For many of us, 'firsts' are filled with many emotions—excitement, fear, uncertainty, anxiety, etc. For me, I can't help but feel sad, anxious, and maybe even fearful. In this episode, I talk more about my feelings as I approach my expected due date (Jan 28th) and delve into things I have been doing/trying to do to ease the pain that I currently feel.
This episode is near and dear to my heart, as I open up with my guest Adanna about our abortion experiences. We talk about 'why', the partners we had during that time, our support system or lack thereof and so much more. A trigger warning to anyone who may have had an abortion, please take care of yourself as you listen to this episode.
Relationships teach us a lot about ourselves and one thing I’ve learnt since my last is to trust thyself to know. I pray that when our intuition speaks we listen. It’ll honestly save us from heartache, literally.
This, by far, is the hardest episode I have recorded. Not just because of the experience of having an abortion but sharing this experience with others - ya girl is scared. But, going through this experience and having others to talk to while I was in the thick of it made me realize how healing it is to share our truths with one another. This episode is dedicated to all those who have had an abortion, I see you. I am right there with you. *I do not own the right to the music*...
This feels so foreign, to go through the whole process of recording and uploading an episode, but here we are. In the beginning, on Oct 23rd, I stopped recording because it felt (and still does feel) weird to carry on life while several genocides are occurring around the world. So I took a break. However, little did I know what life had in store for me afterward LOL. Months passed and I found out I was pregnant, but because of reasons I would like to keep to myself, I decided to have an abortion...
Ever wondered about the thoughts that come after shaving ALL? your hair off ... I’m this episode Celeste and I explore the different thoughts and emotions we both felt after shaving our hair. We talk about freedom and pain surrounding our journey. Have you ever shaved your hair off? How did you feel? Why did you do it? How did it make you feel beautiful? SO curious to know! Leave a message or even DM on on IG.
Picture this, you go to a photoshoot that your friend organized. You weren't too sure if you were going to make it cause you took the wrong train and ended up being an hour late. You push through and got to meet some dope ass people. One person in particular you gravitated towards and loved listening to them work through their thoughts. Fast forward, its a Saturday and yall are sitting recording an episode in Prospect Park :) ... love to see it. In this episode, Calliope and I delve into the con...
Welcome back everyone to another episode of Behind Closed Doors Podcast! We're back with another solo episode for this week! Can't lie, I was nervous (and you'll definitely hear me say that throughout the episode). In this episode I talk about rejection being a form of redirection and protection, what it means to chase after a dream that doesn't seem to be working out, and trying to understand what makes past self and motivations from present self....
Welcome back to another episode of Behind Closed Doors. This episode I would have to say is one of my favorites. Not only was it filmed outside but it happened so organically. I went up with a friend, and one thing led to another, and BOOM an episode was recorded. This episode touches on many topics, from community to feeling our feelings to abstract art. Feel free to sit back, relax, and listen to Maria and me talk about everything....
Welcome back to another episode of Behind Closed Doors! This episode took me some timeee to record, and when I say time, I mean timeeeee. I started to get flustered and eventually frustrated from how hot it was and not being able to articulate what I wanted to, even after writing a whole script. I was very close to quitting. Decided to change locations and once again got flustered. But these two women passed in front of my camera and asked me what I was recording for and at that moment I realize...
Welcome Back, Everyone! We are entering season two of the Behind Closed Door podcast, where I hope to step out of my comfort zone and try new things. This season I've been faced with a lot of uncertainty; it often feels like I'm in a worldwide and can't find my footing. Knowing that, that I cannot control the things around me, I decided to focus on the thing that I can and that's how I spend my time. I started thinking about my podcast again and decided that this is the time to bring it back. Ca...
Welcome back to another episode of Behind Closed Doors. A podcast geared towards bringing conversations about life to the forefront. In this episode, we talk about the art of the pivot or the art of change, and what it feels like to change the direction of our lives. This episode came about due to my own personal endeavors and wanted to create a space where we can dive into and understand more about those "unwanted" feelings that arise during a process of change. I'm so happy that I was about to...
In today's episode, Alex and I decided to play a game of 'We're Not Really Strangers'. This episode was inspired by my love for deep connections as this game has a great way of digging out the vulnerability.
In a world that consistently tells us who we are, what we should be doing, and how we should be doing it, it makes it easy to see where a lot of our anxieties and doubts stem from. In my case, there have been several moments where I would allow comparisons to rule me and force me to think what I am doing is not good enough. That isn't the case. What we are doing right now is the best that we can possibly do as twenty sums. This is the period where we fuck up, learn and move on, this is the perio...
What does love mean to you? What has influenced who you love and who loves you? In this episode, Jade and I touched on multiple different topics. We talked about the love that we accept, loving based on the love we receive, dating, and so much more. Enjoy! Jade's information: https://www.instagram.com/ohmyjadie
We have all yearned to feel seen at one point in our lives. In this episode, Maya Nicole and I talk about wanting to feel seen in different aspects of our lives; relationships, careers, etc. This episode takes you on a journey, buckle up and enjoy the ride. Where to find Maya Nicole: https://www.instagram.com/mayaaanicole__ https://linktr.ee/MLDEFIN3D
Welcome back to another episode from my segment, "Understandin the Journey," where I invite those around me to understand their steps to get where they are. In today's episode, I have the privilege of talking with Leila! I've known Leila since 2015, and to see her growth throughout these years has been eye-opening. Of course, I've been seen her growth from the outside looking in, and in this episode, I was able to see it from a closer point of view. I hope you enjoy the episode!
In this episode, Alex (ig: justalextoday) and I delve deeper into the conversation surrounding life as an international student; our mental health, the difficulties of enavigating life away from home, and so much more. This is one of the most personal and vulnerable episodes to this day, please enjoy!!
Welcome to a small segment on my podcast called: 'Understanding the Journey', where I sit with different creatives, for lack of better words, and understand their journey. In this new episode, Poya, an editorial model based in Houston, TX, allowed me the pleasure to understand her journey and all that came with it. Poya Seck's contact and Instagram: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ps.yourstruly/ Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTC_NBsPy8vkw41B4SClYTg?app=desktop...
In this new episode, Felisha and I dropped so many gems. We talked about boundaries; setting, revisiting, and holding on to them, and also about rejection. Rejection oftentimes leaves us thinking that we are the inherent problem in the situation, that because we are the way we are that is the reason why we were rejected. However, that is not the case. Rejection is often redirection in disguise because it leads us to the people and places we were meant to meet and be. If you haven't already pleas...
In this episode, Daniela Espinosa and I talk about understanding Tarot as a tool used on her spiritual and healing journey. Like all the others, definitely opened my mind to understand that healing and the tools that are available to us can be used to our advantage if we just open our minds to them! What are some things that stood out to you while listening .. email me below or message me on Instagram! I would love to read. your responses! - Daniela's Espinosa's contact: Instagram: https://www.i...
In this episode Maya Nicole and I talk about going through our healing process whilst being at home, walking in our most authentic self and not caring what others have to say about it! What are some things that stood out to you while listening .. email me below! I would love to read. your responses! Want to join me on this journey? Want to be apart of the conversation? Follow it: @hakneefahg You can send your questions, comments, and inquiries to: holdinspacewhanifah@gmail.com Support this podca...
In this episode, Anya and I try to dissect the word "empathy" and what it means for us, what it looks like for others to be empathetic with us, and the boundaries associated with giving and receiving empathy. Want to join me on this journey? Want to be apart of the conversation? Follow it: @hakneefahg You can send your questions, comments, and inquiries to: holdinspacewhanifah@gmail.com Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/behindclosedoors/support...
In this episode, Frances and I talk about our own personal struggles with endometriosis; the ways in which we had to self-advocate for our pains, deal with being gaslit by medical professionals, and deal with medical racism. - Frances' information: Website: wwww.francesbukovsky.com Instagram: www.instagram.com/frances_bukovsky/ Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/FrancesBukovsky - Want to join me on this journey? Want to be apart of the conversation? Follow it: @hakneefahg You can send your questio...
In this episode, Eva and I talk deeply about our personal experiences with suicidal ideation: our pervasive thoughts, and the feeling surrounding suicidal ideation. We even shed light on the strong black women narrative and the ways in which it can be very detrimental to our mental health. - Eva's personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/xevajc/ Black on Black Education Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/blackonblacked/ - Daniela's personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/danielaa.es...
In this episode, Krystal (ig: uhkrystal) and I talk about living life with PTSD, depression, anxiety, and forgiveness. We open up a lot about our own personal experiences and the ways in which er have been dealing with it. Want to join me on this journey? Want to be apart of the conversation? Follow it: @hakneefahg You can send your questions, comments, and inquiries to: holdinspacewhanifah@gmail.com Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/behindclosedoors/support...
In this episode, Alex (ig: justalextoday) and I delve deeper into the conversation surrounding "purpose": how do we find it? can it change? does choosing the wrong person mean your identity also changes? Link to Alex's podcast: https://open.spotify.com/show/1f5op5JEbVlrDd46RWJu16?si=e8ismK30QnaL_w_JbgbxBg To help give the conversation an added bonus, we explore the idea of purpose thru the lens of Joe's life from Pixar's movie: "Soul". Want to join me on this journey? Want to be apart of the con...
In this podcast episode, I invite my good friend Rebecca to come and have a chat about loneliness. After having our own private discussion (i.e. our little vent session) we realized that not a lot of people opening talk about loneliness and the ways in which it can be perpetuated by the people closest to us or even perpetuated within ourselves. I hope you enjoy this episode. Want to join me on this journey? Want to be apart of the conversation? Follow it: @hakneefahg You can send your questions,...
In this podcast episode, I invite my good friend Rebecca to come and have a chat about loneliness. After having our own private discussion (i.e. our little vent session) we realized that not a lot of people opening talk about loneliness and the ways in which it can be perpetuated by the people closest to us or even perpetuated within ourselves. I hope you enjoy this episode. Want to join me on this journey? Want to be apart of the conversation? Follow it: @hakneefahg You can send your questions,...
We delve into body dysmorphia and the ways in which it is affected in Caribbean society by Carnival culture, diet culture, and social media. Want to join me on this journey? Want to be apart of the conversation? Follow it: @hakneefahg You can send your questions, comments, and inquiries to: holdinspacewhanifah@gmail.com Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/behindclosedoors/support
