ep 26: mabilis ma-attach, matagal mag move-on pt. 2

Hi ako nga pala si Will and this is Will Talks and welcome sa episode 26 part 2 Mabilis ma-attach, matagal mag-move on and currently we are now live here on TikTok Pero hello Spotify people. Maraming maraming salamat sa pagsistream sa last episode natin which is yung part 1 ng episode 26. Grabe super. Super nakakatuwa. Like, we are now top 8 sa top charts ng Philippines sa Spotify at sa podcast. I mean, pero sa trending, we are now top 2.

So congrats to us. Congrats to us. And by the way, dito sa mga TikTok people, this is a sub-only chat. So ayun, subscriber only ang mga makakapag-chat. So please, please do subscribe dito sa... sa TikTok live natin. And we are currently live dito sa second account ko. Because my main account got banned.

meron na siyang account ban warning ngayon. So, quick story lang para sa mga Spotify people who are listening ngayon. Para lang alam nyo, kung gusto nyo manood ng live stream ni Will Talks every day, I try as much as everyday. Ayan. Dito. Dito kayo sa ano? Dito sa TikTok. Na isa. Nalagay ko naman dyan sa description. Pero ayun. This is about...

people na mabibilis ma-attach pero matagal mag-move on. Kung napanood nyo or nakinig kayo sa last episode ko, kitang-kita nyo naman, meron dun mga one week lang. Na-attach na pero nag-move on 3 months. One week. One week magkausap pero ang pag-move on, 3 months. Pero ayun. Ako, I'm really excited to read your stories tonight. This is episode 26, part 2. Grabe. Yung mga stories last time, mayroon pa dun ako naalala yung My could've been My could've been And

Spotify people, TikTok people, I hope you're ready. And thank you for all the people who are following this podcast and this stream right now here on TikTok. Please do follow this account. Let's get down to our first story. So this person said, Sa bawat gabing lumilipas, akala ko okay na ako. Akala ko nakalaya na ako sa sakit. Sa alaala. Pero mali pala ako. Kasi paano ka nga ba talaga makakamove on kung araw-araw mo pa rin siyang nakikita? Sa stories. Sa mga shared posts.

sa mga reposts, at ang masakit pa, masinga na siya. Habang ako, naiiwan pa rin sa mga salitang binitawan niya nung kami pa yung nag-uusap. Yes po. Walang label. Walang kami. Every day and every night, I remember everything. Lahat ng memories natin, kulitan, tawanan, at yung mga late night talks na sa sobrang late, lagi kitang nakakatulukan. Nakakatawa eh. Hindi ko inasahan to. From someone who used to just reply sa stories ko,

Naging lover ko. Tapos ngayon, ikaw na yung pinakamalaking sakit na nararamdaman ko. As time goes by, bumabalik sa isip ko yung sinabi mong Ikaw ang magiging escort ko sa dibuho. Sobrang saya ko nun. Pero ngayon, parang ang layo na ng possibility. Parang ang hirap ng maniwala. na mangyayari pa yun. Bilit kitang iniiwasan. Pero ang ironic, kasi habang iniiwasan kita, mas lalo lang kitang hinahanap. Mas lalo lang akong nahuhulog.

Ang pinakamahirap, ikaw lagi ang naaalala ko sa maliliit na bagay. Kapag may humahawak sa buhok ko, kapag may tumatapik sa likod ko, o kahit sa mga simpleng litrato na gandang-ganda ako sa sarili ko. Pero ang una kong naisip, magugustuhan niya kaya to? I know everything happens for a reason but still, I wish I knew the reason why I had to lose someone. I wanted to keep forever. If given the chance, ikaw talaga ang greatest love ko. Pero ngayon tanggap ko na, ikaw din ang greatest pain ko.

Pero kahit masakit, salamat. Dahil sa'yo, natuto ako magmahal. Masaktan. At higit sa lahat, matutong parelain. Kahit hindi pa hanggang. Unang story.

Unang story, ganun agad. Sa mga PA ko, sa dalawang PA ko, kay Alia, tsaka kay Mia, na namili na mga story na to. Unang story! Natuto akong palayain. Natuto akong magpalaya kahit hindi pahanda. Para sa mga taong nakasub sa atin ngayon. Nagpalaya ka na ba? Kahit hindi ka pahanda. Sabi ni Kat Balagbag, OMSIM! OMSIM! I mean... I've read somewhere that... Kung bakit mabilis ma-attach yung mga tao. I don't know if I'm right. Nabasa ko lang naman to. Kasi ito yung mga feelings.

na hindi nila naramdaman dati. Na feeling tuloy nila pag mayroong naging mabait sa kanila. Yun, nauulog sila. Kapag mayroong... Sumasama sa kanila, pag merong nagtatanong sa kanila kung okay lang sila, pag merong caring sa kanila, kasi for the longest time, hindi naman nila... naranasan, or hindi naman nila naramdaman, tanungin kung okay lang sila. Kung... Kung meron bang taong may... pakialam sa kanila. And now there's this someone na ganon lang naman pala talaga siya. Nauhulog tayo.

Alam yung feeling na normal naman sa kanila yun. Pero ikaw, ngayon mo lang kasi naramdaman yung ganung feelings kaya nafo-fall ka. If it is to fill the spaces of me Even if Thank you for all the TikTok people who's subscribing to my live stream Can everybody repost? Everybody repost this live stream and everybody share sa mga friends nyo. Let's bring back our engagements dito. Dito sa account na to.

Maraming salamat, Chels. Maraming salamat, Jay. Thank you, thank you po for subscribing. Thank you for the reasons of subscribe, Shay. Maraming thank you. Alam mo, yung merong mga nakikinig ng podcast ko, umagang umaga, itatag nila ako, boss. Boss, aga naman ano na to. Ano to breakfast namin? Sino ba naman kasing may sabing pakinggan nyo to ng pagkagising nyo? Grabe naman kasi yan. Pagkagising na pagkagising. Usually, yung mga nakikinig dito.

pampaantok nila. Or pag nag-work, pag nag-aaral, pag nagre-review, pag may ginagawa. Yung iba pagkagising habang nagbe-breakfast. Talaga naman. Talaga nga naman, almusal mo, relapse ka. Almusal mo, makakarinig ka ng... Pinalaya kita kahit hindi pa ako handa. Sus!

But anyway, here's our second story. The space is in his arms Cause I know that Deep in your heart There's a little space for me I saw it when I looked in your eyes. In your smile. Alam mo, naghahanap ako ng ano eh. Swak na swak na na music dito. Pero... Pero meron akong isang song na very very close to my heart. Kasi ito yung mga tugtog noon na pinapakinggan ko. Back.

back ano ba ito ano yung year ito? 2020? 2021? Noong mga panahon nagsistart pa lang ako sa podcast. And hopefully mahanap ko siya kasi feeling ko hindi ko siya nakikita ngayon. Pag di ko siya nakita, ito, ito siya. So, this person said, Hi, Kuya Will. Medyo hesitant po akong ikuha yung toto. Pero siguro, Bahagi na rin ito ng moving on process ko. So, eto na. Isang gabi, habang nagpo-post ako ng IG story gamit yung template, may napansin akong profile sa mga nagstory na bago sa akin.

Out of curiosity, chinek ko yung profile. Simple. Maganda. May dating. Then ilang minuto lang, nag-follow siya sa akin. Bilang isang torpe, Bihira ako mag first move. Pero may kung anong kumalabit sa akin na subukan mo kaya. So nag-reply ako sa story niya. Doon nagsimula ang lahat. Simpleng usapan lang nung una, pero araw-araw kaming nagchat-chat. May mga gabi pa na nagpapakiramdaman kung sino ang magla last message. Tawa, asaran, kwentuhan.

Lahat ng yun naging parte ng routine ko. Habang tumatagal, akala ko may something. Pero eventually, napansin ko rin lumalamig siya. Yung dating mabilis mag-reply naging scene zone, Yung dating sweet naging dry. Hanggang sa dumating yung November. Ngiti na lang yung naging usapan namin. Pero kahit wala na. Hindi pa rin ako completely nakabitaw. Pinlano ko pa rin siyang sorpresahin sa birthday niya sa February. Nag-ipon ako three weeks ng allowance. Walang labis, walang kulang.

Nakaipon ako ng 3.5k para sa pamasahe, cake at regalo. Handa na sana akong bumiyahing papuntang Laguna kahit hindi naman ako sigurado kung may chance pa. Tas isang araw. Habang nagsuscroll ako sa IG, ayun, soft launch. May guy sa story niya. Walang caption, pero sapat na yung larawan para maintindihan ko. Wala akong karapatan magselos kasi never ko naman inamin yung nararangdaman ko. Pero ang sakit, lalo na at alam ko sa sarili ko, sa katangahan ko rin yun. Isa rin ako sa dahilan.

Kung bakit ko napakawalan yung taong gusto ko. Kung sa'no naging totoo ko sa nararamdaman ko. Kung sa'na nagsabi ako ng maaga. Pero di ko nagawa. Pinili kong manahimik. Kaya kailangan ko rin tanggapin. Minsan, akala natin may time pa. Akala natin safe pa. Pag hindi natin sinasabi. Pero sa dulo tayo rin pala yung magmumukhang talo. Pero lesson learned, na hindi lahat ng gusto mo, makukuha mo. At minsan, ang pagmamahal.

Kailangan din sabayan ng tapang. Hindi sapat yung effort kung hindi mo rin kayang ipaglaban. Ngayon, tinanggap ko na lang na hindi siya yung para sa akin. At kung dumating man ulit, yung pagkakataon na may dumating na bago. Sana this time, hindi ko napalampasin. Baka hindi ikaw ang para sa kanya. Hindi dahil kulang ka, kundi dahil sobra ka. para sa isang taong hindi marunong tumanggap ng buo.

It's just so hard when you're all I desire I just want all of you, trust me I know That we'll be fine, we'll be fine I just want all of you, trust me, I know that we'll be fine We'll be fine I just want all of you, trust me, I know that we'll be fine

Bumabalagbag na naman. Bumabalagbag na naman. Pangilan pa lang to? Pangalawa pa lang to, diba? Maraming salamat nga pala sa mga nag-sub sa atin ngayon. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Man. Kung di pa kayo nakasub, please subscribe to this live. Ayan. Tinan natin kung mayroong magsasub na next. Ayan. Thank you, Chels. Shoutout. Shoutout sa'yo. Lil Anxiety. Hello, hello, hello. And welcome, welcome to my live. Please repost.

Ay, baka nakuha na yung mga free subs kanina. Ayan, baka nakuha na yung free subs. Kaso ano yun? In-off, in-off. Ano yun? Na-off ko yun dati eh. Kasi, tawag doon, seven day ano siya. Akala nung iba, tuloy-tuloy. Kaya, kaya in-off ko siya. Pero ayun, thank you, thank you sa mga nagsasub sa atin. Wait lang. Magpo-pause ako sa main account ko lang na naka-live tayo ngayon. Kasi nga, baka akala nila, nandun pa rin tayo. So, po-pause tayo.

kasama kayo. Hi guys, we're currently live dito sa account na to, sa second account ko. We're currently live and streaming episode 26, part 2 on Spotify. There you go. We're live. We have 1.3k here and then there's our main camera. Let's go. Let's go guys. Pause natin, pause natin guys. Ayan, maraming salamat sa mga nagpo-follow, sa mga nagsasab. Thank you also sa mga nagsasend ng gifts natin dito.

dito sa TikTok. Maraming maraming salamat po. Let's go guys. Let's go, let's go, let's go. Ano palang tayo ngayon ah? Second story palang tayo mga boss. Let me just post this. And we're going to go. Thank you sa mga sub. Thank you sa mga sub, guys. Anyway, here's our third story. Continue reposting and sharing the live. After this, magre-re-live naman tayo for our... relapse life kahit sa glit. Ayan. Let's go. Third story of the night.

Will this get too hard? Will we even get far? Will our words suffice? the downside Nakatawa. I mean, hindi nakatawa yung mga stories. Kasi masasakit sila. Pero nakatawa to the point na grabe. Grabe yung mga lessons na nakukuha natin. Ayan. Here's our third story. And let's go continue subscribing to our TikTok live. Subscribe lang kayo. Let's go. So this person said, Hi Will. You see?

When I met her, it wasn't even anything grand. Walang fireworks, walang cinematic moment. But there was something. Something I couldn't explain. Parang ang tahimik ng mundo pero biglang may ingay na dumating. At siya yun. It was like everything inside me recognized her before my mind even had the chance to understand what was happening. Mabilis akong ma-attach. Mabilis akong na-attach. Mabilis akong nahuglog. And before I knew it, I was already building a world with her in it. In my head.

In my heart. In every quiet hope I had. Yung mga simpleng plano. San kami kakain sa weekend. Anong gift ang ibibigay ko sa birthday niya. Hanggang sa mga malalaking bagay. Gaya ng saan kami titira, paano ko siya papakasalan? She became my present and I wanted her to be my future. We were on the same boat but we were very different more so. Incompatible beings. Pero kahit ganun, pinilit ko. Pinilit ko kasi mahal ko siya. I loved her in the way I knew how. Fully. Completely.

Even if clumsily, minahal ko siya sa paraang alam ko, sa paraan na akala ko sapat. I believed love could fix things. I believed effort would be enough. I believed... We would make it. You didn't mean to hurt me. Or maybe you did, in ways you didn't understand. I kept handing you pieces of me, hoping you'd recognize them. But you just took and took and I let you. Thinking love was supposed to hurt a little. But it kept hurting a lot. I gave her all of me. Lahat ng oras ko.

Lahat ng lakas ko. Lahat ng pagmamahal ko. Everything I had, I placed in her hands. Trusting. Hoping. Pero habang lumilipas yung mga buwan, unti-unti ako nagubos. Parang sinusubukan kong punuin siya habang ako mismo yung nauubos. And I didn't complain. Because love is sacrifice, right? But maybe I forgot that sacrifice shouldn't cost you or your soul. Pero kahit ganun, hindi ko siya sinisisi. Kasi totoo, may mga araw na masaya kami. Still, I can't deny...

There were soft mornings, half-laughed secrets, the kind of silence that felt like safety. For a while, we were something. Not everything, not forever, but something real enough to miss. And that's what made it so hard. Because for a moment in time, we were real. I saw her in everything. Sa bawat kanta. Sa bawat lugar na napuntahan namin.

Sa bawat gabi na tinatawanan namin ang pagod ng araw, she was in the little things, in the routines, in the quiet. Pero masakit kasi habang ako lumalalim, siyapat. May mga pagkakataong nararamdaman ko ng hindi na kami pareho ng nararamdaman. Pero ako pa rin yung kapit ng kapit. Ako pa rin yung kumakapit sa alaala ng tayo. I kept holding on to the version of her that once loved me, even when that version slowly faded. Hanggang sa iniwan niya ako. Hindi biglaan, pero ramdam ko.

Kasi minsan, hindi naman kailangan ng salita para malaman mong tapos na. Ramdam mo yan sa lamig ng yakap, sa distansya ng tingin. Sa katahimikan ng dating maingay na puso. Some goodbyes don't come with words. Just absence. I don't hate you. I just wish we had known better. Or maybe I wish I had loved myself enough to know when to stop choosing you over me. And that's where I failed the most. Sa sarili ko.

sa pagmamahal ko sa sarili ko. I gave so much of me to her that I forgot to leave some for myself. Kasi sobra ako nagmahal. Nakalimutan kong mahalin din yung sarili ko. Kala ko kasi sapat na ako lang yung lalaban. Kala ko kasi kung buo ang loob ko, kakayanin kong buuin. But love, real love, should never mean losing yourself in the process.

Pero di pala ganun. Minsan kahit mahal mo pa, kailangan mong bumitaw. Kahit umaasa ka pa, kailangan mong magising. Kasi minsan, loving someone also means knowing when to let go. Even when every part of you wants to stay. But for a while, it was nice, wasn't it? Just not enough to stay because I wasn't the one who will be in your endings. Just someone who I shared my memories with. Mabilis ako na in love. Bilis. Pero ang paglimot, ang tagal. Grabe sobrang tagal.

Parang sugat na ayaw matuyo. A wound that scabs over only to open again with every memory, every scent, every place we once called ours. Pero araw-araw pinipilit ko. Araw-araw tinitiis ko yung sakit. Para bahalang araw, kaya ko na ngumitin nang di siya naiisip. There are days I still look for her in crowds. May mga gabing napapaginipan ko pa rin siya.

Sometimes, I still reach for my phone only to remember wala na akong pwedeng tawagan. Hindi ko alam kung saan siya ngayon. Hindi ko na rin alam kung iniisip niya pa ako minsan. Pero kung sakaling marinig niya to, Sana masaya na siya. Sana natagpuan niya na yung hinahanap niya. Kahit hindi ako yun. At ako, ang tututo. Dahan-dahan.

Paunti-unti. Hindi pa buo pero umaasa. I'm learning to breathe again without her name in every breath. I'm learning to walk again without tracing the steps we used to take together. Maybe someday, I'll be able to say, I'm okay. And finally mean it. But until then, I take it one day. Just to fill the spaces in his arms Cause I know that Deep in your heart there's a little

Anong I'm learning to breathe again without your breath? Anong without your breath? Ito namang PA ko, mali pa ng pinipin dito sa TikTok eh. Hindi your breath yun. Without her name in every breath. Anong yung sabihin nun? Hindi breath be. Hindi hindi hihinga sa hininga niya be. Be naman. Be naman. Nag-i-emote na yung tao dito. Gaganyan ka eh. Nag-i-emote na dito eh.

Nag-e-emote na dito. Makikita nila sa Spotify na nag-e-emote na tayong lahat dito. Tapos sasabihin mo. I'm lir... Woo! Hirap. Hirap nito, boss. Boss, hirap to, man. Hirap to... Uy. Ayun, nagalit si Commander Nagre-record tayo sa Spotify, nagalit si Commander Ayan. Pang-ilang story na natin, guys? Pang-ilang story na natin? Pang-ilan na to? Pang-ilan na to? Third. Third pa lang pala. At parang ang dami ko nang nabasa. Parang napakadami ko nang nabasa. Third lang pala yun. No?

Guys, thank you Jake for subscribing. Thank you sa mga nagsasub sa atin. Meron na tayong pang 111 na sub. And syempre ito, shoutout sa'yo, Bullskate. We're live now on Spotify by the way guys. Hindi pala live na ako sa Spotify. This is live. And this is recorded. And everything here would be posted sa Spotify as episode 26 part 2. So, ayun. Shoutout sa inyo guys.

Thank you, thank you sa mga nagsasub sa atin, sa mga nagsasend ng gifts dito sa TikTok. We have our pang-111 na sub, si Jake. Sino kaya ang pang-112 natin? Hindi ko na, hindi ko na papatagalin. Ahm, eto na yung... Pwede mong minumunan ng tubig. Ang layo kasi ng tubig ko eh. After nitong... Wait lang. Iinom lang akong water. Okay? Pakibantayan yung feelings nyo. Mabilis lang, mabilis lang.

And continue reposting and sharing the live, guys. And this is our fourth story. So this person said, High Wheel Talks. I hope it gets picked or gets aired. We always meet over coffee. It felt innocent. Routine. A simple act. Sitting at our favorite spot on that quiet corner where the light came in just right. But now that I look back, I realize it was never just coffee.

It was the beginning of the end. It was where we slowly came undone, where love began to slip through the cracks of what we once thought was unbreakable. I get attached too easily. I always have. With her, it was no different. From the first cup, I was already imagining forever. I mistook comfort for connection. Silence for safety. And in those mornings, across warm mugs, I let myself fall too deep, too fast. We sat across from each other.

Holding porcelain like we were cradling something delicate. Maybe it was us. Maybe it was the last pieces of whatever we still had left. In the gentle noise of that cafe. In between the clinking spoons and soft music, I gave my heart away in teaspoons. Quietly. Slowly. Completely. Each coffee date became more than just caffeine. It became survival. A way to pretend. To believe we were still okay. That the silences weren't heavier.

That the glances still held love and not goodbye. I looked at her and kept wondering. Do you still see me the same way? I think she stopped long before I even noticed. She knew. Before I did. But I was already too deep. Too far gone to walk away. I remember the smallest things. The way she stirred sugar into her coffee.

Even though she always said she preferred it black. The way her eyes drifted to the window whenever the truth sat between us. Those little habits, they were the early warnings. The quiet flags waving. screaming that we were already fainting. But I kept holding on. Because I don't know how to let go. Because I always believe that if you love hard enough, it will be enough to make someone stay.

It wasn't just coffee. It was the only part of us we had left. Those stolen moments where we still looked like something real. The conversations we never had sat between us. Like steam rising. Fleeting, barely there. The warmth in our hands never reached our hearts anymore. But I kept showing up, hoping the next cup might fix what we refused to name. Do you remember our last time? We sat in silence. Coffee untouched. Words choking both of us. I looked at her and I knew...

This was it. We weren't falling apart in that cafe. We already had. That table just happened to be the place where we finally stopped pretending. No yelling. No dramatic exit. Just her walking away. And me, sitting there, with everything we were, cold and untouched in front of me. I thought I could fix us. Through routine. Through habit. I thought if I kept showing up,

If we kept going to the same places using the same words, maybe we could find our way back to the beginning. But you can't love someone into staying. You can't stir life back into something that's already gone cold. We tried. I know we did, but sometimes love ends not with a bang, but with a slow, quiet drifting. Like the last warmth from a coffee cup you forgot to drink. One day you wake up and realize it's gone.

I get attached quickly, but I stay too long. Even now, I find myself in that same cafe, sitting in the same spot, ordering the same drink, hoping for a different feeling. But it doesn't taste the same anymore. It hasn't for a long time. Because it was never about the coffee. It was about us. And how we tried to save something that was already gone.

It was the place where we fell in love too fast and the place where we slowly, painfully let each other go. You don't lose someone all at once. You lose them in the process. In the things you stop saying. In the smiles that no longer reach the eyes. And that's the kind of heartbreak that stays. The one you carry in the quiet mornings. In half-filled cups.

in the places you used to feel home. It's not just hard to move on. It's like trying to wake up from a dream you didn't want to end. Even now, I hold on to echoes. I replay moments. I remember tastes that no longer exist. I love too easily. And I forget too slowly. Because it was never just coffee. It was where I gave too much, too soon. And where I stayed far too long, trying to feel warm again. But hope, like coffee, only stays warm for so long.

Unang comment sa sender. May lig po ako magkape. Naka dalawang kape po ka sa isang araw. I love your story but please can you tell me your order and saan kafe yan para maiwasan. Kung pwede lang iwasan. I love your story. But, man, if I would experience that also, Pass, boss. I know I'm a coffee lover and sabi mo nga yung kanina, gusto niya black coffee. Pero alam mo, Gusto ko yung line na yun. Hindi mo siya, hindi siya, hindi nawawala yung tao sayo. Nang isang, isang iglap lang. Diba?

Nawawala siya sa poses. Nawawala siya dun sa mga salita na dating sinasabi niya. Ngayon di ninyo sinasabi sa'yo. Kung dati, lagi siya nag-I love you. Lagi siya nag-good morning. Lagi siya nag-good night. Kasi ngayon nababawasan. Kung yun dati, every time we're gonna say a joke, nakakatawa sa kanya. Kung gaano ka-corny ito, nakakatawa. Pero ngayon, nabubuisit na siya. Ngayon, irita na lang siya sa'yo.

Totoo yun. Totoo. I agree. Hindi sila nawawala ng isang bigla, ng isang bang, isang sakit. Nandun sila sa... Sa moment, sa gitna. Sa mga bagay na... Uy! Wala na ah. Oh! Oh! Oh! Na yan! Shhh! Uy! Anyway, maraming salamat sa mga nagpo-follow. We're currently 2.2k here on TikTok Live. Can everybody please follow this account? Dito na tayo magla-live. Dito na tayo magpo-post ng clips.

Yung isang account natin, pag mayroon tayong mga brands na lumapit, pag may mga official, super, super, super, super, super official will talks na need natin doon i-post. Pero... Pang matagalan na natin, ito ng account ang gagamitin natin. Papangalanan ko ito ng ano eh. At Will Talks Again. Ewan ko kung bakit hindi. Hindi siya Will Talks. Hindi ko pa lang siya mabago.

Pero papangalanan ko ito ng Will Talks again. And maraming salamat sa mga nagsasub ngayon. Okay? Continue, continue lang yan mga nagsasub para makapagano tayo. Okay? Anyway. Yun yung coffee story natin. Nakapagmatchan nalang bukas. Thank you for the gifts guys Thank you for the gifts Alam nyo, palung-palu itong podcast na naman ito. Diba dati nagre-request kayong mahaba na podcast?

Pang 51 minutes na natin ngayon. 51 minute mark. 51 minute mark na ngayon. Lagpas isang oras to aabutin so mag-enjoy kayo makinig ha. And thank you sa mga nagpo-follow, sa mga nagsisend ng gifts sa atin ulit. Maraming maraming salamat. And this is our pang-ilang story na natin guys. Pang-ilang story na. Thank you, Kyle, for subscribing. Pang-fourth ba? Pang-fifth? Pang-ila ba natin? Pang-ila natin to? Yung susunod natin? Pang-pang-fifth na? Pang-fifth na? Okay.

So here's our fifth story. Why does this have the same intro? But anyway, this person said, I'm the kind of person who falls fast. I always have been. Konting lambing. Konting tawa. counting kindness, and I'm all in. I don't pace myself. I don't test the waters. I dive. Head first. And with her, it was the deepest I've ever gone. I met her at a random gathering. Nothing special. Just a casual meet up with friends. Walang fireworks. Walang dramatic entrance. But I remember she laughed at a joke.

I wasn't even sure was funny. And just like that, I was hooked. There was something about her. Maybe it was the way she made everyone feel at ease. Or how she carried herself like the world never got too heavy. I don't even know exactly what it was. All I know is that night, I went home smiling like an idiot. Mabilis akong na-attach. I started texting her, making excuses just to talk, asking if she was free to hang out, offering rides kahit hindi naman malayo. I found myself

Thinking about her all the time. What she liked. What made her laugh. How her voice changed when she was tired. And in my mind, I was already building something. A version of us that hadn't even begun. But I guess that was my first mistake. Falling in love with the idea of her before even knowing if she wanted me to. We got close. She let me in. I was there when she had bad days, when she had wins, when she was just quiet and needed company. And I took that as a sign. I thought,

Maybe she's falling too. So I gave more. More of my time. More of my heart. Every gesture, every word I sent her way came with a piece of me. I was soft with her in a way I never was with anyone else. But she never made promises. She never said the words I wanted to hear. Still, I kept holding on. Convinced that love... My love was enough to make her stay. She started pulling away slowly. Late replies, missed hangouts, cold conversations.

And I kept brushing it off. Pagod lang siguro. Baka may pinagdadaanan. I made excuses for her because admitting the truth was harder than holding on to false hope. And then one day... One day she stopped showing up altogether. No goodbye. No explanation. Just silence. And I broke. I didn't just lose a girl. I lost a version of myself I had already tied to her. I had written her into every part of my life. Imagined birthdays, trips, anniversaries, lazy Sundays. She was...

in all of it. And now, I didn't know how to erase her without erasing parts of me too. Ang bilis ko kasing mahulog, pero ang hirap ko rin bumangon. Long after she left, I was still waking up, hoping she'd message. I was still playing the same songs, revisiting the same places, rereading old chats, looking for something I could hold on to kahit wala na talaga.

Every little thing reminded me of her. A scent, a laugh, a quiet evening. And what hurt more was knowing she probably wasn't thinking about me at all. Ako. Nandito pa rin, stuck in something that never even fully started. While she, she had already moved on. Ang hirap pala ng ganito. Yung ikaw lang yung nakatali. Ikaw lang hindi pa tapos. Yung habang sila nakahanap na ng bago. Ikaw, bit-bit pa rin yung dati. People kept telling me to forget her.

To move on. To man up. But they didn't see the way I loved. They didn't know how deep I went. They didn't understand how every version of my day had her in it. And now, everything felt empty. Some nights I'd still dream about her. Random moments. Sometimes we'd just be walking. Sometimes laughing. Sometimes just sitting in silence. But in those dreams...

She was there. And I'd wake up with that familiar ache in my chest. That heaviness that doesn't scream, but lingers. The kind that stays quiet but ruins her whole day. And even now, I still think of her. Not every day. Not like before. But in moments. In quiet ones. In the soft spaces between sleep and waking. She's still there.

I wish I could say I'm okay, that I have let go completely, but the truth is I'm still learning, still picking up the pieces I gave away too easily, still trying to unlove someone who never asked to be loved that deeply in the first place. I guess that's the curse of people like me. We give so much so fast and when it ends, we take forever to heal. Not because we're weak, but because we meant it.

So yeah, I fall fast. And I break slow. And loving her even if it wasn't returned was real to me. Maybe that's what makes it hurt the most. But one day... Maybe not today, not tomorrow, but someday, I'll wake up and it won't hurt anymore. I just hope that when that day comes, I'll still remember her kindly. And I'll finally love myself enough. to fall a little slower.

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Check lang kung nakikinig sila. But anyway, andito na tayo sa ating pang-ilang story na natin guys. Anyway, inom lang ang tupig. Pang-ilang story na natin. Pang-ilang na to. Pang 6 na itong babasahin ko. Tama. So, itong babasahin ko. Pang 6 na. Correct? So, second to the last. Second to the last story. And yung last story natin, same sender kanina kay Kofi. Ah, okay. Alright.

So this person said, Hi, you can call me Jing. This is my entry for mabilis ma-attach matagal mag-move on. It's about my first and greatest love. They say this combo is hard to forget. And I can say it's true. Because the communication might have stopped. but my heart remained attached and beating only for him. We met in 2017, but I'm mid-2025 and still not able to move on. I like to gaslight myself into thinking I only miss the memories made and not him. But who am I kidding? It's been 8 years.

and he is still the password to my everything. Heck, I dedicated every speeches, reports, and thesis to him and I plan to keep doing so. We were on and off for a year. then became long-term stranger since. I couldn't handle being in different religions with different traditions. It broke me after being told he's been arranged marriage with a girl

Who is their distant relative? Yes, he's a Muslim. My heart still aches thinking what we talked about for our future was fulfilled. But I, the woman he promised those things to... wasn't the woman he accomplished it with. I am heartbroken for what our five kids could have been. Stuck thinking whether our jeans together would look good. Or if he accomplished becoming a doctor, like how I am now a lawyer. I used to think what we had was forever. But reality?

has its twisted way of waking me up from my delusions. If you were to ask me, yes I am still single, maybe denial of the fact that he's not coming back. We never had closure. Nor did we ever have the chance of talking things through. Isn't it funny how I planned to be wed to him as soon as I turned 26? I'm now 31. And he's married with two kids with the woman I least expected him to be with. My friend. Who introduced me to him.

If you are in the same situation as me, I am here for you. Moving on may not be easy, but it's necessary. It may not seem fair to us, but God is good. even in our toughest times. Love and greetings, Jamie. Jing, ang sakit mo na. Nakatuluyan niya. Yung nag-introduce sayo sa kanya. Which is yung ka... Kaibigan mo. Tapos sakto ang tanong ko kanina. Ang tanong ko kanina, sino yung kasama mo na bumuo o sino na yung kasama niya na bumuo na mga plano niyong dalawa? Sinagot mo, Jing. Jing, sinagot mo.

At alam nyo guys, kaya sakto kasi hindi ko binabasa yung stories. Okay? First time ko rin nababasa itong mga stories. Kasama kayo. Ang unang mga nagbabasa lang yan, yung dalawakong assistant. Si Alia tsaka si Mia. Jing sinagot mo eh. O eh. Ito na men. Ito na yung last story natin. Ito na. Ito na ang last story guys. Okay? It's your time. Ito na ang time para mag-sub, para mag-re-post, para mag-share, para mag-follow, para mag-like. Ito na ang last story ng episode 26, part 2, Mabilis Ma-Attach.

Matagal magmoon. Or does the moonlight shine on Paris? o Alam mo, excited ako and at the same time, kinakabahan dito sa story na babasahin natin. Kasi feeling ko! Feeling ko! Feeling ko! Masakit ba yung susunod? Hindi ko talaga alam. It's my first time reading it also. At hindi ko napapatagalin. Here is our last story for episode 26, part 2 ng Mabilis Ma-Attach. Matagal mag move on.

You see, I fell in love with her. Not just a little crush. Not just a fling. I fell deep. Like the kind of love that makes your chest ache. That makes you smile at nothing. That makes you believe in forever. We weren't even official. At least not in the way the world calls official. She told me she was single, that she was free, available, and that she wanted to be with me. For months, I believed her completely. I trusted her with everything I had.

My time, my heart, my hopes. She was this bright light in my life. The one I thought was meant for me. We spent nights talking about... Dreams. Laughing until our sides hurt. Sharing secrets no one else knew. She would send me good morning texts. Call me just to hear my voice. Hold my hand like I was the only one who mattered. She gave me little pieces of herself. The way she smiled. The way she got shy around me. The way she made me feel like I was enough.

I was so attached to her, Will. It happened so fast but felt so real. Like she was my whole world wrapped in one person. I remember the first time she said, I like you. It was so casual, like it was no big deal. But for me, that moment was everything. I wanted to freeze time right there. I wanted to remember that look in her eyes forever.

The way they sparkled, like she was seeing me for who I really was. From that day on, I found myself waiting for every message, every call, every sign that she was thinking of me. I even started imagining a future. Simple things like Sunday mornings together, sharing coffee, laughing at inside jokes only we understood. Every time I saw her, my heart would raise. I could, I would catch myself.

Staring at her when she wasn't looking, she made me feel alive again. Like I was important. Like I mattered. Even though we weren't official. She gave me more than anyone ever had. Little surprises, silly gifts, stories about her day. She made me feel like I was the only one who knew her. The only one who understood her. But all those beautiful moments were built on a life. One night, out of nowhere, she said something that shattered me in a way I didn't even know was possible.

She told me, I'm not really yours. I was never really yours. Those words hit me harder than any fight or argument. Ever could. I asked her why she said those things. Why she made me feel all those things even if she didn't mean it. She didn't answer. She just left me there. Holding on to a love that wasn't mine to keep. Turns out, she was already engaged to someone else. Engaged. While she was telling me she was single.

While she was making me believe in a future that never existed, she was preparing to marry another man. And I was just a secret, a comfort, a maybe when it suited her. I remember the night I found out. I was scrolling through social media when I saw a picture of her smiling so happily next to another man. The man she was gonna marry. My stomach dropped.

i felt like the air was sucked out of the room how could she how could she live two lives at once how could she smile at me and plan a future with someone else I called her. My voice shaking. Trying to understand. She told me that she never wanted to hurt me. That things were complicated. But those words didn't help. They only made the pain worse. Because for months, I gave her everything. My trust, my heart, my time. I loved her like she was mine.

How do you explain to someone that you have been attached so deeply to a person who wasn't even yours? That every memory you have is now just a cruel reminder of what could never be. How do you move on when the person you loved gave you so many reasons to stay? Every little thing now reminds me of her. The scent of her perfume, the songs she loved, even the way the sun sets at the time we used to talk, I'm stuck.

I'm attached to someone who's already gone. Someone who's about to start a new life without me. Some nights, I still hear her voice in my head. Calling me. Laughing. I wake up hoping it was just a dream. But she's still there. But then the silence hits. And I remember the truth. She's with someone else. And I'm here. left holding pieces of a love that was never mine. It's hard, Will. It's so damn hard. I don't know how to stop loving someone who's already gone. I don't know...

how to heal from something that wasn't real but felt more real than anything else in my life. I'm stuck in this place between love and heartbreak, between hope and reality. I keep asking myself what I did wrong. Was I not enough? Did she never really want me? Was I just a convenience? Something to feel the loneliness before she walked down the aisle with someone else? These questions haunt me every day. And the worst part is... She left me with memories and feelings that won't just disappear.

Pwede pos, kasi masakit yung last and tumatahol yung aso ko dito. Ba't pati kayo nasasaktan dyan? Oy! Oy! Mamaya na kayo magtahulan. Andito na kami. Ito na'y dulo. Okay? Kalma. I keep asking myself what I did wrong. Was I not enough? Did she never really want me? Was I just a convenience, something to fill the loneliness before she walked down the aisle with someone else?

These questions haunt me every day. And the worst part is, she left me with memories and feelings that won't just disappear. They cling to me like shadows I can't shake off. The attachment is so strong that every step forward feels like two steps back. Every time I try to let go, my heart pulls me right back in. I don't have the answers yet, Will.

I don't know how to move on from this. But maybe telling this story is the first step. Maybe letting the pain out will make it a little lighter. For now, I'm just trying to survive. Day by day, moment by moment, holding on to the hope that someday, somehow, I'll find peace again. But for now, I'm just a guy who loved too hard. Who believed in the love that was never really his?

We'll be fine. We'll be fine. And all of the light we're missing. Well, thanks to the sun's indifference. Tara, Fortnite? Valorant? Ganun, laro tayo? Laroon na lang tayo, guys. Tara, Fortnite. Takbo-takbo lang tayo. Baril-barilan lang. Tara? G, Fortnite tayo? Men, meron pa bang ibibigat na yung taong nagparamdam sa'yo? Yung taong nandyan lagi sa tabi mo. Magsisimula na pala ng buhay kasama yung ibang tao. Sinagot nyo na naman yung tanong ko na sa lahat ng plano nyo.

Sa lahat ng plano mo, sino yung kasama niyang bumuo nito? And anyway, that's our episode 26. Mabilis ma-attach. Matagal mag-move on. Thank you for all the people who streamed. For all the TikTok people and Spotify people. Nababahing na ako. Pero thank you. And by the way, sa mga hindi may kilala sa akin for people who are listening to this.

to this talk, to this show for the first time. Hi, I'm Will. And this is Will Talks. Here, we are raw. We are unfiltered. We say what we wanna say. If it hurts, it hurts. We don't have to pretend. Yan ang at merong Will Talks. I'll do my best to make you feel na meron kang kasama na hindi ka nag-iisa. And thank you for listening. Thank you for streaming. For the TikTok people, mag-re-re-live ako. Mag-re-relapse live tayo ulit, okay?

Babawiin natin ang engagement sa account na to. So everyone, please follow this account. Pretty, pretty please. Thank you so much. And that has been episode 26. And I hope to see you on the next episode. Kung nakinig kayo kanina, Kung nakinig kayo ng buo, alam nyo na kung ano ang episode 27. Welcome home everyone. And all of the light were missing. Well, thanks to the shunting.