What If Protecting Yourself Is the Honest Thing to Do?

It is happening. It is just a slow process. I ended up losing my voice completely for three or four days last week. That was a journey in and of itself since I talk all day long, both personally and professionally. So that was quite the experience. But as you can hear, my voice is back. It's just not back to 100%. So hopefully by this time next week, I will be sounding like myself again. I wanted to let you know that I will be recording a bonus episode of the You're Not Crazy podcast.

It will be posted for all of the Confident Boundary members and bonus podcast episode subscribers. Over the last week or two, I've asked people in the membership to send me their questions and they've sent some really great ones in. So I'm really excited. And I think I'm going to start doing this every so often. I think I'm going to devote one of the two monthly bonus podcast episodes

to a question-answer session. So if you're interested in checking those out, check the show notes. Everyone in the Confident Boundaries membership gets access to bonus podcast episodes, or you can subscribe just to the bonus podcast episodes as well. So definitely check that out. It's going to be a great episode. I will probably still be sounding like this when I record it. So bear with me, but I promise I will get it out to you ASAP. Let's jump into the episode.

One thing I want to talk about today is honesty. For so many of the people that I have worked with throughout the years, for myself, honesty is very important in being an authentic human being who is truthful and dependable and reliable. These are really important values to a lot of cycle breakers. I have noticed quite often people get really stuck on this idea that they do not want to lie to their parent. They don't want to withhold information from their parent because that feels dishonest.

And so I think this is worth talking about on the podcast because this is a place where people really struggle with boundaries. There is a very black and white belief system around this that I think gets in the way a lot of times. Not surprising, we grew up in a black and white world. It is unshocking that we would hit a roadblock in our healing journey due to viewing things through a black and white lens.

Before you turn your vodcast off and say, Tori, I'm not interested in you telling me I should start lying. Hear me out. Let me explain. I value honesty as well. I consider myself a pretty honest person and I try to be truthful. What I want to say is that there is a big difference between being a hundred percent honest about every aspect of your life with every person in

your life and being someone who is intentionally a deceptive person. Those are very extremes, right? Never telling a lie and always sharing every honest, detailed answer to anything you're ever asked by anyone. That's a very extreme version of honesty. Being someone who is intentionally deceitful and manipulative is the polar end of the spectrum. Where we need to be on our healing journey when it comes to most things is somewhere in the gray area.

And by that, I'm not telling you that you need to be deceptive at all. I don't think that you have to lie at all. I also want to reframe the way that you're looking at being honest. You're not required to provide the same amount of disclosure around your life to everyone in your life, including your parents. It is not dishonest to only share details that you are comfortable sharing with the person that you're sharing them with.

And I know that that sounds like such a simple idea, but for so many of us, it's really not because we weren't allowed to have thoughts that were our own growing up. We were not allowed to have our own opinions or views or desires or plans that differed from what our parents wanted for us. And the idea of standing firm in our truth and our voice and our opinions is something that we've had to work really hard for. And so I get it because I've lived it too. And I still do. I still live this.

I want to be authentically me. I want to be the version of me that I always wanted my family to know and to see and to understand. I want to be myself. I don't want to be playing pretend that feels awful and just the last thing I want to do. At the same time, I'm also super intentional about what information I share about my life and with whom I share that information. Let's just look at the podcast. I talk a lot about my life and my journey

on the podcast. There are also things about my life and my journey that I will never share on the podcast. There are details, there are experiences, there are things that I have dealt with throughout my life, many of them, but not all of them, in regards to the relationship with my mom growing up. And there are a lot of things that I would never tell anyone outside my closest, most intimate circle of people. Those are people like therapists, my spouse, my closest girlfriends.

I would never share that information with people outside of my most intimate circle because that information, those experiences that I've lived, these things are very emotionally vulnerable for me. There are things that I'm still working on healing because I'm human. We never cross a finish line when it comes to that. There are things where if I were to share it and people were to take that and misconstrue it or criticize me for it, these are things that I would feel a ton of pain around.

It would be really hard for me to deal with. The things that I share on this podcast are things that I have done a lot of healing work around. If someone were to listen to this podcast and have something negative or critical to say about it, I mean, to be honest, it would make me feel sad, but not because I expose part of my trauma. It wouldn't lead to me being further traumatized. It makes me sad when I see someone ranks the podcast one star.

That makes me sad because I love this podcast and I put a lot of time and energy into it and I care about it and I want it to be helpful. So those things make me sad, but they don't make me sad because I have given someone access to a part of me and my story that I'm still figuring out and I'm still working out.

And that is a really roundabout way of saying that I think it's so important that when we look at honesty and being honest with people, including but not limited to our parents, we need to really look at it through this lens of it's not about telling everything that I'm asked or nothing at all. It's about creating boundaries around how much of my personal world, how much of my life and my feelings and my plans and my actions and my intent and my

goals do they get access to? And only you get to decide that for yourself. Only I get to decide that for myself. But that should be an active decision. That is a big part of healing. It is looking at healing through this really gray lens, this very flexible lens of I can withhold parts of myself that are not safe with my parent. And that is not a deceitful or a dishonest thing to do.

I can just say no. If they ask me something that I don't want to share with them, if they ask me for information and I don't want their feedback on it, I can just decline to answer. Something came up during a group coaching call last week, and this was such a great point. One of the people in the coaching call had said, if your parent is mistreating you, you are allowed to get up and walk away. No matter where you are.

Even if you're in a family therapy session, you're allowed to get up and leave. That is something you are allowed to do. And I think this is such an important thing to call out and to say out loud because it is so true. You do not have to be an audience for your parent while they are mistreating you. You don't have to give them that audience. Yeah, it's gonna piss them off if you don't, but okay, that's their journey. They're already pissed off.

You do not have to give them an audience to go through their drama situation. They're berating you, they're criticizing you, they're shaming you. You don't have to take it. When you were a kid, you didn't have a choice. But as an adult, you very much have a choice now. And you don't have to give them that audience. You don't have to tell them aspects of your life that you don't trust them with respecting or treating kindly.

You know, again, coming back to my close circle, these are people who I trust completely. These are people who I've lived a lot of life with, I've known for a very long time, who have shown me that they are worthy of my trust because they don't throw things back in my face when they're upset with me. They don't threaten me, they don't misuse vulnerable information that I've shared with them. These are safe people who care about me and respect me and want the best for me.

And so I think when you're really looking at being a truthful and honest person and figuring out how to be that person in your relationship with your parent, that it's really important to remember your parent is not a safe person to be open and honest about with everything. If they were, you wouldn't be here listening to my podcast right now. You're here because they're not a safe person.

And so I really want you to think about creating boundaries around honesty that respect your well-being and prioritize your sense of safety. That is my philosophy on honesty when it comes to being

a cycle breaker and looking at things through a more flexible lens that offers self-protection so that we can heal and get out of this cycle of meeting our parents' needs before we meet our own. Because we all deserve so much better than that. Thank you so much, as always, for joining me for this episode of the Year Not Crazy podcast.

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There's a 15-minute video, which is the meat of the course, a couple shorter videos that are one or two minutes each, and a mini workbook with two worksheets that are really going to help give you clarity as to why your boundaries haven't worked thus far. This is the step one before you're ready to take my boundaries workshop. So head on over there, sign up, and I'll see you next week. Bye.