I don't know about you, but I think last night might've been the worst night ever.
Words can describe. How tired I am.
What can describe it?
I can't hear. You asking too much of me already.
All right, so let's walk it back. Let's talk about what happened. Last night.
Okay. So Ron was very tired last night. So. No Allegedly this weekend, he was at. It was grandparents. He was going to bed at six 30. And sleeping in until seven. So at six 30 last night, I was like, well, let's give it a shot. So I take them to bed at six 30. Fell asleep. Very quickly. And then. And say A little after. a little before 10.
It's about nine 30.
Woke up. I went in there with them. And for a little while thought. He went back to bed, came back out. Probably around like 10. 30 ish. Two minutes later, he came, right. He came running. Into the living room. So I went back in. And. Probably around 1130. I came back out. He was still awake. So I was in there from probably like nine 30 to 1130. trying to get him to fall back asleep. And he wouldn't. Um, So that's when I tagged you in, I guess.
Yes. I went in around. 1130. And I was in there with him. About a half hour. Command. At first. Went in and waited with him and. He was upset. So I started to sing to him. And I was thinking. You are my sunshine. Over and over. All right. Again. As I stroked his hair. And rubbed his cheek. And at first. It started where he was sitting up. and he slowly laid back. And laid down. Started. I kept going. And at some point I felt like, okay, he's gone. I think he's asleep. And so I stopped.
About five seconds after I stopped. He grabbed my arm. and put it back on his head to keep rubbing his hair. And when I didn't immediately start to sing, he backhanded me He gave me a good bitch, slap. And, uh, Let me know to keep singing. So we went on for a little while longer and I kept singing and I mean, his hair. And it didn't end. And at some point I realized that he was twitching. Just twitching. Every time he would get Kami, Twitch, Twitch.
I thought, I think he has restless leg syndrome. He wasn't laying down. He wasn't sleeping. So I said, come on, let's go out to the living room. So I brought him out to the living room and. And I'm having his tablet for about an hour and he and I sat on the couch together, all snuggled up now. Having his tablet is the only way to get him to sit on the couch and not run around and be Babu and get into things. So I thought. I'll give him a little melatonin.
Because we use the melatonin when we need it. And so I gave him a melatonin. I figure it won't be long before he passes out on the couch. You know, maybe a change of scenery. We'll help. And around 1:00 AM. I said, all right, let's go back to bed. And I try to take him back in. I knew at this point. that candles was overdue for waking up. And wanting. Uh, nighttime. Exactly. Um, So I tagged you back in around one 15.
No, I wasn't asleep. Between those times. I was, I was on the couch. With the two of you. I had made him. Some chocolate milk and a cop. So I hadn't got any sleep by then. But yes. Then I went in there. And he screamed. And he cried. For quite a while because. he was very upset. Mommy left.
He was having a very good time with mommy. My mom's fun. Mom's fine. I don't know what to tell you.
Very rare, but. When she's fun, mom's there. She's there.
Oh, it's done that air. Come on.
Okay. Sure. Um,
That hurts, man.
Well, I mean, do you want me to be a liar? You want me to lie to you?
Listen, fun. Mom is too much to handle.
She, is. she caused the kids to go. crazy. I think last time. My fun mom made an appearance. Uh, we lost half of the bathtub water. To outside the best.
boys
Don't know how to handle fun, mom.
No, they do not. So it's best that fun mom only comes around once in awhile. Cause. They would lose their shit.
So. Um,
more than they already
he is screaming. He's crying. It's like one 15. You're one 30 in the morning.
Of course candles had woken up at that point. So I got candles out and I was feeding him, calming him down.
started to sing to him. And I was thinking twinkle, twinkle, little star. Repeatedly. 'cause I think there's only like two. And I don't know if I know the whole, the whole song. I only know, like the two parts. And that seemed to calm him down eventually. And he laid down. And then he would lay there. And. We just lay there and be quiet. And he'd start kicking me. his feet would be on me or. like he he'd flop
I think that's the restless legs syndrome.
I mean, he was just like flopping every which way. And then he be like,
there's a study that correlates. Restless leg syndrome and autism. So if he is diagnosed with autism, That would make
Well, then he would sit still for. Probably like 15 minutes, 15, 20 minutes. All right. We're getting somewhere. So I kind of peek in. Roll over. Check on him. He's awake. Okay. So then. You know, another 15, 20 minutes. We'd go by. All of our checking on, make sure I see how he's doing. Because I don't want to. I don't want to be in there. It's a twin size bed. Inside of this, like, Round. Um,
It is
I get claustrophobic sometimes.
It is a bed tent.
And it's just, there's not a lot of room for, he doesn't know how to share it properly. So you're giving me like a third of a twin sized bed.
Yeah. And all those pillows that you stole from our bed.
Well, because he will flop around and hit his head into the side of the wall. So I surround him with pillows. To break his. The fall, I guess. So he doesn't hit his head. Against the wall, which Still happens. I'm sure you can still hear it. Cause somehow. He like goes over top of them. We're gonna need like. foam. Wall.
Ooh, that's a good idea. Yeah.
He would not go to sleep. every time I checked out and he's awake and then, you know, At some point he gets a bowl and he's. like, I'm gonna leave. Fuck. Fuck this. And I'm like, no, come on, lay down. We're gonna go to bed. And then he would fight. And he he'd cry. And. It was like that. And the constant cycle. Until when you came in at, at six o'clock in the morning. And, uh, Then I, you know, I tagged you in it's like I would like to have sleep. This evening. This morning.
Um, so I'm going to go lay down. It's been a very long night. And I don't think either of us. I've slept. Any at all.
Yeah. So I woke up. I'm put candles. Swing around five 30. I'm gonna kinda. Settle back into sleep for awhile. He slept from five 30 to eight 30 in the swing. But, uh, came in. Because I heard him. And so I came in and it was a little bit before six. I came in and I said, all right, go to, go to battle. Tag back in. And. He laid on the floor and I thought he was passing out on the floor. The hardwood floor,
Which he's done before.
Yeah.
There's times where he's so tired, but he refuses to lay down. And he can't always open his bedroom door. So
I waited about 10 minutes. Thinking he was asleep on the hardwood floor. And then I tried to pick him up. And as soon as I bent down, he was like, huh. And looked up at me and that was that. Popped up off the floor, like mommy up. And I was like, oh, great. So. I realized he was not going to lay down. And I'd come on, let's go out to the living room. And then moments later. Runs door open. And as soon as Wren's door. Door
See, I was trying to lay down. our house. It's not big. So our bedroom.
Love grows best in small houses like
Which is a open floor. Like the living room. With a small hallway here. The boys' bedrooms are in the bathroom. It. So there's no whole lot of space. Uh, in between things. So I heard Renz door Creek. Open. I heard you guys. Uh, trying to get settled in. In the living room.
We did for about an hour. They sat on the couch with me.
I know. I was, I was laying there on the bed like. If it was just a little. quiet, I was just a little more
I did my best. I did
I know. I appreciate that you come in when you came in at six o'clock in the morning. I don't know if I can say this. It was like, I saw Jesus. I was saved. I was like, oh my savior. You're here. I can go to sleep.
The episode of bluey or. And the tickle crabs are getting dad and. I just need a half an hour on the
He had been waiting for his soulmate. The like the entire time. And eventually. She came through and saved the day. I need 30 minutes on the couch by.
Yeah, well,
I love you. And I appreciate you.
Um,
And I'm running on two hours of sleep today.
Well, This morning with her having coffee.
Yes, it's really is this morning. With her. Having some much needed coffee.
good morning. As you can tell candles. Has never been alone in his life. For more. than 10 minutes. So he's.
And Rowan just fed the dogs. His cereal.
Rowan feeds the dogs, everything. So. Probably shouldn't be surprised.
Yes. Well, he only likes the marshmallows. The lucky charms. The actual cereal. It's not so great. Apparently.
He also fed the dog some Play-Doh this morning to be fair. So. I thought it would be interesting. to record this morning. Amid the. Extra level. of exhaustion in chaos.
Those are two very accurate words. I don't know if I would have thought of them. because I'm so tired. but those are, those are pretty accurate. Not as extreme as they should be. But indeed. And exhaustion.
Giraffe night.
It was very rough. I feel very delirious. right now. Gonna need more coffee.
We are. Yeah, extra coffee day. We had an extra shot to our coffees. Is that. I think.
Can you do that? You just put it more coffee grounds. I don't know.
Yeah. I'm sure we can. Super strong.
Coffee. and my, uh, Almond creamer.
Which is strange. It's not something that I would think that you would consume.
It's not something I think I would either. I mean, I was hooked on the Dunkin creamer. For quite a while.
He never even drank coffee before you met me.
That's correct.
So my fault.
what 21. When I started drinking coffee because of you now. Consume like two to three cups every
single day.
I'm sure. that's that's. working out great. I'm sure it's healthy.
Coffee's good for you. Good for your heart.
Hey, everything's good for you. In moderation. I think that's the key.
I think they say up to like three cups of coffee is good. True. The day I can be
I don't.
I I
don't know who they are, but I believe them because it makes me feel better.
That's all you have to do, right. Just come up with your own facts. And I believe him.
Hi, like, I didn't say that. I ain't say I drink 10. And cups of coffee. I drink one cup of coffee. Who, who would you
talk to?
I didn't say nothing.
That's a big smile for a little boy that slept three hours. Since yesterday.