Ep 289: Seeking a Doppleganger

on stage? He's doing everything that clearly made it sowere. This motherfucker got a hell a lot of kids, with a hell of a lot of baby mama's. They probably got a good dick, honestly, like big dick. Niggas always like they always have like a little corny because God is fair, so there's always something kind of wrong with them. And in Genuine's case, it's like that's probably what you know, what's easy. And I'll tell you everybody, Hey, listen, baby a bitch can't dance, but I can't botus ads back

on some dick that's all that matter. I can fuck like. I can't dance, I can't really grind, can't really vibrate, but when the dick is inside me, I can see. It was crazy to was Trina actually said that I could like or No, it wasn't even treating that. She said she has been around with the dick still aside. But there's like someone else that says that she can't do it on a dick. Uh, right, what about it? I can do a lot on a dick. I just can't do a lot. We know you can't ride one.

I mean, I just choose bendy if you basically are now telling us all you can do is throw it back, and that's what the niggas like. I got some ads, I got some man's back there. Uh, speaking of I guess I wanted to start off with a little bit of catch up because we have a lot of a lot a lot of guests coming up. And so while you guys have been loving the solos, we have some

really really dope guests. We're in a fight, I mean, or it just means we both really don't have a sexual life right now or dating life or niggas is. So let's talk about someone else. Honestly, the guests that we're having lately though, everyone's just kind of coming in town right now. It's just like a time when I'm here for it. Sometimes there's weeks where it's like the guests are kind of whack, and then there's other times where I would never call a guest whack. Guys. Ever,

we've got a week guest. That's why I just looked at them like week. Fine. I mean, we weren't given we're supposed to be gay, that we could do that, we could do that. It's so crazy now because ever that I want Rolling Ray in this bitch, I will roll good. Do you watch her? Okay? So okay? Is this king of a wheel chair? So I'm not even gonna lie to you. This may be a really toxic question to ask. Do you think Rolling Ray is the

top or bottom? What? What could he be? I mean, I don't know if he has I guess bottoming, but I don't know how what functionality is. Also, I just want to make a note. We are not ablest homes. You know, we had not. I was about to roll that hell out of here when she started talking about how I couldn't suck date and We had a comment recently where someone said, I loved your blind guy episode and uh, you know both women that we had two women in a wheelchair not really a man, you know.

But we've also had um shorty that everyone loved. The white chick who was missing an arm, Dia die. It was I don't thinking her name was something else, d a y a no name. You know, we grew white women in together, but anyway was spicy. She was a top many getting all the disabled people. Where are you at, bitch? You said you weren't enables. I said, no, we are. I'm saying you need to fig you need to bring sex bit, you need to go outside in the sex club people. I bring in some sex workers. I bring

in the niggas that want to be pegged. I leaned more towards the black sex Slane. You bringing the others. You're bringing the other Mandyaga like I'm in the parking lot, just waiting on the handicapped spot, Like you want to be on the show. It's it's given. I remember you brought a cross dresser on that you came across on fucking one of them dating apps. You're like, yo, swipe this thing and said let me swipe right and see if he wants to come on the pod. You literally

and white man, white you, you look for everyone. I'd just be like, what nig I mean, I guess that's true. I do like, I don't know. I just want some weird ass guests. I um, I was just thinking of something. Oh if, by the way, if you're listening to this, and yes, I am joking about disabilities, and I want to joke in your face. I would love to interview someone that maybe has three with a policy or just

something that maybe is a hinder insturing sex. And I'd love for you to bring awareness talk about on the on the pod. Maybe someone with autism. I think I want to bring on to somebody that got that thing from like Douce Biggelow male Gigglo. No, not the tourette, the bitch that just she just fell asleep to where she had to have her hair tied to the thing. She would I want to know if like, what what do you do to a male ego? If he busting that ask and you just I want somebody who just

be falling asleep out of nowhere. That's what I won't do. Yeah, anyone with an Arcilepsi is listening or has made it through this part of the podcast, but but I really do want um what was I gonna say? Uh? What did you say before that? And Arcilepsi tourette Sophia with an ass Yall should check out her episode. She had a girl with tress on the show and it was recording at my studio and one of the girls, Yomie, wrote me and was like, Bro, this ship is real,

Like this is not a joke. This girl can't stop saying big black, Like you can't say and stop saying what did she say? It wasn't big black. I was thinking about the girl from the dentist. Remember he was like, I want to baby say on anesthesia. People whenever they have outbursts on medication, love talking about big black cocks because it's it's good and we all think about it often we do. But yeah, if you got tarette, hit me up, um unless we're gonna speaking a big black dick?

Have you like that? Guy? I know the last time I came in here, I was without, but now I'm within and I actually sucked the nigga that kissed a bitch um at the box. So I did talk about it on Patreon. It was amazing. It was really good. We sucked for two and a half hours. I was in pain. Um, he and I are going to be having sex after envisioned test. I think I'm taking him to company x X whatever. That okay, so fancy excited

on sucking him again. Y'all know I love a little artist niked Um And then so a few weeks ago, I was in New York for a Netflix from me here y'all. I'm sure everybody's seen it now you probably haven't seen to Get Intergalactic by kid Cutty. Holy shit, that was one of the best things I've seen. It's an animation. Kenya produced it, which was why I came here. Oh my god, it's so good. Mandy You if no one's ever done mushrooms, watch it and you'll know what

it feels like. It was phenomenal. So at the party, I I didn't have mixed business with pleasure. Oh I mean, I guess it wasn't business. I don't work with him. He was just there. But um, there was a guy that I've seen on some Zoom calls for work, and he was very cute in the flesh and you know, It was one of those moments where I was like, oh, you were out of the same city, but we're in

l a Whene, We're in New York. And then who knows a night at last, Lap turned into me basically telling him I haven't had sex in a while, and he said, uh, well, damn, how long has it been. I was like, seventy days probably, I don't know, Like I was just naming some ship off and he was like, well, do you want to talk about day seventy one and spoon at my hotel? And I was like, no, I'm good. So I was out again with my home girl. I'm looking at Gabby and I'm like, I think I'm gonna

go spoon with him. Like I think I'm gonna do it. She's like, but it's like four o'clock in the morning. Bro, I'm like, I think that's just what I want to do. That be loving utensils. Not you spoony, you'd be scissory, you'd be doing little. I go to his hotel, m I literally showed up and I was like, I'm gonna be honest with Shoo. I'm just showing up here for the bath products. Because this particular hotel has a great line of ship and he was like, that's cool. I'm

gon nigga too, so whatever. He had a road waiting for me and I was like, I'm really, like actually not ready for sex. And he was like, oh, if I wanted to have sex tonight, I wouldn't have told you that. I would have got some pussy. I was like, okay, which is facts, like he could sun wherever he wants. So we were in the bed talking for like three hours, cuddling. I really wanted to feel if it was big, but I thought if I felt it, then I was gonna fuck it. So I held on. I met some many

like I wasn't gonna suck him. I told him he wasn't working, And then it was big. I said, damn damn that that would like Jesus too. Once you have to like ladies p s A if you don't want to fuck a guy. And this is the first time of you guys meeting, this is the first time y'all hanging out. Don't even don't even play pockets, don't rub the dick, don't try to see if it's big or not. Just save that for another time, because once you see, God,

damn it that thing throbbing. I'm telling you you can't, so I made sure to like not go around it. So then we're in the bed for another like three hours in the morning, just talking ship and you know how he got put onto work and same and we're like, you didn't even try to feel for the morning, would know, however, And we were in the bed the whole time. He

didn't even stand up. I was like, fuck, I was in panties, he was in his boxers, and he kept telling me I was soft and I wanted to just grab it, but if I grabbed it, I knew I was gonna put it in my mouth, so I didn't. But literally, I'm leaving and I'm like, I'm leaving at one o'clock in the afternoon, bro, And I'm like, I've never cuddled with someone and not kissed them. And he

was like yeah. And then he's looking at me and I'm like, wait, y'all didn't kiss all night, no, or something like, so we just do it now, so y'all spoon. But there was no intimate like now, we were just talking too long. So then he looked at me and he's like okay, and I'm like, should we do it now, and then he started coming close to me. I'm like, no,

that was not that was awkward. So then we like tried to do it again, and he was a really good kisser, and I realized it was God, because bitch, if I would have kiss that nickea last, what you mean it was God? Can you not bring God into this? I really didn't want to have sex with someone that was kind of work adjacent. And again I don't work with him right, like, it's just like it is kind of the same world, like for real. So I was like,

this might be too close to home. But once I kiss that nigga, I'm gonna l I've been thinking about the whole time. And he's rich, but not like rich enough to be in the public eye rich, just low key rich, which is even better because now bitches might look at you and be like, oh, he has not a nice watching clothes, but like maybe he's nobody, and then all the money is for me, so you so he's now an option, and then you still have the

box guy. So now you have two guys that you're kind of I do and a girl and a girl remember the girl that grabbed me up at that party and factually, Oh okay, okay, godly I didn't say that, okay and her Yeah, So I am. I'm doing well And speaking of parties, as I go home this weekend to l A, there is a party that is super popping that I really want to go to, and I found out old they will be there. How do wait, wait, wait, how to funk? You know this nigga gonna be there?

If you blocked him, you don't talk to him? You he dead? Do you? You don't want nothing to do with him? How do you know he's going to be at a party next week because one of his boys told me, Hey, sending you this link to RSVP, would love to see you there. I just want you to know, boom booming, I'll be there, And I said I won't be r s v P. I said, well, I probably won't be an attending. But then I got on the scale this morning and I saw it was six pounds

down and my face is to giving que again. And I got a new little PIERCD thing, and now I got I had sex with someone else. I'm kind of feeling better. So now you're gonna go. Do you not think that that's gonna bring you into any type of like depression or anything. Well, I told him that I didn't think I was gonna go, and he goes, don't worry. The party's two floors, I said, Nick, I live in the city with nine million people, not be running and

running into people. So I don't know. I haven't decided yet, but I really I've been feeling great, and so I'm worried that if I see him, what if I'm drunk, What if I spit on him? What if I throw a water bottle like I wanted to? Who knows what will happen? Right? I mean, well, I'm in a place where I realized I've been looking for a doubleganger of

my ex. Black Jesus and I are just friends. Why because he got a lot going on and we just know we're just Also like we don't have the sexual compatibility, Like he doesn't have the sex drive as I do. But you want to hang out And I'd be like, Nick, do you think I just want to watch TV with you? What? No, I don't I want to do more so like but from a like creative standpoint, conversation us hanging he's dope,

a ship girl pass him on. Eventually, eventually eventually he met the whole goddamn savvy be pulling up like, so that's you'd have friends with him? We are friends, but he's one of those words, I'll be honest with you, he's one of those friends that on the right night, yeah,

well fuck. And so he's one of those friends that if I get into a relationship I would probably have to remove myself from him because even like, uh, we literally went out to dinner the other night and it was because he brought like a client to the studio. So he's even like love what you have, Like I have this person that wants to do something, so brought

his friend by the studio. We all want to eat after and literally in front, I was like, Yo, what's crazy is Like, y'all know, I don't be into the stars and moons, but in terms of like manifesting and talking about what I want, Um, yeah, we have the door o pig oh sorry it's flying going around. But literally told him to his face in front of his homeboy, I said, Yo, what's crazy is they got manifested you?

And I told him that to his face. I said, you the exact nigga I said I wanted, I said, I wanted a good looking, big old dick, a lot of money, cool, creative, but you got ship going on. You come with baggage and your sex drive isn't what I needed to be. Didn't say the extra part in front of his friend, but I said, you're emotionally just not available right now. And so I was just like, Damn. I realized how I have to be so much more precise with the things I want, because literally, I said, Nigga,

you were exactly what I said. I won't know you. You mentioned doppelganger for your ex. And it's interesting because there's someone I dated in the past that I was talking to, like that racky healer lady about and let's just say his name is Mark. I don't know. She was like, you need to stop thinking so much about having a man like Mark and start saying things like Mark or better, right, Like maybe he'll come back and

I'll be him, are better. She's like, he's not the best person you've ever dated, Like you will find someone that's better than that, and the world is just showing you that you're that much closer. Right, Your ex had many flaws. You've talked about them, right, and so do I though but but I realized that, and that's like over over the latter we're not talking about your flaws, we're not talking about with you, but I should acknowledge that we're not acknowledged. I'm not perfect, He's not perfect.

We're not talking He's exactly what I wanted. You don't need to say somebody, he's exactly what I wanted. Still to this day, I think that's a really actually shitty thing to do when someone's talking about things that you deserve better, Like you shouldn't be like, yeah, he did this to me, But I'm also no bro I and maybe that's something that I have to bring up in therapy. But to me, well, the fact that I'm looking for a doppel ganger, to me, I'm allowed to have something better.

But I'm realistic and knowing that not anyone is perfect. And in the ways that he wasn't perfect, it was something I was willing to I had patience with. And I mean I recently just talked about this on my other podcast too, but like I made a post on my Instagram talking about, like, what's the difference from dating in your twenties to dating in your thirties? And it was the conversation regarding the difference in patience and tolerance.

There's still things I won't tolerate, but I was patient in him understanding me because I'm different than than who he's dated in his past. And I also know him a lot. I travel a lot, I'm the life of the party. I'm loud, like when we've hung out. He knows I have a lot of male friends, so I'm introducing him to male friends men like Like, even when I was on on you know, Joe Bada Network and

Charlemagne's calling me, Joe was face timing me. I'm friends with NBA niggas just friends, and you know the ones I'm just friends with, Like for for anybody, there's a lot that I understand that a man has to kind of deal with and be okay with checking his ego. And I think that that's the problem. I realized how much like I have to deal with being coddling to almost men being jealous or insecurity, and it has more to do with them than me. But I'm I understand

that no man is gonna come perfect for me. But in the ways that he made me happy. When I say I want a doppelganger, that man made me so fucking happy, and I seek that again, and so maybe I do need to take a longer break, which is why I'm cool with Black Jesus not being what I need right now, and I'm just cool with taking more of a break, taking more of a break from that.

But also I think, and we'll get into it for the horrible decision and where I used to be able to come and be like, oh I gotta roster that ship is like not at all something I'm able to juggle right now that I'm able to balance. And I don't want multiple dicks right now. I do like one, but I don't also want a relationship. So it's like, I don't know, I understand, and I appreciate what you just said in me deserving more, but also he's so he's leaps and bounds beyond what I have gotten before.

I think it's more so just saying things like if you're talking about something you want, you don't need to say, well, yeah, I can have better, But I'm also I don't know, I you don't. You would never do that when talking about things you want in success, So why do you do it when it comes to you know what I mean? Because it's it's to me, it's actually the same as success. I can say that I want something and in terms of no, even manny, that's like saying you just opened

a podcast studio. Did you say I'm gonna open a podcast studio? But it's not like my podcast is that big or this this that, So maybe I shouldn't expect my studio to be that radio. Well know, but I don't look at it in terms of greatness, but I look at it in terms of Okay, say I want to start a new business. I know what I want out of it, but I also am not going into it thinking that there won't be leaps and hurdles, that everything will happen how I wanted to be. Like, I

have a team that's still growing. Some people aren't learning as quickly as I would want them to learn. Now, I could sit here and say I wanted this to be perfect. The idea of it going into being perfect isn't the case. I have a whole another podcast now based off of our podcast for the last six years. Did I go in wanting it to be a certain way? Absolutely? Is it everything I imagine? Not necessarily? And so to me knowing yes, I may want better than another partner.

I also am very very um sure of the things that he did bring to me, and also understanding even if someone else brings me those exact things, that person may not still be perfect in other ways. It's going to be perfect exactly. But there why I want. There maybe people in the world that you could date that

would be better than him. And the more you put him on a pedestal, the more you will lower, like the more you won't be happy, because comparison is truly the thiefs, you know, like when you compare yourself to others and for anyone listening, like whether it's work or a partner, or like maybe you're watching a friend that has something you don't truly like comparing yourself to that will really fuck your ship up, Like I have done it so many times in my life, whether it be

my body, whether it be my job, whether it be my salary, I'll compare ship and I'm like, there's someone that would die to have the things that I do. So we have to stop comparing in terms of something we had in the past. You need to start being reflective of And this was something my girl Emily told me. Actually, I really liked. She's like, when you're manifesting, stop thinking of the past and think of future. You think of

the future ship you will have. Because it's true, like a lot of times I will think about things I've seen before, like think of future ship that you will have. Don't necessarily think of things that you had before that you'll say you want again, because that's really when we funk ourselves up. And I know, like a lot of times, you know, if anyone's listening for a long time, I

get super stressy and depressing. But these are a lot of things I've written down to like keep my ship okay, and yeah this week I am okay, you know, like mental health and motherfucker. But I think it's because those little moments of my life, a little pocket of me having sex with someone new or being able to cuttle with a man, may not end up with these things. But also it just feels like, Okay, yeah, it can't happen. There's someone else. I mean, I am getting closer to

that thing. And I think that's what our partners are. Sometimes they're reminders of the things we could have. It's just showing us we're getting closer, you know, even too with work. When you have a next step in your career with something, it just shows you that much closer you are to the next greatest thing, like the thing that we're working on now. I went to Charlottegn'show yesterday and, um, by the way, anyone who wants to go see a live taping of a show, I think you're just going

to site. You sign yourself up. Please go. He wants an audience. Yea, so many of our our fans were there and like, it's really cool to watch a live taping. Um. I want to go see Maury while he's still all. I want to see how he ended up. I want to see the Jerry Judge show. I think Mari ended But Jerry's got the Court show. Jared Spranger, Yes, Jared Springer got a court show. He's a j I want

to go to Steve Harvey Court show. Oh, I know he'd be coming to them like but with his lips not like, But y'all gotta go because it's really cool. You get to sit in the audience, you'll see whatever big guests they have. But um, I signed to go because I was in New York and literally Kenya was the guest that week. And didn't expect that. Right, I'm so mad. I ain't go When fucking ray J was the guest man. Even though Charlot Maye not slick, he wrote the caption where he said there was so much

they couldn't talk about. And I ended up like running into people that work on the show at the Revolt summit and they cut it out and they was like, man, it was so much it we couldn't even talk about because the motherfucking Cardash, she's really got power. Bitch them them white girls got oh bit. Yeah, hi, um, well I say that to say. When I was walking out, um, a fan of Horrible Decisions said like, yo, like, do you ever look back and think how crazy it is that,

like you were just doing Brilliant Idiots. I found you on Brilliant Idiots. I was like, sometimes I look back and think of that. Yeah, and there's a lot of times where I don't realize what my life is. And she said, actually, we should definitely insert a bleep here. But she goes and imagine if like you and Mandy made like, imagine when that happens, that would be like the craziest thing, right, And I'm looking at this bitch like, holy sh it, we are doing that ship and it's

almost like each thing in your life. And I say this because I'm talking about partnership too. You can't believe you wasn't you were there five years like it feels like it was so far away. You know what I'm saying, would your would you five years ago believe that you were here today? And I really am trying to believe you thought a horrible session. Baby, We're gonna get there. We're gonna get there. No, no, I want to believe that.

I'm saying that will be like that with partnership, Like I would love to be sitting with you talking about how disgusting it was when my plus center came out because I had a baby, Like I can't imagine talking about that ship. Or are you saying that you've got a man and y'all have your Uh what did you say? You don't want to live together, but you kind of want to live No? No, no, you got your two apartments close by or he and the inn out house multiion.

We were all episode to eighty nine talk about that like that's just gonna happen. Alright, Well, I wanted to get into our vanilla ship because I wanted to make this a little funny here because bit you thought, um, so the vanilla ship. If you guys are tuning in and not familiar with what vanilla ship is, it is sex in the news um or somewhat aligned with that um and I wanted to bring up the fact that Peter has called for women to go on a sex

strike against men who eat meat. Peter Peter's German division claims devouring sausages and Schnitzel's is a symptom of toxic masculinity that is killing the planet. The nonprofit organization has urged women to go on a strike sex strike to be exact to quote unquote save the world. During an episode of Sky News Australia's news Day available stream on Flash, Laura Wyman Jones, marketing manager of Pete Australia, discussed the band.

The Peter Australia representative set it's organizations statement was designed to be a conversation, started before adding, we really don't care about your sex lives, of course, though they care about the world. What we do care about is the planet and the animals we share it with, and those animals are dying by the billions in the crudest ways

imaginable for burgers and sandwich filling. Now I've come on this podcast quite a bit, and I realized only because the way I just tore down some motherfucking smothered chicken with white rice, cabbage and corn bread. Baby, you're not bitch, TikTok. Now, I ain't gonna hold you. But my mom. Uh, my mom, though she is white, Um, learn how to cook from my Jamaican as daddy and all of my black family. And my mom still to this day makes the very best oxtail I've ever had in my life. Um, and

my mom is like a soul food cooker. She's she's a white woman, but she's a Southern white woman who dated nothing but black men. So she knows seasonings right. And so like what's crazy is what I got to actually cooking my mom. Like I used to ask my mom about her recipes, like what should be putting in this? Like her collar greens slap, And it's been harder. Southern food, southern homemade, southern period. I actually made me will be mad.

We know you make avocado toast. No, no, no no, I was gonna say, I put Southern cooking over island cooking for one main reason. Okay, bitch, I like, okay, okay, and this was my first time even like you gotta make the skin CHRISTI and a lot of people don't know how I don't really cook for our food, but put it like that. What's crazy is I also realized, and if y'all go back in the episodes, I dated somebody I think I called him. Wasn't vegan? Was it

vegan bay? Did I have a vegan Bay? Then Nikola took me to a vegan restaurant on day one and I was just like, not, you ordered nothing besides because we ended up going to Amy Roof and Bitch I had the like I like meat. Now I like dick, but I like meat. I like oxtail. I like the Muslim controversial beat like I had rabbit and Lucy and the other day TV people don't like I like that.

I like fucking octopus, hole like alligator. I like flog wah. Okay, what's that when they glow it's so basically it's Muslim goose, but they fatten it up. But also, y'all know, I like the food that apparently was just for the slaves. But I still funk with. Give me a motherfucking fried chicken gizzer with some hot sauce. Oh, I'll take it boiled too. Are you hidding me with some with some

mad at sup bitch? You got me sucked up. All I know is y'all got me funked up thinking I'm gonna go on a sex strike because the nigga eat meat. Nigga order the tomahawk and let me know you got that cat Peter ship. I'm gonna be honest. Peter Corny period, not Peter Corny. They are gonna are we gonna get canceled for that? I'm not getting canceled, bitch. It's a

black owned organizational. But the way I'm about to bust these furs out, baby, it's sixty degrees, we're getting cold, and I got the money about a real one of those people where I'm like, go all in my nigga, y'all be getting mad at all these people with the fur. Meanwhile, bitch, we're all rocking these designer bags, a lot of their CEO rs and what are those made up? Which is

giving cow as? That's what I heard. But we're walking around with cow as like a motherfucker, Um, I did want to get into instead of That's how I wore that shirt this morning. Did you you know free shirts? It's giving high and Low, it's giving free screening T shirt with the products um love Hilo. Yeah it's bitch. I were a fucking Margella top and some Amazon heels to that premier party. Ain't not the Amazon here, gret, it was Zebra. I was Fanny Beach. Oh, let me

tell you what happened to me? Because this she was embarrassing, not embarrassing. So I you know, I'm trying to be, you know, poised because I'm parting with my boss right And I am looking at kid Cutty and I'm like, am I gonna talk? Oh my god? I don't know what to say, but I'm so excited. What do I do? And um, I am talking to the producers for an a galactic and my home girl looks at me and her eyes look dilated, like she has to look like,

oh my god. And I was like, oh, ship, old Bay must be behind me, Like why else would you look like you're freaking out? Like what's going on behind me? No, she goes, because this is why I said I was looking real good i'most I'm a post to picture to yaka. See he goes your ponytails on the phone. Bit you line what your pony top fell out? Wait? Wait wait wait wait wait, Wandy, it was a long braided ponytail

down to my knees and the ship fell out. Bits, you're lying when I tell you what bobby pin and secured that, Bitch, when I tell you I did a curtsy like this, let me tell you how your whole ponytail was on the full. But this is how black women come together, ponytails on the floor. But people didn't notice, right because they're just looking at me in my face and I just kind of leaned down. It's easy your ponytail.

Bit's your braided ponytail. Girl Gabby came over to me and she goes trying to be quiet, but she's not quiet because she's also in shocked at my ponytails on the floor at this fucking Netflix premiere party where niggas is in the room with sucking oscars and Emmy's. And she goes, I have bobby pins in my back, but

she's trying to lie out. Bitch shout came over, so I first take the ponytail, and I just started wrapping it over the bun because I anyone looked like I had a little nub on my head and so then she is rubber band. I have the rubber band, and bitch, weren't people coming up to me talking about how they love the rated bun look not a braided bun like Oh my god. So anyway, that's why I have braids

again right now. Was getting my hair done right before horrible and I will never we're something that can slide off to a premiere ag Oh my good god. Which is crazy because when we fought, but you had to draw string ponytwel that's going around like that day was bossing around the club. But girl, you ain't win bulls and you wouldn't win the day you wouldn't, Bitch, I won, didn't win, I would win. Think we fought, bit you

got me all the way funked up. I want to day Mandy bus ass on anybody, bro And if you didn't bust ass at the month, how I think that. I think you've lost your floor because it's giving a court for you, but I'm not fighting for you. Will treat you about me? Funked up? If you think we're both gonna get sued. You could get all the yod in a lawsuit, but maybe I was gonna make this a horrible thing. I had to make the decision for them, for the fucking business, and it was to not allow

us to go bankrupt. If you wanted to go bankrupt because you wanted to jump in and fight, pose, that's on you, bitch. We could get sued and lose money. Now that's your mama, and I love her to death. I would have fought for your mama too, but but it was a word, and you decided to fight for a word. I would fight for a lot of words home, and I appreciate you. Tell somebody to call you down

the street. They wouldn't make you be there now, down the street where nobody is outside of Camera's venue, where we didn't pay your shirts for we was at work. Bitch. No, there's been a lot of coworkers where bitch, I wanted to slap five off that hole. And I ain't fighter because, bitch, my job, my career being sued and now we make money. Nigga, see what Smith signed. Excuse me if Chris Rock decided to sue him the same way, August. I've seen us

probably gonna suit Tory Lanes. I'm on the side of August. I've seena if Chris Rock suited Will Smith. I'm on the side of that. Some ask the money, that's fine, you don't believe that. Like, I'm gonna be real with you. There's a bit in my hair right now. It's staying. I'll be thinking about it all the time, and I'm like, how much would I pay to be their ass? And I'll let you know right now, dare one person in life that will make me go back to the livelihood

that I've had in my teens or twenties. Oh nob got out off off of that type of decision. So I'm not sorry. I mean, it's probably of New York City, you know what I'm saying. I feel like that court don't really know me. Orlando does. But I just feel like they're gonna put me in g P and I'm gonna get out. You got me funked up. I wasn't gonna fight, I wasn't gonna sit here. And because you know what, I am glad that we've both been to jail. Now it's fun, right, It's like you go it wasn't.

It wasn't. Actually I hated it. It's like love after Locknow Nope, I'll never go to jail again. I will say shout out to uh, don't don't never say never been. Well. I'm just gonna shout out to the Queen's Division that I was locked up in because the lieutenant there was really really fucking nice to stay talking about this. He was nice that gave me his phone. I was able to call Nigga's like he was like, she looked normal. I was normal. It's not given man, I was normal.

You know. It's crazy too, because they lock up motherfucker's I heard. That's the only reason mushrooms is legal now is because like it spends so much money to put people. They spend so much to put people in jail. So I think when people come in and they're not cracked out, they're like, all right, well, but didn't you spend the night or a weekend. I won't spend seven hours, So you're more of you're more of a fella. That's why I ain't scared to go back now that I've already

liked for being ass, I ain't gonna hold you. I want to turn into a home spunk the night. Nope, Nope, I wasn't ready. I say, give me out of the air. So here's the thing. I knew I was gonna get out, right, It's not like I killed you spend the weekend, But this is what I'm saying, Like I got Mandy when I tell you, I slept so hard to get you. Slept hard of concrete because there was nothing else to do, need to socialize. So I just slept the whole time

because I was like, fucking bro, I'm getting out on Monday. Monday. I couldn't get out because it was it was the weekend, but I knew else it it out anyway, So I just caught up on mad sleep. Yes, I was on the bolly the night before, so I really needed that sleep. What's crazy, though, is I would never do that. But also now you're like super super gay. You're more gay than I think you used to be, so you might actually like jail because you're just being there like scissor

and bitches. You know what's really annoying about You're saying how gay I am? I looked I looked so cute at this party, right, and they're like, that was mad niggas there and so ken you just talking to this dude and I leaned over and I'm like, who is that? He looks at me to go, are you gay? Who was it this? I don't know, some fucking nigga. It was that she was supposed to know. No, but he was just fine. But if you like niggas, you should

have known who he was. No. I think I just wanted to run down on this nigga, you know what I'm saying. But like, at the same time, I was like, I want to be professional, but also i'd be trying. Mandy. Let me tell you how, how do you want to be a professional when you out here? Because I wounded niggas that you beat at work events because it wasn't like I worked with him. It was just adjacently he worked with somebody. I know. Okay, what I'm saying, I thought.

My excuse at any point in time when I want to meet a nigga at a work of it is hey, I'm wheezy. I worked with Kenya directly, I miss head of audio. I'd love to talk to you about Blover Zoom or my bed. Oh no, but you better sit here and act like you got a corporate credit card and say over dinner on me business. I got a corporate cit I found out I was able to do that. I taught to nobody else. Zoom, nigga, let's go out to eat and I'll show you how I eat well.

Weird meats my new conquest. So you know, I want your Vante roads And every time you he's only five four, No, he's not. Trevante is not that. That's a short nigger. Don't ruin this. I will look it up for you. I think we've talked about this. No, here's five eleven. He is not. No, man, I've seen him in person. It's giving uh nba height. Hold on, No, they like they said six ft so he's maybe six eight. No, No, he's gonna he's got he's gonna he's six. He's not.

He's six. He's when I saw his dick, you're gonna be so mad about it. Well, hopefully his dick is a kickstand and makes them taller than when he stands out. He's six feet tall. He's giving bige, which is a little sean. It's a lie. So that's why I said, hopefully Trevante is the same with a whole kickstand that makes them taller. I just want him to put on the moonlight. But also technically, maybe y'all are the same height laying down, you know, and it works out for you. Um.

I wanted to get into her. Think I cuddled it with five eleven and I remember saying to him, I love that you're going short and short, and I thought he was tall and he was like, no, A lot of people think that. And then I realized, I don't want to say what he was wearing. But anyway, the nigga. You know when niggas wearing tims and they looked taller. Yeah, that's why you gotta be careful in New York, y'all, he falls approaching us, don't get don't get tricked into

these niggles with the tims. It's given three inches. Did you knows was five three? Prince was also a homophobe that was gayer than gay. So I'm not shocked by anything that I see about Prince now and r I p to that man. But the way I didn't realize how homophobic he was realized, like I just read a lot of things about like just how he was super adamant that he wasn't but certain things that he said regarding the l g B t Q community was just not nice. But also nigga, you were makeup purses and

everything that also aligned. I'm well, maybe we'll do this on Patreon. I'll go through like the people that say there was one way Patreon on homophobics, So let's do it. Let's do it. Because he was one um I did want to get though into r I P. I didn't. You gotta be respectful, bitch. I'll be trying to talk about the people that were the loss. You know, we've been talking about Kevin Samuels. We don't know what he's looking up at us. He's looking down on us. You

think he's in Hell. The way he dressed was nice. I think God would have been like, pretty your cool, dressed as up hill because this just go bird and have holes in Hell? All right, all right? His actually his clothes would be giving uh eeasy, you know, easy, like just putting holes and making it look homeless. So in Hell, they dressed like Kanye all right, y'all, Hey,

that's why he's practicing being hot. It is, oh wait what because you see he's practising me away dressing hot ward because he said that he don't even funk with the temperatures. He's he's going to hell. Um, why's Kanye doing to hell? Because he's going to hell? No, bro, Kanye, where do you think he's going to heaven? Yeah? I think ye is from I would love for you to ask his good music artists where they think he's going. Wait, he's bad deals, but this is not that. Let's get

him to our horror, lad, this is y'all. Um, we are going to do a look back, look bad at it, look bad at it, look bad at it. Hey, So we're gonna look back again, y'all. We have reached Oh my goodness, we're heading into I believe year seven. We've done six years though. Um we're jamming out here on the Black Effect. But if you guys, we're not familiar. Year one we were independent. By year two we had the backing of Charlemagne and the Loudspeaker Network. Um, we

put ourselves on tour. And it's crazy because someone just recently wrote on Twitter that's where this topic came from. Damn, y'all short, it really came far from accounting. I used to listen and you know she was accounting, so I was like, you know what, what's crazy about that is we thn I have sat on the pod and there's been things that we both shot at each other without realizing that. Well, we've both also grown, we've become differently,

We've have did different relationships. So I wanted I broke this down into four different things. But by the way, shout out the black Effect. We just gotta fucking raise yes, God damn it. Ever happy round of applause. I don't know, Dwayne, go ahead and start the round of applause here. I'm down, thank you, thank you, black shout out Black shout out Charlotte magnate because I just bought any car and I cannot wait. But also, um, if you guys didn't see

the clip a couple of weeks ago. Also, I mean people ask, you know, like maybe if we went elsewhere, if I mean, other people have wanted us, but Charlemagne has been someone who has championed us for where he sees our value, where he sees we can be. And we recently even got mentioned we were on it, but not really. We were on Jimmy Kim. We were on Jimmy Kim. I wannna tell you right now, Charlot Mayne text me that ship. He said click at three minutes and uh, the second I heard him go, you're really

busy you have a podcast network. I said, no way he's gonna say, and he's that horrible decision, and I think, ink, you know, I've I've definitely had comments on my page or whatever. We're like, people are like, yeah, talking and you love him so much, and you know, there's a lot to be said about somebody who is that magnitude of famous and don't forget you, you know, any encounter I'm sure people have ever gotten to have with Charlotte Magne, Like you see how normal this person is and how

kind they are. But also he is a true testament of someone that puts people on. Like going to this show yesterday, I'm watching Ismael who you know as a photographer Callis and Nila Simone who shout out to her, you know, be te nominator for the Hip Hop Awards, and seeing all these women that have worked with him

in the past. A lot of black women on the ship show down to the COVID testers, right, and it's a lot of people that used to work with other Breakfast Up or We're interns or just came by and like, that's a real, real fucking leader and you I, Um, I just love seeing that ship and he really has inspired me when when when people tell me I'm a good boss, it's crazy because I really do think one I've learned from bad bosses, but two I've learned from Charlemagne,

Like he told me once. Um, I watched Brianna talk about me on this interview and I don't really feel like I did anything for Brianda, but she feels like I did right. And he was like saying to me, like, you know the way that you feel about me and what I've done for you, you need to make more wheezies, build people up. That's a legacy, you know what I'm saying, Make more of you and build people to the point

where they couldn't have been without you. And it's funny because sometimes you would think that maybe what is just horrible decision doesn't have reached But I think of someone like Dash the rope dude, and hearing him talk about how horrible decisions got him so many clients, or Mistress Marley using her name as featured on and it's a real thing. There's a marvelous, like the way we've we've catapulted I mean people in in in this sex space. I think it's also very telling to steal um going

up to people and and hearing how we've transformed their relationships. UM. I actually did. When I went out to Vegas, UM hung with the dancer. UM hold on, I want to get her name because cats no, she dances currently for us here for that. So her name is YOEI. And what was amazing about my interaction with her was I got to meet her partner. I want to say, fiance. They're about to get married or maybe they are married already.

And her partner pulled me aside and was like, I just want you to know I hear your voice all the time and you really make her happy. You like you're someone who's impacted her. She listens to you, and can I just say thank you for doing that for her? Like literally her her girl pulled me aside and said that. So I don't think we realized either, like our impact not only on the sex workers that we bring on the pod, the other podcasters we brought on UM And

it's kind of a full circle moment. And in talking about full circle moment again even bringing up you being a boss. I wanted to ask you. I wanted to start. We have four shifts, um, and I'm gonna try to make it to homemail, but we have four shifts that I wanted to talk about. I wanted to know in a career shift, Um, is there anything now? Is there anything that you do now that is similar to your job in tech? And all answer to the same in accounting? Oh man, I'm a seller to the core bro like

so with w TF. Now we're seasoned enough. It's coming two years where like I used to do tours on my own and stuff like that. But Um, Alex gave me a compliment. Recently, we were on the phone with this big company and I'm not gonna lie. I didn't know a lot of the things they're asking me. Um, they want to basically do this contract for a year

where this podcast is strictly out of our studio. And he started talking about stuff, UM, and he was like, now with your team handle that development and show running. I was like, as I said, we're production studio right like post and post production mainly, but we'll hire on your pre production team and absolutely bring candidates for you to interview. So when we hung up, I was like, who do they on interview? I was like, I don't know, nigga, I'm about to figure it out. Then they just said

they want to show runner. I'm not gonna let them leave and start hitting up other people for a show runner. I'm gonna use my connects, bought a bunch of black show runners and then have them interview with these people. And I sell a lot when it comes to um, you know, two writers or pitching shows or having them work with Collaboo, which is Kenny's company. And I don't think any of that would be something I could do

today if I wasn't selling fucking tech ship. I mean, for those of you who are new listeners, I would sell um like disaster recovery software. So if a company you can even say Full Court Studios, right, hey, you guys have a lot of podcasts, come in here and you have a bunch of audio files. What happens if you're puter crashes? We have a cloud recovery software that like that. And I was sell the funk out of them.

I was walking into barbershops selling that ship, you know, and it's it's a very humbling thing like I've never been a waitress, which I feel like everyone needs under their belts to like understand how to work with people. But I have. I have worked in the mall, and I think like knowing those jobs that are kind of from the bottom up really do help you and shape you to be a good person when having employees, I realized now with with my team, um my need for organization, structure,

Excel sheets, making everything um just easy. Like I realized how much I enjoy processes. I realized how much I enjoy Hey, let me create a system that works and let me implement it into different things. So exactly how I formatted and set up like horrible on the back end. I brought that over to see the thing is. And now I'm working on creating a manual to bringing it to more shows and networks and production houses. And I

think that you know where it's not fun. Excel sheets aren't fun for everybody, and processes and management and you know, D I T and none of that is fun. But like knowing how to label files and all of those things, I found like a lot of excitement in that where I was at one point like which I don't want to be, you know, I I gotta say. I was thinking of something the other day, UM that really made me feel proud because I was talking to someone in

l A who said, you know, that's wild. Your co host has a podcast studio, like, and I was like, yeah, I feel you. I was like, but you know, I gotta be real with you, like I don't really have a co host that's not doing ship, you know what I'm saying, Like there's a lot of podcasts out here that have one person that's doing really well and excelling and the others just kind of floating and absolutely a

lot dual yep. I think there's a lot of podcasts where either they're they're just just doing their podcast so they haven't grown. And I was like, you know, like, m there's not really I said, if if I would see something come up where she was maybe maybe she got another TV shot, she's doing a movie, like, it

wouldn't be a shocker to me. I don't think it would be for her either, right if you saw me doing something like that, was like, these are just kind of the winds I'm used to getting with the co host on horror decisions like that, Like I'm getting a bag, She's getting bag, and I don't know many podcasts where their partner is also doing something outside of them, you know, And for a while with Horrible we were doing that.

I think you and I both felt that, probably like right in the middle, like you're three, like Okay, I need to have something for myself. And I think it was a point where I remember we were doing therapy a lot. It's like, am I breaking away or am

I just learning my own self? And there's a real thing of like needing to come into your own because sometimes it is annoying for someone to look at me and be like, oh, Mandy, And it's annoying because I'm like, I wish I did something else that people could know me for, you know, I would love my own identity, even though horrible decision is the biggest thing I do.

Still it's nice to know that, Like there are other things coming back to point A. I had a a comment recently, which to me is isn't a common comment, but someone said, oh my god, I'm so happy I watched sex Cells because I found horrible decisions. And I was like, oh, this is it, Like there is a reason that I'm connecting other dots because it only makes the other ship bigger and it only gets more money

on both ends. Right, if you're not growing and going out there and doing things, what if I was the only one? What if you were the only one? You're like, damn bitch, well where the fun? What are you doing to fucking get money in the show? Because for a while when we started the show, I remember you used to say like I brought listeners because I had X y Z and it would make me feel like ship because I'm like nigga, I'm also talent, Like people are staying because I'm here right, And it made me feel

like maybe Mandy feels like I'm nothing. But I know that there's no way in hell that could happen today because we both are really out here working. We have not just let horrible decisions be the only thing. And I think that is the biggest thing that I've taken away from our show, that, um, maybe other podcasters haven't reached yet. Maybe maybe other people and do what as our partnerships or YouTube creators haven't able to figure out yet learning how to actually branch right, that's a real

real skill, right. Uh yeah, I want to bring it back to six um, you to do that say, agreeing kink shifts. You do that a lot, but I'd be like, right, okay, but we both went back and forth. I'll let you finish your thought. Didn't cut you off, and now let's move on the conversation. Um, kink shifts. What were you completely against in the beginning of this podcast that you now partake it? Not p you are you? You just

said peace? So you are here giving golden showers? No, I mean I know for me it was it was it was beat. I can't fig of something. Can you just such and tell the other? Can you think of anything I've ever said that I'd never do. You're a home You've been home since they want sex club, never really been into it, kind of want the sex cells before I did with white people. Were you having sex in them? Like? I've never really okay, I've never really. I still can't do it. Okay. I like public sex.

You like public sex and alleys on the street, out in public where you want. You always say that you brought that up in the alley if it's Italian, yes, so it's a street. I don't know how you say it. It's an all. I don't y'all, I don't know accents all right, Um, relationship ships? Which X do you wish you never entertained that you brought up on the pod? And which X did you learn? Who did I learn the most from? I learn? Who did you learn the most from? And who do you wish you never entertained?

I wish I never met Obey? Well, damn you hate that nigga. Um all right, I think that he caught He wasted a lot of my good years. O. That's a whole another conversation to have on another pot. Okay, I thought fucking him was great. We'll talk about that on another Potum. Yeah, he wasted my time. Um. Also I think you took anything positive from that relationship? Sure, I learned partnership. I learned a lot about myself. I learned I'll be a great wife. Okay, Um, I learned that.

But did you know that before that really ruined my idea of three stoms bro No, I didn't know how good of you? Okay, you know what I mean. He's like, there's positive things you took from it, then maybe you wouldn't have known it wasting three and a half years okay um. But also that's a lot to blame on me, I should have left Anyo a while ago. But the person I mostly learned the moment hospital Dick is probably the only guy in my life that loved me so

much that I I don't know how to receive it. Yeah, okay, I also think that I let money and success get in the way of that. I think, yeah, you it. I think you didn't want to let everybody know he was broke. I don't know if he was broke, he could take care of things, he had his own cred like, but it was more like he wasn't at the level

of that other men. I was entertaining right right, And I think I would have been happier with him than Obey, like I wouldn't because he met Obe like almost right after. I would have saved so much fucking money in therapy and like all kinds of ship. But also I think it was just the universe's way of saying saying, like, oh, here, you picked that because shiny and look what you gave up. I don't know if I'll ever han me and love

me like that again. I hope I do, right. I think that he taught me the most about love um for me, I wish I never entertained or spent as much time as I did with Lawyer Bay because he didn't. It was like he was he was He was like my first year of college, he was at least that year, and then he was someone I just kept going back. I know what he looks like. Where does that make it today? I don't know. But the last time we met each other, and I think I brought up on

here like he was battling depression, alcoholism. He liked just wasn't a happy person, and so he was in a place where he couldn't be happy for me. And it was just a lot of energy I was exerting on wanting to be there for him and so but I also think he was the person that when I got into school to be an accountant, he was in his last year of school to be a lawyer. So I think I looked too much on what we looked like on paper, that which is why I kept going back

to him. So Lawyer Bay was someone that I wish I kind of didn't entertain. UM. And of course the person that I learned the most from was my ex, my most recent, my first relationship. UM. He he showed me that I know I could be a good wife. I could be a good partner, I could listen, I could be submissive, which I didn't think I had the case. Oh, neither did Crystal. Neither did any of my friends until

they saw me with him, like maybe you being soft. No, they've even said said like, bitch, he don't know how good he got because all the ship you give him, they'd be like, bitch, if I was as busy as you, there's no way I would give do all the things that you do for this man. And I don't think he saw it. He also did doesn't know he met me in a pandemic. So I was like, Ny said something I said, you don't even know how nasty and me and a bitch is, because bitch, I'm I don't

give a funk about these name. You think there's anything when the quote unquote world opened that you stopped doing Did he ever tell you stopped now? I didn't stop doing anything. I just got busier. And one of the things that was really good. But what one of the things that like made me feel away is that he he used me being tired and exhausted as a way to put me down, Like for a for a while, I stopped what mean like for a while, I stopped cooking,

but I was still ordered the food. If you wanted a meal, instead of making you take me out, I would order the food. I always fed you, always fed you, always sucked you, and period, you're getting fed and you getting fucked nigga, not fineced, not financed, um, but fed and fox. And it started being to wear like, oh, you're too tired, are you too exhausted or he hated

that I would even say how exhausted I was. And it was just like think I worked, NI got own businesses and Niga, I managed teams and so he started making me almost feel bad that I was a boss. And what what hurt me about that was it's one of my most prideful things, like Jay, and I hate

that I always shot this bitch out. Jay takes on the pride of everything that I do in the studio and see the thing is and anything that I want to do as a talent, Like it's hurt and so like to even have people that I want to work hard and want me to grow mean something to me. So when the one person that I love makes me feel like I'm working too hard, like it made me feel like, how are you making me feel bad about one of the things that I'm most proud of That

was actually the craziest thing about hospital. Dick Keith seemingly had an issue with sex. Mind you, this is how he knew me, right, he's a brilliant listener. But he told me once when I was creating sex cells, and I was like, yo, I'm not going to interview people about their sex lives, just money and he was like yeah, but you know, we wanted to have kids and he was like, but like, how quick is this gonna be done? Because my contract was saying certain things and he was like, well,

how soon are you gonna be finished? Like you can't be doing this pregnant. I'm like, what you like, but I don't want to go to a dungeon holding my back sitting down, like, well, tell me about cream pies because I know, like I do think that sometimes men may look at it as something amazing until it inconveniences out and the inconvenienced your the thing. Maybe I could go one round tonight, but not eight. But you know what,

they also don't understand. I'm tired today because this is me today, nigga, because at the same time in five years from for example, how much work were we were doing with horrible decisions? Bro That Patreon merch was probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I remember I used to ship it myself. Like I used to put the T shirts in the bag right, the fucking names on the labels. I used to do that ship before we got tea spring. I used to

house the ship. You used to house the ship. I used to go to storage mail it like that is now offloaded because why we're making more money, nigga, I'm going to have less fucking ship to fucking do hands on when I have more money, So like, let me build these blocks. And I don't think that men really get it. But also the considerates, but being considering the fact that I'm still cooking for you, I'm making sure

there's time. I'm moving around my schedule so that we can have a day at the park or a day at the spot or this. And so to feel like you mad or disappointed or disconnected with me because I'm tired, not work fucking hard, and so to me, that was that was that was the biggest thing about last thing, last thing before we get out of here is sex shifts only because we've talked about being lgbt Q, we've talked about being ethically non monogamous. What have you learned

most about your sexuality through the Horrible Decisions journey? I was an email hole day one and I still am. That hasn't changed. Um, But you said something about you have a new thought process for threeesoms. Now, I h you're saying I said this today. You just said this about what you what you learned about thoms? Right like, but you really like three SOMs? You really like? And still what changed about that? Because that's still a part

to me of sexuality. I learned that maybe I was so excited to have a sexually good partner that it made me want to fund other people with them. And what I was saying, what I learned with right this we're good people. O scissors for the world taught me that I was so strong with her, so in love with her. I definitely had three SOMs with the old Bay before I was in love with him. Right. I don't know if I'll ever again have threesomes with someone, and I can't say never say never. I don't know

if I will. But before that foundation is super solid because with Old Bay, I didn't understand that we'd be together. I was like, oh, let's just suck these ouds, and then we ended up together with scissors. We had a seriously deep connection to where the threesomes meant something better. Also, like the three SOMs I had with Old Bay were with fans and ran ambitions, and I mean, are you

gonna keep working? Like we almost had sex with one of my home girls at the time that didn't happen, but like even then, like I was close to her at the time, close to him, so that didn't feel weird, but like or or hanging out with them didn't feel weird. But um, that's the only time I think, really something felt safe. I think that that h in terms of safeness. I think where I questioned what I needed for so long, sex clubs allowing allowing me to be with women not

only with you, but separately. I realized how much I really like and y'all heard it last week on our on our episode with Elios podcast. But it is to me important that whoever I'm with is okay with the nonmonogamy of sex clubs, the nonmonogamy aspect of me bringing women in but also allowing me to be with other women, and if that then translates to you having to be with other women, we need to have a conversation about it, because I realized I don't want to be open. I

don't want you to be emotionally connected to somebody. But I think in the beginning phase of this podcast, I didn't know what I wanted as far as the relationship and where I brought up doppel Ganger in the beginning. What I had sexually and intimately is my ex is exactly what I would still want again, more communication, of course, that are better. That are better to where he accepts that I accept him, And I've said I think that

that was our biggest thing. I think he had to live a life of lives with the other women he dealt with, which is maybe why he cheated, maybe which is why he stepped out, which is which is maybe why he ventured on these rabbit holes of escapades with random women. And we've talked about that, but I don't think he fully accepted that I accepted him for who he was, And so to me, I want someone to be open with what do you want NICK give you? Bisexual?

What's up. What do you need to where you're fulfilled? Unfulfilled, but we're open with each other. I need that and I think that I don't get there without this podcast. I don't get there without us coming on talking about our relationships, naming all these niggas what they are, being vulnerable, talking about our highs and our lows with men and women. I don't think I get there, And now I know exactly what I had in that space because what I want again, and that's why I can't date no celebrity.

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then once a month, which is amazing. Um, if you're one of our top tier, one of our top two tiers, um, we get on a town hall in zoom Chat with our patrons. So guy, this has been yet another episode. We're leaving you with a five minute bonus clip, another episode of Horror Bled. This is yours next week, beast. Hey guys, sorry that I am late with this week's Patreon episode. Our guests for this week, the bonus bitch episode is a bit so many of you guys do know. Um,

we have Medina Monroe from The Cocktails Dirty Girl. Medina, what's your favorite podcast? Temptation? I would ask, queen. The only reason you are is because you added Temptation Island after that, because I am a podcast queen. But uh no, but I'm super excited. Again, Sorry that we're late. Last week was Medina's birthday, and as you guys know, I took a mental break last week and went to Mexico for a few days with my friend, which, by the way, was supposed to be a trip that we both mourned

our relationships. I'm so sick of telling y'all I'm single when I'm not, because you'll be lying. You were lying, asked like the more I and I'm a Libra Libras do be lying. Bro, We're not gonna do that. Bro, We're not gonna do that. Be lying. Well, I just want to say to Loom, is such a boogie mental break trip. That is, you're so lucky. Most of us just have to walk to the bookstore and meditate in the park and we're like mental break. But I'm not lie.

I'm not gonna lie to Loom. And I've spoken on here about how I'm not a fan because I'm not a fan of the Jungle. It's crazy to me because I do feel like I could have went to Vegas and had the same experience because everything was very every Vegas and Loom. Everything was to get a mental break. In Vegas, you walk into your hotel room, they're selling you prostitutes you want. Well, every fucking restaurant I went to in to Loom was like Gina, we'd yes, yeah, no, no, bitch,

not with the fit and all a ship going round. Uh. What's crazy too, guys, is this week? Uh this week, We're gonna talk about three things. Actually, um, we don't really have an outline, but I do want to outline that, y'all like getting some specialty in this bonus episode. I did have full permission from Medina to speak on it if I wanted to speak on it. So she will be giving a horrid derve, which of course is a

sex tip. And we're gonna talk in during the Horrible Decision this week on outfits that you can wear in the bedroom and of course with your partner for Halloween. So I'm super excited to get there. However, are you already I'm a drum role or us. But I kind of wanted to share the story. So Medina came to New York and not only did she experience the sex club for the first time, she joined in with me and my boyfriend. Um, look, she really was trying to

call him my boyfriend, y'all. Anyways, I guess let's start off with your experience at the sex club. I think a lot of people are nervous and not knowing what to expect. And I took Chelsea and shot a from Black Girl's texting podcast to end a s W. I also took you to end a s W So could you kind of like open up with kind of what your experience was like there? So I'm not gonna lie. First of all, am I blurry on your end? Or

is it just me? Uh? It might be just you, but it'll show up better at the end, it says ten a P. So cool. Um. Okay, So a walkthrough from beginning to end. So y'all have to story times. Mandy and Ice friendship happened in a very odd way. So for the longest time we were just talking on the phone, we shared the story, and then for even a longer time, I hadn't been to your place. You I don't. Yeah, by the time I came to New York, you had been to Atlanta, but I had never been

to your space in your space. Okay, So I y'all know Mandy free and I don't put this on me. Wait, don't start off this line me being on now Libra's lie me being the free spirited liber that I am. I already know. I was like, you know, whatever we do. I know how her her boyfriend get down. But I did not think that this was going to happen. I need you know, this wasn't like a planned thing, and Mandy was when you get down here, we're like were busting out booty holes and like, no, that was not.

We were just like, we're gonna hang out. I can't wait to meet your boyfriend. Is gonna be great. So we get there. As soon as I get to her place, we start drinking. Yeah, Mandy is a great host. We're having the time of our life. We go to some bar, some Irish bar, and we're having nasty as pickleback shots were not to her and her fine assid niggie being like, let me say man, because that's a man being like, well, we should go to the sex club tonight. My heart

is racing. My heart is racing. It's like it's beating out of my chest because I'm like, okay, what are we what are we going to the sex club and we're all gonna do things together? Are we going to the sex club and it's just gonna you know, be I don't know. I have been to sex clubs before, but I've never ever, ever, ever