Ep 272: Heauxs N Tears

Even doing the show for six fucking years, it's just like I don't want to go through this ship, bro, Like I just no other podcast goes through this ship where everybody's pit against each other. You're about to have a fucking TV show and that's a big deal, and then what are someone gonna say sex sells versus Mandy's MTV show. It's just like I can't take this ship anymore. And you think that someone is a fan of you, so they're gonna funk with you, and it's just like

that's the same ship. I just hate that ship so much. I was gonna come in here and get excited about the fucking l a studio that we're gonna make, but how because then it's just boom like another thing. And I just don't understand how after all this time to ship still makes me so upset. I really hate that. It's almost like we cannot ever celebrate a separate win,

Like like I don't do the show with you. I understand where people talk about Joe Ry and Mall, I actually do because they both still exist and they don't do a show together, but as two people to do a successful show together and have all these accolades, it's like still all the time, and I just I'm so over it. I just I'm like in my thirties now,

Like I just don't understand. Thank you are all your every podcast is gonna cry this week shout out to Fury because I'm feeling depressing and stress you right now too. I'm just really tired. Um. I really just want to like celebrate life and without feeling like I have to read a shitty comment after and I know it comes with the territory, but it's just a lot of And that was just like a lot for me, Like I

don't want to not celebrate good moments. And I just had so much fun with you at the roots and it just felt like such a good thing and like, wow, I don't know. I mean, there's there's just a lot going on buying the scenes. Um, I wasn't gonna step on you're saying and getting out what you needed to get out. Um, I don't even really want to talk about any of this. I mean to do a show. I just hate that we have to fucking pod through shipped. To be very honest with you, I mean we've technically

even been on back and forth. I said I needed a break, and I know you have things that you want to do. I need a fucking break, and yes, I'm opening up the studio. And I hate that this is gonna be fucking pitted against each other. My show has nothing to do with your show. I was a host, I was asked to do it. I didn't even want to do TV and it fell into my lap and I'm proud of it. But I don't compete with you. I hate that they make everything that women do a

fucking competition. I really did not even want to be here and continue this. I was actually hoping you said, fuck it, let's do another day. But I'm leaving and life goes on, so let's just get to it. I'm just gonna try to be professional because I did in the world did it, did a podcast or radio show and started TV shows much like an Antel Charlottagne DJ. But everybody is so happy when they see you in another media except for it just cannot fucking I don't understand.

But I will tell you all this. I will be known for talking about sex for the for the rest of my life, probably hopefully better hopefully i'll be a president. I don't know, hopefully hopefully I'll know me for some other ship. But like, you know, this is a very important part of my life. And granted, you know, Mandy and I definitely have opened up our arguments and things like that to you, and so it's made it's publicly unexposed.

But like it's not easy to like come off of good episodes and good moments or achievements in life and feel that because no, they really do it. Two women, Yes, But I feel like sometimes it's like a mountain on me. We had two people come in here that are big fans of horrible decisions and they have a lot of energy. I did think it might have been an issue, but I was like, fuck it. They're fun and they love horribles.

When people Love Horrible is generally a good episode. They had so much energy I guess when they came in. They made jokes about Edd and posting this late and and and and studio and Mandy Studio and Who's Better and x y Z and it made the energy so intense that Alex was literally like, Yo, what the fuss is going on? And texted me, which she never does. And it became so ridiculous that two people can come

in your house. And and and by the way, yes it's my studio, but Mandy and I pay for the time here, it's her podcast, to like, this is her house at this moment, and I don't feel like it makes sense for anyone to come on your podcast with smoke, am I fucking fresh and fit bro so nah and and granted, you know, me crying in the beginning was more so just because like, oh my god, I just felt like, what could happen when we both are doing ship Because

instead of people saying like wow, there's two women that are black, one in podcast studios in New York, it's just like the opposite. And so that just felt really strange. And also I didn't just really upset because I've been having sex Why are you upset about that? I can't understand how I'm come in here with the guns blazing about Dick. Okay, change that Dick's blazing like Andy's choosing the ruth picknic. Let's talk about that. I had a great time. No y'all think just thought it was get

up bad? But was it ghetto? Um? The show was fun, but we always put on a good show. Um, the show was fun. I mean I handled all the business behind to set along with Anny, and it was chaos, and so I didn't really get to enjoy as much because I was putting out fires before and after the stage and still in my emails putting out fires um with very little response. So uh, we'll be getting that per per my last email, Uh follow up this evening.

It's just been to me the business wasn't wasn't right. Um, A lot of things weren't handled correctly, and I've heard it was better other years. Well, no, now I feel like I'm Monique. They're luckily. They're so lucky. I didn't get on that stage and called them out like Monique did because it was that's what it's giving in the email. Let me talk giving Monique all back backstage. What is this ship? Email came through, by the way, at midnight. I'm on the bus with you. What did I say?

I said it was Rory mall alex edding everybody for anyone in corporate. I love to send emails on a Sunday evening because that means I'm at the top of your emails when you get into the office. Well, that is a thing to do. That was tying mushrooms weed. I saw his email come through. I passed the phone around spretty like many going off. But I'll say this, so me trying to be a good co host, I

got one fire that I knew would explode. Vinny said to me the day before, Hey, they're not fulfilling your writer. I'm like, oh, what do you mean? He said, there's no writer for the podcast stage. So well, that's strange because they asked us what we want on our writer, and we get a writer even when we perform as a podcast club. No, not even a comedy club. Theaters, my nigga, we have done theaters as a podcast and have gotten not only our writer, but full mills provided

for us and our staff. But let's not do just homedy clumedy club is a small place that still but no, I'm saying, we've done big places. This is the festival. We've done big places as well and got all right. So Bennie says, that is it. Vinnie, get the fucking Tito's. I don't know. Tiana was in the card choice. Everybody, just get the ship we need because if Manny walks

in there with no vodka, we ain't going on. And I know I said, dude, I say, y'all, y'all lucky, y'all got a show because I said I wasn't going on until I got paid him full. She did and we but I did. I'll be liking to fulfill at least my end of the bargain so then I can shoot on everybody after. Like we upheld all of our end of the bargain and payment is on its way.

But the fact that I'm getting paid three days later and not the day up, like, mind you, they just didn't have the BITCHI they could have paid me in once. I would have took the one place. Also, I just want to say, like obviously, love quest love the rust. This is just when something becomes so big that you have to have people help, and it's just like and and and Alex had to tell me because I started getting said like, damn, bro, we had more people on

our podcast stage than any other podcast. We weren't even the headliner, and we had the whore Hive showed up better than any other podcast. And I was so upset, and he goes, it's okay because all you did just now is pay your dues, bro, And I was like, I really feel like at six years, why are we still paying dudes? Why we bust our fucking assets. And

that's the thing I mean. I've been having this feeling anyways with when people talk about people moving the culture and the top podcast, not many times do women get mentioned, nor do we in a lot of conversations. We do not get mentioned. We do not have the respect that we should. We get a lot. Our numbers are massive, We tour, we do merch, We have a fucking cult like community, and we have changed fucking lives. We have. We have people come up to us and say that

we have changed lives. And now I didn't want to cry because I didn't even want to do this fucking podcast. I need a fucking and we just do so much that we get fucking no respect from our peers, from the people in this industry, we get no fucking respect. Maybe because we come in here and talk about sucking dick, but we get no fucking respects none. We are not respected by so many people in this sucking space, and

I fucking hate it. I do love that Charlottagne Charlemagne fights for back for us behind the scenes and pushing us, but we don't get no fucking respect. And we do a fucking live on the fact that we book all our own fucking guests. I was just our own fucking outlines. We fucking do our own titles, our descriptions, send it. We curated this whole fucking team. She has a whole fucking studio she's had open for the last year and a half with a whole fucking team of black and

brown sucking people. I'm opening mind, and people still find the need to find a way to fucking shoot on us or pick us against each other. I really did not even want to fucking record today after all of that, because it's not in my heart. We're just we fucking star assets. We work and now we're working for other people, and we still don't get in the respect we deserved. So this should is fucking frustrating, how I fucking hate.

I wanna, on the other side, talk about the things that I feel like we do get because I I know there's a podcaster watching this or someone feeling like they aren't where we are, and I will say this much what I do. Obviously you're right, but what I do think had to happen. We had to do something else for people to realize Horrible was as big as it is. Oh, well, yeah, you're refused on MTV. You're working, you are, y'all are doing big things. Y'all are cool. Oh,

y'all are really good. Like what the fuck? It's a it's a weird. I don't know, it's weird, you know I. I actually just got off the phone with Sinner, who manages Rory and Walls. Should we know. I love un he's tour manager. I don't know his title. But when I talked about money and the volume of our shows and numbers and maybe not understanding why so we sold out the same venues Rory and mall have and I bet you their check is bigger. They are a bigger podcasts, granted,

but those ticket sales were the same. The prices, the number of the capacity. Nothing changed, and that is like the craziest ship when you think about it. Yes, I understand Rory and Mall getting tendally. I get it they're bigger. Not saying they're not. I'm just saying those fucking ticket sales at least right now, until they fucking do a venue with a million people in it, Fine, we're the same.

And it's fucking add am not in my stomach to talk about money with better because I was like, oh, okay, bro, just to see that you guys even had a car to take you there is the guy I was in a rental. We had to pay for our own rooms. I paid for my room back in February just because the rooms were so fucking expense same like it's just sucking rough to hear, like they had water in their trailer. I asked for a knife to cut my lime and ice. That's it. That's it, sabe, hold on, let me you.

I was fortally brought up food. I was, oh, yeah, the liquor, baby bitch. I was peeling the line like, well, maybe I can squeeze it through the hole. Like y'all should have seen me trying to just have some lime juice in my fucking kettle. One It wasn't Tito. Yeah, you said knife early, and I was wondering what that was for to cut my fucking line, might need to go to go into my to go into my to go into my room. Temperature vaka soda. Okay, we never

even got ice. We asked for tea baby are for water. We didn't even get water. We didn't even get water. Didn't even Actually it's funked up priority trailer looked like they did pouring in it. It was that they could have done a better trailer. And you know why we had to go wait? Wait, do you know why? Do

you know why? I was also upset about the trailer because at one time in my life, even kind of recently in Dreamville, I was a hope and so I've seen mortest trailers at festivals and I'm like, words, this is what we get. It's okay. You want to know how Patty I was went around to the nicer trailers and took pictures of the people. Oh, this person went on at three and they got a nicer trailer than that. Andy. We had the biggest though, but it wasn't even Roy

Muller doing are they not? I don't give a funk about side. If it looked like there was skeet on the walls, I wanted. I wanted a goddamn bread light testing that ship, blue light, red light, What the funk ever? I needed to put that ship over. Mind you, it wasn't our trailer. You know why? It was production. You know why I know because my friends wouldn't like it was people in and out of our trailer. It was not our trailer. Our name wasn't even on it. They said, oh,

here's an extra trailer. That's why I want to call bullshit on that. Secondly, my friends stood in line because guess what they also didn't do. They also didn't feed us. So my friends stood in line for one hour to get me a fucking chicken chicken sandwich. Guess what happened? Someone ate it while I was on stage. Why do you think I didn't take pictures? After I go back and my friends are like, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, Mandy's food has gone. What's going on?

They stood in line for one hour, So I'm at the testable from four p That's why I left. Bro. I didn't even eat. We fucking performed. They didn't have water, no ice. I didn't even eat, and then deering before we go on, I'm here and Nigga's got rooms, riders, fucking water, fucking drivers funk out of here. The driver ship was crazy. I'm gonna post a picture of me sitting in a car seat on the way to the festival.

Also got to the parking and I know you know this because you were having to hand me the past. The ladies like, yeah, they're credentials and I'm like, listen to is artist parking? Like this is the asked there on FaceTime. I can't access to Southern because there was a much street closures before who hoping the Roots picnic app to show me on it and she was like she looked at it, she looked back at me and she said, it an't matter. You ain't got the past,

you ain't eat me. And I'm like, you know, no one gave it was just crazy. Roy Ball couldn't get in because mind you hold on and this is why hold on. Let me go back to corporate and I'll talk to Benny about this. Then he had a whole conversation. I had a list of questions that received verbal communications which I then have to put in that email. There were verbal communications that certain things were okayed and confirmed, and I said, fuck you didn't. I need to go

on writing Miney. I pulled up the fucking per section four point one. Oh, I went through the whole contract and gave notes. I'm like, bro, this is not what we fucking agreed upon. Which is also just a frustration when when when push comes to show, we have to work through all this bullshit on the back end. We

don't have a manager, we don't have a booker. Really, we do everything for this and like when we have to get disrespected, we sometimes will be like Mandy Wey came up to me and said, go on, girl, do what you're doing. That was the response to me, like, go on, Mandy, do what you did. Mean to say, it's okay for Mandy to go off because I have been on the receiving end of the email. Mandy has sent me highlighted emails about us just talking and highlight.

Oh highlight. I do highlight both, and like, this is what we're gonna talk about on the call tomorrow, and I'll be like you, he's gonna get on the phone and like talk about the ruse no no, no, I've outlined shout out to Vinnie, um, yes for he really really this is not he was above and beyond what

he was supposed to do. Hot hungry like um, you know, and and in Tiana and will if I know you guys came and helped us, like we really and your assistant April like shout out, we really do appreciate that because like you shouldn't have been running with my bag, Tiana. And at one point it was funny because I was holding my home and back. She goes, you know what, let me do this for you. And I also feel this Gil because to me, assistant, yes that's a word,

but like I'm the talent. My assistant shouldn't have to do this. You should have found someone else, you know what I'm saying, Like that shouldn't be in my head in her hands, like you should be sending the car. I saw the golf cart, buddy, why are we hot on it? First off, the fact that I had to walk sullivant stage. There wasn't even a no, no, no, do you know? Do you know they told us that once we got off stage, golf carts weren't available for

access to us anymore. Wow, because we had already we had already performed, and they stopped picking up in these calls. They literally stopped talking to us until we got They were so nice until we got on stage. And the next day when I was with y'all, I was with Boring Mahle because I came out, Um, the guy goes every single security card. Oh my god, y'all killed it. Are you gonna go back on y'all coming back? Where's Mandy?

Then the with Mandy, which we didn't have day two passes like we were verbally confirmed or well, in mind you, I had all of my all of my comps, I was told would have access all of our photographers and videographers. Won't find O you left. But I gave people travel to Philly thinking they had two days. We brought people onto our team and was like, y'all shoot whatever y'all

need to shoot, just make sure you capture us. The next day, I'm calling around just trying to get them into the first like nothing that we were guaranteed or from I know y'all are like, damn, what y'all complaining for? You don't want to say. I would like to come back. I just want to give us some water. You want to do what? Actually, I would like you want to do? What if we could have a hotel? You want to do what? I would like to come back if they could give us a ride there. And I would like

to come back if we could get paid um. Just like the crowd that came out in full um and other news. I will tell you I did enjoy it, man, Chief Keith, what a time bro that niked. I'm not even y funny right now. I took mushrooms and smoked weed and literally and withdraw you wrong. Yeah, And I got because I wanted to be the right kind of high for that kind of festive. If it was also i'd be on something else. But for Chief Keep, I was like, let me do what this Vica does? You know?

And I didn't have any lean but I did. I did get to the front of that stage, and I was like, wow, yo, Like it's really dope to see people like put effort in their performances. And I think that's why, you know, people like to give us our flowers, because we really put a lot of energy in. But when I watched him, he was like jumping in the crowd when Finito came on broke, I thought I was gonna break my neck. Bro it hurts, and I was trying to like lean in for pitches out like chilling.

It was. It was fun and like I love when people bring life to the ship, so like that's me was a really good time. Um speaking of people that put life into their ship. Um. I also watched Summer Walker. Um, we'll say this, what's that? Damn? What was that? Summer Walker kNs sing live and it's great. Um Uh. Another thing, I'm not talking about her anxiety because I wouldn't make fun of someone's anxiety. I would just say at that level, I cannot believe she couldn't at least produce a show

for us. You know what I'm saying, Like Jasmine Sullivan's got personality if Summer Walker doesn't want to show her personality to those tens of thousands people in the crowd.

Cool walking off stage and one time her mike was sucked up and then you brought up this random rapper like you gotta know, I'm sorry being a festival performer, You're an entertainer and you should know at that level to be headlining a festival for all those people how to at least produce an entertainment slot, like you're big enough to where people should be able to do this for you. I felt like that was weird. And I don't think it's her anxiety. I think it's just like

a little bit of a lack lester. I don't care. She just came out. She didn't say goodbye, and so I say that to say I was back in New York. Now. Granted that her ship, maybe the audios, maybe whatever, but Mandy and I also went through some funded up ship when we came out to do that job. We didn't and and y'all don't even know. I was not supposed to be smacked on stage. Our sub got in a car accident on the way. Oh my god, y'all, y'all don't even know. The fires they were full fires. We

were putting out. Two of the people that were supposed to be on stage. Lick a boot to me, and she licked the boot. Mind you, I still have a I still And she did shout out to Miss Harley. She did do a great job, and she did apologize to me because I'm still I'm still bruised. The paddle really hurt, and so when shout out to calligraphists, Uh, he also took our pictures and there's a hole. Did you see the photo? Dog? It really hurt. And I

know sometimes you'll be a connection because youre dramatic. No, I know you held it together. Bitch. That ship hurt, and what I want you supposed to get hit on. I was just supposed to be a little bit humiliated, and then you're going weasy. She didn't follow instruction. Here's the paddle way. No, no, no, I didn't. I didn't know she was gonna do it like that. Yeah, that's like I feel like, and I actually I pulled out the hammer thing. I should be funny like, I did

not know she pulled out the paddles. Thank my ass, and let's the whole ass mark. I was about to call Mama Tammy, like, see what happens when I'm half white, Mama, this wouldn't happen if I had a little bit. Mama was crazy. It was. It was motherfucking right. What a chaotic day. In episode Bros, Mercury is still in accause the Michael Bay We're taken out two days, Holy sh it, Like what day? How much time do we have at

it because I think we should maybe hold that. Okay, let me see you know what it was unitially about. We're off the rails. Okay, okay, let's just let's do some homemail. Wow reel like that. We're here about how Maggie's family trip was. Oh you know what, let's talk about that. Oh god, but you about to give patrion

feet to the regular show. So old be cheated on me with this little white Vishnay Maggie and they wented to buy and he was terrible, and I said he was dead to me on Patreon and then he sent me a fucking product dog callar for Nina and I was just like, why are you sending her if I'm the one that got cheated on or whatever? Um, after after my grandmother's funeral, you know, my mom and I were talking like he said flowers and she's like, yo,

like he is a part of your life. He pished you off, but like the man knew your fucking grandmother, Like, you know, try to relax and then separate this, and um I was able to. So for the ruts picnic Um, I was like, you know what, well, I'm gone. I'll give him Nina and me, Wolf, Tiana and Bennie were in the car and I dropped off Nina and he gave me a really long hug. And it's funny because he looked and he goes a damn everybody peep peeking

out right now. Wolf was like, you want me get this on the BTS And I haven't seen him in months, bro, since February. Did you get it? He did, But I'll tell you this now, this is trifle. And he doesn't listen to podcast, maybe he won't hear this. So I actually feel bad to say this. But he was supposed to get Nina that night, but I couldn't reply and I was a little too busy, so he had to get me into the morning and to hand off our child.

Know what, I had just suck a dick felt so good and I know we're not supposed to feel vegetable, but wow, man, I mean what a time. And I really handed him the pp pads like take the baby like it was so great. Huh did you have like a kiss on the cheek by wow, you're sick you kissed him after sucking another? Then kis him on the cheek? Bro, that's still that's still kids, dick? Why did you put dick lips on his cheek? Sure? I brushed my teeth, Maybe I did. I don't know. Did you scrub your

let's go on the dick shaft? Like your teeth is one thing. Your teeth ain't even own the dick, it's everything else. Oh, y'all hands after masturmated. Okay, Oh, I've watched them. There's handsome HR? Do we have an HR here? We all? Right? Okay? I mean, like you know what I'm saying, like, yeah, I watched my hand a little residue. I don't know. I'm sure I showered, not a little residue. What but what was that truck? Was that? Well? You know, I I don't feel bad because guess what, he didn't

feel bad when he was in Dubai Dai. Maggie, Fuck that bitch. Maggie has been trying to get this nigga back for so long, the entire relationship we've had. What do you mean get him back? Isn't she married? Get him back like he would get on vacations. He spent a lot of time with her, callow sending gifts this ship. I'm tired this bitch, bro that the lapo candles you smell thank you for the ASoP. But and it was she would just send anything in the house that could

be there that you could think of her. That's how manipulous, that's so crazy. It's not manipulative. She knew she was kind of a side by because I used to do that ship I was, Oh, I don't know, so like when when like I used to work with like the married niggas, like the athletes, and I knew they lived with bitches, I would I would get them stuff Like I remember just one of my friends, I got him a speaker because I was like, oh, she'll never think this.

When I got like a Roku thing so that they could play like whatever, like put their own This is before Netflix was on every hotel. Like this was clearly back when I was a hope. Right, I'm not hone um, but I would always when I got somebody, what do you think five years from now? I'm just saying when I got When I used to gift niggas, it was always something that maybe their wife or girlfriend would think they got themselves. Is that not crazy? Whoa are you

gonna be to make a clip out of this? Because like I'm not gonna lie to you, bro. That's like really, like, wow, are you kidding me? Right now? You would get You just said you shook all of our hands after masturbating, and you're mad that I that as a side chick. Look at your Why are you telling them the secrets? But no, I would get my side niggas something that they bitches probably thought they got for their sales, but

they didn't. It was me what bitch. Don't look judge, bro, I was a thoughtful side chick and that's what more of these women need to do. And niggas, there's niggas that a side chick, clearly look at the bay was all last side nick to a side bitch. I don't know how that worked. Like I was on the computer once when we were in Mexico because something's going on with mine whatever we anyway, it's a long story short. She like sent him a picture of her new tips

that she just got and he paid for him. She was a sugar mama. Oh that's right, that's but like, I didn't even tell them I side. I just looked at what she texted and was like, sorry, I know you're busy, did I just wanted to share this been a while, hope, uh, and she like sent this video of herself and I really just felt like, bro, I'm sorry, but if you're gonna be a sugar mama, like leave it at that. We don't need you all surprised you

didn't sign on to make her y'all sugar mama. She was getting she I told you she called me ratchet. She said I was, and he had to you need he I saw it for myself and that's probably the only reason I like kind of let it go because he was like, you don't know what you're talking about, like you and not to mention like I'm what she said attacking. I think she said, it's you're fucking a side nigger with your husband and kids at home and

doing it raw. You know. I found out they was doing it problems because because when I got with him and we started having conversations about not using condoms, he was like, oh, like literally the last person was someone that like doesn't live here. We haven't been, you know, seeing each other soon recently, and so what was I gonna say? You know, I've been tested since then? She lives in Australia. Did I found out this just lives

in Australia. So you was sucking this thinking wrong, going back to your husband, And let me tell you something, old bait is a hole, okay, and you fuck that how I think it? Bitch? Please? I know because I used to fack him the nerve and I with everybody. Sorry, all right, So the next one, um, what are positions that are guaranteed to make him come from the back? Definitely from the back on your stomach too, you can squeeze.

I had one athlete tell me what I'm to say that, because bitch, I'm just saying, I'm letting you'll know about my whole life. And what's crazy is he's such a good fucking ball player, Like it made me be like, if you only put the same effort in the bedroom as you do, he was so good and I was so mad. This is why I tell you all the time, as much as I love Jacole, it's why I would never fun Jacole. It's why I would never funk anyone I'm a fan of anymore because this particular ball player

ruined it for me. So fucked him and he's sucking me missionary and I'm just like, okay, mind you biggest funks. I'm just like, dude, I like it from the back, bitch. I like to show off. So he's like, no, like I wanted to last a little longer, and I know I won't last from the back, and I was like, it's okay, I won't throw it back. I won't throw it back. He just put it in from the back. Swater gold I swater god. And what's funny about it

is bitch. I think I talked about this on the show with I did with Well We I talked about this, I think on the podcast with Just That and Robbing from House one and how you talking to them? And they hit me up like is it a bitch? How y'all know? So they mut had a friend that sucked him too, and now I just though he just a two minute person. They guessed it with the first time swater gold I had. I don't even know what I'm saying, a swater goal like that, but it's because y'all don't

believe me. But it was literally came, literally came in two seconds from the back. I had a really trifling athlete hit on me in l A at the highlights. We made him tryful. I'll tell you what it is later, but what makes him? I can't got a bit. I can't say now, you can't say what the fund did? You just told nagget whole life story and now that bitch she deserves to be exposed, but he tried. That's crazy. I don't care, bro, I'm gonna tell you right now. She can send me a cease and desist and I'm

gonna write back. I don't know what the Australian postcode is, mom, but suck my dick co you bet a't go on your LinkedIn and fucking hit everybody up, bit at because I don't care when you've been trying to get a man for that many years, have been nasty and like there's one thing to fund my nigga, which a lot of bitches have done, but it's another what the fun

what Mandy was saying? Yeah, like agreeing with me or all right, so anyway, and there's another things literally like talking another man's woman down over and over the years and like prey on their fucking breakup, like pray pr why add to me is just like just spelling the word no because I'm staying up, not pray for it, but both like literally like antagonizing it and like it's just mean and nasty, and so I want to be

mean a nasty bitch. You want to try to ruin my ship out hope bit, you better hope Australia stay on the lockdown koalas it's not the Koala leave man. We leave kids and animals out of ship. You know the good Sometimes anyway, I feel like get back to well,

I say that's safe. So the basketball player whatever comes up to me and which I was surprised because like I've seen him on like the Shade women stuff with women and they're like big booty, like very like Drea looking kind of girls, like really like i G batty type. So when he came out to me on a little bit surprised um, and I was like this ain't what you want, bro, And he was like I'm what everybody wants.

And I was like because, like to me, son, it was just like okay, so you said someone found out he was two minutes long. Do you know? Two girls came up to me after that and we're like, girl, he was only get it because that Dicky is good. That's why he talked like that. Man. The other guy was way way more Shy should have known. He should

just be fucking Spaulding. Actually Spaulding should they should just get married and like and that should be it because he shouldn't be in no other places when you're like a known But if you're no, you can married and all of that. Like you, why are you walking around saying you're with what? What What? Everybody wants some time to text you. I ain't gonna hold you. I'll walk around

like that, bitch. I had a billboard. We was on breakfast club baby when when my my thing came and picked me up from one night, I said I was drunk, but I was like, oh my god, everybody wanted me this. This is gonna be such a great summing. When I just tell you, baby, everybody wanted me like I literally said that. I mean, oh, I was too friend that say it was great. Um well, he sucked them with

another girl, so I don't know. It gotta be good if he can handle like I mean, the way those girls came up to me and like one girl party win before. He's fine to say that to me. It is just kind of like we get like I have talked about this lebron James, like I've never seen him like flir or do anything like that. I'm not saying that. I'm just saying like, and that's not who she's talking

about right now. I just saw that's one of these you can't say everything you just said and this no, no, no, I want to bring that up because that's who should be walking up to a bit land. Everybody want me, you're that Nigked is one of the most gracious people I have ever met. Named three named three celebrities, well two more outside of Lebron, Lebron, Drake Beyonce. Okay, okay, back to me. You could talk that crazy because you are that. Drake Brihanna, and Drake is a very kind person.

I've never seen it. I mean, I've had the pleasure to meet these people through my work with Kenya, but I've seen videos of them even before that where they were kind to fan. It's like, you know what I'm saying, and so to have been around and Lebron, because I know athletes get every bitch and he don't act like that. That's he's married. Now. I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about being cocky about not being kind, you know, smiling and like being able to take like please, nigga.

I'm so surprised this nigga is still just walking up to bitch like that. That's why I don't think he cares. Of course he doesn't care. We know care. Now people are gonna guess. So anyway, let's see what else people ask? What's one thing you won't try sexually minus anal my booty can't take it? Oh, I knew that. I knew that wasn't coming out um ship ship like that was it? And I told you maybe actually i'mly maybe with some money, but now I gotta be a whole lot of money

because I make a lot of money now. But I told you I've said this all the time. As long as it's a hard turn, that will just bounce off of me like no, no, I mean I have to know before that, Like I mean to me for real, for real, Well, you gotta ship. You kind of know if it's gonna be a little rumbly or if it's just gonna be like I just gotta do it. I

have to do it. I have to tell you guys a preview of sex cells because I got so much ship right, hear me out, I had to I was I was at Shan Booty's house in the Sex Cell episode trying to fart in a jar right, just exploring how people sell this stuff. So Shan and I are like eat tacos, like were trying. She's trying to get my god son, you're you're gonna shart. So I was trying to mind your laughed up and anyone that's a mike.

I could not get the fart out right, Like, it just could not happen because I knew there was cameraman outside. She's laughing. I hear the baby in the back, and I'm like, oh my god, I can't do this, bro, I know it's TV. So what did I decide to do? I peed in it. That was the only thing I could do. I came out with the p in the jar and THEYR crew looked at me like what does this? What show does she think she on? And I'm like, well,

I couldn't get the fart out shifting on command. I don't know how women that do scat play do it. It is not easy, bro. You know, if it was easy, you gotta do it at eight o'clock in the morning when we all take our adult morning ship. Who pays for in the morning, first morning text the good niggas have morning? Would it makes sense? But do you really want to get shoot out of eight? I feel like you gotta do it in the morning after coffee when I tell you, first off, I could barely finish my

coffee some morning come you bad. You gotta go for it, you know what I mean? Um anyway, so I I, yeah, obviously I wouldn't do it either unless you give me. But I really feel like I couldn't because the ship, right, yeah, it would just be shipped and that a people. Oh and blood you are do blood? No blood? Actually, no blood. I don't think there's any amount of money for blood play. No blood play none the the introvenous ship like not doing blood. Not doing blood, that's too far. Did you

never mind? Okay you did even if the tampon was there. You know why I'm sick of her? No clip play. What happened when I came out for Rory and Malls ship and I said, uh so they didn't want me to get off. They said, let's just do Q and A with Wheezy and the girl goes tell the tap on story. This is what I've been talking about. And then you want to get all every other episode and be like blood, I would never bitch. Yes you do? You ate couch with blood even though it's plugged up.

It was the clips. I've done it before. If you live a click, is it eating couch? Yes? Yes, yes? Come on, are you kidding? That is eating? Yeah? Yeah. If the only went to suck a nigga's balls, it's still oral sex. But how many times do you just go to suck his balls? Oh? I do, I love, But my point is I don't eat the I'll sometimes get the dick and go straight to the balls. Maybe what do you stick on? It's not true because I'm gonna try again. No, no more's here's no more right?

Damn well, I just reaf And now there's a tamp on story number one. One time I shipped on my tampton string and I didn't have another one or and he says just to cut it. So I lit the tip with my lighter and that ship burned right up to my pussy like a wick on the bomb. Why are you in there's gases on the ship? That is there? Really? Come on, scientists, scientists and in the building. I didn't know that he's crazy? What fuck? The mething girl, don't

say my name. I can't handle it. On the podcast spies, Okay, no, redefining cheating has experience and experimenting. Hear me out, because it makes me better for my partner. That's how we've been doing that. That's what she said. That's stupid. I lost my eight months celibacy was a little awkward until I remembered with tit trick. It was gushy after Okay, easy to take it. It's just this the questions we're terrible. Yeah,

I'm like, damn, could you find a good question? Give us some good sex toys we can use, because I don't want to suck these niggas. No, I already told you. I like the air pulse sating technology. Um, I like my clip to just be sucked on, and I love it. But just by the toys, I don't really I really don't do the head like that. I mean, my egg game really really, really good. But I really just like I like. I like air technology on my inspired me to do a new technique. Now. I do like a

sucking clip. We do like tongue swirl at the same time. How do you suck and lick at the same time you do. It's easy girl you oh d I was thinking of the rolls, like, Okay, I sucked that cucumber on stage at the Roots picnic and my older white boyfriend is embarrassed. Oh no, First of all, you need to tell me it's a black festival, for one, and it's racist if he fucking thinks otherwise. Period. Oh you're embarrassed that was a black thing. Okay, Sucking cucumbers are

not a black thing. The moment of it was, I'm like, let's not let's not claim that action. Okay, okay, sorry, are there any more questions there about? Do you have any questions? Why is it okay to do cheap things with your friends, but with your boyfriend and girlfriend it gets judged? Oh wait, say that again. Why is it okay to do cheap things with your friends but your boyfriend and girlfriend gets charged. I'm not gonna lie. I do have friends who love like I love bar hopping

like I'm not a club girl anymore. I don't care about the popping bottles, y'all know, because everyone sends me when they go do pickleback shots at the fucking random as bars, and so I like diving bars and That's something that I've done with my partner too. And I have had friends who like maybe the more expensive places, be like y'all at a bar, and I'm like, I

like to do hers. But it does become judge because I think we have this outlook on men, especially men with money, that we have to do the most lavish. We have to get a table every time we go out, we have to eat it the most expensive restaurants. We have to go to the nicest villas when we travel. And sometimes I just I like doing real regular ships. Like even when my mom came to town, I wanted her experience. I wanted her to experience the nice stuff

because you know, she's in Orlando. So we literally went I was like, Mom, I'm gonna take you to catch steak for appetizers, so how to get like wago and this like amazing crudo. Then I took her to towel. We ate dinner towel, and then I said, bitch, we're doing pickleback shots and Insomnia and West Village, and so we ended the night and those I'm very much what I did the Time Out magazine dating thing. No, you don't remember that, you know, go ahead, this subtle flex

go ahead. No, it was something I wrote in there. Damn, I was just do it horrible decisions in it. It felt like it. But anyway, I still have it. You know. That's when you were in corporate though. Yeah, I do remember it now. So in in the UH, in the article, I wrote, I want me packing Tribeca Soho dinner and I want a fucking dive bar for drinks. That's me,

And I think I just really like good food. But I like to end it like the other or the other, or I do the other way around, or I want to start off in like we get burgers, we get something something real light, and then I wanted to speak easy, like I literally love a high low type of night. I don't. I don't think that, Like I don't know. I was seeing this guy. He was like this the one who got the baby mom and he lived with the X. You could go ahead and call him. He

has a name on the short Lambo right. No, I never sucked him because I found out about the baby mama. I think you and Bennie were talking about it and you were like, he can't be cute. I was like, no, he is, but like I feel like he was trying to take me to this all like this lavish it because he thought it was what I want. And I actually really hated it because I felt like he was

doing too much. Um and I can't explain it. Sometimes when men are like trying to like make it the best date ever, Like it's almost as like that's okay, okay, okay, Like I don't even do ship like this on my birthday. My Like, he took me to Catch and then he's like, man, we gotta go July Loa and then we gotta go to nice Guy. And I was like, fun down bro, Like,

but you feel like he was trying to prove something. Yeah, and and and I mean, do you not understand why now someone may try to do it, like because you're in a position where, hey, they know there's power be they know you have money, and you do like nice things by yourself. You talk about going to Lucy and just for lunch and spend two hundred dollars on lunch any time I'll go out with you, but you eat.

So I just know maybe he maybe he's listened to a few things, or maybe he's just picked up that you really like nice You You you fucking want eavy on. We talked about you wanting your eavy on Miss Braying Jamaica, bitch. You are boojee, thank you damn you guys, right, But I understand like doing too much at the same time to try to prove a point that you got it like that. It's okay, yeah, there's an energy, I would say, and then there's like, I don't know, there's energy and

the current. Yeah, it's like, okay, bro, do you even really do this on the regular? You know what I'm saying? Like it just was too much. I will say the night before I left l A, UM, I went on a really nice day whatever you want to call it um with that person from Dreamville and uh that's his name now we've been calling him Dreamville on Patreon for

the least. I actually need to have a conversation about talking about this person likes But to me, it's like it could be anyone at this moment and there's no real detail. All I said it was a sausage. Yeah.

I feel like also like I haven't really gone into detail detail yet, but I will say, um, I went somewhere really nice with him and he was super chill, and he told me that the reason he did it was because he's like, and sometimes when we go out, like you know, we go to like hot spots or whatever, and he was like, I feel like this is a place where no one will know you. You could just chill the funk out. And I don't say that in a um and I'm famous way, and I don't think

he met that either more than he meant. Like, people will do their circuit in New York. It's like a catch right. Even Luciene is one of those places where it's like a sceney place and it was still a nice rush on. He was like, Oh, like, you ain't even gotta think about that, because it's true. I could go to Isabelle in l A and I'm gonna see someone I know, or it's gonna feel really industry, and like people that aren't industry still like that ship because

they like to be seen. And you almost get dressed because you know someone's gonna be there, like it's this thing in your head and I kind of appreciate someone knows that you don't need that. Oh, I go far away from that. I like to go to places where like I don't even be like I even got lashes on right now. I I've been wearing so much makeup

and picking out so many outfits. We just people. People do go out there for that many Yeah, but I'm saying like I'm like, I know I'm not as where like I don't want to go out and be seen but nobody. I just want to go out and sometimes just enjoy a drink without taking the pictures, without like like being you know, so engulfed with someone's emotions on what this show has meant, like probably want to be off. That's why I don't like going to l A. L A is so mixing. Everywhere you go, you feel like

you're you're It almost feels like New York. Now, it's so many New York people. I don't have more people come up to me in l A than New York. Las wants down. But I do want to say this, I don't want anyone who really feels like they love horrible decisions to everything like you can come up to us. I I do. I do. I think that everybody gets well, it gets expensive because especially when I meet patrons and

I know they spend their heart earned dollars. Well, any patients who have been out, any patients who have seen me out and y'all can sit here strike me there right now. I'll be like, you want to shot? I buy drinks when I go out, and I'd be like, shots for y'all, like, because I do appreciate the fact that they spend their heart earned dollars to hear more from us, and it does get explain me and this nigga fucking got a table at the link up and

I gave so many fans shots. Oh would literally say like I'll look the next and be like offered buy the next bottle. But yeah, oh yeah, it's ridiculous. I can't help myself and and and honestly, it's not even like I feel forced to do it more than it's so special. Yeah, you know what I'm saying. Like, but I also do appreciate like, which is why when we started off this podcast and talking about just like where this is all gone, our war hive, we have people

fly Ohio, Kentucky, Memphis. People literally are like, I'm only here to see y'all perform, and so to know that people even travel spend the money that they work hard on, which we in a recession cream cheese a seven dollars like ship is so expensive, and so it does mean a lot for me that people tune in every week, that they use their money to become patrons and support us,

like I genuinely appreciate that. So yes, when I do see them out, when they come up to me, Yes, I think more than I do want to say any other podcast. Um, and we can end it on this. I know we're getting to our hour it Oh well you know, huh, I do I have a hole o tail, not even hotel. Just your podcast changed my life literally,

and I think that's how we should end. We should. Um. I got a text yesterday morning from Shar that said, I heard y'all killed it, and you know, our Black Effect family was there, shout out to Dolly, shout out to a shot of boxing with me at the end

of the night. Was warm, you know. And I don't know if they told him that, but I feel like everybody kept saying that to us, And um, we've had conversations I mean and I about making money and salary and things like that for our show, right just like you had with him, and he says, you know, horrible

decisions has real supporters. I feel like sometimes we make more money on our fans, and most podcasts do because they could get the millions of YouTube streams right, and like academics was talking ship one day about how our numbers ain't x y Z well, y'all see this content. The algorithms don't work with us, and YouTube doesn't allow

your podcast. We're just not. We think as almost like an option, right, it's our marketing and and and our numbers is audio, and that's why we've been able to survive. We are from six years ago. New Niggas is YouTube niggas. It's just it is what it is. But we did our numbers. We got a quarter million people listening to us in a week Hello, which people get on YouTube.

But anyway, regardless, I say that to say when he said to me, like your money, because I said to Charlemagne on the phone, like I want more fucking money. If we're like posting the speed, right, I'll just put it on Patreon, I want more money, And he's like, wheezy your platform. Unfortunately, it is true. It's just the advertisement for the actual hard, tangible things that they buy from you. And it sucks, but it's real, right, Like

we're having a hard time getting advertised. Obviously, we get ads. I know you guys here if you listen on audio, but it is a real thing where our fans really funk with us that much. And like so I say that to say I will never not say no if there's food going in my mouth, maybe, but like even then I'll probably still take the picture. Bro. Like I say,

I love you like I really do. And you know, to even come off of that crazy high of a chaotic moment we just had, we can't not do the show because we do feel like you know, we love you. So that's all I have to say. Um, So we're gonna get out of here with a homemail. Um and the subject, like I said, is your podcast changed my life literally. Hello, lovely ladies. I hope you are all enjoying your two thus far so long story short. I was introduced here podcast in August nineteen by a close

friend of mine. My friend and I were headed to Mexico for her birthday and she asked me if I've ever heard of your podcast, which I responded no. She selected a random episode, episode one eight eight now here. I am, I don't know episode one now here. I am almost two years into my Dominatrix career and it's now a full time passion for me. After the first year,

I droopled my Corporate America income. Why since then my income is only increased Further, I consider myself to be a one self made boss as bitch, and I think the same of you both. If ever, there were an opportunity to come onto your podcast to speak, I absolutely would would love that. However, just thank you for everything you do, one bad bitch to another. I remember that that was about the song where I said my Mandy had a carpet much your face. Who's mar gay? Definitely? No,

that was it. Definitely is you, we said aesthetically. Look still you thank you? Do you think I look more gay than her? Hell? Yeah? Even with my ball heads galloway gas, you still look more gay? Does everyone agree with us the whole tell me? Am I kidding phone? Yes? Really? What is it? You can be so surprised. I'll be surprised that you're just surprised. The bagginess, sweatpants and ship. I mean I do my little sweatpants. No, No, I know what you mean. You're very ship. All right, it's

part do I do want to go ahead? And before we get out of here just so that you guys can stop asking. We have unfortunately decided to retract and not do the Grease trip. Hopefully we can think of something else. We are also working on UM some live shows later on this year, but we will not be doing Grease anymore. So that is why there is no link for you guys to click on UM. We do hope that all of you guys travel safe. It is the summer and these flights are flighting. It is very

expensive and we know what is different UM. Anyways, guys, we want to thank you all for tuning in. Sorry for being so emotional. Like we we know you've been getting a lot of emotions from a lot of your podcasts this week. This ship is just a we're all doing a lot. We're all just trying to stay afloat goddamnity. We still have to show up. Yeah, we may take a break and when if we do, knowing me, it'll

be a one week break. And if not, then I'm gonna be like wey, let's still do remote because I know I need a break and I've been dealing with this with my other pod too. I know I need a break and just a lot I know, but well, I'm talking with my therapist right now, episodes in the next years. I mean, the thing is well, I've been talking with my therapists about it too, like because we

do so much like we leave with a studio. We both have shows, we both do this, we both have other pods, we both have teams, we both are just also ourselves. We're also working on something else together. When I when I yeah, when I but when I think of a break, the idea of things being piled on when I get off that break keeps me from taking a break. And so I'm just also, you can't you can't take it. If you take a great way, the ship just piles up. It's a lot now it's it's

a lot. But I say that, like, if we do take a break, I understand, we love you. It'll be one week. Yeah, one is one weeks, I think we and even then, I mean, like, let's put up a patreot. I don't know what to do. I don't want to disconnect, you know, it's crazy. I don't know if anyone remembers when I deleted my IG and got super depressed. Deleted no choice, Okay, that's how I deleted it, and I went away and I was just really struggling. One of my friends asked me, like, how are you still putting

out horror episodes that? Oh, well, at least we recorded before. I wanted to kill myself for a month before that for me to just get better, get better, get better, get better, and then boom. Yeah. But yeah, sometimes you need a break. Okay, the break is coming. I'll tell you that I'm ready for them, right. I mean, I think contractually we have to double up if we take too long of a break. But y'all, y'all get your shows. Yeah,

well might yea might get some weeks with two episodes. Anyways, make sure you guys follow us on Patreon, this, patreon dot com, back slash four. But Decisions, you do have to type it all in because again algorithms say, hey, that's um. And then also, if you just want to see the full video tape to your w TF media studios, please go to our YouTube that's horrible decisions spelled horor you'll see it when you tune into us. And go to YouTube and tune into us. And again this has

been yet another episode of horborle Decisions. Ladies, I left everything you do. I just found something out. I'm freaking out. I have no clue what to do. I was just informed by my boyfriend that is X has herpes and did while they were together. She wasn't having an outbreak then they never fully had sex. I don't know what the funk that means, but I know your episode with Ella, that's still possible to even get it then, and it's extremely common, So I'm not upset over the possibility that

have her have her pies. I'm piste off that I was just informed of this almost a year into our relationship. He's never been tested for it or an STD in general. It was dumb and not like me to still have sex with him after that, but I immediately got tested on my own, but as discussed on Ella's episode, they don't test for herpes. Not caring about your own sexual health is one thing, but I feel like not caring

about your partner's sexual health is another. I don't care if I have it, like I said, but I just feel very betrayed and disrespected. I'm not sure what to do. He knows I'm mad at him, but with dumping him be over dramatic. I feel like hiding something is kind of a deal breaker. Please help me. I'm a Patreon. You can read this on there too. Um So she mentioned that she got tested, but really realize that they

don't test for her bees. That's only because you have to just ask, so they do test you for her bees. If you go in for an STD screening, however, you have to ask for them to include her pies. So she's just saying like she got tested after but but like, like you know, it's sometings you've got to request or it, so just go back and requested. I think the interesting thing is is dumping him over dramatic because she said, it's not about the herpes. It's about um the deal

breaker from hiding something. I'll be honest with you, and I surprised I'm even saying this, but I don't need to know if he realized he was hiding something. And here's why if a year later he told you, I yes, Like, I think here's the the interesting thing. You can be mad that he didn't care enough about your health because that is something that's super important that people don't give a funk about. Right, people care about themselves and people

are worried about their own ship. Not everyone is as conci conscientious about others around them. That's why people voted for Trump, right, That's like just a more over larger issue. People are not selfless like they need to be. That is an issue for you. Let that be the issue for you. But if he eventually told you, he probably never realized that he was quote unquote lying right, So I don't know if dumping him for that would be

over dramatic. I think dumping him should be because you feel like he doesn't care about that as much more than he hit it, because I don't know if they hid it. I think that this would be a time for you both to talk about your sexual health and be thing that he never went and got tested. To me, there's nothing technically wrong with him not disclosing the health of someone else. I think that this is something to

where he could both take as a learning lesson. But the fact that he didn't disclose something that could be

very private to someone else uh. To me. It's more so the fact that he never thought the need to go and get tested, which means he may not see herpes as a big deal, which means the two of you may need to open up about your views on sexual health as it pertains to as TVs and this could be the time to where you both go and get tested together, or you find or you find out from him why herpes isn't a big deal to him.

Maybe he feels like it's not that big of a deal as long as you don't get out right, or maybe he feels like or maybe he feels like so many people in the world. I mean, we talked about it even on the episode. Eighty percent of people have have some form of herpie simplex. Of course there's the one on your mouth and the one on your genitals, but also herpies can can end up in any moist area on your body. You can get hertpees and you're

goddamn armt pit. So I think that it's important for you guys to discuss your views on sexually transmitted disease and your sexual health and not use this as a time to to to badger him or or punish him by breaking up with him. But this is a chance for you to educate him and maybe see where his views are on this. Yeah, I think that's a really important thing, is that he may not just understand and um,

everything is a learning moment and a teaching moment. Excuse me, And when it happens like this, especially if we told you a year later, it doesn't sound like a lie. Um. Also, bitch, what is never fully had sex? Because you look white? Zooey? And I wonder if this is some white people because when white people say we hooked up, I'm like, what that means? I don't know what hooked up means. Do you know what it means? Man? Because I don't hooked

up without sex. Maybe just make people be like, yeah, we hooked up once and you're like, what's what I'm saying? Hooking hooking up the sex? That's what I thought. I'm but hooking up is the same way we talked about dating meaning something depending on the person or I mean, but we also say oral sex is sex, So my nigga's still sex. Okay, Well maybe that's what she means

they never fully had sex. When she said they never fully had sex, that made me think to myself, they drive or played and or right