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WTF is on my Mind?!

Mark Vicentewww.markvicente.com

Author, Speaker, Whistleblower and award-winning Director Mark Vicente was behind the sleeper hit “What The Bleep Do We Know?!” Several books have been written about the film’s remarkable grassroots marketing campaign, which led to its unprecedented success.

Mark was born in Johannesburg, South Africa in 1965. Taking his first photograph at age four, he quickly discovered his passion for being behind the camera. After attending film and drama school in South Africa, he began working his way up the ranks of the camera department, from Assistant to Operator to Cinematographer. His first big break came as Director of Photography on the musical “SARAFINA,” starring Whoopi Goldberg. In 1992, he set his sights on Hollywood and relocated to Los Angeles to shoot his first studio picture for Disney;  “FATHERHOOD,” starring Patrick Swayze and Halle Berry. At the age of 26, he became one of the youngest cinematographers to shoot a big-budget studio picture. 

Over the next few decades, he went on to shoot an additional 14 feature films and numerous documentaries, music videos and commercials. Mark soon found there were in him, untold stories he desperately wanted to express as a Director. He was driven by the conviction that tales of greatness, nobility and introspection could be exciting and financially successful. 

Perhaps because of the very obvious race and class iniquities in South Africa, he found himself propelled to question certain fundamental assumptions at a very young age. Beliefs about human behavior, cosmology, religion, existentialism and mysticism. Along the way, he stumbled into a few situations where leaders with malignant pathologies (masquerading as saintly philosophers) spoke the talk of self-improvement but did untold damage to their followers... and him. 

Looking back, he can now say he has been in at least two cults. His last foray into personal growth and his defection from NXIVM was chronicled in the HBO series “The Vow”. Mark and a few plucky whistleblowers exposed the criminal activities of the organization, resulting in multiple arrests and indictments. He doesn’t consider himself a cult expert, but by his own admission, “I’m an expert in being screwed over, waking up, and knowing how to spot them.” He’s got a pretty salty approach to most things and is fascinated by the myriad patterns in the human psychodynamic that create the best and the worst in civilization. 

Join Mark as he unpacks a whole range of topics to do with: Psychology, Consciousness, Morality, Narcissistic Abuse, Spirituality, Cults, Propaganda, Science, Filmmaking, and Philosophy.You never quite know what you’re going to get, as it really does depend on… WTF is on his mind?!

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Episodes

Weaponizing Filmmaking

In this Episode: Filmmaking can do extraordinary things... move people to the greatest heights and the deepest depths of themselves, and it can also be weaponized. Russian Cinema. Lev Kuleshov explains juxtaposition. Hitchcock waxes on about the power of editing. Using editing and omission to perform character assassination. The power of music to play the human instrument. Filmmakers know how to get the audience to feel anything they want. Romanticizing Psychopathy. The Empire and the Rebellion....

Jun 20, 202341 min

Those F*@king Conspiracy Theorists!

In this episode… conspiracy theorists are idiots, right? Lloyd Evans - ex-Jehovah's Witness writer, activist and filmmaker. Author of "The Reluctant Apostate," https://www.youtube.com/@LloydEvans Cults to Consciousness - Shelise Ann Sola— former devout Mormon. Stories of claiming independence after leaving high-control groups. https://www.youtube.com/@CultstoConsciousness Graham Hancock https://grahamhancock.com/ Netflix - Ancient Apocalypse https://youtu.be/DgvaXros3MY Conspiracy Theory https:/...

Jun 11, 202318 min

What is a Cult?

In this Episode: The twenty 25 characteristics and tactics of a cult! DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A MENTAL HEALTH PROFESSIONAL. THIS INFORMATION IS FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES ONLY AND IS NOT INTENDED TO BE A SUBSTITUTE FOR CLINICAL CARE. PLEASE CONSULT A HEALTHCARE PROVIDER FOR GUIDANCE. The first article I read that helped with my deprogramming. http://www.dreichel.com/Checklist_of_Cult_Characte.htm Visit my Patreon Page: patreon.com/markvicente ICSA https://www.icsahome.com/ Janja Lalich https://www....

May 15, 202357 min

Cancel Culture & The Hero's Journey

In this episode: Cancel Culture is a term that is used in modern-day society. But does it have it's roots much further back? Has it been going on for centuries, and is it a good thing or a bad thing? What does cancel have to do with our unexpressed shadow? We take a look at the consequences of this internet era 'struggle session' and what it might be doing to human beings and society at large? Support the show The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the...

Apr 18, 202314 min

The 4th "F" (FAWNING) with Dr. Ingrid Clayton

In this episode: Have you ever felt ashamed of how you went along with an abuser for months, maybe even years, even though a part of you knew the situation was toxic? That's known as FAWNING. This episode will help demystify that very normal trauma response. Dr. Ingrid Clayton will help us to understand the 4 F's (Fight, Flight, Freeze and FAWN) while discussing her own story and aspects of the NXIVM Cult. Ingrid Clayton, PhD is a writer and clinical psychologist in private practice in Los Angel...

Mar 06, 20231 hr 37 min

Hypothesis of God

In this Episode: Stolen Youth. A memory of a NXIVM Level 2 module that really stuck. Is 'God' an early development somatic impulse? Transference of mysticism. Seeing our leaders as omnipotent parents. Support the show The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business in...

Feb 21, 202320 min

Airports, The Ethics Police & The WEFC

In this episode, a discussion about the magical profit margin in airports, the 'Ethics Police' in cults and social media, the denial of evil, and the true motives of the WEFC. Support the show The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anyth...

Feb 13, 202320 min

Emotionally Puckered Up

In this episode, a short discussion about emotional repression and its effects on us. Support the show The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything. Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/MarkVicente Website: www.markvicente.com Youtube: ht...

Jan 30, 202317 min

Mike Rinder - A Billion Years

In this Episode, a conversation with Mike Rinder about The Vow (Season 2) and his book: A Billion Years: My Escape From a Life at the Highest Levels of Scientology Mike is a former senior executive of the Church of Scientology International (CSI) who has become a prominent whistleblower against abuses in scientology and other organizations. He is best known today for his role alongside Leah Remini in their Emmy-winning A&E TV series TV Leah Remini: Scientology and the Aftermath. Over 3 seaso...

Dec 06, 20221 hr 18 min

'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 6 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 6 will be discussed! In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 6 (NXIVM) ‘Letter to the Inside’ in 4 parts is available on all Podcast platforms and Youtube. 'The Vow' Opening Title Sequence Music Son Lux – "Dream State (Run From It) [feat. Bonnie Piesse]" (Official Audio) A Little Bit Culty Podcast https://www.instagram.com/alittlebitculty/ Consent Awareness Network #FGKIA: Freely Given, Knowledgeable Informed Agreement https://www.instagram.com...

Nov 22, 20221 hr 59 min

'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 5 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 5 will be discussed! In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 5 Daniel Shaw, LCSW Traumatic Narcissism and Recovery - Leaving the Prison of Shame and Fear End Titles Episode 5: "Regret" sung by Bonnie Piesse; co-written with Reinhold Heil, Michael Tuller and Mac Quayle. (NXIVM) ‘Letter to the Inside’ in 4 parts is available on all Podcast platforms and Youtube. 'The Vow' Opening Title Sequence Music Son Lux – "Dream State (Run From It) [feat. Bo...

Nov 15, 202252 min

'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 4 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 4 will be discussed! In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 4. End Title Music: "Unraveling" by Bonnie Piesse Music and Lyrics by Bonnie Piesse Produced by Bonnie Piesse and Eric Margen Lyrics everything everything is wrong there's nothing left of how we knew it breaking down all the crooked lines unraveling everything everything is gone there's no way back you can't erase memories are falling to ground spiraling it's who you who you are not w...

Nov 08, 202257 min

(NXIVM) Letter to the Inside - Part 4 of 4

In this Episode: (PART 4 of 4) In March 2018 I recognized Keith Raniere was about to be arrested. Along with my fellow whistleblowers, we had spent the previous 9 months trying to get people out of NXIVM. I made one final attempt en masse to get my friends (true believers) to wake up before Raniere was arrested. I wrote a long letter to a select few friends on ‘the inside’ on March 10th, 2018 - 16 days before Keith Raniere was arrested in a Mexican Villa on March 26th, 2018. I sent it mostly to ...

Nov 05, 202233 min

'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 3 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 3 will be discussed! WARNING! I discuss the ‘Fright Experiments’. Extreme Violence is mentioned. In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 3. A South African accent... https://www.tiktok.com/@samihallsays?lang=en https://www.instagram.com/samihall/ Bridge over the River Kwai (1957) Directed by David Lean https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Bridge_on_the_River_Kwai (NXIVM) ‘Letter to the Inside’ in 4 parts is available on all Podcast platforms and Y...

Nov 01, 202253 min

(NXIVM) Letter to the Inside - Part 3 of 4

In this Episode: (PART 3 of 4) In March 2018 I recognized Keith Raniere was about to be arrested. Along with my fellow whistleblowers, we had spent the previous 9 months trying to get people out of NXIVM. I made one final attempt en masse to get my friends (true believers) to wake up before Raniere was arrested. I wrote a long letter to a select few friends on ‘the inside’ on March 10th, 2018 - 16 days before Keith Raniere was arrested in a Mexican Villa on March 26th, 2018. I sent it mostly to ...

Oct 29, 202221 min

'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 2 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 2 will be discussed! In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 2. Opening Title Sequence Music Son Lux – "Dream State (Run From It) [feat. Bonnie Piesse]" (Official Audio) A Little Bit Culty Podcast https://www.instagram.com/alittlebitculty/ Consent Awareness Network #FGKIA: Freely Given, Knowledgeable Informed Agreement https://www.instagram.com/standfirmvoice/ Mark Vicente YouTube - Holy Deception Mark Vicente - Statement at Raniere's Sentencin...

Oct 25, 20221 hr 13 min

(NXIVM) Letter to the Inside - Part 2 of 4

In this Episode: (PART 2 of 4) In March 2018 I recognized Keith Raniere was about to be arrested. Along with my fellow whistleblowers, we had spent the previous 9 months trying to get people out of NXIVM. I made one final attempt en masse to get my friends (true believers) to wake up before Raniere was arrested. I wrote a long letter to a select few friends on ‘the inside’ on March 10th, 2018 - 16 days before Keith Raniere was arrested in a Mexican Villa on March 26th, 2018. I sent it mostly to ...

Oct 21, 202220 min

'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 1 - Debrief

SPOILER ALERT! Scenes from Episode 1 will be discussed! In this Episode: Debrief of 'The Vow' Season 2 - Episode 1. A Little Bit Culty Podcast https://www.instagram.com/alittlebitculty/ Cult Definitions Steve Hassan’s BITE Model What is a Cult? Whiteboard Animation Explaining the BITE Model Dr. Janja Lalich - Definition and Explanation of the Word “Cult” Rick Ross - Warning Signs Mark Vicente YouTube - Holy Deception Mark Vicente - Statement at Raniere's Sentencing Support the show The views and...

Oct 19, 202255 min

(NXIVM) Letter to the Inside - Part 1 of 4

In this Episode: (PART 1 of 4) In March 2018 I recognized Keith Raniere was about to be arrested. Along with my fellow whistleblowers, we had spent the previous 9 months trying to get people out of NXIVM. I made one final attempt en masse to get my friends (true believers) to wake up before Raniere was arrested. I wrote a long letter to a select few friends on ‘the inside’ on March 10th, 2018 - 16 days before Keith Raniere was arrested in a Mexican Villa on March 26th, 2018. I sent it mostly to ...

Oct 16, 202240 min

'The Vow' Season 1 - Q&A

In this episode: Answering questions about 'The Vow'Season 1 and an ANNOUNCEMENT about multipart WTF podcast episodes that will drop during the release of 'The Vow' Season 2 on HBOMax. 'The Vow' Season 2 will start airing on October 17th, 2022 on HBO. Website: https://www.hbo.com/the-vow ESP (NXIVM) Mission Statement https://www.markvicente.com/esp-mission-statement Support the show The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position...

Oct 09, 20221 hr 1 min

Spiritual Bypassing

In this episode: What is Spiritual Bypassing? The problem with 'being above it all'. Dissociating from difficult feelings. Robert Augustus Masters write a book on Spiritual Bypassing, then abused his students. Toxic positivity protects abusers. The inability to acknowledge darkness. Teachers who haven't dealt with their psychological shit. Creating a kind of hell for yourself because you're not allowed to feel human. No compassion for self or others. Magically changing timelines to another reali...

Oct 05, 202216 min

F*ck Adversity

In this episode: Getting into the cold ocean and disillusionment with the principle of "pushing against adversity". The ESP/NXIVM Credo to overcome the body and vilify comfort. Satiation was deemed weak and unprincipled. An entire intensive dedicated to proving that true love = the ability to withstand pain. Calorie counting and skinniness are a requirement for virtue and nobility. And finally, redefining pushing against adversity and embracing the suck. Beware of the intent of the leader pushin...

Oct 02, 202218 min

WTF is on my Mind?! - Introduction

In this episode: Starting this podcast. A lot of important things to talk about. Regarding: "The Vow". Releasing certain things that never came out. Requests from friends. Support the show The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything....

Sep 30, 202214 min
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