A listener note, this episode contains adult language and content. Chapter 8. Context. There's humming. Am I awake? The sausage. Now I'm having olfactory hallucinations. Fuck me. Kenna, wake up, baby. He's not real. He can't be real. He's not real. He's not here. This is not real. Babe, I made breakfast for you. Come on, it's gonna get cold. Wake up. Um, thank you. Can I ask you a question? Figment of my imagination? Sure. What's up?
How do I know that you're real? What do you mean? How do I know that you're really here? In my apartment. Right now. Kenna, of course I'm really here. Babe, what's going on? Apparently I'm seeing and hearing things that. Aren't real. What kind of things? And for how long? Can I just eat? And then I can talk to you in a little bit? Yeah, of course. Figment of my imagination kissed me on my forehead. Felt real. But so was that hug with Mia. Maybe it's real. Maybe not. I don't trust it.
Because if he is a hallucination, how do I get rid of him? How do I exit the simulation? Is there a secret door? Click your heels three times. How do you control all? Delete out of a nigga hallucination. Nigga-lation. Nigga-nug-lucination. Hallu-ha-loos-a nigga. Yes. How do you get rid of a hallucinating? Now there's music. It's too much. It's too much. It's a whole goddamn movie in my head. Scoring all.
Oh, okay. Let me just get in the shower. Maybe the water will help. How? I don't fucking know. I don't have the answer to Sway. I'm new here, okay? What I do know... is that thinking about it gives me anxiety. But on a positive note, at least the halluciniga is nice. Hey. Hey. Good shower? Yeah. Oh, here. I stepped on this. You should probably put it with the other one. The other what? It's an earring. I found it in your guest room.
Let me see. That's something I must have come out of your bag, young man. Oh, okay. Just throw it away. Wait. No, bring it back a second. That's, that's Mia's earring. Wait, so... Then that means you... You fucking bitch! Who? Mia? No, no, well, yeah, but no, oh my god, oh my god, you're not a hallucinigga! A what? Kenna, baby, what's going on? Jamie, we need to sit down. So I tell Jameson everything about my last encounter with Dr. Eli and how she tried to convince me that I was delusional.
I told him about my argument with Mia, how she blocked me on my phone and social media, and how Dr. Eli deleted my conversation with Mia and denied it in the series of coincidences that led me to believe Dr. Eli's story. I'd thrown that letter away with the Thai food and Mia did clean up after herself. And those weren't just my towels. She was here. And that earring proves that. She had me thinking I had lost...
My mind. Yo, that's high-key insane. And she's a licensed therapist? What's her name? I gotta look her up. Dr. Simone Eli. Damn. You gonna file a complaint? Hell yeah, I am. Like, who creates illnesses in their patients? Like, what is this? Some weird Munchausen by Proxy Gypsy Rose type shit? Did she think I wasn't gonna figure it out?
A therapist needing a therapist. God damn. You'd be surprised. Many of the people who get into this business are in it because they need it. Wait, is this her? Let me see. Are you kidding me? What now? This is wilder than I thought. There's more? Apparently so. Let me catch you up. So I hadn't told you because... We weren't talking, but Dr. Eli was helping me work through the harassment I've been experiencing online. Harassment by who do I need to? No, no, it's fine. Just hit me out. So.
You know, my social media pages basically blew up and the trolls have been a lot, like a lot, lot. Like think of the rudest, most obnoxious, inconsiderate thing you can say to someone and multiply that by a thousand. That's been my life. for the past few months. And I mean, yeah, sometimes you just ignore it, right? But some people will be doing the absolute most and then there are no repercussions. And that, that should be pissing me off.
But anyway, this one man, Winston, Dr. Eli, had me write this letter to him as an exercise. And I'm not going to even repeat to you the terrible names this man called me, but she asked me to process my feelings in this letter instead of asking them out or whatever, because...
I was trying to act them out and not in the comment section. You feel me? So nevertheless, I wrote the letter and detailed how I would hurt him. I hurt him. How so? Not like, not like physical harm, in kind harm. I wanted him fired. Wow. That's cold, Kenna. Well, that's nothing compared to what he said. But that man ain't deserved to be fired. You don't even know what he said. Regardless, that's not the point. Listen, the point is, here, look at this photo.
In the letter, I told Dr. Eli what I wanted to do to this man, Winston. But I had already done it. The house you're looking at on Dr. Eli's page, that's the house where Winston lives. That's Dr. Eli standing in front of that same house, arm in arm with a bunch of people at some family cookout, baby shower, whatever the hell. Winston is her fucking family. Shit, well.
I guess that means my plan worked because this bitch put the pieces together and tried to make me think I was delusional. Like, for real, boo, you could have just left it alone. Like, let that shit skate. You literally heard what I did to that man and thought she was going to... You almost had me, though. You almost got me. You did. Well played. Well played. Not completely thought out, but nice move on the board. Lesson learned for sure. Lesson learned. But the thing now is...
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