Shitty Gritty pens ... and worthiness

I say random , crazy shit , which is why I called this podcast the way that I did , and I really hate long drawn out intros . So let's fucking go .

Whenever you are trying to start something new in order to achieve a next level you , a different you , a different version of you , an up-level version of you , the new you I always recommend to my clients and I do this for myself every single time I recommend they purchase something that is brand new and they're absolutely obsessed with it , like they love it so

much . In most cases , I am going to suggest that you go out and purchase a new journal . Oh , my gosh , I have this journal right now . It is so pretty , I love it so much , I almost this journal right now . It is so pretty , I love it so much , I almost .

I have this like argument going on in the back of my mind Do I buy it Because I am starting this new course ? Right ? I'm doing these new courses worth it ? And what the fuck did she just manifest ? And when you sign up for those , you're going to get my email of what you need to do right , fucking now .

And one of the things that I suggest is go out and get yourself a beautiful journal and make sure that your pen writes nicely . Now you don't have to buy a $200 pen , but you need to purchase something that writes smoothly . Side note , I should do a whole podcast on journaling . But when you're journaling , you don't want to use those shitty pens that you got .

You know , you stole from the front desk of your hotel in 1974 . And you know the ones like it's , like you're building muscle as you're , as you're writing , because they drag and they're gritty and oh my gosh , I hate them .

If you're trying to let your intuition flow through your hands , if you're trying to just release shit , if you're trying to just create stuff , no matter what the goal is in your journaling , if you are trying , if you're like paying more attention to the grit in your pen , then it is just flowing out . Nothing is going to flow .

If your pen is fucking gritty and shitty , it's not You're going to be annoyed , or maybe that's just me . No , it's not , it's everyone . All we're doing is paying attention to the fact that it's taking . You know , all of the muscle that we can . We're building up our , our dominant hand muscle and not the other one .

The other one is flailing away and we are just writing and writing , and writing and we're exhausted . That was my rant on pens . I really , really , really have a thing with pens . Ps . I also toss them out if they don't have apps . If I've lost the cap or someone has lost the cap , I toss them out , and I hate pencils . I think I have a problem .

Anyway , okay , back of the bus . Anyway , okay , back up the bus . But I really think that it's important that if you're going to take on any challenge I don't care what it is if you decide you're gonna take my Worth , it course you're gonna get an email from me right off the fucking hop that says go and grab a beautiful journal and a nicely writing pen .

Why ? Because when we invest in ourselves like that , when we purchase something with the intention to signify our next level self , that shifts our energy , almost immediately we grab the journal . We remember our body . Even just picking up the journal , our body remembers this is my next level self . This is what I'm doing for me .

I purchased this because I'm fucking worth it . And don't tell me that you can't afford the $20 for a journal , because right now I'm telling you if you're going to go to McDonald's for lunch , you're probably going to spend $30 on a shitty salad and one big Mac , like it's crazy , right . So what are you feeling Like ?

What is the energy that you're feeling If you're going to go out and buy a journal ? What like look at the journals and go , ok , what feels like my next level self ? What feels special to me ? What would make me feel like this , like I'm investing in myself and it means that I'm worth it .

You don't have to spend a ton of money , but in these cases , if you're really going to up-level and you're not going to be doing a deep dive into your shadows , but you're really creating this energy of I'm worth it , I'm going to work on myself . I am going to step into my next level .

That doesn't logically say shitty hillbilly notebook from my kid's back closet that he's half done three pages of math in worth it . Or manifesting , or stepping into that next level self , the visioning that we're going to be doing in this course . That suggests beautiful journal that feels nice in your hands .

I have this journal that I got , actually last Christmas , I believe . My daughter picked it out and I love it so much . I have purchased several that look exactly the same . Shout out to Staples . I need to go and get another one , but it is . I love the color . It's sort of this deep teal . I love the color .

It's sort of this deep teal and it I it exactly matches my very first pair of SJP shoes . Also and she knows that I love this color but also it has leaves on it , sort of um etched into it , and it kind of feels like leather it's not , but it feels like it sort of , and it's got these leaves that are etched into it .

I like feeling the journal and the leaves represent growth to me . I'm just obsessed with it and every time I see it I just think , oh , next level me . If I were going to be doing a course on shadow work or I was going to be doing a course on like releasing all this heavy , dark shit , I would say grab a Hillroy notebook , man .

Like go grab a Hillroy notebook from the back of your kid's closet with the math in it and two pages of biology , and start there , just start scratching away .

Still , I'm going to say don't grab the pen from like okay , tire , grab a nice writing pen so that it helps you to release all the shit , but I'm going to tell you that you're going to burn it anyway . Right , like this isn't visioning , this isn't . I'm going to tell you that you're going to burn it . So who cares ? Who cares ? Get the Hill Roy notebook .

But for up-leveling , for visioning , for thinking about , dreaming about your next level self , for really moving into this next version of you that has the things that you want to achieve , I want you to really find something that just feels good , feels like you've invested in yourself , feels like a nice new pair of underwear , you know , oh , it makes such a

difference , especially we moms . We moms and if you're listening to this podcast , you might be midlife as well but we moms will spend so much fucking money on our kids . We'll buy them the best new pair of cleats or the most amazing I mean kids these days . Have you taken a look ? They're in grade four and they have highlights in their hair .

You're spending $200 on their haircut and then you're wearing old underwear with holes in it . You know we deserve , we are worth investing in ourselves . We are worth $25 of a beautiful journal that has gold on the edges of the papers , just stepping into that energy every single day , having a pen . I mean I like okay , I should show .

My daughter has these pens . Now I'm just going to . I've got a bunch of them . Where are they from ? True red , I don't know . Well , they're from Staples and they're called true red , t R U red . They're not red , they're black . That is misleading . But they write so nicely . They're not expensive pens , you

don't have to . I also have two beautiful fancy pens that I absolutely love , that have the refills , like those are my fancier moments . But I also like writing with these , like Sharpie pens . But like find a pen that just feels good . You don't have to spend a ton of money .

But like invest in yourself enough so that every single moment you remember in the morning when you get up to journal or in the morning when you get up to do your to-do list , no matter what it is that you have shown yourself that you are worthy of amazing things that you want to achieve .

I look forward to bringing you along on this journey and I will see you in the next episode .