Ep146: Diaper Bondage feat. Diaper Boy

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let's get on with the shop. We hear y'all, but I've been before we started this week's episode of Horrible Decisions. I want to give all of you guys a motherfucker Mary chrismas. Um. I know it's the twenty three, but y'all gonna listen through because they none of y'all hoo is gonna be at work for the ones who do have jobs. So Mary Chrismas, except for the ones that

work in retail, I'm sorry for you. I'm just gonna pray for you because bitch I worked in retail when I was in high school, and that she's not fun. It's like, this is not Black Friday. I've cried real tears on Black Friday and a customer was like, damn, I hope you get together. But here I am bitch.

I'm am a co worker crime Black Friday. So there's that. Um. Anyways, guys, did see girl Mandy v a k A full Court Pumps a k A peg the Stadion a k A. Somebody added Peggan good um, and you know I'm that bitch and I'm sitting next to my co host, Hi, I'm wheezy. I'm terrified you guys, this is one of my scary episodes. I'm like, oh, ship, it's a dude

off the internet, monniga. No, it's funny. Like I was thinking to myself this morning, I know you hit both me and Mandy up and I was like, Yo, this is going to be one of our super interesting episodes and probably a fan favorite because the essence of Horrible Decisions is to interview people about their kinks and somewhere around the way. You know, we get influencers, we get other podcasters, but this is really exciting ship because it's someone that lives in the stuff that we talked about

every week. And even though I think this is nuts, I cannot wait for you to change my mind. Although we are an anti kink shaming podcast, but she's crazy. I will say she did the same as a photographer. Find you. Shout out to all the foot lovers. Jesus Christ, I'd be having a black people when I go on lives now. They're like, but let me see your feet though, But no, I just want to hear talking about Bob. Have you heard yourself talking about blood? Um? I wouldn't

what I wouldn't do blow, but I'm not. I don't. It's nasty. I mean calling people weirdos. It's just nasty. And I think it's cool for us to be Nancy, but you Nancy, it's fuck calling the weirdows. You can take it as shame both. I love to tease about shape. If you thought you weren't gonna be teas on the slot. You know you're in the wrong place, baby, because if you think I ain't got the fucking baby jokes bits on the baby, get ready for it the whole fucking time.

But y'all know, on my commute here, first of all, I listened to like three episodes, So I did my homework good, I expect. Do you wet your wife? Have you listened to anything before in your way? Um? Yes, yeah, I mean I listened to like two episodes on the way here. But um, when normal listeners to you guys? So I agree, who were jokes? And everything I understanding come from a good place, isn't already jokes on you?

So I got on live on the Horrible Decisions page and I'm letting people know the guests that we're gonna have for December. So I brought up, um Corey, shout out to the pastor who came onto Horrible Decisions this month wonderful episode, and I talked about we were going to have a guy who wears diapers. Little did I know, I started talking about my thoughts and it was in

the room They're like, wait, diaper boys. The audience has already started like questioning and I was like, Okay, I'm taking some of your questions and make sure I asked them when he comes on the show. So I am really glad to have you. I'm glad to be here. And it's the holiday season. It's just crazy because you look normal, but I know it's in there. That's one of the that's one of the best things about it. And that's one of the reasons I really want to

be on the show. Not only like Nicka has a Nike sweater on, like once again, you will never know, But that's that's the essence of a kink and fetish. You said, everyone always wants to take a kink or a fetish and they want to throw an explanation on top of it. They wanted people generally that can't understand fetishes or sexual kinks, right. They feel like this has to have came from trauma, from something exactly, you know what I'm saying. So everybody's gonna think your ship was

wet all your life. They're gonna be like, damn, nobody ever changes. Yeah, no, I definitely want to get into into that. And I put that question down, Um, yeah, I guess we can we can. I was gonna do a quick catch up. Um we as a rant I. I haven't really talked much about my love life. I think I have on our Patreon episodes, I've opened up a little bit more. Um. It's funny because I am currently talking to a scientist ironically, Um, and I don't

believe in science computer science. So that was getting on me because they like Dann, he'd being he'd be caring computer viruses and ship in a computer lab. What you got, what you got, what you got to say? So do you be talking about about science? So listen, the crazy thing is not so he No, I don't believe it, right,

so I swear the guy. So we'd be talking and yet we were drunk and we we were like around seriously, the crazy thing is like and he's into like these Beyond burgers and I think we did talk about it on a Patroon episode. So I'll be like like eating science and ship. So I get on him about that because it's like vegan. It ain't even meet so like it's it's cute. He's very educated. Um, No, kids were the same age, So we're bonding. I do have a flight already to go see him next month. Um, so

we'll be spending maybe a weekend in the cabins. But I did also just start me talking to this other guy. Um, and he's local. He's in New York. And it's weird because I haven't really been looking for anyone, and literally, in our first conversation, he's sounded like me everything I've been telling my friends I want or don't want from just talking to someone or dating. He came out and said, so he's big on consistency, he's big on seeing each

other when we can. His schedule is also very busy. Um, so both of us travel a lot, so it's just us making time. He is older, a decade older. But but he was like, you know what, I'm gonna make you forget my age. So I'm like, I bet we can do that. Um So yeah, so right now I am talking to the two guys scientists. Bay is PhD. That's I coined him. Scientist is my age. Um. And then the new guy, I gotta I gotta come up with a nickname right right now, I'll call him Aries

because that was our joke. He said he's an aries, and I said, I never met one of them. That's just I don't know that's his sign. It's Aria, y'all know. I don't believe in that shit either, U. I don't like we're just funny. And I told him, I was like, oh, well, I ain't never met no areas. I don't even know what the niggas be, like, so you're gonna represent for

the whole area's nation, But I don't believe in that. April, I don't even know what oh MARCHI April Okay, Okay, yeah, I ain't got no niggas in the months, um, so at least he'll get what I um. But yeah, so that's kind of like my dating life right now. Still no sex um and seven won't be going into with me. So he's cut off and no for sure. Like and every time I cut him off before, I got like into this little vibe like oh but if he hit me, okay, I'll go get him some plussy um. And I'm just

not interested in him, like I see his pictures. I don't want to suck his dick for twenty minutes like I used to. I'm like, yeah, no, this this twenty years, twenty years, um, this seven years of fucking with him is kind of it's come to his end. You just woke up one day. I'm just like, you know, I just I just felt like he had it real easy, and I'd be my niggas don't have it easy with me. I'm not the easiest person, and he just had it real easy and he just ain't act right. I think

he took. He took how easy I gave it to him, you know, for that's what it is. Yes, I'm just nigga and I'm not nothing that, but that's what I'm like. Soft, but like who I was seven years ago and then

who I am now. So sometimes he's still becoming at me like, um, you know the bitch living with two roommates, going to school, living off financial aid and you know what, Yeah, no nigga, Like I'm I'm kind of lit now, so you you gotta be act accordingly like all my other holes who call me superstar and like gass me he superstar homes and they and they still gass me boy, go ahead about called Cassidy. So, like I've said on this podcast before, I do like to be the most

hood person in my building. That's just something that makes me know I'm in the right place when I'm the ghetto bitch of the building, you know what I'm saying, because I can't have nobody it's like on top like above me. Now, so because of that, most people stay out of my fucking way. They see me and they kind of like be overboard with like the nice how are you? But I'm also the only like black person

in building. So underneath me, you know, sund travels up there is a woman who I thought it was a hobby. It is not. She just has so much to sing about and it's not good. Um it's show tunes. Um it's been Atlantis Morisset. I really like Atlantis. I don't even know, like just but I could tell if by like the road like some Broadway ship, you know what I'm saying. But I know to me doing but um, specifically today I had it with this whole she sang

this song I think it was. Was it Michelle Branch because you're wear to me, so it was really, but we're so fucking bad. I was like, you know what, I don't want to be like a dream crusher, you know what I'm saying. But someone had to crush my dreams before. Like there were a lot of things I used to want to do that I wasn't set out to do. And I said this on my Graham, like I went to school for journalism. Was it really did that? And someone hadn't let me know. So I was like,

I need to do this for her. It's not like I'm one of her friends. So I feel like if I do it, what what's she gonna do get mad at me? And I already know when I left her apartment today, I already know for a fact she called one of her friends like this fucking black horror upstairs. I don't know if she's black, and she looks like it maybe Latina. I don't know. I could tell you that's exactly what she said. I went down there. I was like, Hey, this is really awkward and I'm sorry

that I have to do this. Oh my god, you started out, Yes I did. Why because what's he immediately starting? Alright? Because yo uneasy for me? Because I had a neighbor come to my door, so I want to hear how we had the same We have the same bedroom, it's the same layout. So she sings in the bedroom and I can hear it almost. It really woke me up this morning and I was like this is to know and bro if I could hear the lyrics clearly and

absolutely mad. So I went downstairs. I was like, listen and she had to swile on her face to this made me feel bad. She was holding a bowl of like something she was whisking in her whitest way. Hey, I was like, oh no, so I almost didn't say it, but I was like, I was like, listen, it's really awkward and I don't know how to say this, but I don't think that you know that I can hear you. And she's like, I don't know what you're talking about.

I was like, I don't think you know that I can hear you singing, but I can't hear you singing. So I wait for her to say something is she will say anything goes oh, like you sing loud, like it woke me up today, and she was like okay. I was like, but like all the time you sing, and I don't know, like if I don't think that's your job, I don't know if it is. But like I was like, just so you know, I've normally gone from like eleven to like four, like those of the

times I'm not here. I was like, so maybe even if I am here, maybe you could just not sing before eleven. She still said nothing to me, So then I'm left to fucking finish the sentence out. I'm like, okay, I'm not trying to be rude. How don't I say I just really didn't think you could know that you get singing like no one can hear you, but I

can hear you. And she just like nodded at me like okay, Like she was so upset, and so I'm like, I'm feeling really bad, right, so I get up the stairs, and right as I get up, I can hear this. She grabbed the phone. She's like hello, like she was getting ready to tell somebody. This bitch came down here. Was I wrong? And what I said? You know you kind of schedule, So I will say, what you did

happen to me. When I lived in Miami, I lived on the top floor, but me and my me and my roommate at the time worked in the clubs, so of course we work opposite hours of everyone else, and when we would get ready at night, we put on our heels. We had a marble floor. The guy who is underneath us came up and was like, hey, I gave the times that he hears us let us know he has to be to work in the morning, and how we wake hme up before his alarm clock in

the morning and while we're getting ready at night. So, but he came kind of like you gave us his schedule and then was like, and I don't know if it's something I need to do, but I can buy you guys some slippers. Um, since mar so he heard us, and I'm not gonna lie me and my roommates response to that was maybe you should buy a house. Um, I swear to god, we both we live on pen we're on the pent house floor. You're below us on Like, all right, I know it's more than yours and buy

another house. Yeah, but you know you live in a building with other people, and you gotta be respectful. I'm I'm getting by a house. If you don't want anybody knocking on your door, Okay, well you can knock on my door, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna get you to your request. You're telling me you don't live on the top floor. Now, what if you that happened? I hear I hear them slim their doors. They have kids.

I hear them back. Absolutely have the right to check them. Yeah, but they're living in their normal space the way I am. If I want a sound proof surrounding, I should probably stay in the house. What was the time that you were making all that noise? I mean like eleven, because we would leave the house like so so nine, nine to ten because we had to be both out by eleven and then we would get in. It's Miami still five or six in the morning. That's crazy. Tell us somebody,

you gotta buy a house. See, but you were telling this ship not to sing during like normal operating hours. Is like I just told her thing before eleven am because if you're scheduling. But that's not fair because then like that's how she wakes up to be fair if it was five am, because that's a crazy that's that's where I was working around my work hours. Those are

my work hours. I worked at night down there. Just because you have a nine to five and just because you leave your house between eleven to four, I'm not gonna move around how I live my life based off someone else's works. Slippers comment, Oh me at heart. We said, oh we're going out tonight and aren't click to hills bitch. Yeah, so we were. We were petty that night, but yeah, to offer us slippers not but also were called the board. I'd have been like, yo, like was a real ship.

This is your first one. I'm just telling you as your first morning, I'm not giving it to you. Yeah. Luckily we we played homeowners association fee is the same way he did. I mean you, well, we paid it a part of our god damn, as a part of our rank, and we paid trash. Miami was not with home owners fees as a renter. Why would you pay homeowners fez of the renter you probably paid they were, Well they were. That's why we got not that we got kicked out, but we were like the owners of

our home. His partner lost his job and they literally came to us before our least was up and was like, hey guys, um my partner lost his job and can we work something that we need to move back in our place and everything like. So, even how it was set up, we weren't paying through the actual it was through them to where when his partner lost his job, he came. So imagine if that nigga felt like fucking

calling downstairs. Yeah I know yeah, but and imagine if you're sucking, I'm leasing this bitch and I'm getting noise in place that I never had on when I lived there. Yeah. Now I'm curious though, so like, how can you have really made that works? Because all you did was just tell her, you know that she sings before I could have told her how bad it was. So that's what I'm saying, dude, do you tell the super when you called over a noise complaint like people like you get

like I think you get like three. It's a very serious call. That's why I said, you couldn't even kick that here it's and I'll say in New York then it's not. Because in my last home, the Puerto Ricans upstairs, they took over the whole alley. My walls would vibrate. Do you know we called on them and they were

Section eight tenants. Do you know nothing ever happened, never happened, and we called weekly, I mean we called weekly and they never kicked out in they were section So I know someone that got kicked out of their New York home for annoying, I would just say in New York then maybe also lived in the BARNX So maybe the BARNX. They're not taking noise complaints because they deal with murders. I don't know what. I don't know the Copsle's like,

listen what she want us to do. They're playing music about the construction one time and I want to live. They called me construction Carol. Because I lost it, I said, okay, I hear them right now. So I knew that like construction couldn't go past six pm. I read plus yeah, yeah, yeah. I googled it because I was like, this can't be right. I said, maybe they really working all some ship Because I got a subway by my house bro atn I was like, that's it. Yes, I fucking go downstairs. I'm

in a robe and slippers. I know, I looked white as book and I was like, so if no one's gonna stop this, you guys are gonna stop. It's just not gonna stop tonight. No, not wroblem. I'm asking you. I wanted to be next because I'm yellow. So the guy fuckings like, man, we have to do this tonight because there's a dog stuck underneath. He's like so there, yeah, at six pm, but it's only if there's an emergency, said do you know who olds the dog? Like is

just someone dog or a dog? And then everybody looking at me like I'm fucking rude. Mean this dog was stock, so damn dog. It's one night of sleep. That's just gonna sit on this. It's a straight straight So wait, three one one. I called three one one, and you can tell this nigg has been taking calls all night. He's like, what's your emergency at the edge, No know, what's your non emergency? I'm like, my non emergency is about to be one. There's a dog stuck. They ain't

get that motherfucker out. Yeah, it's been five hours. I said that I can't sleep, and then I really was like, let me turn it up or not, just like I have children, kids care No, I don't care about my kids even tell I need a good excuse to get He was sick of me too. He was like, well, I'm gonna let you know right now with three one one, we have up to seven hours to answer noise. I'm like, that said, no problem, I guess I'll call the nine. Then what I'm saying they don't take noise complaints in

New York like that for real at all? Like they have seven hours to even respond to noise complaint. In seven hours, they're not gonna be you gotta be white about music anymore. Well, well maybe that's why people win. Maybe that's why they don't respond in the Bronx, because I like I am. They know, Yeah, my name is Karen. I moved here for work, okay, just a little bit

up um, you know, for my normal. But here I am up on the six Jenny, and someone needs to come and get these theta else it is all day, I know. I'm telling That's why even when I'll be on the Orchard Beach, I'll be like, why are you going to Archer Beach? Because first off, it's only a ten minute drive, and I like the beach with Nigga. If you strike Puerto Rico when I go there and I'm like, I know, I can't listen to any I'll be saying about Puerto rican bring spaghetti. You're bringing their

goddamn their entire family with them. And then they bring flags the size of a sucking building. When Andrew that ship talking about what do you need electricity for the beach? No, no, it's literally the signs of that's Wames, bitch, and you need a whole set up they do. I washed the bitch with one of those um like a pank. What do you do pancakes on top of like the stove thing, the electrical stove. And I'm like, couldn't y'all have just packaged and top away food? Why this was your body?

You everything, but all your noise came right there right all that roommate Crisly used to go there and I'll be like, you know, we're probably not going to hear our own music, right Nope, So we're staying here trying to listen to hip hop hop? Are you here all summer? Like a circuit? Babies ring? Like? Are you ready to listen to Gasolina? Okay? Just like that over? Did you

guys know what Gasolina is about? Guess no? Gla oh, I think well, at first I used to think it was come and then now I thought I thought it was like give me more, like give me a like fuck me harder. Okay, see now they're about to come for us. I'm sorry. When I was in Puerto Rico, the fucking song came on and everybody was like doing this thing with it and it goes like you know, I'm like, I know what I thought we'd I was like, no, this is about the coca. I was like, no, I

did not. I didn't know that because the yes the only part I really know. It's got to be Likelina listen, which was give me more gas, which again that's why I thought it meant like me harder. Oh That's why I thought it. Man. We because we just Okay, so maybe they call Coke gas in Puerto Rico, I find out, because um right, Um, anyways, we're gonna get into our

vanilla ship. And I did find this little article that was sitting, but maybe we'll save it for a Patron episode because although we are discussing this a couple of weeks late, um, we all walked into the room and I felt like we all had our opinions on this Lizzo situation. Um and so if you guys saw a couple of weeks ago, Lizzo decided to go to a Lakers game with her whole ass out, and it caused

an uproar on social media. And I know that we are all here for women empowerment and all these things, but I think, um, we all maybe have different viewpoints about this. Um So, as a man, we'll start with our guests. Um, as a man, what are your thoughts on because you said John I was even talking about it in the group chat and man, what we're what we're What are the men thoughts, most of whom were

jokes and uh yeah, definitely RICKISSI jokes. So, I mean, I don't have anything negative to say about that with her doing that, mainly because I don't know. I like Little's personality so much. It's such a it's such an outgoing, confident personality, and I could tell that it stems from her being very you know, not secure with herself, you know, having so many doors closed on her because of her her her weight, and you know, being body shamed and

stuff like that. So when seeing her do something like that, I mean it's like she's living her best life if you just have a fucking live. I mean, I don't see anything wrong with it at all. What's wep And actually, if that's what she's gonna do, wander sent. I think her, from where she's come from and the growth that she's taken, she's earned the right to do that. And as long as she's wonder saying comfortable in her own skin, and

it's not just like something that she's portraying. If she truly fails, I love myself this much, I can do it alls necessary. I want to ask, because I found this to be a shitty excuse. Like I feel like people just threw it out because they didn't like her outfit. They were like, oh, but the kids, you have kids. I felt like kids, they've seen worse on the internet.

There's black bodies on the news every fucking day. Like, I really feel like the kid thinks bullshit, What do you think about if your kids were there with you? Which you cares? Uh? How your kids? Oh uh? Two and twelve? Because I think that was the issue too. She ended up on the Megatron and she turned around and started working, and clearly that's the problem of her whole back side out Um. So if you see that, that specific image ended up on the big screen. So

that's where it's like there were kids there. Um. So here's my thing. A lot of people brought up her size and the confidence and that My thing is that outfit will look good on nobody. It's just to me, it's in poor taste. Um. And to me, I think it's also you have you have all the success from truth hurts and all of your singles this year. To me, this is like attention seeking cloud chasing that I don't think she needs. Um. I don't. I don't. I personally

don't think it would have looked good on anybody size. UM. And then also something else that I thought was corny. She then posted a video to her Twitter and said, this is my inspiration, and her inspiration was Rihanna's met Gala gown, which clearly was all of the diamonds. It was completely see through. UM. And one of the points that I that I did see as well. UM. And there goes um Rihanna's working in her beautiful gown which was completely see through. However, we know that she wore

that on a red carpet. She didn't wear it to a basketball game. When it comes to basketball games, I don't even wear heels sometimes to them. So I do think it's also just there's a time and a place. It's fine show your ass, But I think there's a time in a place, and that was at the time. I think the main issue is that, UM, when the outfit was bad, don't find this cloud chasing at all. I think that when you're at a certain level like cloud chasing is a name dropping using other things to

cloud like you're using other things to race to the top. Um. I don't believe you can use your own body to cloud chase. I could believe you can maybe do something thirsty, but like, no, I don't think that was it lizzles on top serious and to me, I prefer to cloud as if like if if, Yes, you're you're not only name dropping and being around people um to elevate yourself, but also doing things like this to have people talk about you doing things with purpose. So that's something I

like a lot that people are bringing up. What if lady God God did this. I'm gonna be real again. We can agree to disagree. But no, I don't think this was cloud chasing. I think this was very like if you can do this, you don't give a fuck, right, This is a very I don't give a fuck type of attitude. Now, the problem with that is that I want to support people like this. I just don't support ugly clothes. That's something I don't. It's really bad, it's not I love to dress all the way fucking left.

I hate ship that looks like an Instagram, and I really love dressing all the way left, but that to me isn't left. It's just not done well. And I think that what sucks about that too is that a lot of people are saying, oh, you're fat shaming. There's a girl that I'm actually really really really want to have on here. Her name is Ashley Chubby Bunny um On I g I met her in person too. She's a dope chick. She's very pro fat girl. She loves using the word fat um. She always post big women.

She's dope as fuck, and she was saying that everybody's fat phobic. Who isn't working with this? And I would love to have a conversation with her about how No, the outfit was just taggy, like I feel like a skinny ass, it'd be like this what um. I don't like how people were like, oh, you know, she just didn't have the body for that. Absolutely not. I work out And then I'm gonna be honest about that. I

did not see that video working on the side. So what I've seen was we should walking backstagege Now what I'm saying that, I'm thinking it was definitely it was a I mean, it was distasteful to do that, but it's kind of comic. Now not think about it, because that's what kind of comical, because now it reminds me the way she's acting, it reminds me of that drunk hunt at the at your cookout and then she's, oh, I'm gonna drop it like it's young boys. Don't nothing

about this. You know. It's something you said though that I like you said. It comes to my place of beingsecured. I know that there's so many people online that shameless those bodies. She's posted a lot of stuff on her Instagram with like, um, not all the way, like showing anything but just her bare body, even her album cover, and people talking about how we don't want to see that stuff, and I kind of do like when big girls be like bit, that's what I don't agree with.

Like I follow her Instagram. I love her Instagram like I love her. I mean, these the pictures of her showing her body, I love it. I don't know if I secretly love big Girls. I might just I don't know, but I love her confidence that she showed on Instagram. But it's just that when everyone looks at the pictures, like no one wants to see that, blah blah, blah.

And then they had the video where she actually where she's uh, where she's um when she makes the comment about the one of the players when um, so she makes that comments and that kind of that kind of that that set me off. And then I started to see all the comments. Everyone was saying, oh, she you know, she cursed them, she took her shot, so he's missing all his shots. All the negli they were saying what

she said. So ultimately, when when I said, you know, let's definitely talk about Lizzle, I felt about that originally, and like everybody just completely just started a tagging. People are so scared to say that they find this sexy, I think so they are. Men and women are terrified to call this beautiful. They're terrified to acknowledge this body type.

It's a really fucking weird thing. I've never experienced being big, but I've had big girl friends and ship like that, and I don't know any of them that like, we're never getting from I mean, so it sucks. I talked

about it on UM we didn't. I talked about my my weight loss, but also just the body image episode on our Patreon, and that's the thing a lot of people would secretly like big girls, but don't want their friends to know or we'll shame big girls on the timeline, but then slide in my d MS talking about, oh, I just want to see if I can handle it, like like, so they do like the curves of women. Um. But for whatever reason, yeah, society has made it to where men are ashamed to admit that this is their

preference or that they actually do like big women. Um. And we received that as big women. So um yeah, I'm glad we were we were able to touch on this. I do want to bring up this other vanilla ship um, because God damn it. I want you all to guess the state. And y'all already know what I'm talking about. So this comes from Mirror dot co UK. It says Tory lives with three of her partners in Jacksonville, Florida, and is seven months pregnant with her first child, which

will be brought up by all of her lovers. Guess the state Florida. You already know. If it's against the state, it's Mother Florida News. So it's one of your old woman. Isn't a Polly Aversus relationship with four men? And it's pregnant and plans to raise the baby with all of her lovers as the daddy. Tori lives with three of her partners in Jacksonville, Florida, and despite being in an open relationship, she's the only one who has multiple partners.

Seven months ago, Tori found out that she was pregnant with the baby girl, who they will welcome into their unconventional family in Florida. She met one of her partners eighteen in high school and then got into a relationship with Travis two months ago. Their love story began three years ago, and she has since announced her engagement to Travis Um. She also found love in a long term mutual friend, Ethan and Christopher, who is the baby's father.

She said, Chris is the biological father. We just know that because of timing and when the approximate conception date was. There was like a video on Twitter is at the same one where they yeah, they posed together. She's in a picture that funny looking people. Listen, Um, I ain't go coming funny because it looks like, um, maybe not everything is there for all that baby's gonna come out gorgeous?

Is not work for God, thank you? Playing so the men said care everybody online dragging you dont get his babies beautiful, the men, curly man, you got it that they are raising the baby together and so everyone is the dad. Everyone is very, very excited to be raising a baby together. Did I ever tell you about the Russian Roulette thing? I said with my friends? This is so crazy, but this was also like drug talk. So two of them were black. Two them are why my

best boyfriends. Right, I've got Enoch, James, Christopher, and Vinnie. Um. They've all been on the podcast, probably except for e and Um. Yeah, we super close, tattooed on each other. It's weird codependent friendship, but I love it. And I don't remember what drug we were doing. It was probably molly. It feels like a Molly moment. But years ago we said, Okay, if we're all single in ten years and we all

don't have kids in ten years, I'll get pregnant. We'll do this thing when we take everybody's coming to jar and we'll Russian Roulette it and then I'll get a Turkey Easter and we'll figure out whose baby is going to be. There's a half chance that maybe we'll come out black, and a half chance maybe we'll come out white. Definitely, definitely. Anyway, we all agreed to do this ship right, We're like, oh my god, yes, we'll all have a piece of

each other. And Vinnie was like, oh my god, what if it looks like all of us, I'm like one the egg. So Christopher's gay ass was like, I mean not the vine is either. But I just remember he was like, I don't want to do it, but I'll do it. It It was so weird. I don't know who was on the mall even. Anyway. All I know is that was like seven years ago. I'm just gonna ask how long ago that was. So in three more years we're about to see this come from Maybe it wasn't

a seven years ago. Decisions are still going to three years sid And I really even when I woke up in the one, I haven't remembered it. And I was like, I mean, yeah, well raise it as a communal baby. To fund that have been for me is not copd coccol. Would you want to do a test to figure out who's who's like the actual father or would you just want to let and just figure that out there's that baby is mixed as fuck. I would want to know

just in case. Yo, mean, so Enoch's family is like super straight, like seventh Ad event is like they I don't even know if they know who fucking Beyonting is. That's how like for the culture, y'all got to do this on more right that we've never had sex. I've never had sex with any of us every day, but you go and base yourself, but there's coming what you mean this is a whole other step. I know, but I wasn't gonna okay any of them because we're like,

that's worse. Yeah, turkey basting is worse. What do you mean stand on top of you on your head and you just yo? Y'all never watched the L word. This is how lesbians have babies. Y'all have never seen turkey based so I've heard of it, but I thought like as soon as sperm like hits the hare, it dies. Well, okay, so normally you can you do this in a doctor's office, but but they have special official Are you gonna like

I thought, I thought we were doing this jar thing. Well, the chances are I'm probably not gonna do it anyway, goddamned, just in case, maybe feel like you do the tour pregnant. Really, let yo imagine the fucking tour promo picks. I'll be like Ali Wong of sex. They'd be like, Yo, who is it? I should stand up? He'd be like, what, who is it? How do you figure that out? You even gonna hold you? I refused to be one in bitches that just pop out with a belly and a

baby on the way with no man in sight. I'm not gonna be that bitch like you're gonna know who the baby daddy is? Y'all ain't gonna be in my comments asking who the baby y'all gonna know? Really, see, I don't know, y'all ain't gonna do much potential because I understand why people like don't want to if you're a personality, because it's just like, if you're gonna share your pregnancy, do you want to share the person you want to share a pictures of the baby? Like, I

don't know. I'm cool women who don't. I think it's okay to have that private part of it. Well, if you're if you're a personality and then you are, you just show up pregnant without you know, showing you know the father or whatever. All letting it be known. You're just opening the door for hope and speculations. But because an asshole is gonna assume you don't know your baby daddy,

not right. But I mean to me, I just I just don't want that out and like, but to me, I've also been kind of and even though I posted you know some guys on Instagram and I've seen the response and it's it's up in the air. I would hope that the person that I do don't get pregnant with. Um. It's already announced that that's my partner. UM. And it's crazy because the one of the guys that I'm talking to now, he does have two kids. So PhD has no kids. The new guy has kids. And I was like, oh, um,

I don't want any I'm like, do you want anymore? UM? He's like, well, I want twins, but if what the funk? I hate when people craft their baby. He did say yeah no. But when I was like, well, I don't know if I want any kids, He's like, well, if I'm with someone and they don't want kids, as long as they're open to more dogs because I like dogs, And I'm like, that's all I want is dogs. I'm fine with kidding dogs that did he fuck it? I't

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with us. Is diaper fetishism or diaper bondage um For those of you who don't know, diaper fetishism is a sexual fetish where an individual derives sexual pleasure from either wearing a diaper, seeing others were diapers, or both. Kink Ley Um, which is where I'm getting this information from, describes it as an association with infantilism and childlike fantasies. For some individuals, it is only the thought of wearing a diaper or the thought of someone else wearing a

diaper that causes sexual arousal. No, I could have said white people, but we're here with this is the reason why I'm here. I'm so glad. So yeah, guys, he's not white um. While for others it is the infant slash caretaker role play that simulates excite excitation For some individuals which I also want to ask where you lie in the spectrum, it is also um the act of urinating or defecating in a diaper that is the source

of arousal. Diaper fetishism can also be used within the context of b D s M, where the diaper is used as a source of humiliation. So now we're going to get into our whole decision where we have answers. Our guest today is into diaper bondage diaper fetishism and is also married to where he and his wife engaged in the act correct kind of we're making all way there, Okay, so let's just do what's we gotta know? When did you first put that pull up on? After pull up age?

First off, not a pull up? Okay, even think pamper and um, but I don't know, I don't be changing pampers. I would say, Uh, I think I was like probably eight nine years old, and I had like a my best friend lived next door. He had an older sister. Now I kind of thought about this like like a couple of weeks ago. I was like, holy shit, that's why you was from. And um, what she used to like to do is we used to kind of play house and she one time she actually wanted to put

the diaper on me. And yeah, yeah she was she was considerably a little bit older, and um, we did that one time though, so I never really thought about it. Again, I never really thought about it, but then kind of like years down the road, were you attracted to her at that time? Um? I think so a little bit. I think I had I had a little childhood. So your friend was the dad, she was the mom. What was no, actually actually my friend wasn't even around. It

was actually her. I was just like house, yeah, her and and and her friends. And years down the road said, years down the road. Um, I kinda I figured more. I I dabbled in the b D s M world, and I kind realized, I mean, I do like being submissive.

I like the sub role, and um so just I don't know, just like some somehow I was in a conversation with with a woman who was actually a dumb at the time, and this is probably like I'm like, uh my early twenties, mid twenties or so, and um, I just kind of conversating with her, conversating with her, trying to you know, she's she's talking about humiliating me and stuff like that, just you know, degradation part of it.

And I kind of weaseled that diaper thing into into her head and um and had her to the you know that she all right, you know what, put a diaper on right now, I'm gonna put a diaper on you. So she made it into the humiliation thing and that just love me crazy, just like I kind of wanted it and I just weaseled it in there and then when she made me do it. Um, I think that was like pretty much the beginning of it. But how would were you at this point when you realized you

were into B D S M and then engaging? How want get around about age? Okay, so you about you look twelve? You do look you do look lak out. So I guess my question is you realize this is something you're into. Did you in this dumb were you dating or was she just a sexual partner? And if so, how did that transform your sexual like like your sexuality

with with her? Whether Sorry, I know you'll be getting on us about asking a lot of questions and not letting them finish, So I'm going to try to were you and her in a relationship, so this was just a sex partner, At what point did you start introducing this into your relationships? All right? So into my my personal relationship. Yes, I've never introduced it into a personal relationship.

Why no, this is what I wanted to get to Okay, no, no, um no, I just wasn't in a serious relationship until like a couple of years later when I when I met my wife, And I feel like it's something that's so taboo that it does have to be someone you're more serious with as it like, because I feel like there's two sides to this coin. You know what it sounds like. You know you like it, but you know

what other people are looking at that. So are you like, Yo, I could do it with whoever because I don't give a funk, or I have to save it for a more sacred relationship because they'll respect me at that point. Well yeah, just like I think that's what any kink, any king pred No matter what it is, Um, it could be seen as as taboo or not normal. So what you definitely do want to do? Um, you want to It doesn't even have to be like I don't have to feel like it like that that that connection

of someone that you think is gonna be a life partner. Um, you more want to make sure that it's someone you know that you can trust or someone who's not judgmental. So um, that's more. That's more of it. Like I usually, I wanted to make sure that it's someone who's not judgmental, someone who's who knows me first, you know, before you know my kink. That's the problem that everyone asked about the kink first and then they make the inference of

who you are as a person. Absolutely, I mean we get we go through it every week, right, and like I said, I obviously this is what I do. King Shaman is it's all jokes to me because we know that like on the scale of quote unquote normal and vanilla, right, there are people out there that legitimately think they're choking

and spanking lives is kinky ship. But really it's like scratching the surface because I feel like when it comes to my kinks, um, they are things that I've been able to do with people who are specific and into that kink um. However, with people that I've talked more relationship things with, I've been willing to give up those

kinks to people who may not be into it. So just like you're trying to wean maybe your wife into accepting that, I it's been difficult for me with dating and like differentiating, but my kink lifestyle and my dating long term lifestyle. How do you explore your kink without your wife? Good question, well, good question. My kink is more or on on the diaper lover, like, you know, area of it. So it's liking to wear. Yeah, yeah, it

definitely is. So you got deal, all right? So you got you got adult babies and you have diaper lovers the okay, so you got some a dope babies, you got some diaper lovers. So you don't google gota No, okay, you don't want to be fed with a bottle. You don't wear bibs, you don't because that's more of the baby. Yes, that's more of Yeah, that's more of the regression. I'm not gonna say I don't want to because once again, I'm still exploring this. I've been a diaper lever for

quite some time. But from what I understood me, I like research. I love reading, so I like to understand, you know, how other people see it. So there was actually a paper written by a psychologist that actually explain that there is actually is a spectrum of it. You know, uh like adult babies on this side, you have diaper lovers on this into the spectrum what do you follow on that spectrum. I think I was more diaper lover, but I think always I've been in the middle. Is

there a baby talk going on? Um, because I've explained to us more so like just walk us through, like is it being put on you or do you have it on? Okay, so it's more all right. So if it's the age thing, more at age play, let's just make it clear. It's like role playing. UM in certain scenarios and maybe people who really regress psychologically, but in my in my situation, I would want it to be just strictly role play. So say with my with my with my wife, UM, I'll never you know, try to

coerce her into wanting it. I mean just letting her know her accept it. Um. She's really cool about it, and she kind of liked it, you know, it was cute to her. Um. But we never really did the whole regression because you know, I'm still new to it. I do want to try it. Um. She's new to it,

so she really doesn't know what to do. So saying that is actually so interesting because you said your thirty five that started at twenty four, and so for the people listening who may be exploring their kinks as well. For you to be a decade into knowing that this is your kink, but still researching it, still figuring out

where you lie. I think that that is that's so telling to the people who listen to the show and you know, may feel like, oh my god, I'm jumping into the deep end with this, but to know that you can't kind of do babysips and still research and read and go on message boards and figure out what it is about the king that you like, why it turns you on. And I guess so my question to you now is you like wearing the diapers, um, but

your wife is still figuring it out. So is that something that you do when she's not home or has she allowed you to reach out to maybe sex workers to engage in this kink? No? UM, definitely uh no

to the sex worker situation. However, However, like kind of earlier in the relationship or so, UM, it was times when I did reach out to UM to uh, I would say like dumb sex workers or so, but it's always it's been like UM, you know, text messages and honestly, I remember you guys had someone up here UM who was talking about being a sex worker, and she explained, you know, these girls are actually your dude sliding their d m s and they entertain them and these guys

that get off to it. So my wife heard that episode first, and I always told I told her that's why I did, because she found I don't even she described herself. Yeah, she goes by Marley mistress, but she definitely went into saying that she makes the guys pay because they do get off just by the conversation going back and forth, and she refuses to go back and forth, and I, you know, my wife she found she found it out that I was doing that, and it was kind of hard to explain that to listen, I don't

want to meet them, but yes, that's more true. The guys do get off to that. She does. She consider that cheating knowing that you were getting off with those exchanges. Well, but more more so because it was it was behind her back. Yeah, I found like ten different women were women like plus like, you're probably thinking, how is it that you don't want to suck them in real life? Exactly exactly, So I like trying to explain that to them, Like it's very it's very hard to explain something that's

that's off the beaten path from what people believe. So if you're calling them, you gotta want to suck them. That's what we want to believe, right that that's it's easier to understand that. But when they when you're trying to explain the psychologically, like listen, it's not that. But I really can't explain what I like about it. That's the hard part. And that's the part. I don't think more people can explain exactly what they like about it.

I do want to get back to specifically what happens in like a quote unquote session with you, Like, let's let's talk about that more so because I want to know if you just diis in the diaper or like have you repeated one? Yes? I have? Okay, So is there like clean up on the other persons? Um no, because my wife want yeah, like during our our because I feel like the cleanup is probably like the heart you like about it, like getting white, yes, getting white,

getting changed. There is something intimate about that, I mean, something very intimate about that. You were shipping one I have once before? Yes, Yeah, that's the story I want to hear about. Can we talk about how that session went, and like that was that session was just it was just me by myself experiencing you just want to try ye. I was like, so you your wife. I was like, she, she's okay with me wearing around her. She's okay with that, and like she always wants to know how how you know,

how can I be more involved with it? So I love that you if you were like, so do you like pull it to the side the fun want One memorable time that I loved and and and she loved it too, was that I was wearing it once and she um pulled up paintings aside and just rote and rubbed her pussy on the on the diaper and she she's got she got so fucking wet. Really such a

crazy turn on. And uh, recently, UM, like, like I said, she's trying to she's still trying to figure he's figuring out what turned her on and stuff like that, because I always wanted to push that, you know, no you masturbate. I always want to want to masturbate. And I had that guilt with it, you know, And UM, I mean thank you. Shout out to you guys. Definitely become telling you listening to your podcast for her has opened her up. So it's amazing. So, um, that's so dope. Yeah, then

here can you clean it? So one of her major um maroging zones is her titties, and UM, I don't think that I was able to really figure that out, I mean and really touch those points until recently. And um,

sucking her titties like she's super wet. She loved to her that that that makes So what I wanted to say is is that when I realized is that, hey, if there's something, if you have a kink or something and you want to get your partner involved, find out a way to make that connect to something that turns them on. Because me sucking sucking on her titties and and and if I'm wearing one, like she would say the little things and I'm me, I'm more of a like a verbal mental type of person, and she would

say things like, oh yeah, baby, take ye know theeds. Uh, the milk is all for you, baby, it's all forby. It's stuff like that, and it drives me crazy. About eight years and if she looks like this is well, she knew about the diapers probably like four years into our relationship. But like this now, like really trying to incorporate it in like too uh two years and she a black woman. I saw your you were like, oh, if you don't think I'm a real person, you tagged

your page. Yes, I remember looking through your page. I'm like this normal, asked nigga. They had a picture with their kids. It wasn't your kids, yeah, and like dressed up and I was like wow. And you know, it's great to see because so many people I know that are kinky that hit me up, like you just never get to see them in their normal life. And it's just so exhilarating to see you with your kids at

the school. And then you were your diaper ship because you don't have a diaper page, which is where you had us up from, and so you pose in the diaper. You don't show your face. Um, I don't think you have tattoos. So that so that helps. Now, are you looking for a kink community with that page? Or what? No?

Not really, um, not really, Honestly, it might sound weird, but I have that page more so for those who's not within the community, more so for anyone who's curious about, you know, kinks or so so just to I'm sure people are going to message you about it when you dropped the page name on Instagram and will put it in the description um for this episode as well. It's handsome underscore black underscore diaper lover. How many other black people have you met that are into this? A few?

A few, but you know you would kind of know that they're mean. How I mean, I don't know, you don't know because I didn't think it's yeah. But and it's crazy because I do most of my mont any like real, I haven't many masculine black guys white men. On the other hand, I've seen majority of any mean they have like pages with with their with their with their wives or speaking others who really have that that mommy baby roll um cool pages, cool pages to follow,

gives you some great ideas to understand. But um, that's I mainly see. You don't see too many masculine guys. But I'm the mask thing. I liked that you wrote that in You Know your d M. You mentioned the masculinity part of it. I really do believe that mask sub exist. It's just that as a masculine person, you have to like know that you're almost letting your guard down. A bit to do it, and it's just like, funck should I Like, I'm at a dude. Once I was

at a music festival. I don't remember where I was at, and when I told him what I did for a living, he was like spilling all this out to me super mask and was like, I was like, you should totally try it. There's so many women that would love to domb you Like, it's gonna be so fucking easy to find. And he was like yeah, but like then I have to reveal myself. Like I'll just go without it. I'm like,

she's telling me and he was mid thirties. I was like, you're never going to experience being stuck because you just don't want to ask for it. He was like, no, I won't, but it's not even asking. I think a lot of women, um, it's specifically so I I refer to myself as a dom and I think that a lot of women that are because if they're meeting masculine men, a lot of men are very masculine. Men are assertive,

they just take the dom position. And so as a woman who may not be as confident with being a dom or may you know regrets from dealing with a dom because they know that that's not what they want, they probably don't open up to it as much. But I would like. I'll say a lot of the men that I have either pegged or that i've dominated, I get turned on that they are masculine, you know, showing men. So not only are they really tall, they look like they can protect me. They're like and they just come

across as very super masculine. Nothing about them as feminine, and that's what turns me on with even dominating with you. They can let that guard down, but it does. It does take time to talk to a masculine man and let them know your skill the man and you're still the man um and we can switch. So I do switch, I'll let them know that they can still put the ship out of me and do their dom part. But I like to let them know like I'd love for you to be my sub and the guy that I

pissed on before. Um he used to actually love when we switched. When I was dominating him, he would like, I'm your little bit, right, so he liked he liked to actually be talked down to and be my stub. And then when we would switch, he'd be like you're my slut. Like honestly, like half of domming is talking. I think the majority of it definitely, which is why my most memorable experience I always talk about how he said nothing to me, Like the time I got dominated

the best. It was like no fucking words. It was crazy. Yeah, and that ship was nuts, like minimal words, but like normally it's just like a lot, just minimal verbit like he even at one point used his hand to tell me just to like sit and then like, I don't know.

I think when you like talking turns us on so much, but when you're able to feel energy without words like that in a room, you could yell at someone and curse them out all you want, but when you know you're angry and you could both sit there and Yeah. I think it's crazy though, because when I was younger, I actually used to hate instruction, direction, words did I make you come? Or niggas who talked too much, because I didn't think that it was supposed to be a

part of sex. But now as I'm comfortable with knowing what I want and saying that and also be the person to give direction, I enjoy getting feedback and hearing moans and and just hearing my lovers. So in terms of I guess wearing the diaper, you use it now during masturbation more so you would say correct, No, I wouldn't say that. I would say, uh, if I'm masturbating, I'm usually not wearing it. Maybe okay, most of the time, I would say that a little closer for you, I'm

usually not wearing it during masturbation. But when I, if I do wear it, it may lead up to masturbation, but you get aroused, you get hard in the diaper um sometimes sometimes How often do you engage in diaper play? Mm hmm once a week? Maybe. I do have a quick question now, just the brand of diapers matter? Because I did see this on your page. Yes, all right, so there are many different brands. Let me tell you a story about when I figured this out, right, you know,

I love it. This is uh So, when I first got into it, right, I always thought it was just like depends or you know, just regular. I thought it depends too. I thought that's it. But not only we we came in here and mentioned not saying loves. Oh yeah, talk more, but we mentioned not saying loves. We know Pampers is now brand the same way we appreciate clean X with cleanex with tissues. So this brand that you talk about is for adults? Are these are actually fetish diapers?

Right here? That's the baby ducks and let it out, get the comments, get them. So it's it's called if you go up, you see there's actually more and it's actually it's actually it's actually a big business. I mean it's it's the name brand of these for those of you who aren't watching us on YouTube is little for big, that's the name. There's tygables, there's uh rayers are eight. Yes, I did. Actually you brought a pamper with you? Oh

my god. He came with the props. I was gonna ask you if you are not wearing you know, I just hold on. I'm trying to find a comment that talks about wearing them for fetishism. This one is a little for big, Okay for big? This is a Dampers big. Yeah it is. Isn't it too big for you? It goes past your belly button? Okay, so it gotta be big. This is do they come into They come in different sizes. What size is this? This? This is a media biggest could she put it on? All right? Let me see

what is it? This is like just feels I'm putting the diaper on. Wait, don't stick it and in the elasticity. Oh no, he ain't gonna put Now it's been in your crush. I can use it. Yeah, I can stick. She about to sit in a camp for the rest of the show. Also, it doesn't even really so it's not I'm patting yours. Wait let me see this fucking plessy. So how do you how do you fill in it? I mean, clearly you're you're putting it on over pants, but marthus minute from my tity might maybe coming out. Um,

it feels puffy. Is that a part of what you like? The feeling of it? Do you see that people leave reviews talking about, um, the book sulkiness or the softness and for some people the like the sound to make the crinkliness you're gonna have like plastic back diapers and clothes back diapers and not coming to realize like I really love the plastic back more like as like a baby diaper work today And I didn't know where this was no idea, but now its heading out of nineteen

with a bank piste in it. Mm hmm, like okay, but you don't sit in the piss right what I'm wearing here? You take it off because as an adult you can. But as an adult, like I know that you can get diaper rash as a baby, yet no I haven't. You've never had gotten lucky. Okay, you've gotten lucky. Um So, I guess the things that um they definitely go for is the stretchiness of it. Um. I feel like if you're wearing your right now, it can't always be sexual? Is it not always? It's not always sexual.

That's that's another thing. It's not. It's not just a primarily a sexual king for me? Can you go to Little Squirts? Yes? This is Rears Okay, so Rares is another brand that we see. There is leak protection. I love. Um. For those of you who are interested in I was about to say, there's discrete delivery, so it shifts discreetly in plane and unmarked packaging to your doorstep. So for those of you who may be interested in ordering these, um,

your neighbors don't have to know that you're ordering adult diapers. Um. Can you go down to the comments? Um so I want so? Yeah, this person actually says the tape isn't that good in these? So I wanted to ask you. This person says, I really wanted to like these because the pattern is cute. So does the pattern affect your purchase of the diapers? And does does the pattern affect

your arousal while wearing them? Uh? It does affect my arousal, but it does affect my like my interest in getting them, Like I said, like, uh, I enjoyed. A lot of people are talking about the designs. The more yeah, the design of it, um, it does it makes me feel a little bit more vulnerable, I would say, so, like once again it plays into that domb sub dynamic and

you know, let the designs, let me model them. So the um the diaper that Wheezy has on right now has um, teddy Bears, bottles, Binkies, bunny rabbits, um and and actually would these not be considered feminine as well? With the pink colors? Are there do that differentiate between boy diapers and girl diapers? And some may, some may Uh So like the first ones I had on the list, we're blue, those same ones coming pink also, So yeah, they can differentiate. I mean, just like any other dob

dom sub dynamic. There are UM sissies as well. There are sissy babies that might be UH guys who want to identify with being UM the little female babies or so. So, I mean that's something. Also, do you have a name? Do you have a name? As in like a baby name? It makes you feel like, oh yeah, we are actually running out of times all I want to talk about right now. God violent a little happen now. I love

this UM. I think UM where you said you like to read and do research before we get into the homemail. Where can someone who's interested in UM this type of kink maybe do their research. Do you have any websites or books? UM? Not really books Yeah on UM on Amazon there's many books as many psychologists who actually UM who's in the field of psychology who's identified as an a deal UM like Rosalie Bent is one of them,

Like she's she has a very good one. UM. There's also just in case you know, if you have a partner who's who want to take that dom role and maybe incorporate diapers and the punishment. There's a book that was written this called A hundred and one Diaper Punishments that that that that I think that's a good one. Also, Um, a couple of different you know, I appreciate you so much because we uh, you know, we want to interview

more normal people. Ironically I'm calling you that civilians. But you know, you just don't really know if someone's going to have like a personality that's good enough, you know.

And we've had some like on and off experience with actually getting people who's kink is a certain thing, and I'm just really glad that you were able to describe it so well and just so you know, and and um just explaining what you like and knowing that I'm going to talk shit about it and still just being like, yep, I came up here and uh, we just want to come on the show before we just just a rap. Personally,

I'm I'm fans of you guys. I mean, I believe that there's no better being a creepy fan shockingly try not to be UM. And I feel like it would be best, especially for the black community, if I came on and spoke about it with you guys as supposed to you know, I mean don't want to for lack of the term right now, you know, a white pap podcasters. I mean they're used to that, but I wanna, you know, give this to our community to let um individuals know

that hey listen, especially especially women. I mean, get to know a guy first, even and just because they may be into a kink that may make you look at them a little bit less masculine or so um, it doesn't you know, dictate who they are as a person, you know, get to know them first. I think the other thing too, that will come from this it is not necessarily maybe too much diaper fetish, but men realizing that they have a subpart to them, you know, and

just knowing that they can pull that out. I mean, you are, how tall are you? That's it? You got a tall as presence on Yeah, you do. But I think that's that masculate energy. Yeah. But also with what you just said, I also appreciate you coming on as a black man UM, not only discussing your kink, but

also you have a black wife, UM. And I love the fact that what this podcast is doing and what we hope to do, is to have both black women and black men both open up more with knowing themselves, UM, specifically their sexuality and being able to share with each other without us, you know, shaming one another, because we already have everyone else that fucking talks down on us. Um, and I just love that within this community we can just uplift each other, not only in school, in education,

in our careers, but also in the bedrooms. Right now. I don't know if you guys know that I don't know something something Maybe you should do it, something like walk around the house. Some guys actually dig that. It does make me have to pee? Really, I swear with your pants. Maybe it's just like because I know it's all right. I mean, I feel like I gotta go to the bathroom, but I also like I probably just

have to pee already. Do you wear underwear with the diaper or just diaper and then just just diaper is with your cock out? And what then? Do you think this is? Do you think he's a fucking amateur? He rights once a week? Let me stop that year ship it lets it's the leap year. Didn't as well? Real quick, y'all. Um. This one is someone who wrote in and said that they're frustrated slash unable to have sex. No it's fine, Well we got it. No, someone's coming in. We let's

cut that part out. We don't need a homemal. I just said we're going to skip the home let's cut that out. We don't have time. Okay, oh wait, we do have to get out of three. I forgot my bad Okay. Well, um, well, we're not gonna make um. Oh yeah, let me know when you cut it out. Okay, So we're not gonna make homemail this week because we just had such a great ass conference question. It was before we do get out. It's okay, before we get out of here, go ahead and drop your Instagram name

one more time. It is handsome because I'm handsome, obviously underscore, but because I'm black, underscore diaper lever because I'm a diaper lover. Okay, um, and if you didn't know, you know, we're gonna put that information in um the description of this episode. Also, I want to wish all of you a very merre chrimas um hanakah. Whatever else is around to describe this holiday is bringing you back to your childhood. And I just want to say, why did you just

roll your eyes at me? Edding? Okay, now, I'll just I wants dot com check out this Patreon clip. Get in there. We got like fifty some episodes. My nigga back, so we have to get out of here in order to record in place of Mac Wilde's on the Guy's next Door. So here goes this week's homemail for the bonus episode, y'all. The title is frustrated and unable to have sex. Hey girl, Hey, I've recently discovered your podcasts

and I have to say I love it. From the discussions you have to the information you share and the guests you feature, you ladies are amazing and I'm thankful to have stumbled upon y'all. I am emailing and praying you will respond. I've been with my significant other for ten years. We live with my parents while we save for our home. California house prices are no joke. Like every couple, we started with wild, crazy sex that happened very frequently. Fast forward to today and we no longer

have that wild sex. He of course, has no issue with being ready to go at the drop of the hat and frequently has to ask for it. Oh sorry, y'all. I end up giving in, and I know for a fact it's just to have him to stop asking. It's not even what I would call sex. It's just me laying there not doing anything until he has finished. That reminds me of a handmade tale, which does not sound good. I feel terrible and frustrated. I'm continuously trying to figure

out what's wrong with me. I first thought it was me being Chewbacca, so I started getting Brazilian's monthly. Then I thought it was because of my mental health. But then I was put on medication and I'm no longer depressed. It's hard. I want to have sex, but there are times I just cannot, for the life of me, get into the right hand space. I truly want the crazy animal of six sex that we would have. I have noticed that when I get drunk enough to X and let my wall slowly go I have I can have

actual sex. For instance, we went to the brewery the other day, I had a couple of strong beers, and when we got home, I attacked him. It was the most intex intense sex we had in so long. I even had him take out the dial doough that has been hidden away in a drawer and we used it. I'm scared that even though he says it's fine, it's okay, he will end up being so bothered he will seek being sexually satisfied elsewhere I need advice. Would you be able to send me this episode that this is covered

in UM, and I would greatly appreciate anything. Sign frustrated and afraid. So the crazy part about this is is two things. UM. I have been going through a lot of anxiety and I've talked about that recently, and I know that it has affected my sex drive. Now, the thing about anxiety and depression is yes, you can get put on medication for it UM, and those are antidepressants. However,

ironically alcohol UM is a depressant. So it's odd that you are not only taking antidepressants, but you are also drinking and you feel that that's when you're able to have sex. I think that this is something, of course I'm gonna say UM should maybe be sought after with a therapist. But maybe also you guys can open be open to trying new things. Maybe whatever type of sex you have been having wasn't fun, or the animalistic sex

stopped and now you're just having real basic sex. Maybe you guys need to incorporate things into the bedroom that can excite you. UM. Also maybe just masturbating, becoming more sexual with yourself, watching porn um and getting in maybe a horny mood can work. UM, I would say try those things. I think that we do also put a lot of pressure on ourselves when we are dating someone to fulfill them sexually, even when we have needs that

aren't being met. And so in terms of you knowing that you're battling with your mental health and just you just aren't feeling like yourself lately, I think it's important to focus on why that is before you focus on pleasing someone else. So you saying that you're laying there and not even giving any sort of action back and you're just giving him your body until he finishes, can actually be um hurting you more in the long run. UM.

It could be affecting your mental health in another way. UM. And it can be also just affecting your self esteem with feeling like, damn, what's wrong with me? You wrote that in caps, So you do think that there's something wrong with you because you're not able to um fully please someone else. And I think that that's the problem. I think so many of us seek fulfillment and happiness

from others. We constantly need the affirmations of oh my god, you're beautiful or the desire of well, I got niggas that want to suck me, and I do think that that's a problem with us as women. I think we place our value on being able to please someone else and that's kind of trash. So my advice would be too kind of focus more on yourself, don't focus on pleasing him. Be very upfront and communicative with him on where your mental state is. Um, you not knowing what's wrong,

and if he loves you, he's going to see it through. Um. And I don't think he's going to necessarily seek sex or satisfaction and attention from another woman if he true he loves and desires you. Oh,