Ep148: You’re My Boyfriendddd Feat B. Simone

gonna be in the Midwest. So January the eighteenth, we will be a motherfucking Detroit, the modest city, and then we're gonna go to Chicago, which what is it? What do they call it? Was called the Bean, but that's Boston shot right on January. Call it that. I'm not for the shooter Chicago. I am for the lux shops, the nice hotels, maybe even a Soho house. Visit bitch shy Rack. I can stay, God damn because I'm still

looking scammers. God damn it. I got the money now, but I still don't want to spend full price, um so how me. Also, as you guys know, we sold out motherfucking Sony Hall in eight days. Like that is sucking lit. I'm so proud of the Oar Hive. Yes, like yes, you guys and special announcing Braylon already said she'll come to every show. She's gonna host it for free, and we already started goddamn name. Also, so if you guys have not yet get your tickets New York, we

have back to back shows, so that is January. In January, we will be live at Sony Hall. We have a lot of surprises for you. And Mandy is gonna not Yeah. I mean I honestly thought, you know, she wasn't gonna do it. You guys have seen her, you know, promo real and I was like, Mandy, I feel like it's time and she was like, I don't do it. You never said I was sucking gonna see still barely opening. You're gonna get all of it. I'm not the mouth coming to the show. Literally. Look it might be Texas.

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motherfucking tickets now dot com. But okay, you know what, let's get on with the show. So freaky. I'm sorry, don't know what you're walking to. This is Horrible Decisions. W h O r E. Look she see it. It's spelled up there on the screen. I just said Mandy was gonna hopefully stuck a dick on stage. I think she's not shocked that it's horrid, you know. Anyways, guys, welcome to yet another episode of Horrible Decisions in we motherfucking made it. We're still here. I don't know how,

but we are, and I'm excited. God is good all the time, even though we don't know which guy we're talking about. Saw the guy asked you that Mandy me get along in this episode, Lord Father guy, and I ask you, Lord Father God, to tell old Bay and Beard Bay and they bitches to keep me in prayer in mercy, Lord, Father God, because I don't do this. So this is what you're doing. And you just added like you couldn't do this, and we did it on the Patriots couldn't do it. Yeah, she's making fun of

the bit that that prays because fun. I'm just because Lindy Goat cheated on her, but they were separated anyway. Yes, any who, y'all know what it is. This is your girl, Mandy v a K A full core pumps a K a peg this motherfucker stallion ak peg Ryan a K that bitch and I am pastor wheezy pastors mrs. I'm doing anyway, y'all. We're joining by two lovely guests today, one who is a returning guest, which is crazy because you'll be come on like, oh, y'all need to have

on the show. She was on episode six. All right, baby girl, I'm gonna get it together. I'm trying to go live. I'm trying to be professional and it keeps falling. Then we got to make it. I don't know what I would like to know. Wait, could she introduce us though? Suck it so episode six. You said that you have never had an orgasm and you don't masturbate. What how did you end up here again? And she's still my friend? You're hilarious. I thought we'd have some progression. There was progression.

I got really on the cusp, like really close, and it wasn't finisation. It was from oral and then it just I didn't Adam. Maybe I didn't know what to do or I didn't know how to release or relax or whatever, but it's in your head. Yeah. I was like, have you gotten a vibrator yet? I want to? Oh? There, it is right there. Bro. I wanted to get her one, and she said no, I think you should. What makes you not watching me a vibrating toothbrush? It was like, ha no. She was like, look, so wait, you got

right there? Wait? Why not are we talking to? Did? We said? Well? I didn't. I said we had here. We're gonna get to it in a second. But I don't know. One more question, Bro, It's been two years and I've really thought about this. Every time I see you on my feet, I'm like, we need be someone to come literally okay before we get integrated to Why not the fucking vibrator because this will make you coming in and it's feel like you gotta touch yourself with

fingers before its boys, I'm in my head. I don't feel comfortable doing that. By the way, I love I just love your nails. I was just speaking about you where they were coming coming about me to my nails, and I was like, with y'all don't see my friends nails and I literally thought, yeah, but you're like, these are these would not be put into assholes because these are the stones that I'm scared will end up in the nigga ship because it came off as I was.

I mean, if they have a sparkly ship, spark again like bitch daring things giving, I was cooking and a whole rhymes don't fell off. I said that she's gonna come open the greens and I let them know until I found it on the counter and I was like, Okay, bitch, ain't go eat a Ryan stone this year. Um well, anyways, yes, we are joined by my friend Comedia. Y'all may have

seen her on motherfucking Wall and out. Y'all may follow her. Hey, y'all may know her from she had her own show and got damn Zu, I want to keep going with your accolades. She sells out her shows. She's on to on tour like the Big Doll from Martin Lawrence this year. I don't even talk about it, Girlcary girl. But everything I've been one has gotten me to this point. I'm ready, I'm prepared, and you know, I just hope I kill it.

So I'm excited because everything you need to think about your trend to write when you're like wondering if you're going to kill something like bitch, I've been lit this whole time. What's going wrong? No, it's just the enemy gets in your mind that you're not good enough. They're not gonna laugh. You know, that's just negativity. And I'm just someone is really in her bag and her makeup. One. I just want to let you know this bitch just handed us seven million lipsticks. One of them it's called

WiFi Bitch talks. You're my boy is one Lincoln Bio. Should we tell them about the WiFi story? Stupid? No? No, we like I love so. First of all, I am behind have because side Skittles. This is my assistant, Skittles, your stripper name, my manager, and this is my assistant, my best friend of seventeen years, friends two or twelve. I love it. It's a real friends and Okay, So there was a color It's called WiFi w I f I, and I was like, oh, it's WiFi, but I'll be

cool and call it. It'll be called wife. And she's like, when people read it, they're say, it's like it's pronounced. She's like, no one's gonna know that. She didn't sell capitalized. The problem is the capitalization exactly. Yeah. When I looked at it, I was like, it's not gonna work. It's not gonna the colors critic, thank you, and all my favorite colors it is, I think the other one that

I really like. I'm I know there's some niggas listening to this and you don't want to hear about no listing, but which one I just put on? There was little freestyle Lincoln Bio that made me feel like a slut just the name and color alone. It was very fly me out, very fly you gotta come out with it, fly me out color out. That gotta be like a whole red. Actually that's a great color name too. Yeah. I walked into us the four once and this isn't

true story. Um, I was a little tipsy. It wasn't so after a happy hour and I looked at her and I was like, I'm looking for a red bright red, a dark red, like in between, like a whole red. And she looked me dead in the face and was like, oh my god, I got it and she took me to color pop perfect. I think it was Yeah, but you have a hole ass red and is beautiful. It's maybe ground. Well, I'm glad you're here. We're gonna start off a little icebreakers because I know you you kind

of don't know what you really want to read. Is that god fearing wife, mother of three? Don't scare my friend out fear? Well, these are just icebreakers. Okay. So the first at ease, especially going into would you rather have sex in five minute increments for the rest of your life or five hour increments for the rest of your five hour? You want to five hour really long, like I've been drying out five minutes. I was like, maybe you gotta come. I'm sorry, did you just say

yes to five hours over five? I don't want to work for five five minutes? But I wouldn't want that in real life. If I had to choose between those two, I would choose five hours. If you had to choose, let me just say it one more time, if you had to choose for the rest of your life, any time you chose to engage in sex, it would last five minutes or five I have five hours sex, and so five minutes they you will fall off before that time. I like that, What about five minutes? Five minutes? Now,

I just like, I'm married. She's married as ready in thirty seconds. So the next one is. And this is kind of which it's choosing the lesser of both evils, because I think both of these suck. But would you rather only be able to have sex in showers or only be able to have sex in a car? Car? Car? Really, you look like a car shower sex car girl? You do them titties look like being in the car. See.

I think shower sex is hard because you can't really feel Yeah, I feel like no, yeah, yeah, yeah, no. It's crazy because I thought of this, But now that y'all are saying it, I guess I would carry I'd be like going to get my hair done and I'm like, damn, shower sex. I ain't never black cracking out the shower black. It's hair dye. When I went to do the Rihanna Red go a couple, You're everywhere the red everywhere everywhere. I want to add a hotel, you know. Yeah, yeah,

it's not let me write a note, not my peah. No, I was just I was just in Puerto Rico and I got real drunk, of course, and so I ordered like this. It was a hard shell chocolate over like ice cream. Well, bitch, they forgot my spoon and I wasn't gonna wait for them. So I'm eating a hard shell and ice cream with my with my hands, so but I'm wiping it on the sheets I wake up in the morning. It kind of looked like a little bad. I really want to say. I hope she noticed the chocolate.

I'm having no anal sex, I promise, Okay. So this one I wanted, um just for us to have fun with celebrities. So I want to go around the table just yeah, because as long as it's we know she gonna say the baby goddamn. So this is a fun Mary kill. What celebrities would you fuck? Mary and kill? And I want to shout out to Mary to medicine

because I got this game. While they were on the little are you gonna give us a list and we just have to say you get to three kill Yeah, you're supposed to give three yeah, Like I wanted all of us to say different ones because they know you'll kill whoever you want. You'll kill trump. I mean, I'm gonna call with someone different, so you give three options, right, like we all say, right, okay, fine, okay, well I'm

gonna make it. Okay, so carry your kills. Can't be the baby, damn all gonna because because we want to fun game, not like cheating answers. I would not kill the baby. I wouldn't Mary, Okay, so look look now be getting I love that, don't do the baby. After he picked up that girl in the seven Liven, I was like, yeah, you know, look he walked around with big dig energy, like he's this big and he walked

around like, what's up. I'm not nobody to me. Maybe you haven't came because God is saving your fucking first orgasm for him. When when okay, I was like, yeah, ok the celebrities that I think everyone kind of agrees or kind of agrees to disagree. Okay, so fun Mary kill um Barack Obama, Nick Cannon and fuck that Trey song. Okay, sorry, Michelle, I'm sorry you want to from Barack Obama. I would marry Nick Cannon, and I would kill Tray. Okay. I

love Trey, that's that's the homie. But Trey is too much and it Cannon is like I've never dealt with Nick Cannon, him being my boss, but I know girls that have dealt with him, and he's very like passionate. He takes care of the women. He's very you know, and I didn't do it. I forgot that Nick was your bass. Yeah, I'm like, oh ship, but yeah, okay, what about that until it started? Um, I would definitely kill Nick Cannon. No, no shape, just but I've always

found him to be like a little too cheesy. Yeah, and like with women too, from what I've heard. Okay, but I heard his dick is like to his knee cap or something like that. I don't care big dicks a cheesy package. No, I'm good. I can come to Niga with a big dick. But if you like corny on, I don't suck some corny niggas with big old dicks. And I'll just be like, all right, don't talk after Mary Barack because regal pussy, you know, say, I'm trying

to get the stamp of approval. Plus I would love to play step mom, so like you know what I mean, Like I just I know, but like I saw one of them smoking weed and I'd be like, listen, this is how you gotta get down bitch underground parties and then you know, I would love to have a nice like an ex wife encounter with Michelle, Like, yeah, you would Petty then try songs? Are you allowed to answer this because you're married? Who are gonna Mary kill? I mean,

it's the game. I would kill Trey songs, Okay for sure, Jesus, Um, I wouldn't marry Brock and you would. I would suck Nick. Yeah, okay, I can pun with you all my name you. Um, I would funk all of them in real life. Um, that would be fun. I think they all would bring something different to the bedroom. Seriously, um rock sexes. I be tearing, you know, but I feel like Barrock, you know what, because I didn't dealt with niggas who wear

suits and ship and maybe you don't times coupling. How you gonna lie one like he wore suits to work, and so he used to go into the bathroom because his pants felt really good on his dick, so he would get a little print. I would sex him at work, so he would like show me his print through his pants. So I really like niggas who are so I feel like it would be nasty and kinky. So Barrock, Um, you know, of course I would marry Barack. Um, I would kill honestly, I know he'll boss. But it's like

like that movie with Christina Mili yawn. And then there's disc to Eminem and claiming Eminem is in the KKKA. There's just a lot when that's so crazy, just said Eminem's name. I just started a list of three white people for Mark. It was I just did my first sexty encounter. Wow, we may have to how did how did that go? Get finished? Okay? And then we'll get it okay. And then of course it was, um, oh could you read you read? No? No? Because I read it back like, who am so here? Did I ever

send your usaid? Just too? Because so my our mutual friend, she used to day a guy who was in jail, and she didn't know how to write nasty to that nigga, So I used you would do it. I would, but I think it was sexing me back and didn't even know what it was. He thought it was right, So like I would copy and paste if she copy because he had a jail Like he had a cell phone in jail. Jake, he's talking my humble. I read it,

thank you. So she would. She would literally copy and paste, but he would send back and she'd be like, okay, we don't respond back. So I'm literally sitting here sex and her nigga. Youah. Now, thank god she didn't go too far because he's gonna be like, but you want to peg me to fun? Okay, Okay, I knew the limits. God damn it. Okay. For the three raps, you guys

are gonna be so fissed. First one do I well, I know post Malone machine gunn kill you Eem he's the only white want Mary post Malone kill eminem Mary post Malone cool? He has a gut? Isn't he's cool? What? No? Do not call him slow? Any marriage is we're not thinking physical, We're thinking normal. That's me. You got to think physical. I mean, yeah, but I'm keep saying you just want to once Mary is like, are you killing em?

So I would um yes, kill himinem as well. I would fuck shoot out a machine gun Kelly, and then I would know Oh no, my bad, No, Mary, I'm Mary. You can't see that. Have you guys seen a picture of post Malone. He's ugly. I'm not. I don't even want to Okay, I'll post malone, Mary, machine gun Kelly, and I'm only fucking post Malone if you give me a check is evident. Why are we trying to kill this thing? It's like that a real thing? What because like I need to kill post Maloney's ugly as time?

Are you keep saying for a check man? This game? This isn't for a check first ability kill? For my god, he's a fat, curly fat shade hair about publicity because this is two years ago, we're the same side. I was postible two years ago. I was now I want to uh diet Hill. He has two tattoos. Will Smith quite so bitch. I'm definitely definitarian Will with Jada because we're gonna know no, and I've said that that's my dream threesome couple. Really, Oh my god, Jada and I

will because who Yeah, I feel like that's most people. No, No, Jada for sure. Jada is like will Will guy, Will, That's fine. I told you he ain't got to talk out to. And I heard Jason, well that's it. But I heard the into like some swinging, nasty Sha Taylor and her husband ship would be that would be like people right, Sorry, I would never do it. I really wanted to worry about be samone. That's why I listened to this podcast. And these bitches are horsing with her

um and wallet. She was directing her swag. I'm like, I just love you. I don't really hear many women I think that have that much depth to their voice and like, are still sexy to us, you know what I'm saying. And even her features are very you know some they're masculine, you know, she's a little androgym. But it's weird because it's like I felt that so many times too, Like are you dying? Can you not die before your martin Lawrence? Her? What's happening? This is sparkling

water Sparkler. Uh, well, we're gonna go ahead and get into our vanilla ship, our vanilla ships segment um, which will remain in unlike other segments we've done in the past. Um is our sex in the news. And I found this article UM that I really liked. UM. And it's from the New York Post, and it says that nearly half of Americans claim they had the best sex of their life in YESO, so that's what we're gonna talk

about it to be. That's gonna say. So of people rate nineteen is their best sex yere um for sex yet. The poll of two thousand sexually active Americans also discovered nearly half forty seven percent say that their sex was better in two thousand nineteen than any other year. It was a year for experimenting, as one in six Americans tried phone sex for the very first time, and a further tried using a sex toy for the first time.

Um you love to beach Um. They also say that results found from having anal sex for the very first time, using handcuffs and blindfolds are having a sexy photo shoot. Thirty eight percent of those survey became more adventurous with sex in twenty nineteen. I am gonna sit here and say that that's because so many people listen to horrible decisions. But I'm not gonna toot my own horn. Not what I mean, um so, not what I mean. It says

that seventy are happy with their sex lives. So I wanted to bring this up because I think that nineteen was a year where I think I've had the most three simes I've ever had, but also because I was and I think in the beginning of the year we don't anymore. But in the beginning of twenty nineteen, I was just surprised at even though we had been sucking for so long, how he kept getting better. Yeah you know, girl, And yeah I had I had loved that girl I was living through and it was I had my first

an orgasm. We'll talk to We talked about him, but Jesus, he gave me. He gave me some of the best thick in my life. Also one of my lovers. Um we on a trip where we had like three threesomes together with like my friends, and it was I don't know when you started saying, this is crazy, this is I love. You have always dragged me for seeing it. Lovers, I always have said, and you were like lovers the niggas. I call him my lovers, and I appreciate it. I

think it's a way better word than my hole. I like, I call him my hole too. I'm about to drop Mercers says I love all my hopes because I do love him, niggas. But but I would say that, like I said, I talked about my annal orgasm that I had for the very first time this year. Um, the threesomes and also just I think being in tune with myself and the person that I was having sex with literally coming every single fucking time, and we would we

went three rounds every time. This is the person you cut that I cut off, which is now why I'm missible because I have a fux in October. Don't do that, bitch. I just looking at only thing. You know who it is? Right? Yeah, I hate to shut up. He ain't goddamn anyway. I mean it's fine. I don't know. I'd like to look at him. Do we have? So what about your best sex in my life? Okay? So I've been married for

ten years. So when I got married was nineteen or I've been with my husband since I was nineteen, the same deck, the same deck, what a fucking So I would say that this year was the best sex of our lives and I think it's because I'm about to turn thirties, so you know how you're supposed to get into your prime. You look right now. I don't know if you'll can see a Magan looks like. I always

post her ask because her body is natural. She's had that body literally sixth grades, always big hips and booty, and I always post her. She's like, put it on your close friends. Stop exploiting my body. I'm married, my husband. Take your hands. I'm like, damn, what do you look like? Y'all? We have a three ways ship? No, okay, afraid of threesomes because I don't know what that will unlock for me. Okay, do you have any attraction in women at all? Yeah? Yeah,

I mean I think that like I think sexually. I think sexuality is a spectrum, so you're a spectrum. But I am attracted to females in the sense of, like, I think they're beautiful in my opinion, Like I know a lot of people have them in frivolous ways, and I have had frivolous threesomes, but like, what's the what's frivolous again? Like just like, oh I met you in a bar, But I think that when you have something

very deep with a partner. I don't think like like you said, you don't know it unlocked for you, Like I don't think you can have moments like that, Like I really don't. There's there's two ways for it, right, you could have a frivolous three somewhere it's like no names, no fluids exchange, rob Don, you're out right anonymous thing.

Or when you do have a deeper connection with someone, sometimes it is better to like have it feel more like a date and feel more like a chemistry connection, even if they are going to just leave after mainly because you and your husband don't have sex like that, or you don't have sex with other people like that, So it's like, why are we going to do this super raunchy thing together if this ain't really are lane

And it can be really hard. I've talked to a lot of people so I was in a throuble, and I've talked about it on the show and have a lot of threasons, and I've always have people ask me like, how is my first one supposed to go? And it's such a hard Yeah, with your partner, it's such a hard question because I meet people that literally would rather not know anything else about you, just suck you and did. And then other people that are like, nah, that feels

dirty and slimy to me. We're like a friendship. So you you've been with your partner for ten years and we're gonna get into that for the horrible decision, But so how would you gauge is the best sex? I think because we we've been through a lot in our marriage and there was a I'm sorry there was there was a point in time where, um, we weren't in a good spot and we weren't having sex and I and I was like, oh, I'm not giving that nigga nothing.

I'm not giving him this. You know, he don't deserve it. Blah blah blah blah blah. You know. And so I wouldn't have sex. And I'm not I'm not a sexual person. I like sex, but for me, it is intimacy, like I love passion, and you know what I'm saying, that like intimate stuff. And he and you got asking me, you know what I'm saying, Like he's sexual, he's a man, And for me, I didn't I thought sex had to be romantic every time, and it isn't that way. Especially

when you're married. It's damn sure, is it that? But I wanted to go on a sexual journey this year and kind of see where I could go and the dream man, so we just started trying. So we're still in the beginning phase phases. But I do think that it's important to try stuff up until you're not comfortable. You know what I'm saying. Like trying things could be as easy as like saying something new and bid yeah,

and it can totally revamp your sex life. It's like just a word, just saying something that you found a good mix, like we found a good because I love the romance, and so I would. My new thing was I would buy lingerie every week. So I would buy lingerie. Do you think, um, once a week? No, I would. I would like it to be at least four or five times, but in reality it's probably two or three or three times a week a lot. You say this year it was that way. It hasn't always been that way,

but this year, so that's amazing. I think that's great. What about you? What you have? The nineteen was my most sexual year of my life. I have vowed I'm going to be cell abate in the next person I have sex with will be my boyfriend. Girl me too. I just telling I mean, no, let's let's telling me about I'm talking about the free sex. I'm not gonna unless they're gonna be my boyfriend. I think the next

person I gave my body. For those of you who cannot see the YouTube, right now, I am sitting next to Megan Mandy sitting in sevisamone and Mandy just said for the free sex. And Megan tapped me and said, what's what is that? It's like free love? No? I mean not, because I mean in the space where I am looking for a partner, I'm not gonna cut off my hose and my hose look out, So me being with my hose, who look at I ain't gonna stop.

But I don't count them the person. You're not sell a bit to anybody but for a boyfriend, because is while I'm dating, they ain't gonna know about my home. So if a sex worker said I'm celebrate I only have sex for work, is that celebrating? What are we gonna come up with another? I'm gonna be real, cell brusthy Okay, I'm gonna be real, y'all y'all's minds. I don't know that was Now you got a really exciting moment. We have a new segment that I toyed with the

name You'll not be in my improv class. A toyed with the name on a recent episode hor Derves, and we are going to serve you every week. A new sex tip could be anal, your mouth, your nose, your ear, something really small like kissing something the same bed. Please feel free to submit your best sex tips to Horrible Decisions at Gmail. We would love to have user submitted

sex tips see what we think. I'm kind of interested in seeing if guests maybe each time we have a guest, they can come in and give their best tip they have. So I'm interested in knowing. I don't think that, Um, you know, just because maybe you haven't had a bunch of study experience as us very sexual person. What do you do? What do you think is your thing in bed that you've noticed men love about you? Noticed that that's a tip that you could give. Um, I like,

I'm a talker, could be in the bedroom. No, I don't need to be some on tone, but I'm like, it's funny because you it's funny it's funny because you and let are like my two goofiest friends, and I'd be like, damn, y'all hole, so goofy don't really suck without laughing, Like y'all always got motherfucking jokes. Y'all would look at the pea hole before you start sucking it like, hey, buddy, I'm coming, Like buddy, I'm coming. What is something that you say in bed that you think it's super sexy?

Or I let I say stuff to let dominate me, like do what you want to me or take it, but you know, like I'll take it. Do you tell do you tell people who you're not Like if you're just casually having sex, do you tell niggas that the seal pussy or this is yours? Yeah? Yeah, even when it's not put the giving up ownership during sex, Oh my god turns me on me. You know, I've told like I was like, use my pussy till you come, like do whatever you want to me, And I was like, damn,

I'm hoping you'll sup my ass. Do what you want. You don't at the top, at the top, what you are? You know, it's fun once a quarter. Also make sure you do it like when you didn't drink coffee. That more like you have to be ready for you know, like me once and it was an accident. I ain't go I was supposed to have sex, but I didn't.

But I told him. I was like, just so you know, there's only one hole available because my wisdom teeth were pooled, so head is not really option right now because I'm a side squeen it so it's like I'm not gonna be able to second. I can lick it like a cone, but I can't really stuck it. And then I ate um some some some ship that day Mexican and coffee, and I shot that that morning. So I was like, if I shot that morning, you ain't gonna put you a little dick in there and then it it's gonna

be messy. So I was like, only have one hole out of the three available as long as you don't mind. Sounds okay. And I don't really be super super sexy in the moment, like I'm not like talking about sex and stuff. I get weird. But in texting you did fine, though I did so good. I don't like sexy sober, I don't like dick pigs. But he brought it out of me, and I was like, this is the first time where I'm like it was literally in the middle of the day during lunch, you say, what were you doing? Scene?

So the first time this is all it started. I need to get off live by guys. So the first time that you and the sky started seexting. Okay, so this time I started, I'm like, I'm a very black and white person. I like, but this is what I was like. I like, you know, black and white, Like, I'm the type of person that's like yes or no. Don't tell me maybe because when you say maybe, in my mind that's already a yes. So I'd rather you say no then say yes later. I'm like, oh yeah,

he I was pissed. Now I'm happy. Don't say maybe because in my mind maybe means yes, so yes or no, up or down, left or right. So I was texting him. He was like, Okay, I got it. I got it. He was like in or out. I was like, and it wasn't awkward. It didn't like turn me off. It wasn't I didn't wasn't sexual. I was like in and he was like, okay, hard or soft. I was like hard and I was like like he just randomly said,

let me text somebody. But I'm saying as I was, I was expressing to him that I'm a black and white person, so he's giving you. So then he was like, okay, black and white, upper down, left, right, I get it. Be very upfront and forward with you, he was. He was like, well, have another question. I was like yeah. He was like in or out and that started it. And he was like hard or soft. He was like front or back, And then I got excited. I was like,

oh my turn, I said. I think. I said, like, I don't know, something sexy like top of you know, on top or on bottom or outside or inside or you know, like this is a fun game. I just texted two niggas inter out. Let's see what happened. Already I told you no more take out, but it just went on. We sexed it for four hours. Did my makeup? I went to the club. I was in the club, like, did you notice your pussy being white while you were sexy in the club? Did you feel the butterfly thing happened?

Where like it's a robbing that's the Bestially I never had never met him, You've never been Yeah, that's the best so we sex it for a long time, and did you guys ever end up having said? Was it good? Oh? As somebody like not prude at all, but like semi conservatives. I've tried to find the balance between who I really, my goofy childish self, and being like a sexy adult. So I'll stay with you. I'll be thirty in April.

But I think I found that recently. But well, I'm interested in you said that you're you agree right about like you or semi conservatives. How do you think that you were able to navigate a conversation like that with someone you've never met. Do you think that's why you were able to do it because maybe you've never met him? No, I think I don't, Like, I've never sexed it in my life into him. If somebody ever did that, I'm like, like,

what are you talking about? Top Like it turned me off even dick pigs, I'm like, I'd rather see titties. But with him, I don't know why the connection was like that. Maybe because we talked for so long before it was like any intimacy, so he had my mind already. I don't know. I just really liked him, and when he did it It wasn't awkward at all, but I jumped right into it like it turned me on. It wasn't like like you think other people haven't been that

smooth about it. Maybe we could we come enough. The first first face time was for hours. We talked about so much intellectual, deep stuff before we even got to that sex one, oh Sapio sexual bit. Yeah you know, yeah, that's why I used to tell stories while you were I'm just saying, I think you're that she was really hoping, you know, if you got my pleaser, you were willing

to go that. I mean now that you just said of your when your order for us was do what you want with me, and that nigga said tell me a story. Bit you think did I talk about that? If you guys want to listen to what we're talking about, go back two episodes. I can't believe talked about that. He's like, did what I'm like once upon a time, I literally like driving a house, Like, what's the story going to be today? I'm all out of stories? Like he just want me to tell stories? Drinks today? Oh

my god, dude, after you left, that's what? Okay? This was so I met someone that liked that same ship. What did I call it? Old guy about other people having sex with me? Yes? Weird? Like who was the old Hamptons guy that I sucked the one? What do I call him? No? Just I think he liked to fantasize about a girl like getting He would probably want to see me. It's a cold thing. Yeah, like a bron white dude, tasty to Hampton's. We have a fun time whatever. While he was I called him sick nipple fuck.

That's right, that was his name, sick nipple fuck. So to make this very quick, basically he only could come with his nipples being tied, but so much arousal from the nipples that when I turned around and get fucked from the back, He's like, that doesn't work for me, and my nipples have to be He's like, no, he didn't say my nipples have He couldn't. He just said, oh that I don't like that position because there's no and then he took his hands and waved them over

his chest and put stimulation. I was like, wow, okay, Literally it was like I had to turn. It was like if I took my hands off the knob, it would come like come apart. That's how much he needed his nipples touch. Long story short, I wanted him to come and I was like, tell me what you want. He's like, tell me the last guy you fucked. And

I was like, Yo, what is So? It's weird because the guys, so, the guys that that I talked to, all my hose, all my holes are very the same in that matter where they're like, I want to see you suck dick or I want to see you get so they want me to send them videos of me fucking someone else all the time, or they're like, are you fucking anyone coming up? Like let me watch. They're really all of my homes, they really like what it's really the stuff in to an increased here on only fans.

You need to make a close friends tab for these niggas. I'm telling you charge them for it. Dog Like I wasn't gonna I was gonna say, someone's name, is it Benny? No, it's actually not Benny. A few of my gay friends, right, they'll meet niggas on Grinder, they'll add them to their close friends thing and post like their dicks or like

sexual ship on there. It's you need my friends in the ind well, my friends on the industry have have fences so their faith Instagrams and they're literally just people that they know to follow, but they don't put their face on there, and that's what they do. They post like next yes, and it's people like in the industry. I'll tell you who and he live in Atlanta, so he was I'll show you anyway, do I know when? Yes, we're gonna get into this week's horrible decision And it

wouldn't be right unless it was you're my boyfriend. The we made the horrible decision this because you are listening to for women who are in different spaces in their love lives. And so with what I've seen you do over the gotten him last ten years, just you're really big with manifesting everything that you've gotten. Um. I think even with with horrible decisions, where we where we are now, we did we had no idea where this would take us.

But with you from the very first day I met you, everything from a beauty line and being in beauty, from your music to you before you get to me. I'm so proud of y'all and I really respect what you do as women. Seriously, I would never be on this with the banana in my mouth. That's not me. But because it's you and y'all do that and living your truth. I respect that because there's so many people that are just not who they are. You're aren't hurting anybody, You're

not bashing anyone. You're being yourself and being sexually open and honest. And I think that it's perfectly fine to do in life as long as you're not hurting yourself for anyone. I'm not really respect that, thank you. I think rent open sexually and I love it that I could never never, but I love that I could never do. You know. I think it's dope that you're honest and you know who you are and you're like, this is me,

take it or leave it. I love that. But I think that you're pretty much that way, just and you. And that's so when we were when me and Megan were talking outside and when I was thinking of what we talk would talk about this episode, Um, it did have a lot to do. We went out to dinner last night and so we were with Jonathanson Maul. We went after and we had a great dinner, but we were talking a lot about love relationships and a lot of us were single at the table or just out

of relationships. Aside from you and you were giving a lot of relationship advice, and even with you and I, we've been talking about manifesting not only what we want in our career, but what we want from love or with a partner. So during this part of the episode, UM, I think that this will really sit to maybe every re listener because we have someone who's married, we have someone who's on the teter being in a relationship but not really sure what it is, but wants to be there.

I didn't say I want to be there. You're kind of no, maybe not wanting to be there, but it's happening. Ecuse I don't You're you don't want to be in a relationship. I'm I'm in a relationship with a boyfriend who's not my boyfriend, and I don't want a boyfriend. I feel like it's not for me. You don't want monogamy? Um, well, we both don't have it. I mean we we sleep with people together, we sleep with people separate. But it's like it's very obvious that it's trending towards a relationship.

Brandon twining our lives families were going on our went fourth vacation together. Like, so it's a lot and he's amazing, but I said on a Patreon episode, like he's becoming my best friend and that ship is very scary, And no, I don't I don't want a boyfriend. And where you're at, is you, like you said year about to be celibate because the next person you have sex with I want to be and you want to be in a relationship.

And I'm also, I guess on the same line, is you not so much into monogamy, But I am actually looking for someone who's my partner, and I'm actually looking

for someone who could be my partner and best friend. Um, And so that's something that I'm manifesting to her, even because I finally cut off that tie where I think for the last three years, our guests, Wheezy, my friends have all said was keeping me from that because he was someone I just fell back on because I was comfortable with him, um, even though I didn't want to be with him, and so cutting him off now and not even being able to have casual sex because I

literally can't get out of my own head about it, I know that the next person, hopefully that I have sex with, for free. Um, not just playing, but the next person that I have sex with, someone that I've already made my boyfriend or were so much involved that that's where it's going. Um. And it's something that I've been very open with even when dating. So I am

dating now, which is the fucking ghetto, uh, because he's project. Um, but I am dating now, and I'm I'm noticing that I'm saying it exactly up front, and which is why PhD fell off because he was in the space where he was telling me, listen, I just got out of a seven year relationship. I don't want to rush into a relationship and I just didn't even want the idea of being hurt six months on the and you tell me how long it wasn't good? Um, he's been siting

for about a year and a half now. Um, but he's PhD. PhD they God sent you to picture of I know, cut him off already. UM yeah, I'm telling you when you have it, like, what's happening to me right now is crazy. And I just said I want to sucking other nigga just because I I'm like, this is what I wanted and it's here, and now I'm scared. I'm freaking out, bro, what's scaring you? It's just too perfect, We're too compatible. We fucking no, I didn't say that.

She did that. She does. Vincent cut the fucking camera it. I love that. It's crazy because like, I don't want this at all. I just want to live my life. I want to fear of getting hurt. Yeah, I'm not gonna, but I just haven't been with someone that I if I could paint a picture of, like aesthetically, what they look like, and just like we'd be on the same energy, like that ship is wild ship and I and I just that's why I said the best friend thing is

freaking me out. We talked ship together, like I can't handle goddamnita. It's funny because what y'all are saying is something that I'm actually going to bring up in therapy. I realized now with dating, that's my fear of dating and hopping into our relationship is that when you're seeing go in you're dating, you're vulnerable to pain. And so I've talked about on this relationship how I have dealt with married men are taken a manner, men who are

technically not emotional, emotionally available and to me. And this is my fucked up way of thinking. I know that I can go in there and there I'm not being hurt because I can put up the wall because I know exactly what it is. You know what you make it up in your mind before you start, you know,

you know. And so now that I'm in this dating space where everything is up in the air, I want to know if this person is telling me the truth or telling me you know, is he telling me what I want to hear just so that he can get to the next step before you know? And so And of course when I'm dealing with someone who's married or I'm not trying to become anything more to them than what we are. It's just free flowing. It is what it is. You take it or you leave it, and

it's cool. But in terms of dating and being single, now is just like I'm opening myself to you hurting me. And I like to be in control of my feelings. I hate when someone can my day, my day, And when you're dating, you love someone and there's emotions involved. That person innately has control of how you moved during the day. And right now, with an iron on tour, I don't know. I don't believe in that. So you're married, I don't believe in that. I believe that you give

power to what you want to give power to. Right, So, like, if if you hurt me, I allowed that to hurt me, like you did things to cause me to feel a certain way, but ultimately, like I have control over my we do. Because there are certain people that you say things to me, But my husband to me, I would be like yo, like, because I put him in a certain position in my life. Right, But how are you supposed to find love if you're not opening yourself to it.

If you open yourself to love, you open yourself to pain. That's the risk of tame. Absolutely, that's what I'm saying. I don't think that to be in love and not being pain I agree with that. I just you told me, she said, I said, I can't wait to find my husband. She said, when you find your husband, that is going to be the person that hurts you most. And it's because you put him on that pedestal and love him so much that you give him access to you that nobody else has. No one else in the world has

that us. And so I think whether it's intentional or it could still be a health I'm not gonna lie. I fear that like how and you you know me and Jordan's and that nigga, I feel like after that, I know I haven't been I know, and that was someone who like over years and even his family girl disgusting and we literally just saw each other when I was and I was just crazy. I could see him walking down the street. I probably wouldn't remember what he looks like. I got you gotta show me a picture.

But even with that, like the control like to where we would be yelling and arguing, and then I would feel guilty for wanting to steal talk to him again, and like the emotions that I felt with that nigga, I don't see. This is why we can never pass judgment. I have to. I keep this thing is really on my mind about that wild ass video like video with the Jerry Smith thing. I just keep thinking about it because there's like a lot of judgment to unpack there.

Yes it was crazy, but you were saying, like I feel guilty for talking to him. Someone treated you away, you keep talking to them. We could all sit on this podcast and say I would never let that happen. But when you just really don't know no one is when you would never open your heart to somebody like niggas make you act nuts. You So you think her praying like that was like wow, social media? Absolutely, I thought that. I think putting it on social media was wild.

But I don't think what she did. I thought what she did was something that was courageous in a sense of social media people be putting some bullshit out about about their relationships. Absolutely, we're talking bull this, nigga. Look a look at showing te messages showing you know what I'm saying, screens. Why is it bad to do the right thing in the opposite of that? Why? Why was the right thing praying on Instagram? Though? But that's what I'm saying that I don't think it should have been

on social media. So I've had two feelings about this. If you publicly cheat on me, you opened the gates for me to publicly address it. That's why I don't like that people are shooting on her for saying like she shouldn't have did it. But at the same time, I'm also that person because I'm like, that's fucking nuts. Ten minutes of crying on Instagram because that to me was too much. Now I think there's like just honestly

taste level, like my taste to cry and scream. And then I also felt like it felt like a backwards prayer, like you want to heal her heart, but then also like have mercy. I don't know what's gonna happen to you because what you did to God's daughter, it was like if you guys that I don't want to get too much into this because we literally spent like ten or fifteen minutes talking about it on our on our patriarch. So this week, UM, but I do want to ask you guys, um in the realm of dating, so so

be small. I'm gonna ask you, um, what should we as women do to manifest what we want out of a man? And I do want to switch it to you because now that you have a husband, was that manifested? So I want to ask you what you're doing. I will say what I'm trying to do. I'm just now starting this journey. UM. Two thousand nineteen, I felt like, Um, I kept meeting guys who were bachelor's and but last year I was almost sexual I ever been. I was open he's a bachelor. He doesn't want to be committed.

But you're acting like a bachelor, but you're attracting bachelor's like you wanna you want a husband, act like a wife. You can't be out here dating and fucking and you're acting like a bachelor attracting I feel no, I agree, No, no, no, no, no. The way you act, how how am I saying I would meet a guy? He dating so many girls, like you're dating so many guys. What's the problem. You're attracting

people that just be Are you not supposed to so? Like, let's say, no, I don't know about what you mean about acting, but should I not be casually dating and enjoying my life until I meet somebody? No, that's not what I'm saying. I was really acting like a bachelor way, not seriously dating, having sex with whoever I wanted to have sex with, just kicking it. But and that's not what I want to tell me that this is one thing. This is what I'm interested in knowing, and I actually

I'm curious and picking your brain about that. I have a friend of mine married for a long time, and whenever I get with her, she gets fucking wild. And I'm like, she's not even like this right. I feel like it's because she didn't get that out. If you don't ee for me, I got it out, you have to like. But just because you're doing those things, I don't think that doesn't mean they don't they're not putting

you in the way of love. I think that you could find love and not be ready for it if you didn't have ship like that happens to you, you know what I mean. But I feel like what I'm trying now is to change my mindset to I'm not just kicking it because that's not what I want. I don't want to just kick it. So now my mindset is, Okay, you want a boyfriend, you want a husband, take a step back and really date, trying to get to know people, trying to see who you're dating, not just physical girl.

He's so I'm a fucking tonight. No, we want a husband. Let's slow down. We don't just want to have fun anymore. So that's why I'm like, Okay, let me be cell abate, be still learned. Do I really like this nigga? Do not like his lifestyle? I really like this nigga? Like there was a guy. I was like, I like him so much. She was like, you don't like him. You like the lifestyle, like the you like the idea of him, you like that he has money, you like that you

can party with him. You like that. You don't like him. So I'm like, fuck, you're right. So it's like, wait and get to know somebody, because I'm now looking for a husband. I'm not looking for fun. So if I'm not looking for fun, I can't run around in the nightlife acting like a bachelor. But that's not what I want, is this. I'm really trying to manifest a husband, so I think I just want to I want to relationship. So I'm a sit steal. Yeah, can I like what

about you? Did you manifest before you got into your marriage or even before you guys were dating? Was that something you manifested? I mean, like I said, I met my husband, I was nineteen, so um wold story. I went to Bible College. I like literally was like such a good like you still are so, but I was like I went to Bible College. Like I lost my Virginia when I was sixteen on my stepmother's couch with a drug dealer. Was very awkward. Damn we all had that.

So I had sex. Um, I had sex to sixteen and was sexually active until I went into Bible College and I decided I wasn't going to have sex anymore. And I said, the next person I had sex with is going to be my husband. And the next person I had sex with was my husband. So I waited until until we got married. No. Um, I didn't mean it to be petty. I actually like, No, I definitely

had sex with my husband. I think it was the first night we but but I said, the person that I have sex with next is whatever reason, I felt comfortable in that moment having sex with him, and we've been married for ten years. I love that you actually brought that up, because that was one of my questions. UM. I put, does sex complicate dating? Um? Should you have sex with someone to gauge the compatibility first or hold off? And we were talking about that. I was like, well,

what have you married? Someone? In the dick is actually what did we break up? And I'm like you always said over the years, which is why I was really surprised when you were said that next person I thought has to be my boyfriend because you've always said I don't want to waste time. But in this case, like to me, I believe in that manifesting. But I am still big on this person still meeting my sexual qualification. Feel like that can be learned. I think sex. I

think you're sex. It's the journey and you have to you have to figure out what you both like. Like me and my husband, I met him at nineteen. I didn't know what the hell I was doing at nineteen. Do you remember the first time you had sex to you had no fucking clue what you were doing. I just want to say that I know right now. So

this is how late my life's been. I've started talking to a nigga that I sucked a decade ago, and so we're talking about our sex life a decade ago, and he's like, you, you were such a free like and we're talking like we just had sex yesterday and it literally has been about ten years. And I'm just like, Nick, do you know what? I'm like? What I'm damn? Yeah.

But also it's funny because I used to refer to him as the biggest dick in the world, and I'm like, I wonder if you're still that because I've had a lot since you feeling too. They've been making you think have you ever like fucked somebody when you're in it and it's amazing? And then you them again You're like, this is I was doing? This is not how I

remember it. So the last question that I wanted to have and I want everyone to to kind of maybe give um one to two things that they thought was wrong in manifesting love or a relationship or what you want out of a partner. Um in this realm of dating outside of being a bachelor, what are we doing wrong? I feel their way to look at yourself and see, damn, where where am I sucking up? That I haven't landed? Who I'm looking for? Things or what I want? Yeah,

I have two things. One I'm looking sit still, focus on you. And the second thing, which kind of coincides with that, get yourself together. You have all these requirements. You want this, you want this, you want this, have the ship, and you want you not even providing I mean a man that's mentally stable, that you're not mentally to therapy. We were talking about my best friend. We have these talks all the time. We are just traumatize as people hurt people hurting people I have so much

stuff under the rug. I haven't dealt with my mom to my stepmom to i'mbout to be thirty. Fix that first before you even try to come with the man. And now you're going off on hand for some of your stepmom Dan when he was eight eight, you still got to deal with family stuff where you even try to be equally yoked with me. People really project their PTSD into relationships and it's scary. I mean, I've been

that person before, you know what I mean. And I've been to a lot of therapy and I've definitely watched myself do it. I've seen a nigga walk outside and I'd be like, so you like because the last nigga right, And it's like, you do have to heal? How to heal? I think the biggest thing, too, is making sure that there's some space in between. Like I'm a serial data right, and I do it in a very social way. I

love the apps, I love stuff like that. But if I meet someone that is great, maybe they're not super amazing, I'm like, oh my god, yes, this is it. I can work with it. Yeah he's a little cheesy, but like no, we is good, Like no like, definitely let that time in space. He'll also know and understand that not every person you fuck. Don't put too much pressure on yourself has to be the last one. But like, don't it doesn't have to be the last one. There can be people placed in your lives for a season

and that's okay. It is okay to just enjoy an experience with someone and it can end. I think there's way too much pressure, and it's mainly from other people, like either the energy of wishing bad or saying something's gonna end, or saying, oh well this is for right now, like fuck them, motherfucker's bro. Like, I don't like to talk like that about people and their ship, but I think also the fear of letting something end is really

what holds us all back. I think that you have to determine what you really want, like honestly, ask yourself what I really really how are you really want to read right now? Just like I really want to be I want to do I really want to have kids? Do I would I rather have my career? You know

what I'm saying. Ask yourself what you really want, and don't think that you have to be confined to whatever society says you have to be Oh, you have to be married by thirty you have to have kids by thirty five, or that's not what you want, that's not what you have to start chasing something that you weren't meant to be, or people's societal it's your friends. People

feel alone when their friends are together. Like, I mean, the reason I just said no, I don't want that a boyfriend is because I think there's a lot of weight in the term boyfriend. I have someone that is becoming my best friend, is my lover. I care about a lot I've called a partner, you love whatever, But boyfriend, I think takes it to this committal scary ruins it. Boyfriend?

Why don't like that? You know what I'm saying. Like, but if you guys are having an open conversation and you set your expectations early, like, what does that look like to you? Right? So? Like what is love looks differently for all of us, and I think you have to have that conversation. Like I'm feeling you. We have this energy, we have this vibe, and I feel like I want to be committed to you in some way, But what does that look like for us? I mean,

you know what I'm saying, like defining your relationship. I think it's like everything. I'm appreciating that the boundaries conversation is happening. But I think what's also kind of scary about what happened is we both just thought we were gonna fuck right. Because when you start something up, when it's like a real like I talked about Jeeves, like oh, yes, I'm looking for someone too, this is great, we're compatible.

Let's take things slow. When you just fucking motherfucker and then it grows, it's like, yeah, it's funny because that was actually going to be my exact thing that I felt like I've done wrong, um in terms of what I want. Now I'm being a lot more vocal upfront with what I want because I feel like why I've been in the situation, ships or relationships, whatever you wanna call them, that I've been over the over the last

decade is because I've done just that. I started where we just sucked, and then now we're fucking this two ye years later, three years later, seven years later, um, An, emotions have attached and I never really said what I wanted or expected out of you, and now we're just going with the flow. And now when there's any conversation about well I want to elevate this, Well what the fund You've been fine with what we've been doing. Why

do you want something new now? And it is the fact that you do grow, you do change, you do want more out of somebody as the time goes on.

And this isn't necessarily at all, but with Jordan and and Q and the other guys that have been in my life to where it started off as just sucking and I thought I was okay with just sucking, and then until I like you and now I'm stuck in it probably isn't going to go where I wanted to do it because I left it there for so long, right, And so to me, now that's where even when I'm talking to guys, I said, I won't do that again.

I don't want to be in a situation ship. I don't want to literally be vocal a friend or do you get And it's just like and if you don't do if you don't want that, people think that's scary, Like why would you talk about marriage on the first day the second date if you don't ever want to get married? What's the point? I do think that the first date, like, yes, maybe expectations should be set, But I also think that you can block your blessings by being like, well, I need but I think that being

communicative about what you are looking for people there. If you can go on a dating app and see that people say no hookups, you can be in person and say I'm not looking for that either. Yeah, you know what I mean A matter of fact, to be honest with you. The dude that I'm talking about now, Brooklyn Bay old baby whatever, I've changed his name, but with each other. So I met him in January and we stopped talking. We fucked in the summertime, and it's been

going strong ever since. He said to me recently. I was like, why didn't we like keep it going or whatever? And he was like, you were looking for something I couldn't give you, I think. And he said that to me and I was like, how did you know that? He was like, because you told me that. He was like on our second day. He was like, you were looking for something and I was like, I don't really know what was it. I remember, yeah, I remember too.

I don't know if I said it. So I was dating a girl at the time I wanted a partner in our throttle and I found one and it didn't work out with that, with with um, with them, I mean, fine breakup. It wasn't like fuck you nigga today. I was just like, okay, this isn't working. But that was what happened. And he was like, he was like, I couldn't handle that, and he was like, I couldn't be

what you were looking for. And that's the thing. I think we need to be okay with the response that we get and think that it's something that a lot of women do, but something that I've done is where that's why PhD is out the picture. They would tell me where they were and I was like acting like I was okay with it, hope. And that's where I think a lot of us go wrong where they told you from. So now I'm telling you from the start. And if that's something that you can't give me, well

then all right, well I'm gonna let you go. You go out of your house of sex with whoever you're fucking. But that I don't love you, ye like, yeah, and I would. I can go to and cancel you and that's it, and I'm fine. And there's so many options out here. I feel like we do like see someone and automatically we're like, oh my god, this is my husband,

Oh my god, this is the one for me. I have to make it work when in reality, if he's not aligning or she's not aligning with really where you're at, it's okay to be like, well, let's revisit this maybe when we get on the same page and you don't lose my number, hit me up looking or just like being okay with just walking away. Okay, okay, was walking away.

And I think that you have to be okay with you first, Like you have to truly love you first and make you yourself happy, because then your happiness isn't dependent on somebody else. Girl. I mean, but it's so I'm gonna be honest, there is a lot of weight in that because there are happy people that get happy with someone else and they lose themselves and they're fucked, you know what I mean. Like, I mean, that is

the hardest part. So, like, I think that a lot of people say that you have to be happy with yourself. You have to be happy with yourself. I know plenty of great women that are confident, happy get in a relationship and you can lose yourself. And I think that when that happens, you really start to depend on that person. You can you intertwine your lives, so it's like now you're sharing your happiness, and then when that piece is gone,

you're fucked. So that's why there's a lot of times where like you read something like that, you've got to be happy with you. You can't depend on a man. True, but I'm being death. I know amazing people that have been sucked over by heartbreak and they completely lose themselves. And I think there's a lot of maintenance that you have to do in the middle of your relationship. It has to be a constant. Old time is a serious thing, friend time, vacation, things without each other, because if you

don't learn to have that, you're fun. A matter of fact, to be real with you, this New Year's right, so he's going to Europe. I'm going to Mexico. First thing out of arm I was like, okay, well, let's just do Mexico together. And it was like, let me go be with my friends. You'd be with your friends, will do our little thing. And it was like literally something I know we both suggestion because it was like fun. This is how we're treating everything, Thanksgiving, Christmas, every thing, Birthday?

How much can we do? This is when it gets too codependent. Yes, And I think that when you're dating you should I feel like you should be. There are days that you shouldn't be available. He knows. Every Thursday, I'm not available. That's the time I go out with my girls. Every other Saturday, I'm not available. You know what I'm saying. Have some type of consistency and schedule about your life so that way you do have that

girl time. You do have that. Every Wednesday is the night I read like anyone someone, I don't care if you already have friends. That is weird. And I've seen relationships like that where they're so codependent on each other and your friends like a bitch I talked to you in six years where that bro, that's the worst I've been there. I would like to apologize to any friend. I've done that too, like in the past. I mean not recently, but like some years ago. You talk. You know,

I haven't involved y'all? All? Yeah, and and bring that out I do. Before we get out of here, want to get to our homemail real quick. Because we don't win over in y'all still get our episodes? God damnit. Anyways, ladies, how do y'all find these men? So what we're talking about? Dating? Um? This listener said, Hi, I'm twenty five and getting back into the dating world after being in a two and

a half year relationship. I've I'm involved with a few guys who are really cool and that I've been very upfront about, um what I wanted from them, which is sex, and things with them have been pretty well. My issue with them and other guys is that I'm still not finding men who are willing to explore sexually like I am. The guys are either acting like they want a relationship, which I know they don't want that for me, and I already told them I don't want that and it's

a turn off. And they even act like they're not really interested in threesomes, like they're low key possessive. I'm ready to level up from vanilla sex. How do you find men who are open to trying different things sexually? Is the age? Do they just not want that from me? Should I try someone of a different race? I'm black, by the way, and I don't want to think race plays apart. But I know there are stigmas of certain on certain things, and I'm really only attracted to black men?

Is it just my horrible taste in men? Thanks? Please help a sexually frustrated woman. I actually started sucking white guys for that reason and was that's like kind of how my white guy fucking started, because I was like, Okay, well, like I know I'm into b DSM and niggas won't like it him bondaged on like the whole thing fifty shades right, that's a that's a I think household name for But I knew I was liking that nasty ship,

and I was just assuming niggas wouldn't like it. That was really it was all assumption, like yeah, because I want to speak on the other end of the spectrum. I've never been with uh latina, a white Asian. I mean they've been mixed sometimes, but always with black and they never even Puerto Rican black nicks only speak Spanish. UM, so they're not because they're black only. I've only dealt with UM with black men, and so I wouldn't say

that you do have to switch race. I will say they are a little bit more guarded and opening up about what they do. But not only that, I think the number one thing that I hear too is niggas be scared to be exposed, and so they have a fear that they're going to be judged by even the woman that they're talking to. I mean, we're in this era of shots and all that ship UM, and so I've literally clearly I talked about pegging. I've pegged black men. I've had three simple with black men. I've been the

sex clubs with black men. I've you know, done the spitting and mouths, the b DSM, the bondage that I've done everything with black men. So I don't want any of our listeners UM to feel like they have to step out of their race to get away from vanilla sex. UM. I will say that you need to be okay with

maybe just not involving yourself with someone who's not open sexually. UM. I brought up a recent UM conversation where I was talking to this football player and he knew I pegged some niggas and he felt like, oh, well, if they let you peg them, then you don't niggas that sucked other niggas, which means you're sucking gay man and I don't want to suck you because I don't want to a woman who was sucking gay men and it was just the folk, and I was like, well, I'm fine

with just us never having sex. You're going into this and guess what, you don't know all of the partners of the women that you've had sex with. Now. It was just like, you have to be okay with just not having sex with someone who doesn't match your sexual um compatibility. And it's as simple as a question period, literally as simple as period, Are you open sexually, sexually or or to this or would you ever do this? Star there into our relationship? Would you be open to

trying new things? You know what I'm saying. It's as simple as literally asking a question. But if she's dealing with so many men now that aren't there, I think you have to be okay with just not giving up the pussy. I would ask if she said, like, I'm gonna be real like five, I was peggan because twenty two, you know what I mean, I think that a younger

man can be regarded. And also if you don't have enough confidence to ask for what you want, that's another thing too, Like let's say, like, you know what you want, men will receive it that way. But if you're like, I don't know, maybe we could. No, I'm not gonna tell you that. What I'm saying as a woman, you need to know what you like, what do you like? You need to know what turns you on. You need to know the spots to touch, so that way when you come you know, when you're about to have sex

with a man, you know what you like. This is what I like. Well, what Whey said makes a lot of sense. She's she said she wants to get away from vanilla sex, so a lot of these things that maybe she's introducing in the text message. She's also not confident that she's like she's try with somebody. She just wants she and she I really don't know how deep

you want to explore. But I literally the only thing I will say about age is yes, it's true if you funk with someone a little older, they've been around the block. They're not usually gonna be like Teeter tottering on whether they'll do something or not with you, and they may have already experienced it. So you might like that. I mean, but I can't see how young men. Young men are vibrant and want to try to ship. I'm

saying it's it's a toss up. I just will say that I think that with older men, they probably already been through and can help you go through the things that you want to go through. So I am so glad that you guys were able to join us. I hope that y'all enjoyed this long episode. There were jokes, there was storytelling, and then we got able to open up a little bit more about what we're looking for. I think the word um of the year should be manifestation.

You talk about manifesting so much and I just love it. Like I said, you manifested everything. What can people expect from b Samone? Yes, more makeup? Um uh, tour to Martin, checked toward dates on my Instagram movies. I'm auditioning for movies. I want to do more films and stand up and you know she she's about to make you busy, bitch, You're about to be about I love you, look, yeah, I gotta I can't Instagram page. Yeah, but I want

to thank all of you guys for tuning in. As you guys know, we are again on tour, so come see us. That's horrible decisions dot com. Also, we're gonna leave you guys with a five minute bonus clip. Um, do you have I guess she's just working. I want to say, does Megan have anything? But Megan she's actually um an institation school. So she about to graduate in February and we're opening up a spa in Columbus. She's gonna manage it, speaking it. We're saying that we're opening June.

Hopefully that'll be all over thet it is. Yeah, thank you, and and I love your cameraman everything we stay over here. He's classic shout out, shout great age. He's like, I'm like, I love him. Yeah. Again, we're gonna leave you guys on a five minute bonus clip from our Patreon episode. As you guys know, we give you guys three bonus episodes every month, so that's a total of seven to eight episodes every month, depending on how many Mondays during

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leaving you with a five minute bonus clip. Join us at patreon dot com backslash Horrible Decisions for everything that I just mentioned UM, And again I want to thank you guys for tuning into Yeah another episode of corpor Decisions by UM. Make it clear that you're not interested in jumping straight into a relationship off bat, that it is fine to date multiple people at once. I'm I'm asking what you think about that, because in dating right now, I'm making it very clear what I'm dating for and

I'm dating with purpose. I'm not dating to fuck, I'm not dating for a situation ship. I'm not dating just to have someone in my phone, wish me good night and good morning. I'm dating with purpose, So this is actually something that I would suggest against. So what about you. The entirety of me being on the show, I've been waiting for this. I've been waiting to talk about this.

I have goose bumps. Actually, I've been waiting for this subject in particular only because I agree with the article because I'm on the opposite spectrum of where you are socially in regards to dating. Because I was in a relationship for four years. It ended a few months ago, and I don't want to go back into the rigamaro of being in a relationship. But niggas don't like to

be lonely. So what I do is I will never put you in a situation to where I'm hypnotizing you into thinking something that is not because I don't like using people for personal benefit. So what I say is off the bat like. Look, I'm not looking to be serious. I'm just looking to have somebody on my side. I'm

looking to show with somebody. But this isn't that. If you're in a position to where you only date niggas with the hope that I become your boyfriend, I'm probably never gonna become your boyfriend, and we should stop this now. This is what I say verbatim. Some women or with it, some womenate. Some women say that they're with it and

they wind up not being with it. But you know you only I'm just all about honesty because what a lot of niggas do, my friends included, is to let the woman think whatever they want to think because they don't want to lose the pussy. I just hate that there's so much emphasis for men to just like live for the pussy. Not lying. That's that's it. That's that's that's strong. It's not it's coercion. They're co worse a woman think manipulation and lying is two different things because

manipulation I never lied to you. True. Well, I'm excited that you're even kind of opened up about, um, where you are dating, because actually the horrible decision for this week is we are livingingleh in an cut. Well, it's not nineties, I can say what thousands kind of world is. Keep your head up. I Hey, so it's crazy because you are living single as a black man. I'm living

single as a black woman. Um, but a lot of people put value on whether they're being claimed or not by the opposite sex or the same sex, um if they're in the alphabet community as they have been labeled recently. UM, So, I wanted to start off by saying, you are what thirty approaching thirty almost thirty in February? Okay, and I will be thirty next year as well, and we are single, and I wanted to, um, I guess start the conversation

off with why are you single? Um? Well I recently. Ever, if everybody listening to this that wants to get my show a chance, listen to seventeen point one. Uh. As I said earlier in the episode, I was in a relationship for four years and it ended, and me just being honest with myself, I pretty much wasted my excess time because she dated me off of potential as opposed to who I really am. And as of right now,

can you go into that more? What do you mean she dated you on your potential instead of who you are?

So and in my experience and with a whole bunch of experience with my friends as well, uh, women will be in our life and they'll see that I'm charming, They'll see them smart to see that the most spoken whatever, and that should aligned with things that they see for me as opposed to being with me for me, So they'll put all this ship on top of on my plate and put me in all these hypothetical scenarios or what I should be doing as opposed to just appreciating

me for who I am. So because of that, years and years went by and she started to feel disappointment because I wasn't matching up to who she thought I should be at the time when I'm the opposite spectrum. I was just accepting her for who she was as a person. So just the psychology of where we both

were at was just never matching up. So where I'm at right now is I'm not willing to go back into where I was at because now I'm more free, I'm able to do more stuff, I'm able to be more creative, I don't feel as bound, I don't feel guilty being with my friends, and it's a certain level of freedom that I'm enjoying right now that I don't want to have stripped away. That just naturally stripped away when you're in a relationship