Hey guys, it's Kaylie Shore and this is too much to say, but it's turn it out you, Okay. So, first of all, I want to announce that over the next month long period, we're going to change the format of the podcast a little bit. We're gonna be doing one mini Soda week, so it'll be shorter episodes, um,
kind of just covering some some random topics. But basically, what I'm doing is taking a month long break from the podcast to work on some new episodes and get some special guests in and kind of dream up new ways to grow the podcast to the next level. So this is kind of like a mid series break, I guess, um,
but I want to come back stronger than ever. And I've found myself not able to put as much effort into the podcast recently because I've just been like doing it every single week versus setting myself up for success by doing several of the time and uh, just being
a little bit more prepared. And I'm so thankful to Bobby Bones and the Nationale Podcast Network and I Heart Radio for um, you know, having me have this podcast, and I just want to like show them how appreciative I am by working a little bit harder on it. So that's what the podcast will look like for the next month. So thank you guys for bearing with me during this transitional period. Moving to l A has been so so fun, but also you know, there's just so
much to do, and I've been jumping right in. I have a show on Friday. I'm really excited about it. Um. But also on the personal side of things, I had a really crazy week. Um my mom was hospitalized and she's never been in the best health, but we've never had a scare like that. And basically, like she just started she was super loopy, like at work, like my mom doesn't drink at all, she has maybe a glass
of wine with me a year. Um, and my aunt works with her and noticed that she was acting really weird and like I got the call and it sounded like she was having a stroke or something, but it ended up being Um, she's been pre diabetic for a while, but she went into uh keto acidosis, which is like when your blood sugar crazy spikes. So your blood sugar is supposed to be between one and one eighty and
hers was seven hundreds. So if she hadn't come into work despite not feeling well, UM and feeling a little bit loopy. She probably wouldn't be with us, so she gets UM out of the hospital today. But it's been really scary. And then on top of that, yesterday UM, one of my friends, Nolan Neil, passed away and some of you may know him. He's an incredible musician. Incredible doesn't even begin to cover it. UM. And he was
like the first person I ever met in Nashville. His son lives in UM around my hometown, and so I had a friend tell me that I had to meet him, and so my first trip to Nashville when I was seventeen, he let me come up during one of his rider's rounds and take a couple of his songs and play my own and they were not very good. My songs
really sucked then. And he was just a really special person. UM. He struggled with addiction, and for those of you who have loved an addict, you know that it changes them and it changes their personality and they don't end up being the person you know and love when they're using. And UM, Nolan and I got into several fights over the course of our professional relationship and friendship, and in like it was very like brother sister type of fights.
But you know, you, when you are close with an addict, you have to set boundaries with them, and that doesn't always feel great. I mean, I know this better than anybody with my sister, and yeah, so it's just been really hard. But I want to focus on the amazing things that he did in his life. Um, I don't think it's I prefer to instead of sitting around and talking about somebody died, I'd rather talk about how they lived. And so I just wanted to share with you guys
a little bit about Nolan if you don't know him. Um, I think I've told people this so many times over the years, but I really do think he's one of the most talented people I've ever encountered in my life. He's so gifted and struggled so much with so many
different things. His dad killed himself when he was growing up and that really affected him, and he's had so many chances at success, and his addiction has gotten in a way, and I just it was heartbreaking watching him and knowing that he could and should be a superstar and just kept struggling, and um, it's a really it's just a really sad feeling um to watch someone who has all the potential in the world and somehow not be able to beat their demons, and it just tells
you how brutal addiction is. And even when you have so much to live for, the demons can win. Um So anyway, So here's a quick bio about him. This is on the Taylor Guitar's website because he had an endorsement deal with them. Um Bigger than Life, captivating energy, and boundless talent are just a few ways you'll hear people describe Nolan Neil, while many no Nolan is a contestant on the hit NBC series The Voice and America's
Got Talent. The Nashville based artist is an accomplished singer, songwriter, musician, and producer who was literally born into music, the son of a professional drummer and a mother who made her living as a singer, Nolan's career started by playing the clubs in and around Nashville and as a street performer, playing for tips in his guitar case. After a producer heard him play, Nolan headed west to a record deal
with Hollywood Records in two thousand. During the next few years, No One was touring and writing with the band's tonics Saliva and Shined Down, among others. In two thousand and six, he signed with Virgin Records and continued touring and writing. Nolan changed paths, joining Hinders, the multi platinum group's lead singer. After a stint with Hinder, Nolan decided to explore his music and passions as an independent artist, and we released
his third independent project, Nashville l A and Fall. That's a little out of date, so there's some more to uh, what he was doing recently, but I just it's so sad, y'all. It's so freaking sad. And I want to leave you with some of his music to listen to. Um it's going to live on and UM. It's really the beautiful thing about music. And Nolan impacted so many people in his life, and he really did care so deeply about people, and it's just so hard to see that, like no
matter how much someone can love someone's they can't love himselves. Yeah, it's really hard on weeks like this when something happens, like when I do the podcast, because I just I'm not thinking about anything else. And my mom knew him too, so she was like, really sad, just crying in the hospital. It's just been a mess. But um, his performances on the Voice were amazing. He did he did this one. Uh,
it's he did two auditions. One was heated Tiny Dancer by Elton John and when he did Drive by Incuba and they're both just amazing, but his rendition of Tiny Dancers beyond incredible. Um. Then he has a song that he did on America's Got Talents called Send Me a Butterfly, and I think he wrote it, like I mean, over ten years ago. But he wrote it about his dad and about losing somebody, and the lyrics are just so beautiful and it's um, really heartbreaking, but really fitting because
it's UM. I think a lot of people will listen to this and think of Nolan now um in his own words. And I'm just gonna read you the lyrics to this. Um. Why do all the worst things happen to the best of us? And why does all the life God made just turn to us? Why the hell is there hell at all? And why would God let angels fall if they were created to fly? So if you're up there, could you ask him? Why send me a butterfly? And let it be the color of your eyes.
Show me a falling Star. The second that I'm wondering where you are, let me here our favorite song the next time I turn the radio on. If you're up there on the other side, send me a butterfly. So tell me why I had to be your time to go. If you're in a better place, and I've just got to know, are there angels where you are? Because where I am feeling so dark, I've never seen a black or night. So if you're up there where it's always light, send me a butterfly. I'm so tired of losing people
to addiction. I'm so tired of it, and I just don't feel so helpless because there's really not much you can do other than just love them and pray and just hope and stay positive. So your homework for this week is to go and less into sound of Nolan's music. One of my favorite songs of him of his ever is um love is Blind. It's such an incredible song. Um He released it last year, but I think he played it for me the first time in seventeen or something,
and it's just an incredible song. So go listen and watch him of his live performances because really that was just where he really, really really shined. Um. I'm sorry for the depressing episode. I just can't think of anything else. So again, the next couple of weeks we're gonna be doing many episodes while I revamped the podcast. Thank you guys for being loyal listeners, and thank you for dealing with the past few months where the podcast has just
been a little erratic. Um today being no exception. But I love you all, um, and I'm sending extra love to any of you who know this feeling and know what it's like to lose somebody pre addiction. I'm just sending you a really big hug. It doesn't get easier with time, um, but let's just remember how they lived in so that how they died. I'm Kaylie Shore and this is too much to say. Don't go asking questions. Soon I'll go to mus say now turn it out, you