¶ Frustrations and Ineptitude in Fixing Things Around the House
Cold plunge thought here's an area where i'm not very good when it comes to fixing things around the house i'm just terrible terrible for some reason i just can't do it a washing machine broke this last week and it's actually been broken for a week and a half called around around to get some help ordered apart it turns out it was the total wrong part and the thing that's so frustrating is that it's not even that i can't fix the washing machine it's that the stress of this thing
being broken and me not being able to fix it and not knowing how to and not knowing who to go to for help is, it's like this weight on my shoulders that I just have to deal with for however long that thing is broken.
¶ Feeling like a Failure and Seeking Help
And this happens all the time. Every time there's something that's broken, this is just one of my major weaknesses. And it drives me crazy. and I feel like I'm a failure I feel like I can't do the kinds of things that I should be able to do and I'm really smart and I can do a lot of other really great things but this one area just always gets me and even when I like take my time do PQ reps have patience with myself get somebody to help me. I still am just not very good at it and
¶ Accepting the Need for a Handyman and Finding Relief
I think I'm finally coming to the realization that it's okay that I'm not good at it and I just need to do things like call a handyman and have a handyman just come and fix all those things and I tell myself I can't do that because it's expensive, but when we bought a new washer and didn't have to worry about that anymore the weight off my my shoulders was incredible and it just felt so good.
I don't know why I put those things off like I do and why I make it so hard for myself, but I'm going to try to be better.
