Ep149: Toe Sucking Crimes & Gaslighting

army that aren't going. Yes, It's like, I'm not gonna lie. So I called my sister immediately because I took all the jokes to heart because my sister is in the army, but she's in Germany, and she's like, we're like not likely to be deployed because we're here in Germany. So luckily the base that she's on, there's a very low risk of her being shout out to, especially my gaze

in the Army dogs. I do want to get start off and preface this episode with saying that we respect and thank everyone who is serving this ship of the country. There's a guy on Patreon that we had to delay his merch because he was deployed. I think your name is Sean. Thanks for your service to I know mouse Um was in the military as well. Like my brother's in the army. My brother and my sister are both in the army. So like it's to see all the jokes like in the memes. I was just like, like,

it's just such home for me. So I guess the jokes run are cool and when when you don't really have to worry about being you know, sit there anyways, guys, welcome to horrible decisions. I'm your girl, Mandy B. I'm wheezy, and we're just gonna quickly tell you what dates we are going to be in your city this week. We are hitting up Detroit on Saturday. Stay teen h that's Is that how that works? No, girl, I think you're a week behind. That's next week, bro? Is it really you? Girls? Oh? Ship?

God damn already next week? Bro? So yes, Saturday, Motherfucker's how Motherfucker's motherfucking Detroit Baby four shows in a week after that, we're going to be in Chicago on the twenty second at the Chicago Improv and then we have a one date of tickets left for the twenty five at Sony Hall in New York. Following that will be in Texas on the twenty Dallas. Also, if you guys are in New York this week and they might be sold out already. I'm hosting the Guy's next Door podcast.

Actually never hosted anything that will be a ship show because you hosted You hosted the show in Connecticut. No, No, they just had me like come and be interviewed. I thought I was gonna host it, so I was like, Okay, let me figure out what how to do? I call it mouse When they hit me and I was like, yo, um, you know I never hosted anything where he was like you are? I take him professor. It's not gonna be I already got one joke I can't wait to condemn

on the off to. I haven't sucked each of them yet anyway, it's terrible, but no, it'll be fun and they have like such a similar like five to their audience, so I'm excited. Um. Also, he has a comedian that I will intro as well, so like the comedian will open and then they all come out. But yeah, so I feel like I don't have to be the comedy part. Make sure you kill that ship because a lot of

people fuck up comedian intros so easily. Really, yes, the last thing you got to do for an intro for comedian is just say their name, because why the guy people like you'll they'll say, oh, they're from them to them, and they won't say their name, so they don't have like a proper que to come out. Does make sure you say that person's name. He didn't added press for me to say the person. Now bring out the jokes until I got for you. You know what was awful

about hosting this thing? I knew I had to say yes because of all the ship Mouse has done for us. Yeah. Oh wow, I can't even really say no. So I'm excited too. For for those of you who are coming to UM our Midwest shows and the New York shows, we have previous guests that will be in attendance, special guests that are invited, and the audience specifically in New York will hold a lot of your favorite podcasters, So

just come out. It's gonna be a good time. UM the show that we're putting on for you guys and all these shows are are really dope, very fun. Um. Also for the men listening, get your tickets too, because the women be looking and ready after the guys. Hella, dude that with the Boston Boston why do we go? There was a lot of single dudes. Okay, that was it was Boston. I was like, which was kind of crazy.

So just men, if you listen to the show, coming tickets. Yeah, but also I would like to say shout out to the guy that heard me on Flay Grant that came up to me in Boston and was like, yo, he was right, because I was. I was like, trust me, you're gonna get packed. Yeah. I'm not saying I'm sure. I'm just saying everybody gets morning after our shows. So I'm looking forward to because old Bay won't make it. He's gonna be at the Sundance Film Festival because he's

a home and loves a fucking weekend like that. Yeah. Well, I'm hoping I have some guy that I'm dating eventually, but until then, all my holes are popping up. So have host coming. I have a hope coming to the Detroit show, the Chicago show. One is flying into Dallas for my Dallas show. One of my host will be in Houston for the Houston Show. The only one I don't have a hope coming to right now is both New York shows, so that like, well he's gonna do

I think Atlanta New Orleans with me? Um, because he was like, where do you want me to come? And by the way, guys, yeah, well let me let me just let you guys know. Um, probably by the end of this week, if not the top of next week, you guys will be able to get tickets for Atlanta, Charlotte, Orlando, New Orleans, Toronto, l A, and San Francisco. Yes, so March and April shows will be dropped. Um, so you will be a gonna be a bit No March is disgusting, but you'll be able to get your tickets to those

seven cities. Right now, we still are waiting for the venue for Vegas and there are very few rooms left for Moca Fest guys. So if you haven't gotten your Moca Fest tickets yet, we are doing a live show in Jamaica, Daring Moca Fest. It comes with your party package, so you don't have to buy tickets from Moca Fest. UM use promo code. Horrible that's w h O r E I b l E. And you get fifty dollars off your book. You hot to get it now because you got the time off. Just fucking get your tickets now.

Because me and Mandy were trying to have friends coming, it was so crazy expensive my friends. If it wasn't like expensive there layovers and ship, it's sucked. Um. I don't know if I'm bringing Venus X might come with me because she's in dr so it's kind of close. Old Bay was like, bitch, I'm not going to ratch of ship and I was like the funk. You ain't hit You've come for two days and go to the Hampton's for Amoryal Day weekend, but you are coming to see very do my horror s. I can't. This was

very boudshy. He's a booge nigga, but so am I because I was acting the same way. I was like, I want my Abby, I miss and Jesus Christ. Same energy. Oh so yeah, what'd you do? New Years? Um? Shout out to my friend Dora Um, one of my friends who came with us to Jamaica. Hedonism. Um. I went to her house and that's just because I bought a last minute flight to Vegas. Was gonna go to Vegas, but I was going to miss out on like literally

by m q MS for gold status. And I was just like, I don't really care to go all the way to Vegas just to be a girl collection um, so I canceled that. Once to her house, she rented out the bowling alley and her building, and a minute she walks in the house at six thirty and was like, oh, by the way, guys, we don't have food. So literally, me and her homegirl Kendra, had to cook food for almost eighty people. I cooked the collar green. Why didn't she cater? Because she was bumped out? Did she know

that many people were forty? So she sold forty tickets the day of forty other tickets got sold, so the amount of people doubled, like literally the day of New Year and so and so she catered. Um, my friend gott Yeah, she got the she got the wings, she got she she bought wings and she bought fish. But I ended up making um two different types of collar greens because I put pork in mines and a lot of motherfucker's don't eat pork. So I made the collar greens.

Maybe that's their problem and they can leave. I made two bads. I put the smoked turkey in both, but I didn't put bacon in one. Um. And then we made baked mac and cheese. We I bought a cheese plotter. We made fucking sausage. We made like we literally had to cook food because it was funny. Excuse me, had a great time. I mean I blocked out, so I don't really know what else happened. I did wake up in someone's bed, so that wasn't fun. But I blocked out,

So there's that. Okay. Yeah, so I actually really wanted to drink on New Year's but didn't, so I went to Too Loom and my friends the week before. I always I feel like Mexico for New Years is my ship now. Um shout out to Josie and Brandon. Met a bunch of new friends and um yeah it was. While in the funk out, also ran into Ryan from Pose also known as uh Damien. I want you to hear this. I want you to get tagged again. Every time we run into each other. We have this trunk.

You're gonna come on horrible decisions talk No, nigga, you are coming on, so I had a great time to loom tell them with everybody get to Mexico City. My home girl gets so sick she can't go out that night, so I end up going out hanging out with one E one. It sounded like a law firm. It was not a Mexican law firm. It was just literally two nigga's name one and one, and I did with them all fucking night in some weird plaza. I've never been

to Mexico City, so that was cool. But I didn't drink because I did a spiritual ship thing, a spiritual spiritual thing in on top of the Tia too, to walk in this pyramid of the sun um so basically it's like known as this like sacred ground, and I really wanted to like try to like elevate on a different frequency. And you can't do that when you're like hungover, you know. So I didn't drink or anything. I ate very clean. Bro I got up there and it was so crazy because it was so high up in the air.

It's such a big tourist attraction. And I went early. Nobody was there like a corner that I wanted to meditate. It was crazy packed with the corner that I wanted, Like this entire side of the pyramid was empty. It was wild, im mediate tears. Like when I started, it

was weird. I talked to my aunt a little bit up there, and then when I put my hands on the floor, like I know it sounds nuts, but I could feel it like vibrating a little bit this you know, right she letting the demons out of ship talking about she felt the ground vibrate. It was there was just one of Puerto Rico. It was like tingly. I can't explain it, but like my energy was crazy, dog like. I was all the way up there and they say that like that ship could happen to you, and I

was just meditate. I meditated for an hour, so like my my mind was like completely clear, and it took a long time to get to that space because I'm not a good meditator at home. I'm always thinking. But it was completely fucking easy, bro. So I didn't um like the Pretzel ship for a while, but that would kind of hurt. And so I literally laid on my back for the last twenty minutes and it was like the sun was beaming on me and it was just it was crazy, like all this ship. I was just

like figuring out and letting go. It felt so good. Um, but Mexico said he super dope. You guys never been at super artsy. Um, I will say, there's a lot of street food my stomach. I have ibs. It didn't react exactly. Well, Um, I would love to show you all this what happened to me. So Alex and I are talking. He's in Miami, We're on FaceTime. We're chilling, and I told him how I eat this food. I was like, dog, I gotta hang up, and he's like why. I was like, I think my ship my pants. He's like, oh,

don't shoot your pants. Go to the bathroom. Try to go into McDonald I couldn't get to a fucking bathroom. What do you mean A no? No No? So I get to a Walmart. I wait in line of like fifteen Mexicans. Get to the toilet and it looks like this. Yeah. No, it's literally water on the floor, like muddy brown water. Now the fucking pipe is wrapped in like some kind of fucking cloth. Bro It was either that or ship on myself. At that point, I was like maybe I

could shut them. I was like I have to go. Now. I'm squatting in this fucking Mexican Walmart. This nigga Alex I thought I hung up, but it's still in my purse. He's rolling and I'm like trying to ship. He's like, yo, this is nasty. I'm like, hey, dude, it was so bad. So anyway, ship in this Mexican Walmart and it was fucking awful. It was literally the worst experience in my life. I run back to the hotel was Mexicas hotel were

staying at. When I tell you, I took an hour and a half shower, I felt like there was other people shipped on me. It was so And then the next day I had the nerve to get more street food. Also. It was walked into this place and I said to the guy downstairs, I was like, I want something that's like really Mexican, not like this other ship you guys keep showing me gentrified Mexico. I want the real ship. He's like, okay, So he gives me this address. Can't

find it on Google, when I should have got the soup. Um. There's a soup that they put tripe in, and tripe is actually um. I think it's um intestines, but it's it's good. They only served like five things and the growing up she was Mexican. And so what you do

is it's like a it's red. I know, it's a red suit and it has like intestine in it, and you literally just soap the tortilla and the like you put the you know the name of it right, Yes, I had it mad It's something like it's like medudo, but it's not medudo because that's like but it's like an M words. It's like an M word though I had a red suit, but it's a red suit but with intestines in it. That's kind. Also, Joe compran day. So I get to the spot and I was like, damn,

is this it, bitch? I walk in. I was menudo. I told you I don't like yes, bitch, but it's literally intestine soup, bitch. It's good. Hold On manudo also known as ponsita little gut or little stomach is it has mola, but it's made with cow stomach tripe and a broth with red chili pepper basses. I mean me, it's cow stomach, bitch, that's beef. Was vegan manuda as good as he's God damn vegans. Yeah, I'm tired of Dan.

Did you know? But anyway Manudo? Yes, I knew. It was something like se Madudo Manudo, same ship, go to in Mexican restaurant. Let's just look, we're gonna do anyway. But this is really good. So guys, if you if you guys, haven't, I know it may sound sound nasty. Actually really really it was hot dog soup. But anyway, dogs, we are not going to do this. First off, it's not soup. It's spaghetti. And shout out to all my goes. Okay, suck about saying. To be fair, we were in Boston.

I've never seen so many Haitians try, so I didn't know that, Um they made it that far north. I'm not gonna lie, yeah, but I didn't know. I was like, damn, Haitians make it this far north. I just didn't know because Haiti is all the way down, you know, by Florida, and it's not really by Florida. It's connected to Dominican Republic.

But I should have known because there's a lot of Dominicans up here, and I was like, ship, so we get in there and this whole is trying to throw hot dogs spaghetti on a the goddamn but they started Zopal was deep in Boston, so shout out to the mother buckeroo and then I started cappy and there we go. Because we were talking about beans here we got Mandy claims. I was like, oh, because you're supposed to like bacon

and beans, and she was like, bacon. It's ground BEI okay in the South, but in the South, when you like go to a barbecue and you make baked beans, you put the ground beef in there and it makes like And She's like, ain't nobody putting no ground beef and no baked beans. I mean you could add baking. Then she said bacon bits. I'm like, bitch, ain't nobody putting bacon. See I told you that, No, brother, you don't put bacon bits in comparison to putting small piece

of bacon. Oh, Ed, it is me, bitch, Ed, it is me. I told you this meant like breaking up told bacon. Yeah. I didn't mean it when I said I meant like small pieces of bacon. I never heard that. You never heard of ground beef and beef the thing that you are talking about, the bacon bit it comes in a jar. It's like when you do like yeah, or like a baby. But anyway, so we're not going to debate about food because this is not an episode.

So here's this Mexican place I went into. So, bitch, I went in this place and this is fucked up because I know it's state country, but this ship was way too Mexican. The what is way to Mexican? This is but if you're in Mexico saying something is way too Mexican, bitch, I go in there, all the menus and sharpie, I'm like, this might be lit. But there was gattos and ship what are gottoes cats? I was like, oh my Spanish god, damnit this is that wasn't like there was an old woman making a ship and I

was like, damn that ship probably gonna be good. But they realized I wasn't Mexican and didn't even want to serve me because they were trying to act like it was someone's house. And I was like, oh my god, this might either be lit or this might be like some fucking it might have been someone's house too. It probably would house. So I was like, oh kwanto, like

you know, for my food, bro my food. I had three tacos, the red soup, a coke, and tostada my ship with seventy patos, which is not even God, it's not even how much five dollars I think for four what. I don't know what the equivalent is, but anyway, bitch, that's how it was. When I went to time, none of my meals were over three dollars. I know it was, but me so la and they start laughing, laquenta is the check, and then isn't. She's like, it's the check.

You're only tell them the Spanish niggative that lay for the listeners. I'm just telling the story this way because I ain gonna lie. I don't know what quentin I said, and they looked at me, laughing like, bitch, you think we got checks out here? How so then I all all I have was a hundred paso, and I was gonna let them keep the change. But then I saw how excited they was about the change. I pulled out another hunted pat So this gave me tupperware to go big. Yeah,

tips very big over there. Oh yeah, because yeah they do. Mexicans are dope as talk, and I experienced a new Mexico in Mexico City with the spiritual cleansing and ship, like I got one of those. That ship was beautiful. Um, and I just didn't know how fucking deep and spiritual it was. Like I just was not ready for it. Um. Also, well, they love Jesus like a lot. They loved This is

the kind of ship I had done. See how like she's putting a polypons all over her body and like she was like saying, we might need to say, Joe, as you can't be going to another country letting and put smoke around you. It could be bringing you might be bringing bad energy. It's just that you're bringing the energy, the energy vibes. No, it's not a bad thing. It's not a bad thing. Y. I was looking for a special place, so I went to someone and asked him

what I could get it done. I hit up Ameliorities. I think you know, it wasn't her with someone else, but they told me about someone that I could find. So I got a dope ass fucking cleansing. Bro. Like she you know, sent some Mexican ship over my body. And I'm not saying Spanish it because I think it was like specific to Mexicans saying to me a little bit. Yeah, yeah, it was more Native um, she's sang to me. And then like was cracking me like on some chiropractice. It

like my neck stage in me. And then when she was like using apolot sometimes me, she like lifted my shirt up to get it on my body. You're gonna need to get your tuities redone. What you don't know what hell. I came home, I'm sing looking at whole babe. I was like, you know, they told me you got another bitch, and he was like, get the funk out of here. I was like, she told me you got another bitch. She was like, yo, that's because you made them feel like that. I was like, it's like they're

feeding off your energy. You told me you thought I had another bitch, and she confirmed the ship. I was like, Nick's is trash, but I felt saying it anyway. Mexico is dope. We are going to start off right now with our Vanilla ship, which shout out to the place that we are from, Florida. Florida man woken up by man who broke into his house and began sucking his toes.

Christmas Eve and Truder was sucking on his toes. According to the unnamed twenty year old man in Brandon, tim Florida, that was sound asleep with the sensation of this toe sucking that snapped him out of his slumber. Um police responded to reports of a burglary, and we're told the bizarre details. Once they got on the scene, the victim asked the suspect what he was doing and told him that he did not have any money. The suspect told

him he was there to suck toes. The man, apparently did not appreciate the fact that his toes were unexpectedly lodged in a stranger's mouth, responded with a violent um barrage, who look at you? Not? Yeah? That brought the toe sucking into a halt and forced the intruder or away from the house. The victim proceeded to punch the suspect in the mouth. But I didn't know each other. No for how long he woke up like that? Now? For how long was he punching him? Has I read this article? Said?

He punched him in the mouth to force him out of the backyard. While he was forcing hi out, the suspect told him that he had a gun and then attempted to fondle his general area. The gun was never seen. Apparently unfazed by the gun threat, the man continued to successfully fight off his attacker, punching him across the face for approximately thirty seconds. Tiring down the toastsucker. The man

was able to return his home and call the police. However, the intruder was seemingly unwilling to give up his attack at that point. The intruder then ran back towards the house, punched out the glass at his front window. He then jumped on top of the man's car, stomped on the wheelchair Windshilter broke before escaping on foot. Who the hell is breaking into someone's house? I would like to say, you guys have heard me talk about drug use. I think drugs are fun, but this is one I don't

do because it has to be crack. This is a methy some acid, meth this acid. People have deep spiritual awakenings on acid. They so maybe he thought he could get some spiritual stuff from some totos. Nick. I think this is crackish. And I think it's crackish because if you got punched in the face for thirty approximately thirty second, and you had the willpower to keep going. That's crack. So I'm I'm interested to know if that was in the police report and if the crack said the crack

man said crack I got pushed. I can't come with crack man, right, but he gave punch for thirty seconds? Or did the person say, listen, I was assaulted by being a woken up by this person in my house by second my feet, and I punched him for thirty seconds. Who gave the thirty second detail? Right? I feel like it's premeditated the second. That's why I said, did they know each other? Like you literally just to house to

suck another man's toes? You would have to see those toes the first time, right, You had to have maybe seeing them toes. Maybe he used to walk in sandals. My daddy be wearing the sandals like he's Jamaica sandals that I hate. But maybe he saw this to the sandal. And this is why I said the foot guy was a creepy motherfucker because bat Negga came in here when Mandy told that post story and he was like fire

that reaction. I was sitting across the table like, oh my That's like he had to have seen them toes before. You don't just want to put any toes in your mouth. Normally it comes from an arousal for a certain type of toe. So I feel like he saw them toes somewhere. Brokay, maybe a hopefuls or something. I don't know, and he was like, damn listen, ship, let me roll up on you to our next segment, wore Dirts if you haven't heard it yet, is our sex tip that we are

serving up for the week. It could be from Mandy, could be from me, could be from Google, which is a lie to most of this fucking should we do? But this one is from one of our steners. You can submit them to Horrible Decisions at gmail dot com along with homemail as well. This one is I'm a huge fan of the podcast and I'm looking forward to the live show in Charlotte. When I heard about the new segment, I immediately opened my email app to type this out because it's a sex tip I tell everyone

about and I think everyone should try. Here. It is try the combination combination of stimulating your clip, getting fingered, and having your ass eight at the same time. My man and I tried it recently, and let me tell you, it was mind blowing. I let out the most whatever she said, noise, She said, I sounded like a cow. Yeah. I then proceeded to cry and shake and then laugh hysterically. The rest of the day. I couldn't stop smiling. I've never had an orgasm like that. Nothing has even come

close to date. It is one of the most memorable sexual experiences for me, and I want everyone to try it. Now. I'm trying to think of is she okay? But let's let's let's break this down. So he is eating her ass is he also? Is she playing with her clip while he's fingering her? Or is there a way for a man? I think he's fingering her while he's and then he's rubbing her clip, right, Okay, that's my assumption. That's my assumption too. But the way I had it

done was not from eating. I was getting fucked rubbing my clip and I had his fingers up mask. Oh yeah, that's that's typical. And it was like a little thumb, but normally like thumb in the button, I'm never touching a clip at the same time, So it was like so much ship going on Okay, I started tearing up. You just yeah, like I like, um, like for a thumb or any finger to be put in my butt really while I'm getting but yeah, normally they're not finger

me in the butt playing with my pussy. And like, as as a woman, if you're going to have all of these things being played with UM so that you can reach some sort of orgasm, you do have to become involved to so, either by rubbing your own clip or having toys UM, which I enjoy having UM. So so and I had a video, well it's in my phone but and I and I don't remember what episode it was, but I was talking about most the last time I fucked um Lawyer Bay, which was last year.

We in a new year now because they last year, but last year when we we fucked UM, I've used my dildo. So he put the dildo in my ass while he was sucking me, and that to me was a different feeling than a finger because it was bigger, like I felt like it was Yeah, I talked about the DP, but he could feel the toy in my ass on his dick while he was inside of me, So it was also like a good like it was cool for ends he liked, I didn't know it was that Like, I guess the lining is that thin, but yeah,

I don't know, and ever like broke it. You know what I'm saying, like between yeah is made, Nigga. We know that's really just said. He's like, yo, you the line between the US and one thing. It's bad then dush nigga. Okay, camera guy Vincent with the with the knowledge. Wait, but yeah, he We should have asked a question when doctor what was her name? Um Christina, which you guys haven't listened to that episode yet, but we have a doctor coming in. UM shout out to Dr Christina, and

we talked about um damn my sex injury. So where I go join that coffee? My assid reflux is sucking me up right now. I didn't I'm out of pepsid. I'd be feeling so old now I want to take tons and ship God damn, could I get some more water? Yeah? I think pepsi it's for it's for acid reflux. I thought was MS toms to Pepsid is like the pill that ship work immediately. But I'm out of it, and

so I didn't take it this morning when I'm like prescriptions. No, it's all it's speaking of prescriptions every time I go to Mexico a bit reason just said that I got so much ship. I was like, you know what, I'll take the ambient. Let's do a little the nex yo. I looked like a Caucasian woman in that stars like, did you stock up on Plan B? No? I don't need Plan B. I'm not that Beline, but that should

be on the low and I wouldn't. Yeah, I mean my goal does not have to take a plan I will tell you this, So I don't do any like cream pie type ship during opulation and to um levin esturnal whatever it's called, like that active ingredient that's in Plan B. It's like taking four birth control pills. And I've just done that. I'm dead back in the day. I mean recently, have I done it? No, the last time I took Plan B was Marty grat weekend. That's right. Um. Anyway,

this one I want to say for the record. You know, I was on Twitter the other day and I was talking about how niggas ain't shit. I love sucking them, but also like I really want to get out of this like hating men thing, Like I hate so much that feminism is connected with the hatred of men, because the two just don't tie in together. And I think that, you know, with a new year upon us, a lot of us need to let as much as we can

a lot of our hate for people period ago. We have all had a bitch and I'm speaking to women, a bitch in our lives that used to be a friend, that's done something dirty to us, that's made us feel terrible, whatever the case may be. Like, bitches ain't shit either. People are trashed. Let's just start using that verbiage as a whole. Niggasin ship is like fun to say. And I feel like I'm prefacing this because this conversation is

about gaslighting. And I know it may sound like a lot of hatred, but people can gaslight, you know what I mean, Like it's not just men. I honestly think I may have gaslighted hospital dick and didn't know as far as what explained making him feel like something was

going to happen that wasn't. And I didn't really realize it until Yeah, I was like reading this article, like people can gaslight when they want to keep you in their lives, but they don't know like where to place you, or they just want to hold onto something without giving you the commitment that you deserve. And yeah, I just want to say, for the record, I don't hate men. I don't think men are trash, but I think we need to unlearn a lot of the ways that we've

been treating people. And this gas lighting thing is something that we should all be aware that we shouldn't do to others. And it does generally happen more to women from men, So I know that that's where this conversation

may seem like it's going. But to my men listeners and to the ones that are part of our horre hive and that love us, don't take the ship so personal, like a little hope, it's weird because not that, And I think maybe I'm just I'm just overly blunt with where I put people, But I also compartmentalize, um where someone stands in my life. But not that I've gaslighted.

But I do feel like I've dealt with a guy and I didn't know where to put him in my life, so there was maybe signals of me giving him, maybe that he took that it was going to go somewhere that I necessarily didn't want it to go even though I didn't want to communicate, I didn't know how to communicate where I wanted it to go at all, if that makes sense. Like, so, I think that in in terms of saying something is gaslighting or someone leading you on, I think that it's also fair to say that sometimes

we don't know what we is. Why I really like these terms because I agree. I didn't know I was gaslighting, but when I thought about it, you know, I had a conversation with him where he was like, this is why I didn't want to do certain things with you. I didn't want to like, you know, you're making me call you I can't call you fam anymore. And I'm like, yeah, because I don't get talk to you about in that way. But in his eyes, it was like, oh, you want me to call you babe instead of fam. This is

so gaslighting. This definition is a form of manipulation that occurs in abusive relationships. It's insidious, sometimes covert, type of emotional abuse where the bullier abuser makes the target question their judgments and reality. Ultimately, the victim of gas lighting starts to wonder if they're going crazy. Now I have never used such a deep uh definition for gaslighting. I thought gaslighting was more leading on, but I kind of

understand how you know that works. Um. So I'm reading an article from very well family dot com says one are the tactics used in gas lighting. It's a technique that undermines your entire perception of reality. When someone's gaslighting you, they often make you second guess yourself, your memories, your perceptions. Most of the time after communicating with the person that gaslighted, do you feel dazed, confused, and wondering what's wrong with you? Now?

Now they do? Um. But I think it's also again where we as women are the same to where sometimes we don't know we want to put a guy. I think we also jump into our emotions quicker than men and want to have a title quicker than men, which is why sometimes we may be feeling like we're getting let on, when in reality, I think men are more of commitment fobes than we are. So, um, I get the idea that maybe we may feel led on by them more so, but I think it's because we desire

commitment quicker than men. This is the thing of I heard Oper say this once, and I really loved it. It's funny because this came up in a conversation how way oh Oprah said or she said or so much interviewed on Super Soul said, when someone shows you who they are the first time, you have to listen to them. If they're telling you something the first time, you have to listen to them. I we've had a few conversations

on this podcast. No no, no, like when we talk about UM, he's telling you doesn't want a relationship, understand him, even if he's not saying those words, because that's gas lighting, right, even if he's not saying I don't on it. If he's showing you that he doesn't want it, bitch it to know you know I I think that like over time, if I've learned, and this is how situation ships happened. Are you looking for a girlfriend? Know what happens happens? I ain't buying net nomo it' I am being very

um upfront with what I'm looking for. And so like that's why Aries, which may or may not have much of an air time on air um Aries is already cut off. Um and so it's PhD. Yeah, Aries is oh I didn't listen, so this is something I'm probably going to deal with um in therapy, which if I am very quick to cut a motherfuck off as much as I also linger and keep niggas around forever. As soon as I feel like, Okay, you're not going to start the purpose that I want you for my nigga,

you can go. Um. And so yeah, when when it came to aries UM, I was just seeing red flags in what he was saying and what he was showing. So when you tell someone I really want consistency and communication, but you're not consistent and your communication is asked, you know what, I'm not gonna be dealing with this. And then again if that's projecting from like the last person you dated. So no, the last person was PhD him.

Like if someone was like, oh I need this, this and this, it's because you didn't have that the last time you were in a relationship Joan meeting ready for it now, I'm just mean you ain't have it when you were with somebody. I mean I just know, like and I talked about Nebraska on the show before. I really liked Nebraska. He he was somebody who on paper I really really like. Girlfriend he broke up with her bitch. Then we was really talking, but I wasn't gonna be

a girlfriend. Number two one time he was willing to have an open relationship, but she lived with him, and I was like, bitch, if she living rent for you, gonna have to pay my rent in New York. So we ain't really that's that was the problem that situation. But he ended up breaking up for her. UM sent her ays back to Singapore. And then when we really started talking. Yeah, she was here from from single, met

him when I was studying abroad in Singapore. Anyways, sent her back home to her country, and then we was really talking. But his communication was to break up. Don't do that. She wasn't deported. She just basically she just wasn't gonna stay in America. When we over, you do go back home. Um, And so well we started talking because he sent her back. His communication was just really poor. And to me, I'm okay with considering long distance. I'm

okay with dating somebody. You know, it's crazy. I was really considering dating the nigga who lived in Portland over dating the nigga in Brooklyn. That's how bad. Like listen, right, as I guess I wanted my miles instead. But I feel like I just I need communication. I need communication.

And that's the thing with PhD. He communicated that he had a really bad seven year relationship, and so although we were vibing really good, and he also was scaring me, letting me know he doesn't know when he's gonna be ready to jump into another relationship. And to me, I wasn't willing to invest the time or money or emotions into someone who is telling me up front he doesn't necessarily know if he's ready for another relationship. It was just glad I got that insurance on their flight home.

You know what I wanted to ask you. I talked to a girl I know who recently started only fans for panties like no face, and she's like, bro, like when I tell Nigga's like, they act crazy. And I was curious to know what men have said to you since you started only fans or feet, they have no problem, Like they laugh, They're literally yeah, they're literally like just

steal feet. I say so, I will say, since starting the only fans and posting more on my feet on social media, I do see how many people want to meet up for foot jobs, and I'm just like that's not a thing. I'm not meeting up with people. Um, but also now much there is no amount like no, not for you. I'm saying like I'm not I'm not asking what's your price for a foot job to a stranger? Okay, not like a fete Instagram. No, it's a stranger who's paying for a foot job. What are you doing a

foot job for? You gotta leverage your blue check? Dog? No, bro, my blue check doesn't matter. It's just like, I mean, you know, I'm a new internet person. If I'm like in the game and you got used to be a straight stunt and you could really leverage fee, what's your press right now? I wasn't a straight and first off, calm down, are you? I wasn't straight stunting? Actually two issues a straight sign. Yes, I was jil to nine.

I know it's a jail mag which is why my boyfriend at the time he was just like he didn't like me being a straight sutton because he knew that the magazine got sent to jail's. He's from Staten Island, which, mind you, I thought he was from New York. I didn't know how lame Stating Island was. Until I moved up here. I've been here seven years and every want to stat N Island. I was like, damn, I thought I was dating a real New York nigga from stat

In Island. Anyway, So when when he found out that I was in a straight stutton, we had a huge like argument about it because he was like, Yo, you know where this magazine go? Yo, what does for his community? My niggas in the like my niggas in the pen. I don't need them checking off to you, you know, Like he did not like that I was a stray stutton. So what's crazy is Yeah, me being in a magazine got more of an outrage than me saying I now

sell pictures of my feet on only pantis. Yeah, but you were younger than and also I was younger than Yeah, I think um Shorty's point. So she's a dental surgeon, really likes doing this. She's like, I feel like it's like the one thing I could do this like bad. It makes me feel good. It's a little extra cash. So she seven people, that's a lot. That's a lot. So but you are receiving, but you're receiving like something tangible like on me because I'm not offering foot jobs,

he said, panties. She's sending panties right and explain I really want us to interview her. But she like soils her panties and like rings them out and like shows what's inside of him. Like videos that's a that's discharge whatever. Nigga's like that ship, especially like Opulation Week. She's like that is crazy. So she was saying to me, like when I tell guys about to stay freak out, I wasn't wonder if that's happened in Mandy, but then I thought to myself, like, well it's not also have a

sex podcast. Yeah, so what's crazy is even aried a bit. You're like looking a little dentists like now I'm sounding pain. It's funny because me and Aries we're talking on the phone before he got cut off clearly, and he actually said that it's one of his I guess fantasies. He wanted to create uh and only fans or whatever type of online service where him and his next girlfriend have sex on camera for other people to watch. And so I told him, I was like, well, I have tattoos.

I wouldn't be willing to do that, I said, lawyer Bay wanted to do that, and we came up with the conclusion that if we do it, we have to be dressed in superhero costumes. So he was like, yo, I'm down with that. So we literally talked already about possibly doing it, but we don't talk anymore. But I would be down to I would be down to creating a page with a lover and doing that, but without my tattoos showing, because clearly we see tattoos telling you

shout out to the thing that sucks. Though. It's like, you can't be a personality and do it because people then, like I thought the other day, I took this nude right and I was like, yo, as high as fun. I was like, my ex cloud got hacked. I don't use I only back up to my computer. What people know it's me because there's no tattoos in it. And I'm like, look at the fucking background, Like there's photos

of my face with the same background. Like, you can't be someone that people know and then have a new league. They will put them ships together. Did you see what happened with Lorie Harvey in future? What happened Lorie Harvey went to Nigeria. Oh, yeah, they had took a picture in the mirror and his shoes were in the bad His shoes was in the back. You can never be I don't wit down on the seat. Always happened. I don't know because I've been playing the gas lighting. So

here are the fifteen. So I don't know if I'm gonna go through all his team, Probably not, but I like these first one lie to you. People who engage in gaslighting are habitual and pathico logical liars manipulation. I'm sorry. Men do be lying just to get a cornerstone of behavior. And even when you know they're to be very convincing too, they'll discredit you to others. They may pretend to be worried about your behavior while subtly telling people that you

seem a little unemotionally stable. Definitely do that to me or that to me reads when a nigga be like, why are you tripping, and it's like, I'm not tripping, just asking you a questioning. I hate that is the gaslighter may lighte to you and tell you that other people are think you're crazy. Keep in mind, though they may never say a bad thing about you, so that they will make every attempt to think that you are

losing it, deflect the topic of hand. When you ask a gaslighter question, you call them out for something they did. They may change the subject by asking a questions, Bro, you know what niggas do and this is what and maybe it's just a I don't know, but niggas fun. I'll be texting the motherfucking letting him know everything that I think. It is all right there, whether it's through a text or on the phone. And you know what irks me more than anything when a nigger responds, huh, sir,

I spoke English. It's not in any other language. You can reread it as many times as you want because it's right there in text message, and you respond with huh do I need to be and I don't want to repeat myself, So then saying huh as a response to me opening my heart is probably the worst thing and they can do, and they do it a lot. Maybe it's no literally athletes, we're doing this ship. They'd be like, huh, you're not dumb. I mean you might be,

but you're not that dumb. So they dumb. No, I don't deal with ct no, minimize your thoughts and feelings. By minimizing your thoughts and feelings, are able to gain power statements like calm down this one, I love? Why are you? Oh no, bro? See this is triggering me. B said that to do what? What's your sensitive? So actually I've been told that to shift blame to you. Blame shifting is a common tact. At every discussion, you have somehow twisted to where you were to blame for

something that occurred. Even when you try to discussion behavior and how their behavior how it makes you feel, they're able to twist and end up blaming you. In other words, they manipulate the situation in such a way that you end up believing that you're the cause for their bad behavior. Deny any wrongdoing Read that so bullies and abusers are notorious for denying what they did, that they did anything wrong.

They do this in order to avoid taking responsibility for their poor choices, but it also leaves the victim of gas lighting confused and frustrated because there is no acknowledgment of the pain they have caused. This also makes it very hard for the victim to move on or to heal from the bullying. Our abusiveness. Damn, this sounds like our therapy episode. Um, they use compati I mean, bitch me, I'm the I'm the gas right now, use um compassionate

words as a weapon. Okay, so sometimes we call out or question a gaslighter will use kind and loving words to try to smooth over the situation. I think that's what like when they know they're wrong, they're like baby. Don't like the baby words. Maybe in other words, they might say something like, oh, you know how much I love you. I would never hurt you on purpose. These words and apology are what you want to hear, but they are not authentic, especially at the same I said

I don't hate niggas, I do. I mean, God damn it, I will say. I will say that reading these things and having experienced these let you know, in reality, we cannot choose our sexuality because I still want to deal with niggas and and it's toxic and it's okay because I didn't stop dealing with them. The only thing is I won't go off about how much like I might call my homegirl and do it, but like, I'm not gonna publicly say I hate niggas because I still funck.

But I feel like if you're one of those people. Look are you pussy all the time and it's lovely. I feel like if you really feel like men are a cause to your trauma, to your fucking well being, you cut them niggers off for a little bit and so you can heal from it, because what's happening is you do lef to men. Just find another like how to date men when you hate men and when you really are in a space where like all men have done. I was that person when I left my first boyfriend.

I would date somebody and project all my shirt onto them from the last person. But I think, but that's that's someone that needs to deal with their trauma and their feelings and how they don't date any fucking body. Just don't. Yeah, so it's not to get away like, yeah, don't date anybody. I'm a bisexual person. If men are making me angry, I doubt that I'm gonna take that onto a woman. My point is, if men have gotten you to that fucking place, do not date man in

that space. I really weird. I also, but I've been in that space and me dating a woman doesn't resolve that. It doesn't. But I think you need to cut niggers off. But when you date somebody, I think the way you responded. Things in dating in general can happen from a man or one, but you cannot date while you're not healed from something that's it's just going to funk you up. If you're a person. I'm not talking about like you've

been heartbroken or whatever. I'm talking about a viewer, a person that thinks that men have fucked you over like that, and when you start seeing someone else, all you do is talk to them like that. Bro, I'm dating an old way right now, and there are certain things I say that he thinks our sarcasm because he's used to a bit talking down to him that way. If I'm like, did you funk a bitch last night? He gets nervous.

He's like he doesn't know how to read it. And I'm He's like, I don't know, why, why do you

think that? I'm like, yo, I want to know, tell me and let's talk about it, have a good time talking about it, and like we had to get to that point, like if I know, He's like he almost thinks that, like I have this other face to me that I'm gonna let out and just stop being cool, and I think a lot of times it's because we've given this idea that like I don't know that like rebounding and jumping into ship will get you over the last one, but it'll just bring out the other problems.

And men do the same thing too. If I hang out, I mean not particularly with the man um data now, but I've hung out with my homeboys before, and if a nigga had a girl, they used to suck their friends or they ended up with a friend after them, They're gonna think I'm sucking my friends. And it's like, don't bring your baggage onto me. And I really don't want anybody, any of our listeners. You know, we've had people on that I've talked about how to heal from

relationships and breakups and ship like that. Just don't bring your fucking bullshit onto the next one. Yes, we all learned stuff from relationships. Bring that knowledge, know the signs of ship, but don't just beat somebody downright, like, because I don't think that men deserve that. I've met really good men in my life and they don't deserve that ship. I've also met Nick, and I know one what I think one minute now, too to pose on Saris good All because that's told I was just like, no, this

isn't gonna work. Shar next, so you want to get into the homemail before we get up out of hell. Yeah, for our patrons, we will have that link in there again if you want to check it out, it's on very well family dot com fifteen signs. There's actually also fifteen signs of to know that you're a victim of gas lighting. UM. So yeah, we'll put that link on Patreon and also include I'll include that link in the description. UM to imagine like going through a list and me

and like, oh it's me. I'm I'm looking for this homemail. It was a good one. It was about a woman that wants to become a dom at forty. Unfortunately, she wrote us over the holiday and a lot of y'all emailed us. I'm looking. I'm not prepared. Many should do the outlines. Here we go. I'm forty and I want to be a dominatrix in my triping. Hello ladies, my name is Nicole and I want to be a dom at the tender age of forty. Here's the thing. I'm

an entertainment business professional. I used to be a creative. But when I was young, the business was different than it is now. The Internet wasn't king, and getting a chance was hard. So I settled and now I work behind the scenes like corporate office. Think the only black person in the room. I've been in business for sixteen years and I've never reached my full potential. It's really sad, but I never moved up to a certain point and I don't make much money. I think the office manager,

personal assistant. I'm also shoot just typo. I also grew up in a very horrible neighborhood of a major city in the northeast section of the country. I never just said to God, damn city. I know that was a lot of God, the northeast section of the country, New York. I've never had support in my career from family or friends that I usually don't understand. Too busy trying to survive,

and it's always been lonely. Therefore, once I got a study income and study as a low level position and the entertainment business can provide, I've never stepped outside of it again. Never really got close to many people at work either because I'm different, never being old, everybody would be going out, and that didn't because I don't fit in. Damn. Bitch gets the point. Honestly, just works too much because I'm good at my job. But when I'm off, I live in a reality. So I have cousins who have

abusive baby daddy's and are on Section eight. She is saying, whole goddamn lot, what are we? Where are we going? You said when we get where, we gonna do this one. You're like, yeah, that's good. You said it was about a woman in reporting because I didn't know he was about to hear about section damn, and maybe I'll get good go we buy seafood with their food stamps in the basement, friends who have criminal records and can't find jobs.

Little cousins who called a prison I'm sorry to just right. Really, my two worlds don't mean because one is too ghetto, but it's where I come from. The other is bougie. I don't really. They don't really like any girl, but you want to be a dominatrix and the depression sets in anxiety stars. They're really bad. The men I work with overlook me. I'm really nothing to them. The women who aren't like me, why do I deserve. She needs to see it. There hideway started comings and tears and insecurities.

But in the name of self care, I can't anymore. I'm bursting at the seams, spills all over my natural life. Men take advantage of me. I'm overweight. I hate this word, but the doctor says, obese a PC. You ain't read this before you picked a bitch. God damn. I use sex as a remedy for my sugar. Just just get the last all right. Younger guys think I'd be a sugar mama with my weight and my age is bothering me. My last relationship funk that I was in therapy last year.

They b go to the last centence. All in all. I want to explore the world of domination. Okay, alright, now we're getting that. Now we're gonna do this. There's a little read it, Read it edin. I can't. I can't this a book, right, she thought? She said, Just get to it. Read the last filled water. I A. I'll just are there a different kind of doms. I feel like there are like small timers, big time. I

want safe, shiny, grand high profile. I thought about going to sex parties to mingle, but I don't know of any and I've never been to one, and I don't want to end up at some shady house party. Can you just go and be unseen? Screet scree, the scret is safe. I don't live in the Northeast anymore. I now live in the South Atlanta. To be exact, people these people down here are so sexual. I'm sure I could find my footing. I just need direction. Okay, goddamn, um,

you need a therapist. First of all, first and foremost said, but we didn't. We didn't see what happened with therapy. You know it's not working for her. She she just projected everything in an email to horrible decisions. Um, I just would Yeah, she didn't. Yeah, no, I guess the title sounded good, but you didn't scrawl, because god damn it, it really sounded like it was gonna be fun. So, No, forty is not too old to be a dom I think that that's not like I know you were saying

your age makes you insecure. Forty is not old. I mean, well now is because this year I gotta sit here and be like, yeah, wow where she literally called my nigga old bay because first off, you you called him old bay, I mean I don't talk na, Yeah, blame you so anyway, Uh So I don't think forty is too old. I also think that your weight should be celebrated, like Lisa Swiftson came on and she was a big girl and that bit just getting money from being a

fucking dom. So I would first find a bunch of doms online that you can follow, but you can also pay um to figure out how to get your way in there, like they'll fucking pay you, like they'll they'll take money for some combo and be able to teach you what's going on and ship like that, like pay women for their ship. And you can say, also, um, look up fem dom um. It's f E M M E dom um the hashtag and when you look up

the hashtag you can find people that way. You can go on Twitter and a lot of people do just tweet like Dominatrix like yeah, like they're very dominant and even just their presence online, you have to That's where you're just going to dungeon tonight, so you guys will hopefully be able to um hear that story. I'm going with King Noir and he's gonna have um one of his subs with him a service sub. I'm gonna learn all these lingos and ship. But I'm excited because I've

never been to a dungeon before. Um, and it's one of those where you have it's like in my only stuffs, like Very and Ashley might join us. Ashley chubby bunny who you guys are going to be hearing, who was also a big girl who I can definitely. So I'm excited because we're gonna do this dungeon. But yeah, I would say, look in your in Atlanta? Do you know any places in Atlanta? I don't, but I know that. So um, whenever I need to get a son, and this girl comes over and I fucking found out that

she knows Dash, who was one of her dums. And she was like, yo, I work in a dungeon. I'm like, bitch, I've known this bitch for like two years. I had no idea. So she found an ad for like a sex operator type of thing for someone to run like a club, and then she gets there and they were looking for doms. So you've got to like work with how you can like trying to figure it out, you know what I mean, like through gigs or whatever, on Craigslist,

and that's how you can find the dungeon. Well, there's that, But I would also say in Atlanta, just go to Trapeez. Trapeeze is the sex club, so a lot of people will be in there in character, so you may meet someone who's in leather, or you'll see men masks. Yeah, men are going there to explore and have W night if you feel weird about your weight and you want to, Like in New York specifically, there's a BBW night at

sex clubs. I feel like because why not, Like I can understand being in a space where you feel like nobody's gonna look like you and you want other people that are sucking into you. So it's like a knight for me. Na. But also if you, I would say, yeah, if you go to the sex club, explore there. Um, so before you start maybe getting into where people are trying to pay you for services, test out your your

dom personality. And at Trapeze you can go in there with leather on, you can go in there with a mask, you can go in there with a whip, um and make it known that you want to dominate. Okay, I think it can really bad. I just started skimming through it, and she's like, I'm torn between one and kids, a husband, and basically I'm emotionally and professionally being down. I feel they listen, We're just saying, if you want to become a dime, you can. I'm not gonna sit here and

give her a therapy session. I'm sorry. Well here, Actually funny you said that you can't give it to it because I worked word seen, like sixteen hours, Like fourteen sixteen hours is what she would have to pay is the money she would spend for each visit, basically a hundred alls a week for her ills a month. Um, She's like, I worked fourteen sixteen hour days, so I'm not working, So like, what the fund can I do

but spend money? She has a lot going on. Maybe she feels like beating someone up will make her feel better. Oh oh I do, guys, Um we and if you want to be a dom or in that space, we have a UM episode coming up, UM where you got guys are going to be able to hear from a guest named liquid Um and she is in the space to where she can provide you with information also maybe we can give you also we also we did have

Mistress Marley on here as well. Um who you guys will be seeing or here anyways, we're working with Mrs Morley. Awesome ship too. But um, so again look into some of our past guests. There's Lisa Splits and there's so many of our guests that are in that space. Um. They're confident, they're dom women and not only are they are part of the community, but they making money doing it. So um again, listen to those episodes. She got a lot going on, a whole lot going on. Um um.

But yeah, so there's our advice just looking to the lifestyle. There's so many things that you can look um online for you get into dom work. You could write something I think clearly because she wrote God named Bustly. You could start like a fake Twitter, like a fence to I have a fence to of like me, but it's not me, you know what I mean, Like, yeah, I brought it up in the episode. Would be the most like I know a lot of industribution. Yes, you can

like add your like pictures whatever you want. So like the stuff I'm doing, but it's not really in my face and it's like close friends or whatever. You can start like your fence to fake Twitter fit foot what would you what would you call it? Fake twitter? Twitter? Twitter? Not a fwitter because you can't be a fence to annoying? What would it still? Because it's not a troll page, just talking to people, not like a troll page, but like actual you could be like the lady on um.

But them cats killed him? Cats? What's that documentary? Yes? Body, moon body, Yes he had a whole body move, So what is the goddamn name of that goddamn documentary? Don't cats? There? We go said? Put them cats the same ship talking about and right, you could post your pictures, oh perfect, started put some pictures up at yourself tag fim dom. Start seeing if you can get some money. Listen to that episode, Taylor, I think it's six maybe and like,

get those tips. Have niggas like sucking pay you to do that ship. That will probably make you feel a better bitch. I'm guessing if you're not able to go out and actually do it right, well, um, But again, before we get out of here, we are looking forward to seeing all of you guys live and a motherfucking action. So one eighteen we are in Detroit, that is this Saturday. Um on the twenty two, which is a Tuesday, we will be in Chicago. Then of course we are rounding

out January and none other than New York City. So Friday is sold out, but get your tickets for Saturday, that is January at Sony Hall. It is going to be a fucking fun field event. And then of course Texas where everything is bigger, even the dicks. Um, we're gonna be in Dallas on the twentie and we're gonna be a mother the biggest dick in the world and I'm gonna see is in Houston one. So um again, Texas where everything is bigger. We're coming to y'all. Keep

buying them tickets. Dallas, y'all are strong. I'm so excited to go to Dallas, and that is my second home with my second family. So Dallas, I'm excited to come. Um haven't been there since I think last year, um Thanksgiving or something ship like that. But again, looking forward to coming to Dallas, looking forward to seeing all of

you guys. And again within either the end of this week or the top of next week, we will be dropping tickets for Atlanta, New Orleans, Toronto, l A, San Francisco, Charlotte, Orlando, y'all, and I don't know which ones I just repeated, but also I want to shout out to all of our patrons, thank you, motherfucking motherfucker's We're leaving y'all with a bonus clip. If you guys are all caught up and want three bonus episodes a month, wheezy and I give y'all more content.

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I'm youn't started. There's a whole group chat for our top tier patrons and they'd be in there rocking with each other, happy, happy, like there's like whole ass friendships and relationships being built. Um. One of our patrons even said that one of another patron is flying her out. Yes bitch from the group. Yes, no, they deem me. Yeah, they dm me was likesten. I don't actually I think she said not to mention it, but I didn't say the name. But yeah, one of our patrons is fine,

another patron out and it's some ship. I didn't hear that. There's there's a there's a there's quite a bit um. But anyways, Yes, we are going to leave you guys with a five minute bonus clip um, so check it out. And once again this has been another episode of horrible decisions. Fine, we're having a great time. I'm on the beach tall like I walked by, like did I fuck him? And sure enough I did? It was sick nipple fuck who.

I literally must have spoken to existence because we talked about he had seen his face in a year and I haven't sucked him for almost two and I'm in too Loom and I see him. I'm like, holy sh it. So my friends was like the voice you put on. I was like, oh my god. Hi. He comes over. He's like, uh, he can't believe you see him either, So he's like, what are you guys doing tonight? Now? Realist bitch. I was like, yo, I want to come to invite me to this party. Was like, I want

to come, but I'm with my friends. He's like, bring him. I'm like, there's eight of them. He's like that's no. I know. I'm like, I'm not leaving my friends. I'm plus there was all game because like I want to. He was like, done, I'll put them. I'll figure it out. Put him on a list. We go to this fucking beach party. Niggas lit. I'm fucking everybody's high as I'm like, you know what, I'm in a molly mood. That's what I'm going for. So I fucking find the Mexican drug dealer.

You can always spot a plug, you know what I'm saying. The plugs have a look. They just do. Just her right, Me and Benson, They're looking at each other like, no, just you just you can spot. No, you go to to not drugs. Okay, maybe drugs, I'm saying, but like real, you go to the club. You know the nigga that sells dope. Are you telling me you don't, Mandy, No, I don't just pick up random, you know, not random. I was in Mexican. Look, I'm living my life anyway.

Look we're all just like just you little dangerous life, because no, I'm not just you can't spot the plug. Come on, bro, no, not me. First off, maybe you're not looking for it, but you can tell. And when a nigga sells dope, I can smell them when they walk by, but tell I can't tell what nigga. So so I'll be honest with you. How many patrons, it doesn't matter though, but to me, like to me, if I'm at a place where all black people, I'm also not the one that just wants to assume everyone there

sells drugs. So I'm not gonna add yo, you're selling like, because that's kind of like what I mean, you're with you're with me. Look, my drug radar was on, and I'm not just walking up to a nigger and because people like you you selling, like do you know what I mean? Like whatever you live a dangelus like a tattoo on his neck and speaking on English. I'm like,

he got it, So go up to him. I'm like all uh, and you know I want some And he's like come on, like, okay, I'm the drug dealer a right, okay, now I'm doing hand signals, right, So he's like, how do you say? What do you how do you com what? What do you say? Drug kid or something like that? Kid? Okay kid whatever? He said, get us so he points in his nose. I was like, no, that could kill me. Here he points to the reed. I'm like, no, I know it's not that good. So I'm trying to do

like a popping kill motion. What is you just hit your like an Indian? Was like that a little. First of all, that's Native American, Mandy. We are not gonna do that in India. I just let it go. You're having a rough day. Oh wait they are. They're not the same. Okay, you're right. Wait you're Native American. My bad. He's like, first of all, you could have done this. Molly Molly. He just like seeing so he hands me Molly. Molly is just as scary as here's what I did.

I was like, let me figure out bad. Molly is really bad. Okay, okay, what's your smart ship? Because you have no test kit with her? No, I didn't and I only and I only do Molly on test because I haven't had Molly in like three or four years. I was just in a Molly mood. So I'm like, okay, what am I gonna do? Right, So all my day is like, no, bitch, we're just on cacus like but like I A'm about to swallowing at the last eight hours, I was like, fuck you, right, okay, So here's what

I did. I found some white bitch. Shut out of my white girls that listen to this pod. I wouldn't have done it to you, but I found some white bitch. I was like, yo, I got some molly. You want to try it because I've never had it. You want to see it was good? Like do you know? Three girls said yes immediately, they're idiots there in Mexico. They are in Mexico. So I felt, so I give it to one girl. I'm like, how big is it that you could share it with three bitches? I bought a lot?

Are you bought a lot? Anyway? How much weight? How how much I've probably I don't know, man Son. The paso two dollar ratio is crazy. She's been a million pas after it was really three dollars. But it felt right. So anyway, I give this girl like right, I give it to her. I'm like, go take it, like mix it in your drinkcause I knew we hit her faster and I wanted to see those good so I'm like, she dies, What of them? You running trials in Mexico? What else was I supposed to do?