pregnant every month, and it was almost worth not having the craziness I did. For fourteen days, my ship was liquid, my period was weird, my body was going crazy. I got a pimple on my face in a place I've never got it in it, And honestly, I feel like every month I'm literally begging for it. I'm like, oh, I know my period is gonna be missing. Why am

I asking for a cream pie? Why am I doing this ship? I don't know. It's like my mind gets so blind. Listen, I told you that I u D eleven hunted abortion five I could do tube befone called the amount of you can't my bad? Okay, all right, Well, like I said, I don't even think his swimmers swim any motherfucker. Let's just talk for you. But I was well thinking before we get Let me shut up anyway, since we talk about birth control. That is our vanilla

ship for this week. Um guys, this comes from the New York Times and probably every Yes and probably every other news source that you can think of. This is recent, but the Supreme Look, you got me think about the Supreme Court upholds Trump administration regulation letting employers opts out of birth control coverage. The regulation was the latest attempt to undermine the contraception mandate, a signature initiative of the

Obama administration. UM. The decision was made seven to two, and it is the latest turn in seven years of fierce litigation over the contraception mandate. UM. I guess I kind of wanted to talk to you guys about what kind of that means at UM. A lot of employers did have to under the Obama minist station were required to provide cost free coverage for contraception, and the Trump administration sought out to limit that. And what's crazy is UM and what a lot of people are saying is

employers still have to cover viagra. So it's just like the idea that viagra can be something that can be covered from an employer, but now contraception and birth control is not. It's just kind of another way. They just be like fun women, and I just want to I just really hate them. I don't know, I've never really went through I know we talk avidly on just the free clinics planned parenthood, and I think that that's why it's so important too to donate when you can to

those organizations. Um, because I know that that's a lot of places where I should my friends and shouldn't know where to go. I don't know what to me is. There's an obsession that we have with women and their bodies, even when I mean, we all do it, even when it's all no, no, no, we're all judge in this way, even if we consider ourselves liberal people, we all have this moment ship. You guys probably had it when I just said I'd be getting cream pies and then scared

and I ain't even gonna hold you. I used to judge the funk out of Wheezy as having on protected sex, but I loved them. It's using a condom is different when you're in love. It's like, for example, sure, I'm risking an STD. This is some dumb ship to say, but let me just get this dumb sh it out. Let you get dumb. I feel like, Okay, if you get chlamydia at the risk of love, it's different from if you get chlamydia at the risk of like, damn,

I'm just going to club this weekend. Like I loved that, nigga, Are you serious right now? It didn't happen to me. I'm just this is just a first your logic. As long as I love you, it's okay if you give me the class. That's what you're saying, Broke, I'm sucking around, but like not but just hearing me. I'm not scared to get pregnant because I can pay to make that go away. But I am always scared to get an STD. And y'all can judge me and think I sound dumb,

and I know I do. But all I'm saying is when I stopped using condoms with certain partners from you that you've heard on the show me talk about, it's because you know I'm following for them niggas and my pussy and my brain do this dumb thing where they don't match. You know what I'm saying. It's just like they're like, bitch, why would you do that? You want your bodies to be connected, and I can't do it with latex in between me. It's I ain't even gonna

hold you. That's how I know my little toy friend is meant for me, bitch, pH not affected period. Come on time like we are in synctime. So when you use when you're I mean it's literally one partner, but one partner. But I was never having sex with multiple partners. Show was and that's why I was like, kam kam, kam, kanda kandam. Will you know I'm a one man woman, even if it's a one man every three months? Listen.

I remember when I was dating this dude last year and he said to me, like, why do I feel like you do all this ship that you're doing with me for all your niggas? And I'm like, what am I doing? He's like, you could you clean? You be calling me to make sure I'm okay? I feel like you do this for all the niggas you talked to. I'm like, well, yeah, I mean that's me. And I felt awful because it made him feel like he wasn't special to me. But yeah, that is what I do. Well.

I like to play house sue me, I show don't. But this nig got me fucked up. Bitch. I was like, should I make chicken marsala or food? L I know who the funk? Am? I I'm about a thing. If he even like y'all. Mandy also has a protective style. I think somebody's turning into Yeah, I don't right there, sudn't. I was having protected the stove before you. Hold on,

let's think about it, bitch, I didn't have braves before you. Oh, I don't know what before we gonna pull it up on the YouTube show did but anyway, the bitch, let's really think about it. Here you go, man, Dizzel is over here talking about she's hiking, she's booed up, she doesn't want to use condoms anymore, she's cooking for a niked she's in her feeling. You know what's crazy about

not even being in my feelings. But we're like super open as far as like other partners as well as I'm talking to when we first met, like we were open about everything. Now you're falling yo. And you know, we had that conversation that he was like apparently he was controlling and past relationships, and he was like, I don't ever want you to feel like you can't do what you want to do and I'm keeping you from that. And I was like, I just want you to know too.

I don't told my holes you in the picture, and I don't even want them holes no more. Like bitch, I didn't turn down the fluideouts just so that I just I don't even want no other Dick. Bro. Okay, well i'll tell you what I name the embody me right now. Oh my god, listen, I'll just tell you too. Outside of the COVID, the little NBA bubble helping a bit too, them niggas can't fly nobody in, bro, Yo, Honestly, let me tell all of that good. Test is serious.

And I don't know if I could do it for Dick, like if someone had to, if I had to get that test. But I'm just saying, NBA Dick ain't even an option right now, bro, unless they not signed. But you can't get in that maybe you can't have a side. And again you can go down to the college guy. Well no, I'm telling you now, I know for facts they're not letting nobody in because this nigga just want me to watch him jack off all goddamn time. He's like, man,

can't nobody get in this bitch. I was like, okay, well let me want off. Yeah, let me watch you jack out. By the way, I do want you guys to know that you know my clamdia comments, my clean tie comments, I'm not gonna stop until we are on that bi weekly salary because I really feel like I have to tighten. I need you to know, so it's not a bi weekly salary. We get paid that ship up front, bitch. That's why I'm getting my car and I'm about to I'm a I'm about to buy a

property in Jersey too. I got a call, bitch, is nice. No, I don't know. I think it's a steal. Something gotta be wrong with it. But it looked like I still I maybe it's a fucking pent household. That ship nice uh portly with a view of the nice on the water. I think that's the only place I've been. Anguli had like a party there years ago, and I was like, I didn't have don't know in New York. I was like, probably over by Edgewater, Yeah yeah, but right over there.

You know. I just really feel like this is my time to just say irresponsible, she actually and be fun because once I'm how accountable to company standards, I will I will try my best to be as POC or no as PC as PC no like y'all don't even want to know. Y'all, y'all know why she's saying this, because but she wrote me it was probably eight o'clock in the morning, like, I'm really nervous about signing this deal. Now,

do you see what they're doing in Nick Cannon. She literally was like, no, I'm not gonna be able to say anything anymore once we signed to this business. And She's like, I just don't know if I'm ready for that type of pressure. I'm not. Eight o'clock in the morning, she says me. Goddamn. I saw one clip that he

said we could talk about every place since whatever. I saw the one clip where he was talking about how white people are barbaric, and I was like, okay, no offense for Rianna, and we do have a way, okay, whatever. But then the issue is, and I know I sound biased because of my father, but I was about to say, is that it was Jews. But now I'm saying ship that just didn't make sense, Like he was saying that Jews weren't Semitic, right, So Semitic is it's the region,

it's afro Asian Attic, it's where you're from. And literally geographically speaking, yes, Jews are. You can be a Ashkenazi Jew, which is the white kind. You can be a Safarti Jew, which is when I did my swab test why I came out more than half black, because you could be a North African Jew. So you can't just say a group of religious people are wicked and do all this ship when they're your brothers and sisters too. Now you

sound dumb, but I ain't gonna hold you. That's why I really don't do the Christianity following because to me, not to get into like the parts of where they're from, but as far as Euro Americans and how they came and colonized America when they were Christian, what they did to slaves, and how they still viewed them selves as Christians despite them going completely against what the Bible said, and they were judging, you know, or or viewing black people as three fifths of a person and all of

like the ship that they did to them. I'm just like, there's no way you can really follow a Bible and only pick out what suits you like. And that's my thing with really hard thing too. It's like, you know, we we can't go on this podcast and just say shitty things about Muslims. I have nothing bad to say about people do it every day. But as far as just can't be a nick Cannon. First of all, when I wh why I say that Nick Cannon's on his doctor umar right now with a white following. Nick Cannon

is huge. He's realizable, not just to us, he is a huge celebrity. And now you go and talk about and white people love to throw out the Jews because they have really no other super marginalized and disrespected people within their blanket. So I feel like white people love talking about the Jews were slaves too. They love to tell you that. Well, I just want to let y'all know. She literally early as hell in the morning, She's like, we talk so much about white people. I'm just nervous

that we're not gonna get to do it anymore. And I was like, bit y'all, I'm stay talking about them crackers. Oh I definitely called our boss, and um, you know, I just want to be sure because I'm doing accing. See here you go. Now for those of you don't like it, I do want you to know even understand that you can start a podcast yourself and then you get on there and you say, you know, what we

see is terrible accents. Do you do it there? But otherwise, well, I do want it to This is gonna be a blankt a fuck honestly about like how anything I do in this show than because for me, I just feel like I started that's just an outlet for my like you know, like like whatever I'm trying to do on this show is what I'm gonna fucking zo. What is gonna be my accent? And I'm gonna just blanket this statement real quick. I feel like every episode someone is

offended by motherfucking something. I said Maria um a few episodes ago, and someone wanted me to issue an apology to the working Latin X community, and I was just like, listen, we just said to quantas. We don't said Karen, Keisha, Tyrone were the name names. It's just what we do. And if you offended, I'm just gonna go ahead and just I apologize that if you're offended. But I'm just gonna keep saying that. I'm almost getting exhausted. It is.

It's exhausting. Don't feel wrong. I'm a social justice warrior two and I have Twitter fingers and I get angry at people too. However, I think that this is the main thing now, So don't fight the fight for someone you know that's on your team, and that's what does

that mean. I'm gonna explain. That's really something to me, Like when you see people that are actually violent or you know, are holding racist, racist racism in their hearts, perpetuating it, not employing people of color, not trying to forward conversation. I see why y'all jumped down their throats, but I understand that we're fighting the same fight too, and by comedy, through joking around, through doing the things we do on this show, making people laugh in a

lighthearted way. This is not only how we make money, but this is how people enjoy themselves through us. We can't always make money doing the show. You know what I'm saying now, it's our jobs. But nothing has really switched up. I will say that I've said things on the show that I'm embarrassed about. I eat having the google what the difference was with transgender or what pronoun

to use, Like I'm not there anymore. But certain jokes I make I genuinely feel like y'all expect too much, and sometimes that's hurtful when you know what fight we're fighting, Like the things that we want to teach people on this show, the men and the women that have come to us at live shows and say, dude, I think I was transphobic or homophobic or whatever. Someone jumped down my throat the other day about changing the title of the episode with Hope and Tahoe because it said Ami transphobic.

They're like, how funked up is this? I'm like, have you listened to it? Bit right? It's just I don't know. I feel like it's not gonna be for everybody, maybe if you hear one episode, but for those of you that like growing with us and laughing at us and checking us, which we all appreciate, Like it's just for you. But I ain't even gonna hold you when y'all come with the bullshit BT you a post the ass home.

I don't want to get no more anyway, though, we're gonna get into the Hord dirt, and y'all the Hord dirt actually comes from my toy friend. Oh my god, So when we have sex, right, damn did I delete the goddamn thing? Where to go? So no, no, no, no, I will not call aad. No. We needo tole say that old Bays wizard Kelly because I only posted his nose down, So you should just give us. I don't already told you y'all getting that post. Y'all got enough

with a goddamn nickname. We'll put it. Let's see how it sounds, and then we could have Ben to maybe do a little a little little up anyway though. Um So, the Hord Dirt For those of you who are not hip or new time listeners, the Hord derv is a

segment where we give a sex tip. And this one is a tip not only for men, but I wanted to give it to women too, because this is a sneaky way if your man is not saying hard while y'all are having sex, if he's not if he's coming once and can't get back hard, or if you just find that he has some sort of e d. Again, this is the tip four men and women. And this is what my my toy friend said. He does drink

beat juice daily. Um. Low libido is a common problem that's linked to stress, tiredness, or an underlying medical problem. And I know with COVID right now a lot of us are stressed and possibly tired of being sick and tired. But drinking this unlikely vegetable juice could help to increase your sex dribe. The root vegetable contains high levels of the mineral boron, which boost the production of sexual hormones.

According to beat root juice maker be active. So we were having this conversation because I legit had to ask that nigga, you know, I had to asked him if he either had a rod in his dick or if he was popping viagraph because I was like, I have never fucked a nigga like this this much to where I'd be crawling, screaming, wanting to get away. Not that I feel sore, but I feel like like like, I

feel like fuck. Like he comes like so he doesn't work too long, but he'll nut and then put it right back in four times here or it sucks too longer he does that, he nuts and keeps going, and I'm just like, so let me tell y'all, say he comes for the bitch is a nut, So where does he come? So it's it's different places. So, um, we did different things. Now we do different things. Sometimes he'll just like and squired on my chest and I'll go like under my neck all the way down to my

tips and stomach. And then sometimes I mean, you know, I still like swallowing, so it'll be a swallow sometimes um, and some other times it'll be just right on a little puss a little. I do love watching porn where girls get came on and then they still get sucked. I don't know what's and that's what he did. He just get your lashes done. Yeah, cholester came out damn for real with probably because I was crying. Oh yeah,

I see, it was just too anyway. I wanted to talk about like the most recent time I got sucked with him, and that's where I was just like, what the fun is you doing? And this is how he told me. It's beat juice, celery juice and then sometimes some cold showers, but the beat juice, he said, help send me drinks a daily. And he sucked me into a fetal position and tears. So where listen, I don't think you understand. Guys, I know seven used to out of me. Why did you get in fetal and cry?

Because so with how he fucked me, I don't know what it's like. Yes, he snatched my soul and I know I snatched soles with with with my mouth, he snatched the soul with like, let me tell you what happened first. So I got really drunk for the July weekend. And when I get drunk, because be saying a little nasty ship. So I texted to like one o'clock like, oh, I want to fill you in all my holes. I said, I need to fill you in all of my holes

right now. I said to us on Friday one o'clock, drunk as fuck, and you know, didn't see him Friday, so we we fuck on Sunday. Bitch, let me tell you what this motherfucking did. So we're fucking. He's on top right next thing I know, bitch, he takes his hand and puts three fingers in my mouth. Another rifice, then he takes his other hand, puts it up underneath me and fits two fingers in my asshole, then starts

fucking me, and and I was just like oh. And then while he did it, he said, you said you wanted all your holes field and I bit my whole soul was snatched. Bitch, my whole, I said, I said, all holes, not at one. Now. I didn't want to just refer back where I said. I cried from dick, and MANY was like, bitch, so here's the thing. My eyes watered right, so my eyes watered. But when I came the way I came after release, No, when I laid in the fetal position, like I was like almost

I almost had a seizure. I feel like I don't know, but I laid in the fetal position. My eyes were so watery they burned to the point that I laid No, bitch, I didn't have lashes whole. I have no lations. I've been quarantine you hope I've been like this your first set, yeah, well no, my second, but bitch, the other one I got fucking when I went to Florida. I was like, bitch,

I came to Florida for lashes. No, Mitch, nothing was open here, um, but he fucked me into this fetal position and my eyes were were were so burning that I wanted to lay there and like ball, like to where because I felt I felt like I was in pain, but not pain, but it was pleasure. But I felt like my whole soul was snatched and I just wanted to cry to where I laid there normally get him a little warm, ragging ship and he was like, baby,

you're okay. The only thing I could think of to say, fuck nigga, what I feel telling nigga when he out at you, just suck you, bro, I'm good, but fuck you. I want to say love you, but I wasn't gonna say that, Just fuck you, nigga. How dare you make I've done? Dare you snatched my soul? This way? It was great. I had sex with hospital dick and I remember it was so intense that he looks at me after and I was like, I want you to and I didn't say it out loud and he couldn't hear me.

But I couldn'tn't even a voice now. No, I was battling in my head, like why do I feel this way? What the fund did he just do to my body? How dare I allow men to have this much control over me? Time about? I don't know why I do it either. Um. Today's episode is brought to you by Adam and Eve dot com. And the best part is staying at home is playing at home? What else are you gonna do? Wash fucking dishes? No fun those dishes.

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because y'all know she don't read my preproduction. You didn't send it, bitch, I'm reading it through the text message. All you read with the homemail I sent you, Yes, which that's all you must have sent. No. No, no, no, no, no Ah, gotta scroll up. This bitch ain't even read this ship anyways. Guys, I think because of the place that Weezy and Iron not only with our our past lovers that I shared what this I know, I know, I know someone from my path I know. See. Can

I introduce the goddamn topic? Did we get into your feelings? Hope? So y'all this week? It's really important because again, the person that I'm I'm currently talking to now has completely changed a lot of things that I've said in the past. Weezy has had different lovers over the show where she had all these feelings, but there was just a lot going on, either with her job or with what they had going on. And we don't know that a person is wrong for us until we look back and see

that possibly just the timing was wrong. So the horrible decision for this week is right person, wrong time. I want to talk about that because we a lot of times think that someone is right for us, and when we look back, we realize, damn, they weren't even the ones that we thought was right for us. And so I wanted to talk about this because the heartbreaking truth about it is meeting the right person at the wrong

time really just means that that's not the right person. Dude. Honestly, this is just so weird for me because you don't even know. I felt like that's what God, Icky is so raw for me because somebody from my past. I don't even want to say who it was because I feel like maybe even something y'all will know him, and

it's like whatever. But you know, I had this conversation recently where during Corona, I've been, you know, trying to keep up with people that I care about, and you know, just at whatever capacity that may be in a respectful way to every single party then current level or whatever. So basically this person was like, if you can't be with me, then I don't need you to hit me

up anymore. Do me a favor. If you know I'm in love with you and you know how I feel about you and you can't reciprocate it and I can't do this with you, don't hit me up, don't ask me how I'm doing, don't even see me in the street and speak to me. And it like broke my heart because I was like, damn, it made me feel terrible that like, of course I have loved for this person, but like, why shut me out like that? And he literally cannot handle us even being cordial if we're not together,

and he's like, don't fucking crash into my life. That was like literally the words he said to me. And I feel like shit. He's like, I can't watch you with someone else. I can't be front row and root you, like root for you with someone else. And was like, no fucking way. And he was like, do you feel like, if, if if coronavirus was happening and Old Bay wasn't in the picture, that you would give a second chance with him?

I do you feel like you're in a space now where maybe you could give him what you weren't able to give him in the past or vice versa? Is he able to give you what you think you want? All that, I've been thinking about it, like why wasn't I with him? And at the end of the day, I just don't think we matched. And the sad part about that is like love is just not enough. I feel like you know what I'm talking about, because girl,

you'ven't been in love with so many niggas. Oh, but like, oh, it's just see, I didn't even know you really love that, nigga like that. I didn't really feel like I did, but I didn't need to talk about it on the show because I just didn't want to. And not everything. I mean, I share less thing out there and some hollow stories too, but yeah, I mean it really hit me, like, oh wow, I did. It's just that, no, are just lives don't fucking match. Like it's like love is just

not enough, and I kept thinking that it wasn't. I had this conversation with Alex yesterday. I ran into him in Larisa and we were talking and he was like, nigga, like and I told him how hurt I was that

he said that. I was like, you know, I feel had about fucking feeling heartbroken over some somebody like that from my past, Like I felt guilty about it, but also you know what you do feel like wow when you see someone that feels that strongly about you and you know there's nothing you could do about it because and he said to me like, I know you love me, but you don't love me like I love you, and

that's why I can't talk to you. And I was like, fuck, it made me feel terrible, and no, we're not together because it may feel like he was the right person in moments, but long term or not. And he always says that, like I think in spreadsheets, He's like, you're not with me because you have a spreadsheet mind. You want to plan your things like this and blah bla blah blah blah. And actually it's funny because out of

the two of us, I'm not that person. But realistically, I kind of do plan my life a little bit in a way. And when I think about it, I'm like, no, it doesn't fit. We don't fit. I like certain things, you don't like certain things. It's too much classic clashing. And I do believe that just because there's love there,

it doesn't mean anything when opposites don't really attract. In my book, I do not think and I know people say it maybe extroverted introvert attracts, But as far as like that, my my nigga is definitely understand quiet because that's a balance when you the interests aren't there. And like even the stuff worn times where he'd be condescending, like I'll remember one conversation. This is so basic to say, and I hope he doesn't hear this, but it's simple

but he because they have enough money for you. But we ain't gonna talk about that's not true. He said to me something about Soho House, like why do you even go there? And like he said something about how they like treat people, and like, well, why would you want to be in a place like that? And Dad, and I'm like, look there are places and I'm like, I just it bothered me so much because I'm like, I want to do elevated ship, whether it be travels

somewhere or go to a luxury hotel. And you may always think like that, and I can't be with someone that's fucking thinking like that. I don't like simple shit. I just like, that's why I want to spend my money on. I want to fucking eat over priced food because I can't. I like to see you, okam down but the same way, man, I know, I know, but I know I know. So you feel me because I do.

I do, but I don't lead me out at the daily So well, I okay, but do you tell me that when you spend your money and you want to congratulate yourself is yeah, I go to lights, Okay, I don't want to feel good. Look my eyes don't even eat a lot, so I'll be like, let me go somewhere with the crudo, the little yellow crudo, that's my sheet. What I like the little raw fish. I just felt like, at the end of the day, love is not enough when in the long term ship like it just won't work.

I know the kind of ship I need in my life. I know the kind of person I am, and I know I don't want to feel guilty because I'm about to tell you I'm about to do this ship with my home girls. Yeah, I want to spend twenty three dollars on a drink because I want to because I can. I don't want to be like to me when I when I read this, and even with what's going on now with with my dating life. UM Jacksonville, Um, he's been. He reached out to me, Darren Cornsine, you were in

love with him. The only times I've ever heard you cry, if it wasn't for like a crisis, was him when I moved up to New York and it even got to the point where we were talking about engagement. I went down and spent over a week with him in Jacksonville, and he wanted I don't know if they have to. They have to. Oh girl, perpendiculated and hit me up. Um fucking golden showered and hit me up. If I tell you, all the niggas want to pass that to

hit me up. Dear motherfucker quarantine. I'm like they realized that here about somebody. So Jacksonville hit me up and I was like, oh my god, I'm so proud to see the things you're doing, everything that you said you would do and mind you. Um, when I did this, I was what twenty two maybe twenty three when I went down there, and we were talking about like furthering our relationship. And what's crazy is we're about ten or

eleven years in age difference. And so back then when I went down there, I have a little I have a little crop tops. He hated me wearing crop tops. I had porn star sex all the time, which he didn't like. And he also didn't like that I was bisexual and dealt with women. And at the time I was a bartender. This was before getting back into school and all of this stuff, and so at that time I was ready. I thought I was. At twenty two, I was like, I just want to be with you.

I'm ready If marriage. Whatever you want, I'll give to you. I'll moved down tore like. I was really in a space where I was like, I can give you everything you want. I'm a good woman at the time. I'll be honest with you. A bitch couldn't really boil water. So I'm really saying all this ship, but I couldn't cook. I couldn't like realistically, I still did want to have fun and go to the club and be you know,

do whole trips and all that stuff like that. I was young, but in my mind I did think I was ready and I thought that he was the most perfect man for me. Our sex was amazing. I had a great time with him. His job, like he traveled, so I always met him like other cities, like around Florida sometimes. But I was just like, I'm ready to be with you. And it's funny because I look back now and bitch, there was nothing about me that was

ready for a relationship. And he would tell me that, and I would think, it's because you see in that moment the idea of a man that you'd want to be with. Yes, but so you're like, that's what I want. That's what I want, man. But even though your life isn't ready and I wasn't ready. Just me, honestly, if

you're meant to be, it'll happen. I think the reason that I'm feeling so guilty in this moment right now is because one of the things he said to me was like, you don't want me, And like hearing those words hurt when you know you care about someone, you know what I mean, And like that's how you feel when someone can't be with you, You feel like you don't want me. But but I don't believe that's true.

But also I'm to the point now too where I realized as far as being a hole, not only being a hole, but like y'all know, I really like me some fella bay. And when I met him, I was in my third or fourth year of college. I was just about to start um e y, so I was just starting my career and in my mind, nothing about him fit that. But also my money still wasn't necessarily where I want it it to be, so in my mind, I still when I dated someone, I thought about, okay, financially,

what could this person do for me? And so now I'm at a time where my heart is open because I don't have that ulterior motive of wanting a man with super high finances because I don't need someone to finance my life anymore. So even the ideas of dating. Now, I'm realizing I was looking at men and dating men to see what they could do for me because I wasn't completely fulfilled with myself. And now that I feel like I can buy what I want, I'm living comfortably.

I'm doing what I do. So even let me tell you, I was stressed because this week I knew I had to call with uh with my lawyer talking to you set up calls. I have a whole new company I'm building, which is fucking stressing me out, and then I'm starting my trucking business. So I just have all of this stuff this week, and he like, We're on the phone and I'm telling him literally everything I have to do. I know we're coming to the studio. I'm like, it's

a whole cluster fuck this week. And the thing that he said to me that just had me like, oh my god, You're exactly what I wanted. I sat here and told him everything I was doing this week, and he was like, well, what do you need me to do? And him just saying that. My response was, I just want you to be with me on whatever days I have some free time. I just want you to come over and take me to home. People. But I literally just said I just I just want your company as

an escape. Like when I'm with him, my phone is in another room, I don't open it and we just have our own the oldest so but she did had me watch all these movies from the eighties and nineties. I was like, looking, look at all is probably something like you never had no from other men. I haven't know. It's really when when you live in the same city or so. I told him that. When I was drunk too, I was like, this is why I don't I gotta

stop drinking. I'd just be opening up around are so we at the beach, I'm naked as still stroking his dick, and I just like, I just want to let you know, like all the other guys in my past, yeah, they gave me gifts and flew me around the world and did all of these things for me, But I never got to time that you give me. And I'm sure he just thought that he calls me since his name is Hippo senseius for sensitive hippos, because I think he

a hypocrite. He'd be talking about me traveling. But I'm like, nigga, you you go around everybody, you with your daddy one day, your sister the next, your homeboys the next year. You know what I mean? So yes, I'm like, they don't talk about me flying, and you'll ask around different people every day which your hippocrite or something. For those of you guys are scared to travel, the second you get on the plane, you'll be like, oh, okay, I mean,

I ain't gonna hold you. I told you I'd rather I feel more comfortable in the sex clubs than Home Goods. You know, my Marshals allows a hundred and four people in there. I don't know like, but and Home Goods allows ninety. The sex club ain't allowing that many people. So I'm saved. I feel like we could safer in the sun. I have ways that I'm carrying on about living my life now, and y'all could be judgy about it or not. I don't give a fun his mind

to live. The only reason I'm gonna keep getting tested is because of other people. At this point, I feel alike for my space and mental health. I do need to socialize my nigga I have. I was thinking, no bullshit crazy ask thoughts about like, oh how long would this last? How long could I live like this? Like being you know, fucking I just want to apologize to a happy life, right, I'm not not. Nothing is going wrong with me. My parents are healthy, my money is plentiful.

I'm happy as far as my relationship, and I legit, I was thinking, how long can I be alive like this? That's crazy? Ship. So the thing that I'm doing is boosting my immune system, keeping myself healthy, keeping active, keeping my body heavy and alkaline, trying to oxygenate my blood. And that's all I could sucking do. Would you say? Oxygen oxygen eight? Hold on you? You know, I gotta see you. That's the word, because I'm a comfy o

with oxygen. Oxygen. Oh b, it is a word, Okay, oxygen supply, treat charger, enrich with it is a verb with objects, Okay. Anyway, Yeah, We're gonna get into the motherfucker homemail this week. And I sent this Sweezy and she was like, bro, is this are these people real? So they d m me. I'm not gonna put it. They DM me on Twitter. I won't put out their name, but they are located in Detroit. Um, so I'll ask

him if I can put his name out. If any of you men listening want to offer up your services again, guys, if you guys want to send in a homemail d MS, I lose. I only have this because they sent it this morning. But if you guys want to send us a homemail, make sure you write us at horrible decisions at Gmail don't comb So this starts off, UM, good morning. I hope I caught you at an extremely giving and generous mood. Listen, he really needed some help, but this

is crazy what he needed help with. Bro. I've listened to your podcast off and on for years and love it. Long story short, I'm addicted to my wife getting fucked in front of me like MMF train, I don't care. Problem is the niggas dicks are too small. I'm well endowed myself, but I'm not opposed to my wife getting a dick. My size are bigger. I actually theme for it.

We just suck at finding guys. We're in Detroit and it's not that really many attractive black couples we can find any tips or tips just getting niggas for her and the ones that know how to shut up and not run their mouth if you're running his wife at their pleasure. To put it into perspective, I want my wife, you know right. I want my wife to be like the woman from She's gotta have it and get dick that she wants because I genuinely love it for her. We swing and I just love seeing her get berated

with dix and her being open as a woman. It doesn't change my love for her, It actually amplifies it. My favorite porn start, she's my favorite porn start to clean up and my best friend as a woman and a quote unquote or I hope you can understand. I want her to do me how men do women, and it fuckeding creamed in. Like Wheezy said before, I want to be my wife's nasty stag, but she needs bigger and better dicks. Any advice, I just want to look a stagg really is a stag a horse? It's an animal, right,

a male dear. But I want to see if it means, oh, it's a male dear. I know it was like an animal dear or same thing. So before we start, I'll actually got it. Stag Urban Dictionary the male half of a relationship who allows and find sexual gratification in allowing and even encouraging his female partner to have sex with other men. Why why do you read so fast? I think they would love this definition? So can you slow it? What I was? Real? Ship? I felt like it was

my brain is on a hundred. The male half of a relationship who allows and find sexual gratification in allowing and even encouraging his female partner to have sex with other men. Not to be confused with the cup hold, because the male is typically weak and into humil humiliation. Stags are dominant but want to share their woman. I like that. I didn't know that. So look at you all, we're learning with you like it's a dear Now I figured it was. It was just such a random word

of so stag. Um, So I like that because yeah, I'm not gonna lie when you do. Definitely, And when you think of cuc holding, you do think of um, the man being more submissive. I know who's a stag? The guy how well, he doesn't necessarily want it, but he was like saying how he didn't care if his girl sucked out niggas, but having at present, I feel like he's he more so just wants her to go out and big dicks. Like this guy doesn't seem like he's in the room all the time or cares to

be in the room all the time. He said, I just want to get big dicks. I ain't gonna hold you. Uh, don't be king shaman, I don't Okay, he's a nasty nigga. I like that. That's the clip. There we go. Um, So my my bit of advice for this would be, actually, um, there are fat Life, my Wild Lifestyle go on these apps and men. There's a lot of men that want to partake in these type of engagements. So you just requesting big dicks like you can literally ask looking for Hey,

I know you're gonna hate it a BBC. You can use those hashtags or you can you can you can make a Twitter for this too. I feel like it's Craigslist all the way shut down because I ain't gonna lie to you when I don't feel like watching porn. I used to go to like Craigslist and just read it. Used to make me so wet. I kind of want like an old school, Craigslist home, so like, I ain't gonna hold you. I used to just go on Craigslist just to read these people just offering their boy two

chicks that we know from back in the day. And when you know she was doing Craigslist. Um, I wasn't really her friend like that either, but I know she was doing it. You know what I'm talking about. She was like when she had her hotel room, me and the X we picture up to take her to a strip c ever something, She's like, oh, this dude left his phone here, and I was like, Craigslist and what's

other ones? And they always put the little squiggly line asterisks to her, like, what's what's the other one that got shut down? He no back page. Anyways, I suggest you to go onto one of the kink sites. UM. Also, there's if you look up even the hashtags honestly on Instagram, so swingers Polly open relationships and I started seeing those has hashtags from the relationship goals. When you go to their um podcast page, you see them use the hashtags

a lot. I think that people definitely utilize those. So if you don't want to get onto lifestyle games, yeah, if you don't want to get onto an actual app, I would say get onto and Twitter. Twitter has the best porn stars, the best amateur people, a lot of those only fans people, and honestly a lot of people

look for people to shoot content with. I'm not sure if you're comfortable with your wife being shot on film, but if you like that kind of sag position to where you like watching her get fucked by, here's the ones. Consider that. The hashtags I just clicked on them hashtag Polly Proud, hashtag US three, hashtag Polly, hashtag, pride um hashtag three, relationship goals, relationship goals, polyamory, um, lifestyle. I

don't I know. You said you hate that word, but I told you lifestyle really Black and Polly hashtag Black and Polly Nation. Um No, I mean I hate the word. Like I'm just teasing when I say that, Like I'm like, because you never know I would. I would suggest too though, Like I said, getting on Twitter, um, there's a ton of people there that are looking for other other people

to shoot with and just play with. Um. Also, if you're a stag and you like to feel dominant, I think the most dominant thing a motherfucker can do is be dominant with them pockets, So feel free to buy to pay for days. I'm just gonna say, like, I think as far as professionalism goes, like what if I don't know, if y'all don't wanna, I feel like people like want to do nasty thing. They're like, how would you not find someone weird? Do you pay them? Yeah?

I would say, look look into paying people, especially guys with big dicks, do feel like they need to be taken care of a lot? Yeah, well it's COVID. Niggas ain't traveling like that. No, the more they in Detroit, they're in Detroit. Not well they didn't we have a Detroit cup. No, in Detroit we had a blowjob. We had the blow job in Detroit. Yeah she was great. Um, but yeah, I would say, honestly, get on get on some some message boards and find the lifestyle community in

Detroit and there's a tournament. Men are easy to give up? Can you? I wonder I need to figure out if you could do this? Already? I know, Ready, it's really white back getting the whole dog. Ready, that's so white. I don't get a ready. I only like it because I'm starting to get into conspiracy theories and let's see

are they here? Are they here? All right? Um? Well y'all, y'all can't get a long episode because our guests are almost on time to no. But guys, um, I do want to shout out to everyone who has subscribed, rating to us, followed us on Instagram that's at Horrible Underscore Decisions. Also keep up with us on Twitter at Horrible Pod. Again, thank you all for supporting us, watching us on YouTube, and just suck y'all in the comments. But shut out something request. Um Mandy and I, as we told you,

we have some new changes coming. So few things that we want. We want to try a new segment we've we've done horrid derves. This is I really like, especially when guests come on and they can give us their tips and you know we're not a normal normally like a six tippy show, I feel like, but it has been fun to do those. So take this email not just for homemail Horrible Decisions, and I want you to put show suggestions. And when you say that, let either

guest suggestions. But when you have a guest suggestion, please tell us who directed us to a Twitter direct us to it. Don't be like, yo, y'all should get couples that eat each other's ask and spit it in people's mouths. Oh cool, great, Like I don't mind reaching out, but just be the liaison. Um. I do know that I've heard and we've received a lot of comments that they do want to see more couples, and so I am

in communication with couples. I like the couples. I think that that's a I think that that's a great many recently, and I really do want it. I want to like some drama on the show that's not us. Want If you we're having an issue with your baby mother and you want to confront her, come to the studio. We are in New York with social distance, y'all won't be able to fight because we'll keep the table apart. But

I want you all to talk about your problems. Dogs that do that we could do like maybe X is if you want to get back to here we go, Here we go. Let's see what else we don't have people that we did put play? What else do I want? Black lesbian couple? Someone wrote us right me back. If you're a nasty and you're black and lesbian, I think that'd be great, we haven't had a black I also would love a Polly couple with two men, so we can get two men and a woman in here. And

you already know. I want to talk about what else. I do have some some people who are by that white girl with a black guy. I feel like I see y'all in the street and we need to talk about it. Can you know that you're a big white girl and you know a pog? They're called POGs. No, I'm not talking about badass white girl. I mean, by the way, because Ashley Chevy but he said that word is fine, but no, for real, but only when you're fat.

But your man has to be obsessed with big white girls. Okay, No, you have to be one of those who are black. Guys will not stop sucking you. And I want you to come on this show. We're not gonna read you because I'm not going to talk about you until the next episode. Oh my god, you know what, guys. Anyways, I want to thank all of y'all who continue to support us during quarantine. As you see, we off the

motherfucking zoom but become a patron. We dropped three bonus episodes a month, so that is Patreon dot com backslash horrible Decisions. We are going to leave you guys with a five minute bonus clip at the end of the show. Again, I want to thank you all, but motherfucker supporting us, motherfucking riding with us. And it's been all good. It's another episode up by here's another good one that you brought up. EASTA and Molly's friendship growing apart from a friend.

Man even knows when do you know friendships from? Of course? And is it possible to outgrow a friendship? And can they can they hear those questions? Can they hear those questions? Because but this pre production I want them to know I really thought about I actually think that I am the East and I think it could be a bad thing. And let me tell you, guys, why Okay, real quick, guys, just so you know the questions because I didn't even hear how you read it? And I'm looking at it.

Why are you reading it? So we're gonna get into the topic now. Of course, um Easa and Molly's friendship they started growing apart as friends, and it was really just because they were in two different parts of their lives. And so the questions that I asked for a weezy night to break this down, is when do you know a friendship has run its course? And is it possible to outgrow a friendship and end amicably doesn't have to end? And I think that that's what I have a lot

of feelings about that. A few people come to my mind, but now I want to keep in mind this has nothing to do with let's take out a friend that pished you off and you gotta fight with because when you said to outgrow, I think those are the friendships that kind of like linger and you're not sure why you have them. But the reason I felt like issa is because I don't do well with letting a friendship

end because I don't know why it's happening. I think that means something is wrong, and so I'll just do my best to keep it when I don't even need it, And I think that it can come across very like I don't know, juvenile almost But I had a friend recently where like I linked up with her for lunch and we had nothing to talk about that in common anymore, but I was one who pushed for it, and then I set up a time to meet up with her again.

And I was like, why did I do it? Was like word on me, Oh, let's do it again next And I even want to see your next Saturday. And this is a few months ago, but I realized it's because, oh, it's this failure thing in my head instead of just growth, like people change and it's totally okay, like you can acknowledge what you have with someone at that time. Ship. Me and you, we were fun, we had fun, we were young, we were kids, and we just don't. We're

not the same way. And I I think it's like it's such an issue for us learning and growing up that when things end, a break up, a friendship, whatever, you did something wrong. They did something wrong, and you feel guilty about it. So instead of that guilt, we would rather just keep some ship that we don't need. I mean, I think that that's how I view a lot of my friendships from back home, which is why I say I don't care to ever really go to Orlando.

I don't have like a lot of the friends that I did have and that I, you know, grew up with, they all have kids, partners, never traveled. I remember the last time I went, I had um I went out to lunch with two of my two of my home girls, and we went to like this New Orleans restaurant. They had never even been in New Orleans, so which they didn't know it about. Like we literally had nothing in common.

I don't care about kids. I don't want to hear about your little your little shit, and I you know, I have a whole different lifestyle that they don't understand. So I was just like, Okay, well, this kind of probably won't last much longer, like as and And it's not that we hate each other, but we like each other's picks on Instagram. We be in the d m s and we keep it putting either like I like

knowing that I have that with some people. You know, it's weird because when your lives do go in different directions, you want to enhance your friends lives. You don't want them to feel like it doesn't match. Like I think Serrita is a great example, because we've never stopped being friends, and we won't. We really love each other, but I do know we live different lives, and I think that's why we talk less, you know, but I love talking. She came to our show about tickets. That felt great

to see her husband does my taxes. It's nice to see her, but I do realize we don't talk as much because you know, she's got her grown as kids out the house and her and Alan aor do in their thing. And I'm just sitting here about saying little bullshit. But but also when I call her now, the conversations

are a little different. You know, maybe I'll ask her for help she was a therapist from a mental health perspective, or advice about colleagues or whatever like those have been the things we've talked about in the last few years. And I'm like, Okay, it's changed. It's not gonna be the every day, every week call because her life is different.

That's cool to me. Like, I don't see, so do they have to end um if it becomes toxic in the way that Molly and East's friendship was to where it was affecting their moods, they didn't even like they looked at the call and you could tell it, just like, like,

I don't really want to answer this. I think when things when a when a friendship becomes toxic, or when a when a friendship can affect your mood for the day, or or how you move and you don't even want to, Like there was a scene where she really wanted this food and she saw Molly in the restaurant, so she

didn't even eat the food. When things be, when a friendship starts to feel like wait that you're caring, that's when I think it's time to just okay, really revise it and think to yourself, is this is this worth it? And like I said, even in the dealing with mental health with partners, I think that you need to look at how you're how energies affect you, and I think that that's how you decide whether a friendship is worth it.

I've had that call with a friend that like is a friend and we're getting attitudes with each other on the phone and then about to hang out, and I'm like, why am I doing this ship? Like why for what? This dumb shit? I haven't done it recently? Is an adult. But you know one of my friends who checks me a lot. I remember I used to bother me sometimes.

Charterie would be like, bitch, you told me we were hanging out today, and I know we always canceled plans, but you can at least let me know five minutes before