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could use still lose twenty I was. I texted my spray tan girler to day and I I don't really get spray tanned a lot. I mean maybe like once every like I mean in the wintertime, maybe like once every three months. Well, you're naturally like golden. I have like a little all of yeah, a little, but I kind of wanted to look like the filter I usually use, which is red dro gamly me tap twice, tap twice.

So I um, I basically texted her. But yesterday was like this like crazy insane monsoon in in Nashville with like seventy mile winds, and she texted me and she's like, hey, you know, I means school got off early. I had to pick up Jace early from school. And she's write you here or away here, Okay, I'm here. So she works at Gilpin but then she like dis bratain on

the side, so she um she came over here. But it was funny because I'm like she texted me, She's like, hey, I'm getting off work early, like I can come to you earlier. And I'm like looking out the window and it was like the scene in Devil Worse brought uct like my boat or and where it's like, oh, it's

just a little drizzle, fine, everything's fine. So I was like, okay, I kind of wanted to do the Devil Worse product where I'm like it's no big deal, it's just a little drizzle cut too, and I'm like no, like I'll be like hey girl, and I said, I said, hey girl, like it's all fine, Like don't worry about it. I'll just you know, let's just reschedule like to next week or whatever. When you saw her parking in your driveway looking kind but also come on inside, go ahead quick.

But she texts and she's like, no, seriously, no worries at all, So I was like, okay there, and then when she came in, it was like the door like swung. I mean, it was like at the heat of like the eye of the storm. It's like her freaking like her spray tand like she come in like a bear shoe literally, and I was just like, oh my god, I'm so sorry. She goes it's fine, just a little drizzle, and I'm like, oh my god, devil worse brought up. So she felt it, I know. I was like, why

can't you just get out? But fun fact, we spray tan each other at my house. You and your husband. We bought the whole set up, like the tent and everything. Tell me you're married to an artist without telling me you're married to an artist. Christ And is married to Um one of the low cash boys Preston and stop he does not the one with the least amount of pigment that needs a spray tan often spray together. Yeah, I don't know why. I think that's so funny. Everybody does.

I already got for a second ago, do I ever just stop for a second? I do. Actually, Um, I like to call it no tan line lion tan and oh my god, wait, he does it again. Oh that's right, yeah, because most guys wear like a sock or something. Actually, I want to make him start wearing it because Mike would always like when he would get spray tanned by Lacy, he would wear his boxers or so I thought. Dramatic

clause dramatic was he wearing a sock? But Lacy said that, She's like, oh, I've seen balls, and I'm like really, I was like, what do you like. She's like, I mean, it's like, you know, it is what it is whatever. But I'm like that would be weird, like spray tanning like an elephant trunk. Anyways, I got tired of making a call to our girl all the time and saying like, hey,

can you come over tonight? Last minute? Because Preston is a little last minute It's part of his sweet So I was like, you know what, We're just gonna pop a ten up in the bathroom whenever you need it. And I feel like I'm mastering it. It's like, if you can spray paint something, you can spray paint a person. And how does he do for you? Well? Tv D in about eight hours. But my feet are a little aggressive. Look at my hands right now working out the kinks. Um, yeah,

that's interesting. So if you ever an emergency and not in a monsoon, I can bring my business to your bathroom. How that's good to know. You should start like a little mobile service. Hard past socks included a logo tube sock, a logo tooth sock, a logo a logo tubes. Oh my god, I can't god, you're so good for my soul. Christen. However, I need to laugh. You're just really good for my soul because I love you so aggressively. I had quite

the morning. Co Parenting is so hard, especially when they text you and say and by day, we mean to socmgate, go ahead, what time you dropping the kids off? What it's your day? Huh? Like It's what's hard is when your oldest kid is the one text you knew about what time you're you're dropping the kids off. It's like the control and the power. But I'm just like we're like you can ask for help. I can, absolutely, but like like it's just it's a so I just loathe

co parenting. It's very hard right now. If he was good at asking for help, though, we wouldn't be in this situation. I mean he hasn't times right, but for some reason something must be going on or needed control or needed to supply and whatever they call it. And I read a quote that said, you don't like all my narcissist uh posts, Well, I became educated, educated, enjoy my educated as when we're gonna protest, when we're going to use the word educator, enjoying my That's why I

keep you around. So we actually have Teddy Mellencamp today, which I'm really excited about. Um, so we're going to take a break and then get her on. Hell she's so hot, isn't she? How are you just so pretty? Yeah? You know, I got straight straight back from walking the kids to the bus right now. So really crushing? Do you have we have? Do you have? We're talking about self tanner? You see the self tanner on my hands. Do you do you spray tan as well? And would

you ever spray tan your husband? Um? I don't personally spray tan myself, but I do get sprayed tan and my husband has as well. No, it's okay, I mean so have both of my exit and so didn't And she she were talking about like she spray tans her husband. You guys. My husband is so alabaster that like, and he fooled me for the first two years with a spray tan that I actually thought he had a darker

skin tone. And then we gave I gave birth to these like super super super cream babies, and I was like, um, confused, And then he took a shower and and all my dreams, hopes and dreams went down the window. Ye, the window were down the dream we're today, Yeah we are because I couldn't even say educated. So there's that. It happens. Um, what's up girl? How's l A? L A is fine? I mean, it's a little bit bizarre, but it'll be like a hundred degrees and then the next day it's forty.

So we're just you know, we're going through it. But I feel happy about it. Are the kids still mess? They just yesterday was the first day that they don't have to wear masks outside and the playground. What I thought it was inside to know that I don't think that will be for a while. Unfortunately, my kids didn't even believe me. They're like, are you sure, mom, we can walk into school without I'm like, yes, you got.

If you're outside you don't have the map. They're like, we're just gonna put it here just to get I'm like, okay, what is your thoughts on it? I mean at this point, I was at the super Bowl and nobody had a mask on at the entire super Bowl. So now that we're sending our kids to school still with no mask, I mean I at first I was like all d up for it, But now that pretty much everybody else, the people that can actually really get sick from it, aren't wearing masks, then why are we making our kids

one thousand percent? There was a gift going around being like if the super Bowl can look like this, and then why are we sending And there was like twelve kids in a classroom with a mask on, like with like partitions, and like they can't. I mean, and now we're two years into it, which is crazy. How old are your babies? So I have a baby that's almost two, and then my son is seven, my daughter's nine, and then I have a stepdaughter that is thirteen. You're busy, Yeah,

we're busy. We are. We are in it. But my stepdaughter lives in Orange County and there's no masks. So it's just different than when she'll come to us. It's like we have to we can't even get into a restaurant. Yeah, all, it's just a big change between that forty five minute drive. Well, I yeah, I just I can't with the whole like hypocrisy of the super Bowl stuff and then like with the kids. I just I just think it's um, you know, it's just not fair when they can look like that

and then they still make kids. Which I mean I signed a thing where Jolie didn't have to. I mean Tennessee that that went out the window a long time ago. But um, and if if and knowing that it was like would harm my kids like I would one thousand percent or like or other people like of course, like I would be on board like when a hundred percent, but like not when like the super Bowl looked like it did in other places. I feel like in life,

we just all want a little consistency for everything. Yeah, Like I will follow the rule if it's make the rule the rule, the rule, the rule, the rule goes for everyone. Okay, that makes sense. I'm not going to throw up. I'm not the person that's going to throw it at the supermarket because they're asking me to wear

a mask, but it's not who I am. But at this point, I'm like, you know, my kids have been going to the same school for two years since the pandemic hal and like how many times has they have their friends been able to see there, you know, below their eyes? It makes me sad. Yeah, I don't even

talk about anymore. We're done. Next topic, Uh, what's the what's the like a not like a boundary, but like a what's the thing that, like you say in your house that like needs to be the same way, but then like you might be you might slide from it a little bit, but like you expect your husband to be. Does that make sense what I'm trying to say right now?

Like we're trying, we're both trying. What's rule that? Like I will be somebody that's like, you know, it's not great to bribe your kids with candy or snack or you know, like and then I'll catch myself to my son. I'll be like, fine, you can have that if you just you know, do your reading or whatever. So like I'll make these standards like boundaries, and then I'll go on them sometimes because well I get desperate. We're super

clean eaters in our house like crazy clean. But then once a month I do a slow roll through the drive through a taco bell and that's the place to go. So that feels a little hypocritical if I'm just being honest trying to think of what else. There's a lot of double standards for me, actually, Like I make a lot of rules for Preston that I am like, okay, you abide by that, and then while you're doing that, I'll be over here breaking it. I need to think

of something. Why do you do that? I mean, well, to keep order, to keep order, because if I break a rule, I'll go back and fix whatever it is. You know, Oh, is that the control? I don't know. If we're fasting from Hey, Teddy, we're fasting from control in February, that's how we're doing well. I don't know

that I could do that. I I when even recently, when I wasn't able to have my phone and do all the things and have all the things where I could control every little detail of my life, I had to compartmentalize and like live a new life because I'm such a control free Yeah, my lucky family their hashtag blast that's how I feel. But like isn't it Just like maybe all moms like we we we control because we do a really good job at it. Well. Also we all I think efficiency is hot to all of us.

So if we have control, then we have efficiency, We have boundaries, and we can keep things moving quickly or as quick as they can. Yeah. I think moms are either completely like like us, very controlling, or completely the opposite, like oh, whatever goes goes blah blah blah, and those most of the time aren't my mom's. Yeah that made my throat close. Actually, I'm like, this is stressing me out, this play a day, like, yeah, I'll be there some time between three and four thirty. No, No, now that's

Cramer for sure. What hey, you know what I'd like to say, I'm always on time, No, I know, minus a few times. I'm like two minutes late on the podcast. I know the people just rolled their eyes when I said that. Everybody that has their screen off right now it turns on. Just to give you the irall exactly. Um. No,

you're like you post Mike are more relaxed. Thank you with your scheduling, And I like it because it used to be like six thirty seven at your house and my hands would get sweaty, and I was like, oh, I know what's coming soon. It's gonna be like is everyone having the time sixty seven? Everyone get the hedge out of here. Yeah, like it's bedtime and um, you don't have to go home, but you can't stay here. Yeah,

figured out they do. We found our keys quick. I was like, all right, hey guys, then we just talk in your front yard for like forty five minute. You put your kids to God, it's like only eleven o'clock right now, Nashale and I need a glass of wine. I'm just really in it right now, y'all. You know, just figuring life out, figuring it out, just stealing anything else you'd like to share. Not with the class yet, okay, okay, um.

I had three glasses of wine last night and that was a big mistake because I'm forty and I don't know who I thought I was. So if it looks like I'm a teletubby on the struggle bus today, that's why stop Teddy, what's going on with you? But what are your your podcast in? What else are you done? I'm podcasting, doing all stuff all in you know, all of that's going well, I recently got out of the Celebrity Big Brother House. Were you with Chris Kirkpatrick? I was, Oh,

you guys are all in Nashville. Yeah, and he's flying back out because once you get evicted, then you still have to go back. We go back in next week on Tuesday and Wednesday. But Wednesday we vote who's going to be the winner between the final two? Why did you get voted out? I've always wanted to do a Big Brother? Was it so fun? Don't do it? Got it? Definitely?

Do it? Like it's something that you'll ever have this type of experience, you know in your life before like everything for eighteen days, everything is taken away from you. You're no phone breaks like us. I've never come home more appreciative from my life than after a Big Brother. You don't have TV, you can't read a book. The only thing you can do is play cards and listen to people tell the same stories over and over. How many times did Lamar talk about Cloe? All the times?

I actually feel like he's like it's like he just got that he messed up. The last is a slow learner. May it's like a while to get to the top. I mean, I think what the charming part about Lamar is he is so kind and like a good person, and he wants to do well and he believes in God, and there's all these great amazing things. But then there's like parts where you're like you're a grown man. You don't know how to clip your own fingernails. Are like you're poop in the bed, Like we've gotta we gotta

gotta focus, Like can we go back rewind? Did you say poop in the bed? Well, it was a shark. I don't know if I you know that's an appropriate word to say, but and I was in the bed next to them. Also, you don't sleep in bedrooms. You sleep in hallways. I slept in a hallway because I was one of the last ones to arrive. Okay, wait, so how do you get how do you get voted? I actually never really watched, so ultimately you're told, um, when you go in you I started like watching all

the seasons because I wanted to understand. And you don't want to be considered a threat, like you don't want to be considered strong mentally, physically anything when you arrive, because then they'll want to vote you out because the winner gets two hundred and fifty dollars. So you get a salary to be in the house, but the winner gets two hundred fifty. So my plan, which everybody had told me to do, is go in and do not

do well in the first competition. Well that's hard, right when you know you can do you get there and you're like, I can't. I have to like give it my all. And so I came in second behind the you FC fighter who was that. Her name's Mischa Tate, and she put me in a trokehold ones and I've never felt more fearm. She's like, tap out when you're ready. I was like, when you're in the same room with me, I want to tep out. I was um. But so right away she became head of household because she won.

I was second, and then her mission was to get me out of there. And so when your head of household, it means you're the only person that gets your own bathroom. You get your own room. And she was head of household for eleven days. And so you formed these alliances, and my alliance was was strong, but not as strong

as hers because she didn't athletes alliance. So like the Olympians were in there the you know whatever, And so they decided which I got booted out the worst way you could get booted out, which you can either get a veto, which means if you're put on the block, you can fight your way to get out, like you can win a competition and get out. They didn't do that. They didn't put me on the block. They backdoored me,

which means I could not compete to save myself. No dirty would They can make me like why don't you like me? And that would actually be the worst thing in the world for me to do. How many people are in the house, even I would like, aren't necessarily people liking you? Like the way. I can kind of get through it because I've been hated and liked. It's been all over the place, so I'm kind of used

to whatever it is. But where Misha was scared when she was like, Teddy, you have a very strong social game, like people like you in the house. You're getting along with people in the house, And I was like, and it's clear you don't you know definitely showed us who was boss, who did you got heads with the most? And if she was the boss, and why didn't people vote her out because you can't vote vote the head

of household out. So now what's happening is they keep doing it and her people and her alliances are Um, I mean the person I butted heads with the most, Okay, I was like the one that I'm the only one I know. No, he's fine, he's funny, like whatever. Um, he definitely played the game. Well. Um, I mean Toddrick watching the show back, he's my least favorite. Like, I'm like, that's his name is Toddrick Hall. He's a choreographer, dancer. Okay, I need to see this cast, but he was he

plays he plays pretty dirty. Um. But I never really got an argument with him. I could just see through him that he was very nebulous, I know, but then you start watching You're like, but then the only person I actually butted heads with, like I got an argument with was Todd Bridges. So who's that he was in different strokes. He was like yeah, yeah, and he was awesome. We had so much fun and I wasn't actually going to talk about it at all, but because the live

feeds hadn't started. But then he did the same thing he did to Cynthia as he did to me, so then I was like, well, now he's kind of showing his his true colors, like if he gets annoyed at you, he's gonna And that was a little much for me. So how long were you there? I was in quarantine for seven days and then I left on the twelfth day. In the house, but also, the house is not a house, it's a stage. It's a sound stage, and you literally have to live. Yeah, you can't go outside. What happens

when you go potty? Does everyone hear you? Yes, there's one toilet, so if you're head of household, you get your own toilet. But if not, then you like I had two other hallmates, Lamar and Toadrick, and then there's one toilet. There's two showers. You shower together with the men. With the men, it's like there you can You're still, Mike, You're still. It's there's cameras. You never speak to a human, it's a voice. It's like house guests, please wake up.

And you're like, what if you have like a panic attack, like I'm like feeling very claustrophobically. That's like a social experiment, like you you do like so that's why I had to become like compartmentalize in my life. People would ask me about my kids, and I'd be like, can we talk about something else, because I couldn't. I didn't want to talk about my kids or my husband or anything that made me think about how good my voice when

I'm not that's crazy. Yeah, do you ever listen to your dad's saying by the way you like in the kitchen, like Alexa play dad. I don't necessarily ask to play him. But it's one of those things where I think, I don't know if it's just it happens in the universe, but I'll like, go into a restaurant and it's a song. Yeah, what's your favorite song of this? I love so many songs, but I tend to love you know, use it. That's a little bit sad. I don't know why. So he

has a song called Jackie Brown. What you guys probably haven't even heard it, but it's such a beautifully written song, and you like, if you want a good cry, let's listen to I'm ready adds to playlist Jackie Brown. But I mean, of course I love all of his his hits and everything like that, but he's just such a beautiful songwriter and such an amazing artist, like he's a painter as well, And I'm like, why didn't you give me any of those things? I can't. I don't even

have nice handwriting. That was gonna be my question, like did you get any of that? Do you have brothers and sisters? I should know that, but I don't. There's five of us, holy cow, five of us, three wives, so I have one full and then three halfs. So does anybody have that kind of musical talent? My brother Spec had the musical talent, but he went more in the art way, so he is like a beautiful painter. That's his and then all the rest of us. No. No. I. When I moved out to l A, I wanted to um.

I wanted to be the first Taylor Swift. But weirdly I don't agreed with Did you try? Do you think you can sing? Should we hit it? I have one demo guys from stock Are you serious? Have you put it on Instagram? I think I put it on once, but I mean it's do you want to repost it and tag us? I need? I'll send it to you guys and you can laugh about it later. Maybe you can do it since you have a nice voice. Only one of us has a nice voice. What? Um? Wait,

so your dad was married? How many times? Three? Is he still married? No? He was married three times. My mom was the second wife. She was Diane from Jack and Diane Video. And then um he married Elane or when he was with her for twenty years, and he was with Meg Ryan for eight years. And now he's I mean I think as of today, I think he's single. Really, um, do you how old is dad? How is dead? He just turned seventy. I'm here for seventy year olds? Do it?

Can I be here some mommy money with your track record? You? It could? It could potentially work, you know, never say never? Oh my god, that's so funny. Do you ever get like, hey, dad, like she's my age? Stop? Um? Well, everybody's always like are you his matchmaker? Because it was like all over the press that I would like set him up with people. I'm like, listen the way I handle it is if somebody's interested in him, I say like, don't hold me accountable.

Ice doesn't work out. So here's the info, y'all? Do you? But no? But really, how does it feel? A podcast with your new mom? Janet Creamer? I have so much to teach you. Teddy. I have a question. We're all doing family football games, Um over Christmas. Are you gonna cry if you're on the losing team, Because that's really how I get how it decides how I get along with that trick question. Jana is never on the losing team. I'm very comp We're going to call each other's eyes out.

So I mean that's what I have to be on a certain team because there are certain people that I will like, Can I be on your team? Though? Yeah, we can be. Well, if we're picked, I never get to be team captain. My dad's one team captain, which I cannot be on his team. We'll just tell him. He'll love me. He'll I'll be like, baby, don't let me be on your team. I don't know this is funny or fasting this. I'm like frightened. I'm like, this is now probably going to happen. Oh my god, it

made me for life. You're just as type. By the way, It's gonna make an awesome new Lifetime movie. Oh my goodness. Well, Teddy, I love you, and um, I'll see you soon at at Thanksgiving. See what the holidays. I'll just send him over your number. He'll text you in all caps but

it's not yelling. Doesn't realize we just went through this with my father in law and like, you're really screaming at me that you love me, and I appreciate it, but it's aggressive and I think can't see, Like my grandma does it too, and I think it's just capsock because they can't see. But it really takes some effort. Capsuck would call me is aggressive, like I'm like hi, Hi, or he'll he'll say like I just called you called me back and I'm like sorry, what He's like, I

just you know nothing. I just was calling to Chatam, like, well, you don't need to alert me. I saw them. Don't yell at me. You're yelling at me dad, speaking of Taylor Swift. You need to calm down. You're being too loud. Yeah, I can't see. She feels it. Still feels it blood. No, definitely not. I didn't get better at age forty. But thanks you guys so much. I love you. You're the sweetest. Thanks for the girl chat of course. Okay, I hope I see you soon, honey daughter, Okay, my daughter, I

love you. Sorry, guys, just come back from the break. Nothing to see here, nothing to see here? Because it it's so good. I don't want to think about it. I don't Okay, fine, it's just that I grew up in a you're doing really well with that feel like I'm on a musical adventure. Honey, get familiar with the holidays. She's great. I love her so much. Oh, she's a riot. She's so great. And the Housewives because she's just like, she's so cool. I've never watched an episode of Housewives ever,

no seasons, no cities, no nothing. I have to agree. Really, Yeah, do you think it's because we live I say, yeah, Well, they're all gifts. I use a lot of their gifts. Um, I think it's because we live in that kind of feeling we don't need to be. It gives me anxiety. I don't like it. It doesn't make me feel good. Um. But also then at the same point, I loved watching the Kardashians, and I will watch their new Hulu show. I love the Kardashians, but it's the same thing they

do people yell and but I mean not really. But I also just say family, I'll say this, they're so like out of my reach, like you could meet a housewife. I feel like we could meet a housewife. But I'm like, I feel like I'm still twenty people away from ever getting to a Kardashian. Oh my god, That's how I felt. When I was on the carpet at the God What Shows Up? I was interviewing. I was interviewing freaking Pink and I see Courtney and Chloe and I was like, like,

I was Pink, you just like stiff arm Pink. Like. I was like, that's what's wrong with this generation? Yeah, But I mean I love them. I think they're amazing and I'm still obsessed with them and I want to be their friend because they're like they're boss babes. Yeah, they're just making it happen and they're hot and their makeup is amazing. Hey, how was therapy there? And then I almost took because I was like, she's like, well,

you could have my therapy appointment. I did. I was like, you can have my one o'clock appointment if you're interested. It was incredible, incredible. We're doing E M. D R. And it's intense, but it's really good. Could I ask which topic you're doing? Um, we're in death. We have a lot. I had a lot of death last year, so we're just we're just going through them one at

a time. And it was really good. Um. I had been missing pam my dellous mom because it was one year on Valentine's Day that she had passed away, So I was just really missing I've been missing her extra and it was good because I felt like we This is gonna sound really crazy, but um, I felt like I got to like visit with her when I was in that room, and it was really good, really good. Amy is just beyond She's the best. Really ohe you well, it's the least I can do for everything that you've

given to me. So what have I done? Um? Yeah, no E M d R is incredible and his hopefully I'm sorry, I love you. That's so intense. It's interesting. She so if anybody hasn't done a M d are you like sit with headphones and you have these little like what do you call those things? Your hand buzz Yeah, And when she hands me the buzzers, I just feel so calm, and I'm like, can I have this at home? Or does that like cheapen the experience if I'm just

like buzzing at home, like holding the buzzers. I mean, if that's what calms you, there is an actual um she can give you the information because when I was in l A, we had done some UM over the whatever computer m d R doesn't work as well. But I think it's like if something that that's what calms you, it means people have those little remember those ball Chinese things that like our dad's used to have back in the day. I'm gonna need you to you don't know

what I'm talking about. Our Asian dad's Chinese lit the little thing when you like you could hear them like like that. There were like two balls. I wish people could see your hand. Come on, you know what I'm talking about, like metal Yeah, they were like someone please pull us up for me right now? The metal balls boy, here we go gets you on like creditor list or see these these ones are here too, like yes, right, you've never seen these. I feel like this is my

childhood and our childhoods were drastically different. And that's why I'm doing e. M D is my spray tan is my look at this right now? Ball? Do you guys remember this? Someone just please? Easton Riley Jacqueline, does anybody remember the balls? Everybody? Can you show your faces? Jan wants to show you a picture of She says, yes, I remember. Yes. Okay, good, so clearly, clearly I know what I'm getting for Christmas, the balls, the balls. Thank you. Okay.

I don't know how we got on the topic, but let's just go back to Oh it's good, all right. Anything else you want to talk about that's been brewing lately? Oh, there's a lot brewing. But what do we what do we sing? I'm a steeper. Um, I don't know, I don't know. I'm then are really you're coming up into this place? But like, forty feels different. And there's something that happens between like thirty eight and thirty nine that feels like and it's not This is not like midlife crisis,

I don't think. But there's a shift that's happening, for sure. And I don't know if it's because like everybody I know died last year minus the present people, or if it's forty or what, but I feel different. And I'm just feeling like I'm trying to pay attention and break my old patterns. Boy, do I feel that breaking patterns? Yeah. I'm really proud of you though, because I think you are breaking patterns. Actually I'm trying even in your response is two things, thank you mm hmm. I really mean it.

I wouldn't say it if I didn't mean it. You know that. I just feel like you're really assertive, but you're also just really calm. There's an empowerment you have. You just don't see it yet. You know what um Amy said in therapy the other day to me because we were talking about love. I love us, um because someone said something to me that really like shook me about abuse and I brought it into therapy And is this someone like a friend or like an instagrammer? Um,

it's someone like a friend, not me. Okay, um they said something about it and it just made me feel really icky. And can I know what the common is? If a girl can hit a guy, so if a girl can hit a guy, so can a guy? A guy can do it back? No, did you punch her in the face? Don't forget we're both from Michigan. Sometimes it sneaks out. I'm pretty aggressive on our group chat, on the queendom chat. I'm the one that's always like, you're gonna beat his ass and the right too much

do soon. But I remember, and that is a really horrible comment though, but I remember I was with someone I won't name which relationship this was, but they said equality. That doesn't that's not the same, that's not what equality is. But how can a girl so so this is like so then she was basically saying, was, well, so a

girl can hit a guy, but a guy can't. And so what I struggled with is that person in that time made me also believe that, and so I started so I was just like, no matter what, like hitting is not right, and we're going really dark right now, not dark, but like we're going I think it's we're going realistic, like, no matter what, physical violence is not

the answer ever, ever, ever, ever ever. And this is where like I was, like, I battle with myself sometimes because I'm like, there's also a difference between a woman fighting for herself and for protection, and so if she does hit a man, the men can really hurt the other person and they should just walk away. But then the man says, well, equality, you came at me. Yeah, so I just and I just took a therapy and I I don't know, it's just like really mess with me.

But a circle back. Why I brought that up is because in my thirty eight where I'm at thirty eight, I have two very different voices in my head. One voice don't forget to download the single go ahead, shameless love time, and I didn't get paid to say new single. The story I don't know. I like it no, but the I just I have to like I'm fighting with

two voices in my head. One which is the one where I'm like, well I did and it was my fault and like he I should have stayed and because like yeah, I technically did and you know, get in his face or you know, because I was protecting and he's right or so that's the one voice, the like the abused woman. And another part is the boss babe. We named her boss Babe in therapy there I like

her and Amy's like, what does boss Babe say? Boss Babe is like no man should ever well, first of all, violence never, but like never and like red flags, you'll leave you, you know, like you don't stick around, you like listen. So it's like I want to listen to more to boss Babe. So word to the wise, listen to your boss babe in you like bb v B baby.

Unfortunately the other ones I it allout her know, we're gonna cheering her, we're gonna grow her, we're gonna give her a U whole, and she's going to head on out. Christen Breast, um, let our listeners know where we can find you, Kristen dot Brast, I'm a ten, not a ten. K I s t Eaten breast doesn't trust on Instagram or you can find me in Janna Stories because she tags me a lot and I like it. Um anything else. No, I love your friend, thank you. Oh, I love you.

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